It’s been three days since I read this chapter and I still can’t get over Agni’s death and his last moments alive. This is one of the pictures that made me cry the most because you can literally see how terrified Soma is, he’s shocked, he can’t even speak and of course he’s not scared for himself but he’s worried sick about Agni. I think he didn’t expect Agni to push him in that closet to keep him safe and face the guy out there because of course, he knew how loyal Agni was but giving his life in that way? We saw how many times Agni was stabbed, he didn’t die instantly, he probably died after minutes of pure agony, trying not to let that door open until he was sure his prince was safe. What makes me cry even harder is that smile right there, that honest, simple and reassuring smile Agni gives Soma because he knows his prince is scared and all he can do in that moment is smiling at him and letting him know that everything will be okay because I’m here for you like I’ve always been, so don’t worry, you’ll be alright my prince.
So many vows. They make you swear and swear. Defend the king. Obey the king. Keep his secrets. Do his bidding. Your life for his. But obey your father. Love your sister. Protect the innocent. Defend the weak. Respect the gods. Obey the laws. It’s too much. No matter what you do, you’re forsaking one vow or the other.
Whenever I’m reminded of the sad moments in my life, and this the honest truth, I stop and think of Taeyeon and suddenly, I’m okay.
Kim Taeyeon, you have been so strong for everyone while accepting all those criticisms against you and the rest of the girls. You’ve refused to shed tears and let anyone see a crack because that’s what people expect from you. The life you chose is one definitely not a walk in the park because everyone’s eyes are all on you. You’re not new to these words and my god, you’ve been exposed to this for quite some time. But you know what breaks my heart the most? It’s the fact that of all people who’d spouted stupid nonsense against you are the people that are supposed to be the ones fighting beside you. I’ve seen fans turn their backs and never look back, even saying words they swore they would never say to you. People doubt your abilities all the time, question your sincerity as if they know you personally, and just spew venom in order to bring you down. But like a pillar made to withstand the greatest disaster, you’re still standing strong with your head held high and your back straightened as if you’re ready for the worst to come. And what I love about you the most is the fact that you know when to speak and stand your ground when you’re being unfairly aggravated but you also know when to not say a thing at all. And I can say proudly really, that I don’t look at you with only just a fan’s eyes but also as a woman who’s looking at you with pride and respect.
But Taeyeon, I hope you know you’re not alone in that war. You have us, you have your members, you have people around you that care about you. I hope you know that while yes, being strong is important and necessary in the cruel world you’re currently living in, letting yourself fall sometimes and admitting that you’re not okay is as important as well.
And despite all things, I hope you never stop doing the thing you love the most. Anyone with eyes and ears can see that you perform with all your heart. You may not let just anyone in, but with your high notes and breathy tone, you’re able to let us catch a glimpse of your vulnerability and it’s the most beautiful thing. I honestly don’t know why this took an emotional turn, but I love you so much. The world is not enough for someone like you. Take everything you could get because you deserve it and more. Happy birthday, Taeng. The ultimate smol of all smols. Thank you for being so strong. #KingTaeyeonDay
Shout out to all the people who play Dragon Age on consoles and don’t have access to mods to make their Inquisitors/Wardens/Hawkes super hot, but still manage to make attractive PCs with the vanilla options and love them anyway.
Note: Not requested, but this came about because I went to the pool today and then went straight to work and I felt that sleepy feeling you get after spending time in the sun. Its a special and specific kind of sleepy. I don’t know how else to describe it, but it’s nice. It made me want to take a nap with Shawn.
The cool air of your hotel room hits you as soon as you
swing open the door. You had turned the air conditioner on high before you left
because you knew it would be hot outside, but a shiver runs down your spine as the
blast of cool air hits you without warning. You head straight for your bathroom to
take a shower, dropping your wet towel on the bathroom floor before removing
your black bikini and getting under the warm stream of water.
When you get out of the shower, you feel exhaustion hit you.
You had just spent the last four hours lounging by the pool, and the sun takes
a lot out of you. It’s one in the afternoon, a perfect time for a nap. There is
something about afternoon naps after mornings spent in the sun. They’re
magical, and they have a certain feel to them.
Exiting the bathroom, you hear the television on in the
hotel room, and a smile spreads across your face knowing that your boyfriend
has returned. He was gone doing press all morning. You offered to go with him,
but he insisted you stay back and enjoy the resort. You were in Florida after
Shawn is seated at the edge of the bed, watching the hockey
game on the tv. When he sees you, he smiles and says “Hey baby,”
“Hey hun, how was work?” You question as you crawl onto the bed behind
him, which immediately prompts him to move so he’s lying next to you.
“Good, nothing special.” You cuddle
closer into his side as his arm automatically wraps around you, and he asks,
“You tired?” To which you only sleepily nod in response. “Didn’t you just sit
at the pool all morning?” He questions, purposely giving you a hard time, but
you know he’s joking and doesn’t mean it in a mean way.
“Yeah, but the sun makes me
sleeeeepy.” You drag out the last word before hiding your face in his t-shirt.
The afternoon sun is shining into the hotel room, and the exhaustion you feel
is a good kind of exhaustion. Shawn has a show in a couple of hours, but
neither of you have anything planned until then. “Take a nap with me?” You ask
“You’re literally the cutest
person ever.” He tells you smiling down at you.
Your eyes flutter closed,
and you’re too tired to respond to his statement. You feel his lips press
lightly against your forehead before he moves slightly to get more comfortable.
And in his arms you fall asleep listening to the sound of his steady breathing.