and idk why i am posting this so

// Happy Lunar New Year to everyone celebrating!  ✧(*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑  Wishing you guys all the best as we move onto the year of the Rooster! ♡  - Admin Dissu

I find it so weird how real the Neptune haziness actually is…… like I could easily describe Neptune in each house besides the house that MY Neptune placement is in, it’s like it makes 0 sense to me and it’s so elusive from my perspective. in my opinion one of the hardest things about astrology is having a firm understanding of your Neptune placement. the house Neptune is in is probably the area of your life that will not be very clear to you, in terms of comprehension/awareness

Harry: [standing there minding his own business, peaceful, in the Zone™]

Seeiso: [being a good friend, walks up and whistles to get Harry’s attention and gestures for him to walk out the door first]

Harry: [unbothered, looks Seeiso up and down and gives the sassiest neck twirl/eye roll combo in royal history as he proceeds to leave]

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                                     You may be gone
                     But out here in the desert
   Your shadow lives on without you

some women choose to believe that there is no such thing as a man who can stay loyal 100%… and some men believe the same thing about women… both are wrong. and it makes me believe that the only reason why people have these assumptions is because they’ve been cheated on or been in relationships where someone was unfaithful to them. that’s sad, because it only takes ONE person to change your whole perspective. but I know for a fact there are good ones out there. it may be far and few, but I know it’s possible. don’t lose hope and don’t assume. 🙃

  • someone talking to me, a person w a personality disorder: open up!! talk abt ur feelings!! i can't love u if I don't understand!! dw your feelings are valid I promise to love you even w ur disorder!!
  • me: *pushes past my crippling trust issues & opens up about my symptoms, tries to explain how my brain works and how Person can help me minimize my symptoms*
  • them, slowly backing away: okay!! :)) ur feelings are valid!! :) i have to go but dw!! some1 will love u one day dw ! :)))

Here’s some things I do when I don’t have energy or forget to eat. This is what helps me, so please keep in mind that it might not work for you.

1) Set reminders! I forget lunch the most, so I have a reminder on my phone at around noon each day telling me to eat lunch. Add as many as you need.

2) For days when you can’t get out of bed, keep some nonperishable food in your room if you can. I have a plastic container near my bed so I can easily reach it without getting up.

  • Mine has granola bars, crackers, fruit snacks, fruit cups, trail mix, jerky, and bottled water. It’s not a “normal” meal, but much better than nothing and requires almost no energy.

3) Break down tasks into very small steps. Sometimes mine are as small as “Sit up in bed, move feet onto floor, stand up, walk out of room, walk down hallway, walk to kitchen”. I give myself time in between steps to build up motivation if I need to.

  • Make a checklist if you need to visualize it!

4) Congratulate yourself after completing a difficult step. Even if it’s a simple step, or after every step. It seemed silly to congratulate myself for getting out of bed, but it really helps motivate me to continue.

  • My internal dialogue for this is something like “Okay you did it! That wasn’t too bad. Now you can do the next step too” or “If that was the hardest part, I can do this”

5) I go to @lowspoonsgourmet when I don’t know what to make and they organize recipes by how many spoons it requires!

  • @no-more-ramen is another good one and separates recipes into categories like if there’s no chopping involved or if it makes leftovers

I think that’s it? I might add to this if I think of more. I hope this was helpful!

Rising, Sun, Moon signs

Rising: I appear to others as ___
Sun: I am ___
Moon: When I am alone I am ___

Aries: Strong
Taurus: Kind
Gemini: Talkative
Cancer: Caring / Emotional
Leo: Confident
Virgo: Logical
Libra: Stylish
Scorpio: Emotionally deep
Sagittarius: Adventurous
Capricorn: Hard-working
Aquarius: Rebelious
Pisces: Daydreamer

Shipping Bangel...

Ok so I’ve been thinking a lot about shipping the last couple of weeks because after reading some posts about ships and ship wars, I felt a sort of disconnect with the whole notion of shipping. It felt like I couldn’t relate to any of it. I since came to the conclusion that I don’t really ship the way most people seem to do. I don’t have that those 2 are perfect for each other! or I want them to be together forever! feelings when I ship something. For me, it’s usually about me loving the story and the characters, but I rarely think (or want) the characters to end up together. Maybe it’s linked to my bleak vision of love… but most of my OTPs didn’t end up together and I actually love that about them. 

So I’ll talk about Bangel because it’s the perfect example and this is a Buffyverse blog. I’ve been loving that ship since I was 12 years old and I’ll probably love it until I die. That said, I don’t consider it a perfect relationship nor do I want them to end up together. Even as a kid, I wanted more for Buffy and it seemed obvious to me that there was no possible future there. What I love is the story and the characters. I love the story because it elevated both characters and made them even more special to me. It took the star-crossed lovers trope and made it into something meaningful by allowing both characters to move on and fulfill their destiny. That’s my favorite part of their story and why I love that they don’t end up together. It’s also why I hate the Romeo and Juliet comparisons. Those characters did not let their love for each other define them. They still love each other but are so much more than that. They have to experience pain and adversity every day of their life, but they don’t give up. I love that relationship because it never made my love for the characters fade, only grow.

I’ll never say no to good Bangel interactions and most of my favorite Bangel moments came after Angel left Sunnydale. But I don’t need or want a happy ending. I actually want Buffy to be with someone she can have a future with. I also don’t particularly want Angel to be with someone who he doesn’t want to be happy with… because well… you know! And Angel’s story is infinitely more meaningful if he is never allowed to find happiness. 

In the end, it’s also because I find it nearly impossible to not love a relationship between 2 characters I love and Buffy and Angel are my favorite characters of their respective show. That might be as simple as that.

So that is my way of shipping.