and i've only been here for a day

me last night: i feel so alone…. no one loves me…. wahh boo hoo

me today: i love MUD i don’t need LOVE or AFFECTION all i need is the soil that nourishes all life on this earth *listens to girls just want to have fun on loop while lying in the dirt*

I deleted your number so that I wouldn’t
be able to call you on a day like this
Where I can hardly breathe without you
I can hardly breathe at the thought
that you’re not here and it’s been one of those days where you’re the only one I know who can make it better

I can’t stop crying and I’m so scared
Cause what if you’re the only one who’s ever gonna love me
or worse what if you’re the only one I’m ever gonna be able to love like I loved you
The naive kind of love
I can’t believe I was so lucky to love you
kind of love
Leaving you was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do kind of love

I’m crying on the train home with tears smearing my lips
With my heart bleeding so hard I feel like it could pour out onto the train tracks

But you’re gone
You’re gone
I know that you’re gone

why everyone should read 'rivers of london'/'the peter grant series' by ben aaronovitch

• it has been described as “harry potter for adults” but only if harry potter had actual, decent diversity
• if you like the works of terry pratchett or neil gaiman, you’ll love it
• the main character is peter grant, a biracial london police officer who one day accidentally interrogates a ghost and things just kinda go a bit wild from here
• the goddesses of the rivers of london are p much all badass black women (these characters also inspired one of my favourite songs)
• sahra “muslim ninja” guleed, the woman who joined the police on a dare, is the best thing to ever happen to me
• lgbtq+ characters are never used for shock value or tokenised and are treated the same as the cis, straight characters
• there’s a muslim trans woman of colour who can fly!!!
• it’s told from peter’s pov and he constantly calls white people out on their shit i love him
• deals with themes of ethics and immortality
• it’s genuinely entertaining and the suspense is great and i love it
• harry potter would have been much better if, on his first day at hogwarts, harry said “fuck me, i can do magic”

anonymous asked:

Sooo how is it over there in Korea ? How do you like it so far ? 😊

It’s good! So far we visited some places and went out for partying. The people here are nice too.

I’m not a big fan of a lot of the food tho, it has this fishy taste, and fish makes me nauseous. But we had some korean bbq today, and omg that’s the best thing ever. The food is so cheap in restaurants :)

Ninety minutes left until work hell is over. I’ve worked 25 out of the last 29 days. My last two days off in a row was Nov 19/20. 

Tonight, my sister and I celebrate the holiday retail season being over by drinking. Probably heavily. 

I know I’ve been sparse around here lately. I’m hoping that will change starting next week, because I miss you all! 

good morning guys! good night! 

something i scribbled quickly.. it’s shoddy.. sorry

Handsome Jack©Borderlands
-going to bed-©me

         Fingers trailed along the velvet covered walls; dark maroon accented with black ornate designs made the dim hallway feel too warm despite the overhead lights gave off an odd cold modernism with paintings of new age abstraction that were jarring against the soft feel. It was tacky, but he continued to trail fingers passively along the fabric as he strolled with mild purpose. Somewhere there was music playing, loud and booming– he could feel it in the walls at each vibration of bass and drum that rumbled. 

        He wasn’t drunk, but the half empty glass in his hand wanted to tell him otherwise, and he continued on with a wavering smile until eyebrows raised at the sudden table that disrupted his path. Hand and arm didn’t stop touching the wall, even as the single vase rested out of place (another piece of modern art that didn’t fit the increasingly dreary hall) crashed to the ground. 


        Dark wood doors in front of him opened without needing to touch the handles and he was greeted by a familiar woman in black behind a desk that continued to look out of place. 

        “And what are you~ doing working on such a fine evening as this, Erica?” Myles called in the sing song voice he knew she liked, posture straightening as he glided across the suddenly bright room. He wasn’t expecting her there, but that wouldn’t stop him. H knew he was getting closer to his objective the cleaner it started to look. “It’s such a warm night, you should be out with that sweet sweet husband of yours~”
        “O-oh! Mister Baida, I— y-you know he’s n-not my–” she scrambled to stand, clearly flustered, checking the clock on the computer screen, wall, watch… she was never very good with time, “you’re not supposed to be–”
        “I know he’s not~ but you make it so easy to tease– and we’ve talked about this, you can call… me…?” Leaning in, he motioned with his hand, urging her to finish the sentence.
        “M-Myless…–” She faltered as she whispered it, opening her mouth to continue on with her worries to which Myles very sharply interrupted her.
        “Yes, and where is he?” Impatience dotted the over politeness he used, but the game with her was dull right now and he was done with it, “I assume in the usual spot? Thank you, Erica, you’ve been an amazing bit of help.”

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anonymous asked:

is it bad i ship how much rhett and link love their wives(the way they talked about them and have stared them down)???uggh and there such nice dads and dont get me started on rhett and links bond FOR EVER like leterally ,killing me with their dorkeyness and friendship (went back to watch old rhett and link videos)uggg THE FEELSSSSS FOR DAYS i just love the new gmm too <3<3<3

of course its not a bad thing!! healthy? probably not. but who gives a fuck right?? and YESS i can’t handle older randl shit because like, idk just the aesthetic of it all and its so THEM and original and they talk about their personal lives! i still really love their current stuff, but nothings like the old days :)


What more do you need than P  R  I  D  E ?

#MayWeDrawDaily Day:…………….19….oh….

UhH…Yeah I have no other excuse other than work has been super busy and i’m super lazy. I didn’t have much time for arting othe than the occasional sketchbook doodle all week…and it…shows. So rusty.  Here’s a Yamaguchi cause hes the best and I love him.

I finally stopped being lazy and put my growing collection of Pokemon plushies on display! There’s still a few scattered around my room that aren’t up here but this is the majority of them! Maybe one day I’ll put them all together (along with my other Pokemon merch) for one big pic ahaha



Hey! I’ve never posted proper photos of myself on here before, but now I’m like, #yolo, even if just for today, so here we #golo

ADHD is…

Not being diagnosed in childhood, because you did “too well” in school

Spending your teens feeling stupid as all hell, because you struggle to meet deadlines and can’t quite understand concepts in subjects that don’t 100% capture your interest (math, u lil bitch, i am lookin @ u)

Having your executive dysfunction chalked up to “laziness” because if you’re smart, you “can’t” have ADHD, so you’re obviously just unmotivated and lazy. Except if you were unmotivated and lazy, you wouldn’t have high achievement, so like, check mate, bud?

Being told that ADHD isn’t a reason for your behavior, it’s an “excuse”, and that you should just “do better” despite your brain literally not being able to

Not being told you have it until you’re 18 and struggling to function like an adult

Having trouble driving because you can’t focus, having trouble sleeping because you can’t stay still, having trouble with chores because you never remember anything

Hyperfocusing on something so hard that suddenly it’s 6 AM and you’ve ruined your sleep schedule all over again

Suffering from loads of mental health issues, overcoming literally all of them, and having your executive dysfunction still blamed on them because people just??? really love????? to use mental illness and their ableism as a scapegoat?????? instead of trying to help, and recognizing that adhd is a permanent part of you?????????? like “are you sure you’re not just depressed” yes. thank you for your opinion even though i never asked for it, but I am actually very sure, good day to you too sweetie :) :)) :)))

Not being able to make yourself shut up when you’re speaking about something you’re passionate about. Having that problem in college lectures, and hearing a few people snicker each time you talk because you’re /that girl/ who /talks too much/ and has /too many opinions/ like gawd sorry for taking up space ffs


Finally having an explanation for some of your less-loved quirks, and knowing that you’re not just lazy or stupid

Finding a whole bunch of people who get it

Being able to do amazing things when you hyper focus, getting more done than most people because you actually can’t get distracted for once

Finding outlets for your energy very early on in life, and finding them to be your favorite things in the whole world (acting, dance, music)

Being able to multitask like a pro (and also having to multitask, because when you have the tv/radio/whatever on in the background, it’s a distraction you can control, which helps a lot)

Knowing a whole ton of totally random trivia about so many different things, and a bunch of information on a few select topics, to the point that people think you’re a student in those things (example - I’ve been very physically sick this year, I like to read medical journals, and when I went in to get a CT scan a few months ago, the tech asked me if I was a medical student because of how much I know about it all)

Having a huge amount of energy when you’re doing things you like, and feeling it exponentially grow, feeling like you can take on the world

Understanding that nothing’s wrong with you. You work differently than most people, and it makes life hard, but that’s because of the world, not because of you. It’s just how we are.

we’re honestly two days from the oscars and y'all still out here pretending like la la land is About jazz i guess lmfao like jazz is one facet of a character in the movie. the movie isn’t about jazz or the history of it or the modern renditions of it, it’s literally a musical love story for one thing. secondly i have seen y'all say time and time again that the only black people playing jazz in the movie are portrayed as sellouts, but that’s literally what the jazz scene is right now? that kind of fusion (not miles fusion but like with synths/blues/hooks fusion) is literally at the forefront of jazz/funk groups across the whole world and they’re writing complex and interesting jazz music that people are in love with so??? really doesn’t feel like john legend is being portrayed in a bad light based on my experience (that being 6 years of professionally playing jazz piano and my major in film scoring lmfao)

plus the score itself is completely tonal and has no room for improvisation over changes like a jazz chart would, which is why it feels so much like a cheesy musical constantly. y'all are the type who are gonna shit on a movie this hard about something like jazz and yet have no idea who Ornette Coleman is. y'all heard blue train once and thought that’s the end lol. la la land isn’t “about” jazz. the same way like, Her (2013) isn’t “about” letter writing. like the movie’s got problems, his other feature has problems, the movies that Damien Chazelle has written have problems, and we should be talking abt those! but y'all really and truly sound like a broken record and it’s literally so annoying so like, just let there be peace for TWO days god

After lots of waiting, here he is! This is Axel. He’s a sim-a-noid servo, and the object of Loren’s love. The weird Dottie/Axel dynamic only happened because Dottie had a spare servo that Lalaine made aaages ago. I just thought it’d be funny if Dottie the ‘regular’ servo imprisoned Axel the ‘strange’ servo for not looking like her. No matter, he’s free now! He’s a fully functioning servo, and makes Loren very happy.

Special thanks to @olivemuenda. She made Axel as part of her 30 day sim challenge. You can go download him there. I just used simsurgery on a regular servo and here he is!

It’s valentine’s day so here are some sfw affection headcanons that I can’t post at any other time of year

-Kars is really clingy, but only in private. He thinks that only his partner deserves to know how he shows his affection

-Kars doesn’t like to admit his affections with words. He reserves this for special occasions and conveys his feelings with actions the rest of the time

-Kars will try to be close to his partner whenever he can – resting his head on their shoulder, lying in their lap, massaging their shoulders, hugging them

-When they’re sleeping together Kars will pull his partner close to him and nuzzle his face to their neck

-Kars likes to carry his partner – bridal style, over his shoulder, under one arm like a football; he doesn’t care about the specifics he just wants to lift them

-To anyone else, Kars is about as movable as a brick wall, but his partner can pull him around as they please, in private or in public

-In public, the extent of Kars’ affections is a hand on his partner’s shoulder, and sometimes holding their hand