I’m going away on a big group larp trip this summer. Since I’m going alone I’ve been chatting with some of the people, making friends and what not. So far so good, everyones really nice.
I started talking to this one kid a couple weeks ago…and honestly I’m kind of blown away. So far he’s kind of perfect. We have the same personality, the same hobbies and love of RP, and so many similar life experiences. Hes like a male version of me. He’s stupid funny and goofy, super attractive, has the cutest smile, has this amazing sexy voice and does hilarious impressions (which I laugh at way too hard). Best of all we’re never lost for words. We’ve skyped a few times now and each time I’ve stayed up all night until 7 in the morning without even realizing.
Anyways, I’ve learned he’s a Daddy Dom, and we share all of the same kinks. Like, even kinks I’ve never shared with anyone due to embarrassment.
I feel this stupid connection with him. I was instantly so comfortable with him. And he says he feels the same way about me. But we both just went through really shitty complicated break ups so were TRYING to be chill and take things slow. But its hard when you have this instant intensity with someone. We’re trying not to put any pressure on each other since we live on opposite ends of the continent and will be meeting for one week at this event in August, and maybe not ever again. I mean I’m not really a fan of long distance, but damn I really like this guy! It just came out of no where and is so exciting and fresh and makes me feel so good.
I’m trying not to let this be a rebound. I don’t really know how to feel about this whole thing right now. It feels so natural and organic that it scares me a little. I have a habit of projecting “perfection” onto people and getting hurt. But, due to the long distance circumstances I should just relax and have fun. No expectations and all that. This should be easy. I’m mostly scared that we’ll meet in person, have a fantastic week together, and then never see each other again.
Idk I’m ranting at this point. Just thought I’d let you all know whats up with me :3