and i'll miss it

So she put her headphones in
letting everything around her drift away
as her cries became silent
while the lyrics sang
everything she would never say
the melody ringing in her ears
as the day faded away.
—  AF Montesino
And I wish you would just tell me how you feel instead of me trying to figure it out because I don’t know what to think when one night we’re talking until 3 am and the next night you’re ignoring my calls. I don’t know what to think when one day you tell me everything will be alright and I’ll be ok and the next day you tell me to leave you alone. I don’t know what to think when you tell me you’ll always be here for me but when I need you, you disappear I don’t know what to think when it comes to you because one minute you’re here and the next minute you’re gone
—  Just tell me how you feel

CONCEPT: healthier s2 saphael behavior but it happens in s1 instead
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s1 raphael circling around simon while hungrily eyeing his neck, simon following his movements

s1 raphael pushing simon up against walls during training, letting a hand linger on his chest

s1 raphael squeezing simon’s arm and moving in like he’s going to kiss him, simon’s eyes closing as raphael passes him by, teasing

s1 raphael with simon’s blood on his skin

s1 raphael holding simon’s hand

s1 raphael reminding simon that he has a clan in the family

s1 raphael casually having coffee with elaine and being invited to the lewis home

s1 raphael comforting simon when he’s scared and hungry even if he was trying to sleep

s1 raphael in simon’s bedroom at dumort, making himself comfortable

s1 raphael laughing at simon’s cheesy jokes about being dead/a vampire

s1 raphael remembering simon used to be in a band

s1 raphael having no concept of personal space with simon

s1 raphael sneaking up on simon when he’s been away too long, coming up with a bullshit excuse as to why he’s doing it

s1 raphael sneaking up on simon in general

s1 raphael saying simon’s name all intimate like while simon gives him a tiny smile

s1 raphael showing simon injuries he got during a mission/fight etc like, “look what they did to me”

s1 raphael going to magnus for healing, simon at his side

s1 raphael calmly talking to simon about how dangerous the clave is for their kind

s1 raphael bringing simon a canister of blood when he’s away from dumort and accidentally leaves w/o it

s1 simon coming to magnus for help with raphael because they had an argument

s1 simon watching raphael’s back (and ass) every time he walks away

elaine meeting s1 raphael and telling simon he’s sweet, nice. elaine inviting raphael to have dinner with the lewis family

s1 simon making vampire dick jokes (honestly simon, why)

s1 simon saying “wait” when raphael tries to walk away when they’re arguing

s1 simon talking about raphael to others

s1 simon (pettily) arguing with and hissing at raphael because he knows raphael won’t hurt him

s1 simon messing up and asking raphael to help

s1 simon being worried when raphael gets hurt and checking out any injuries

s1 simon offering raphael a pint of blood (Not o neg, simon)

s1 simon and raphael bombarding magnus with their relationship drama at the same time

magnus downing martini’s and sending them on a pointless mission together so they’ll kiss and makeup

s1 simon + raphael working together
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JUST…THE
SAPHAEL IN SEASON 1 THAT HAPPENED OFF SCREEN

Wipe Off the Dust

All the moments that slipped by 

The times I didn’t look into your eyes

I instead glanced down to the floor


When I wanted to speak but didn’t know how

Cause you made me nervous, made me want

Every second to feel perfect

But they didn’t and now they’re gone


All those times you stood next to me

Smiling to yourself so pleasantly

I want to know what was on your mind


But then the space between us grew wider 

You’re shy and so am I 

But somehow, the few seconds I spoke to you mattered 

To me at least, and I think to you I do too


Your sister told me you cared about me

That I made you smile, and you thought I was sweet

She made me blush, you did too


And then I saw you that night when the world was changing

I was crying, and I hugged you and suddenly 

The space between was no longer 

For a split second, things felt connected 


Until you walked away and my world was shaken

But then I think of you and I’m no longer breaking 

The next day you made sure to come say hi to me 


Now I know that I mean something to you 

You mean so much to little me

And now I look at the moments I thought we lost

But these moments aren’t gone, they’re just covered in dust


I wipe them off and keep you in my mind 

I hope you do the same for me and you find

I’m always with you, and you with me 

They say if you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it’s yours.

Well I’ve been coming back to you every single time, but you still insist on letting me go.

—  excerpt from a book I’ll never write #28 // @loveactivist

SFSJDKFJSGD LONG TIME NO KLANCE or actually art in general ahah well…

I wanted to practice bgs and i wanted to draw klance so i tried to hit two birds in one stone since my time for drawing is super fucking limited akjsdfas. Hope you guys like it! <3<3

Please don’t die.
Not while
I’m still breathing.
Not while
My heart’s still beating.
We are strangers for now.
But maybe…
One day
Things will change.
Maybe…
One day
We will
Go back to
How things used
To be.
Back to when
Things were simpler.
Whether it’s in a year
Or ten…
I will wait for you.
Because
We have so much
More to do together.
I will be patient for you.
Because
We have so much
More to live for.
You are too young
To die at an early age.
You will not live life
To the fullest,
Until you live life
With me.
—  We Need More Time

‘What is it like to be in love?’

'It’s like being lost at sea for decades, when no one has come out looking for you, but suddenly someone showed up in the similar life raft as you.

And even though, you still may be lost at sea. You feel like you’ve finally come home.“

—  excerpt from a book I’ll never write #30 // @loveactivist

Don’t ever fall in love with someone that cannot be yours. I promise you, it’s better that way.

Because if you do, it’ll consume you, devour you to the point where you can’t breathe.

It’s heartbreaking, knowing that person will never belong to you.

But what hurts the most is…

Watching them love someone else that isn’t you.

—  S.V//@Sempiternal.poet on Instagram
Quote from an unwritten story that needs to be written soon.