and i'm just so happy for them i could cry rainbows

I wrote this directly after I left my first Harry Styles concert. My emotions were more elevated, and now that I’ve had some time to sit and reflect, I feel a little less raw. Keep that in mind.

I definitely got carried away, just needed to type it out, I guess. It seems a bit mad, and I’m slightly hesitant to post, but maybe someone else can resonate and understand.

Music does fucking weird things to you, man.

Warning: it’s pretty aggressive in terms of “I miss this fucking boyband so much, I cry about it,” but you all know.

It’s not just a boyband.

You get it.


I saw Harry Styles at the Chicago Theatre on September 26th.

Several people have asked me for an update.

First disclaimer: this is less of a concert play-by-play and more of a word vomit. About One Direction. About Harry. About the hiatus, the crazy shit it’s made me feel over the past two years, the future. All a bunch of nonsense - or maybe not - thoughts.

Honesty hour ensues.


Let me preface this by saying I’m grateful. So beyond grateful for all my experiences. I won’t take advantage of that. I never have. Never will.


One Direction holds an interesting pull over millions of people. Me included. I fell in love with them on a whim - it wasn’t intentional. I don’t understand it. I can’t make sense of it. I can’t explain to others why I’m so invested. But at this point, I don’t bother with an explanation. I love to love them.

“One Direction is broken up. You still listen to them?” The amount of times I’ve heard this. I’m homesick for people who don’t know I exist. Moderately crazy, but shows the extent of the soul this band put into their music and performances and relationships with each other. And us. I feel tied to it.

Is any other fandom like this? I don’t know. Nor will I ever know.


Anyone who knows me knows I’ve had a very difficult time with the whole “solo” endeavor. One Direction is the biggest and most important part of my early 20’s, and for it to stop so abruptly and without any closure has taken an embarrassing toll on me. My best friend and I have become sickeningly close during our travels - we’ve experienced seven shows together, one of which was out the country - and to me, One Direction concerts became a place to make some of our deepest memories that no one else can replicate, or understand. I met friends - my Rita - through this band. I met you guys. It’s been two years of wondering and waiting if and when they would make a return into our lives, and then. Instead. We got solo Harry. Full force.

I understand the point of the break. I get it. Overworked. Shit management. I’ve exhausted the topic in my own mind, and with others. Doesn’t mean I’m jumping for joy over it. I’m a 1d stan at heart; I support them as individuals, but when it comes down to it, my loyalties lie with the band.

I’ll be candid and real, which I’m often not on this blog. I initially jumped on the “1d went on hiatus because of Harry” bandwagon. My original logic: he said he was the one who initiated it. He was the one who had solid plans. Louis said he fought it. Niall said he wasn’t ready for it. And after closely paying attention to hundreds of interviews since 2015, Harry has clearly showed his gratitude toward the band - don’t get me wrong - but he’s the only one who hasn’t talked about a return date. Maybe it’s because he doesn’t want to give false hope. Maybe it’s because he doesn’t know and doesn’t want anyone to read too much into his words. Maybe he’s moved on. Whatever the case, I shied away from his career at the beginning and couldn’t get excited like everyone else seemed to be. It hurt my heart to see him so happy and thriving away from the pieces that helped him with his start, his life. Honestly, I know I would have felt hesitant about whoever happened to go fully solo first (Zayn doesn’t count - that’s a very different situation). Sure, Niall and Louis had singles out last year, but it’s not the same as embracing a new album, a new identity. It just so happened to be Harry first.

Second disclaimer: I hate that the band isn’t together, but I could never hate any direct member for that. Ever. No one is specifically responsible. And I know that.

My vision is clouded. Selfishly, I didn’t want Harry (or any of them, really) to fall out of love with the past because I wasn’t ready to fall out of love with it. It’s brought me so much joy and love and laughter and experiences. It feels like I’m begging please don’t move on without me. I’ve found a major piece of myself because of this band, and as ridiculous as it sounds, I now feel a little lost. Being 25 is weird enough in itself, in terms of career and relationships and generally just being, and now take away the part that gave me stability and my independence, and I’m just. Wandering. Waiting for something to happen to make me feel as happy as One Direction did.

Reading that back sounds ridiculous. But I’m not the only one here.

I know what this looks like, what it sounds like. I know how skewed my perspective is. I’m doing my best to fix it.


I have Harry’s album memorized. I love a few songs, like a few, dislike a few. I guess that goes for every album. His style has changed from what we’re used to, as has some of his lyrics, but the quirkiness is still the same. The heart is still there. I knew it would be.

I was overwhelmed walking into the show. It’s been over two years since I’ve seen a member of 1d on stage in front of me. I had high expectations - expectations for his performance, expectations about how I wanted to feel once it was over. The venue was beautiful. It was the perfect place to listen to this album live for the first time. Echoey and full of charm and personality. Crystals. Velvet couches in the box seating area. Marbles floors and winding staircases. Pink hues across the stage. Simple, effective lighting. Harry. All Harry. No more crowds by the thousands, no more booming music, no more larger than life stage. Somehow, I felt more anxious.

He did not disappoint. But then again, I didn’t expect him to. For the past three years, he’s always done the best job at captivating my attention whilst performing. Nothing has changed in that sense.

It felt like the final nail in the coffin for 1d, kind of. My friend’s words. It’s too hard to imagine him doing this and then going back to a place where he doesn’t get to 100% put his whole self into what he’s doing, and has to share and compromise on ideas. I understand that. It would be counterproductive to work backwards. It wouldn’t be impossible, but it would definitely feel less organic.

Not just for Harry. For all of them.

Doesn’t mean I’ve lost faith, though.

“It’s been two years since we’ve last seen each other,” he said, “and in those two years, I missed you so much.”

I cried from the moment I sat down until I got back to my hotel room.

I like to be overwhelmed by music. But not like this.

I think part of it is because this was only the fourth night of his tour. It’s still brand new. I’m still not well acquainted with it. New territory, uncharted. I sound so ugly for being so conflicted about solo endeavors, especially when I know there were people who won’t get the chance to see him and I did. I’m grateful, I promise. I’m working meticulously to sort my brain from my heart.

I’m seeing Niall in a few weeks. God help me if I feel this royally fucked over from him, too.


Harry has not left behind his roots. That much was clear. I don’t think I was ever really worried about that part, because he’s pure and kind and appreciates everything in his life for what it is. He would never speak an ill word about 1d. Ever. I don’t think he has any ill words. I sobbed when he performed WMYB. I loathe that song. It felt like a small piece of home, anyway, him using their start as a part of his start. He looked gorgeous. He sounded like a dream. He doesn’t have as much room to prance, but he made do. No catwalk, no problem. I missed his voice. His speaking voice, preaching to the crowds about love and bravery. His terrible jokes. His gratitude. Christ, it felt so good to have him in front of me again.

Kiwi was exceptional. The crowd went off. SOTT was overbearing in a beautiful way. Hearing everyone scream “woman!” all at once was a Goddamn experience. The room was deafening for the entire show.

It wasn’t the same. I didn’t expect it to be, but I wanted it to be.

My friend kept saying, “One Direction is so dead and I couldn’t care less.” I care. I hate the division amongst the fans, amongst the media. “Pick a team.” I don’t want to. Right now, my friend loves Harry more than One Direction as a whole, so she doesn’t understand. I’m not going to try to make her. The crowd chanted “Harry” during the encore, and my heart hurt in the strangest way. I told Rita about it. “Ugh. Just Harry.” I knew she’d understand. She almost always does.

I love Harry Styles. With my entire heart. He was happy on that stage. Even while I stood in the back with my face in my hands, I could see that. I’m happy he’s happy. I love nothing more than a happy Harry. The world is a better place when he’s smiling.

That doesn’t mean that I don’t feel unsettled.

It’s out of my control. Accept the good that comes along with changes. Something I’m learning. Something I’m sure all five original members of One Direction are also learning.


I’m seeing him again on Saturday, in Boston. I’m hoping the initial shock will be mostly worn off and now that I know what solo 1d feels like, I’ll feel more ready for it. More ready for his sequined suit, his smile, his note changes, his band that isn’t the one we’re all used to, the harmonies that bleed together as if it was fate, the lack of three other boys who I miss terribly.

Maybe he misses them as much as I do.


I saw Harry Styles at the Chicago Theatre on September 26th. He was stunning. He moved me to tears. He ran with a rainbow flag, made us scream about pizza, looked beautiful in the neon pink lights. It wasn’t One Direction. It wasn’t better. It wasn’t worse. It was just different. And that’s what I’ll keep telling myself. Embrace being different. It’s what Harry does, after all.


I’m profound in the art of making five days worth of clothing fit into one carry on bag. I can memorize new albums in 48 hours if I have the right determination. I’m able to meticulously plan trips to new cities and venues like it’s nobody’s business. I’ve yet to master the ability, however, of separating love and music.

But I guess those are technically the same thing, anyway.


Thank you for a beautiful show, Styles. Thank you for allowing us into your life, for staying true. I’ve missed you, as a whole, as an individual. I’ll see you on Saturday.


Stay tuned for a second update this weekend. I’m sure it will be much different. I’ll be sure to post some photos, as there will “mainly be prancing.” And what a shame it would be to miss that.

xx Shelly

Underbright: Shine of Hope

I really love your Underbright AU, its so beautiful and well done that I wanted to make a fiction of it as well. You could say that it’s a brightly idea and lighten ups our mood because it really shines and sparkle our inspirations. Heh, heh…anyways, I hope you like!

Stay DETERMINATED!

Author: CrystalGemSmashMario

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h-enrywinter  asked:

"actually... I just miss you" for the prompt thing (#andreil but is Andrew that tell this to Neil 🍝)

okkkk i accidentally turned this into long distance andreil because i’m trash… also partly inspired by me, lying on the floor, melting into a puddle because heatwave (aka satan saying ‘fuck brexit’)

  • ok so sports teams occasionally go abroad for training. to hot countries. for some form of exotic fucking torture or smth.
  • and because of this they had to miss their weekly skype session
  • (they say it’s not scheduled but… it totally is)
  • and andrew felt #emotions about missing it
  • that weren’t anger
  • though he’d never admit it

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anonymous asked:

*flails* I'D BE HONORED TO BE YOUR GUINEA PIG IF YOU STILL NEED ONE!! I love Jonas (Or Barba's cool, I'm anything but picky) !! Uhm as for myself I guess I like my optimism it's kinda hard to get me down rough enough to keep me down (does that make sense?) uh & something I do not love... we'll pick the fact that whenever I'm too-(sad, happy, angry, frustrated, embarrassed, any extreme) I tear up like pronto, big cry baby status, no stopping it & I can't express myself at all- OhBelieveYouMe 😘

Setting: Jonas Nightingale no longer is the scam artist he once was. Well, not an illegal one. In an attempt to make an honest living, he’s a salesman. Not a bad gig for him, really. He frequently drops by your office, selling the latest in office and technology products, always sure to give you a wink and a smile.

But today is different…

Originally posted by thejaygarrick

It had been a bit of a day for you, and not in the cheery, Lin-Manuel-won-eleventy-billion-awards sort of way.

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Yay some happy head canons because I just watched a sad movie and I’m still blubbering so sorry if these are awful or don’t really make sense just ignore me and my coping mechanisms.

-Harley likes to draw, and when she leaves her drawings at Ivy’s house, Ivy pins them up on the fridge and around every room of the house so she can have a constant piece of Harley.

-Sometimes the dork squad will lay on a random roof top and look at the stars.

- Waylon likes going to the circus when it’s in town, but he makes sure to stay out of sight and one time a little girl saw him and gave him the stuffed crocodile she had won playing games (this isn’t helping now I’m just crying because I want these poor stupid imaginary characters to be loved and happy

-One time Jonathan stole a truck and he fetched Waylon and they drove and drove until the air got muggy and the hills got flat, and all you could see for miles were fields and the birds and the bugs sang and they found a place to get decent iced tea and it felt kind of like home and there are so many painful memories attached to home but good ones too, because it’s finally warm (Gotham is always so cold) and the air is clean and maybe they don’t get along all the time but this is the closest they’ve ever felt to normal, lying in the bed of the truck together, looking at clouds and talking in circles. The tea is sweet and well made, and the drive back is quiet and melancholy, because now everything must go back to what it was, and they’re freaks and monsters again, but sometimes that memory will pop up into their heads, and it’s bittersweet and special.

-And sometimes Alice visits Arkham, dear sweet Alice, because she still cares about Jervis, because they were friends. And when he’s doing ok, when he’s more Jervis and less Hatter, they can talk like everything’s like it was, before the incident, and Jervis will pretend to not see the ring. And on the days when she visits and he’s not ok, when the jabberwocky is screaming to loud, she talks to his doctors, because she wants him to get better.

-Selina likes to sing in the shower, and sometimes she’ll take an extra-long one, and sing all of the songs from her favorite musical (it’s Cats if you’re wondering) until the water runs cold.

-Ivy likes to weave dresses out of roses, with long trains and a rainbow of colors. She threads lilies through her hair, and wears a crown of snap dragon. It smells exquisite, and she looks like a deity. She sweeps around the room, dancing to a tune only she can hear, and laughs freely with a voice like bells.

-One year for Halloween, Ivy wore the dress of roses and a crown of skulls, and Harley wore a black chiton with a matching crown and sandals. As Hades and Persephone, and they truly looked like goddesses.

-Anarky wears way to much axe cologne. Waylon hates him because he smells so bad. Like he can smell it from a mile away and it kind of pisses him off. He’s tried to explain the whole less is more thing to no avail. 

-Roman has a stuffed cow from his childhood that he keeps in his room. It’s missing one of its eyes, and its ear is torn, and it’s his most prized possession.

Sydney Sides

Wisdom (they/them)
• Favorite thing to say “just put your headphones on and work sids”
• Resting Bitch face is not just resting with them
• When the others are acting especially childish they go into a mode everyone else calls “common sense”
• No one messes with “common sense” if anyone does, wisdom will not hesitate to slap them
• Wisdom is always so frustrated because they know that they are capable of being an A+ student but mentality holds sydney back
• Wisdom is asexual, they don’t have time for that (wisdoms guilty pleasure is memes)
• Brown, long curly hair.
• Always in slacks and a sophisticated top.
•The shortest and most feared one.

Mentality (he/him)
• favorite  phrase “ CAN I PLAY WITH OTIS” (Otis is my dog)
• Is just about the happiest person on this planet
• Seriously don’t get him started about puppies
• He ships everyone and everything
• He tries so hard to help sydney be as happy and positive as possible but when people get angry at sydney for that or someone treats them unkindly mentality can’t stop disorders
from saying something snippy
• All mentality wants is to help sydney past their inner demons
•pansexual
•hopelessly in love with disorders because he wants to help him and break down his walls when he is comfortable
• wears flannel and jeans
• short brown hair
• a little taller than sydney

Disorders (he/him)
• favorite phrase “ can’t i just stay in bed i promise i won’t cry”
• Is so broken
• He wants to be happy but all he can do is count the list of problems mentally and physically Sydney has
• he contradicts himself constantly because that’s what you do when you have to control Anxiety, Depression, OCD, ADHD and etc.
• pansexual
• won’t admit he has feelings for mentality because he believes he doesn’t deserve love
• is the reason sydney became a fandom nerd because they had no one else
• as tall as sydney but hunches so no one knows
• he doesn’t want to stand out
• wears sweats and a t-shirt
• Bright blonde hair, short hair always wears a beanie
• the only person he lets see every side of him is peace

Inspiration (won’t admit, says it would taint the role, they,she,he, inspiration don’t care)
• favorite phrase “ we are so talented, if only sydney would do something with it”
• Has so many Pinterest boards it would make your head spin
• Pajamas are their go to, especially their onesies they have a whole closet full of onesies
• sings constantly
• always wants to write but rarely gets sydney to make the effort
• favorite thing to say “you could be making a youtube video right now”
• bright rainbow curly hair, always down
• stands in front of mirrors acting out scenes….sydney joins them a lot
• so extroverted it hurts
• nobody knows their sexuality either
• THE TALLEST ONE UGHHBBBBHHHH

Peace (she/her)
• favorite phrase “meditation is key”
• is the mediator of the group
• blue hair, straight always down
• a little shorter than sydney
• flower crowns
• the other call her a hipster
• demisexual
• loves dresses and cardigans
• and tennis shoes
• her and disorders are very close she helps him calm down when he is having panic and/ or anxiety attacks
• she can’t watch sydney eat meat it is the one thing that angers her
• when war is in her “fiery state” peace helps and soothes her by singing to her and when she can’t she just watches war until she burns out for the moment

War (she/her)
• favorite phrase “ the world is screwed up”
•feminist
• lesbian
• drags everyone to Pride Parades, Women Marches, and etc.
• loves to protest
• she fights so hard for equality
• when she gets passionate in any way,shape or form sydney rants
• is the reason sydney is so fascinated by sociology and psychology
• deep but bright red hair that is curly and down sometimes but when being passionate is in a bun
• wears whatever makes her happy that day
• the same height as sydney
• wants to change the world, doesn’t know how
• does her best anyways
• when she gets worked up she goes into a “fiery state” her hair actually is surrounded by flames when that happens
• peace is who calms her like water to a flame
• argues a lot
• completely in love with peace

Okay so i spent like am hour on this i hope it turned out okay
@prinxietys
@prinxiety-fandom
@obviouslyelementary
@princey-and-hottopic
@prinanalogicality
@lekawaiimelon
I tagged my favorite fander blogs
I ship a few of them……😗

thesurprisinglypansexualtoast  asked:

yo so i just read all of your completed fanfics i could find (the ones on tumblr and the couple on ao3) (its 4 am now tho) and i gotta say that i absolutely fuckin loved all of them, especially Midnight's Son. That shit made me feel an entire fuckin rainbow of emotions. All your fics were like rly well written, like to the point that youre my fav fanfic writer, i shit you not, theyre that good. i love how you write all of the characters and pale relationships and im outta room tysm for the fics❤

Oh my god, thank you!!!  I can’t believe you loved all of them, that means so much to me!!  I’m so happy and honestly surprised by this that I’m not sure how to respond other than with lots and lots of thank yous because I can’t believe I’m your favorite that means the literal world to me, thank you thank you thank you!!!  Honestly I just woke up but this just made my day a billion times brighter, thank you so much <3

I Don't Gamble, But if I Did I Would Bet On Us

Simon couldn’t stop fiddling with the buttons of his suit. His nerves were eating him alive. It’s just a date, he reminded himself. Just a date.

“Would you stop looking at yourself, Snow? I promise you look fine.” Baz was sitting on Simon’s bed, his long legs stretched out in front of him.

“I look like a little boy.” Simon glowered at himself in the mirror. The suit’s sleeves practically swallowed his hands and his curls were a haphazard bronze pile on his head.

“Well, you’re the handsomest little boy I’ve ever seen,” Baz replied, rolling his eyes.

Simon tossed a look at Baz over his shoulder. With his flawless brown skin, sharp cheek bones and perfect hair (he was wearing it in a top-knot that would’ve made Agatha jealous), he looked like a bloody model.

“Shut up,” he mumbled. “If I looked like you I wouldn’t have this problem.” Simon swiped a comb through his hair and huffed, he was making it frizzier. “Maybe I should just tell Agatha I can’t make it.”

“Maybe you should suck it up and tell her she’d better get here on time.” Baz plucked a loose thread from Simon’s comforter and frowned. If you think you’re having a rough time, try being in love with your best friend.

Simon’s phone buzzed; it was a message from Agatha.

[Ags, 5:30pm] sorry si, the date is off

[to Ags, 5:31pm] why???

[Ags, 5:32pm] i just dont think we should see each other anymore, sorry

He didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. “I think Agatha just broke up with me.”

Baz’s eyebrows shot up. “You think?”

“We had reservations,” Simon said numbly.

Baz untangled his legs and pushed himself into a sitting position. “Take me then. I’ll be your date.” He mentally slapped himself, what the hell was he doing?

“What?”

Baz’s grin didn’t falter. “We don’t want your reservations to go to waste.”

Simon decided that he would’ve preferred letting the reservations go to waste, Baz had him completely undone. Every time his eyes met Baz’s or their fingers brushed, he thought his heart was going to explode. But it was hard for him to feel sad about Agatha when Baz made him so happy. (At this point he didn’t even care about agatha, it wasn’t like he really liked her; their relationship has been more of an obligation).

The strings of glittering lights above highlighted Baz’s face in a way that made everything about him sharper. Simon had the sudden, overwhelming urge to reach over the table and kiss him. I shouldn’t be feeling this way about my best friend.

“No offense, Snow,” Baz said, yanking Simon from his thoughts. “But I’m glad Wellbelove cancelled on you.” His lips fell into a lopsided grin. Simon swooned.

“So am I, actually.” Simon’s heart leapt when he felt Baz’s hand cover his own on the table.

Baz’s smile grew brighter and something silent passed between them. Then Simon was standing over the table, hands gripping tightly onto the lapels of Baz’s suit, pulling the boy’s lips to his own. He could feel the prick of other people’s gazes on them, but he didn’t give a shit.

He was kissing Baz, and that was all that mattered.

Everlasting Party - Mystic Messenger Time Loop AU (pt 9)

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Summary: You’re caught in a time loop during the 11 days leading up to the RFA’s party unless you can do… what, exactly?

10+ Small spoilers for Day 7 of Zen’s route. Fluff + Angst.


“Oh, do you play?” Zen asks, noticing the way she eyes his keyboard.

She tests out the beginning notes of Für Elise, twiddling the black and white keys back and forth. “I do,” she says softly, not looking up from the piano.

“Have you been playing for long? Do you know any pieces off by heart?” Zen can’t help the questions from spilling out. Is he talking too much? She is rather quiet in person; more than he thought she would be from speaking to her in the chatrooms. She often seems to be lost in thought, or perhaps carefully considering her next action. It’s difficult to read her expressions.

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✧・゚: *✧・゚:* \MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS LYRIC MASTERLIST/ *:・゚✧*:・゚✧

+ hi hi helo etc !!!! so basically for my first hundred (i'm crying i haven't been here long and ily all so much) i thought i'd make a lil masterlist of lyrics by marina and the diamonds from every ep/album that she's released that could be used for inspiration, descriptions, prompts, ideas, bios etc. check them out under the cut, and please like/reblog if you found this at all helpful. (ღ˘⌣˘ღ)

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anonymous asked:

Please help? I don't want to kill myself, but I'm losing control. -M-

Hold tight, breathe, read, and reassure yourself.
100 Reasons NOT To Kill Yourself
1. We would miss you.
2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing.
5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
8. You are amazing.
9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.
10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead.
11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive.
12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die.
13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.
15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?
17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.
18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again…
19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day
20. Listening to incredibly loud music
21. Being alive is just really good.
22. Not being alive is really bad.
23. Finding your soulmate.
24. Red pandas
25. Going to diners at three in the morning.
26. Really soft pillows.
27. Eating pizza in New York City.
28. Proving people wrong with your success.
29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
31. Being able to help other people.
32. Bonfires.
33. Sitting on rooftops.
34. Seeing every single country in the world.
35. Going on roadtrips.
36. You might win the lottery someday.
37. Listening to music on a record player.
38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
39. Taking really cool pictures.
40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.
41. Hearing crazy stories.
42. Telling crazy stories.
43. Eating ice cream on a hot day.
44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know.
45. Travelling to another planet someday.
46. Having an underwater house.
47. Randomly running into your hero on the street.
48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.
49. Trampolines.
50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again.
51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke,
52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
53. People do care.
54. Treehouses
55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse
55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees
56. I don’t even know you and I love you.
57. I don’t even know you and I care about you.
58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor.
60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS!
61. Starbucks.
62. Hugs.
63. Stargazing.
64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is.
65. You’ve changed somebody’s life.
66. Now you could change the world.
67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you.
68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.
69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life.
70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.
71. Making snow angels.
72. Making snowmen.
73. Snowball fights.
74. Life is what you make of it.
75. Everybody has a talent.
76. Laughing until you cry.
77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist.
79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down
80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive.
81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.
82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.
83. One day your smile will be real.
84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds.
86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends.
87. Eating crazy food.
88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one.
89. Sleeping in all day.
90. Creating something you’re proud of.
91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit
92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.
93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate
94. Sherlock season three.
95. Cuddling under the stars.
96. Being stupid in public because you just can.
97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?
98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years
99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen
-Andy

anonymous asked:

Can we have Kagami be an artist who doesnt believe in his work and Aomine is there to support him in a time of the redheads depression over how there are so many good artists out there and he doesn't think he'll ever make it in the art world? Just want some mild sadness to create some cuddles <3

Omg…is this a drabble…looks like I’m still alive…a miracle…

I hope you like what I did with it, Anon! :D Lots of snuggling and happy endings <3


Kagami’s hands shook as he slowly went through the mail. He could hear Aomine closing the door behind him, hear the jangle of keys as the taller man tossed them on the table.

“Anything but bills?” Aomine grumbled, shucking off his jacket.

Kagami grunted, not really paying attention. His eyes narrowed on a letter with the insignia of the Shinjuku Gallery of Fine Arts. He licked his lips, his heart thundering in his chest as he ripped it open and unfolded the letter, the gentle crackle of paper loud in his ears.

Aomine hung his coat on the hook, tilting his head curiously at his boyfriend. Well, fiancé, to be more precise. He glowed with happiness at the thought. “Hey, Taiga-”

He didn’t finish. Kagami had scrunched the letter in his hand, his back to Aomine. He threw the ball into the bin with ease, but Aomine still couldn’t see his expression.

Aomine stepped closer. “Hey, what’s the matter-?”

“Nothing,” Kagami spat over his shoulder, striding over to the extra bedroom he had turned into his personal studio and slamming the door behind him.

Aomine bent down and extracted the letter, spreading it open. His lips pressed together at the words of rejection. He grabbed the rest of the stack of letters and walked over to the wooden door, knocking on it gently.

No answer.

“Taiga…” he hummed, trying to open the door before realising it was locked. “Hey, come on. Let me in.”

“I’m fine. I just need some alone time,” Kagami’s voice was small.

“Bullshit,” Aomine snorted. “Now I either knock down this door or you let me in, baka.”

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anonymous asked:

My best friend is really bad right now he wants to give everything up I'm so scared I don't know what to tell him to feel better or motivate him anymore pleas help me !!!

Try this.

100 Reasons To Why You Shouldn’t Commit Suicide.

1. We would miss you.
2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing.
5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
8. You are amazing.
9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.
10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead.
11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive.
12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die.
13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.
15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?
17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.
18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again…
19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day
20. Listening to incredibly loud music
21. Being alive is just really good.
22. Not being alive is really bad.
23. Finding your soulmate.
24. Red pandas
25. Going to diners at three in the morning.
26. Really soft pillows.
27. Eating pizza in New York City.
28. Proving people wrong with your success.
29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
31. Being able to help other people.
32. Bonfires.
33. Sitting on rooftops.
34. Seeing every single country in the world.
35. Going on roadtrips.
36. You might win the lottery someday.
37. Listening to music on a record player.
38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
39. Taking really cool pictures.
40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.
41. Hearing crazy stories.
42. Telling crazy stories.
43. Eating ice cream on a hot day.
44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know.
45. Travelling to another planet someday.
46. Having an underwater house.
47. Randomly running into your hero on the street.
48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.
49. Trampolines.
50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again.
51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke,
52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
53. People do care.
54. Treehouses
55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse
55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees
56. I don’t even know you and I love you.
57. I don’t even know you and I care about you.
58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor.
60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS!
61. Starbucks.
62. Hugs.
63. Stargazing.
64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is.
65. You’ve changed somebody’s life.
66. Now you could change the world.
67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you.
68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.
69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life.
70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.
71. Making snow angels.
72. Making snowmen.
73. Snowball fights.
74. Life is what you make of it.
75. Everybody has a talent.
76. Laughing until you cry.
77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist.
79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down
80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive.
81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.
82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.
83. One day your smile will be real.
84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds.
86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends.
87. Eating crazy food.
88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one.
89. Sleeping in all day.
90. Creating something you’re proud of.
91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit
92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.
93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate
94. Game of Thrones season six.
95. Cuddling under the stars.
96. Being stupid in public because you just can.
97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?
98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years
99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen.

I Will Wait Chapter 2

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Sorry for the late post… I wanted to write this earlier..but life got in the way

You can catch chapter 1 here

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Day 18 (since Stefan said he would wait)

Caroline parked her car outside the Salvatore Boarding house and made her way to the door. She and Bonnie were in Mystic Falls for the weekend. Bonnie had decided to spend some time with Damon and meet Caroline later for dinner…so here she was picking her friend up. 

She sees Stefan right as she enters the door. He’s standing there with a glass of Bourbon. She can’t quite place his expression.. it was as though he was worried and confused at the same time.. She looked to the direction of his gaze. The house was..well..a mess.. there were traces of burnt furniture, broken glasses, empty whiskey bottles and 3 very drunk people. Alaric looked like he was ready to pass out. Damon and Bonnie were quiet..lost in their own thoughts, sitting on the floor as if exhausted.

“What . ..happened here?” Caroline asks in a bewildered tone 

“Well you weren't kidding about Bonnie’s RAGE… issues…” Stefan says in a sarcastic tone.. he was clearly not impressed.

Bonnie over-hears Stefan’s comment, turns back n breaks his glass with one wave of her hand. 

Caroline and Stefan instinctively turn to look at each other..with their ‘what-just-happened’ face. . 

Caroline steps forward towards bonnie .. “Bonnie.. listen.. I know this is a painful time..”

“Go away Caroline..” She cuts her off, almost yelling… She is clearly distraught and in pain and very drunk “ I'm not in the mood for rainbows and butterflies…” She adds mockingly yet in a very sombre note.

“I…” Caroline starts, only to be interrupted by Stefan . “Caroline..why don’t we just give them some…space.. lets..uh.. go to the grill.. grab some dinner..?”

“Yeah…I guess…” She replies, her eyes still fixed on Bonnie.. She doesn’t notice Stefan taking her arm and guiding her to the car.

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They are in the car on their way to the Grill… Stefan is driving and Caroline is quiet.. It worries him.. Caroline quiet always worries him. 

“Hey”, he says, reaching for her hand.. ‘It’ll be okay..”

Caroline looks at his hand on hers.. she’s trying to work something out in her head.. he can tell.. “Yeah.. “ She finally says..more chipper than she actually feels…  “Everyone deals with grief differently right ??” She looks at him and gives him a faint smile.

“Although.. “ She continues before he can respond, “You should probably take everything that has sentimental value and keep it somewhere safe..before its burnt to a crisp !”

Stefan lets out a half sigh - half laugh, shaking his head at his predicament.

 “You remember back when nobody ever stepped foot in the Salvatore house?” He asks.

“Yeah back when you guys were all ooh so mysterious?” She teases, smiling from ear to ear.. He loved that smile. He could spend all day just looking at that smile. 

Stefan smiles, not the restrained smile he normally gives, this is the smile that takes him over, puts a sparkle in his eyes and makes him look like a completely different person.. “ Hey don't mock me..”  his tone is borderline flirtatious. His gaze lingers on her lips for a fraction of a second.

Then he looks ahead, eyes on the road and he’s serious again.. He sighs and adds “I miss that sometimes…”

Caroline puts her free hand on top of his.. She knows.. she knows he misses the quiet house where he could be at peace, gather his thoughts, write in his journal without worrying about someone setting the house on fire.

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They enter the grill. The mood has changed from worried to happy banter. They look for a booth when Caroline spots Matt. She hadn’t apologised to him for what she did during her no-humanity phase. Not that she didn’t want to, she just never got the chance. 

“You know what.. why don’t you grab us a booth, I need to talk to Matt…”

Stefan’s eyes follow her as she makes a bee-line for Matt, who was behind the bar with a towel over his shoulder fixing a drink.

“Hey” she says, “How are you..” she continues awkwardly trying the break the ice..

Matt looks at her and goes back to making drinks. “Whatever it is you want, I’m busy, as you can clearly see…and I’m on vervain so don’t bother compelling me..” 

Stefan is worried about the way the conversation is going.. Matt is obviously not in a forgiving mood.. he contemplates whether to step in or not. .

“Matt.. you have every right to be upset at what I did to you, at what I made Tyler do.. I just.. I need you to know how very sorry I am… you know I would never do that if..”

“If you had your humanity on??” He scoffs. “the cliché My-Humanity-Was-Off excuse ” he says mumbling to himself.. 

“Matt I’m not..”

“If you are looking for forgiveness, I’ve got none to give.” He says looking right at her,  “no one forced you to turn it off Care, that was all you..”

Caroline wants to say something to fix this, but she struggles with the words.. What can she possibly say to that ?

“ I gotta go get some stuff from the back.. try not to eat anybody while I'm gone..”

Caroline looks down defeated and turns around and catches Stefan’s eye… his brows are furrowed, he doesn’t look pleased. He is worried about her.. and hurt that she is hurt. She can’t continue to meet his gaze, she looks away and heads to the girls room. Stefan is right behind her as she enters the washroom.

“Caroline”

“DONT OKAY ?.. JUST DONT !!.. He is right..” She says breaking down.. “This is all on me.. I don’t deserve any forgiveness at all” She says tears streaming down her face.. She’s leaning against the sink.. 

 He shakes his head, tears welling in his eyes hugs her and lets her cry for a while.. then he breaks the hug and wipes her tears, pushes her hair back from her face as she continues to cry and starts talking to her.. “Listen to me.. there’s no easy way to say this, but….”

She looks at him lost and confused.

“The truth is, not everyone will forgive you and not everyone will let it go.” He says looking into her eyes and stroking her hair.. “We can’t go back and stop ourselves from killing those people and we cant expect everyone to forgive and forget” He looks despondent .. he wished he didn’t have to tell her this.. what she was going through was all his fault…he wipes her tears again and says “there are some things.. you can’t fix….” he lets the words hang in the air for a bit.. “ the only way you are going to move on is by finding a way to make peace with everything.. by finding a way to forgive yourself…” 

She buries her head into his shoulders again.. and he holds her and lets his head rest on hers..

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They are at Caroline’s house…Its very late..they are both tired. She told him he could stay at her place. She had an extra room and his house was a war zone. He was better off at her place.. and she was better off with him there. 

“There aren't unicorns on the walls are there.. ‘cause I don’t think I can handle that” he says in mock seriousness.. 

“Shut up ! ” comes the instant reply swatting him with the back of her hand.

It felt good to see her smile again.

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Chapter 3 coming up..

anonymous asked:

I think I'm terrifyingly ugly and everyone takes the piss out of me for the way I look? Do you have any good advice. I know you're not like an advice guru but I just need help and your one of my favourite blogs and i think you're stunning just please help?

Okay listen, and please do what I say. Grab a mirror, or a reflective surface and just look at yourself? What do you see? A fat face? Dull eyes? Scars? Deformities? Bones? Stretch marks? Freckles? Bigger features than others? Is this what makes you ugly? Is this what makes you less than any others? 

Now think of your parents or guardians; When you come down in the morning, maybe in baggy clothes to hide who you are, sleeves to cover the scars laden on your wrists, Eyes still puffy from crying yourself to sleep the night before over some comment someone said one day at school? What would they see? They wouldn't look at you, saying your ugly, they would look at you and say your beautiful, because you are.

Now think of your best friends; When you’re in school, at work, or anywhere, and your best friend starts to laugh at something you said. Have you ever looked over with a straight face and just for a second admired how stunning they actually are? Because you don’t know what they struggle, if they struggle, and you don’t know what they’re hiding but they’re still there with you, they’re still there looking after you and they make you smile every day. They are the ones you talk to, and tell stories to them that you can tell to no one else. They wouldn't look at you, saying you’re ugly, they would look at you saying your perfect, because you are.

Now think of any sibling you have; Sure, you fight. Hell, sometimes you just want to run away from them because they’re so annoying. They sit there arguing with you, they are the better child maybe, you think your parents favour them over you for some reason; either grades, age preference or they seem to warm to them more than they do to you. But then think how when they find something wrong with you, they are there first there for you, whether they understand it or not. When you cry, they’ll hug you, or even just walk beside you as you cry to make sure you’re okay when you’re not. They wouldn't look at you, saying your ugly, they’d look at you and say your wonderful, because you are.

Now think of your future boyfriend/girlfriend; Think of their smile as you sit there, texting each other, or playing a game on the computer or even sit there on Tumblr together. Maybe you’ll come across a funny post and smile or laugh sightly. Think of them looking over at you, and that same smile is copied onto their face like carbon paper. They wouldn't look at you, saying your ugly, they’d look at you saying your brilliant, because you are.

Now think of your future fiancé/fiancée;  When you standing at the alter, or where ever you want to get married, and you turn around to see your other half either standing there, or walking towards you. They look like a thousand stars. You’ve planned this day for months, maybe even years and here they are, smiling uncontrollable all dressed up. You’re surrounded by your family and friends, the ones that have been you throughout this journey. They smile at you, feeling proud at how far you’ve come. You don’t even bother to hide your scars, your stretch marks, deformities, slightly bigger features, any body weight that you were teased about when you were younger. They wouldn't look at you, saying your ugly, they would look at you saying you’re an inspiration, because you are. 

Now think of your future children; Whether they’re adopted, or you spent the last nine months with them, they’re still your children. You’ll hold them in your arms and nurture them through the first few years old their life. You’ll yell at them for doing something stupid like licking a plug, but they’re still your children and you love them more than anything. You’ll attend their play and sit in their front row, clapping refusely  they take their bows at their first Christmas nativity, and until they’re 18 and taking a bow in their high school/college graduations. But one day, they’ll sit down and ask you about your scars, your deformities, and anything else. You’ll explain to them calmly you wasn’t always this happy. You’ll explain to your child(ren) that you were bullied and called ugly and everything else. You explain maybe the only way you could feel better was to cut. But they wouldn't look at you, calling you ugly, they would look at you calling you strong and determined, because you are.

Now look back in the mirror. You shouldn’t see anything ugly because you are a truly inspirational and beautiful person and you shouldn’t listen to people who call you ugly, because they are wrong. Every time you feel like you’re ugly, you need to look in the mirror and think of this. You need to think of everyone you got, and everyone you will have. And you need to remember that they love you and they call you beautiful, and an inspiration. Honey, don’t look down, look up and see the sunsets and the rainbows that shine every day when you smile :)

2015 is ending..

So, the year is ending, and people usually get emotional, and I’m emotional, and so this is why I’ll do this! Soon enough I’ll be out of my blog for a while because of reasons, but there are some people I’d like to give a shout out. 

This year particularly was a mess. A whole mess. My life turned upside down. My sister was born, I ended my four year relationship, I accepted my sexuality, and so much more, and there were sleepless nights, there was impulsive crying, there was pain, and joy, and laughs, and it goes and it goes.. 

I entered the One Direction fandom this year, at the beginning of the year, right after Zayn left. I usually say that “I fell in this rabbit-hole” and it’s kinda true, I also suffered a lot because of these boys (You all know how much Larry fucks us up) but this was the absolute best thing that could have happened to me. 

When I entered the fandom I was going through a harsh time, a time of doubts and uncertainity, and this band, their songs and pictures, videos and interviews, this band is what made me smile when I thought I couldn’t and this band made me feel safe and capable to accept who I am, who I’ve always been. 

And because of Larry and all the love I saw in these two boys, and also because of Harry’s quote “pick someone who’s supportive”, I noticed how fucked my relationship was. How toxic. How much that crap was bad for me. And then I finally gathered the guts to put an end to it, and I never felt more alived and relieved. 

This fandom is amazing, this fandom brought me incredible people, people that nowadays I know I can’t live without or so I might miss them too much. This fandom brought me knowledge, made me open my eyes and realize several things I had never thought about, and I’m thankful for this. 

So, there are some people I’d like to say some things, really quick! And some blogs I’d love to recommend because even though I don’t have much contact, helped me a lot. 

@fuckinghatekissingyou Hannah, babes. We’ve had our ups and downs, our friendship’s been a roller coaster, we both know that. But I hope you know how much you mean to me, how much I love you, and how greateful I am for having you in my life. You’ve been there in the middle of the night when I thought I couldn’t handle it, you were there to call me out, and you were there to laugh and hear my nonsense. I tried my best to make it up for you, babes. I’m so sorry I wasn’t able, I tried hard and failed. But even the best of me, it’ll never be enough. No it will never be enough because you’re wonderful and amazing and I just love you very much. Thank you for everything my dear, thank you for every single word and every minute of your attention, and everything you’ve done to me. I hope this lasts a lifetime, and I hope to meet you someday and to hug you these words. Just thank you baby. 

@harryandlouisdragmedown Annika my sweet larrie sis, we have so much fun together! All of our crazy voice recordings and the jokes and the nonsense :’D the yelling and shouting “WTF IS THAT???” “IDK OH MY GOD, I’M DYING” and the Banini saga, all of it! We have such a great great time! And you’ll always be my sweet sis, not by blood but by soul, our dark larrie souls, and when we meet darling, the world will be damned! I can’t wait to go to London and run down the streets with rainbow flags and shout Larry for everyone to hear! Adulting sucks and sometimes we don’t talk as much as we wish we could, but I want you to know that you’ll be always in my heart (HARRY STYLES, YO…no)! Love you sis. 

@unintentionalarry and @zenlikejen I’ll talk to you two at the same time because you two held the same purpose in my life and you two are just an incredible team! Ash and Jen, thanks for hearing my ramblings about nothing, thank you for helping me figure things out, thanks for all of the advices and for soothing my heart when I felt like it was beating out of my chest. You are wonderful, have a heart of gold, and I’m happy we have people like you in this fandom to create safe places and spaces and welcome us like you do! I love you both very much a lot, seriously. I’m sorry for sometimes being a complete pain in the ass, I know that! But you’ve always received me in the best way and always talked to me when I needed most, so thanks for all of this sweethearts <3 

AND! Yeah, these people made my year a lot easier to deal with and I’m thankful for it. Actually, all of you, my followers and mutuals, I love you all! You’ve been incredible, and thank you for keeping up with my crap and still being here after all. 

There are some blogs (besides the ones above) that are my favorite ever and I’d like to point out.

@scrufflecake, @allegedlymags, @tellmethisisnotlove, @droppingtheveilofmaya@merrykatie, @diggingandfluff, @lhrry@indierection, @justmelouandthemoon, @yslboner, @isuckatlove, @santababyharrie, @evancl, @stylesforstiles, @jointhelarrycult, @britishhusbands, @prettytruthsandlies, @intenselouis, @larryappreciation, @ificouldflymp3, @freddiesmyqueen, @wattpadfic, @genuinelybelieve, @bromanceshmomance, @patrochilarry, @theboyfriends, @someonethatsfunny, @jawsandhobama, @tommosloueh, @proudoflou, @since-he-was-eighteen, @theboyfriendstagram, @buscandoelparaiso, @lapelosa, @sweetharold, @sugarbabykink, @areyougoodwithyourhands, @darklarries, @jimmytfallon, @hoedidas, @lourryetc, @verily-i-say, @saracha33, @larrytookawaymysanity, @ohnooooonedirection, @larents, @thedailystyles, @aboutchopsuey, @happy1days.

There are so many others, so so so so so many! I wish I could put all of the people I follow in here because you’re all great! So I’m sorry if I didn’t put anyone in here, but that’s it for now! I love you alll, I mean it. 

Thank you for everything, everyone! I hope we all have an amazing 2016, filled with great things (and Larry), be safe, see you! xx.

anonymous asked:

It's 7:57 pm & I'm trying to portray being this positive person but in reality I want to kill myself

Oh no! Please do not do that! Don’t even think of such a thing! Here, read these! 

1. We would miss you.

2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.

3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.

4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing.

5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.

6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.

7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.

8. You are amazing.

9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.

10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead.

11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive.

12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die.

13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.

14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.

15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.

16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?

17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.

18. Think about your favorite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again…

19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day

20. Listening to incredibly loud music

21. Being alive is just really good.

22. Not being alive is really bad.

23. Finding your soulmate.

24. Red pandas

25. Going to diners at three in the morning.

26. Really soft pillows.

27. Eating pizza in New York City.

28. Proving people wrong with your success.

29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.

30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.

31. Being able to help other people.

32. Bonfires.

33. Sitting on rooftops.

34. Seeing every single country in the world.

35. Going on road trips.

36. You might win the lottery someday.

37. Listening to music on a record player.

38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower.

39. Taking really cool pictures.

40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.

41. Hearing crazy stories.

42. Telling crazy stories.

43. Eating ice cream on a hot day.

44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know.

45. Travelling to another planet someday.

46. Having an underwater house.

47. Randomly running into your hero on the street.

48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.

49. Trampolines.

50. Think about your favorite movie, you’ll never watch it again.

51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke,

52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.

53. People do care.

54. Treehouses

55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse

55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees

56. I don’t even know you and I love you.

57. I don’t even know you and I care about you.

58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!

59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor.

60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS!

61. Starbucks.

62. Hugs.

63. Stargazing.

64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is.

65. You’ve changed somebody’s life.

66. Now you could change the world.

67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you.

68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.

69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life.

70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.

71. Making snow angels.

72. Making snowmen.

73. Snowball fights.

74. Life is what you make of it.

75. Everybody has a talent.

76. Laughing until you cry.

77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.

78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist.

79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down

80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive.

81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.

82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.

83. One day your smile will be real.

84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.

85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds.

86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends.

87. Eating crazy food.

88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one.

89. Sleeping in all day.

90. Creating something you’re proud of.

91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit

92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.

93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate

94. Sherlock season three.

95. Cuddling under the stars.

96. Being stupid in public because you just can.

97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?

98. being able to hug that one person you haven’t seen in years

99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.

100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen

Green Bowties Cause You To Be Uncreative
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 asked you: Yay, someone’s writing fanfics~! How about them having a fight and her ending up crying. Then he would hug and comfort her until she’s better and happy :>

“No! No no no!” Notepad stamped her foot, the sticky noise signaling that she was coating the floor with her inky skin.

“Don’t dirty the floor,” Clock stated, fixing his bowtie after Notepad had tried to pull it off. “It’s nothing bad.”

“It's green.

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