and if you ever change your mind i'll still

They say that I should try to move on since you’re the one who pushed me away. I just need to forget about you. They’re probably right however my mind cannot comprehend how one could be capable of forgetting someone who happens to be all you’ve ever known? Trying to forget you would be like trying to unlearn the language I speak most fluently. An impossible task. So here I am still rooting for you to change your mind and for it to be you and me in the end.
—  Excerpt from a book I will never write #1264 // @sharon_hb on Instagram
Did you know?” She whispered

“Did I know what?” He responded

“Did you know that I was in love with you.”

“Of course I knew. But you never said anything. You let me believe I was only ever going to be friends with you.” He said

She stared blankly at the ground fidgeting with her hands, thinking of what to say after all this time. He started to turn away,

“…would it have made a difference. If I had told you. Would it have made you change your mind?” She said, still not looking at him

“It would’ve probably changed everything. But what happened is what happened. And it’s too late. I’m with her now.” He said

She finally looked up into his eyes. Knowing that it was her fault, and that what they could’ve been will never ever happen.

signs as marina and the diamonds lyrics
  • <p> <b>aries:</b> "One track mind, one track heart, If I fail, I'll fall apart, Maybe it is all a test, Cause I feel like I'm the worst, So I always act like I'm the best"<p/><b>taurus:</b> "I live my life inside a dream, Only waking when I sleep, I would sell my sorry soul, if I could have it all"<p/><b>gemini:</b> "In the valley of the dolls, we sleep, Got a hole inside of me, Living with identities, That do not belong to me"<p/><b>cancer:</b> "I feel like if I'm too kind then you will only change your mind, Take advantage of my heart and I'll go back into the dark"<p/><b>leo:</b> "I guess you could say that my life's a mess, But I'm still looking pretty in this dress, I'm the image of deception"<p/><b>virgo:</b> "All I ever wanted was the world, I can't help that I need it all, The primadonna life, the rise and fall"<p/><b>libra:</b> "I wanna mean something to somebody else, Feel a significance in the real world, It's not enough to live out a lucky life"<p/><b>scorpio:</b> "And now I see, I see it for the first time, There is no crime in being kind, Not everyone is out to screw you over. Maybe, oh just maybe they just wanna get to know you"<p/><b>sagittarius:</b> "You've been hanging with the unloved kids, Who you never really liked and you never trusted, But you are so magnetic, you pick up all the pins, Never committing to anything"<p/><b>capricorn:</b> "And all the other jewels around me, They astounded me at first, I covered up my heart in boundaries, And all the fakes, they called me cursed"<p/><b>aquarius:</b> "I wanna stay inside all day, I want the world to go away, I want blood, guts and chocolate cake, I wanna be a real fake"<p/><b>pisces:</b> "Got bubble wrap around my heart, Waiting for my life to start, But everyday it never comes, Permanently at square one"<p/></p>
"What actually happened" for Dummies
  • <p> <b>Sakura:</b> *remembers "thank you" scene from first time she confessed*<p/><b>Sakura:</b> if I "STILL" have a ""PLACE"" IN ""YOUR HEART"" then please don't slip any further away...if we just all stayed together forever then i'm sure things will go back to the way they ""USED" TO BE"...<p/><b>Sasuke:</b> *shakes at her words, calls her "annoying"(recalling the same day that made her understand that she indeed once had a place in "his heart"), instead of actually killing her (like he intended with naruto) he genjutsus her because he fears that she might get in the way(get hurt)*<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> *doesn't get it...yet* you lil shit all Sakura ever did was love you...<p/><b>Sasuke:</b> *tries to play cold;but fails* Does she expect for me to play at romance? She has no reason to love me and likewise..<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> *throws chancla at him* baka--BAKA! you only need a reason when it's hate and...<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> ...<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> wait a diddinly darn minute...?<p/><b></b> Playing at romance? what da heck are you talking about? She never mentioned any of "that"??...she "just said" that she loved you, wanted you to go back,and for things to go back to the way they "USED" to be!<p/><b>Sasuke:</b> (shit.)<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> you sneaky lil bastard were you two playing at romance behind Sensei's back, back then?<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> *laughs* they kinda looked like they were "lovers"...I feel so embarrassed *blushes*... And I cried so much when they first parted as well... OMG so much feels!...you guys should also read--<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> not now trollshimoto, I have answers I need questioned.<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> It's kishi.Kishimoto,and I think what you actually meant to say was: "questions i need answered"?<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> Now...don't get all cocky of me just because you think you're the writer of this Manga!<p/><b>Kishi:</b> eh? But I am the writer...<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> shhhhhh<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> *turns to Sasuke* now, as I was saying...<p/><b>Sasuke:</b> *not there anymore*<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> WHAT? Where did Mr. "duck's-butt-hair" go? He still hasn't answered Sensei's question!<p/><b>Naruto:</b> I dunno, he said something like: *changes voice to sasuke* "those may just be chains from our failed past" and then ran away like a ninja while half-crying-half-blushing.<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> ?ah! "and naruto" how long have you been there?<p/><b>Naruto:</b> NOW THAT'S JUST RUDE!<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> oh sorry it's just that you were irrelevant atm.<p/><b>Naruto:</b> hah? I was the one who has seen more ss moments I'll have you know!<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> Naruto, have I ever told you how relevant you were?<p/><b>Naruto:</b> you changed your mind pretty quickly...eh -_-<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> oh common Naruto, don't be like that. Tell your most beloved Sensei what he wants to know, mmh?<p/><b>Naruto:</b> now I'm not sure about "most beloved"; but I'll tell you anyway just so you don't say I'm irrelevant to all of this...<p/><b></b> There was that time when he wanted to die for her and wanted me to carry her and run with her as fast and far as I could no matter what happened while telling me how dear she was to him; but of coarse I immediately took the spotlight away from him because I'm the protagonist and I'm suppose to save people...,anyways there was also this time where sakura was worried for him and I had no idea what was going on but<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> pfft third wheel<p/><b>Naruto:</b> I wasn't!<p/><b></b> He just admitted that "only she" could convince him of anything with the exception of revenge!... which was kinda of weird because despite having said this the moron still planned on dying, throwing away his dream just so "she could live"...<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> well I did say that sakura ("the girl who filled "his heart(lonely existence)" with the emotion called "LOVE"") was a "precious" person he was supposed to protect...duhhh that's why he broke a guy's arms for touching her, and the only one who could calm him down was sakura "by hugging him". Hello? Anyone remember that?<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> and then... "naruto"?<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> (was I just ignored?)<p/><b>Naruto:</b> when sakura hugged him at the hospital he made an expression that made me feel like I didn't belong in the room so I left<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> See...!third wheel!<p/><b>Naruto:</b> -_-<p/><b>Naruto:</b> *sarcastic laugh* Ha-Ha-Ha! Not so much, because later the idiot was jealous of me and decided to fight me(almost kill me)...and part of it was triggered because of sakura's grateful smile towards me...and despite wanting to chidori "me" to enter true darkness like itachi wanted him to...when Sakura got in between... he suddenly got scared!<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> welp I always knew he had a crush on her...he probably also feels strongly about her if not cutting his ties with her wouldn't have been so hard back then...<p/><b>Hagoromo:</b> love is a complicated thing...<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> you still here?.<p/><b>Hagoromo:</b> I was just leaving<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> 685 anyone? I threw sasuke in that dimension for the purpose of eyesex, and to catch him in his cold act...let's not forget that i--<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> oh can you just be quiet!?<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> Oh so now you're not ignoring me, huh?<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> You killed Rin! I hate you! *kicks him back to his original dimension*<p/><b>Naruto:</b> Ooo-Kaay?? Now that Sakura's words have shaken Sasuke's soul... I'm going to punch some sense into him and finally bring him back...cause that's pretty much what this story is about "when love doesn't work, punch your friend in the face until he realizes it does"<p/><b>Sasuke:</b> *from the distance* he sure is taking his time<p/><b>Naruto:</b> (my sasuke senses are tingling) *runs away like a ninja*<p/><b>Hagoromo:</b> I hope those boys get their love back...*looks at Sakura* especially Sasuke...that bootay is fine...*starts to disappear*<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> What bootay is fine? Wait, wait, waaaaaiiiit...ah aaaand he left...<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> *sighs* we don't get paid well enough...<p/><b>Sakura:</b> *suddenly wakes up from a genjutsu cast by the current strongest sharingan user* you think...?<p/></p>
3 weeks later, all I want is to tell you how much I miss you or perhaps I just want you to tell me you missed me back all along. Make some excuse, like you always did. You see, I keep telling my friends and even myself that I don’t care but yesterday I caught myself wanting to go places I know you usually go to. I thought that maybe I’d ran into you. It’s so silly of me, thinking that by seeing me you might change your mind. Isn’t it funny how I’d go back to you in a matter of second?
I know I deserve better but the thing is, i don’t want better. I want you. I’ve wanted you ever since I saw you on that game in August. It hurts. It hurts that you’re still the only thing my heart ever talks about when yours has already forgotten about me long time ago.
—  Excerpt from a book I will never write #738 // things you’ll never know // v.j.