So yesterday I saw Paramore. I can’t even begin to explain how PERFECT it was, but I’ll tell a bit of what happened.
As I might have mentioned before, my best friend bought a ticket to see Paramore with me even though she’s not a fan. She only did this to go with me so I wouldn’t be alone and to take care of me and the pics and everything else. Her whole family got involved to help me and they drove us there and then back home and gave us food and everything. Her sister was there with us in line to take care of us. So yesterday my best friend and I went to sleep at like 1am and we woke up at 4am. Soon after that we left to the venue and got there at 5 something am. It was deadly cold, below 44 degrees. We had to ask my friend’s dad to bring us a blanket and more coats cause it was freezing. We brought food and blankets and we spent a really long time there just talking and looking at people and even played a game trying to count how many orange haired girls we could see (needless to say we lost count). It was really exhausting waiting that long but my friend made it perfect. So after over 19 hours waiting, we were finally there and we almost got killed. People were pushing around really hard and we had to step back a little. We were still really close to them and I started crying really hard when they walked in. They were absolutely amazing and they had so much energy. I forgot all the pain and all the exhaustion and the fact that I didn’t feel my legs. They smiled so much and my life made perfectly sense at that moment. I cried several times during the concert but mostly because I was so happy I couldn’t believe I was there. My friend was so happy for me and that made me cry even more cause she asked me to enjoy the concert cause she’d take care of the whole pictures and videos thing. I was singing so loud and screaming so much I thought my throat was gonna explode. Hayley said so many nice things and it always made me cry. The Whoa game was so incredible and she laughed a lot. Jeremy was right in front of me and he was just so amazing I can’t even explain. When he started playing the bass upside down and we all screamed he looked so genuinely happy that it melt my heart. I didn’t get to see Taylor the whole time considering he was on the opposite side but I did see him a lot. There was a point it seemed like Jeremy was looking into my friend’s camera (turns out she did take a pic of him and he was looking into her camera) and I just screamed a lot and he had his tongue out. Hayley came to our side so many times and she was so adorable and happy. She said “obrigada” a few times and then the crowd started to sing “Hayley, eu te amo” (Hayley, I love you) and she was really touched and said something like “we should know Portuguese by now” and then we sang the same thing to Taylor (and I hope someone got a video of his response cause it was so funny) and then to Jeremy who was just truly adorable. Before Anklebiters, Hayley gave a small speech saying something like “it doesn’t matter how hard life is outside these walls and how shitty life is at home, you’re here with us now and that’s what matters” and I lost it, I was legitimately sobbing and my friend had to hug me cause I could’t stop crying. Needless to say I danced a lot and sang really loud. I jumped and fist pumped and yelled and smiled and cried, all at once. When they played Proof, I cried a lot because this song describes so many things about my love life at the moment. But all of the songs were so perfect and important to me, they all mean everything to me. I don’t know where I’d be without this band. They’ve saved my life and even though they don’t know who I am, Hayley said herself last night “we love you” and I believe her. The fact that I waited 19 hours in the deadly cold waiting for them proves that they know I love them. Well, it was perfect, every single song was like it was my last minute on Earth and I can’t explain what I felt there. People had blue and white balloons when they played Still Into You and there was this time Hayley said “Sao Paulo, you’re not loud enough for me” and we kept screaming louder and louder as she said “LOUDER!” and then she said “that’s Sao Paulo I remember” and basically I cried a lot. She asked us who’d seen them already and I screamed, obviously, and she said “welcome back, thanks for hanging out with us”. Then when she asked who’d never seen them before, she smiled really big and said “welcome to the family”. And she meant it. After they left the stage before the encore, we started to scream “Paramore, Paramore!” and when they came back Jeremy jumped around and he was so excited it made me laugh. I’d never seen him like that. Then after they played Brick By Boring Brick, they spent a while there thanking us and Taylor literally ran across the stage and said really shy “obrigado” and it was the most adorable thing I have ever seen in my entire existence and I truly hope someone recorded that. So when they left I hugged my friend and started crying so hard, thanking her for being there with me and being so thankful for having the opportunity to be there seeing my favorite band again. No words can describe how amazing it was, how perfect it felt and how incredible it is once you’re there and they’re in front of you, nothing else matters. No problem is big enough compared to the happiness of seeing them.
It was perfect and I’m so incredibly thankful for this opportunity. After all the pain and sweat and tears and cold, it was all worth it. Really worth it. I’d do everything all over again.
Thank you, Paramore, for saving my life when no one else could. For getting me even without knowing me or my problems. For giving me a reason to live and to remind me all the time that someday things will be better. Thank you, Paramore for all the joy that you’ve given me. And one of the most important of them all, thank you for teaching me “let the pain remind you hearts can heal” and for just teaching me how to live my life even with all the bad things happening. I can’t even thank you enough for giving my life a purpose. I’ve been a fan since 2006 and after all this time, I’m still into you ♥
20/02/11 and 30/07/13 are gonna be forever remembered.