and i wonder if i ever cross your mind

Do you ever wonder how much you exist in other people’s lives? I’m always curious if people think of me when a certain song comes on, or when they pass through a certain town. I wonder how many stories I’ve been a part of that I may have forgotten. I wonder if I still exist in the minds of people that I don’t speak to anymore. I wonder how many times a day I pass through someone’s head.
Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months. As time slowly drifts by, I think about you less and less but still from time to time. I wonder if you’re happy or if I ever cross your mind. I wonder if you have ever picked up your phone and attempted to call me during your bursts of emotions or nights if loneliness. Or whether or not you still fall asleep with your arms stretched out, waiting for me to lay on them. I wonder if you look at old photos and hear my laugh. Or hold new hands and think of my fingers running through your palm. I know I still do.

-I still do…


Hey I know we don’t talk anymore but I hope
you’re okay.

I know I left but there are days where I miss your presence, there are days where I wish I could just
message you and talk like we used to. There are
days where I spend my entire night thinking and
worrying about you. I wonder if you miss me too
or if you pause for a second in your day and think
about me. Do I ever cross your mind… and even if
I did it doesn’t even matter because we don’t talk anymore, maybe that really gets to me sometimes
because I wish we still did. The thing is I’m okay
without you, you are no longer an important part
of my life. I’m okay and I don’t shed a tear over
you, but there’s a part of me deep down that still
cares and that part brings me to my knees. I wish
things didn’t have to be this way, but I guess you
just have to let go of the things that are weighing
you down and bringing unnecessary stress in your
life. I pray for you, I pray that you’re okay as it’s the
only thing that’ll truly help, and maybe one day our
paths will cross again. Until then goodbye stranger
with some memories.

—  Excerpt from a book I will never write #23
Jenseternity / instagram
I deleted a picture of you off my phone tonight along with some texts you’d sent months back. Ones telling me how much you missed me and how you needed to see me soon. I don’t get those anymore, in fact I don’t hear from you at all. I still miss you from time to time. When my eyes are heavy in the early hours of the morning or at the bottom of my 9th pint. I wonder how you are and if I ever cross your mind. If you ever see things that remind you of me and no one else, like my favourite band on tv or that film I hated so much. I still think about you but not as much anymore.
—  I maybe still love you.
I wonder if I’ll ever get to the part when I don’t miss you, when sunrises are just sunrises and not missed opportunities for closeness, when I can listen to a song and think about you without ending up spiraling down a sad playlist, and when I can go a day without wondering if I manage to cross your mind at all.
Sugar Sweet | 2 | (M)

word count: 5.3k

genre: smut + a little fluff; college AU + fuckboy!kihyun

pairing: reader/kihyun

summary: your best friend & roommate changkyun just wanted to help get you laid. instead you found solace in a pink haired man named kihyun who had a smart mouth with sharp words you weren’t afraid to let cut you, as long as he didn’t mind you hurting him a little too.

a/n: there’s very very verrrry slight dubcon, but in the end it’s consenting by both parties. just in case that isn’t your cup of tea, but i promise it’s as minimal as possible. trust me.

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Not His Girl

Originally posted by buckypupbarnes

Steve Rogers x Reader, Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: Reader helped Bucky out during his time in Wakanda, later on Steve meets Reader and starts falling for her.

Word Count: 2091

Y/N L/N is Tony Stark’s assistant; she helps him, Pepper and Dr. Banner with whatever they needed. She would run to go get coffee for the two science bro’s, make copies for Pepper, to all the way with help calm down Bruce from hulking out. Occasionally she would be allowed to use Tony’s lab for her own personal use. Just like Tony, Y/N was big in technology and science, whenever Bruce wasn’t there to help Tony and Y/N was; he would always go to her. She was always there for them and just as they were for her. But some things had to be kept secret but that didn’t mean they wouldn’t become uncovered.

During the happening of the Winter Soldier, all the files were released, even yours when you had worked for them a decade ago. Tony instantly asked you about it, wanted to know everything about it but from you, not some papers or a file. So you explained everything to him. How you created your own tech to rob stores to make a living. To how S.H.I.E.L.D found out about you and had asked you to join the agency. How you stole Intel and technology for them from Hydra and other enemies. To how you ended it when you had almost lost your life on a mission when S.H.I.E.L.D hadn’t given you the full truth. You explained and he listened, by the end of the day, you still had a job to go to the next day.

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Percabeth fics - Masterlist


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A new post will be made every time a significant number of fics has been added to the list or every two weeks, whatever happens first, unless no fic has been added during that period.

This is a simple masterlist with Percabeth fics in alphabetical order. The tags page has been updated and soon we’ll start posting individual recs with all the relevant information for an organized catalog. A list with links divided by type and other information will be posted soon.

>>>> Updated: January 26th, 2016. Total: 259 fics.

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Spur of the Moment (Cisco x Reader) Imagines - Anonymous Request

Cisco starts to distance himself from you and you have no idea why… 


“Hey, Cisco?”


“Is something on your mind?” You asked.

Walking up to your boyfriend, you leaned against the rooftop railings and stared at him as he gazed out at Central City. And while it was an admittedly beautiful scene, you could tell it was the last thing on his mind.

For a moment, Cisco looked as if he was about to respond; but, for some reason, couldn’t. Shaking his head, he averted his gaze and focused back on the view. “I don’t know…”

I don’t know…? That wasn’t a very Cisco-ish answer.

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I wonder if anyone really thinks about me. The kind of thinking where your thoughts wrecking ball their way through the usual barriers, you’re not really aware of why you’re thinking of that person, or maybe you are, but you don’t have time to care because before you know it they’ve already filled your head. Maybe I’ve crossed someone’s mind. Maybe they reread our texts in hopes of resurrecting our past, just for a moment. Maybe they smelled something like my cologne and couldn’t stop themselves from remembering me the whole day. Could I ever take up that much time and space?
—  Do you ever think about me, like I think about you? // Maxwell Diawuoh, Once A Day (360/366)
EXO (0T9) - Reaction to You Becoming Pale/Sick, Breathing Heavily, and/or Almost Passing Out During an Argument

The tension that filled the room was undeniable. The argument had started over a stupid comment on Minseok’s part that left you feeling hurt. So, you lashed back at him. Now you two had been going at each other for twenty minutes spouting out every little thing that bothered you about each other. Your voices both rose to shouting, the neighbors could probably hear you. Then he said something that he knew would sting. As soon as he saw the color drain out of your face he regretted the whole thing. You felt your whole body go numb as you replayed his words through your head. You suddenly wanted to escape, not wanting him to see your reaction. As you turned around and slowly started to walk away he ran up behind you and hugged you tightly. “I’m so sorry Y/N. I didn’t mean it, I was just upset. It was stupid. Please forgive me.” You could hear the sorrow in his voice as he pleaded into your ear.

“If that is what you want, then maybe we should break up.” You don’t know what happened. You were talking to Junmyeon about your future and how you were uncertain about certain things, which somehow turned into Jun thinking you were uncertain about your relationship with him. The tone in his voice was serious. You were emotionally drained. Looking at his face which had never shown the amount of coldness towards you that it did now, it broke you. You couldn’t summon the words that you wanted to say. “I’ll take your silence as a yes then, I’ll be at the dorm tonight then.” He went to grab a bag from the closet and started throwing his clothing into it. “Please don’t do this!” Tears where streaming down your face. He ignored you until you kept begging for him to listen. But when he looked over and noticed how distraught you were, making yourself hyperventilate, his face softened and he stopped everything. He walked over and you slumped into his arms, your body finally giving up. He wrapped his arms around you, tears falling from his eyes now. “I was acting irrational. Please forgive me. I didn’t want to hurt you.”  

After seeing how exhausted your boyfriend was, all you wanted to do was tie him down to a bed, not in a perverted way, but to force him to sleep. He is too stubborn in his ways and you knew he wouldn’t take care of himself unless pressured to, or until he ended up passing out again. You kept telling him to stop working and get some rest but he kept refusing. Eventually he got snippy, both from annoyance and lack of sleep and stated that, “He didn’t need you to take care of him. He was fine on his own.” Deep down you knew he didn’t mean it but it still bothered you. Your usually sweet and adoring Yixing had turned in to a “stubborn ass.” His expression showed no sympathy nor warmth. You felt like he had turned into a completely different person and it made you sick. He would usually be the one you ran to when you were upset and he would hold you and make everything better, but you felt like you had no one to run to now. He saw the color drain from your face and the pain in your eyes. That seemed to have woken him up and he wanted to take the pain away. He pulled you into his chest and he felt the tension fade from your body as you balled up the material of his shirt in your fists and cried. “I will always need you.” He kissed the top of your head softly, filled with regret.  

You and Baekhyun had been in the middle of dinner at your home when you brought up the fact that one of the girls under SM had taken it upon herself to let you know all about the fun filled night she had with him previously. He had mentioned that they were close friends, but never that they had been “together” in a romantic and intimate way. It had been bothering you all day, the fact that he purposely hid this information from you. Especially since he usually did company promotions with her quite often. “Could you please explain to me why you thought that not telling me the truth was a good idea?” He was visibly annoyed by the sudden interrogation, “I never thought that you would find out, it isn’t like we ever announced it publicly.” You thought that there were no secrets between you both and now you were left wondering what else he could possibly be keeping from you. His phone also started ringing at the time, and who else would it be other than that specific girl. You saw a flash of panic cross over his eyes as he flipped the phone over. Immediately the thought of them being together behind your back filled your mind. “Was it just that one time that I know about?” He frowned and bowed his head, indicating that it wasn’t. You rushed to get out of your seat, almost falling over from the stress this situation was putting you in. He raced over to steady you, tentatively wrapping his arms around your waist. You went to fight it but didn’t have much strength. “Yes, there were a few other times, but it all ended when I met you. I set her straight. She is just a friend now, I swear. The only person I want is you.”

You were worried about what would happen to your relationship while Jongdae was on their world tour. So, you decided to have a serious conversation with him. This conversation led to you and he getting into a heated argument with Dae questioning your trust in him and his in you. As he directed his voice at you in a tone that you had never heard from him you began to feel your stomach feel awful. You thought that you had made some reasonable points, not anything to make him upset or make you both feel distrust in each other. “I, I can’t do this…. Not right now.” You couldn’t control the hectic breathes that began to come from your body. As you slowly backed away you began to stumble, barely catching yourself. You ignored it and continued to shuffle forward until you felt Dae’s familiar arms around you. He turned you to face him and cradled you into his chest as he apologized for how he had taken everything. After seeing you like you were, he knew that you didn’t mean to make him question you, or your intentions with him. “I swear that we will be alright, please calm down Jagi.” Then he softly began singing in your ear, knowing how it always made you feel better.

After Chanyeol casually brought up you meeting each other’s parents it quickly turned into an argument. You said that you didn’t want to meet his yet. He assumed it was because you didn’t feel good about the relationship when it was actually because you thought they might not like you. His voice got louder and louder, so you raised yours to meet his. “Why are we doing this if you don’t have faith in it?!” You couldn’t take the words that you said back and now everything was spiraling out of control. Instead of continuing to scream at each other you rushed to the bathroom and closed the door, not wanting him to see you. He took a few minutes to cool down and then decided to check on you. He found you sitting on the floor, hugging your knees, and hyperventilating. He felt a ball rise in his throat, having been the reason you were sitting there like that. He got on his knees in front of you and placed his hands on your knees. “I’m sorry Jagiya, please calm down.” You looked up at him, since his larger figure was still taller than yours even when kneeling, and the tears began to fall as you wrapped your arms around him. He rubbed your back as you cried into his shirt. “I didn’t mean to pressure you; we can meet everyone when the time comes.”

You had noticed Kyungsoo looking particularly chummy with his female costar on set. The argument started when he mentioned going out with the cast and you responded, “Have fun with your new girlfriend.” He of course didn’t find it funny. “You spend more time with her than you do with me anymore. I feel like you enjoy her company more than mine.” That is when he shot back with a hard blow, “Well maybe I do.” You were immediately hit with a wave of nausea. You didn’t think that he would actually say it. To think of him spending time with her, having more fun with her than he did with you, you couldn’t stand it. You felt weak and started swaying. Noticing how faint you looked, Soo rushed over and took you into his arms, feeling awful about what he had said. “I just wanted to make you jealous. She is a nice girl, but she isn’t my girl, nor do I want her to be. I love you and only you Y/N.”

As far as fights go, you and Jongin have never had any that led to the harsh words and tones towards each other like the one you were in the middle of. A small issue that you had always been bothered by finally became too overwhelming for you to keep quiet any longer. Once you brought it up, an argument was inevitable. However, you didn’t think it would go this far. Your sweet Jongin had never spoken to you like he was now. A few choice words left his mouth which immediately invoked a strong reaction in you. Your face which was red with anger became white like a ghost and you felt like the ground below you was no longer solid. You turned away from him, but when he grabbed your arm out of concern you almost fell into him. His face was filled with concern and his eyes showed the warmth which they usually showed you. He moved you over to the couch with him and pulled you into his lap, holding you in a warm embrace. “Please forgive me Jagiya, I said those words and I shouldn’t have. I didn’t mean them, they were just fueled by anger. I will never do that again.” You closed your eyes and nuzzled into his chest, his presence filling you with comfort.  

You and Sehun were usually known for throwing sarcastic and witty comments back and forth. Normally, you both laughed them off knowing how much you cared about each other. When one of his comments went a little too far you made sure to let him know. He thought it was a justified statement and this led to you both saying some nasty things. You weren’t sure how your feelings towards each other just changed so drastically. It was like your own heart was fighting with you and you had no way to fight the hurt it caused. The stress had become unbearable as your heart rate had risen to an unhealthy state and you felt like the room was spinning. Feeling scared and confused your breathing quickened and your balance faltered. He moved forward to steady you alarm on his face. The alarm then turned into regret and love when you clutched at his shirt still unable to catch your breath. He wrapped his arms around you which made the world feel clearer. He pressed his forehead against yours, “Breathe with me, in and out.” You closed your eyes and matched your breathing with his. When you calmed down he took your face into his hands, “I never wanted to hurt you, let me make this right.” You let him kiss you and pull you closer to him, he tightened his hold, not wanting to let you go.

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It’s Complicated: Part Four

                                      “ITS COMPLICATED”

SUMMARY: Shorter than most, your frame had shown a curve much different than a Natasha Romanoff or Wanda Maximoff, glasses along your ears to match. Hired on as an assistant to the avengers - dealing mostly with the technology side, you werent keen on being surrounded by them. It wasnt until you realized, the moment you met Bucky Barnes - you knew your life was now going to become complicated, falling for a man you knew in your heart could never fall for a girl like you.

Notes: Ugh I just love writing these two. Let me know what you think! there’s some violence in here, cussing, and smut.

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I wonder how many times I’ve crossed your mind in the time we haven’t been speaking. when you’re lying in bed at night trying to get to sleep, do you ever see my face and wish you could place one hand on my cheek and one hand on my waist to pull me closer? at parties do you ever see girls dancing to the deafening music and you have to grip your bottle tighter because you know that I played you this song once, although the volume wasn’t so loud and my head had been resting on your shoulder. I knew it wasn’t your type of music and I knew you probably didn’t like it but what I didn’t know was that it was one of the most played songs on your whole fucking phone because it reminds you of me. when I pass you in the street how much force does it take you to avoid eye contact with me? and how much does your heart and mind race when you quickly look over when you think I won’t notice and lock eyes with me accidentally? in that short time I see everything we didn’t have, everything we could of had if things happened differently. I know you taught me so much. but I wish you could have taught me so much more. for you there have been other girls and for me there have been other guys but in everyone new I look for you and I’m surprised when I never find you and I don’t know why because the person I’m looking for if the same person I had a year ago, the same person I don’t have now.
—  excerpt from a book I’ll never write, 21
A special note ♡ Grayson

Summary: You leave a special note on the last page of your favourite book which Grayson happens to find. He messages you and you decide to meet somewhere to talk about the book. You may or may not fall in love with this boy…

Word count: 2.011


Lately one of the places you were visiting the most was the local library. Ever since you were little you loved reading and since it was summer break you had a lot of time on your hands. This excited your love for books again which resulted in at least reading three books a week.

Most of your afternoons you were spending in your garden: reading and listening to music. It was a nice way to relax and forget about all the problems in the world.

Last week you had finished the most amazing book you had ever read and it was without a doubt one of your favourites. The style of the writer was marvelous and the way he described the places and characters… It hadn’t left your mind since you turned the last page and had put the book down.

For some reason you got this crazy idea to put a note between the last pages of the book for the next reader to find. It said: “Hi, my name is Y/N. I just finished this amazing book and I hope you enjoyed it as well. If you liked it just as much as I did and would like to talk about it, here is my number: (…)

You didn’t know if this was the best way to talk about the book, but you weren’t interested in joining a bookclub so you thought this was the only way. The urge to talk about this wonderful book was so big and since neither of your friends liked reading it that much it wasn’t the weirdest idea, right?


It was November now and a few months had passed by since you had left the short note in the book. To be honest you had totally forgotten about it. After that specific book you had read so many others which were also pretty good.

Besides, since school had began again homework and exams were really time consuming, so there wasn’t really time for reading as much as you used to do.
Today was an ordinary day so far and you were locked in your bedroom; your desk filled with books.

As you were highlighting important things you needed to know for a big test next week, your phone lights up. At first you don’t pay really pay attention, but when a second one pops up and you don’t recognise the number, you couldn’t ignore your curiousness.

Unknown: Hey!
Unknown: I just finished the book in which you left a note :) and I thought why not send a message lol
You: Hi there :) to be honest I completely forgot about it haha… But this is a nice surprise! What did you think of it?

You shove your books to the side and go sit down on your bed, your hands holding your now buzzing phone. After an hour of sending messages back and forth you discover a lot of things about the person you were talking to.

You figure out you were talking to a 17 year old boy called Grayson Dolan. You get to know how he’s doing, what he loved about the book and that he had a twin brother called Ethan.

Suddenly you realise you had a smile from ear to ear on your face. You were starting to form a little crush for this guy and you just met him! But how? You had never seen him or even talked to him in real life. You didn’t even had a clue what he looked like. He could be an old 60 year bald man for all you know!

Grayson: Would you like to grab some coffee some time? I think I have a few books you would really enjoy :)

Your fingers hesitated above your phone screen. How did you know he wasn’t some creepy guy, trying to kidnap a girl or something? But still… For some weird reason you just knew that he wasn’t a creepy guy.

The way he responded to your messages and the way he described things… You couldn’t wrap your head around it, but you just knew. Besides, he wanted to meet you at a café. That was very public, right? What could go wrong?
You: Yeah, sure :) Where would you like to meet?


You had never in your life been so nervous for a date. Was it even a date? Probably not. So why had you dressed yourself up so much? You had at least spend an hour just on your make up this morning for a guy who problaby just saw you as a friend and nothing more. But oh well; Grayson didn’t know that.

With cold and shaky hands you push against door ope  and walk into the small café. It was pretty crowded but the atmosphere made you feel warm and cosy right away. Your eyes scan the tables, but you had no idea what Grayson looked like.

Suddenly you see the prettiest boy in the world wave at you with a small smile, trying to get your attention. You almost triple over your feet as you stumble your way between the people, making your way towards him.

‘Hi… I’m Y/N,’ you say. ‘Hey, Y/N! I’m Grayson.’ Grayson greets you. He looks genuinely very happy to see you. He gets up from his chair and comes standing in front of you. He towers over you and you almost had to lay your head in your neck to look at his beautiful face. And his arms! They were so big you thought he could lift you up using only one hand.

Grayson spontaneously plants a quick kiss on your cheek and you immediately feel your cheeks warm up. ‘Oh, uh,’ you say a bit embarrassed. ‘Oh I’m sorry. I didn’t know if it was appropriate but I just - thought that,’ Grayson stutters, realizing he had made you a bit uncomfortable. You giggle. 'No, it’s fine! Please don’t worry about it.’ Of course it was fine. Speaking of fine: he was fine as hell.

As you two sat down you couldn’t stop staring at his face. It was angelic. He had the sharpest jawline you had ever witnessed and his plump lips turned into a gorgeous smile when you told him you were actually pretty nervous before you came here. His skin was tinted and smooth and you wondered how soft it would feel.

But the thing that you adored most about him was his personality. He was funny and sweet and so nice to talk with: He really listened and never interrupted you, and cracked a joke whenever the timing was right. You already liked him. A lot.

'Can I just say that you have the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen?’ Grayson asks, laying a hand upon yours. You blink your eyes a few times, not really comprehending what he just said. 'I’m sorry, again. I’m really just saying almost everything that is crossing my mind right now. I hope you don’t mind. I just feel so comfortable with you already,’ he adds.

You smile and your heart flutters at his kind words. 'Thank you… That is so sweet. I could say the same to you, though,’ you say to him. Grayson chuckles and strokes a hand through his fluffy hair.


'So, what books did you bring?’ you ask, placing your hands under your chin. Meanwhile you were talking for almost an hour and a half and had drunk two cappuccinos. 'Oh yeah, I almost forgot!’ Grayson leans to the left to grab his bag that was stuffed with books. His arm muscles tense as he lifts up the bag and places it carefully on the table. It was so sexy.

He grabs one out of the bag and your eyes widen at the sight of the book in his hand. It looked so tiny compared to his hand. ‘Okay, so the first one is really, really good. It’s about a couple who live together, but they don’t really love eachother; which is kinda sad if you ask me. Anyway, the woman meets a guy she falls in love with, and then…’

His eyes sparkle when he shows you all the books and hands them over to you so you could flip through the pages and look what was on the covers. When his fingers stroke against your hands you feel a nice tingly feeling go down your spine and your eyes meet his. It’s quiet for a moment and he looks at you a little longer than normal before he continues. What was going on? Did he like you too or were you seeing ghosts?

After it already began to get dark outside and the café started to run empty, you decide that it was maybe smart that you should be heading home. 'Should I drive you home? It’s not really smart to go home on your own when it’s already dark outside,’ Grayson asked. 'No, it’s okay. I just live around the corner. I can walk,’ you respond.

'It’s really not a problem. I’d be happy too,’ he insisted, raising his eyebrows. 'Oh well, why not?’ you chuckled. After Grayson had paid (for you as well, since he also insisted on doing that) you put your jackets on and leave the café. Grayson was wearing a leather jacket which looked so good on him your heart started beating even faster.

It was cold and snowy outside. Grayson puts a hand on your lower back as he leads you to the car since the parking lot was a little slippery from the snow that was melting. You adored that he was so caring. It made him even more attractive.

After he drove you to your house and stopped the car, Grayson gets out and opens the porter for you. ‘Such a gentleman…’ you joke and smile at him. He chuckles while grabbing your hand so you can get out of the car without sliding. Suddenly you stand so close that you almost shared the same air. Your breath was coming out of your mouth in tiny clouds. You shiver; a mixture of pleasantness and coldness spreads itself through your body.

'Are you cold?’ Grayson asks sweetly. 'A little,’ you quietly admit and smile again. 'Well, I guess you should go inside then,’ Grayson whispers, but you don’t move. You can’t move, to be more exact. You feel frozen as you are drowning in his beautfiul brown eyes and completely forget about the world around you.

Grayson takes a step in your direction and grabs you gently by your waist, so your chest touches his. You gasp loudly. Was he going to do what you thought he was going to do? 'I had such a great time today. Thank you.’ Grayson whispers as he gets even more closer. Your cold nose almost touches his chin, but you were too small to reach his face.

Before you could answer Grayson slowly leans in. He closes his eyes and brushes his warm lips against yours. His breath on your lips made you go crazy. Then he gets even more close and puts his lips gently onto yours. You go stand on your tip toes so he could kiss you better.

His lips were heavenly and soft and even better than you could ever imagine. It wasn’t a rough kiss. He didn’t even used his tongue. It was a chaste one. A sweet and passionate one. It only lasted for a few seconds, but you couldn’t be more happy. He pulls back and looks at you so lovingly that your heart skips a beat. Oh, shoot. You were falling in love with this boy.

He entwines his fingers and places his hands on your lower back; it gave you a feeling like your bodies were melting together. 'I-I don´t know what to say,’ you whisper. You were so overwhelmed.

'You don’t have to say anything, Y/N. But I would like you to answer this question: Do you want to meet again sometime? And go on a proper date?’ You close your eyes for a moment and smile. Was this really happening? 'Yes. Definitely.’

What do you wish for when you’re all alone at night?
—  I wonder if I ever cross your mind