and if that's not the greatest thing that can happen in a relationship

anonymous asked:

tbh I find it interesting how different people interpret the 'you're like a brother to me' line? like to some people, it's just a declaration of how much Shiro means to him, while others see it as a hurdle Keith needs to overcome to recognise his romantic feelings. and then there's those who think it sinks sh3ith entirely. what's ur take on the scene?

ha i feel like ive talked about this so much it would be hard to word it better than i already have, but ill try! 

ok so. thing is, this isn’t the only reference to family we see. keith says they’re all made of the same cosmic star stuff, that they’re “all related.” in episode 2 hunk claims the paladins are all “brothers” and allura tells keith she comes to think of voltron as her new family. so first off, i dont think the brother line automatically disqualifies it as a ship (as you wouldn’t be able to pair up any of the paladins or allura with each other if that was the case). i also think its important to note that while fake shiro keeps pressing this idea that all of team voltron is a family, keith’s focus is entirely on shiro. ive seen plenty of people put lance into this scene, so theres also the fact that, however you feel about the brother line or shiro and keith aside, lots of people can still interpret the situation itself–someone dying on the floor suddenly seeing their greatest hopes and dreams manifest in the form of someone they desperately want to see, someone whom they can’t bear to be abandoned by–as romantic. and again, whether you think its platonic or romantic, bom makes it clear keith still loves shiro.

but real quick, here’s something about it i wrote in one of my other meta, which i think kinda explains it better:

the thing is, shiro is the one who mentions family first. he tells keith “we’re your family” and we get the brother line in response to it. But, shiro said “we.” as in, all the paladins. and we know keith thinks of them all as a family, know that he said “we’re all related” at the end of the olkari episode. (hunk also says all the paladins are brothers, and later allura mentions them all being a family. team voltron is pretty Big on family.) So he could have definitely said, yeah, we’re all a family. But no, he puts all the focus on shiro, and goes “ you‘re like a brother to me.” That one exchange shows keith thinks of his relationship with shiro as being on a whole other level from the rest of team voltron—all of whom he’s already expressed a platonic, familial kind of love for.

Yes, he’s known shiro much longer, but i also think whatever happened back at the garrison, he managed to really click with shiro in a way that’s never quite happened before. Without their backstory, it’s kind of hard to tell. But shiro  must have made one hell of an impression on keith if he ended up being the only one this poor guy opened up to prekerberos. I mean, kollivan tells shiro that keith is desperate to have him at his side. I don’t typically see This Person “desperately wants to see you” used to describe siblings, that definitely has more of an unrequited love vibe to me. If it was strictly familial, i feel like they would have used a term that implies a More Mutual, healthy relationship rather than having this connotation of the person being in agony over their desire.

also, one of keith’s worst fears is apparently confronting his own feelings, something evidenced time and again by how he pushes others away and isolates himself during the whole galra thing

and after how much he’s been hurt and left behind over the years, i think its easy to understand why keith would be so guarded about what he feels and who he strays too close to. If at this point he has romantic feelings for anyone, i think he needs to sort out his fears of abandonment and intimacy first before he even dares to consider being vocal about those feelings. because the way he is now? he’s going to stay silent and just keep throwing up walls to protect himself. 

going back to the brother line in particular, im bi. and i can honestly tell you that saying “youre like a brother/sister to me” when youre scared of how someone of the same gender would react to feeling anything deeper is something people actually do. its a way to kind of backpedal out of the situation and avoid being hurt. its something ive done. so i can see keith throwing it out there as a kind of “safe” way to express how much shiro means to him without being worried that shiro won’t reciprocate his feelings or worse, risk irreparably damaging their friendship over it. especially since his goal here is to try and make shiro stop walking away, to do anything to make him stay. 

i mean honestly everything at this point is still up for interpretation, but thats just how i see it. also, if the staff was so deadset on shiro and keith being brotherly, i dont think they’d support sheith anywhere near as much as they do

anonymous asked:

Why don't you like felicity? This isn't meant to be an attack btw, you're certainly entitled to your own opinion, but just a question from a curious felicity fan

this is gonna be long af so get ready:

ok so here’s the thing, i used to like felicity. i really liked her in season 1-2. i thought she was funny, and at first i was looking forward to her being a main character. i started to sour to her around the end of season 2. 

firstly there was the scene which pitted drunk!laurel against saintly!felicity but i brushed it aside. then there was the scene near the end of season 2 when felicity has that speech towards oliver “and you are not done fighting” and i was like, “wow. that was some baaaaaddd acting” but i was like, “hey its her first big dramatic scene maybe she can improve” 

and then season 3 happened. despite this being the season that laurel was to become the black canary, this was laurel season, finally she was gonna get her time to shine. aaaaaaand no. guggenheim never liked laurel (and/or katie cassidy) and he’d always taken measures to divorce her from her comic book counterpart. change her backstory to her being a lawyer, her mother wasn’t the original black canary, she wasn’t a meta, she didn’t even go by her first name dinah because “it was too old fashioned” (screaming internally) in season 2 he introduced sara. she was the Cool Girl™ to laurel’s Whiny Shrew. She had the martial arts skills, she had the canary cry sort of, and in the episode titled birds of prey, it was sara who fought huntress. and despite everyone from tommy to thea to moira saying how it had always been laurel and oliver, all of sudden they made it that evil bitch laurel had foiled sara and oliver’s tru luv because she wanted oliver all to herself. therefore it wasn’t sara who was the bad sister for sleeping with her sister’s long time boyfriend, but rather laurel for stealing oliver in the first place. but sara still wasn’t as popular as felicity and neither was her relationship with oliver. 

so then season 3 happens and they decide to fridge sara because thats the only way female characters can leave. and laurel finally gets to become the hero she was meant to become. the respected and badass hero who was oliver’s equal. except no. despite laurel managing to take on two security guards with ease in the pilot, she suddenly couldn’t take on a single untrained creeper without being defeated with ease. and while this was happening, felicity was gradually being given more and more screentime over laurel. and despite oliver and laurel being friends (and in love) since they were kids, when the news broke that oliver was “dead” it was laurel who had to comfort felicity. and whilst felicity had become an invaluable member to team arrow, laurel wasn’t even a sidekick for team arrow, she was a nuisance. but eventually she got some respect from the team and got to show up to swing a baton at whoever oliver had forgotten to shoot, who diggle had forgotten to punch, and who roy had forgotten to parkour over. but her screentime was given to felicity.

and then season 4 happened. laurel was officially the black canary. and despite her being considered an equal fighter, if not a better fighter than oliver in the comics, her and thea (who was trained by her league of assassin father) and diggle couldn’t keep up without oliver and felicity. so they came back. and as felicity and oliver tried to maintain a relationship, that became the focus of the show. felicity had unofficially become the lead female character. despite the dramatics of the season revealing emily’s weaknesses as an actress even more, she was the woman who had the most screentime. laurel was an afterthought. felicity who seemed like a replication of chloe sullivan who in turn was an expy of barbara gordon/oracle became the main character and when she was paralyzed, they toyed with her taking the name (oracle). 

this pissed me off. when i was 16 my mental health had become very fraught. and while most of the world tends to avoid talking about mental health, i lived in a country which was even less open about mental health. i didn’t know i could be disabled because it was never discussed. i got into comics around this time and when i saw barbara gordon as oracle i was enchanted and inspired. i told myself that if barbara gordon could fight crime while being in a wheelchair, i could graduate high school. and i did, with two diplomas. she really inspired me because when she could no longer physically fight crime after being paralyzed she turned to an alternative way of fighting crime and she became even more powerful than ever. it wasn’t her choice to be unable to physically fight crime but she adapted. felicity never went through that struggle of having to give up her old way of helping others and discover a new way and a new her. she always was a hacker. so when they hinted her being called oracle because she was paralysed it pissed me off. oracle isn’t some random person in a wheelchair. she’s barbara gordon who adapted to her circumstances.  

anyway so laurel’s been sidelined for felicity and her new dramatic storyline. and then the person in the grave is revealed to be laurel. and the thing is, guggenheim told emily that she wasn’t gonna be in the grave from the first place. instead of getting laurel like we had been told from day one, we got felicity. and remember how i mentioned that emily’s acting in the scene from season 2 was bad but i thought she could improve? she didn’t. so not only has an interesting and iconic character been fridged to make room for an oc, the actress can barely act her way through a single dramatic scene. a talented actress who worked hard to understand and properly show the character’s alcholism and physicality has been replaced by an actress who when she’s meant to be acting a struggle to not get shoved in a gas chamber, CLOSES THE DOOR TO THE GAS CHAMBER i think i have a right to feel that the wrong person is the lead actress. if it makes you feel better, i also think stephen amell is pretty awful too. 

but here’s the thing; if guggenheim (and the cw it seems) were capable of having more than one main female character and not promoting love interest of the season to the main character because the fans liked her despite her questionable acting skills, i wouldn’t hate felicity. but because felicity has become the greatest symptom of guggenheim’s poor writing and disrespect for laurel, i can’t help but hate her.

TL;DR: i don’t like felicity because her existence resulted in the fridging of laurel, the disrespect of laurel (and babs) and the actress is not very good at acting

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anonymous asked:

Hello. Yes, I would like to ask a question about Spideytorch. Or, actually about Johnny, if that's OK? In a previous post, you mention the sadness of 616 Johnny. Can you talk about that? I would like to hear all about Johnny's sadness, pls. Or, disregard if this is not concise enough a question, or not really an OTP question. Thank you.

It’s always okay to ask me Johnny questions! 

So like, here is a not-so-brief glance at 616 Johnny’s life, in honor of another New Comic Book Day where Johnny was in two pages and terrible things happened to him. Cut for length.

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hydejackies-deactivated20170430  asked:

zenmasters ofc

Also asked by @queerafbucky ~

  • big spoon/little spoon: You know Jackie is the little spoon, who won’t be with a guy that loves to cuddle as much as Steven Hyde? Because that guy is a cuddler, man. Don’t let yourself be fooled, he enjoys that a lot.
  • favorite non-sexual activity: Aside from driving around and playing chess, they spend time letting the TV on and in mute, doing the dialogues of the characters into terrible plots with funny shit in between.
  • who uses all the hot water: JACKIE, and there’s a point in which Hyde has to talk to her because wOMAN, COME ON. But in general, he doesn’t mind it. He is kind of used to that. 

    When Jackie hears that, she decides maybe they should share the shower some times… most days.
  • most trivial thing they fight over: Jackie can’t decide for dear life what to eat and it can annoy Hyde some times. In general, they kinda fight for every trival thing but it’s never real, it’s never like… them being actually mad, most times they end up laughing. Or more, like, he ends up laughing.
  • who does most of the cleaning: Hyde, he even enjoys it. Jackie isn’t messy but man, she just doesn’t like housework.
  • what has a season pass on their dvr/who controls the netflix queue: Jackie owes the netflix queue most times as long as Hyde can chose, most times, the music at the car and the afternoons as they read or try to nap.
  • who calls up the super/landlord when the heat’s not working: Jackie, she’s the only one who can get that man to listen to them.
  • who steals the blankets: None does that, but when it happens, It’s Jackie and it’s generally on purpose because Hyde made her supposely angry (aka it’s a joke).
  • who leaves their stuff around: None. But some times, when Jackie is especially not-cooperating, he would leave his crap all over the bathroom before she gets in to take a shower and he would smile after the high pitched “SteeeeevEEEEENNNNN”.
  • who remembers to buy the milk: Hyde, he’s always taking mental notes about what they need back at home.
  • who remembers anniversaries: Both, but just in case, Jackie puts notes on their fridge a few days before, so Hyde can see them. He thinks it’s cute, so thats why he has never told her he doesn’t need it.
  • Who cooks normally? Hyde. Jackie has learned some by now, but she isn’t especially good or something, so he keeps cooking. Although, her pancakes are really good. He only has to work the eggs for her.
  • How often do they fight? In reality, not as much as people think they do. There are very little things that actually makes them angry when it comes to their relationship or their house, and later the kids.
  • What do they do when they’re away from each other? Well, if they aren’t working, they will probably go out with their friends. If one of them is, for some reason, in another city or something like that, they would call each other.
  • Nicknames for each other? Hyde still calls her ‘doll’ and ‘grasshopper’, she keeps calling him ‘puddin pop’ and ‘honey’. They both use ‘baby’ to call each other, too. 
  • Who is more likely to pay for dinner? Hyde, because Jackie likes it that way. But when they have dinner at home and they call for food, she pays most times.
  • Who steals the covers at night? None, and they sleep so close to each other, it’s not needed.
  • What would they get each other for gifts? She will always buy him things she thinsk he needs, even when he may not like it. And she knows he doesn’t, but its like a joke between them. He ends up wearing the clothes she buys for him that he doesn’t like and if maybe their ruin it during sex, no one says anything. But she also always gets him something he does wants. Just, most times, not material ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°).

    While he ignores the hell out of her the list she does for him every year and ends up buying her something he believes she may like. Even if she doesn’t like it, there’s a part of her that does because he did the effort of finding something for her.
  • Who kissed who first? They kissed at the same time in both times it was the ‘first kiss’. 
  • Who made the first move? Hyde, almost immeditaly after Jackie showed sing that she was seriously not playing with the ‘I broke up with Michael’ thing.
  • Who remembers things? Both, but Jackie has her system to remind Hyde stuff. 
  • Who started the relationship? Both? How can you… start a relationship… without the other knowing or what? What?
  • Who cusses more? WHAT IS CUSSES?
  • What would they do if the other was hurt? Well, if it’s physical hurt, I believe Steven Hyde is the cutest while nursing Jackie into healthiness. He would make her comfort food and put nice pillows around her, and keep her company and kiss her cheek and be alltogether damn cute. And as for Jackie, she may not be the best a cooking, but I believe she is the greatest at spoiling people while sick. And she does it so well with him, he almost enjoys being sick.

    Emotional hurt is another thing. He may get blank at first, becaus eholy shit, PANIC, but he gets it right away that she needs comfort and he will always try to cherish her up somehow. He knows now that sardonic jokes about the thing aren’t the answer, so those are out. But he listens if she wants and respects her silence when she isn’t ready.

    While Jacie seems to always know what’s wrong and when she doesn’t, she would lowkey make him talk with her sweet, sweet comfort and soft kisses. Once he has it out, she is Extra Cute™ and it always makes him feel better.

send me a ship!

anonymous asked:

who is maria de villota? I've heard from her before and heard she had something to do with carlos sainz career, thats why im asking you

Dear Anon, please sit down because I’m about to lecture you about one of the greatest woman in the world, and a real life heroine.

This amazing woman is María de Villota Comba, born in Madrid, Spain on 1980. In two days she would had been turning 37. She competed in multiple series including Spanish F3, the Daytona 24 Hours, and Superleague Formula Championship, won the 1000km Hyundai on 2005 and stayed on podium the years 2002 and 2006; she became the first woman to be part of WTCC, Superleague Formula, first woman to get a pole on Ferrari Challenge. She was breaking stereotypes and was set for greatness. 

Her relationship with Carlitos began in 2009, when Red Bull invited him to try a Formula car to test him for a sponsorship. He was led by Maria and her brother Emilio de Villota Jr. in a prior test, his first time driving a Formula car. Thanks to this, he got into the Red Bull Junior Team.

In mid 2011, she tested for Renault being the first woman the test an F1 car since 2005. On early 2012, María joined Marrusia as a test driver, her full ambition to get a F1 seat, and she almost did it. During the 2012 European Grand Prix (then hosted in her beloved Spain), on mid June 2012, Timo Glock got sick and couldn’t drive for qualification, but Maria couldn’t get his seat because she didn’t had a Superlicence. Then, something terrible happen. 

On July 3rd, 2012, María was testing for aero on a Marrusia at Duxford Aerodrome. It was her first time driving their new F1 car. Not many details are known but she crashed into a stationary truck, suffering head and facial injuries. While María was still fighting for her life, Marrusia pretty much just said “it wasn’t the car’s fault”, but nothing more was ever said over the accident itself, a few things here and there but I believe nothing official. She underwent many surgeries to fix everything, lost her right eye, the senses of smell and taste but she insisted that she wanted to get her hands behind the wheel and keep racing. She also wanted to be part of making motorsports a lot safer.

Even before her crash, she was ambassador of the Day of the Women in Madrid and fought against gender-based violence. On March 2013, she was named part of the FIA Drivers’ Commission for Single-Seaters, alongside Nigel Mansell and Karun Chandhok. She wrote a book “La vida es un regalo” (Life is a gift), and she gave speeches inspiring people to keep pushing forward no matter what. She never gave up, but the consequences of the crash never fully left.

On October 11th 2013, María de Villota passed away, age 33, by supposed side-effects of her injuries. She left such a legacy for motorsports in Spain and for women in motorsports.

To fully explain how much did María meant to Carlos, you can watch this video. While it’s on Spanish, the way Carlos speaks of her, his voice and behavior, the way he tried to keep himself together and not cry yet crying anyway… it’s beyond emotional; he quickly explains how she was the one who allowed him to first test a single-seater car, how she was before and after the crash and how he will always remember her. Truly fully emotional.

Spanish Motorsports Queen: Maria de Villota

1980-2013

EVERY(!!!) pynch moment in trc part 3: blue lily, lily blue

 alternatively titled: if you didn’t think adam was bi before,, well bud, u do now

part 1 // part 2

LET’S GET GOING:

“Maybe I dreamt you,” [Ronan] said.

“Thanks for the straight teeth then,” Adam replied. (pg. 13)

ok, an anon asked me to explain the significance of this quote and i’m gonna try to do my best. this is the first textual example of ronan,, (hear me out),, actually, intentionally flirting. did he mean it in the ‘adam you’re so unreal, you’re like a dream, i love you so much’ way? maybe!!! maybe not!!! but regardless, ronan made a joke that he knew could be taken as a romantic advance, and he did it ANYWAY!! this just shows how far he’s come since the dream thieves. adam handles this statement well and honestly? this sets up the entire book in terms of their relationship

Blue’s voice warred with the engine and Ronan’s still abusive electronica. It seemed impossible that Adam could sleep through it. (pg. 33-34)

hmmm, adam is so used to his extremely loud music that he can sleep through it??? he must spend a lot of time around ronan, then …..hmmmm

For a moment, he watched Ronan and tried to imagine that he was a teacher instead of a Ronan. It was impossible. Adam couldn’t decide if it was how he’d shoved up his sleeves or the apocalyptic way he tied his tie. (pg. 78)

mostly I’m including this line to remind you all that adam thought of ronan as a teacher, a king, and a god all in one book (but we’ll get to the last two later ok)

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Why

I’m writing out my feelings for this whole anon situation in this fanfiction. And thanks to comewhatanime for helping me with the ending c: It was suppose to be 10x longer and 10x more angsty, but I don’t have a lot of time to write with graduation coming up.

Setting: Long-distance relationship, AU

Italic: Skype Messages

Bold: Text messages

Bold + Italic: Tumblr message

Pairings: NaLu

Summary: “Lucy felt trapped in her own mind. The more hate that came, the more lonely she felt. With her only solace being one thousand miles away, she had no choice but to rely on mental help she was receiving, but words can only do so much to help a person… and Lucy learns that the hard way.”


“And… finished!” Lucy exclaimed,clasping her hands together and she typed the last word of her newly written fanfiction. The idea had been bothering her for the longest time, but she wasn’t sure if her fandom would enjoy the idea the same way she did. Finally, after late night conversations with Levy and occasionally Erza for the past week, Lucy had finally gotten the courage to put her idea into words.

A little beeping noise brought her out of her thoughts. Looking at her laptop, she seen she had gotten a notification from Skype. She clicked the little button and seen it was the group chat she had joined a little over two years ago.

Natsu: I’m sooooooo bored

Lucy giggled at his message, he was always the icebreaker to start a new conversation everyday between their group of eight. Hearing the alert noise again, she looked down at her computer seeing someone had replied to Natsu.

Gray: No one cares, go entertain yourself.

Now the blonde rolled her eyes, already knowing a fight was about to pursue. Not wanting to get in the middle of their little fit, she just decided to private message her beta to check for the errors in her story.

After sending the message, she went back to her little group seeing that there was already twenty messages she had missed in the two minutes she didn’t pay attention to the chat.

Natsu: I swear the day I meet you Ice Princess is the day you’re gonna regret fuckin’ with me.

Gray: Thats funny Flame Brain, I was thinking the same thing.

The insults came faster than Lucy could keep track of. Their only hope was that the red haired she devil would log on soon to stop the two idiots from their bickering. Lucy would stop them but the last time she tried to get in the middle of things resulted in an even bigger fight than what it was originally. So instead, she just sighed and tried to keep up with the spat waiting for Levy and Erza to log on.

Natsu: Porn star!

Gray: Ash for Brains!

Natsu: Stripper-

Erza: Natsu, Gray do I see fighting on the chat?

Natsu: No ma’am

Gray: What gave you that idea Erza?

Erza: It would be in your best interests to stop this harassment.

Natsu and Gray: Yes Erza…

Erza: Excellent. Are we the only three on currently?

Natsu: Yeah, Luce’s still asleep.

Lucy put a over her mouth, guilt rushing through her. She forgot to text Natsu this morning being too preoccupied with her fanficiton. She was about to type something on the chat when Erza beat her to it.

Erza: Strange, I talked to her earlier this morning.

“Erza…” Lucy groaned out, propping her elbow on her desk so she could rest her cheek in one of her hands.

Natsu: Really? She hasn’t texted me yet…

Gray: Looks like your own girlfriends tired of you now too.

Natsu: Shut up!!

Drowning in the guilt she felt, Lucy heard her phone vibrate already knowing who was texting her.

Natsu: Hey jerk! You didn’t text me this morning :(

Lucy sighed, fingers hurriedly typing a message.

Lucy: I know, I’m sorry!! My mind this morning was set on that fanfiction I was telling you about last night, I finally wrote it.

Natsu: Oh you wrote it? Did you publish it yet, I wanna read it!!

Lucy gave a breathless laugh at Natsu’s eagerness and already forgot anger. He sure was something else.

Lucy: No its not published yet, I’m waiting on Levy-chan to proof read it.

Natsu: Wahhh but Luce I wanna read it now!

Lucy: Oh don’t be such a baby Natsu, you’ll read it in a little bit I just sent Levy-chan the link.

Natsu: … Fine. I bet its perfect just the way it is, just like you are.

Lucy’s face heated up at Natsu’s compliment. That boy could be romantic when he wanted to be. Trying to calm down the butterflies in her stomach, she replied.

Lucy: Thank you Natsu, but I’m farthest from perfect. I’m getting on Skype now so we’ll just talk on there, okay?

Natsu: Well no matter what you say you’re perfect to me. And okay

A smile locked on her lips, Lucy set her phone to the side and decided to greet everyone in the chat.

Lucy: Morning guys!

Levy: Morning Lu-chan!! Just read your fanfiction, looks ready to publish to me! :)

Satisfaction rushed through her at the praise her best friend had just given her.

Lucy: Really?! Okay, posting it now then :)

She quickly went to her tumblr page, doing all the proper copy and pasting as well as putting in the right tags and finally with a shaky hand, she clicked post. She closed out of her tumblr, deciding she would check in a bit to see the feedback. She went back to Skype, deciding to tell everyone it was posted.

Lucy: Hey guys, its posted!!

Natsu: Awesome Luce! I’m going to read it now!

Erza: Same goes for me.

Gray: Reading it now.

Levy: I’ve already read it but it’s so great I’m going to read it again!!

Lucy: You guys are the greatest.

She sighed, a content feeling passing over her. Lucy didn’t know what she would do without the support of her internet friends, even with the distance between them. Its really hard to believe that everything started just by one simple comment on a drawing that Natsu had done two years ago. Now thanks to that comment she had a loving boyfriend and a great support system of friends, its crazy what can happen if you just take a chance.

Since it had been about ten minutes after she had posted her story, she decided to have a quick look to see what others in the fandom thought about her writing. Going to her tumblr page, she seen that she had ten notes on her fanfiction along with 3 new private messages.

Scrolling through the tags on her notes, it was just her Skype friends with the usual ‘Lucy this is so amazing!’ She smiled, instead of thanking them on here she was just going to do so on Skype. Clicking on her messages, she seen it was from three anons.

Anon: Your story was incredible!!!

Anon: You’re going to write a sequel right?!?! I need more of your writing in my life!!!

As she read the third anon message, it made her happy mood turn a bit somber.

Anon: You and your writing are terrible, just quit now before you embarrass yourself even more.

She reread the message over and over again, each time she did it brought her mood down a little more. Not wanting to give the rude anon the satisfaction of seeing her reply, she just deleted the message. Deciding to just reply to the other anons later when she cheered up a bit.

She heard the familiar alert sound from Skype, seeing that it was a private message from Natsu.

Natsu: Luce you know how much I hate reading, but I liked your fanfiction a lot! It was perfect :)

Even though she knew he couldn’t see her, that didn’t stop the blush that was beginning to form on her pale cheeks.

Lucy: Thank you Natsu.

Natsu: You’re welcome, ready for our daily video chat?

Lucy: I’m always ready to see your face.

Natsu: You’re such a weirdo, okay I’m calling now.

She didn’t bother to reply seeing as if Natsu was about to call. She searched all over her desk to find a pair of earbuds so she could hear Natsu better and so her father couldn’t hear the conversation either. The Skype calling sound nearly made her jump out of her skin as it began to play out loud on her laptop. Finally, she found her earbuds and plugged them in so she could begin to video chat with her boyfriend.

She pressed the answer button, and on her screen was the most beautiful man she had laid her eyes on. She saw the tangled mess of his shaggy salmon hair that complimented his tanned skin so perfectly. The black tank top he was wearing accented his toned muscles and matched the black jewelry that were currently in his ear. To top his all off, his onyx eyes were laced with pure happiness as he seen her pop up on the screen, his perfect canine teeth showing just how excited he truly was.

“Hey Luce.” He greeted in the voice she would never get tired of hearing. She loved that his deep and raggy voice was the first voice she heard in the morning and the last one she heard before she went to sleep at night.

“Hey Natsu, you look sleepy.” She commented noticing the bags under his eyes. He waved her off.

“Well, I do stay up until the crack of dawn talking to you miss I live all the way across the country and have a three hour time gap.” He replied with a yawn, adding emphasis to his statement. The blonde puffed out her cheeks.

“No one said you had to stay up all night to talk to me idiot.”

“I know, I just want too.” Lucy’s face heated up, there he goes being romantic again.

“Then stop complaining about it!”

“Who says I’m complaining about losing a little sleep to talk to the most beautiful girl in the world?”

“You sure are being romantic today, whats got you in such a good mood?” She grumbled out, trying to hide the redness adorning her cheeks but she knew she was failing quite miserably.

“Does everyone have to have a reason to be super happy?” Lucy raised a questioning eyebrow, giving the boy an inquiring look. She propped her elbows up on her desk and rested her chin in her hands, giving a more dramatic stare to her boyfriend. Hearing him sigh, she knew her glare had worked.

“I wanted to kind of surprise you but… I got my acceptance letter to Magnolia University today.” Lucy’s eyes widened without conscious thought, bringing one of her hands to cover her mouth trying to relieve the overwhelming sensation her body was going through right now.

“You… acceptance letter? You got in?!” She asked in a whisper, her excitement coursing through her veins the feelings getting stronger with each passing second. Seeing his breathtaking smile accompanied with a nod Lucy felt like crying.

“Yep Lucy, I got in.”

“T-Then that means…”

“We’ll be meeting in less than three months.”

Lucy felt the tears of joy burning the back of her eyes, not truly believing what she was hearing. After two long years of knowing each other and after a year and a half of a long distance relationship… they were finally going to meet.

“Oh my Mavis…” The blonde was so speechless, and Natsu could tell. So he decided to carry on the conversation for them.

“I can’t wait to hold you in my arms.” He said in such a gentle voice Lucy swore he was right now to her.

“I can’t wait for you to hold me Natsu.” She stated still in a stage of disbelief. “I just… wow. I know that we’ve been talking about this for over a year but now that it’s actually going to happen…” She trailed off not able to find the words to express the way she was feeling right now.

“Don’t worry Lucy, I feel the same way-” He was interrupting by a banging at his door.

“Natsu! Dinners ready!” They both heard Natsu’s adoptive mother shout. Lucy heard him curse under his breath.

“Okay mom I’ll be right down!” Lucy heard him say rather loudly, eyeing him as he returned his gaze back to her a sad look etched on his handsome features. “Sorry Luce, I gotta go.”

“So I heard.” She said with a soft smile. “Its okay Natsu, we can talk later tonight right?”

“Of course!” His expression turned soft. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” She replied as softly as he said it, as he ended the call. She let out a breathy sigh, still not believing that in less than three months she would be meeting the love of her life in person and not just through a computer screen. A knocking at the door interrupted her thoughts.

“Lucy dear are you busy right now?”

“No daddy, you can come in.” She heard her door open signaling that he had heard her. Lucy was surprised when she seen her fathers eyes glued to her phone.

“So dear, I just got a text message from Natsu.”

Lucy’s face scrunched up, wondering why her boyfriend would text her father. “What did it say?”

“It says ‘yo pops-in-law I got accepted into Lucy’s college!’” Lucy felt like banging her head against the table at the way Natsu worded his message.

“He is such an idiot…” The blonde muttered to herself.

“Yes, well, did he tell you yet?” Lucy nodded, still unbelieving that it really was true. “Ahh, well the move in day is in less than three months.”

“I know… it’s so unbelievable.” A disbelieving tone was in her voice. “I’ve been waiting for this day for so long… and it’s finally coming up.”

“Both of you have been through hell and back trying to keep your relationship going.” Lucy knew what her father was talking about. All the days they couldn’t talk because of school, homework, sports, social life had almost broken the two up. But at the end of the day the two teen realized what they had was real, making them push past all the barriers.

Now all their hard work and sacrifices for each other was going to pay off.

“I’m happy to see you’re happy dear, but I just needed your help on how to reply back to Natsu.” Lucy sweatdropped, of course her socially awkward father needed help talking to her boyfriend.


Erza: Everyone. I was tagged in that twenty beautiful peoples challenge, and I decided to tag all of you. I expect to see your pictures up within an hour.

Levy: Erza! You know Lu-chan and I don’t like posting pictures.

Erza: I am sorry Levy, but you were tagged so you have to do it.

Gajeel: Oi Shrimp, just make sure you’re not wearing anything too revealing.

Natsu: You should be telling Gray that Lug-nut, not your girlfriend.

Gray: Are you talking shit again Natsu?

Natsu: So what if I am?

Lucy: Natsu, Gray please don’t fight. And Erza, I’ll post my picture right now.

Erza: Thank you Lucy. As for you Natsu and Gray, if I see you bicker once more today I will be forced to used dramatic measures.

Natsu: Aye sir…

Rolling her eyes at the conversation, Lucy decided to get her phone out to take a selfie before Erza’s patience wore thin with the group. She smiled, her brown eyes squinting a little bit as she took the picture. She looked at the end result, seeing that it was a decent enough picture to post on the internet. Uploading the photo and putting the proper tags on it she hit post, embarrassed that she posted a selfie on the tumblr since no one knew what she looked like besides her Skype friends.

Five minutes had passed and since the group chat was just Erza scolding Natsu and Gray for their constant fighting, Lucy decided to check her tumblr due to how bored she currently was.

Going through her dashboard, she seen that Natsu had already reblogged her selfie and added the tags wow, my girlfriend is drop dead beautiful and can you believe a girl like her would fall for a man like me? just damn, I’m one lucky bastard. Lucy couldn’t stop the wave of embarrassment that ran through her body. She looked at her private messaging icon to see she had two new messages.

Clicking on them, she noticed that she received two more anon messages.

Anon: Wow, you’re stunning!!! Can I be you please?

Lucy blushed at the compliment, the hotness is her body soon turning cold as she read the next message.

Anon: Wow, ugliest person ever. I don’t think anyone can be as ugly as you are.

Lucy frowned at the message, but tried hard not to let it get her down. Replying to the nice messages she received from her fanfiction and her selfie, deleting the anon hate.


“One more month Lucy!!!” Lucy heard Natsu excitedly say. She looked at her handsome boyfriend on her computer screen.

“Huh? Oh, yeah. I can’t wait Natsu.” Lucy sounded tired, which she really was. Ever since that day with the anon telling her she sucked at writing and that she was ugly, they had been sending her constant hate messages telling her she was worthless and a waste of space. This brought down her self-esteem even more on top of her being depressed since it was the 10th anniversary of her mothers passing.

“Lucy, are you okay?” Natsu’s worried tone reached her ears. She looked up with tired eyes due to the crying she’s been doing for the past few weeks. She nodded meekly.

“Yeah Natsu, absolutely dandy.” She replied. She didn’t want to talk, she just wanted to be by herself. “Natsu, I think I’m gonna go. I don’t feel the best.” She could feel the concerned look Natsu was giving her without actually seeing it.

“Okay Lucy, just text me or call me when you’re feeling better alright?”

“I will.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.” She answered before immediately ending the call and closing her laptop. She got up from the chair and walked over to her bed, burying herself underneath her warm pink comforter. She grabbed her cell phone, checking her tumblr one last time before she decided to sleep.

She seen she had a new message and casually opened it up, heart sinking as she read the hurtful message.

Anon: Kill yourself please. You’d be doing everyone a great favor. Thank you, goodbye, and good riddance.

Lucy’s mouth dropped open. Out of the numerous amounts of hate she had received over the past few months, she had never read anything this vulgar.

The tears began to rush from her eyes without her permission. Her body starting to shake with unpleasant sobs. Her own mind telling her ‘maybe you should listen, you’ll be with your mother if you do.’ Lucy thought of her mother, the one person who she missed more than anything in the world and knew she was in the afterlife waiting for her precious daughter with open arms. The thought of being with her mother again, made the temptation far too great, but the fear of dying would stop her like it has in the past.  

Lucy couldn’t help it anymore, she was going to reply to this anon hate. Which wasn’t a good idea since she didn’t have a level head.

Anon, I don’t know why you’ve been constantly degrading me for the past two months. When I thought your messages couldn’t get any lower, you send me this. Props to you, you’re actually making me contemplate it.

She replied and posted it without rereading it, she just chucked her phone across the room and turned her face into her pillow and started to cry.

After a few moments, she heard her cell phone start to make noises, alerting her she was receiving new messages. She didn’t have the energy to go walk and get her phone though, but she moved against her body’s will anyways. She walked over and picked the cellular device off the ground, seeing she had twenty missed text messages.

Natsu: Lucy are you okay? Call me right now.

Natsu: Lucy?!?! Please answer me.

Natsu: Don’t do anything stupid Lucy please.

Natsu: Lucy answer me right now! Please!

It was just an assortment of worried text messages from Natsu and the others. She knew she had to talk to someone, get the feelings off of her chest. So clicked on Natsu’s name, pressing the symbol that automatically dialed his number.

After the phone rang for a second, the other line picked up.

“Lucy are you okay?!” Natsu shouted into the phone, his voice hoarse like he had been crying. Lucy pushed the thought to the back of her mind though, her emotionless state getting the better of her.

“I’m fine.”

“Why did you tell me someone has been harassing you for the past few months?!? Igneel’s a cop we would’ve gotten it taken care of!”

“Its not that big of a deal.”

“Not that big of a deal?! Lucy, someone told you to go kill yourself, this is serious!”

“Then how come I don’t care Natsu?! How come I feel like I should do it!?”

“I dont ever wanna hear you say that again Lucy.” His voice was so deadly serious, it almost scared Lucy. “Why would you feel like you should do it?”

“I… I don’t know.” Her sobs starting to resurface. “I just have an image of my mom waiting for me with open arms… I want to see her so badly.”

“Yeah I want to see Zeref too Lucy, but I’m not going to end my life to go see him because he wants me to live my life to the fullest. And instead of being depressed over his death, I’m living my life to the fullest for him. So I know hes watching over me and that hes proud I’m sticking through the tough times.” Lucy froze as she heard the strongest person she knew breakdown talking about his deceased brother.

She had talked to Zeref once or twice, he was such an amazing person and a good influence on Natsu. Then one tragic night Zeref went drove to work and got into a head on collision that killed him instantly. She also remembered Natsu didn’t talk to anyone or leave his room for three weeks or at least that’s what Igneel had told her. He  never really mentioned his death because of how hard it impacted him, but seeing him break down over it now did something to Lucy.

Lucy got on her laptop, opening her Skype app seeing all the messages from her friends worrying about her. She went to her tumblr page, seeing she have twenty new messages from people she’s never even spoken to before giving her nothing but kind words and support. Natsu’s voice brought her back to reality.

“Please don’t kill yourself Lucy… I don’t know what I would do without you.” Natsu’s voice was so weak it tugged at her heart strings almost painfully. Sure she wanted to see her mom again, but seeing all these people not wanting to lose her… made Lucy realize that she did matter in this world. She did have a purpose, and just like Natsu said she needed to live life for the fullest for her, and her mom.

With tears still pouring down her cheeks, she smiled sadly. “I’m not going to Natsu, how would I live with myself knowing that I’m so close to meeting you?”

He gave a hearty chuckle. “Thats my girl.” His voice turned serious again. “We’re all extremely pissed though. Me and Gray are actually working together to find a way to hack this fucker. Thats how pissed we are Luce.”

“Their not worth the effort Natsu, they truly aren’t. They are just some lowlife who has to hide behind a mask, if anything I feel sorry for them.”

He growled trying to let go of some of his anger. “I know they’re not worth it, but no one messes with you and gets away with it.”

Lucy’s smile turned tender. How in the world did she get blessed with friends like them?


“Dad! Do you see him anywhere?” Lucy asked examining the crowd for any pink fluffs of hair. She seen her father shake his head.

“No not yet dear, but his plane just landed. Just be patient.”

“I’ve been waiting for almost two years, I don’t think I can be any more patient daddy.” She seen the smile on her dads face, confusing the girl.

What are you smiling about- eep!” She squealed felt two arms wrap around her waist from behind. She froze, seeing the pink hair from the corner of her eye as a face buried into her neck.

“You’re so much shorter than I thought you’d be.” Lucy couldn’t move, she felt frozen to her spot. After over two years, the man of her dreams was finally holding her in his arms.

“Natsu…” Lucy breathed out, looking in the direction of his face. She seen him unbury his face from her neck a sheepish smile on his face.

“Hey Luce.”

“Natsu!” Lucy shouted before turning in his arms and wrapping them around her neck. She could tell he was caught off guard by her sudden action, but he recollected himself as she felt his strong arms wrap around her tiny waist, burying his face within her golden locks.

This feeling was so surreal. Having someone she met on an internet site was now in her arms, never leaving her again. As he took his face out of her hair, he used his pointer finger and thumb to lift her chin up to look him in his beautiful onyx eyes.

“You don’t understand how long I’ve been wanting to do this Luce.” He said then suddenly dropped his face down, connecting their lips together uncaring if her dad was watching. It took a minute for Lucy to catch up to reality, but she eventually returned the kiss. Their lips molded together perfectly, everything was perfect.

Lucy had thought things would be awkward at first seeing as they had never met in person, but it just felt so natural, like every part of this was meant to happen.

As the two teens stood in the middle of the airport, their lips still locked together Lucy realized something else.

This is where she belonged. Alive, breathing and well living her life to the fullest for everyone that loved her.

The two of them pulled apart, trying to regain a normal breathing pattern. Lucy dropped her arms from his neck, putting her hands at her side as Natsu unwound his arms from her waist, instead intertwining their fingers together. Beginning to walk the direction that her father was leading them.

This wasn’t the end of her life, it was just the beginning. 

The BBA: Past and Future

Hey everybody!

First off I’d like to say thank you very much for following - you are my very first blog followers, and I am flattered that you are interested in what I might have to post on here.

One of the reasons I never had a blog before (besides being inherently terrible at keeping up with stuff, even basic human tasks like laundry and dishes) is that I was never quite sure what I’d say.

I think the majority of people know my name with its connection to The Blackblood Alliance, so maybe it makes sense for my first post If I explain a little why I discontinued the project in the first place, and now why I think it’s worth picking back up again to run in a new direction with it.

The first book I ever bought for myself was White Fang. I read the shit out of that book. And I always was a fan of sequential art. Calvin and Hobbes was an enormous influence on me (I mean wasn’t it for everyone?) and one day, around 17 years ago I started drawing my own adventure comic. I didn’t have any “real life” friends, but I had internet friends (yeah, i was on the net super young) and so I brought us together on the page. And oh yeah we were dogs. Because dogs.

Notice that this is page 92. Every day I would sit there and just draw whatever came into my head. No planning, no “plot”. I eventually started to bore myself with coming up with “ok who pops out at them after they spend a few panels walking and shooting the shit?” and dropped it to entertain myself with god knows what other weird passion struck me at the moment.

I spent a few years doing “funnies” for small local publications, like the highschool newsletter and the Newsletter of the dogsledding organisation I was involved with.

“Stumpet and Meep” was about an obsessive white pomeranian with a dark imagination who was in love with her owner. “Kaltag” was about friendless, clumsy sleddog who is terrible at his job and collects Last Place trophies because Hey It’s Something.

The vast majority of these were 3 to 4 panel strips and are lost to the ages (probably for the best, I have always been terribly unfunny) but here are a couple that I still have.

In the one above, I found that I quite enjoyed the more “serious” panels of Meep’s world as a wolf. So I thought maybe I should explore that.

I grabbed stack of printer paper and a pencil and sat on the bed and again, no plot or ideas or plan, drew this:

At this point I had a Deviantart account so started posting this up for my (again internet) friends who played Furcadia and were also interested in wolves, and the rest is history.

A while later, a reader did some fanart for me. I liked it so much (especially her beautiful environment painting) that I asked her if she would like to team up with me. Together we redid my old pages to make some prettier stuff. For comparison, here is one of the last pages we produced:

We were definitely producing something that looked pretty good, if I may say so myself. I was never ashamed at how our work looked. But as we went along I became aware of a fatal flaw in the work: I was still writing page-to-page, flying by the seat of my pants. No real plan for anything that was happening. No arcs for any of the characters. Readers waited for sometimes MONTHS for the next page, most patiently, some not, because I was wringing my hands trying to decide what was going to happen on that page.

At this age - I think I was around 17 or 18, I was really impatient with fans and critics alike. I snarked at people who copied my designs too closely and I’d react defensively to criticism. I’d also be outright rude to people I thought were stupid. My public persona stirred up enough dirt that a small pocket of vocal haters cropped up, and then grew. Someone made an Encyclopedia Dramatica page about me, someone went through and altered all the speech bubbles in the comic in a parody, and people were trolling my Deviantart daily, telling me how terrible I was and wishing cancer upon me, etc etc. Amidst all this though, there was always a large number of people who just straight up liked the work and just wanted to see the next page, but somehow I tuned that out and only seemed to notice the hatred.

Offline I was dealing with social anxiety, bad relationships, an eating disorder, and dropped out of college. When my mom was diagnosed with terminal cancer I left my job too. The online pressure on top of all that was getting to be just too much - I was avoiding facing the internet - didnt check email or deviantart or my forum that I’d started where hundreds of members roleplayed in my fantasy wolf universe. People were trying to get a hold of me saying the moderators I had in place were doing crazy stuff to eachother, not to mention just tons of member drama I didnt understand, didnt know how to solve, and just didnt want to deal with.

A typical artist, my greatest fear is of failure. Things weren’t looking too good, I hate myself, everyone hates me, my work is headed nowhere, so why try? Failure is embarrassing. Better not to try and no one see your face, no one know your name, no one see your ugly messy attempts than to try and fall short and be shamed.

When my mother passed away, I lost any stability I had in my life and just broke. I was stuck in a deep mire of depression and never touched comic work again.

Blah blah ok enough life story bullshit. Im not writing any of this stuff to be felt sorry for by the way. I think a lot of people experience things like that - it isn’t anything special. I just want you to know why I suddenly stopped a project that a lot of you I presume had some sort of interest in. So there is all is, the honest truth about it.

In short though Ive spent the 5 years getting my shit together. I think I’m finally there, in a good place.

So what does one ideally do when youve found a good place? Do what you love, I think. And I really love making comics.

I considered starting an entirely different universe, in a different time period with different characters that were different animals. And yeah, I still want to make animal comics, not people comics, because I like talking animals and there aren’t enough of them in comics and graphic novels. Superheroes still dominate.

But even if I didn’t like the story details, I always liked the Blackblood Alliance world, and I think thats what other people liked too. Abandoning that forever seemed sad. So I decided that it needed to be what I worked on next.

I can’t just pick up BBA where I left off because I want to make something that lives up to the high standards I hold myself and my work to. I see clearly now that The Blackblood Alliance’s production was flawed, and I can’t unsee that. It needed direction. I’ll spare you the details but I learned a lot about the value of planning, organization and direction from my last job. I think I can apply what I’ve learned to a new approach for The Blackblood Alliance. 

And I’m not gonna lie, the constant outpouring of support from lovers of the BBA is where I draw a lot of my confidence, inspiration and motivation to continue its development.

I am very flattered that after all these years, you are following me and still have interest in seeing what happens next.

On my DA I will be chronicling the visual concepts and storyboards for BBA production. I will put those things on this blog as well, but I will also include more in-depth writing regarding planning and development process. I will always be open to questions, criticism and feedback, so feel free to contact me through DA. 

Thanks again for your continued support. I dont know where’d I’d be without it!

~Kay

anonymous asked:

Do you remember how Harry said he always stood at an arm's length away from Vernon? And Vernon had a habit of throwing things when he got angry (e.g. in GoF when the Weasleys ruin the fireplace). So while I think the Dursleys mostly stuck to verbal/psychological abuse, they probably also sometimes physically abused Harry as well. Harry has anger management issues, difficulty expressing physical affection, etc and the Dursleys are why. Jo's first marriage was abusive so that's pby why it's so raw

YES.

I’m going through all the books and keeping track of certain things-one of those things is Harry’s interactions with the Dursleys.

One of the worst things, in terms of bad things that happen to Harry, is the way the Dursleys treated Harry.Your early childhood shapes who you are, most of your base personality is set by age five, and while everyone is capable of change and growth, most people never do.

Petunia-she has, you know, reasons. It doesn’t excuse her behavior-in fact, it makes it worse, but one can at least understand that her relationship is completely tied into the fact that Harry is Lily’s son, her sister, this person with whom she’s had this very painful, complicated relationship. 

Vernon, though, Vernon is a sadistic, dark person. He looks down on everyone, prides himself on being superior, and loves using his position of power over other people. I think the abuse was mostly psychological, verbal, but it definitely got physical on occasion by Vernon, and definitely by Dudley. Vernon, this man who got off on being in charge of people-of yelling at them, making them cower before him-was horrified by magic because he was afraid of it, because it was more powerful than him.

A straight line can be drawn from Harry’s issues, just as you said-management issues, expressing physical affection-to the Dursleys. The fact that Harry was able to overcome it, or kept trying to overcome it, is something I just adore him for, but it will probably be, to an extent, lifelong battles.

They neglected him at best, abused him at worst, and I am so glad that Jo included it, painful as it is. If it had been this little boy who dealt with the greatest wizard and that had been the story, it was only this epic, sweeping story that took place in the magical world, we would love it but it wouldn’t touch us the way it does. What makes Jo such a fantastic author is that she shows struggles we can all relate to-being bullied, being outcast, dealing with idiots in school, dealing with ignorance, dealing with stereotypes, dealing with being sent to prison for 12 years for murders we didn’t commit… Not that last one, but you know what I mean. She includes real struggles and she includes people who get over their struggles, and people who don’t and probably never will.

Dumbledore does many, many great things in the books, but my favorite, the moment when he wins my loyalty, is this:

“‘Now, as you already know, the wizard called Lord Voldemort has returned to this country. The Wizarding community is currently in a state of open warfare. Harry, whom Lord Voldemort has already attempted to kill on a number of ocassions, is in even greater danger then the day when I left him on your doorstep fifteen years ago, with a letter explaining about his parents’ murder and expressing the hope that you would care for him as though he were your own.’

Dumbledore paused, and although his voice remained light and calm, and he gave no obvious sign of anger, Harry felt a kind of chill emanating from him and noticed that the Dursleys drew very slightly closer together.

‘You did not do as I asked. You have never treated Harry as a son. He has known nothing but neglect and often cruelty at your hands. The best that can be said is that he has at least escaped the appalling damage you have inflicted upon the unfortunate boy sitting between you.’

Both Aunt Petunia and Uncle Vernon looked around instinctively, as though expecting to see someone other than Dudley sitting between them.

‘Us-mistread Dudders? What d'you-?’ began Uncle Vernon furiously, but Dumbledore raised his finger for silence, a silcne which fell as though he had struck Uncle Vernon dumb.

‘The magic I evoked fifteen years ago means that Harry has powerful protection while he can still call this house ‘home.’ However miserable he has been here, however unwelcome, however badly treated, you have at least, grudgingly, allowed him houseroom. This magic will cease to operate the moment Harry turns Seventeen; in other words, the moment he becomes a man. I ask only this: that you allow Harry to return, once more, to this house, before his seventeenth birthday, which will ensure that the protection continues until that time.’

None of Dursleys said anything. Dudley was frowning slightly, as though he was still trying to work out when he had ever been mistreated. Uncle Vernon looked as though he had something stuck in his throat; Aunt Petunia, however was oddly flushed.”

ghostbehere-deactivated20160226  asked:

i feel like to fully enjoy your blog i need to listen to the libertines... where do i start

The Band

Pete Doherty

  • Peter Dohety, aka Bilo
  • singer, songwriter, guitarist
  • a large boy (6′2″) and yet so very very smol
  • dont u just wanna boop all his freckles and moles and kiss his lil nose and pet his floofy hair and tuck him into bed and make sure no one disturbs him till the morning
  • probably a cat (large baby animal eyes, soft floofy hair, licks carl)
  • his dad was in the army so he grew up all over the place
  • very very smart and witty and literary
  • struggled a lot with heroin etc but! he is clean now and better than he’s been in years
  • has a son named astille who is an angelic child

Carl Barât

  • full name: CARL ASHLEY RAPHAEL BARAT, aka Biggles, aka Carlos
  • singer, songwriter, guitarist
  • THE TINIEST i bet pete can scoop him up
  • but so angry and fierce!
  • his mum was a hippy so he spent half his childhood on a commune
  • he had a twin brother who died when he was a baby and he says he feels thats why he’s always desperate to be with someone. also pete once said he feels like hes the reincarnation of carls brother or… something. thats kind of. messed up guys
  • studyed acting for a year and became friends with petes sister amy jo, which is how pete n carl met, before he dropped out
  • absolutely Terrible and Embarrassing in every way (cant swim, was never on a plane in his life until he was 22, acts in terrible films etc etc)
  • struggled with depression and suicide and cocaine and alcohol for a long time :( but! also much better now, partly due to his gf edie and their two kids (more angelic children)
  • we make fun of him a lot but he can be so sweet and lovely and vunerable so. also tremendously attractive in a ‘crawled out of a parisian garbage can’ way, despite his tiny nipples
  • Hippy’s Son is the most hashtag carl thing ever to exist

John Hassall

  • bassist
  • im not sure that john is… entirely human?? like he hasnt aged in 15 years??
  • does he ever like? speak? smile? laugh? emote?
  • nontheless a killer bass player, beautiful in the way that greek temples are, and a good guy to have around
  • lives in sweden or denmark or somewhere equally mysterious, appears when summoned
  • has a band called yeti, v mysterious altogether

Gary Powell

  • GARY!!!
  • the drummer
  • a tremendous strong and stylish friend
  • what a pal, what a guy
  • honestly what is there to say about gary? so nice and good and pure and always happy and good natured
  • a good friend and never stood for any malarkey

there’s so much to say about the band? have some highlights;

  • the band formed when petes sister, amy jo, introduced him to her flatmate carl. they started arguing straight away and then became eternal soul mates
  • pete and carl used to live together. a lot. like. they slept on the same mattress
  • they were always fighting and falling out but simultaeneously obsessed with each other it was amazing/terrible
  • sometimes they couldnt pay the rent so they would post invitations to gigs on the band forum and charge a tenner at the door of their flat
  • its all very romantic and wonderful tbh
  • thigs fell apart a bit in 2003, carl kicked pete out bc of the drugs etc and then pete got angry and robbed carls flat and then carl sent him to prison it was. it was really messed up
  • then when pete got out carl was waiting for him and they fell into each others arms and played the Freedom Gig (please read the whole thing) and it’s like this one shining incandescent moment of glory before everything started to go wrong again
  • they broke up properly in 2004 :( and then everything was up and down, will they wont they for years
  • and then in 2010 they reunited for reading and leeds!
  • and then in 2014 pete went to rehab again and he got so much better and they played hyde park and carl and john and gary went to thailand to be with pete and they recorded the new album and now the singles out and!!! ah!! its really happening!!

The Albums

Up The Bracket

  • what do i even say this album is amazing
  • its all ~ PUNK VIBES and sid vicious hair but the lyrics are so sweet and poetic and and arGH
  • i cant even say anything else its perfect
  • radio america :(((
  • the good old days :((((((((((

The Libertines

  • i cant even listen to the first track without crying bc its About Them the entire album is just About Them
  • agony and pain and heartbreak
  • im sorry its just all a bit Much
  • a few older songs from the early years worked their way back in
  • idek what to say its agony and fire and death
  • buts its good tho imma still listen

Anthems for Doomed Youth

  • the new album B)
  • out this september i believe 
  • the single is ‘gunga din’ and its breaking my heart

Other Projects

Babyshambles

  • pete’s other band
  • just a shambles baby
  • actually extremely good like. like wow theyre really really good
  • three albums; Down in Albion, Shotter’s Nation and Sequel to the Prequel
  • some of petes best songs
  • oh yeah drew mcconnell is the most pure, most precious of all the cinnamon rolls

Dirty Pretty Things

  • carls other band (ft gary)
  • two albums; Waterloo to Anywhere and Romance at Short Notice
  • again, really really good by virtue of having carl in it
  • honsetly i cant believe we live in a world in which DPT era carl once walked truly we are blessed

Carl’s Solo Album

  • the picture is mostly irrelevant i just think he looks really beautiful here
  • i havent listened to it but alissa tells me its. not great and i trust her
  • however! it does contain ‘so long my lover’ which is like. the greatest thing carl ever achieved on his own so theres that

Grace/Wastelands

  • petes solo album
  • SO GOOD
  • LIKE ITS SO GOOD
  • its all sweet acoustic folky little songs and its so good
  • also sweet by and by?? is definitley abt carl??
  • like its just SO GOOD
  • also pete was like. aesthetically at his peak i mean that hat

Carl Barat and the Jackals

  • in 2014 carl put together a new band called the jackals and they recorded an album called ‘let it reign’ and. its good its really really good
  • the video for glory days is incredible?
  • well worth a listen

More Fun Libertines Facts

  • do what i did and operate on the basic assumption that every song is about pete and carls relationship until proven otherwise
  • upthealbion.com is an absolute goldmine for info and downloads
  • photographer andrew kendall has some great downloads on his website (shaking and withdrawn and untitled are essential pete acoustic sets)
  • although tbh most unreleased stuff is worth getting a hold of especially stuff like ‘you’re my waterloo’ bc. hoo boy
  • bilo-shambles has downloads for essential libs books (threepenny memoir and the books of albion are carl and petes own books, respectivley)
  • this is the most important libertines footage you will ever watch in your entire life
  • here is a very tiny pete getting interviewed while queing for be here now
  • here is a very out of it carlos staring at noel gallagher in abject adoration and making a fool of himself on tv
  • oh yeah pete has a song called ‘for lovers’ written by wolfman. uh. get someone else (like actualcarlbarat) to explain wolfman to u
  • im probably missing six million things this is only the beginning everyone make sure to correct me and add more as I’m only a baby libs fan m'self
  • honestly ur best bet is to do what i did less than six month ago and throw yourself in headfirst and everytime u learn something new yell THIS CANNOT BE but it is!! its all true!!

anonymous asked:

while Annabeth does think a Lot about Percy, that's not all she thinks about and as annabeth fan i'm a little insulted you think that.

Considering I’ve never said Annabeth does nothing but think about Percy, I can only assume that the implication here is that all Piper does is think about Jason and I’m honestly tired of seeing that argument because it’s not true. But just for fun (not for the sake of rebuttal or anything, you’ve already acknowledged she thinks about him a lot, but it’s something I’ve been meaning to compile for awhile), and since I have it in front of me right now… let’s list the times Annabeth thinks/talks about Percy from Mark of Athena (I might miss a few because she does this a LOT. I’ll try not to list too many of the ones where he’s listed along with other people):

- “All she wanted to do was be with Percy — preferably alone.”

- “Annabeth was trying to cheer up Hazel, regaling her with Percy’s greatest Seaweed Brain moments” (Hazel’s sad about her brother and you can only talk about your boyfriend - I get that Percy’s the person they have in common, they both love him and Annabeth’s distracting Hazel, it’s fine. Just pointing it out)

- “Percy is everything to me.” (to Athena, when she tasks Annabeth with following the Mark of Athena)

- “She’d tried to throw away the silver coin, but it simply reappeared in her pocket, the way Riptide did for Percy.” (this happens many more times, where she keeps thinking of things in relation to Percy, or inserts Percy where he doesn’t really have to be. You could easily have just said it reappeared in her pocket without adding that last bit, but her mind is constantly on him.)

- “A knock on her door made her jump. She hoped it might be Percy, but instead Frank Zhang poked his head in.”

- “Her cabin was bare. She kept it clean and simple, which helped her to think. Percy didn’t believe it because she always made excellent grades, but like most demigods, she was ADHD.”

- “Annabeth patted [Frank’s] arm. ‘Percy has a knack for picking good friends.’”

- “Over the last year, while Percy had been missing, the gray streaks had finally disappeared from both of them, which made Annabeth sad and a little worried. She felt like she’d lost a symbolic bond with Percy.”

- “Afterward, Annabeth wished she’d jumped into the harbor with Percy.” (going with Piper and Hazel to Charleston Harbor)

- “She shook her head. Percy would hate her getting so philosophical. If she tried to talk to him about stuff like that, his eyes glazed over.”

- “Next came Percy, who was infuriating but sweet, yet he had seemed to be falling for another girl named Rachel, and then HE almost died, several times. Finally Annabeth had gotten Percy to herself, only to have him vanish for six months and lose his memory.”

- “She needed help… some kind of distress signal to Coach Hedge, or even better — Percy.”

- “Most of all she wanted Percy. She always felt braver when Percy was with her. I am not going to die here, she told herself. I’m going to see Percy again.”

- “She realized her best efforts had not been enough. She wouldn’t make it out of here. Arachne’s children would kill her at the feet of her mother’s statue. Percy, she thought, I’m sorry.”

- “After all they’d been through over the last year, he knew the most important thing was that they were together. She loved him for saying that.”

Now, I’m not ragging on Annabeth for thinking about her significant other/boyfriend who’s been missing for months/one constant best friend since they were children. He’s the most important person in her life and she loves him and is in love with him and it MAKES SENSE that she’ll think about him all the time. She also makes time to think about other things, like saving the world and solving puzzles and tricking a giant spider into weaving her own jail. So I don’t understand why Piper gets so much shit for thinking about Jason a lot when yes, she DOES do and think about a whole lot of other things - damage control for Leo and Jason with the rest of the crew, saving their asses countless times in TLH and beyond, hating feeling like the weak link and therefore striving to improve herself by sword fighting with Hazel (as well as swapping tips on charmspeak vs. controlling the Mist), defeating an ice goddess when everyone else is incapacitated, single-handedly winning that cornucopia from Achelous (saving Jason from drowning in the process) AND besting Hercules with it, sacrificing any hope of an honest relationship with her father for the sake of protecting his sanity, saving Percy and Jason TWICE (once with the eidolons, once with the water nymphs) in MoA, offering her insights and interpretations of different lines of the Prophecy. That’s just a quick list off the top of my head, I’m sure there’s countless others. They’re both tough ladies and the number of times you think about the person you love does NOT preclude your ability to get the job done and kick ass. That’s all. 

quietshark-deactivated20160725  asked:

Russos said in dir. Interview that they implied winter solider killed Howard and Maria in Cap2. They also said “Cap can reasonably know either that it was the winter soldier or he suspect that might have been, and he choose to reveal none of that information to Tony, because he’s trying to protect his friend” “He knows he can predict what Tony’s response will be, and it’s exactly what’s his response is in the film”

They also said “…there’s certainly something that he longs for in respect to the simpler times that his older family represents for him. And he and Tony have never had a great relationship so it’s not that complicated decision for him” Do you have any thoughts on those comments from Russos?

id be interested if you could link me to this interview, but what that basically tells me is the Russos, 2 of the primary men behind writing these characters on the big screen, decided to take the shitty ass 2012 Joss Wheat Thins Avengers characterization of them fighting on the helicarrier as their character bible for steve and tonys relationship, and then expounded it with Joss Wheat Thins shitty 2015 Avengers: Age of Ultron movie where took the story of steve and tony in a high tension situation (where tony wasnt even in a clear state of mind) worthy enough to make an action/adventure movie, as the Status Quo of how they normally are 24/7. 

mostly im upset that the highest grossing facet of media for Marvel decided to make MCU the Darkest Timeline for the Avengers where we don’t have them as a family, its basically just a few clumps of ppl who work together time to time and dont really bother to trust each other unless its watching each others backs in battle, which frankly, ya kinda got no choice in those situations its Trust or Die.

also I find this super insulting to steve rogers as a character

“He knows he can predict what Tony’s response will be, and it’s exactly what’s his response is in the film”

the POINT of steve rogers is that while he’s not a perfect man, he can put his foot in his mouth, he can be a lil snarky shit, he is better than the rest, he is not homophobic in a time where homophobia runs rampant, he believes in race and gender equality (NOT progressive new wave feminism like us on tumblr but an earlier variation of it) and in more personal matters and morals, he is a man who not only talks about the importance of free will and not taking personal choice away, but acts upon it. He is a man with strong morals, respect, goodwill, and yes that can come off “a little square” but im sorry, i honestly dont see any of this as bad, all of these are wonderful traits instilled into him by his mother Sarah Rogers.

overall? he is a man who trusts. his steadfast belief that PEOPLE ARE GOOD. holy crap i cant emphasize this enough, Steve Rogers literally asks villains he’s beating up mid-battle if they wont change their ways, and sighs when they give the typical villainous response of “no” but he never. stops. asking. HE DOESNT. GIVE. UP. even when he comes up out of the ice 70 years in the future, the point of steve rogers is that his heart is big enough to love the new people around him, just as much as the old ones. HIS STORY IS OF RESILIENCE AND MOVING ON IN LIFE (something i personally relate to)

what does that tell you when a man who inherently believes people are good, won’t even trust in his own damn teammate (who literally pays for everything, gives him a home, spends valuable money and time personally upgrading all of his gear, watching his back, asks after how he’s doing) and my GOD never fucking mind “they were never that close” this is like, basic decency to maybe not hide a nuclear bomb worthy kind of personal info about someone….from that someone, especially when you have personal stakes involved (bucky)

this kinda of interpretation of steve rogers portrays steve as a literal gold diggin ho whos willing to preach high and mighty to the very person who’s funding and supporting his livelihood while making decisions for that person (who happens to be a grown ass adult) because he decided his personal stakes were more important (coward). Can steve be selfish? Yes he can be. Is he selfish at the expense of others? Never.     

the fact that MCU stripped all of these qualities, and basically have steve’s entire emotional crux around his binky… lmao what kind of 1 dimensional self drag…… IF mcu had delved into steves MASSIVE guilt and ptsd as super unhealthy and NOT OK (like tony in im3) i would be able to swallow this more, but the fact that russos brush this off as “he’s trying to protect his friend” 

now all of this can be swept under the rug of “but steve kinda loses his shit when it comes to bucky”

i get it. I do. But at the same time, whAT kind of oNE DIMENSIONAL STEREOTYPICAL SELF DRAG steve is a man willing to put his faith in others, he is NOT the kind of person to be like “well since tony disagreed with me i guess i cant trust him no more” steve rogers is not that weak to have his faith in people so easily shaken, steve rogers is resilient, steve is such a wonderful fucking character and they literally had him say “my faith isnt in groups its in individuals” yEA INDIVIDUALS WHO SUCK YOUR DICK oh my GOD this BURNS me STEVE ROGERS BELIEVES IN HUMANITY AND THE GOOD IN PEOPLE THIS WAS STEVES GREATEST STRENGTH and even for personal matters he wouldve at least tried to reach out to tony for help AND MCU LITERALLY FLUSHED THIS DOWN THE TOILET hAHH AH  A H A H Aaaa ::::)))

also. on tony. 

I wrote an entire thing about how it wouldve gone down if steve told tony earlier on and lmao @ russos oh my god THIS IS WHY WE CANNOT TRUST ANYONE “Tony’s response…is exactly what’s his response is in the film” WHAT KIND OF DUMBASS COMMENT OH MY GOD THE FINAL FUCKING POINT OF THAT REVEAL SCENE IS STEVE ROGERS BETRAYED HIS TRUST AND KEPT THIS A SECRET AND THATS WHY HE SO COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY LOSES HIS SHIT HOW THE FUCK WOULD TONYS RESPONSE BE ANYWHERE NEAR AS DEVASTATING IF STEVE TOLD TONY WHILE BUCKY WASNT IN SIGHT AND TONY DIDNT JUST SEE A SNUFF FILM OF HIS PARENTS AFTER A GODAWFUL FEW DAYS (HALF BC OF STEVE) WITH THE CHERRY ON TOP OF STEVE LYIN LMAO WHAT KIND OF SHALLOW CHARACTER INTERPRETATION!!!!;;!;; @ RUSSOS MEET ME IN THE FUCKING PIT

tldr the mcu never knew how to write steve’s growth as a character like tony (steves emotional beats literally repeat itself in all 3 of his movies) NONE of the steve writers including the Russos, saw some of steves… “more square” qualities the best fucking qualities that made steve…..steve as worthy of developing they quite literally kept the man from the past…..stuck in the past.

and for that, i honestly mourn steve rogers in the mcu because he is truly a tragic figure, the mcu sucks and gave him the double whammy of “steve cant trust ppl overall to be good only certain individuals who agree with him”+”heres all these incidents and drama that make steve lose what little faith he had in humanity in the first place” and i mourn the fact that mcu decided steve and tonys relationship wasnt worth developing because itd be too costly to have such high paying actors in the same scene too much?? because conflict between lead characters means its easier to write more dramatic movies?? because its too fucking gay???? who the fuck knows mcu is literally the darkest timelines and the russos are all in on this bullshit fuck u Russos 

dasakuryo  asked:

Hi there! :) Do you happen to know any pre-canon westallen fics? Or any that features Barry's friendship with Cisco along with westallen? (or Cisco and Iris' friendship, idk if that's a thing in the comics or it'll be in the tvshow verse but I kinda want it to happen). Btw, thanks in advance! :) And reading your analysis and insight on The Flash, westallen and Iris West is always a joy :)

I think that most of the WA fics I’ve read that has them younger are AUs, but let me see if I can break some down for you. And thank you! You’re so sweet.

Pre-Canon
i never dreamed of this: Barry and Iris in high school, with some jealousy.
at a loss: Barry & Iris growing up, through Barry’s perspective.
missing you: Iris reminiscing at Barry’s bedside, during his coma.
suiting up: Barry & Iris on various Halloweens throughout the years.
trying to fight gravity: Iris & Barry being touchy feely while growing up.
all the little things: Joe watching Barry & Iris grow closer through the years.
going, going, gone: Iris & Barry at junior prom.

AUs (meet-cutes, leading up to a relationship, etc.)
i bet you start loving me: High School AU with Barry as the new kid. Includes Cisco/Linda/Caitlin/Iris friendship.
it gets to friday and i give you a call: AU in which Barry and Iris connect through texts. Includes Cisco/Barry and Iris/Linda friendships.
across every universe (you are home): A collection of AUs in which Barry and Iris meet and fall in love. Barry/Cisco friendship features in ‘your biggest fan’ and ‘ playing the part’.
the game changer: What if Iris and Barry had gotten together in high school?
shut up & save the world: Barry is kind of a cocky player, and Iris is the first reporter to interview the Flash.
a lesson in gastronomy: Iris is a critic, Barry is head chef at a restaurant she’s reviewing. Includes Barry/Cisco friendship.
playing triplets: Not exactly what you asked for, but a Barry/Iris/Cisco OT3 AU.
what’s a soulmate?: Barry & Iris soulmate AU.
her dearest friend: Barry & Iris Regency AU (based on Jane Austen’s Emma)
boyscouts & baby giraffes: The greatest one-night stand AU you’ll ever read.
that mood indigo: Barry & Iris in the 1940s. Everyone needs to read it

The Incredibles Sentence Meme
  • "Every super hero has a secret identity. I don't know a single one who doesn't."
  • "Who wants the pressure of being super all the time?"
  • "Superladies, they're always trying to tell you their secret identity. Think it'll strengthen the relationship or something."
  • "No matter how many times you save the world, it always manages to get back in jeopardy again. Sometimes I just want it to stay saved, you know?"
  • "Sometimes I think I'd just like the simple life, you know? Relax and raise a family."
  • "Settle down? Are you kidding? I'm at the top of my game."
  • "Girls, come on. Leave the saving of the world to the men? I don't think so."
  • "I'm your number one fan!"
  • "You always say be true to yourself but you never say which part to be true to."
  • "This is because I don't have powers, isn't it? Not every super hero has powers, you know. You can be super without them."
  • "When you asked if I was doing anything later, I didn't realize you'd forgotten. I thought it was playful banter."
  • "You didn't save my life! You ruined my death!"
  • "It is time for their secret identity to become their only identity."
  • "Coincidence? I think not!"
  • "The last thing you need is temptation."
  • "Dad always said our powers were nothing to be ashamed of."
  • "I said shut up, you little insect!"
  • "What do you know about normal? What does anyone in this family know about normal?"
  • "Look, what if we actually did what our wives think we're doing?"
  • "I performed a public service! You act like that's a bad thing!"
  • "They keep creating new ways to celebrate mediocrity but if someone is exceptional...."
  • "We appreciate what you did in the old days, but those days are over."
  • "Let me guess. It got smart enough to wonder why it had to take orders?"
  • "I've got to warn you, its a learning robot. Every moment you fight it increases its knowledge of how to beat you."
  • "He's attracted to power, so am I. Its a weakness we share."
  • "My God, you've gotten fat."
  • "Supermodels, nothing super about them. Spoiled, stupid little stick figures with pouty lips who think only about themselves."
  • "I used to design for gods."
  • "I never look back, darling. It distracts from the now."
  • "No capes!"
  • "Would you care for more mimosa?"
  • "I learned an important lesson. You can't count on anyone, especially your heroes."
  • "Now you respect me, because I'm a threat. That's the way it works."
  • "You sly dog! You got me monologuing!"
  • "Luck favors the prepared."
  • "I let this happen, you know. The new sports care, the getting in shape, the blond hair, the lies."
  • "I was right to idolize you."
  • "I wish my parents played Mozart because half the time I don't know what anyone's talking about."
  • "We're dead! We're dead! We survived but we're dead!"
  • "You'll get over it. I seem to recall you prefer to 'work alone'."
  • "I knew you couldn't do it. Even when you have nothing to lose, you're weak."
  • "You want to go toward the people that tried to kill us?"
  • "Remember the bad guys on those shows you used to watch on Saturday morning? Well these guys are not like those guys. They won't exercise restraint because you're children. They will kill you if they get the chance. Do not give them that chance."
  • "Doubt is a luxury we can't afford anymore."
  • "Don't think and don't worry. If the time comes, you'll know what to do. It's in your blood."
  • "Next time you gamble, bet your own life."
  • "Why are you here? How can you possibly bring me lower? What more can you take away from me?"
  • "How could I betray the perfect woman?"
  • "You gotta admit this is cool! Just like a movie!"
  • "You mean you killed off real heroes so that you could pretend to be one?"
  • "When everyone's super, no one will be."
  • "You are my greatest adventure. And I almost missed it."
  • "Honey, where is my super suit?"
  • "Greater good? I am your wife! I'm the greatest good you are ever gonna get!"
  • "I can't lose you again! I can't. Not again. I'm not...strong enough."
  • "You took away my future I'm simply returning the favor."
  • "That was totally wicked!"
Thirty-six

Randi

My graduation was coming up in a matter of months, and honestly I couldn’t believe I had made it despite all the set backs. It was my greatest accomplishment so far and it felt even better because my parents, Cayden and my psychiatrist were all beyond proud. More than anything I was realising I was actually an adult, and making important life decisions. It also just made me realise how much time had passed with Cayden, a whole year and a half.

“We need to throw you a party then,” Cayden said. We were in the shower and water ran down his toned chest which made it hard to really pay attention to what he said.

“I don’t think I want all that,” I shook my head.

“What you want then?”

“I really just wanna be with my family and you. Maybe the girls and Cole, thats it.”

“I can make that happen,” he murmured, wrapping his arms around my waist. He bent down and kissed me.

“What else can you make happen,” I wrapped my arms around his neck and tilted my head, biting my lip. He chuckled.

“Ah shit, I can’t,” he said turning the water off. My eyebrows came together in confusion because Cay never refused sex, especially when I came on to him. “I’m meeting with your dad today, remember?”

“Right,” I groaned.

“Your dad don’t play when it comes to being on time,” he said.

“I know,” I nodded regretfully.

“When i get back,” he squeezed my butt then stepped out the shower.

“I may just get it done without you,” I mumbled.

“What?” He raised his brows. He hadn’t heard what I actually said.

“Nothing, pass me a towel?” I asked. He tossed a towel to me after wrapping one around his waist. We left the bathroom and I went to sit on the bed.

Cayden was spending an awful lot of time driving around town these days so I only saw him in the morning then at night. I assumed it was for work. I looked up at his bare body as he got dressed.

“How long you Gon be gone?”

“Just a few hours,” he smirked. I made a face.

“Y'all hanging out like that now, I don’t know if that’s good or bad,” I said. He laughed.

“He loves me so,“he shrugged.

"That’s the problem,” I complained, “what y'all doing anyway.”

“We going golfing to have some man talk,” he said.

“Ew golf okay I’m not jealous anymore,” I went back to moisturising  my body and he got the rest of his clothes on then came to kiss my head.

“You betta be naked when I get back home,” he murmured before leaving. I was left sitting on the bed more frustrated than ever.

As soon as Cay left Cole actually showed up. I smiled and hugged him tight because I hadn’t seen him in forever.

“Colebear. Where have you been? How come you don’t come see me anymore?”

“I been mad busy. But I’m here now.”

“Come in, we’ll order some food and I’ll call up the girls,” I said. He came in and we went to the living room.

“Should I have them get us drinks?” I suggested.

“Yes, I’m tryna get lit” he said. So I texted the girls the details in the group chat.

“So tell me what’s up with you before we get turnt. Last time we talked you were dealing with your family I think…” I started. He nodded.

“Shit yeah. I went to the family dinner my mom wanted me to go to,” he shrugged.

“You and your mom are better now but what about everyone else?” I asked.

“It was a bit awkward because nobody addressed the fall out we had. They acted nice like nothing ever happened. But my family always been like that, we don’t talk about stuff, we just move on.”

“Hmm I know what you mean. Well as long as they’ve accepted you right?” He nodded. I was glad things were looking better because although Cay always acted like he didn’t care what anybody thought, I knew his family’s past disapproval really got to him and even got in the way of past relationships.

“Anyways, how my nigga Cayden and the rest of the crew,” he asked.

“He good. The rest of them are act up as usual. They be in my damn house all hours. ” I shrugged. “They complain that you never come out anymore,” I said casually. I obviously knew the reason, he couldn’t be friends with Ty like he had thought he could be.

“Thirsty niggas,” he teased. I rolled my eyes at his avoidance. The door bell rang then, and I went to open it. It was the girls and they held bottles of alcohol.

“I can’t believe we day drinking,” I laughed, letting them in.

“You know what they say, its 5 o'clock some where,” China sang.

“I’ll get glasses then,” I gave in.

Our food eventually came and we put on some movies and lounged on the couches. We had already finished one bottle Malibu, which was mostly downed by the others. I quickly realised that I was gonna have to be the sober one so I had switched to pop. It was funny because usually I got drunk and Cole had to watch out for me. I didn’t mind though.

After two movies China was ready to go home because she had work.

“I’m her ride so I’m dipping too,” Jada said, coming to give me a hug.

“Y'all good to drive?” I asked.

“I’m good,” Jada said, “but he ain’t,” we looked over at Cole who was snoring on the couch.

“Ill just throw a blanket over him, I don’t wanna wake him up,” I said. I walked them to the door and we said goodbye, then they left. I cleaned up all the bottles and glasses then called Cay.

“Hey baby,” he said.

“Hi, where are you now?” I asked.

“I’m on my way home right now, but I gotta stop by work real quick,” he said.

“When are you gonna be home?” I asked.

“20 minutes tops,” he replied.

“Okay, bye.”

“Bye babe,” he said, then we hung up. I went upstairs and went on my computer for a little bit to wait for him. Just before that 20 minutes were up I stripped down to my bra and panties so that I could surprise him when he got home.

I could hear the door open and close downstairs when he got home. Then I heard his footsteps on the stairs. As he opened the door he said,

“Randi why is Cole sleeping on the couch-” then he saw what I was wearing and stopped, “damn.” He said, closing the door.

“Hi,” I giggled. He licked his lips and his hand went to his chin.

“Hey,” he said, making his way over to the bed. I crawled over to the edge and wrapped my arms around his torso.

“I been waiting, you better hurry up,” I said, hiking his shirt up from the back. He took it off for me and came on to the bed. He brought his face to mine and kissed me.

“Tell me you want it,” he said in my ear.

“I want it,” I said quickly, gripping at his shoulders. He kissed down my neck and to my chest. He trailed all the way down my stomach and to my coochie. He grabbed my underwear and pulled them off revealing me to the air.

“Oh god” I murmured.

Cayden

I put two fingers just inside her to see what it was looking like.

“Damn mama, you already wet,” I said

“I been thinking about you all day,” she said.

“What was you thinking babe,” I bit my lip. It drove me crazy when Randi said anything sexual. I teased her by taking my hand away. She moaned and said please “tell me what you were thinking,”

She grabbed me and pulled me up so I was right on top of her.

“I was thinking about you inside of me,” she breathed in my ear. She yanked my shorts and boxers down and gripped me in her hands. “I been waiting all day, don’t play with me.”

“My bad,” I groaned. I grunted when she started moving her hands. Ran didn’t play when she wanted it and she didn’t like to be teased. My guy was on full alert now and she crawled on top of me. My hands were behind my head as she aligned herself with my manhood and sat herself down on it. She moaned the whole way down and I almost lost it right here.

“Ow, shit,” she cried. Her hands went to my chest and she started to rotate her hips. She went back and forth, and I watched her throw it back on me.

“Damn babe,” I dug my fingers in her thighs probably too hard but I was trying not to bust.

“Oh yeah,” she moaned, eyes closed. I could feel her tighten around me and her legs started to shake. “Oh shit, oh shit. Ah I can’t,” she was shaking too much to move on her own.

I moved my hands to her hips and started moving her up and down.

“Oh-my-god” she gasped as I hit her from underneath. I knew this allowed me to go deeper and her face told me I’d found the right spot.

After we were finished, I helped her get up and she groaned.

“You good?” I asked, pulling her onto my chest.

“I’m just sore,” she kissed my neck. I massaged her back. We laid there for a while in silence.

“So why is Cole sleeping downstairs? We have several rooms.”

“He was drunk, I didn’t wanna wake him and I can’t lift him. He’s been going though it though Cay, I feel bad.”

“What’s up?” I asked.

“You know his mom just accepted him? And even then the relationship is kinda rocky because the rest of his family don’t address who he is,” she sighed. “You should take him out.”

“Ya sure babe. That’s shitty,” I said feeling bad for him. Cole was a good guy and I liked him, but even more I knew Randi loved him. Their friendship was funny to me because they were an unlikely pair. I can’t lie though, I got jealous once in a while.

“Thank god my parents have put up with everything I put them through…if they ever isolated me like that… "she murmured.

"Hey,” I grabbed her chin, “none of that was your fault,” I said immediately. She nodded and touched my hand. “And i know your parents are good people. They’d never do that.”

“Yeah, I know baby. I just feel guilty  sometimes, I’m not worth everything I put then through” she said. I looked down at her because I just realized how far she had come from the girl I first fell for. I trailed my fingers across her bare legs which now had faint scars, way better than they were a year ago. I still remembered the first time she showed me her legs. She was in tears and I just wanted to do anything to make her feel better. I wondered what would have happened if I had let her run out of my room that night.

“I don’t wanna hear none of that shit Ran. You know good and well nobody blames you. I don’t know why you even think like that,” I said, a little angry. She picked up on it and put her hand on my chest.

“Okay, you’re right Cay” she nodded. I sighed. “Why are you angry babe?”

“Because if you thinking shit like that it means I’m not doing my job right. You should realize how…important you are. Do you not know you’re the best thing that ever happened to me? Because if you don’t by now, I might as well leave and-”

“I know it, I do Cay. I’m just a little crazy sometimes, you know that. I didn’t mean anything by that…it just came out. You are a perfect boyfriend okay?” She said apologetic. I nodded and went back to running her back. My worst fear was her regular crazy turning into mental break crazy. That’s why I didn’t even like her entertaining those thoughts.

We laid there for a long time after in our own thoughts.

“What are you thinking?” I asked, nosy.

“I’m thinking about what I’m gonna do when I graduate,” she said.

“That’s easy, be with me,” I teased. She laughed.

“That’s a given. I meant things im not sure about,” she explained. I immediately smirked.

“So you sure about me huh?” I said cocky. I already knew she was not going to address that but she went red which was the only answer I needed. I started to consider what she had said though about after she graduated. I would never tell Randi her life, I knew better than that, but I already knew what I’d want. Id want her to stay at home…and start a family. But I knew she wasn’t ready for all that yet, and I could wait.

“What time is it?” She asked. I checked the clock.

“10pm” I said. She nodded then started to get up.

“Where you going?” I asked as she got my boxers on and a T shirt.

“I’m gonna check on Cole. I think imma wake him up, just to come sleep in a room. He shouldn’t have to sleep on the couch, that’s rude,” she insisted.

My girl was the most caring person i knew. Once she considered you her friend, she was down for it all. She didn’t judge nobody and always wanted to give people chance after chance. Sometimes it came to bit her in the ass. We bonded over situations that changed both of us forever, and that was why we understood each other. She made me not want to let the misfortunes make me bitter about life. When I was with her things looked good, the future looked good.  Even though she was just downstairs, thinking about her had me missing her. I was beyond whipped.

Kennash in season 2, also a bit of Frary

I’m gonna try and make sense of the mess that’s Kennash and their other romantic relationships.

This post is full of theories and speculations, because Reign is a horrible mess that forgot how to write relationships and consistent characters.

I think this episode suggested that Kenna is interested in Renaude due to:

  • him being there, his interest in her is super convenient for her and her self-esteem bruised by Kennash marriage
  • she’s horny, which is frankly my favorite reason, you go girl
  • he’s not Bash, he’s the opposite of Bash
  • as Lola said to Kenna, this is the first time she actually has an opportunity to make a choice in her romantic life, you can practically see the lightbulb over Kenna’s head, and she decided to test out Renaude first
  • Kenna thinks Bash is moving on, which could mean she would have a very little time to find someone else for herself before Bash demands an annulment or divorce, and again, Renaulde is already there and interested

Kenna doesn’t have any deep feelings for him. I’m sure she would be content in her marriage to him, if they were ever wed which they won’t because he’s about to have his handsome head chopped off.

But she’s not looking for love. She’s looking for a man that has the same goals as her at the moment. Comfortable life, family, protection, and a good standing in society. She had already tried the love thing with Henry and Bash, and each time she ended in a terrible situation with broken hearth. Kenna doesn’t want love anymore, she wants acceptance, security, and judgement free life. And all of that came to her in the handsome and convenient package that’s General Renaude.

I think that it’s important to remember that Kenna is not unfaithful. She’s not cheating on her husband. Seriously, don’t you dare to claim that Kenna is a harlot. I will come for you.

Bash made it clear that the marriage is over. He moved out. He won’t talk to her. He goes out of his way to not be in her company. The marriage only exists in legal sense to give Kenna time to find someone else.

Kenna tried to make things work with Bash. She even tried to remain close to him as a friend in 2x18 and 2x19. Bash in return intentionally let her think that he’s already moving on with someone else. The only thing keeping them together is an official document. And since Bash let Kenna think he already found someone else, Kenna might feel a bit of a pressure to find another husband, after all, what’s keeping Bash from asking for annulment or divorce when he made it clear that he wants her out of his life.

Right now, Kenna fully depends on Bash’s goodwill, and that can’t be a pleasant thing for her.

Personally, I don’t believe for a moment that Bash has moved on. He’s still very much in love with Kenna, but he’s sulking because his ego got majorly bruised and he honestly doesn’t believe that he can make Kenna happy.  Also, he’s disappointed in himself, Kenna and the warld, and kinda took it out on Kenna.

Dude has got a lot of issues that are terribly handled and usually only shyly hinted at onscreen. Let’s just name few:

  • being chewed and spit out by Mary with little remorse
  • being a bastard that never got lands and title from his father even though kings’ bastards always had a high standings in society
  • feelings of inferiority
  • destroyed and then slowly repaired relationship with his brother
  • his constant need to prove himself to his family
  • his constant need to prove that he does not fit the usual bastard stereotypes
  • basically becoming a hired assassins first for his father and then his brother
  • wanting to be the hero and good guy while being forced to do horrible things
  • feeling easily replaceable (Mary dropping him like a hot potato, and his own father wanting to kill him)
  • never being enough
  • occasionally being too damn prideful

And all of these issues formed a bond and easily destroyed Kennash relationship. The second half of season, it almost felt like Bash was sabotaging his own marriage, and I think that he subconsciously did.

In my head (because Reign never even tried to develop the connection between Bash’s conflicting feelings and Kennash marriage trouble on screen), it played out like this:

Bash wanted to protect his brother, wanted to prove himself to him and others. He also wished to have the strong bond he once shared with his brother back. That’s why he worked so hard. That’s why he had so little time for his wife. That’s why he did anything Francis needed and wanted no matter the price.

Having little time for his wife would not be that bad in itself, if it weren’t paired with Bash’s need to be seen as the good guy and hero. Kenna idolized him a little bit. She loved him a lot. He was enough in her eyes even when he had little to no riches to offer her. And he liked that. He liked how Kenna saw him. He wanted to be that guy for her, he wanted her to keep looking at him like that. And for some time, even with his new job, it worked perfectly. He did his best to protect his family and the population of France, and he was the man Kenna loved.

But then he got involved himself in the blackmail mess, and suddenly he was forced to kill innocent people, lie to his wife about his whereabouts, and let few hundreds of most likely innocent protestants be hanged/frozen to death after the attack on the castle.

He couldn’t be the hero in Kenna’s eyes anymore. He couldn’t be the good person in his own eyes anymore. He couldn’t be the person (he thought) Kenna fell in love anymore. (But let’s be real, Kenna would accept him no matter what) At first, he tried to prevent infecting his marriage with his troubled mind and consciousness by avoiding talking about the things he has done, then by downright lying about them (Claude incest), and then he took things a step further by partly distancing himself from Kenna which led him to such mistakes like one of his the greatest hits that’s not consulting his wife about refusing the duke title and giving his mother lands before telling his wife such lands even existed.

He simply shut his wife out of his life to protect himself, her, and their marriage. Obviously, it majorly backfired on him.

In the end, it all became too much for Bash. Bash being disappointed in himself, his mother, the world, and eventually in Kenna, made him overact and almost end his marriage in spot. Somehow, his frustration with world and (his own) human nature manifested in his resentment toward Kenna’s past actions, and perhaps even Kenna herself.

Once he had a time to think about everything, and let some steam out, he was willing to work on repairing their relationship.

But, it was already time for Antoine’s turn and another set of Bash’s insecurities poked their ugly heads out. For someone with serious inferiority complex, he can be too prideful. Pair that with his previous experience of being dropped without second thought on the day of his wedding by Mary, it can be a marriage poisoning combination.

I mean, Bash didn’t even try until the very last moment. Instead of being acceptably jealous by resenting Antoine, he became distrusting of Kenna. He all but blamed Antoine’s interest on Kenna who was faithfully refusing Antoine’s attempts at seduction left and right. Part of me thinks that his resentment towards Kenna was actually manifestation of his resentment towards Mary for her treatment of him. 

This time, it became too much for Kenna, and she began considering Antoine’s offer. Once Bash found out about that, his pride, disappointment in Kenna, but mostly disappointment in himself, feeling like he could never be enough for his own wife, made him end their relationship.

Again, this is how my head connected the events in s2, because Kennash trouble began right after Bash was forced to do some unseemly deeds to protect the realm. That’s how I see it when I’m feeling generous towards Bash, because just last week my headcanon was that Bash is an asshole whose soul can be purified only by fire.

He still loves her very much, and Kenna still loves him very much too, but outside circumstances simply overwhelmed them (mostly Bash, and he could simply solve all of his marriage trouble by letting his wife in), and now they’re protecting their own hearts from any more damage.

Also, while I hate the fake nun with the passion of thousand burning suns, she gained my hatred for her comments after Bash poisoned Clarissa, not because I see her as an obstacle in Kennash. I don’t think there’s anything romantic between Bash and her, It’s possible they will sleep together, but it would be more of an attempt to balance out Kenna sleeping with Renaude than anything meaningful. Also, the description for 2x21 says that Bash will bring her to the castle, but that’s nothing to worry about. They’re about to be besieged, which means the surrounding woods will be crawling with enemy soldiers. Bash will be simply trying to keep his new friend and co-murderer safe. People always sought salvation behind the city/castle walls in times of war.

The first step to Kennash repair is gonna happen next episode, because what Kenna liked about Renaude (ambition, playing it safe) will lead him to join forces with Condé. That’s Reign’s extremely subtle way of making Kenna appreciate Bash’s blind self-sacrificially ways and bravery more. Also, it will of course serve as a punishment for Kenna. Because ambition in women is wrong and such women always must be brought down. F you Reign.

What I find interesting is that Frary and Kennash strangely mirror a little bit each other this season. 

Not sure how much of it was intentional, and I’m definitely sure that I’m reading way too much into it.

  • both couples began this season happy, protecting and supporting each other 
  • then the blackmail began and Bash and Francis distanced themselves to protect their wives, and not to loose their respect
  • after the attack on castle, things escalated, for Frary very quickly, while the Kennash disaster progressed in a slower tempo 
  • Mary couldn’t deal with her resentment towards Francis and her PTSD which led her into Condé’s arms, while Bash couldn’t deal with the things he has done, his resentment about Kenna’s past and pushed Kenna into the arms of another man 
  • meanwhile Francis and Kenna desperately tried to salvage their marriages
  • both couples had a moment of hope for like an episode and then it crashed and burned in a spectacular fashion
  • Kenna and Mary tried to find peace in the arms of other men
  • while Francis and Bash currently act superior, and on morally higher ground at the moment
  • major mistakes were made by everyone, and the first was a dishonesty (they had their reasons but still) on Bash/Francis side
  • as we know from 2x21 trailer, Renaude and Condé are now working together and will besiege the castle
  • which will lead to Francis and Bash fighting them
  • Kenna and Marry are gonna literally watch their husband battle their lovers from a balcony, super subtle there show
  • very subtle
  • fully expecting a Condé/Francis and Renaude/Bash fight scenes
  • and speculations: at the end, Mary will seek Francis’ protection (because of Elizabeth), while Kenna will probably find out she’s pregnant and Bash will offer to remain with her not knowing who is the father (for now), so she and her child would be spared the shame of being eternally tied to traitor Renaude
  • Bash and Francis will emerge from this morally superior, Frary and Kennash will be tied together out of necessity for next season
  • where they will eventually repair their relationships and fall in love again
  • which will be utterly infuriating and absolutely dissatisfying to anyone
  • but we will stick around because the cast is too pretty to ignore

In conclusion, Kennash and Frary will be back, and Kenna and Francis should totally be friends and get a gold star for trying to salvage their marriages.

Seriously, why is there no Kenna/Francis scene other than Francis taking Kenna to the doctor in 1x07?

anonymous asked:

What would you say is the likelihood of Jasper and Peridot being reformed after everything that's happened? Namely Peridot with the forced fusions? I would include Lapis in the question, but I think most people consider her basically reformed, in the sense that she's not an enemy of the Crystal Gems or the Earth.

Short answer: I think it’s very likely that they’ll both be reformed! And while Lapis has a lot to learn, you’re right, she’s not really a villain.

Long answer: have some bullet points, I love bullet points. Peridot speculation is more concrete and has more basis in the show, whereas Jasper speculation is mostly based on the show’s themes, as well as a whole lot of guess work.

Peridot:

  • Doesn’t know who the Crystal Gems are = she’s never known anything except for what Homeworld has taught her.
  • If Homeworld has taught her that cruel, inhumane experiments on dead gems is an a-okay thing to do, she has no reason to believe otherwise. She has no other source of reference.
  • Homeworld seems to value physical strength, which she lacks. If everyone on Homeworld treats her as disrespectfully as Jasper does, she has good reason to want to find alternatives to her current situation.
  • It’s very possible that she’s much younger than the other gems (just look at how robot-y she looks compared to the others), so she may not be as set in her ways as she seems.

Jasper:

  • Like Peridot, she only knows what Homeworld has taught her. Even though she was around during the war, it’s important to remember that she has everything Homeworld wants - she’s strong, ruthless and she knows how to prioritize according to her leaders’ wishes. So it’s no wonder she chose to stick with Homeworld and shrugged the rebellion off as illogical, sentimental nonsense. It was more beneficial to her, she had way more to lose than the defectives, runts and permanent fusions who were not only fighting for humanity, but also for their own rights.
  • Jasper obviously has a moral code, even if it’s a twisted one. She “respected” Rose Quartz’s tactics and condemns Steven and Garnet as “sick” and “shameful”, so there must be some kind of sliding scale that goes from good to bad in her mind. This means that she cares about the righteousness of her surroundings and has standards for what’s acceptable. If Steven and the others can convince her that fighting to save humanity is the right thing to do (”peace breeds progress and prosperity”, “respecting and caring about others maximizes the amount of motivation and energy available, which leads to more efficiency”, etc.), I’m sure she’d fight tooth and nail against the people who kept her in the dark about these truths for all those years. She’s not evil just for the sake of it - she does what she considers to be the right thing.
  • Even though her initial hatred of fusions seemed to purely be a big warning sign saying “I am ms bad guy, I am evil, don’t feel sad when I get beaten up and drowned, because I am the evil”, in light of Keeping it together, this trait comes off completely differently. Remember what Garnet-as-Ruby said? “So this is what Homeworld thinks of fusion”? What if on Homeworld, they’re actually literally taught that’s what fusion is like? That it’s a grotesque body horror show, that warps gems’ minds and souls? And their experiments aren’t any different because they think they’re showing the Crystal Gems what fusion really is in a language the rebels understand? Considering this charming piece of propaganda, it’s very possible that Jasper may actually be scared of permanent fusions. When she looks at Garnet, she sees two gems who willingly live their lives as a stitched-together, mutated abomination for no reason. Gems who choose this warped captivity and torture. Jasper may very well see herself as the “good guy” of sound, logical mind, who needs to defeat this irrational, insane Frankenstein of a monster.
  • Her behavior towards Garnet is very reminiscent of homophobic behavior in real life. Homeworld’s disdain for permanent fusions mimics many real world countries’ laws against homosexuality. Having the most aggressive, villainous character learn what “fusion” (love) is really about could be a great opportunity for the show to explore themes surrounding homophobia, unlearning destructive mindsets and at the same time paint non-traditional forms of love as something beautiful, that’s worthy of respect. It could help teach kids, especially queer kids, that people may not react well to their identities, but this is in no way their own fault and they should never be ashamed of who they are - the “bad people” are just like Jasper, they’ve been taught the wrong things and their hatred stems from not understanding what they’re talking about. At the same time, it could help give some understanding of the “bad people”, so they seem less monstrous, and more like the unfortunate cases of misinformation and fear-driven aggression that they are.

Both:

Let’s remember that this show is, in part, devoted to showing the complexity of life, of people and of all types of relationships, while at the same time remaining hopeful that deep down, people and existence itself is good. One of Steven’s greatest gifts is that he’s unbiased and looks for the best in everyone, just like Rose did before him. Just like her, “[he sees] beauty in everything, even in jerks like [Lars].” He sees a mean social outcast, his first reaction is to try and befriend him, even though he meets all kinds of resistance. He sees a scared monster, he tries to calm it down and befriend it. He shushes and comforts a gem which had minutes before tried to eat him and his friends. Steven is good and kind, and that’s his greatest power, because it makes people want to help him and stand by him, despite everything.

I think Jasper and Peridot will come around eventually. When Jasper realizes she was mistaken about most of her notions and Peridot gets sick of being mistreated, those two are going to become Steven’s loudest, most annoying neighbors.

Besides, Rebecca Sugar once said that the show would never have ‘traditional’ villains. This could very well be the reason.

anonymous asked:

Do you think Leia and Luke ever have like, a weird sort of disassociation with there parents, like Luke can totally deal with being the freeborn son of a former slave who became a Jedi, but not so much an elected queen and senator and essentially noble woman. I headcanon Leia knowning she was a war orphan, so she daydreamed of everything from Jedi to roughnecks for her parents, but maybe she had trouble with the idea of a slave, to say nothing of a sith lord.

Oh yes, absolutely!

I think Luke’s idea of his mother growing up was very abstract, precisely because his aunt and uncle told him she was an off-worlder, and likely a rich off-worlder at that. He could never quite conceptualize that. And then he met Leia, herself a rich off-worlder, and suddenly, his hazy image of his mother looked a lot like her. (Later, when he found out, he would have a good long laugh about this.)

I suspect the revelation for Leia was much further reaching, though.

For one thing, I think Leia probably believed that slavery was another of the evils instituted by the Empire, and that in the days of the Republic slavery was illegal (it was, technically) and that those laws were enforced and there were no slaves.

Now, I grant you there are two possible ways to understand Tatooine’s political situation in relation to the old Republic. They are:

1. Tatooine (and the rest of the Outer Rim territories?) is literally outside of the Republic, and either a part of some Hutt empire, or else an unaffiliated world dominated by particular Hutts.

2. The Outer Rim Territories (of which Tatooine is a part) are just that - territories of the Republic. They technically belong to the Republic, but their people are second class citizens, and the laws are sparsely enforced, if at all. There is probably a long history of imperialism, violence, and exploitation. (For a real world comparison, consider the relationship between the USA and its territories in Puerto Rico, the US Virigin Islands, Guam, American Samoa, etc.)

My personal headcanon is option 2. It makes more sense of Shmi’s bitterness when she says “The Republic doesn’t exist out here,” and of Padme’s shock at discovering the Republic’s anti-slavery laws aren’t enforced on Tatooine. It also makes Anakin’s introduction into the Republic much more believable (if Tatooine was entirely outside the Republic, how exactly is Qui-Gon getting away with bringing an undocumented illegal immigrant into the Republic and expecting him to be trained as a Jedi?).

But one of the things that means is that, yes, slavery did exist under the old Republic, and was in fact tacitly condoned, both by the Senate and by the Jedi (because they knew what was happening in the Outer Rim Territories and did nothing about it).

And I think that would be the greatest difficulty for Leia in learning that her birth father and grandmother were slaves. Not just that she can’t really conceptualize that (she can’t, though after Jabba she has a much clearer idea), but that admitting it causes her idealized image of the old Republic to crumble.

In a way, that’s almost like Leia’s Bespin. Luke never had an idealized image of the Republic - his investment in the Rebellion was always more personal than strictly political, and I suspect that, growing up on Tatooine, he didn’t have a whole lot of illusions about the Republic to dispel. For Luke, the idealized image that had to be shattered was his image of his father. For Leia, though, I think it was her image of the Republic. And it’s fitting, maybe, that Anakin was the trigger for both of them to go on this journey, to kill their idols in order to more fully engage with the reality of the world.