and im nothing like you dont want me to be

anonymous asked:

So Julia hi, I actually never came out to my parents I just joked about it a lot like 'I wont have kids, I wont marry a man' and once my mom made a joke like 'At least one of you will marry a girl' (referring to my brother, I have another sister, she thought our brother was gay) and I butted in like 'maybe two of us' and I got some looks but nothing came off it, but the story i want to tell you is how i came out to my class like my school class, accidentally. 1

Same anon here sorry, so the story begins and it was summer still, and like i already came out to my friends as bi and well im not the most popular girl but i have a healthy relationship with most guys of my class and like i dont remember what was said in the group chat of our class but a boy asked me, ‘but werent you lesbian’ witch i corrected 'bi’ and well to be honest i didnt think it but it did surprised me that no one teased me about my sexuality, that’s nice, bye anon out. 2


ah well thats cool :O and come out to ur fam when ur comfortable, not bc you want to force yourself

  • Connor: i love the fact that like… if you wanted to you could throw a chair… stool…. lamp… medium sized houseplant… even a lightweight table…. theres nothing physically stopping you from throwing furniture around, only social constructs and your own cowardice.
  • Evan: Don’t! Hurt! Your! Plants! They love and trust you all they are doing is being cute and green and making oxygen for your sorry ass to breathe
  • Connor: they dont “love” me or “trust” me. they know im a bastard and i know they are too and both of us are fully prepared for the day one of us kills the other
random bios

c stewrtz 

  • do not be worried about what people think of you
  • when it’s over, leave.
  • im such a sarcastic bitch
  • go ahead. do your worst.
  • im senseless
  • too fucking cute for this
  • enjoy the silence
  • everytime you smile at me i fall in love over and over again
  • it’s awful to want to go away
  • no words can explain the way i miss you
  • my heart talks about nothing but you
  • i cant and i dont to want see another thing
  • millions of stars in the sky, but all i wanna do is stare into your eyes
  • is there no way out of the mind?
  • they say i act like i dont give a fuck, i tell them im not acting
  • if you think of pulling the trigger, keep in mind that I could still shoot first
  • three word story: pain changes people
  • i don’t need a Valentine, i need Valentino
  • i’m all yours i got no control
  • lets do what we love and do a lot of it
  • have the courage to follow your heart
  • i’ll never be good enough at anything
  • i like the storms, they let me know that even the sky scream sometimes
  • you can dye your hair, buy new clothes, you can change your shoes, rearrange your nose but it don’t change the fact that you’re ugly on the inside
  • i don’t wanna be your friend, i wanna kiss your neck
  • if you never shoot i’ll never know

anonymous asked:

your neighbor aus are so cute!! can you do jun, jeonghan, and hansol please??

aww thank you!! sure, ill also add in dino to complete the neighbor!17 series ~

joshua, mingyu & seungkwan can be found (here) ~
wonwoo, hoshi & seungcheol can be found (here) ~
seokmin, woozi & minghao can be found (here) !~ 


  • you’re pretty sure you saw him in a movie once, but you’re not a hundred percent sure. everyone in the building is sure they’ve seen him on tv,,,,but was it a movie? a commercial? a show? no one ever truly finds out,,,,,
  • sometimes every1 is like “he looks too rich to be living here”
  • but tbh jun loves the attention like he won’t admit it outloud but please,,,,,,,he probably poses in the elevator ever so subtly and everyone is like oh my look at how handsome and in jun’s head he’s like ‘mhm this is my angle take it all in, i look great from a 45 degree tilt to the left’
  • jun is doing the most basically 
  • model walks in his plaid pajama bottoms and flip flops, bends and snaps when he throws out the garbage. you will nEVER catch him off guard
  • his apartment is pretty cool though because jun is the type to splurge. so like big TV,,,expensive blankets,,,,,,,probably one of those glass coffee tables that are super fancy and jun doesn’t even know he has expensive tastes it’s just like second nature to him 
  • oh and he has mirrors
  • like a lot of them
  • when will any of us reach this level of Self Confidence t b h
  • and you’re like pretty familiar with jun because photography is your hobby and he’s always asking you if you guys bump into each other if you can ever help him take some headshots since he wants to try out for modeling
  • like you always agree but halfheartedly because you’re not sure if you want to work with someone,,,,,,,,,,as high maintenance as he seems
  • but one day you get caught by jun coming back from the park where you took some photos and he’s like are you free now??? and you’re like mIGht as well get it over with,,,,,,,,,
  • so you tell him yes and that he should come over since you have some lighting equipment @ your place
  • and jun,,,,you notice as you’re setting up is a little fidgety. like he keeps looking at his reflection in his phone and biting back his lip and you’re like ???? i thought he was like super confident about his looks but he seems,,,,nervous 
  • and you’re like “are you ok?” and jun snaps out of it and desperately seems to try and hide his feelings with a sly looking grin and he’s like “of course~!”
  • and you ask him to sit and face forward and,,,,,he does but then he like tilts his head a bit and you’re like “i need you to look straight if you want me to get a good shot” and he’s like oh! sorry
  • and he does it but you can see his eyes flashing worry and you’re like “,,,,hey are you really ok?”
  • and jun laughs, again obviously hiding what he’s really feeling and he’s like “fine! i just don’t think i look too great if you see all of my face like this”
  • and you damn near drop your camera because what the HELL is he talking about and you even say it, like literally, you’re like what the hell are you talking about
  • and jun scratches the back of his neck and tries to wave it off but he’s like “i look the worst from the front, my angle and profile is way be-”
  • and you’re like picking your camera back up and you’re like “you look like a handsome actor up front, don’t even say something like that.” and jun looks at the lense and you snap a couple of photos then go over to show him 
  • and you’re like “look at your jaw, and your skin??? it’s a gorgeous color, softly tan,,,,and your eyes are so strong and distinctive?? your nose is like the perfect size! you don’t even need touch ups - you’re naturally stunning.”
  • and you don’t notice it but jun is looking up at you and his smile turns into a bit of a smirk and he’s like “you think im stunning?” 
  • and you’re like yes!! and his smirk gets bigger and he’s like “i think you’re pretty stunning too-”
  • and you’re like me???? what- but then you catch the smirk from the corner of your eye and you like playfully push his shoulder and tell him not tease
  • but jun shrugs and he’s like “what, it’s true. you’re very nice to look at too.”
  • and you brush it off, hiding your face behind your camera as you get ready to take more photos of him
  • but you know,,,,,,turns out he isn’t all that high maintenance,,,,,,,tbh he listens really well to you and you get a lot of shots
  • and as you’re both looking at them you feel jun’s hand sneak around your shoulder,,,,his body closer to yours but like,,,,,,,you don’t mind,,,,,,,i mean,,,,,,,,,,,,,who would mind lbr
  • jun insists that he should pay you back for taking his photo and you’re like it’s fine and then he’s like ‘ok, then let me just take you out on a date because i really really want to.’ and you’re like DONT joke about that but jun’s like im not joking????? let’s go on a date??? gorgeous people need to stick together you know~~~~


  • the neighbors call him ‘the perfect son-in-law’
  • because they want all their daughters to get married to him because he seems like the perfect man: good looks, good manners, good brains like WOW the whole damn package
  • and jeonghan is always so humble and modest about the nickname he’s like “marriage? oh im not ready” or “im nothing compared to your daughter”
  • (but in reality he’s just like lol please leave me alone i want to go home and take a nap. he’s just,,,,not saying that because that would be rude LOL)
  • he’s always really soft looking. like he never leaves the house with bed head, owns many warm looking sweaters, always reading some classic literature and seemingly listening to au clair de la lune 
  • just a real live fairy human,,,,angel,,,,,,,glowing force of beauty?
  • and his apartment is the same. like fight me on this but jeonghan would have some dried flowers hanging on his walls, paintings by like monet, a fuzzy white carpet, and like vintage looking furniture you’d feel like you were in a story book
  • and he like even set up a little corner of his apartment with a drawing easel,,,,,,,,like im talking instagram level aesthetic here
  • collects like ,,,, idk,,,,,,, little glass statues or something like bare with me it’s just so pretty because he’s so pretty
  • and you know him (how could you not) because every time you two leave at the same time he smiles kindly at you and you’re just like wow. this day? blessed
  • but one day you’re coming home and you’re in the wORST mood because of work/school plus you got soaked in the rain since your bus came late and you get into the elevator with jeonghan who smiles at you but you can’t even bring yourself to feel the usual happiness you do when he does that
  • and the elevator ride is slow up but then suddenly you feel something warm on your wet shirt
  • and it’s jeonghan putting his cardigan around your shoulders and he’s like “you can catch a cold walking around like that.”
  • and like holy shit an angel just touched you but also you’re like ,,,,, i,,,,,,i can’t take this from you
  • but jeonghan is like don’t worry, also make some tea when you get inside.
  • and you both split ways when the elevator door opens and you’re inside your apartment looking down at the cardigan in your hands and you’re like ?!?!?!?!?! what,,,,just,,,,,,happened
  • and the next morning you plan to return it but before you do you close the door and see a note stuck to the front and it reads ‘keep the cardigan. i hope you don’t get sick.’ and you’re like ,,,,,,,,,,, am i dreaming
  • but you hear another door unlock and you look over to see jeonghan again and you have no clue what to say because the most beautiful person on earth is being so sweet to you
  • and he smiles again when he meets your gaze and he’s like “glad you’re not sick” and you’re like “um,,,,thank,,,thank you for worrying about me?” and jeonghan shrugs and he’s like 
  • “ive always worried about you, you come home looking tired and i hope you’re not overdoing it.” and you can’t help but want to like d i e because,,,,w h a t,,,, he’s been worrying about you???? what kind of romance movie plot,,,,,
  • but then jeonghan leans a little closer and he’s like “if you feel sick, knock on my door. i have some medicine and ginger my mother sent over.” and you’re like ,,,,o,,,,,okay,,,,,,,
  • and jeonghan touches your cheek softly and heads for the stairs 
  • and you’re like am i imagining things or is,,,, ‘the perfect son in-law’ interested in me,,,,,,,
  • but no you’re not imagining things because jeonghan stops midway down the stairs and is like leaning against the wall because he’s happy you’re not sick but gOD he really just invited you over,,,,,,to his house,,,,the neighbor he’s liked for so long,,,,,,,,,,,,


  • tries to act cool and independent but always has to call over someone to kill any bugs he finds in his house
  • he’s got really bad luck because while he tries to look aloof and grown up he ends up tripping over things or walking into walls or getting himself stuck between the elevator doors and ,,,,,,,,, everyone in the building is like “he’s such a cute kid!” and vernon is like im NOT a kid,,,,,,,,,,,
  • but c’mon he once screamed because he thought the shadow of the neighborhood cat was a ghost
  • but this unconscious dorkiness is what makes him so lovable and everyone’s always asking him to say something in english and vernon is like “good morning” and everyone’s like WOW SKILL TALENT
  • the type to ride a scooter everywhere,,,,,,,,seungcheol passes by on his bike and is like ??? and vernon is like “scooters are the new Aesthetic”
  • has one of those cool beds that’s like a bunkbed but the top is the bed and the bottom is a desk area 
  • and he’s bought a lot of composing equipment and he has a collection of headphones and other cool things that pertain to music all around his apartment
  • and it isn’t that messy, but it’s all in dark tones like his little sister visits and always insists that vernon change his bed sheets from grey to like yellow and vernon is like ‘im a cool guy, cool guys don’t have yellow sheets’ and his sister is like uh huh ok
  • you actually don’t know vernon that well, but you know his sister because you work part-time at a grocery around the block from your building and when she visits vernon she always stops by to get food and complain a bit about how brother n EVER eats actual meals
  • and you think she’s the most adorable girl on this side of the planet so you always sneak in free ice-cream or candy for her 
  • and as you’re getting home from your shift one day, the elevator opens and there’s vernon and his sister and once she sees you she’s like !!!!!!! and drags vernon over to you and she’s like 
  • “i didn’t know you lived here too!!! this is the brother im always talking about, are you guys friends???” and you and vernon are both embarrassingly like not really,,,
  • and his sister pouts and she’s like “when im not around, can you take care of him for me? im worried he’s not getting enough sun and -”
  • and vernon coughs because sOFIA you’re embarrassing,,,,,me,,,,,
  • but you’re like “ok, i will!! good neighbors take care of each other ^^”
  • and vernon kind of tries hard to keep from turning pink when you ask if that’s ok with him and he’s like ,,,,,, sure anything to calm down my sister
  • and it’s funny because sofia is looking between you and vernon and she’s like 
  • “you’d look cute together you know, my brother is single-”
  • and vernon is like OOOO KA ay,,,,,,time to go nice talking to you neighbor bye bye
  • and you watch as he like dashes off and he’s like c’mon sofia but she stays back a bit and leans over like 
  • “i think he’s shy,,,,,he’s like that. but it’s a good sign, i think he’s interested too~~”
  • and you’re like oh my,,,,,,,
  • but also can you believe sofia. the real matchmaker mvp 


  • get mistaken for someone who doesn’t live alone, but who still lives with their parents because what???? you can afford to pay rent on your own?????
  • but tbh he’s quite independent, and a quick learner like ask any of the other seventeen neighbors who self taught themselves to make chicken tenders from scratch??? no one. except dino who learned from the nice grandma down the hall
  • sometimes gets in trouble for playing music too loud but he’s too cute for any1 to stay mad at for 2 long
  • can be spotted playing tag with the younger kids if their parents have to go get groceries or something, he gets a side job as a babysitter sometimes because kids love him???? he’s so good with them because he has so much energy??
  • his own apartment is a lot like him, it’s colorful and the most important thing is his speakers that are the only thing he keeps relatively clean. his desk is littered with clothes and notebooks and candy wrappers from late night snacks
  • has photos of his parents performances up on his wall and in his closet he has it separated into : dance costumes and normal clothes 
  • all his refrigerator magnets are in the shape of dinos,,,how cute
  • he practices dancing by himself late into the night so a lot of the time he ends up getting hungry and ordering pizza on a whim and,,,,,one day he gets a pizza but it’s like???? an extra large size because the orders got screwed up and dino is like: i cannot. finish this
  • and he considers calling vacuum cleaner hyung (minghao + mingyu) but it’s late so instead he’s like “maybe the neighbor will want some!!!”
  • that neighbor is you,,,,,he’s also up doing some late night work and when you hear the doorbell you’re like ?????? it’s 1 in the morning,,,,,is it a robber??? and you grab a nearby pot just in case but when you open the door slowly
  • you just see dino,,,,,with his kindhearted smile and a plate stacked with??? pizza slices
  • and he’s like “i don’t know if you like pizza, but i have a lot left over and i thought if you were awake you’d like some !!!” and he grins and puts out the plate and you’re like ???? but also,,,,,,,,pizza for FREE,,,,,,,yum yum
  • and you gladly accept and dino is like happy because he’s made you happy and for a second you two stand there a bit awkwardly and you’re like “do you want to come in?” and dino is like “well,,,,it’s late but we never properly introduced ourselves as neighbors so??”
  • and you’re like it’s fine come in sorry for the mess and you go over to your kitchen, dino following behind and you’re like “so why are you up at this ungodly hour?” and dino is like “im practicing!! i dance~” and you’re like OOOO show me 
  • and dino clears your sofa a bit and starts busting out all these cool moves and you’re eating pizza and clapping and you’re like encore!!! as a silly joke but he really does start doing another routine
  • and you’re like holy hell i never knew i lived next door to such a talented person!! 
  • and dino blushes red and he’s like “im still practicing, it’s just a hobby for now,,,,” but you’re like “seriously, you could be a PRO, you should try becoming an idol?”
  • and dino is like wHA,,,, i could NEVER and you’re like “you’d do great!! you’re a nice person, you dance well, and you’re cute!” and the word cute just makes dino scrunch up his nose,,,,,but he likes it and he’s like 
  • “maybe ill look around for some auditions!!” and you set down the pizza to give him a thumbs up and you’re like “once you become an idol, ill be your number one fan - i promise~” and dino is like alsfgkfsdkh don’t say that that’s so cheesy
  • but you’re like “you know what’s really cheesy? this FREE PIZZA”
  • dino: “good pun!!!!!!!!!!!”
  • you: “i know right!!!!!!”
  • you’re both laughing so damn hard you accidentally wake the other neighbors LOL 

***even if you do not like my art, im asking you to please, pretty please reblog this so that others might see it. thank you so much***

hey im bunny and im giving my 2 weeks notice tomorrow @ work for numerous reasons vaguely complained about in my personal posts but in short, i’m done dealing with their crap, tired of being made to feel like crap, and overall this has given me more initiative to go back to school. if you want more information, please ask, it’ just a lot so i dont feel like writing here.

i’m going to be putting in applications as soon as possible. i would rather not be unemployed for too long, but since getting a job isnt the easiest thing to do im opening commissions just in case.


OCs, canon characters, fan-insert etc. i can draw girls and anthro animals. i am willing to do soft gore and soft porn to an extent, but nothing depicting any legit sexual act (like, ill draw some anime tiddy but nothing sexual going on if that makes sense).  if youre unsure as to what i can and cant do, please ask. 

currently not willing to accept male humanoid characters at this time, because it’s not my best work and i wouldnt feel comfortable charging for it.


i cannot draw mecha, explicit NSFW, or anything thats too muscular. i wont draw feral animals either, only anthro, im sorry ): what i can and cant do is a very grey area so if youre not sure please ask!!!


please note, art is limited to one character at this time. will not draw multiple characters in one pic. 

headshot (like bottom-left): $5

bust (like top-left, middle-middle, bottom-right): $10

half-body (like top-right): $17

you can contact me at ! please remember i have the right to refuse any commission (if i do, it’s because i think i couldnt draw it properly!) 

thank you!

today i went to a bakery and ordered a bun from a rly cute cashier and later when i looked at the receipt he’d written “i think you have really pretty hair” on it and um someone pls stop me from going back bc im just going to embarrass myself by getting my hopes up

anonymous asked:

I saw you reblogged a post by glumshoe and jsyk he's said a lot of super shitty stuff about Jews and lesbians and might? be a pedo?

I just looked through their blog an I cant really find anything about the jewish stuff? Im assuming the lesbian thing he said was about that post where he said he was “:/” about dating straight girls and lesbians flirting with him I think??? I have no idea about the pedo stuff but please, if you’re gonna tell me this can you tell me specifically what they said/did an like link me to the post bc I dont really want to demonize someone when I dont know what they did

Like thanks for telling me if its true but idk of it is an when I looked nothing was really telling

Obi-Wan: [text] I know I am going to regret this, but what’s wrong, Anakin?
Anakin: what do u mean 
Anakin: nothings wrong
Anakin: y would u think that?
Obi-Wan: I saw your post. Clearly you want to talk about something. 
Anakin: no y do u think that
Obi-Wan: Allow me to copy > paste: “hungry and tired and cold but probably shouldnt expect much else today #soalone #asusual #iseehowitisudontthinkimasimportantasthecouncil #justsayin” ?
Obi-Wan: A little hard for me to not feel like that post was directed at me. 
Anakin: well it wasnt 
Anakin: anyways im too cold to text rn ttyl 
Obi-Wan: Anakin, honestly. I will be home from this mission in a couple of days, can we talk about this then?
Anakin: i dont even know if ill be home tbh im looking at apartment rentals
Obi-Wan: Anakin they don’t let Jedi live off-campus. Also you don’t have enough money for an apartment on Coruscant. 
Anakin: i have enough for a motel on the lower levels what do u care where i live 
Obi-Wan: What did I do?
Anakin: nothing obvs its my fault for remembering a special day that clearly doesnt matter to u
Obi-Wan: It’s not your birthday. Or Valentine’s Day. 
Anakin: pffft yeah bc if it was valentines day id have a brand new pair of socks from u to cherish 🙄
Obi-Wan: Force, can you please just let that go already? Besides, I thought you liked the socks. 
Anakin: dont tell me how to feel im not the one who forgot something this important!!!!

Obi-Wan: [text] You’ve seen Anakin’s posts, I presume?
Ahsoka: lol yup 😁  
Obi-Wan: On a scale of 1 to 10, how likely am I to ever figure out on my own which obscure holiday or anniversary he’s upset about me forgetting?
Ahsoka: 0. he’s REALLY reaching this time.
Obi-Wan: Damn it. 
Ahsoka: I COULD help u master kenobi but also it IS pretty entertaining, soooo…😈
Obi-Wan: I understand. Let the negotiations begin. 

(Ahsoka absolutely loves using this stuff to her advantage. And you KNOW Anakin is the undefeated champion of dramatic vagueposting when he wants attention.) 

(This edition of Anakin Skywalker’s Ridiculous Neediness for @darthluminescent, who is pretty much always here for Anakin’s spoiled antics.) 

“I hate fujoshi! if you’re female and you like yaoi, you’re fetishizing gay men and you’re a bad person!”

Look I really don’t wanna answer any more asks about this topic or respond to any more hate being directed at me or my friends, so allow me to put this issue to rest as best I can because I can’t believe this is the discourse I’m dealing with in 2017.

There’s this thing that happens sometimes where gay men watch straight porn. Yup, that’s a real thing some people do, I’ve seen it happen. It doesn’t make the person doing it any less gay; he can be aroused by something without projecting himself into it personally. If he only wants sexual and romantic relationships with other men and he identifies as gay, he’s still gay.

And when it’s drawn images like hentai, yaoi and yuri, that’s even further removed from reality. I read all kinds of stuff in doujinshi I don’t wanna recreate in real life. It’s purely a fantasy. Erotica does not need to be self-insert to be enjoyed, at least not for everyone.

So there are straight men and gay women who like yaoi, or gay men and straight women who like yuri. Heck, you can even be asexual and enjoy porn - human sexuality is beautifully weird and complex like that.

None of these things are a fetish. They’re normal, healthy human sexual behavior. Sex is sexy - sometimes it’s really just that simple. (Besides, if you’re attracted to men or women, doesn’t it stand to reason that two are better than one? Seems like common sense to me.)

A fetish is sexual arousal caused by non sexual body parts, objects or actions, so sex is ruled out right off the bat. Sex is not a fetish.

So using that to justify your hate and harassment of female yaoi fans is already a huge pile of bullshit. Fujoshi hate is just policing women for their sexualities, and is steeped in a history of misogyny. The word fujoshi exists in the first place because women are shamed for having “deviant” sexual interests, but that irony seems lost on a lot of you.

“But you’re only shipping those characters because they’re gay, my sexuality isn’t your fetish!!!” Listen, I can’t speak for anyone else, but if I ship two characters together it’s probably because I like both of them and like the way they interact, it really has fuck all to do with whether they’re a gay couple, straight couple, lesbian couple or anything else. And it has even less to do with YOU, internet stranger whom I’ve never met, or your sexuality or your relationships, all of which I couldn’t possibly know anything about.

You have a problem with some of the harmful tropes common in yaoi? Cool, so do I. We can have a respectful discussion about those tropes, if you want.

You’ve seen fujoshi being homophobic? Call them out on it. Specific people, specific behaviors - not blanket generalizations that attack a huge group of people you’ve never met.

You’re not a bad person if you’re female and like yaoi. You’re not a bad person if you’re male and like yuri. Judge people based on how they treat others. That’s it.

If you still don’t get it after this, I have nothing else to say to you.

I’m leaving :(

hullo its me mo, and i just wanted to tell you that im leaving the phandom (maybe temporarily but idk ,,, probably not). I’ve been thinking about this for a while and now I think it’s the right time to leave. I may come back occasionally and reblog stuff and just to check on you guys, but im gonna leave. I haven’t felt right….in the phandom for a long time? idk i just dont feel like I belong here. I’m still gonna watch dnp and i still love them and it actually has nothing to do with them…its just the phandom isnt the place for me i guess! I have over 5k followers and i love all of you so much for sticking with me and following my shitty blog and being so supportive of all my weird ass text posts.It’s gonna be so hard to leave you all but I’ll still try to check my messages so i can still chat with you guys if you need me, but i wont be very active on this blog anymore. However, if you still wanna see me, i think im gonna still use my aes blog @beespov and my shitpost blog @wheremyegg! I’ll miss all of you so much :( dont 4get abt me :( 

Jared dreams about you Headcannons (Jared x reader)

tw: ummm m language and some mild ~ sexy times ~ mentions, death mention

a/n: can u imagine meme boy just havin random dreams abt u lmao how wild

-ok so u and jared have been friends for about 8 months now

-he’s honestly one of ur closest friends too ?? like it started out by havin a mutual friend (evan)

-one day jared was talkin to evan about that “i never learned how to fuckin read” vine and was just super confused but u happened to overhear him and u started laughing ur ass off and jared got super excited bc finally someone understood his sense of humor


-one night its 2am and ur phone starts ringing and it wakes u up

-who tf is calling at 2am ?? jared ofc

-you answer sleepy and he’s talking super loud and fast and can’t understand him

-”jared slow downnnN”

-jared took and deep breath and just kinda blurts “I HAD A DREAM ABOUT U”

-”…ok that’s cool, but why couldn’t u wait to tell me til school tomorrow” (its like 2am on a wednesday morning btw lol))

-”u died in the dream, y/n”


-”no y/n u dont understand we were on this rollercoaster and then u FELL OUT”

-”…. jared im hanging up now”

-this same sort of thing went on almost every other night and he calls u abt literally every weird detail he dreams abt u

-until all of a sudden the calls stop ?? ?

-u confront him at school abt this bc u had gotten used to them and u lowkey kinda liked them

-”jared why tf did u stop calling me?? ?”

-jared blushes hard like really hard

- ??? ??

-”y/n .. i dont want to tell u and im pretty sure u dont want to know”

-he gets a lot of “c’mon dude, how bad could it be” and other prompts from u

-u wont drop it and jared wants literally nothing more than for you to drop i t

-he finally gets sick and tired of u asking and just kinda blurts “Y/N IT WAS A SEX DREAM OK”

-ur kinda taken aback bc ?? ja re d ?? what

-jared is still blushing hella hard but u brush it off and reassure him that its not rlly that weird and the two of u go about your normal day


-ur wedding night u remind jared abt that sex dream and he laughs and makes a “its not a dream anymore, y/n” kinda comment

without you, there is no more sun. there is no more light. there are no more stars. the moon doesnt come out anymore. without you, i am lost. i am broken, i am in pain, struggling to continue. without you, my whole world feels like its slowly starting to crumble all around me as im standing there watching everything fall in front of me. without you, my heart feels weak. its empty.. craving your love. without you, i feel like i dont even know my name.. dont know right from wrong, dont know up from down, dont know wrong from right. without you, i dont want to live. i dont want to continue. i dont want to wake up. i dont want to wake up everyday knowing youre not here. moping around feeling sorry for myself, waiting for you to come back, show up, something. i dont want to be here without you. without you,my life doesnt have purpose. my life doesnt have meaning. my life is dull. full of grey clouds and rainy days. without you, my life isnt my life anymore. im not living anymore, im only existing. you were my life. you are my life. without you, i am not me. i will never be me again. i will never know who i am ever again. and thats whats scary.. without you, i am nothing. i am worthless. i am lifeless. walking around like a dead corpse. i am just another ant on the ground, existing. not being noticed.. too small for anyone to look or care about. without you, life sucks. and i dont want my life to suck anymore.

ok but the number 1 most important rule about developing your own art style is Make Whatever You Want However You Want

you wanna draw all faces square bc you like squares and think they look good but something says to use ovals?? draw em square. squares are rad.

you like to use thick, blunt pencils and press down for harsh, dark lines but someone says to use a sharp, thin pencil? use your blunt one, blunt is bold.

you enjoy painting straight onto a canvas using nothing but neon colours but somebody wants you to tone it down? dont let them darken your creation, paint it brighter!

art tutorials are suggestions. they are purely optional , and not necessarily the best or sole way for you to improve! your personal quirks and preferences make your art beautiful, so don’t get hung up over doing everything a certain way. you do you!

anonymous asked:

are you sure it's safe to be so open with your real name? lotta creeps out there :/

not to jinx it but like, what are they gonna do? i mean, i rly dont care if ppl kno who i am, im not tryin to be anonymous or anythin. griffin mcelroy’s way more well known than me and we all kno his name

im mad as hell

so evidently in the new ben 10 show called omniverse or something theres an episode where ben accidentally gets engaged to this girl:

and ben is like, not in to it? he’s grossed out and doesn’t want to marry her?

fuckin EXCUSE ME ben???

ben you stupid sack of shit you got a buff as hell four armed red skinned alien babe with a thor hammer thats strong as hell and wants to marry you and ALSO shes got big titties and you don’t want that in your life???

FUCK this cartoon and FUCK all cartoons made by normies. when are we gonna get a cartoon where a hot as hell alien is like “oh human marry me” and the humans like “FUCK YEAH IM IN TO THIS”

dont give me none of that steven universe shit either. rose quartz is hot but shes also just a human. theres nothing alien about her. shes a rock that has a holographic human form. fuck that that doesn’t count. shes either gotta be a barbarian or a giant mantis monster. thats the hot stuff

anonymous asked:

Im a first year animation student falling more and more behind. Im really upset because my course is nothing like I expected it. I wish it was all 2D. 3D makes me want to jump off of a bridge so I ignore it. Now im stuck thinking I dont like animation - but everytime I see animation students on tumblr I want to do what theyre doing. I hate my course but I love animation and idk what to do... Is your course like this?

Hello ! Sorry I took a lot of time to give you an answer anon. I really relate to your message, I was asking exactly the same things  to other animation students on tumblr last year, because I was in the same situation. I was in a 2D/3D school, but that mainly focused on 3D. I was terrible at it, I didn’t like it, but most of all, my school gave me the impression that I didn’t have any chances or future in the animation industry (unless I did 3D during my career.) Each day went by, and I was losing confidence in my own work, ambition, and goals, and lagged behind my peers. (When you’re saying ’everytime I see animation students on tumblr, I want to do what they are doing’, I think every school have their pros and cons, no school is perfect.) And when you’re seeing the work of animation students on this platform, for most of them are posting and creating what they like, in addition of their classes, for themselves and their own pleasure.)

Many times my teachers talked to me in private, and many times they asked me if I was really fit for the Animation world, if it really was what I wanted to do, or if I was planning to reorient myself… (Anyway, I decided to quit this school), as the following year would’ve been full of 3D courses, and I knew I wouldn’t be able to handle it. Even if other people tried to comfort me, telling me that everything would be alright, that I just had to sit and endure it, doing the minimum and then work what I really liked at home, that we only had two years left… I thought “if my friends can do it, so can I, right ?” But I had been so stressed out, struggling, putting impossible expectations on myself, that I didn’t seem to enjoy drawing anything anymore…)

Anyway, NOW I’m in a new school and… I’M DOING PRETTY WELL ! The main difference is that it focuses on 2D and experimental animation, so now I have more creative liberty with the workshops, the assignments, etc… And I like my courses, I’m feeling like it’s finally the right place for me, I regained my confidence, I’m happier, I enjoy my days much more, and I draw, animate in a completely serene state of mind, and with a lot of joy. I have teachers who are kind, dynamic and willing to work with us and to help us. And  above all, I feel like I’m pursuing my passion to the fullest extent now (even if sometimes it’s hard because there is a lot of work). I no longer have the feeling of being just a student sitting down, enduring something that I don’t like ; but working and learning everyday with passion, developing the artist inside me.

I’m sorry I don’t have any advices to help you, and i don’t know what I can do for you. I only can share my own experience with you. I asked to other animation students, and they couldn’t gave me an answer either ; there is none. It depends on you, your situation etc… You may think now that, because of your courses you don’t like animation anymore or that you’re not fit for it, but you’re wrong.

✨The only thing I can do is advise you to take care of yourself, to sleep, and to eat well. Surround yourself with people that care about you, do what makes you happy and what you think is good for you ! Take care anon (you’re not alone.)✨

(Everything I said is very subjective, and it’s different for everyone. For example, I know that next year I’ll work with 3D, but it’s different, I know that now I can do it, and I will. The mentality and the pedagogy are just not the same in my current school, and it’s for much better for me.)