and it hurts because i love posting here so much

I love this fan fiction so much it hurts. It’s the reason I’m able to go about my day (since I always get updates in the morning) and is the reason I can sleep well at night.

If you haven’t read it, then check it out on and go check out @tsume-yuki here on tumblr because she posts chapter previews and other pretty fan arts from fans and everything about it is just UGH so good!

I’m not saying this as advertisement, by the way. I genuinely do love everything about this woman author and her writing. It just gives me life and the inspiration to draw. <333

anonymous asked:

Rfa and minor trio reacting to Smol MC that repeats herself until someone acknowledges what is said because they hate being ignored?

I relate to this too much rip. Anyway, I hope you enjoy! Seven’s is really long oops. Also, someone should request some angst because I need a reason to post some. I love angst omg


  • Yoosung was playing LOLOL
  • That’s all he seems to be doing lately
  • You wanted to have nice night in with him
  • So, you made dinner and dessert for you two
  • You set the table and went into your room
  • “Yoosung, dear, I made dinner for us”
  • He ignored you…
  • “Yoosung. I made dinner”
  • He ignored you again
  • You felt yourself get a little upset
  • “Yoosung… come eat. I made dinner for us…”
  • He still didn’t answer
  • You knew he could hear you 
  • “Yoosung please come eat.”
  • “I heard you the first ten times, MC”
  • He sounded annoyed
  • “But you didn’t answer…”
  • “Because I’m busy, I don’t have time”
  • “You’re playing LOLOL, you are not busy”
  • “Yes I am! This is important. I’ll eat later”
  • You felt yourself tear up
  • “I just wanted to spend time with you, Yoosung”
  • There was a crack in your voice which caused him to look up
  • “MC… I’m so sorry”
  • He took his headset off and turned off his PC
  • He walked towards you
  • “please don’t ignore me again…”


  • She was drinking coffee in her special spot
  • Her special spot was a little window seat in you two’s bedroom
  • Jaehee didn’t like when people would interrupt her while she was in her spot
  • You knew this, but you decided to go see her anyway
  • She never got mad at you
  • “Hey Jaehee, I bought some new coffee today!”
  • She didn’t even look up from her cup
  • You sat down across from her and smiled
  • “Would you like me to brew you a cup?”
  • Jaehee continued to not answer
  • You immediately got worried
  • Was she mad at you? 
  • “Jaehee, dear, do you want some of the coffee I just bought?”
  • She ignored you…
  • You thought through all the interactions you’ve had with her in the past twelve hours
  • You don’t remember doing anything bad
  • “… Would you like some of the coffee?”
  • She showed no signs of answering you 
  • Not even a nod or a dismissal with her hand 
  • “Jaehee… Do you want some of this coffee?”
  • You held up the bag you had just bought, hoping it’d get her attention
  • She took the bag out of your hand and looked at it
  • “Yes, I’d like a cup, please”
  • You look up at her, surprised to have her answer
  • “Y-you’re not mad at me?”
  • She shook her head
  • “I just wanted some peace and quiet. I’ve had a long day”
  • “I’m sorry, I just don’t like being ignored”
  • “I’m also sorry, MC. I didn’t mean to upset you”


  • Zen had went outside for a smoke 
  • You loved going out with him when he smoked
  • You two would always have deep conversations that would turn into you talking all night
  • You didn’t approve of him smoking, you just liked talking with him
  • He was very calm when he was smoking
  • You followed him outside to talk with him 
  • “Hey love”
  • You smiled up at him, wrapping your arms around his middle
  • You look up at him, expecting him to say something back
  • But he just stared at the moon as he took another drag
  • “Hey Zen”
  • He blew out the smoke, not even bothering to look at you
  • You started to get upset
  • Was he angry?
  • You kept yourself attached to him, hoping it’d draw some attention to you
  • He took more of the smoke in
  • “Zen, baby, hi”
  • Was he ignoring you?
  • “Zen… hello”
  • Zen blew the smoke out and watched it blow away
  • “Hyun… dear… hey”
  • He FINALLY looked down at you as he put his cigarette out in his ashtray 
  • “Yeah, Jagiya?”
  • You just stared at him, giving him a bewildered look
  • “What?”
  • “You just ignored me the whole time, and you suddenly answer me now? Where you mad at me or something?”
  • “Hmm? No, I just needed to think and sort my head out. I’ve had a long day at work”
  • “I don’t like being ignored… My parents used to do it all the time. I’m sorry”
  • “Oh jagi, I’m so sorry. I didn’t know”
  • He pulls you into a tight hug, kissing the top of your head
  • “Please just tell me the next time you want to be alone, don’t ignore me again” 


  • Jumin dragged you along to one of his business parties
  • Both of you hated going because of all the drunk people
  • Drunk people would throw themselves at you, which made Jumin pissed
  • He had to go, which means that you had to go
  • Jumin had an arm around your shoulders as he conversed with his business partners
  • You looked around at all the people, accidentally making eye contact with an older man
  • You really hoped he didn’t come over to you now
  • Spoiler alert, he did! 
  • You hid your face in Jumin’s side, praying that this man will see that you’re married and will leave you alone
  • He didn’t
  • The man started by calling you beautiful, but got progressively worse as he continued talking
  • He was being extremely provocative with you
  • You kept telling the man that you were married but he didn’t give up
  • So, you being the adult that you are, you tugged on your husbands sleeve
  • Luckily, he had just finished talking with his business partner, but now he was watching the music act that was preforming
  • “Jumin, please, dear”
  • He didn’t answer, which made the drunk man laugh
  • You tugged on his sleeve again, looking up at him 
  • The man was making you uncomfortable as he kept getting closer to you
  • “Honey, can we leave, please?”
  • The man touched your face, causing you to tug on his sleeve more frantically 
  • Jumin looked down at your face and at the man’s hand that was on your face
  • “Jumin please” 
  • He heard the desperation in your voice and saw the fear evident on your face
  • “Excuse me sir, I would highly suggest that you get your hands off my s/o’s face”
  • The man laughed again, keeping his hands on your face
  • “I’m sorry, Mr. Han, but they are simply gorgeous. I’m sure you wouldn’t mind sharing”
  • You looked down, ashamed. This man made you feel horrible
  • Jumin was pissed
  • He literally smacked this man’s hand off of your face
  • “I do mind. That’s why I will be cutting off all shares with your company.” 
  • Jumin guided you out of the building and into the car
  • He immediately noticed how upset you were
  • “Dear, what’s wrong?”
  • “I just had some strange drunk man all over me, and when I needed my husband the most, he ignored  me”
  • “Dear, I’m so sorry. I was distracted”
  • You laid your head on his chest
  • “Please don’t do it again…”
  • “I won’t princess”

707/Saeyoung (I’m literally such a baby, I almost started crying at my own writing. why am I so emotional? Also, this sort of didn’t match the request, but I really love this one.)

  • Saeyoung has been doing his stupid “I’m dangerous” thing again
  • It’s been going on for an entire week now
  • He knows it makes you upset, yet he still does it
  • There hasn’t been a day this week where you didn’t cry because of him
  • There would be just one comment that would push you over the edge and make you sob
  • You weren’t giving up though, you love him, and you know he loves you too
  • You decided to make something for lunch for him
  • It was just a sandwich and a bottle of water, but it was better than what he was eating
  • You walked into his office room and placed the food beside him
  • “I made you lunch, Saeyoung”
  • He just continued typing away, not even acknowledging your presence
  • “Please eat” 
  • He pushed the plate away, causing the plate to fall to the ground, glass shattering everywhere
  • You gasped and looked at the glass all over the floor
  • You got down and started to pick the pieces up
  • Saeyoung rolled his eyes
  • “Don’t fucking touch it. You’re going to get hurt, and I don’t want to have to clean you up”
  • You looked down, avoiding his gaze
  • Saeyoung went to take the pieces out of your hand, but stopped his movements when he felt your tears hit his hand that was on yours
  • He looked up at you, sighing, and took the glass out of your hand fully before leaving the room to go get the vacuum 
  • You managed to leave the office and go to your own room without getting any glass in your feet
  • “Why would you leave your spot? There’s glass everywhere. You could’ve been hurt, MC”
  • “S-sorry”
  • You looked down again, brushing away your tears with the back of your hand
  • He walked over you and pulled you into his arms, kissing the top of your head 
  • “Please be more careful…”
  • “Stop doing this to me, Saeyoung. I can’t handle this. It hurts so much”
  • “I know, I know. I’m so sorry. I hate doing this to you”
  • “Then why do you do it?”
  • “Because you can’t get hurt.”
  • “Do you think I went into this relationship not knowing the risks? I know fully what could happen, but I love you”
  • He sighs and just holds your closer
  • “I love you too, MC”

Saeran (this one is so cliche, I feel almost guilty posting it)

  • Saeran hasn’t paid much attention to you lately
  • So you went to see him
  • Saeyoung let you in, and you went to Saeran’s room
  • Saeran let you in, but he wouldn’t talk to you
  • “Why do you keep ignoring me? I came here to talk to you”
  • He scrolled through his phone, yawning
  • “Saeran? Are you okay?”
  • He put his phone down and just stared at you, still not answering
  • “Saeran?”
  • You felt a little self conscious with his intense stare on you
  • Saeran laid down on his bed, sighing as he ran his hands through his hair
  • He still kept his gaze on you
  • It was like he was studying you
  • “Saeran please just talk to me”
  • You shifted uncomfortably under his eyes
  • “No.”
  • You looked up into his eyes, surprised that you even got a response
  • “Yes. You’ve ignored me the past two weeks, and I want to know why! You know I hate being ignored, Sae…”
  • He sighed and grabbed your hand gently
  • “I was ignoring you because I like you, okay?”
  • You snort at him, causing him to glare at you
  • “You should’ve just told me, Saeran…” 
  • He just rolled his eyes at you, causing you to grin


  • Vanderwood had just gotten home from watching over agent 707
  • He looked pretty pissed off
  • He was mumbling angrily to himself
  • “Dear?”
  • He ignored you as he angrily ripped his gloves and coat off
  • “all that stupid fucker does is eat those damn chips. He’s fucking going to get us both killed”
  • You gently touched his arm as you looked up at him
  • “Hey?”
  • He just continued grumbling to himself as he plopped onto the couch, putting his head into his hands
  • “Hey, you okay?”
  • Vanderwood didn’t even look up at you as he sighed 
  • He just continued to stare at the floor
  • “Honey?”
  • no answer.
  • “Baby?”
  • You were getting frustrated
  • God dammit, you just wanted your boyfriend to pay attention to you
  • He’s always gone with that stupid agent, you want to spend all the time you can with him
  • You sat beside him, wrapping your arms around him
  • “Babe…?”
  • “What?”
  • Oh, he sounded angry
  • “Nevermind…”
  • “No, you bothered me a hundred times, I want to know what you want”
  • “I just wanted to make sure you were okay…”
  • “Yeah, I’m fine, just pissed at that little fucker”
  • “…What did he do?”
  • Vanderwood goes on a long rant about this agent, sighing when he was finished
  • “Why do you look upset?”
  • “Oh, I don’t like being ignored. Sorry”
  • “I’m sorry, I was just stressed out by everything”

I’m actually sobbing, I listened to crystal castles during such a hard time in my life, a changing time in my life, I even met my best friend through the love for their band. When I listened to their music I felt so much nostalgia for a life I never had. It was MY safe place from the bad people in my life. I remember playing Child I Will Hurt You on Christmas day, alone in my room, sobbing, just because the song made me feel alive.

Where do I go from here? Now knowing that my favorite artist was abused by the man who assisted with making the background music of my life. I love Alice to death, she is the most talented front woman I have ever seen, but that band is no longer the beacon I once saw it as. It’s amazing how one insect can damage an entire garden.

things I won’t get over:

so we know how much Monty pined for Percy; that much was made quite clear to us.  we know how Monty loved him for so long and was so afraid to say anything because he figured Percy was “right” and that fucking sucks like it hurts.

but we also know that Percy was pining for EVEN FUCKING LONGER.

Monty says he first started to realize that Percy was attractive after he got home from Eton (an event which we will not discuss here).  But we also know Percy was pining while Monty was still there, writing letters about the cute boy with big, blue eyes.

and like! so Percy knew Monty liked boys as well as girls! he probably knew better than anyone else! but he still! didn’t!! say!!! anything!!!!

and there’s probably so many reasons for that.  Monty’s increasingly promiscuous nature and his lack of apparent attraction to any sort of steady relationship.  the lack of knowledge that two men could even BE in a steady relationship.  Percy’s epilepsy and knowledge that he was to be sent away to have his entire life dictated by doctors.  And maybe Percy’s color played a role as well?  Maybe even though he knew Monty cared for him and was his best friend he thought he could never be attracted to someone like him.  (But I’m white so I don’t want to make too many assumptions like that.)


these two are a mess and thinking about how much time they spent in each other’s presence while wanting nothing more than to just fucking KISS hurts me in deep ways I cannot explain

I know I tend to be dramatic on here but I just want to make it clear that when I say I love Taylor eternally and will protect her from anyone trying to demean her or hurt her in any singular way…. I very much mean it. I have infinite love for this woman and all the good she has brought into my life. And I will do anything to make her happy—I’ve posted so many strange, embarrassing videos that are over the top full of love because I just want her to smile and laugh and be fucking happy every day.

As promised, here are my Royai fanfic recommendations. <3 A lot of people have been messaging me about this. Sorry, this took a while. Christmas and New Year came. HAHA!

I’m not really into fanfics, but because Royai, I just had to read. I’m sorry, but I’m kinda picky with fanfics, especially when it comes to my OTP for life. <3 I don’t like it when the characters get OOC or when there are OCs in fanfics. (Though, there are exceptions. :) ) I’ll be updating this constantly, so just keep checking this list. :) When I find a Royai fanfic I like, I’ll add it immediately to this list. <3 You can always go back to this, because I’ll be tagging it as “justroyai fanfic recs” :)

HERE GOES! (I’m not sure if I can write my comments for all fanfics, I might have to reread some of the fanfics again to be able to write my comments about it. I’ve read a lot of Royai fanfics. And by a lot, I mean A LOT. Trust me.)

I made a similiar post about some of my fave Royai fics/fanfic authors before, but for the benefit of those who haven’t seen/read that post..

1. MoonStarDutchess- She immediately became one of my all time fave Royai fanfic writers. I LOVE HOW SHE WRITES. ROY AND RIZA ARE SO IN CHARACTER. And omg she is an awesome smut writer. All of her Royai fanfics are worth reading, though some are crack fics, tho some of you might enjoy those. :) I also love her Royai + Royai children fanfics. They are absolutely adorable.

My fave Royai fics from MoonStarDutchess, in no particular order:

1. Best Kept Secret- This was actually the first Royai fic I read. And I COULDN’T STOP READING IT. It’s set in the FMA:Brotherhood timeline. Where Roy and Riza were secretly married throughout the whole series. JUST OMG. If you haven’t read this fic, you should go read it NAOOOO. It’s just perfection.

2. Vacuous Heart of Blood- This is an AU Royai fic. (I’m okay with AU Royai fanfics, it’s just that I don’t really prefer it.) BUT AGAIN, this is an exception. SDJSLKDJLSAK I won’t get much into details, but get this: Vampire Roy, Human Riza, fantasy + a whole lot 80s- early 90s feel.

3. How Could You Forget- This was a really good read. I love how it involves Madame Christmas and Roy’s ‘sisters’.

Summary: Roy is distracted by Maes and as a result, he forgets the date and a very special day for Riza and him. 

4. The Things Drunken Men Speak- Funny and sweet oneshot.

Summary: Riza goes to pick Roy up from the bar in what she deems as the typical Friday night. Little does she know that she will get a huge surprise from a drunken Roy. 

5. When One’s World Is Shaken- This is one of my all time fave Royai fanfic. I can’t put into words how beautifully this fic was written.

Summary: When Riza is assaulted the life she has with Roy is shaken. Can Roy help her through her struggle with all her self doubts?

6. Roy’s Teddy Bear- This was really fluff to the max. Cute oneshot.

Summary: When Roy takes a break in one of the nap rooms, Riza discovers a habit he has that she never knew about. 

7. The Trouble With Kissing Booths- A pre-Brotherhood Royai. In short, Young Royai. Back when Riza was still studying in the military academy. This was cute.

Summary: Roy gets jealous when Rebecca has his fiancee Riza run a kissing booth with her and Maria. Will their relationship withstand this seemingly insignificant matter?

8. Does Daddy Love Mommy?- One of my fave Royai + Royai kids fic. This was just so cute and just AHHHHHHH. <3 

Summary: When Roy and Riza’s kids are running an errand, one of Roy’s ex-girlfriends tells their children that Roy doesn’t love them or their mom. 

9. Mama and Papa’s PlaytimeI was thinking dirty when I read the title. You just know it.  Another cute Royai + Royai kids fanfic. 

Summary: Roy and Riza’s kids hear something that worries them coming from their parent’s bedroom and go to their great grandfather for help. 

10. True Reasons- So sweet and so very Royai. <3

Summary: After hearing some women in the locker room talk about Roy’s reason’s for wanting to marry her, Riza has doubts about Roy’s love for her. What will Roy do to erase these doubts from her mind? 


2. Antigone Rex- Another talented Royai fanfic writer. I swear. She keeps Royai so in character - So much that it hurts. *sobbing* 

My fave Royai fanfics from Antigone Rex, again, in no particular order:

1. Reverberations- One of the Royai fanfictions that has OC, but is an exceptional fic. This fanfic made me sleep in wee hours of the morning, because I couldn’t stop reading. This is a post- Brotherhood Royai fanfic. I also love how this also focuses on Roy’s relationship with his other subordinates, not just Riza. But the Royai fluff here is just to the max. ALSKJDKLDJFDF Plus, I love the fact that I learn new words from this fanfic. WOOO More words to add to my vocab. HAHAHA!

Summary: Post-Brotherhood Royai. In the wake of the Promised Day, Mustang and Hawkeye struggle to find normalcy. With a powerful new enemy and a growing Ishvalan Resistance looming at every turn, will they learn to understand one another before it is too late? 

2. The General’s Daughter- Oneshot. A very adorable and sweet oneshot. <3 I just love Overprotective!Roy. <3 

Summary: It’s only fitting that Amestris’ most infamous womanizer should have a beautiful daughter. Introducing Overprotective!Roy.

3. A Dusty Brown Bottle- OMG THIS FIC. Hilarious all-around. Drunk!Riza is the best. The best. Riza might seem to be a bit OOC here, but then again, she’s drunk, so yeah.

Summary:  Vanessa always knew what lay hidden in the dusty brown bottle, secreted on the top shelf behind the bar. 


3. hmmingbird- This girl is very talented. The way she writes, I feel like I’m reading poetry. 

My fave Royai fanfics from hmmingbird, again, in no particular order:

1.  Ruby Throat- Ruby Throat. How do I even begin to describe Ruby Throat? This is one of the fanfics that hurt so much, but it’s still so good. 

Summary: Love fell into his lap at the most inopportune moment. [Royai]

2. The Closed Circle- The ending was quite predictable, but nevertheless, this is one of my all time fave Royai fanfics. <3

Summary: In which Lieutenant Hawkeye drives Colonel Mustang to distraction, and he decides he’s had quite enough cold showers.

——————————– 4. Chuui- She says she’s a horrible writer. (According to her author bio) On the contrary, I don’t think so. I enjoy reading her Royai fanfics very much. <3 Her fics deserves a bit more love. <3 (By love, I mean, faves and follows.) My fave Royai fanfics from Chuui, again, in no particular order:

1. Not In The Mood- Hilarious. Just friggin hilarious. I just love seeing a very horny Roy and a not so interested in Roy’s advances Riza. KJSKJDSKD I really enjoyed reading this one. Summary: Riza Hawkeye was not in the mood, but that never stopped Roy Mustang from trying. 2. Anniversary- This was really cute and hilarious. I was grinning the whole time I was reading this fic. Definitely worth reading. Oneshot. Summary: Roy and Riza are in Resembool and Roy decides to take advantage of the fact that nobody knows who they are and introduces himself and his lieutenant as a married couple. 3. Not Quite Right- I was always so curious about Young!Royai. I love this fic. Hilarious and cute all around. Oneshot. Summary: Riza Hawkeye would be lying to herself if she said she didn’t have any interest in Roy Mustang, he was rather good-looking and she always had wondered what it would be like to…

——————————– 5. Silvery Mist- I stumbled upon this author’s bio by accident. And I’m glad I did. Love her fics. Royai are so in character. <3 My fave Royai fanfics from Silvery Mist, in no particular order:

1. Friday Night- This was hilarious. OMG. SJLKSAJKLSJD I just love it when Team Mustang is involved in a Royai fic. You just know that they ship Royai so hard. Poor Havoc tho. HAHA! Summary: Havoc and Breda decided to check out one of the local bars hoping to get lucky. Unfortunately, they get more than what they bargained for when one girl catches Havoc’s eyes.
2. A Not So Perfect Date- This was so funny. I love Roy here. He’s so in character. Especially when his lieutenant is out on a date. But not with him. He be like she’s MY lieutenant. No one can go out with her except for me. Summary: When Riza goes out on a date with another man, a jealous Roy sets out to make sure sparks don’t fly.   3. Stealing a kiss- Pure fluff. Oneshot. <3 Summary: Why do you like reading romance novels Riza? 4. Operation Miniskirt- This fic. This fic. It’s a mix of action, fluff and humor. KSJDKSLSL Yes, and this one of thos Roy + Miniskirts fanfics. :)) Summary: Riza is far from thrilled when she’s forced to go undercover as a prostitute during a sting operation to catch a serial killer.  5. Confession- This was absolutely beautiful. Enough said.  Summary: Riza always knew that she was an important part of the Colonel’s life but it wasn’t until after Maes Hughes’ death that she knew just how important she was.


6. Lady Norbert- She’s a really good writer. Not just for Royai fics- Like her HP fanfics, Legend of Zelda ones are good too. <3 Plus, she’s really nice too. :D Hello thaaar, ladynorbert! :)

Elemental Chess Trilogy: Just read it, and you’ll know why a lot of people like this trilogy. :D Usually, I don’t read fanfics with sequels, prequels or let alone a trilogy, but this is an exception. Now go read! :)

Prequel: Triumvirate

Volume 1: Flowers of Antimony

Volume 2: Brilliancy

Final Installment: The Game of Three Generals


UNSORTED: Royai fanfics from authors that I haven’t got to browse all their Royai stories yet. Or they are relatively new or they have only written one Royai fanfic. But nevertheless, I enjoyed all of them. :)

1. Hawkeye and the General- This is a good fanfic. It’s the type that makes me want to read more. But, I find Riza OOC in some parts this fic. Don’t know if others share the same sentiments, but still, good. :) This fic is ongoing, btw.

Summary: Ed and Winry’s wedding provides the perfect time for Riza Hawkeye and her commanding officer to sort out their complicated relationship. Or so everyone else thinks. But Riza knows she won’t be able to take control of her personal life until Roy reaches his ever-demanding goal, and she doesn’t think she’ll be able to hold out for much longer. And neither does he.

2. Embarrassed Meeting- Multichapter fic. I think the author intended for this to be a oneshot, but due to popular demand- she kept writing more and more chapters. (I’m glad she did!) This is a fic that makes you want more. I love this fic, because it’s sweet and hilarious mixed into one. 

Summary: Roy’s emergency meeting that ends with Riza in his arms.


Kelenloth- I found this author via Tumblr. Ohhh the things tumblr can do! Amazing really! And I do believe that this author deserves a whole lot more reviews. I love the way she writes!

1. This is Gonna Sting- Can I just say this fanfic is one of the best? I love authors who write fanfics about Roy/Riza POV. :) This is the author’s version of what happened in episode 19 of FMA: Brotherhood. I happen to stumble upon this fanfic when the author reblogged one of my headcanons from my Royai headcanons blog. She said that she wrote a fanfic about that particular headcanon. And here it is!

Summary:  "I cauterized the wound closed. I almost passed out a few times from the pain.“ This is the story of Roy closing and preventing wounds the only way he knows how. A short scene that occurs "offstage” in canon. Chapter 38-39/episode 19 Spoilers. Rated for in-canon violence and in-canon language. Second more Riza-centric chap. added with aftermath of Roy and Lust’s battle.

2. Her Name Is Elizabeth- “AHHHHHHHHH!” is all I can say after reading this fic. OMG This a very good read. And I really enjoyed this fic very much. I love fanfics that has “Elizabeth” in it. ;) 

Summary: Riza drives Roy home after the team’s New Year’s Eve celebration at his favorite bar in Central. Some very interesting people had been there, including what seemed to be every girl Roy had ever dated in Central, and that odd woman, Madame Christmas. Riza has question and Roy has a few tipsy answers. Currently a one-shot, may end up a two-shot. My thoughts on Chris and Elizabeth.

3. My Father’s Masterpiece- Ohhh i just love Young!Royai fanfics or fanfics about their past. It just gets me everytime.

Summary: "This is my father’s masterpiece. He entrusted it to me while you were away.“ That morning they had buried her father. That night was the start of the rest of their lives. - Young-ish Royai concerning Berthold’s death, Riza’s back, and the secrets there. Rated T for safety only.

Janieshi- I’ve read a couple of her Royai fics, and they are just so adorable. Haven’t read ALL of her Royai fics, but the ones i’ve read so far are enjoyable. <3

Espionage- A cute fic about Young!Royai. This is a multichaptered fic,

Summary: "He couldn’t quite find the right words to describe the feeling of foreboding that had curled up deep in his belly when he’d looked into his teacher’s eyes.” Pre-series character study of the relationship between Roy and Riza as young teens, spoilers for manga and anime.

Shot Down- Really cute oneshot fic. Set in Pre-Manga/Anime.

Summary: "There was evidently only one pretty blonde female officer in all of Eastern that frequented the range-but the magnificent Lieutenant Hawkeye proved to be wholly unapproachable.“ Pre-or-early series. Slight hints of Royai, naturally.

UNSORTED: Again, this are Royai fanfics from authors that I haven’t got to browse all their Royai stories yet. Or they are relatively new or they have only written one Royai fanfic. But nevertheless, I enjoyed all of them. :)

Awkward Position- This is a hilarious fic all throughout! <3 And I love it when Team Mustang is involved in a Royai fic, because my headcanon is that they all ship Royai. :))

Summary: Roy Mustang wakes up in a very awkward position after having to share a bed with Hawkeye and he needs to solve his problem before she wakes up. Royai.


esbethwrites- AHHHH she is one of my fave writers now. SKDJSLDJ I think she’s also new to the FMA/Royai fandom. I’m looking forward to fanfics that she’ll be writing. 

Distraction- OMG. THIS FIC IS THE BEST THING EVER. READ IT NOW. Again, I love fanfics that has "Elizabeth” in it. And I think this is one fanfic I can read over and over again. OHHH AND THE AUTHOR IS NEW TO THE ROYAI/FMA FANDOM. *throws confetti at esbethwrites* Welcome to our wonderful fandom! The one that ruined my life. *sobbing* Thank you for writing this wonderful fanfic. <3

Summary: With Lieutenant Hawkeye out on vacation, and Colonel Mustang stuck with a mountain of paperwork at the office, a seductive “Elizabeth” offers a distraction over the phone to help hasten the Colonel’s progress, but ends up halting it instead.

The Seven Deadly Sins- This fic is very interesting. Ongoing right now. I can’t wait for the updates.

Summary: The Devil doesn’t come dressed in a red cape and pointy horns. He comes as everything you’ve ever wished for. (Royai prompts. Rating to change in the future).

hell-whim- An anon suggested that I should read Royai fanfics written by her. And wow, she is a fantastic writer. I have yet to read all her Royai fanfics, but thank you for suggesting, anon! She deserves a lot more reviews in some of her fics tho. 

Understanding- This fanfic is just giving me a lot of feels and it’s great feeling when you found out that you have a headcanon in a fanfiction form. KDSJFS Best feeling ever.

Summary: There are questions they both know the answer to, but which sometimes must still be asked. [Royai, 2009 anime]

Clandestine- A short and sweet oneshot. Also, the sequel to Understanding.

Summary: Mistakes like this are best made big, and all at once. [Royai, 2009 anime, sequel to Understanding]

Shimegami-chan- This author has written so many fanfics! Not just for the FMA/Royai fandom, but other fandoms as well. And all of them are really good. Again, I have yet to read all her fics. 

Lemon Tea- This is really cute. Nuff said. (Though, it doesn’t really fit the what is now canon for FMA) All the characters are in character and very well written. A good read!

Summary: One-shot. Private Roy Mustang has his eye on a certain female squadronmate. Private Hawkeye has no obvious weaknesses, save one…if Roy can use it to his advantage. Winner of Best Prose in the Anime North Fanfiction Contest.

Elizabeth- Hilarious fic. I just love it when “Elizabeth” and Team Mustang is involved in a Royai fic. 

Summary: One-shot. A note discovered in Roy Mustang’s office leads to an all-out investigation as the Colonel’s subordinates attempt to steal his new girlfriend.

UNSORTED: Again, this are Royai fanfics from authors that I haven’t got to browse all their Royai stories yet. Or they are relatively new or they have only written one Royai fanfic. But nevertheless, I enjoyed all of them. :)

It’s Wedding Day- OMG yaaaay! Royai wedding. <3

Summary: It’s Roy and Riza’s wedding day. Someone in the audience makes observations. Multiple pairings. Post-Brotherhood. Rated T because I’m paranoid.

That Idiot Colonel Wrote a Letter- FEELS EVERYWHERE. This fanfic. <3 Onshot.

Summary: As the promised day approaches Mustang writes a letter to express thoughts he wants Riza to know, should he perish during the war against the homunculi. Letter written for hawkseyeriza of tumblr. A/N: the first two lines are supposed to be crossed out, but doesn’t support that formatting. Also, the combination is the keypad format for “hawkseye”


Cafe Au Liet- I love her fics! She also adds a bit of Havocai to her fanfics. I’m not a Havocai shipper though. HAHA! But yes! Most of her fanfics are good. And she’s from the Phils too! Holla!

Just Get Them Together Already!- This is probably one of my favorite fics from this author. Very witty & naughty. Warning! Suggestive themes. And, did I mention that i just love it when Team Mustang is involved? BEST. BESTTTTT.

Summary: Mustang’s subordinates decide to take matters into their own hands, coming up with a plan to get the Colonel and his Lieutenant together. But they weren’t prepared for this. Royai.

Good Morning- Aww. This is so sweet & very realistic. I can imagine this happening. 

Summary: At this rate, they’ll never get to work on time. Light and fluffy Royai one shot for Royai day! May contain spoilers for 108.

Dangerous- Ahhh! Team Mustang + undercover missions fanfics are the best. 

Summary: Riza Hawkeye finds herself in a dangerous situation. Royai.

Takes Two To Tango- Oneshot. This is a short, funny & witty fic all around.

Summary: “Snipers are amazing at ballroom dancing.” “Is that from experience? Just how many have you danced with?” “Only one.” A short Royai One shot.

Inadequacy- I just love this fanfic so much. I wish she finished this fic. :( But yes, worth reading! :) And ahhh Young!Royai is the best thing ever.

Summary: Roy Mustang and Riza Hawkeye were made for each other. Funny how they don’t seem to know it themselves. My own take on how Royai came to be.



Babysitter Mishap- I’m usually not so fond of AU fics unless it’s really good. kdjsa;kd this is one of the exceptions. Again, this is worth reading. BUT, the author hasn’t updated for 1234567890 years already. :(( *sobbing* Ahhh, but this fic is just adorable and lovely in all ways. I just can’t.

Summary: Wealthy, young, sexy and the father of three lovable kids, needs a babysitter/bodyguard for them. But will his kids make life easy for Riza or make it a wild roller coaster ride? And what happens if this single father falls for her charming ways?

What You Make of a Family- ksajalkjdls ahhhh another one of my headcanons! Royai + Elysia. Adorable. <3 I wish this fic had a sequel. :(

Summary: Roy is called upon to babysit Elicia when Gracia has an emergency. It’s not his idea of a perfect weekend but he steps up to care of a little girl who is in need of a father figure and realizes what he’s missing in his life. Royai. Chapter 6 up.

Merry Little Christmas- Christmas Royai fanfic! Ahhh again, another one of those very realistic Royai fics. I love it. Bittersweet kinda fic. <3

Summary: Roy and Riza are alone working Christmas Eve but skipping out on work for a nightcap is a much better idea. Chapter 2 up, Roy and Riza face their feelings but it’s not so easy… RoyAi

Security- Oneshot. Very moving & well written.

Summary: Lieutenant Hawkeye has an unexpected visitor in the wake of Major Hughes death.

Someday- AWWW. This fic is so adorable. It gives me so much FEEEELS.

Summary: That morning, Roy held his newborn niece for the first time and imagined a new kind of future. Royai, Hughes/Gracia, and general fluffiness.


UPDATES from May 9, 2014:

taylortot- Some people can write, but can draw. Some people can draw, but not write. But this girl is both. She can write and draw. :) I was really surprised to see that all of her Royai fics are worth reading. And visit her art blog too. [X]

Reversal- OMG THIS FIC IS BRILLIANT. Genderbend fic? TEEHEEEEE! All Royai shippers will def enjoy this one!

Summary: A collection of one-shots set in an AU where Colonel Riza Hawkeye is the Flame Alchemist and Roy Mustang is her First Lieutenant. Not necessarily in chronological order. Rating may depend per chapter.

Can You Feel It- I just love this fic. Made me laugh so hard in the end. :))

Summary: Roy’s stubborn antics have led to both a sunburn and the day that Riza Hawkeye could not stop laughing.

Rumors- Lovely one-shot fic. I can actually see this happening. And, this is actually one of my headcanons.

Summary:  Of course there would be gossip. Mustang and his lieutenant were suspiciously close after all, but that didn’t mean it had to tear them apart. In fact, it brought them closer together. Literally. Royai. One-shot.

Safeguard- OMG I can’t stop reading this. Sorry to burst your bubble, but taylortot hasn’t updated this fic for a year. *sobbing* but yeees, this fic is still good!

Summary: After Roy is called to help catch a murderer, he becomes injured and loses his memory, including the secrets of Flame Alchemy. While hiding undercover in his delicate state, Riza takes it upon herself to reteach Mustang all that he’s forgotten, but some things will never be the same. Rated M as of Chapter 6. Sort of AU.

It’s Hot In Here- There’s only one word that perfectly describes how I feel about the weather here in my country and this fanfic. Hot. JFC.

Summary: The office is sweltering on a late Friday afternoon and for some reason, Roy can’t seem to keep his eyes off his lieutenant.

Chaos and Caramel Eyes- This is really cute. I’m always a sucker for fics that involve Royai and Team Mustang. <3

Summary: Riza has taken a short leave of absence from work and it results in a catastrophic office setting that has swallowed everything. Not to mention the hole it put in Roy’s poor heart. One-shot.

Looking for Trouble- AHHH Young!Royai. This fic is adorableeee. <3

Summary: He has been warned to stay away from Master Hawkeye’s daughter, and he thought that wouldn’t be a problem. He is there to learn alchemy, after all. But one glance of her in a pretty white dress is all it takes to have Roy Mustang breaking all the rules. T because Mustang is such a boy.

AlphaCentauri.42- I love how she writeeeees. She wrote 2 fics only. And both Royai. <3

The Alchemist’s Silicon and Gold- Ohhh yeah! This fic is brilliant. Kudos to the author! She must’ve done lots of research for this. Awesome and very unique.

Summary: In retrospect, Riza had to admit calling her superior “useless” wasn’t one of her more brilliant ideas.

Two Steps Forward- Exactly how I pictured Colonel Dork to proposes to Riza. <3

Summary: Kicking off the Royai Day Festival! Roy kept his back to her when he said, “I don’t want you to follow me anymore.”

UPDATES: 10/31/2014

TheRedHabanero- OH. MY. GOOD. LAWD. I just read some of her fanfics. And, all I can say is.. one of my fave authors! AHHHH I just love the way she writes Royai. SO BEAUTIFUL and so in character. If you haven’t read her fics yet. YOU SHOULD. NOW.

An Unconventional Proposal - The first fanfic I read from her. KSAJFKDLSAJFLDSJFLKDS OMG This made me feel all warm and fuzzy. TOO CUTE FOR LIFE. SAKFHKLD PLS READ THIS NOW.

Summary: Edward seeks advice on a certain topic. Roy shows him how it’s done. And naturally, Riza is dragged into it. -Royai, implied Edwin. Post-manga/Brotherhood.

About Time- Sweet cheesus. This is brilliant. And how I imagined everyone wanted it to happen. JKSAHDJKSA

Summary: Roy held his breath, heart thundering as he waited for her response. For her to kiss him or shoot him or yell at him for this sudden life-changing revelation at such an inappropriate time. Royai.

Cherish- love this. Very in character. 

Summary: Because he just can’t wait around for Amestris to finally 'allow’ them to be together. Haven’t they been through enough already? Don’t they deserve to be happy?

To Whatever End - Warning: Deathfic. BUT DON’T LET THAT STOP YOU FROM READING THISSSS. It’s so beautiful. *cries* buttttt yet so sad. HUHU. 

Summary: Riza Hawkeye would have followed him to whatever end. And up until her very end, she was his.


I have more good Royai fanfics, will update this post again soon. :) I know a lot of you want this already, so I will to post this now. :) If a fanfic you’ve read is good, maybe you can suggest it to me. :) Please don’t spam my asks with.. “if I’ve read this fanfic or that fanfic”. If it’s not in this list, I probably didn’t read it yet or it didn’t really catch my attention. :( OR I haven’t updated this list yet. :) I swear, I have read a lot of good Royai fanfics, it’s just that I really don’t have the time to update this list every now and then. Plus, I lost all my bookmarked Royai fanfics to add to this list recently.. so yeah. *sobbing* Might take me a while to find those fics. If I do, I’ll be sure to add it ASAP. cheesus, now my back hurts from all the typing. WOOO!

I’m so glad I found these fanfics. *sobbing*

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UPDATED: October 31, 2014

Enjoy! :)


Okayy, so I searched the ‘anti hux’ thing in the search section on tumblr, and the horrible things the Fandom had posted about hux AND domhnall gleeson, were just so depressing. Some anti hux people were LITERALLY writing about we love Hux only because he’s white, or because he’s a nazi-like person, or we don’t respect the black characters, etc etc. It just…hurt me so, so much. I mean, how can people just Diss someone like that? It’s very..saddening. Really.
Some people also mentioned that hux shouldn’t get so much love and respect from the Fandom as no one gives a shit about his small character, and whatever he did in the movie was a threat to humanity. Like…what the actual fuck????? It’s star wars and murdering and killing is expected here, you little shit.
This post means no offence to anyone, except the anti hux people. Yes that’s right, you anti people need therapy.

And yes, I will never, ever stop loving General Hux/Domhnall Gleeson.

anonymous asked:

Annyeong! Which songs remind you of the RFA + trio + ray? And could you give us an hc for the scenes whenever you hear the song? Thank you!!

OH I’M GONNA DO THIS. I just want to warn you though, I’m an old soul. I haven’t gt much love for today’s songs and I tend to listen to any music that suites my tastes: non-English, instrumentals, etc… Also, the hcs will be short. I’ll leave the rest of the imagination to you *winks*…. Links are provided in case you want to listen to the song.


Song #1 - The Ocean (Mike Perry ft. Shy Martin)

-MC doesn’t want to wake up yet. It just feels so comfortable.

-The sunlight and a hint of fresh air seeping through the window, with Zen at her side, his arms wrapped around her waist.

-No, she won’t wake up yet, she decided.

-Just a little more, she thought.

-And as she felt Zen’s strong arms squeeze her a little tighter, she realized that she would never get enough of this.

Song #2 - All Of Me (John Legend)

-This was the song for the dance musical. The MC was Zen’s leading actress.

-The whole audience was silent, obviously mesmerized by the passion both of them are showing…the way both of them touch each other in the dance and the way sparks seem to fly whenever they look into each other’s eyes…

-And that kissing scene… every could tell it was no longer an act..

-At that moment, MC was already thinking that maybe, just maybe, she’s finally found the love for a lifetime.


Song #1 - This Love (Angela Aki)

-Despite having spotlights trained on both MC and Jumin, none of them minded all the attention everyone was giving them.

-All that matters at that moment were their feelings: the way they look into each other’s eyes, the way he places his hands on her waist, and the way she holds on so tightly on his arms.

-With every step into the dance, and with every couple dancing all around them, they could just feel it: Love or whatever you call it… and they knew that it’s only going to go deeper and deeper …and deeper.


Song #1 - Bubbly  (Colbie Caillat)

-He’s just so cute.

-The way he creases his eyebrows in focus in order to break that eggshell perfectly.

-It makes the MC so happy and bubbly inside. Yes, this is what life is supposed to be, she thought.

-A life of appreciating small things. A life of trying hard no matter what it is.

-And a life of living with someone that could make you smile even at the hardest times.


Song #1 - Love Is A Beautiful Pain

-It hurts to see Saeyoung like this.

-His happiness. His pranks. His energetic attitude. Was everything just an act?

-And as he was hacking away in his keyboard, MC could no longer help it. She crept up behind his back, wrapped her arms around his neck and buried her face in it. I love you, Seven, she said.

-That’s when his tears came. No. Go away, MC.

-But she won’t. Because if this pain was love, she’d gladly endure it.

Song #2 - Hello (Yui)

-After everything that has happened, MC realized how perfect this moment is. She’s with Saeyoung in his retractable sports car, zooming around roads and sightseeing whatever sight there is to see.

-They’d take a pictures of beaches. Make fun of statues. Act like goofballs.

-And then a few miles later, both of them would shout THIS. IS. LIFE!!!!!!!

-MC just had to smile. Because, after being locked up on his own bottled feelings, Saeyoung has finally managed to come out and taste whatever life has to offer.


Song #1 - Kaze No Machi He

-It was a very silent moment. Both MC and Jaehee were drinking coffee, but not actually saying something to each other.

-But somehow, the silence feels so comfortable, MC said to herself.

-Jaehee looked up from her coffee and looked at MC, probably sensing her deep thought.

-And somehow, she understood what MC was thinking about and gave her a smile.

-It was then that MC understood why it’s so comfortable. She had just realized that love isn’t always words. Sometimes, the deepest connections with each other can be found in the smallest of smiles.


Song #1 - I Wouldn’t Mind (He Is We)

-When the rain started pouring out, MC couldn’t help herself but to rush out.

-It has been so long since she acted like a child like this.

-What she didn’t expect thought were the arms that wrapped around her waist. It was Jihyun. Her dear, dear Jihyun.

-Jihyun didn’t waste much time. He kissed her. Passionately. Right in the rain.

-And as they were sharing that wet kiss, MC couldn’t help but think that there is something similar between Jihyun and the rain. It was then that she realized they were both romantic… and a little bit sad. *Sniffs*

Saeran (Personality: Ray)

Song #1 - Forest Maiden (Sergey Eybog)

-As MC and Ray stepped into the garden, she couldn’t help but realize how beautiful the garden is.

-With the glowing flowers and the glowing fireflies that lights up the darkness quite a bit, everything looks like a dream.

-So when Ray offered her a dance, she knew she wouldn’t reject him.

-And at that moment, right under the moonlight, as they both danced slowly together, MC knew that this will be a magical moment she will never be able to forget.

Song #2 My Immortal (Evanscense)

-MC had a fight with Ray. No matter how much she tries, there are still times when they just can’t understand each other.

-It hurts. It hurts so much. In reality, she had always known that there’s just so much that time cannot erase:

-His pain. His fears.

-And now, as Ray sat there in the corner with tears falling and his fears of being abandoned coming back, MC decided that she won’t. ever. give him up.

-No matter what.

-Cheritz why you do this to Saeran


Song #1 - And We Run (Within Tempation)

-Just leave me alone now, MC cried.

-Shit No. Vanderwood insisted. He will never leave her alone. Not when he’s the reason she’s involved in this dangerous mess. Not when he’s the reason why she’s badly injured.

-And when both of them could hear the voice of their pursuers, MC thought she saw a tear in Vanderwood’s eye. But then it’s gone in a second so she disregarded it as imagination.

-It wasn’t though, because Vanderwood’s heart hurts so much. He has finally found the love of his life, but look at how badly this love turned to be.


More MysMe stuff here.

anonymous asked:

Hey I was wondering, how many people wrote about your Carlos-centric prompt and can you send the links to them? I was just wondering because I love the storyline and I find it so fascinating! Ps I'm a big fan of all of your prompts and headcanons, you have such creative ideas!

Thank you so much!

As it turns out, the prompt has been filled FIVE wonderful times!

The first fill is by @isleofthelxst, which you can read here:

The first fill for this prompt, so it’s close to my heart. It is angsty and bitter and you can really feel Carlos’ hurt and pain, definitely give this a read and show the author some love because they deserve it!

The second fill was by @jellybean-forsythia that can be found here:

This one is a little bit darker, very eerie and nodding toward some of the worst things of the Isle and features some Uma! Check it out and enjoy this lovely work!

The third fill is by @aestroviks and you can read here: and also on AO3 where you can subscribe for updates!

Fool’s Tale is one of only two fills that are longer than one-shots! It’s dark, features some Harlos (yessss), with Uma, Harry, Gil and Claudine coming to Auradon too. Carlos is a beautiful ball of anger and resentment who wants nothing to do with his old ‘friends’. Make sure to subscribe and send encouraging words!

The fourth fill can be found on AO3 here:  The third is here:

The author actually did not read my prompt, but read the above story by aestroviks and took on their own approach! It’s a little sadder because Carlos never reunites with his friends. In fact, he never gets brought to Auradon at all, even when other VKs (like Dizzy and Freddie) get brought over. My poor puppy.

The latest fill (that I know of) is Distrust by @mydayshallcome and you can check it out here:

Distrust is the other fill to be longer than a one-shot! Mal, Jay and Evie are living happily in Auradon while Carlos definitely gets hurt on the Isle and silences himself (my one, true weakness is the fandom is mute!Carlos). It is painful and torturous, tell mydayshallcome how amazing it is and what great work they write!

Why? - Yoongi Scenario

A/N: I guess this is a different story than most of them on here but I want to bring it out there, that eventhough you don’t like/love yourself right now. Know that there are people who do. That it hurts them also to see you like this. Don’t be ashamed of your imperfections because it’s made you in the person you are today. I can’t tell to much otherwise you don’t have to read the fic anymore hahaha. Anyways I love you all so much whatever you look like, your religion or sexuallity. We are all the same from the inside. 

PS: I haven’t checked the spelling yet because I want to sleep because its almost twelve here (yeah thats late for me :p but I guess sleeping will be difficult since my dad is snoring ugh) but I wanted to post it so there’s going to be slight changes in the morning.

Genre: Angst

Originally posted by loveblushes

Dumbfounded, lost, hurt, disbelief and betrayed, Were the things you felt right this moment when those words left his mouth and reached your ears. Was he serious? You couldn’t help but scoff at your thought. Of course he wasn’t serious. It was all a game wasn’t it? For some reason they thought it would be funny and harmless. You knew how those guys were and everybody knew they were playful, heck they even made you laugh so hard, you couldn’t breathe anymore. But this? This you would have never expect from them. The giggles that filled the room earlier, was now replaced with silence. You closed your eyes, lifted your face towards the ceiling as your lips curled upwards into a little smile. 

Swallowing the lump in your throat after you took a deep breath, you lowered your head and looked him in the eyes with a smile. ‘’Real funny guys. To think that you all thought I would fall for this prank.’’ you laughed softly. Your eyes shifted towards your best friend who was standing in the corner of the room with his head hang low and with a frown. He could not look you in the eyes, eventhough you were sure he could feel your eyes burning on his face. Despite wanting to get out of there, you blinked away the tears and swallowed once again the big lump that formed in your throat. When you wanted to step further into the room, Yoongi stopped you by stepping infront of you as he held your arm with his hand. You could see how he looked at your lips and at your eyes, his face looking serious as if he was searching for something. Starting to grow uncomfortable with his intense stare and the silence in the room, you tried to pry away his hold on your arm so you could get away from his gaze. “You’re sure?” Yoongi asked you, his voice laced with concern. ‘’Yes why shouldn’t I be?’’ You answered him, tapping your fingers on his hand, giving him a sign to let go of your arm. Eventhough you had feelings on him, his touch made you squirm. Finding yourself disgusting you couldn’t help but feel that others found that aswell about you. ‘’Yoongi let her go please.’’ Hoseok stepped in as he stood behind you, slowly pulling you into his chest causing Yoongi’s hand to slid off your arm. 

After stepping into the comfort of your home and hearing the door close with a click, you released your tears, which were trying to break free since that question rolled of his tonque. You hated to cry, you did not want to cry, you wanted it to shrug it off, laugh and pretend in did not hurt you at all. Well that did not go as planned because here you were with your head against the kitchencabinet, clutching your stuffed friend and openly crying for an one sided love.

You never were going to tell Yoongi that you liked him. You wanted to like him in silence until that feeling would fade away, knowing that you would not stand a chance anyways. Yeah they liked you, as a friend but you were sure they never would see you as more than that but to be honest you were okay with that because how can you love someone if you don’t even love yourself? How were they going to love you if you weren’t going to believe anything they said? That relationship would be doomed right from the start.

The sudden vibration on your leg made you snap out of your thoughts. Fishing the source out of your pocket you saw Hoseok calling you. You quickly wiped away your tears, took a deep breath before you answered the call. “Hey Hobi” you softly greeted him as you were fumbling with the stuffed animal on your lap. “Hey y/n.” Your eyes widened when Yoongi’s voice greeted you on the other end of the line. “What the heck?” The three words slipped out of your mouth before you could swallow them. You were surprised and confused. Why was Yoongi calling you from Hoseok’s phone and not his own? He had your number, didn’t he? Realizing that you were once again lost in your thoughts, you focused back on the man on the other end of the line. He was qiuet, the only thing reminding you he was still on the phone was his soft breathing. ‘Can I help with something?’’ Knowing that he wasn’t going to talk soon, you decided to ask him a question hoping he would tell you what was wrong. ‘Cause there was definitely something not right. ‘’Y/n.. listen…’’ he breathed. ‘’About today.. I… I want to come over and talk to you.’’ his voice sounded stern and it made you all the more nervous. ‘’Come over? You don’t have to come over. I understood. It was all just an innocent joke. I’m okay really.’’

‘’Well that’s to bad because I am already right infront of your apartment’’

Your heart stopped, mouth hanging open as you almost dropped your phone. your reflexes were quick enough to snatch your phone before it could hit the ground. ‘’Just hurry up and open the door. I am not standing for fun here you know.’’ after that he ended the call and it left you with no other choice than to open the door. 

‘’I guess we can’t let him wait now can we?’’ you jokingly told your stuffed animal. ‘’And we can’t let him see you.’’ you quickly realized. Walking towards the door, you first put down your stuffed friend on your bed before facing Yoongi. 

You took a deep breath and fanned your eyes with your hand, in the hope it wouldn’t be so red so there was no way, yoongi could tell you cried. Hopefully. You slowly saw more and more of Yoongi, the further the door openend, and the further the door opened, the harder your heart began beating. 

There he stood. Tight black jeans hugging his legs. A white shirt half tugged into his jeans as the black leather jacket shield him from the cold. Unstyled black hair made him more appealing than ever. Overall it was a sight that made you hurt. Just looking at him hurt. Your heart slowly crumbling down. 

‘’please come in.’’ you told him with a little smile as you stepped aside to let him in. When you turned around after closing the door, you saw Yoongi plopping himself down on your couch as he put his feet on the table infront of it. 

How the heck? How did he get there so fast and so silently at that. ‘’Y/n hurry’’ Yoongi uttered while patting the space beside him. ‘’I’m coming, I am. But I have to put away your shoes because you just kicked them out. People can break something if they trip over it you know.’’ you muttered a bit annoyed while putting his shoes away. ‘’Well I was in a hurry if you hadn’t noticed.’’ Yoongi said irritated as he slammed his feet on the ground, sat up and crossed his arms over his chest.

The light blue sky was slowly fading away as pink oranges hues made their appearance, colouring the sky in soft tones as the night patiently waited to make her entrance. The sun ready to go to sleep as the moon and the stars watched over him. You have always loved the night. At night you felt calm. At night there was no one to judge you. At night everything seemed calm. Eventhough the sky was telling you to wait just a bit longer, you didn’t feel calm at all. 

With Yoongi so close to you, you became aware that he could see your imperfections perfectly. You could not look him in the eye so you looked right past him staring at the changing sky. “Please look at me.” Yoongi’s voice broke the bubble you were mentally sitting in, making you come back to reality. “Look at me while I am talking.” He sounded stern. Shifting your eyes to his, you couldn’t help but flinch but quickly composed yourself. 

“About this morning. I am sorry.” He apologized. “I already told you its o-” “Dammit y/n it’s not okay!” He raised his voice in anger. “I know you’re not okay! Please stop telling me, us you’re fine all the time because I know you’re not.” Yoongi was angry and you knew it. His eyes looked stern and his bodylanguage screamed frustration. Why? Why was he so angry about? Why does he care anyways? It was a joke wasn’t it? And if he knew you were not okay with it why did he went along with it? You got more and more angry when you thought about and so you finally responded.

 “What the heck?! What are you so angry about anyways? Who cares if I’m okay or not. Why do you care?! Huh?! ” you screamed back at him, fuming with anger

“I care because it’s hurting us also when you put that fucking smile on your face eventhough we know you’re hurting. And I want to apologize for this morning because it was a shitty move to do so knowing you like me.” Yoongi mumbled the last part, half swallowing his sentence, realizing what he said.

  Your heart stopped, your breathing stopped and your stomach turned around. What did he just say? “What?” You muttered as tears were slowly filling your eyes. Those words were the last thing that did your jar with feelings you’ve been trying so hard to keep in, finally spilled over. “You’ve got to be kidding me. You’re joking right?” You tried to laugh it off once again but the damage has been done. “This is a fucking sick joke. This is fucked up Yoongi!” You slapped his hands away when you felt the slight touch of his fingers. “Why do you tell me that you care when you fucking asked me that question this morning knowing that it would hurt me! Reminding me over and over again I don’t even deserve to be in your presence or reminding me that even having a fucking a crush on you is a sin!” 

You stood up from the couch and ran to the bathroom while trying to wipe away the tears which were blurring your vision and making you feel weak. Yoongi was totally blown away by your outburst that he could not even move as he stared into the direction you ran off too but when he saw you entering the room and hearing the door slam he came into action and spedwalk towards it. 

‘’Y/n please come on out. Let’s talk about this okay?” Yoongi was scared and worried when he noticed you locked the door. “You don’t understand Yoongi” you sobbed as you looked at your reflection. Bloodshot eyes staring back at you. The only thing you saw were those red spots and scars covering your face and staining your soul. They didn’t understand and they were never going to understand. You hated yourself for looking at yourself disgusted because if you thought about yourself like that how were others going to look at you.

 “you’re worrying me, please come out or let me in please.” Somewhere in the distance you heard someone pleading but it was too far away. 

 Many people don’t know that it’s an emotional battle you have to fight everyday. So many people want to be nice, advising how you should treat your skin or avoid types of food but they don’t know that you’ve tried everything and it still doesn’t work. You know they want to help you but you can’t help but feel the pain when they do. How some of those people think you don’t own a mirror and point out that you have ‘something’ on your face and everytime you break a little inside. Does Hoseok and Yoongi know you’re trying your best?

You try to cry silently, trying to hold your cries in but the pain is still flowing out that you can’t help but let out a heartbreaking cry. “Damn. Y/n you’re healthy and thats whats important. You will get over this. You will eventually love yourself and you will be satisfied when you look in the mirror. You will be fine. You will be okay!” You cry as you slam your fist against the mirror. 

Suddenly you feel arms flying around your waist, and see hands tightly clutching your shirt when you feel Yoongi’s head falling down on your shoulder. “Yoongi please..” you try to pry away his hands desperatly. “Please y/n.. don’t do this yourself.” He mumbles into your shoulder as he tightens his hold on you. “You’re beautiful. You’re stunning.” “Don’t lie to me Yoongi!” You whispered. “Youre so beautiful that my heart hurts everytime I see you. Your smile is so cute that even a man so cold would melt. You’re eyes.. I wish I could look into them all day because they are so mesmerizing, so mysterious but still can see the innocent child in you that I want to protect you from all the hurt in the world.” He rambeled on while his voice was breaking as a little whimper left his mouth. “ I could not even protect you from myself and I hate it so much. You’re beautiful y/n.. you really am and do you know why?”

Yoongi slowly turned your around and looked at your face. Well he tried but you held your head down. He sighed out of relief when he noticed you’re loud cries turned into sobs. Sotfly and carefully holding you against his chest he slid down the wall to sit on the bathroom floor. Yoongi pressed your face in his shirt covered chest and with the other hand rubbing up and down your back he continued.

  “You’re beautiful because youre too kind. You’re beautiful when you talk about something you’re really passionate about because you don’t see how you eyes began to twinkle or how your face lights up. You’re beautiful when you get exited over ice cream, you’re beautiful when you say hi and wave to animals you’re seeing while walking down the street. You’re beautiful when you stare at the moon. And the most beautiful you are is when you are 100% you. “ 

Yoongi’s heart calmed down and he smiled when he felt your warm breath on his shirt. Your weren’t crying anymore. You were listening to his heartbeat while holding him tightly in your arms.

 ’‘You should love your scars you know. Because it makes you into the person you are and you will be into the future. There was one thing I read onto the internet this afternoon and it made me think of you. You want to hear it?” Yoongi whispered in your hair, inhaling the scent of your soothing shampoo. He loved the way you smell. You didn’t smell like those women he mostly met, their perfume hitting you square in the face and could still smell it when they were 200 meters away. Your scent was soft. You could only smell it when you got close. Your scent was fresh but also warm and soothing. 

 He felt you nodding your head, wanting to hear what he read. 

“I suppose I love my scars, Because they have stayed with me longer than most people have.

It reminded me of you because you once told me that people left you when you didn’t kiss their feet anymore and began thinking and taking care of yourself. It’s not in a negative way because those scars actually have shown you who your real friends and family are. So please don’t look at yourself in that way anymore. Look at yourself as a warrior okay. This will pass eventually and you will look back and you can say that you’ve made it’' 

And that was the beginning of a new journey, a path with love, friendship and acceptance because Yoongi was right. Eventhough it seems its dark there is always a light shining, waiting for you to show you how amazing you are. You only have to find it yet so you should get off your ass and go out there because deep inside you know you can do it.  


Dear Connor,
If that’s even your name. For the sake of this letter, let’s just assume you never lied to me.
It’s been a little over 3 years now and I still think about you. Not everyday but quite often. I think about how silly I was when I met you and how you never made fun of me in spite it. You were a little rude at the beginning and I won’t blame you, who even asks the kind of questions I did!
We corresponded for such a brief period of time- a month, two maybe. But you’ve left such a mark in my life.
You were the first one to tell me that I’m a crybaby and guess what? You were totally right.
You introduced me to the word ‘necrophilia’ and you made me feel okay about oral sex if only virtually. Oh, not those two together!
I still have to watch your favourite movie. That’s the one thing I didn’t do. I heard all your favourite songs over and over again but not the movie. I need to keep a part of you untouched for when I need it more in the future. I need to know I still have a part of you. I haven’t read our mails in a while because they always make me cry. I’m trying to keep being a crybaby occasional so I won’t read them for a while more.

You know, I smoked my first cigarette last month. That’s how I started the new year- one week in and I try something I knew you were trying so hard to quit. My friend asked me before I could, ‘are you sure? My new year resolution was to not smoke and 7 days later here I am. Do you really want to start your year with this vice?’
And you know Connor, I looked at her and said 'why the hell not?!’ because I thought of you.

I thought of everything you ever told me. The last time you cried when you were 7. The day your father hurt you. The girl who kept hurting you. Your dreams and nightmares. Why you started smoking. Why you didn’t like me at first. Why you soon fell in 'love’ with me. Why you couldn’t quit smoking.

But one thing I couldn’t help but wonder, one thing I want to ask you…

You couldn’t quit smoking but you could quit me. Clearly I meant so little to you for you to be able to do this. Or so much because you didn’t want to hurt me. But guess what? You did anyway.

I can’t send this letter to you because the name is probably not yours. Your email address definitely isn’t. Not anymore at least. So I’m going to post this here and hope, just hope, somehow, sometime this reaches you because yes, I’m still the same old me with a little too much faith.

Love Always,

PS You still have to take me on that date and you still have to get me the best chocolate you can find!

i hope your days and weeks and months and years of hurting gives you beautiful life experiences and good times to come. i hope you finally get the love you’ve been waiting for. i hope you’ll realize that you deserve so much more than the world has given you so far and that you deserve to take up space.

you deserve better. believe me.

Hey I’m NEW here

Originally posted by sooper-dee-dooper-natural

Hey, Whump Community my name is Moonshine and this is my new whump blog.

I’m a something-year-old humanoid that has a real interest in the hurt/comfort of her favourite characters.

I have a long list of my favourite movies and tv series and I hope that I can share my love of some of these shows, characters and actors with other people through this blog.

To end my first post I just want to thank @whumpgalore and @fyeahvulnerablemen because these two blogs have inspired me so much to explore the genre of whump more and to create my own blog about it. 


anonymous asked:

Different anon here. I'm confused and no I'm not new here. I wont look at the pic. I can't understand why they would do this so close to Elsie that may cause the few dedicated fans he has left to say " fuck it! I'm not spending my money!" I just don't get it. PR and all...if it hurts his fans why push that? I've seen many celebs couples and I've never seen them post private moments. I know it's PR. But I also knows it costing him fans. They have to know as well. They're in the biz to MAKE $$

Believe me nonnie( i have missed one of your previous asks?),I’ve been here 4 years and sometimes I’m still confused too. Long story short they try to sell D as a specific kind of product. He has to be straight and with a lovely (not so much) gf because, I apologize in advance, a big chunk of people in his Fandom is able to think only with their vaginas so if he’s not queer they think to have the possibility to sleep with him. What team beard fail to see is that people that appreciate him for his talent will spend money on him anyway. Beard is a huge problem too because she has power and before getting out of the picture…she wants fame. So… It’s a complete mess. What scares me is that people are unable most of the time to truly see him and how he is.

Leaving Oregon Tomorrow!!!

The day is finally here. I wanted to thank everyone, from the bottom of my heart, who donated and shared my donation post. Y'all made this possible. I was really hurting because of my financial situation and medical bills, and you stepped up. Thank you so much.

I’ll send you lots of pictures from my new place in Colorado! I love you all so much!! ❤️💖😍😘


Class Appreciation Week 2016 :  

Day 1: Favourite Character

  Miss Quill

Miss Quill’s become such an incredibly important character for me that I hardly know where to begin. So I’ll just take a deep breath and try to explain why she’s come to mean so much to me and we’ll see how it goes.

Already in the first episode I could sense she was exactly the kind of character I inevitably end up loving - both complex and morally grey. I did not know much about her, but I really liked what I saw. I enjoyed the sarcasm and sassiness and I truly appreciated the fact that she was portrayed as strong, but at the same time unafraid to cry and show that she’s in pain over the loss of her people. Right from the beginning it was obvious that she was a person who has deep and strong feelings and who is very loyal to the people she sees as hers. That impression only got reinforced as the show went on and I learned more about her. Miss Quill is indeed both impressively loyal and capable of extremely strong feelings that she tends to bottle up until she explodes. And seeing as both loyalty and the capacity to feel things strongly are very important to me, I could not help but love her.

But that’s not all. Again right in the beginning it’s established that she’s a slave. Despite the enormous effect this has on her, we don’t see her completely crushed by it. We see her keep fighting on and making the best out of the genuinely terrible situation she’s been put in, a situation in which someone else has all the control and which has stripped her of the ability to be that which she perceives as the true essence of herself - a soldier. She is shown to suffer because of this loss of control and self, but at the same time she is not shown to give up. Instead of throwing in the towel, she chooses to control what she can and keep on fighting in any way she can - from pestering Charlie, to being sarcastic or using dry humour in difficult situations. Not being able to use weapons, she improvises and ends up turning anything into a weapon. She is put into an impossibly hard situation, yet she adapts and finds ways to go on. She has no support, no one who cares for her, the person controlling her is not really aware of the amount of power he has over her life and what it’s doing to her, she has no way to deal with the pain of being a slave and of not being allowed to be who she really is as well as with the grief over the loss of her people and yet she goes on. As someone who’s been through a serious depression only six years ago, I cannot even begin to tell you how much it means to me to have a character like Miss Quill in my life. Someone with whose suffering I can identify, but at the same time who doesn’t let that suffering crush them and finds ways to keep on living through the pain, with the pain. Pretty much all Miss Quill said to Tanya in The Lost resonated so strongly with me that I cannot even articulate it properly. I can just say that I immensely appreciate the way Patrick Ness wrote all of that and that it moved me beyond belief.

Another aspect of Miss Quill that contributed greatly to my love for her is her profound loneliness. I cannot help it, when I see a character who is starved for attention and affection I always go into “Let me love you!” mode. I can’t stand for people to be left out or ignored. All the tiny (and not so tiny) pleas for attention on Miss Quill’s part over the first season did not fall on deaf ears as far as I’m concerned. They only made me love her even more, especially because of the way she moved on every time no one paid attention to what she was trying to say. I repeat, she’s an incredibly strong person and part of that is not being afraid to show what is often incorrectly perceived as weakness i.e. grief or loneliness. The fact that she does that and is still shown to be one of the strongest characters on this show means a lot. For me true strength is to not be afraid to show that which society labels as weakness. True strength is not always being stoic or unemotional or brave, it’s being strong through the pain or brave through the fear, something Miss Quill herself agrees with me on.

Miss Quill’s intelligent, inquisitive, tough and badass, but at the same time incredibly caring when you manage to earn her loyalty, she’s not conventionally good, but she has a very strong moral compass that she always follows and is loyal to the end. I could go on about her all day and I would still never be able to do her justice. That’s in fact part of why I love her so much - there are so many different sides to her, I could never possibly list them all. And Katherine Kelly’s portrayal of her is nothing short of perfection. I’ll stop here because this is long enough and just once again reiterate that I love this character so much it hurts. Also probably too much to ever be able to express how much or why in any sort of coherent manner.

unluckyrose replied to your post*kicks the door open* [Aasimar bard Angus. He has…

first of all, Angus “I did detective good enough to see through your horseshit” McDonald would have the best vicious mockery insults. second of all, I want him to play the violin, both because that’s johann’s instrument and because I’m biased and love violins so much

the vicious mockery hurts just the slightest bit more because it’s coming from The Purest Boy. angus with the violin is also /real good/ 

the solution here obvious is that angus plays all the instruments. he is a very smart boy

Marissonshipping scenes that are important to me (long post, be warned)

TSME act II:

Alain spontaneously jumping to protect Mairin from Draco Meteor and getting injured in the process (cared about her well being more than his own)

TSME act III: 

Mairin first asking about Alain’s shoulder and then trying to stop Alain from going after Kyogre and Groudon (”But I don’t want anything to happen to you”) and Alain telling her to go home so she’d be safe

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kyotaniis  asked:

ive recently got into voltron and I immediately loved sheith. (well, klance + shance too but) and i was expecting some hate but when i finally got some i was shook. it hurt. i cried. i felt like i was the one that was wrong. but reading your posts made me feel confident. so thank you!!

omg,, u have no idea how much this means to me. 

getting hate is hard. its honestly one of the worst things in the world because it makes you doubt yourself and turns all of your thoughts inside out because what if. i struggle with this all the time. you are not alone, here. and i - as well as many others, im sure - will always be here to tell you that you are not what the antis say you are. 

but really, im just so glad that my posts make a small difference. really, thats my goal - to make others feel better about something that really isnt terrible at all. so im really glad that they helped you out  🐝 🌻 ☀️

bing-mjc-bones  asked:

So you didnt seem to get my other two posts about Good Friend/Lover/Fam Member Dazai, but like imagine. So here it is again, Like Dazai is all good and everything but imagine his face when someone close to him is hurt. He just snaps. And suddenly everyomes seeing the Demon Prodigy because hes so scared of losing everyone again and he cant let that happen oh god no dont make him suffer anymore. And he wont even think about snapping back at clients or strangers who are rude and mean....

I did! I did get it!!!

but i also love this so so much!!!!