and im probably going to lose you

I wasn’t 16 or 18 when I started to use
I was 22
Everyone else had already been through
What I was going through
Looking at my reflection in a silver spoon
The smell of vinegar and smoke haunt the room
Try to cover it up with cheap perfume
And you probably assume
I ain’t got much to lose
But, you’re wrong, I do
And between me and you
I got no excuse
I could of chose booze
Cigarettes too
But what’d I choose?
Heroin and oxys blue
Killing myself over that sticky black goo


So Ive just doodle scribbled (yeah right it took like 5 hours) this here drawing because I’m going to have a slot with the SUPERNATURAL ARTBOOK (link is up above)


but I wont be posting it until after the artbook is out. (That’s a rule) You should really really check out the artbook because even if you don’t want to sign up for it then it has a ton of great artist lined up and they’re worth a look. I haven’t gone through and followed everyone yet but to be honest I probably will they’re all impressive.


Jisung didn’t get plastic surgery. What we saw on Gayo Daejun was just a job of extreme contouring. You can see in these before and after pics that his nose still looks the same. Plus, Jisung’s a growing guy, at 14 years old it’s expected that his looks are going to change, and I’m pretty sure all of us are familiar with losing a bit of baby fat here and there?

I probably sound like a petty fan here lol but I felt the need to clear up these rumors because frankly, even though we’ve all heard bad stuff coming from SM, I think it’s ridiculous that they’d give plastic surgery to a 14-year-old boy.

With plastic surgery, there are so many things to consider. It could effectively make him look strange growing up with a nose job–it could not end up fitting in with his grown face at all. Being an industry known for being superficial, where looks supposedly nearly matter the most, I don’t think it’s a risk they’d be willing to take.

Plus, when would Taeyong ever allow such a thing to happen to his bby Jisung ???

(note: the pictures on the right are all pictures of Jisung during Gayo Daechukje, after Gayo Daejun when the rumors started)

I didn’t come to play it safe
I came to win or lose with you

this took…….far longer than it should have pff

okay unpopular opinon: trade Murray. I know it’s crazy and will never happen but hear me out for a second. Everyone’s talking about getting our worth out of Fleury because we don’t want to lose him in the expansion draft etc. etc. But we could get so much out of Murray. Some more defense? a new liney for Geno? literally anything you want. And this whole “veteran goalie vs new upcoming goalie” debacle is going to happen again in a few years anyways with Murray vs Jarry when all of our players inevitably get injured and we have to call up Jarry. It could very well be my sentimental Fleury-loving ass in denial but if he supposedly is on his way out then might as well use up his last years with us with the safe notion of Jarry preparing for the big leagues (which he will more than likely be joining eventually)

anonymous asked:

Just to say i love you julia. Ive cried so much tonight. Im hirting. I dont know where to go from here. Ive loved SC as a couple for years and my heart is breaking.

yikes anon if this is making you cry, I think you may need to take a step back and re-evaluate. we made it through all of the absolute shit of last year and have had a fantastic 6 weeks and now because of some more dumb innuendo that probably isn’t even legit, everyone is losing their damn minds. like I said earlier, RELAAAAAAX. think about what we’ve seen, what we know and breathe. and don’t do anything stupid :)

anonymous asked:

(Im getting too into this) Probably not gonna happen, but I thought that at one point Hellas or Annieth (during TOG7 or whenever) have a fae/mortal form. The other then does everything in their power to get to the one already there. But that person is forever to be in that fae/mortal form so they can't go back their realm because the risked it all. But they don't care because all that matters is getting the other to their own realm.

Dude why the hell aren’t you writing this shit down in fic form the Elorcan shippers would lose their damn minds

If I see the phrase “welcome to being a boy mom” one more damn time I’m probably going to lose it.
Kids get hurt.
It doesn’t matter if they have a vagina or a penis.
They will climb shit.
They will fall.
They will get hurt in a preventable accident because kids are kids and thats just apart of life.
Some kids are more accident prone/ clumsy/ adventurous than others. 

My response to the post on “30 questions to test your personality”

If you could have one breakfast for tomorrow knowing it’s the last day you will live, what would that be?

uh, maybe pancakes (but not american) and eggs? with apple juice and tea

Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you like as a dinner guest?

assuming i can only pick one person, i’d probably say someone like emma watson or amandla stenberg

Before making a phone call, do you ever rehearse what you are going to say? Why?

um, yes. I hate talking on the phone, and i wont do it unless i have to, and unless it’s my bff i will rehearse what im gonna say. idk why, i guess it’s an aspect of my anxiety and fear of losing control over the conversation? 

If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else about your life, what would you want to know?

i’d want to know if im gonna stop feeling like im wasting my life

If you knew in one year you would die suddenly, what would you change about the way you are living your life now?

I’d rather not know, i dont think i would be able to handle the knowledge, and i might even plan another date to die on just bc i would want to not be powerless? i’d probably travel and go to concerts with my friends, and family. also i’d stop caring abt other peoples opinions and i would stop attending college bc who has the time?

Do you think your name affects your personality or choice of career?

um, i think  it might affect the way others see u? Like i know my Iranian uncle has had some issues with his last name in airports and stuff? I also think you can have a privileged name, and if u dont have that you’re probably forced to care about stuff like social justice a lot more bc you might be a victim of some form of oppression. 

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?

idk? a lot older than i am. 

If happiness was the national currency, what job would make you rich?

Being an author of books with diversity

Do you push buttons more than once and do you believe that makes it work faster?

I do sometimes, but i don’t believe it’ll make anything go faster

Would you want to be friends with yourself?

dang im trying to be it’s really hard. but i would like to meet my clone/doppelganger bc i feel like there’s a lot of stuff that i want to talk about but not with anyone else 

If you won a million dollars (or some large sum of money) would you quit your job?

if it was enough money to keep me going for the rest of my life yes, i would. I’d start studying a lot of the things i actually care about and travel where i wanted to and i’d go to concerts no matter where on earth they took place

Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?

yeah, but not like mysteriously an time-loop-y

Are you really wasting time if you’re enjoying it?

im definitely wasting time 

Would you rather lose all your money and valuables or all the pictures you’ve taken?

oh my god. i guess the pictures? i dont take a lot of pictures, and i have some stuff im really incredibly fond off. 

Would you rather have a horrible short-term memory or a long-term memory?

horrible short term, which is what i already have. I wouldnt be able to handle not knowing stuff long term. like i treasure my memories a lot

Would you rather go back to age five with everything you’ve learned or live now with everything you’ll learn in the future?

im not sure. i dont think so. i dont like being self aware

Are humans better at construction or destruction?

i think we’re all sorta fascinated by destruction. When u learn to get the same thrill from creation is when you’ve found a good headspace

What is a year of life worth? What about a day?

how do you messeaure a year? listen im rent trash. It’s all about love, and that includes self-love. If u dont have love (not necessarily happiness, but love), then nothing is really worth anything. 

Are emotions necessary for human survival

from my own experience, no. you can function perfectly fine when you dont feel anything ever, emotions just makes living so much more purposeful. 

What is the TLDR version of your life?

a mess trying sort out their brain

What should they teach in high school but don’t?

how to adult. finding a place to live, how to pay rent/find good internet/your options besides going to university. 

What inscription do you want on your gravestone?

idk if im gonna have one, i want to be buried in one of those urns that grows into trees, so hopefully i’ll be in a forrest. i havent really thought abt a hypothetical gravestone tbh

If you had thirty seconds to send a message to the entire world, what would you say?

we have to be better than we are right now - please try to remember that everyone is human, and deserve support, respect and basic human rights, even if and when it impacts those more privileged. 

If you could ask a single person a question, and they had to answer truthfully, who and what would it be?

listen i dont know  either one of those  but  do want to know if aliens exists. 

What is honor and does it matter?

idk, i think honor can often lead to stubbornness 

Do you see yourself as the hero or the villain in your story?

Is being open-minded a virtue if it allows destructive ideas to spread through society?

hmmm i think u just need to be open minded in the form of being accepting of others, and trying to show respect in your interactions and disagreements 

What questions would you ask your future self?

Was it all worth it? Did you have a good life? got any tips on how to make us happy?


im sorry im in a bad mood today but honestly its like… its inevitable that someone’s gonna share a kin with you. and its very probable that someone, maybe even a friend, will go “huh, that character seems relatable!” when you bring it up. it’s not stealing.
and when you lose that friend BECAUSE of the so-called kinstealing, thats… really… idk. it just makes me feel iffy. im sorry if this was rude though, i just needed to get this out of my system

anonymous asked:

Im 5'1 (lol i stopped growing when i was 13) + im really flatchested and i feel that i lose more weight when i dont exercise and just eat a little than when i go to volleyball practice and eat a bit more than when i dont. any reason why? + any exercise tips for skinnier arms i have fat arms and it anoys me so much because i already have a thigh gap

Pushups and lifting weights would help wirh your arms, and the reason you probably lose more weight is cause you’re eating less, it’s probably not as healthy as going to volley ball practice and eating more but it will help you lose weight cause you’re consuming less calories. I don’t Excersize so I have like no Excersize tips sorry

lmao honestly this election is hillary clinton’s to lose so im really just sitting over here laughing at everyone saying “TRUMP WILL WIN IF YOU DONT VOTE FOR CLINTON” like…… the average tumblr user is so much further left than the average american voter please go outside and talk to even five people and ask them what they think bc i can guarantee to you that most voters in this country couldnt give a fuck about war crimes or islamophobia or probably even give a passable definition of the word “cisgender” so….. please

anonymous asked:

For the date thingy, i'm 5'5, light brown hair (usually in a messy bun tho 'cause why try lmao), hazel eyes, p a l e skin. defining features: i have rlly nice eyelashes n eyebrows i think. Im probably a little bit too into acting and poetry, so be prepared for some shakespeare-esque poems directed at you. for the first date i'd legit go with whatever you wanted to do bc im shy as heck, but if you're down for sitting at a campfire at night then,,, hit me up ;))

awww holy shit you sound like a genuine cutie i’d definitely date ya!! like ur into rad stuff and i love people that are super invested in their hobbies, it’s really cool to see someone lose themselves in things they enjoy doing omfg.

Me: *tells dad about how my bus driver woulda left me if I hadn’t gotten back on the bus on time the other day and because of that I ran to get my phone without a break and almost had an asthma attack*

My dad: she musta been black

My bus driver: *is probably sitting at home right now being white because SHES NEARLY AD PALE AS I AM*


Me irl: uh… She’s just about as pale as I am

My dad: *says something about black people but calls them the n word*

Me, getting ready to lose my god damn shit: yeah I gg I wanna write a bit and go to bed bye

I swear my dad is disgusting

Friendly Fire (pt. 8)

part seven • epilogue

Bucky x Reader

Summary: You were tired and your hair was a mess. All you were doing was putting your hair up, but the hair tie had other plans. Now you’re in this little prank war with Bucky. Who will win, who will lose?

Words: 1,142 lmao whoops

Warnings: none 

Notes: this is the end! :D im considering writing an epilogue depending if you want one?? if so, then i could “introduce” the next thing im planning on writing, which is probably going to be a one shot. anyways, im going on vacation to Mammoth Lakes from the 18th - 22nd. i cant bring my laptop (i know omg) so i cant write and post. when i come back, ill start my writing up again! 
i hope you guys enjoyed this series, as much as i did writing it ♥

There was no way you were going to stay. This entire mess was because of you, so the least you could do was try to fix it and apologize to Bucky. And Sam, for dragging him into this.

You went back to your room to grab your shoes, and began to leave. On your way out, you passed by Wanda’s room and noticed that the door was ajar.

I can’t just leave like that.
I should at least let someone know where I’m going

“Hey, Wanda? I’m going to check on the guys” you called out, only to receive silence back.

You poked your head through, taking note that she wasn’t there. Now that you thought about it, you hadn’t seen her, or anyone else all day. The last time you saw her, was this morning when she told you about your prank being a bad idea.

Great. She’s probably upset with me too.

You left her door slightly open, just like how you found it and left. Once you stepped onto the grass, you began running towards the trees, to the spot that you watched Natasha disappear into. The entire facility was almost hidden by trees, but it wasn’t dense forest. The trees were rather evenly spread out. As you approached the trees, you noticed something peculiar.

Is that.. Music?

A confused expression spread along your face. After all the times that you’ve walked along the edge of the trees, not once have you ever heard anything, especially music. You started walking further, slowly stepping over any branches to keep from making any sound.

After ten minutes of steady stepping, the trees finally started breaking. The sound of music became more clearer. There were lights that shined through the leaves, causing them to illuminate soft hues of greens and yellows.

You took a deep breath, and ventured the last few steps past the trees.

“What’s going on?” you asked out.

Almost everyone was here. Clint and Natasha were sitting at the large wooden round table, with matching chairs. They were in some kind of deep conversation, not even noticing you. Nat’s legs were on Clint’s lap, while his arms rested on them.

Wanda was sitting on the grass, showing Vision how to make a flower crown from the little flowers that grew around them. Steve and Sam were by the grill chatting, while Tony stood by with a drink in hand, making sure Steve didn’t break the grill again.

“Well hello, doll”

Your gaze moved to the opposite side, landing on glacier blue eyes. Bucky had this playful smirk on his face, the kind that made it difficult not to look at.

“Buck.. What’s going on?” you questioned him, “What happened to you and Sam?? How is-”

“The sweetest kind of revenge” he chuckled.

“What?” you replied, still confused as hell.

“Look’s like someone isn’t good at following orders” Nat called out from the table, causing Clint to shake his head playfully.

Steve handed the spatula to Tony, and walked over to you with Sam. You met them halfway, and quickly started circling Sam. You placed your hand on his face, turning his head in all directions before stepping back.

“Where are the cuts and bruises??” you asked Sam.

He shook his head, chuckling, “Oh that? I got some of that super soldier serum baby, it’s all healed.”

Bucky shot him a look, lifting his eyebrow up. Natasha came up to you, with Clint by her side as well.

“Can someone please explain? Seriously, I’ve been here for like ten minutes already and I’m still so lost” you begged.

They all looked at each other for a moment and laughed.

“Alright, I think she’s suffered enough” Steve said, nodding at Natasha to explain.

“Well you see, this was all Bucky’s plan” Nat began with.

After a few minutes of explaining Bucky’s elaborate plan, you were quiet. This entire thing, was a prank. From Sam’s kiss, to the fight that him and Bucky staged.

“What about the hole in the wall?” you asked Bucky.

“Wait, what hole??” Tony asked, giving Bucky and Sam a wide stare.

“Oh, uh yeah about that” Bucky explained, “I might’ve gotten a bit carried away.”

“A bit? We almost crashed into a damn tree because you couldn’t grab both my legs!” Sam exclaimed, bursting into laughter.

Everyone began laughing once more, bringing up their favourite moments of the prank. As the laughter died down, the music began to roam the air. A slow song started playing, something from maybe the 40′s or 50′s? You already knew that Steve was the one who chose the playlist.

“Would you like to accompany with this dance, Wanda?” Vision asked softly.

Wanda blushed lightly, before getting up and moving to the open space.

Clint looked at Natasha, nodding once to the side. Nat smiled, and they both followed Vision and Wanda. You watched as they became tied into one another, slowly moving to the rhythm of the song.

“Care to dance, love?”

You looked up to meet Bucky’s hand placed out in front of you. He was smiling softly, not breaking eye contact. You raised your eyebrow, giving him a smirk.

“You at least owe me, for kissing Sam” he replied, gently chuckling.

“Technically, that was on you Barnes” you said, taking his hand.

As you made your way to the open space, Bucky gently placed his arm around your waist, pulling you closer. Slowly dancing to the song, you couldn’t help but wonder.

“Hey, Buck?” you asked. Your head was laying along his chest, acknowledging his steady heartbeat.


“Did you really have a crush on me, or was that a part of the prank?”

He stopped dancing, and placed his metallic hand under your chin, lifting you up to face him.

“Actually, I do” he quietly admitted, “I have, for quite a while now.”

“Then why the pranks?” you questioned.

“I guess you just brought the kid out of me. After all those years I spent trapped, I lost who I was. I forgot the little details about myself, but being around you, reminds me of the good times I’ve had. Don’t get me wrong, being around Steve is great too but I-”

You couldn’t help yourself; you placed your hand behind Bucky’s head and pull him in close and gently kissed him. It was a soft, simple kiss.

“Truce?” you smiled.

Bucky pulled you back in, placing his lips along yours once more. His hands moved to the side of your face, his thumb subtly caressing your cheek. You passionately kissed him, your hands intertwining in his hair. He broke the kiss, causing you to miss the warmth of his lips. He laid his forehead against yours, smiling.


thoughts? comments?

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anonymous asked:

how much time will take to lose about 35 pounds if i eat 500 calories a day and sometime exercise?

Probably about 4 or 5 months. But only is you exercise pretty rapidly.

just know that I’m only 16 years old and not certified, im just going off my own experiences

Like I’m Gonna Lost You; Sherlock x Reader

Requested by Anon: Hiii i know youre probably going back to school (so are we 😫😭) but i cant stop myself from asking you to write sherlock songfic for like im gonna lose you by meghan trainor (like in the reichenbach fall or in his last vow episode its up to you really) no pressure tho. Love youuu~<3

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