and it has ruined her life

Off Limits (Skam - Chris x OC) Part 5

Pairing: Chris x OC

Synopsis: Mara Magnusson has always had everything she ever wanted in life, except for one thing. The boyish charm of her brother’s childhood friend had wrecked her poor heart and ruined her for any other guy – you can trust her, she has tried. She could see the way he looked at her, though she knew there were rules about not hitting on your best friend’s little sister. Luckily for her, there were no restrictions when it was the other way around.

Word count: 2.1k

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It all happened in less than five minutes but it felt like an eternity to Mara who stood aside, doing nothing. She wanted to, but she knew better than to step between two boys fighting and she was so shocked that it took her a solid minute before realizing what was going on before her very eyes. She started screaming at them, demanding that they fucking stop, but it was hopeless, neither of them listened. Everyone in the entire house must hear her yells but Chris and the other boy were too caught up in their display of strength.

When the Penetrators finally intervened, they grabbed the rude guy who overstepped his boundaries with Mara and held him back. William wasn’t there, he was nowhere to be found – he must have gone home with Noora. It was a blessing, because Chris would have been incapable of explaining his behavior to him. Protecting Mara from a handy rude fucker did not justify causing such a scene. Chris was about to dive in and resume beating the guy even though he could no longer return the punches, when Mara stepped in, placing herself right between Chris and his adversary.

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The Hollingsworths have all suffered from their abusive upbringing and are still affected by it but in quite different ways

Miles, who always took the brunt of it, is very self-destructive and acts out when he’s upset. He’s learned that he will be blamed no matter what and that quiet statements of dissatisfaction will be ignored, so he’s loud and defiant and flaunts his unhealthy behavior for all to see. It feels safer to him to ruin something before the other person can leave him than to wait for the inevitable abandonment.

Frankie, who could do no wrong so long as she did what she was asked, so long as she was obedient, has learned to stay quiet about her emotions and puts a lot of pressure on herself to always be perfect. The minute she starts worrying she’s not good enough, she worries that the people in her life don’t think she is either. A pressure to always be perfect and an emotional distance has left her needing constant validation from her relationships with others.

Hunter, who has never learned to process his emotions properly, finds it difficult to function socially and expresses every emotion with anger and violence, since that’s the only way he really knows how to express anything.

imo Miles and Frankie both have borderline personality disorder, just expressed a bit differently, while Hunter has intermittent explosive disorder.

anonymous asked:

the longer I think about season 2, the more I hate it? I think it's the probably the worst lovestory I have ever witnessed? Noora was so, so cool and badass and such a feminist in season 1 and her character had so much potential and then they ruined it all by turning her into a lovesick, insecure something that can't exist without a man in her life? I know all this has been said before but I'm so mad; Julie is an amazing woman so sometimes I can't understand HOW she was okay with what she wrote?

season 2 isn’t my favorite either, but julie said when people asked her about this exact thing, that there’s strength in being vulnerable. what kind of character would noora be if she didn’t have any weaknesses? not a realistic one, that’s for sure.

i know a lot of people like s2 and that’s totally fine! i think it definitely had its moments as well 💞

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Here you go, anon dear. And uh…backstory? Hmm…

Talon gets a hold of Winston’s unfinished blueprints (through Sombra maybe?) creates the chronal accelerator, and “saves” Tracer before Overwatch. After feeding her with lies about the Slipstream Flight Experiment, why she was selected to be its pilot, etc. Successfully manipulated and now filled with hate for Overwatch for ruining her sex life (can’t take the damn bulky chronal accelerator off ughhhhh), Tracer joins Talon and gets herself a hot purple girlfriend who happens to be her late boss’ ex wife. Also, the Latina freelancer flirts with her every chance she gets. Luckily, Sombra has her translocator or she would have been dead by the hot purple girlfriend’s hand.

PS Gabriel designed this outfit, not me.

i am really not surprised by blizzard pushing gency seeing as the entire plot to overwatch and its lore is blatantly racist. (omnic crisis reflecting black history in the us, omnic discrimination mirroring racism and characters making anti-omnic comments with no backlash or punishment.)

but it’s especially fucking disturbing and uncomfortable for me, as a person of color, to see this white woman who has ruined the lives of two different men of color being written to be in a romantic relationship with one of them. her whole character is a personification of the “white savior” trope/complex. she turned genji into a literal living weapon. to save his life she didn’t need to do that? she put weapons inside of him for no reason, forced him to kill his family, and destroyed the way he saw himself.

for me, gency is just an example of white people taking from us and telling us that we should be grateful for it. it may be in a fictional setting, but it’s a very real experience. i’m very uncomfortable with that. it’s a very degrading, very unsafe feeling.

the signs as women i have known
  • aries: would come to the store i worked at and talk to me about everything under the sun because we were both bored.
  • taurus: has a raspy little voice and loves to tell everyone how wrong they are. eats food more as a hobby and less of a need.
  • gemini: tunnel vision. can talk to you about the complicated physics of time but can't remember the names of most of her coworkers.
  • cancer: talked to my roommate on our porch in the freezing cold about how having his identity stolen was not going to ruin his life and what she can do to help him. the most nurturing person i've ever met.
  • leo: travel buddy. the kind of person you ask a question and she's already googled it for you. calculated and spontaneous at the same time.
  • virgo: diplomatic af. personable and kind. mothered me back to health when i blacked out at a party and ordered all of the ubers.
  • libra: we once bought an entire bottle of vodka, two loaves of bread, and an entire wheel of brie. we went to lush and asked them for all the samples they could reasonably give us.
  • scorpio: witch woman. sold rock grids on etsy for a while. went vegan and was the person who convinced me to switch to using a menstrual cup. owns a bong bigger than her entire torso.
  • sagittarius: told people she had ebola when she was involved with a trial vaccine for the disease just to see the look on peoples' faces.
  • capricorn: can remember every place i've ever asked her for a ride to and how to get there without having to ask for directions.
  • aquarius: had a business degree but could not figure out that the candy store we worked at wasn't doing well because we were surrounded by 7 other candy stores.
  • pisces: self destructive drinker. we both dated the same guy and tried to hate each other but couldn't. we run into each other once every six months or so and have conversations that last hours. we once held a funeral for a dragonfly while we were beyond fucked up.

my headcanons for real!graves include:

  • how he’d saved tina’s headstrong ass multiple times over her career and was the one to personally recommend her promotion to senior auror despite this
  • started checking in on Credence as a favor to Tina b/c he’s got a soft spot for orphans and hotheaded subordinates 
  • genuinely made the offer to teach Credence magic before Grindelwald ruined everything
  • he went to school with Picquery, back when he called her Phina, and they were fiercely competitive frenemies
  • worked with Picquery for over 20 years
  • he has the driest wit and could say the most outrageous thing with a straight face
  • his sense of justice is only matched by his protectiveness, esp. when it comes to his department of aurors
  • like he would literally take a magic bullet for any of them
  • he’s a lonely guy married to his work with no social life to speak of, his retirement plan consists of “die fighting the good fight”
  • nice clothes are his guilty pleasure and he’s secretly a flashy guy, aka scorpion collar pins
  • never throws his family name around and likes to think that he made it on his own merits
  • never forgets his secretary’s birthday, always lowkey gets her a gift
  • a little self-conscious about aging, has no idea how well he’s rocking that salt and pepper look 
  • truly just a dedicated wizard cop at heart

and that is why i cry at night thinking about how no one noticed Graves was replaced by a homicidal terrorist.

 
of bridges, horse bits & spaceships

I’ve been watching and analyzing Gilmore Girls for so many years it’s hard to even imagine, but one thing that always struck me is that this show has more in common with SciFi shows I love like Farscape or BSG than it does normal family dramas. Maybe that sounds silly, but the world ASP created has overarching themes that play out over & over again, characters that fit into specific archetypes & roles that serve specific purposes rather than just fumbling through life. ASP uses parallels, circular stories and other devices to tell these stories over and over again, to write herself into messes and then back out again. But while she writes about the same themes over and over again, she never quite tells the same story twice.


What am I trying to say? Well, that the revival story of Rory & Logan fits very nicely into the overarching themes that ASP has been mining since she introduced Logan in 2004. Rory wasn’t ruined, honestly, her hairbrained ideas about things remaining hers long after she should be considering other people’s feelings is a character trait that dates back to s3 & Shane. Once she decides something is hers it always is. Once she realized she still loved Logan she doesn’t care about anyone else’s feelings. It might not be the greatest character trait and might make you scratch your head wondering why she doesn’t just go for it again with Logan when she clearly still loves him…well that ties to something I’ll talk about in a few.


Rory’s story has always been one about leaving Stars Hollow, being a bridge between Lorelai-Richard & Emily, both literally and figuratively. She’s not supposed to be one or the other, but all three, not a carbon copy of Lorelai ever. Which is why the thing I found most disturbing during the revival is not her being pregnant or them cheating on two characters I have zero investment in, but her landing back in the Hollow professionally. It’s where she started, not where she belongs or where she’s supposed to end up. It’s her launching pad.


But I’ve also long said that the way Lorelai brought up Rory made her codependent. Rory needs a partner in life. Someone with a stronger personality - Lorelai/Logan - to push her to be the person she can be. To be her sounding board and cheerleader. Otherwise she tends to flounder. Or if that person is floundering, she does too. Her greatest moments come when linked with a partner - FNAFF which directly leads to her getting the editorship of YDN or the activities of YJIJJ which are related to Logan. Then her getting into Chiton - Lorelai pushes this and it leads to Yale and the opportunities Yale represents. Rory is at her most lost and unhappy when she doesn’t have a partner, look at S4.


That’s not to say Rory’s not a strong person, she is. But she’s got a quieter strength than Lorelai or even Logan, who both are openly stubborn and revel in defying expectations. Rory is more of a pleaser. Also, she learned her lesson the hard way about defying Lorelai’s wishes in S6 - Lorelai cutting her out of her life when Rory was at her lowest & not getting back in her good graces till Rory was back on the Lorelai approved Yale track. My personal feelings have always been that Rory never really fully recovers from that shunning and decisions she makes subsequently and that she’s still making are influenced by what happened then. To anyone that thinks I’m being too hard on Lorelai - she was the parent, the adult and she was not the one that was having the massive crisis of confidence. That was Rory.


Also, while Jess might’ve given her the idea for the book, it’s Logan’s support to defy Lorelai’s not wanting her to write it that ultimately pushes her to begin writing - at Richard & Emily’s home. Lorelai’s prison once again becoming Rory’s refuge. It also ties into the ‘lucky dress’ which comes up again & again. It’s what she was wearing when she meets Logan in Hamburg - for what’s implied is the first time in probably years. Logan is tied to her being ‘lucky.’ He gives her confidence to do things she would otherwise not believe she could do - hasn’t he always?


Logan’s story has always been a good look into the life Lorelai would’ve had had she not left Hartford. Expectation, obligation, and a horrible home life married to someone you don’t love. That’s still his life when we meet him again. If you don’t believe me, rewatch their first phone call in Summer & final convo in Fall. They are him either begging Rory to change things or a redo of their couch convo in Partings - him asking her to not let him go into his predestined life and her not stopping him. In Partings I loved it. Here, I think she’s so self doubtful - perhaps thinking she has nothing to truly offer him - that she can’t make a leap with him again. We’re dealing with a late S5, early s6 self doubting Rory in the revival, IMO.


Finn, Colin & Robert aren’t just irresponsible friends of Logan’s he needs to grow up and leave behind - they’re a physical manifestation of his rebellion to his predestined life. They show the audience that while he might be working for Mitchum & might be planning on marrying the new Fallon - his Huntzberger approved wife - Mitchum’s bit still does not quite fit. Mitchum’s long glance at Rory in his one scene tells me he knows this & he knows as long as Rory’s part of Logan’s life, Mitchum’s not won this game yet. He knows Rory’s a threat - that Logan’s only true out is Rory, who Logan practically begs to push the escape hatch button for him. [This is one area that ASP does need to further explain what she took from S7 & what she didn’t. Because why IS Logan back with HPG to being with? Did he ever even leave?]


Where does Lorelai fit in all this? Well, they’re all named Lorelai for a reason. She may be the Reigning Lorelai, but here she plays the role of Lorelai I disapproving of Richard’s choice of Emily, championing the fiancée he chose to leave behind for the woman he loved and the life he chose. Rory turned Logan down not just because she didn’t want to get married so young. To have a wide open future. She also turned Logan down because she didn’t want to disappoint Lorelai - go back to the schism. Lorelai didn’t have to expressly voice her disapproval of Logan - she’d been doing it for three years already and Rory had heard her many sermons on similar subjects since infancy. Harvard, not Yale, Rory doesn’t make the final decision to go to Yale though it’s obvious that’s what she wants & the blue/grey/white theme has been around since the pilot, till Lorelai lets her know it’s okay, she’s okay with it. At some point Lorelai has to stop telling Rory she’s going to find someone who she’ll be happy with and realize - Rory already has.


Does a baby solve anything? No, not really. What it does is make everyone take another look at what they’ve done & the choices they’ve made. Why is the girl that had a CHOICE poster on her wall in college keeping this baby? Is a 34 year old man going to make the same choices as a 16 year old boy? Does an adult Logan who keeps trying to choose Rory over and over again really have the lack of commitment that a 16 year old Christopher had? What I do know is that ASP has talked about there being more story to tell since she started talking about the revival. Rory’s journey to happiness is that final piece of the puzzle and I have no doubt that it won’t be the same as Lorelai’s. Lorelai’s experience with bringing up Rory as a single mom is where we start, not necessarily where we end.


What this portion of the revival did was fit into themes that tie back to the pilot and weave throughout the show - as Rory and logan’s story always has. It’s about more than two people that have loved one another for 12 years having an affair. It’s even about more than the fact that they clearly adore one another and are one another’s best friends and touchstones - they know EVERYTHING going on in the others lives and he’s the one she can’t quit subconsciously calling when things are starting to get out of sorts with Lorelai. Those are the things that the Sophie since 2004 in me loved, but the fan of the show that’s been analyzing it for 16 years also sees the themes revisited, the through lines of their story that’s been part of them since WITS and especially YJIJJ. This all fits within those stories that have been told before or calls back to them, waiting for their twist and turn to make the outcome uniquely theirs.


To me Gilmore Girls has ultimately been not about Rory being Lorelai or not being Lorelai or Emily approving of or understanding Lorelai’s choices or not. It’s about these people ultimately accepting that they’re not just carbon copies of one another - Trix again - and being okay with the choices they each make for their own happiness. Emily has done that with Lorelai, it’s now Lorelai’s turn to do that for Rory. That’s the true completion of the circle and a story I’m eager to see.

  • Eurus: Saved her? From what? Oh, do be sensible! There were no explosives in her little house. Why would I be so clumsy? You didn’t win. You lost. Look what you did to her. Look what you did to yourself. All those complicated little emotions, I lost count. Emotional context, Sherlock. It destroys you. Every time.
  • Sherlock: *smashes molly hooper's fake cuffin*
  • Me: *SCREAMING* DID HE JUST ACCEPT HIS FEELINGS FOR HER?! THANK YOU GOD! THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME SEE THIS SCENE THAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YEARS.
  • Also me: *sobbing*
I clear my own path. What was once deep within me—the slow drip of life that has slipped away and turned me into this livid creature sucking the night dry—no longer matters. The silence that fills me takes my breath away.

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I walk, even if I’d rather run toward myself. The night quivers. The city trembles. I have gone. Nothing can stop me now.
—  Ananda Devi, from Eve Out of Her Ruins tr. Jeffrey Zuckerman
Cookies and Cuddles

Summary: Reader has a really bad day, including a bad date and missing snacks. Bucky is the only one who can make her feel better, even if she doesn’t know it. 

Bucky Barnes X Reader

Word Count: 1436

Warnings: Bad writing, period stuff, cranky as hell reader.

A/N: Hi! I hope this is okay! My period decided to ruin my day and apparently this is what I got out of that! Feedback would be amazing, as I want to get better with writing! If you wanna be tagged in stuff, please let me know :)

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I’m sorry but I need this to be said

This is my mother.
This is my mother mentally abusing me.

My mother has ruined my life in the following ways:

Divorced my father and took me with her, causing him to spiral into depression

Called me FATASS for eating anything

Called me stupid for not getting As in math

Forbid me from having friends at my birthday party

She’s beaten me several times

She’s ignoring my opinion

She’s treated me like garbage

She’s left s scar on me

She’s kicked me out multiple times

She’s the reason I tried to kill myself last year

She’s the reason I need therapy

My therapist looked at me like I was crazy when I told her of what my mothers done

My mom has ignored me being extremely sick and sent me to school (throwing up sick)
Which made it worse

She threw a plate at my head

She dragged me across carpet by my legs

She’s slapped me

She once acted like I beat her when I bumped into her and winced everytime I came near her

She make my suicide attempt about herself

And the worst part?

The police can’t arrest her. We called them.
At the time there wasn’t a mark on me, like a bruise or cut. We waited too long so any red marks were gone

Please remember mental abuse is a thing, and it’s a very, very serious thing. It affects so many children but nothing is done.


Thank you for your time.

Off Limits (Skam - Chris x OC) Part 1

Pairing: Chris x OC

Requested by anon. I turned this into an OC thing because I’m trying to distance myself from the reader inserts. But you can just overlook the first name and simply imagine it’s you. I will probably physically describe OC at some point, since you requested she’s William’s sister, I figured they’d look alike.

Synopsis: Mara Magnusson has always had everything she ever wanted in life, except for one thing. The boyish charm of her brother’s childhood friend had wrecked her poor heart and ruined her for any other guy – you can trust her, she has tried. She could see the way he looked at her, though she knew there were rules about not hitting on your best friend’s little sister. Luckily for her, there were no restrictions when it was the other way around.

Word count: 1.4k

A/N: From now on I won’t be able to spend my entire days writing like I did with Play Me, so to make sure you won’t have to wait too long between each chapter I decided to write short chapters (yes, Yours Truly has finally decided to become a reasonable person) Enjoy this little foretaste!

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>>> Part 2

Other Chris x OC fic: Play Me

Some things are simply not meant to be. Even when people maximized their chances by doing everything in their power to achieve their goal, it wasn’t always enough. Like in this maddening scene in Titanic where Jack can’t get on the floating door, and after everything he has gone through to be with Rose, he just dies. Well, maybe this was a little bit dramatic, chances are you won’t die in real life, you will just be really, really frustrated because all your efforts are thrown into the trash. But she was drifting from the subject.

Somehow, Mara’s brother had befriended the one guy who was simultaneously the absolute worst and the best thing that has ever happened to her. William and Chris were inseparable friends since- since always. As far as her memory goes, Chris has always been in their lives. He was like family to a certain extent – and that was precisely her problem.

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Remus Lupin is so fucking extra though? Like, everyone calls Sirius dramatic but Remus has like two settings: 0 and 100.
Like in Snape’s Worst Memory he’s all: hexing is bad and I want no part in this, but then he sees Peter and is like: hey friend time to die
He’s on Sirius’s back all the time like ‘chill man we need to think things through’ but then he’s like ‘so I married Tonks but in hindsight nah I’ll ruin her life so I’m coming on an adventure k?’
He’s super chill paring off Snape: 'marauders map? Nah mate no idea I guess I’ll just take it off yours hands goodnight’ then at the mention of Sirius Black’s name he throws his suitcase half way across the room 'how dare you? accuse me? Sirius Black?!?’
He’s just either so chill or so over the top like oh my god

Let me just get this off my chest:

Lana and Alicia are involved in such stupid, pointless couple-y storylines, with promos that… god, send help, because they’re hideous. Creative just… gah. Yet, y’all only seem to be bothered by Renee, because you hate her for some reason (not judging, everyone is entitled to have opinions) and you think she’s ruining Dean (???).

You realise that she’s having the exact same role as Lana and Alicia right? Especially Lana, because she also has a real-life relationship with Rusev. So in that line of thought of some of you, she’s also ruining her partner, she’s in a storyline with him, he’s on Total Divas because of her, she’s exposing him… right?!

I get that Dean deserves more than this shitty storyline… I agree. But, don’t Enzo? Or Rusev? Or Alicia? Or Lana? Or Renee? deserve more too?

I hate how creative keeps materializing women and make these stupid storylines, as if they all are there because X or Y is their significant other. And it’s not. They don’t depend on their men. Renee is an interviewer and she didn’t need this shit. Dean is a wrestler and he didn’t need this shit. Neither did The Miz and Maryse. Nor Lana and Rusev. Nor Enzo and Big Cass. They are all hard workers.

This is not about Deanee or Renee or whatever. This is about WWE.

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Test prints~ These are in A4.

The paper quality is good but the colors is a bit darker so I think I have to find another printer ; w ;

Also my cousin has ruined the lining one with her crayon lmfao. She colored Makkachin with pink Imma cry…

One of my goals in life is to become well-known enough to be on panels someday. And when/if that happens, I would like to start a tradition that one person at every event (which allows questions) will ask me, “Quoth the Raven?”

And at every event, I will have something different and snarky that the Raven has said.

“Your decorating sucks, you emo bastard!”

“UGH, who even CARES about this stupid poem anymore?!”

“ENOUGH STANZAS! ENOOOOUUUUGH!”

“Thanks for ruining Eighth Grade English for everyone who can’t memorize, jerkwad.”

“Goth girls are going to tattoo me on themselves for centuries because of you…”

“Omg, it’s not Nevermore, it’s PHIL, okay? Fucking PHIL.”

“If you don’t stop moaning over this Lenore chick, I will literally go and get someone’s eyeball to throw at you. Might be hers, might not be. Write a poem about THAT.”

“You gonna share any of that absinthe, or….?”

“Wow, man, your posthumous biographer was a DICK!”

Life goals. Somebody make this happen.