and i was like i don't even want to scroll back up to reblog it

anonymous asked:

Ugh last summer I was diagnosed with BPD and in around September I got "miraculously better" (I started dating my fp and she started kinda understand my bpd) but now the signs have idk the word but like getting worse again? and I don't like this at all. Like I was so good and stable for like eight months and now suddenly I'm horrible to everyone especially my gf and I don't know what to do. Last summer was so horrible and I don't want to experience it again. :( Any advice?

absolutely understand. whenever i’m in the “fp honeymoon” stage i feel suddenly and inexplicably cured. bpd who? but then eventually the honeymoon phase wears off and unfortunately the symptoms return.

first thing i’ll say: Coping Skills Coping Skills Coping Skills. if you send me another ask with any specific symptoms that have gotten worse i can help in a way more tailored to you, but here’s the way i manage things:

+keep yourself busy as much as physically possible. one of the absolute worst things for people with bpd is to have an idle mind. find something you enjoy doing, a new hobby, or just go for walks and check out the scenery. netflix. bake. anything.

+keep yourself around people when possible. it tends to feel worse when you’re alone and left to your thoughts. and the fear of abandonment feels worse without anyone around.

+i have a chart of what to do if you’re splitting on your fp if that’s a major problem for you, and i can reblog it so it’s at the forefront of my blog for you. if you split a lot, i’d say to always if you’re even slightly in a poor mindset, take ten seconds before you send anything. when i’m splitting or even just upset in general, i send things impulsively without thinking how the other person will react, and immediately regret it but can’t take it back.

+on the same note, if you’re splitting, or if you’re getting anxious because you don’t have any texts, put your phone down. there are
apps (i can post some examples if you’d like), that earn you points if you don’t use your phone. in one app, the longer you go without using it and the more points you rack up, you can donate money to charity based on it. so not only are you not focusing on your phone, but you’re doing something good for others.

+mindfulness is HUGE when it comes to managing bpd. mindfulness and fact checking. when you’re feeling particularly anxious or disconnected or your mind just keeps racing, use the 5 senses technique. focus on your surroundings. list 5 things you can see, 4 things you can touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell, and 1 thing you can taste. you can mix up the order, but that’s how i do it.

+additionally with mindfulness, a major part is not to judge your thoughts. be present, stay in the moment. if you’re upset because you feel like you’re getting worse and you start spiraling because you’re afraid of the way you used to be, take a breath. picture the thought like it’s going across one of those moving billboard things where the words scroll past you. or imagine they’re bubbles and you can let the thoughts come, and then breathe them out and let them float away.

+now on the fact checking note: whether you’re anxious or splitting or depressed or anything else, always check the facts. bpd tends to make us distort the severity of things, and what potential outcomes they may have. if you’re thinking “everyone hates me and my girlfriend doesn’t love me,” think logically. put absolutely no emotion into it, just fact. “my friends have said they enjoy talking to me.” “my girlfriend said she loves me.” “my friends laughed at my joke.” just little things that prove contrary to what you’re feeling.

i have a lot more if you need darling, i’ve been in dbt for over a year now and have plenty of coping skills. if you need more, let me know, but i already think this is longer than you wanted. overall though, remember: bpd is a struggle, and you can still power through it.

Robron fandom ramble

I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed with the Robron / Emmerdale fandom lately. It’s like I’m actually overwhelmed by how many talented people we have in this fandom (not necessarily in a bad way - it’s a good problem to have, really) - it’s like nothing I’ve ever really seen before.

My previous fandom was a lot smaller, and while there were many great people within it once upon a time, there weren’t many “voices”. There were probably only a handful of people who actually spoke about stuff (myself included), and everyone who did speak had pretty specific styles and voices and each of us seemed to have a role, which balanced things out. There was something for everyone, really, and the fact that there were so few of us who actually had things to say made it all so manageable, if that makes sense.

With this fandom it’s different. There are SO MANY people here, and so many who are just…..amazing. I don’t feel like there are any “big names”, or fandom “celebs” - I feel like there are too many amazingly talented people for those kinds of labels.

There are the people that make insane gifs and edits and artwork, there are the people that write beautiful fanfic and headcanons and meta and some wonderful freaks of nature who can do all of those things. There are those that theorise and can look back over episodes with such care and attention, there are those that speculate and are positive and level-headed and those who, even when having a total fangirl moment writing all in capital letters freaking the fuck out, can still write so wonderfully, can put a point across so beautifully, without even trying.

Whether it’s just a small text post with just one little paragraph (or even one sentence!) or a huge essay about Aaron or Robert or their relationship or the show in general, the level of talent displayed in this fandom literally blows my fucking mind.

It is a privilege to be a part of, but at the same time it makes me question my place here, it makes me feel like a drop in the ocean, it makes me a little insecure, because in my old fandom I was one of a few, my voice was loud because nobody was really shouting with me, but now I don’t really have a role, there are people far more talented than me, and sometimes I think of something to say but I see someone has said the same thing, albeit in a much briefer, purer, simpler yet wonderful way, or someone has said it with far more depth and beauty than I feel I could ever convey, and it makes me feel a little insignificant, which is hard when coming from a fandom where, for some time, I was considered quite significant.

And I know these are my own insecurities, my own paranoia, and it’s not a competition, and nobody has ever done anything to make me feel this way; if anything, people have been nothing but lovely, kind and encouraging towards me, people have been supportive or things I have written (actually, I have also been totally overwhelmed by how well-received some things I have written have been), and I feel like I’ve made some pretty great fandom-pals here, on all kinds of levels; I adore that one minute someone can be having a silly little “war” over a ship name, and the next they can be writing something serious and beautifully poetic, that we can all go from daft and fun and fangirly one minute to serious and mature essay-writers the next.

It’s amazing. I adore how versatile everyone is. I love how talented everyone is. Sometimes I can only sit back in awe, scroll through my dash and reblog the living crap out of all of these epic posts, whether they’re a funny little text/gif post or a mammoth essay about where a storyline is going, or a beautifully put together gif-set or an amazing piece of art.

Sometimes it actually BLOWS MY MIND. And as I said before, it’s like nothing I’ve ever experienced in any fandom I have ever been in.

I was on the fringes of the Robron/Emmerdale fandom from the very start, as I’ve been on tumblr since 2010 (I DON’T KNOW HOW EITHER) and would search #Emmerdale now and then to see if there was anything (answer: there was always literally nothing until Robron was born). It took a while for me to properly throw myself into the fandom myself and use my own voice; for so long I was just a reblogger, who contributed nothing of my own (and there is nothing wrong with that, fans/fandom members like that are just as valid) - I’m someone who has never liked to spread myself too thin and at the time I was clinging to my old fandom and still trying to make an effort within that, even though it was dying and I wasn’t particularly happy there, but I’m loyal to a fault and it took me a while to let go.

And honestly, falling deeply into this fandom, just becoming brave enough to use my voice and say what I wanted to say about characters and a show I have loved for more than a decade, was the best thing I have done in recent years. At first I felt out of place; all the fans seemed really new (which I thought was amazing but also a little intimidating) and I was genuinely insecure that people wouldn’t like me because I’d been around the show long before Robron (in hindsight I could see that was totally stupid of me to think that, but paranoia/insecurity is a fun thing lmao) but I was amazed at how quickly people welcomed me and even reached out to me and made an effort with me - and how there were plenty of older fans, just like me, too.

And it’s been quite some time now since I’ve been in deep, and I feel like I know so many of you even though not all of us have spoken about too much outside of our amazing show and ship.

What I’m trying to say is, you’re all fucking amazing, and I appreciate every one of you. Whether you’ve been watching the show for 48248 years or 3 months, you’re fucking awesome.

I get overwhelmed because I want to follow everyone, but I’ve always been scared of following too many people and then missing stuff because my dash is too busy. I’ve been on tumblr almost 7 years and I still only follow 394 people (and tbh, I reckon at least a hundred of those are since the Robron fandom was born) - and yet every day it seems like a new name pops up, having written something amazing, and I’m like “where did you spring from?!”, and I have to give them a follow, and it’s like…..WOW.

I could tag a whole bunch of people who I find ridiculously amazingly talented but I’d be here all fucking day, and I couldn’t possibly list everyone, and then I’d feel bad for everyone who I’d missed so….I won’t.

So as arse-kissy as this post might sound, I just want to say a giant THANK YOU to everyone who contributes to this fandom, on any scale, in any capacity….thank you. And thank you to those that follow me too; it makes me feel genuinely proud and I know it’s something I really need to hang on to when I’m feeling down on myself. All your kind words mean more to me than I could ever properly express and I need to hold onto that forever because sometimes I really, really need it.

So…..there were are. Keep doing what you’re all doing. Know that even if I give your post a reblog without saying anything too profound in response, whether in a reply or a message or even a tag (writing stuff in tags on reblogs to someone’s post is so important!!), just know it’s because I’m probably just feeling overwhelmed by how fucking awesome I think you are.

I have no idea where this has come from really, apart from this is just how I’ve been feeling lately, but in a nutshell….I love you. I love all of you. Even if I haven’t agreed with everything you’ve said, I still probably love you. I respect all of you. I’m overwhelmed and intimidated by all of your talents. Thank you for being amazing. KEEP DOING WHAT YOU’RE DOING. Keep this fandom the best fucking fandom I’ve ever been in. Keep spreading the love and the positivity and the excitement, because by god, the next month or so of life in this fandom is going to be WILD and I’m so happy to be here going on this ride with you.

As always with my long posts; if you get to the end, thank you. This only makes me love you all the more.

PEACE AND LOVE

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anonymous asked:

do you know how you're gonna avoid ndrv3 spoilers until it comes out in English?? because I really would love to play the game w/o knowing all the murders and stuff but on this site idk how to avoid spoilers and I'm following a lot of dr blogs I don't want to just unfollow mutuals ygm???? what should I do????

Yes hello there anon, sorry for only responding now, I was pretty tired last night after streaming! Anyway, I’ll just list pretty much everything that I have planned and hope that it’ll help you out:

On tumblr:

1. Of course, blacklist the heck out of “ndrv3 spoilers” and other v3 name variants like “drv3 spoilers”, etc. If you wanna be extra careful and don’t mind not seeing the characters for a while blacklist the whole ndrv3 tag overall.

2. Close submissions. People can just send you an ask if they want to show you something.

3. Turn off anonymous. I personally won’t do this, but more about that in the next point.

4. Really silly sounding, but if possible, get someone who understands what spoilers are/or is into Danganronpa themselves and doesn’t mind spoilers and let them check your ask box. It has to be someone you trust of course, I trust my best friend with everything so she will check my ask box for me to prevent spoilers. I’ll leave anon on for the shy ones.

5. Check your favorite blogs and mutuals to see if they have written about spoilers in their description or in a link on their blog. “I will tag spoilers” “I won’t tag spoilers” is a common phrase I see for bigger blogs to give you a warning beforehand. If they don’t say anything about spoilers on their blog check their past entries to see if they actually tag things (including spoilers).

6. Yeah, you’ll probably have to unfollow them if they don’t tag spoilers and refuse to do so for whatever reason (which is completely ok). Just write those blogs down and go follow again after you’ve played through NDRV3 yourself.

7. I personally will go on Hiatus on the release date of the English localisation because I am sure my dash will blow up that day. I will play the game myself, then come back onto my blog. I’ll announce this beforehand.

8. No more tumblr mobile.

9. A lot of mutuals will probably also wait for the English release, so you’ll prolly be on the same boat, you might wanna talk to them about it. Chances are they will not even reblog any spoilers.

10. Make tumblr chat available for blogs you follow only.

11. Add “No spoilers about NDRV3 please” in your description and/or ask box. Yes, there might be jerks who want to ruin your experience through ask box, but with the precautions I’m taking I’m just gonna let my friend block them without me even seeing those spoilers. Too bad for them.

Outside of tumblr:

1. Youtube. New Youtube account. No clicking or watching Danganronpa videos. You might get recommendations about NDRV3 that way, including spoilery thumbnails and/or spoilery titles.

2. Discord/Skype. No more group chats where people you don’t know properly yet are. I will leave all Discord groups that are DR-based aside from my streaming group because I completely trust them.

3. AO3. No searching through Danganronpa - All Media Types (or the NDRV3 of course) fanfics. Check just game/other specifics like Danganronpa Trigger Happy Havoc nd stuff. Possibly block NDRV3 fanfics too in case someone decided to put the ndrv3 cast and previous casts together.

4. For all of those who go to Cons with a cosplay: It probably won’t be a good idea to cosplay a NDRV3 character before you have played the game. I don’t wanna limit you on this, but it is possible that someone would accidentally slip a few spoilery words out towards you without even meaning it.

5. Streaming-sites. Including art streaming site Picarto. You prolly won’t want to join if you don’t know the streamer properly and see that they’re making DR art or is streaming DR content.

6. As a streamer yourself. I personally will start private streaming and giving the links to people I know frequent my streams/people whom I trust only. This option on Picarto is only available with a Premium account.

7. Google. You know google is the big source for all those sweet, sweet Danganronpa spoilers. Heard of Danganronpa for the first time and you’re googling the pics? Well, too bad, scroll just a tiny bit down and you’ve been spoiled. You probably don’t want to google Danganronpa after it’s been a while since the release.

8. This should be a given: Danganronpa Wikia. It’s a spoiler landmine, don’t go on there. Even if you just want to add a picture for a previous game’s character, the most recent pictures added to the Wiki will show up and they are most likely going to be things such as executions and other spoilers.

9. Ask people (tumblr or outside, whatever) when the English NDRV3 will be instead of trying to search it yourself (unless you get like a heads up on your dashboard or something).

BONUS:
Download MP3 (music only) or MP4 (video) files of YouTube videos if you:
-Want to still listen to DR OST and your only source has been YouTube up to now. Go download your favorite tracks in MP3 format to listen to them privately so you do not have to try and wiggle your way around through YouTube only to see a spoiler.
-Want to still watch some videos. Perhaps you want to download the NDRV3 trailers and maybe the opening too (which I suspect will come out before the game just like the DR2 opening if I’m not mistaken), or other DR videos. Download them in MP4 format instead of going on a risky adventure on the DR side of YouTube.

My thoughts on when NDRV3 might come out:
This is just my pure speculation and nothing official of course, but I thought I’d voice my expectations for the waiting time on here:

DR1 JP first release (PSP): 25th of November 2010
DR1 NA first release (Vita): 11th of February 2014
-> a 3 year and 78 days gap

SDR2 JP first release (PSP): 26th of July 2012
SDR2 NA first release (Vita): 2nd September 2014
-> a 2 year and 99 days gap

DR:AE JP first release (Vita): 25th of September 2014
DR:AE NA first release (Vita): 1st September 2014
-> a 11 months and 7 days gap

EU and AUS release are usually just a few days after NA release.
I personally suspect that it will take less than a year, just like DR:AE. I heard DR:AE didn’t do so well in NA, apparently? I cannot say this for sure, but I’m hoping that that doesn’t scare them off since NDRV3 is a main series title after all. I am hoping it will take 8 months, but do not take my word for that. This is gonna be a tedious wait.

I hope this helps at least a little bit.

anonymous asked:

Ten minute prompt: Rose and Ten go to a parallel universe where DW is a tv show, they read fanfiction about them

This basically developed into a one-shot instead of a ten minute prompt… Hope you enjoy!

“This can’t be right,” the Doctor said, his voice muffled from the screwdriver that was currently being held between his teeth.

One of his hands was toying with something on the top of the console and the other was furiously typing on a keyboard of some sort while he stared at a monitor.

Rose frowned and stepped up behind him to stare at the screen. The writing was in some sort of circular language that she’d seen before but couldn’t read so she just licked her lips in concern. “What’s wrong?”

He ran a hand through his hair and spoke again, this time causing the screwdriver to clatter to the grating, but he didn’t even seem to notice. “She’s saying we’re in a parallel universe. But that’s not remotely possible.”

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*Please refer to THIS POST that can show you how to find these now deleted tweets. Thank you. 

White, stomping with ~~~misandry, your litas and Tina Fey gifs while simultaneously ignoring women of color and their feelings but having plenty of time to talk about winged eyeliner and discussing which white basic actor is your new “bae”, feminists keep messaging me saying I’m sexist for the piggy part of my url and I laughed and scrolled but then scrolled back cause I remembered I had a lil somethin somethin that might be relevant.

The title of this blog refers to these tweets (not fatshaming a thin woman) that were the cause of me unfollowing her (how did you think I found all these in the first place, duh). If this isn’t acting like a misogynistic pig I don’t know what is. Let’s be real, azaleans (is that a type of enemy alien race?) do anything to excuse her behavior cause she’s a white woman doing black music with a body and mannerisms typically associated with black women. She’s pear shaped with a “fat” ass. Black girls with literally the same measurements are called ghetto and shamed for their curves. She raps like a non archival photo copied T.I., southern twang and all, but since she’s actually Australian and white her stans are okay with it cause once the mic drops she has an ~exotic accent~ and ~cute voice.~ Her use of misogynistic slurs to put down other women and build up herself are in your twitter bio cause it’s so swaggy hunty gurl spill that fancy tea!!! But when Beyonce, Lil Kim, Nicki Minaj, Trina, or any black female artist (who im not saying are without flaws) talks about “slaying hos” and how bitches should bow down, it’s suddenly a problem that requires full length articles in actual publications and countless tumblr posts. Like Miley Cyrus, she’s used black women as props and until recently had exclusively black dancers who twerked the fuck out on a hand stand, doin that thang while she stood there and occasionally gave a D- booty shake that the crowd still went off for more than the actual pros popping their pussies off the damn ceiling and filling me with the holy spirit. Do us all a favor and accept you’re excusing her being a careless racist because of her appearance. You can still wanna lick her pussy, bop to her white girl anthems or have your body tied to a carriage and dragged by Brad Pitt like Eric Bana in Troy just to reach that ass. But be real and quit denying that what she’s said is okay by anything but Donald Sterling’s standards. As Paul Mooney once said, “Everybody wants to be a nigga, but nobody wants to be a nigga.” She’s a low quality xerox of black female rappers and white America couldn’t wait so they didn’t have to bop to actual hip hop anymore from the people who created it.

And for the 956 messages calling me a hater, a hater is someone who reads with no resume and critiques with no credentials. I have more degrees than a thermometer. I don’t know what bullet-less gun y'all were holding when you thought you had a shot at rationalizing these “jokes” when they’re not hot, not even lukewarm. Now run and tell that.

and have a lovely evening! xxx

 

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*feel free to reblog this without the text, i don’t want my opinion to dominate the conversation regardless of whether I feel I’m right (I am 💅) or not. 

This article dealio has been in the works for a while and I figured I might as well publish it. Underneath the cut I discuss how I run my blog. These tips/tricks/hints can be applied to just about any blog that’s starting out, from a vintage blog to a nature one. Obviously it’s not end all be all guide about how to do it, but it’s how I approach running my blog.

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fic: Appearances Can Be Deceiving

Eren finds Levi’s tumblr and is more than a little confused by contrast between the man he knows in real life and his online persona.

Based off of this tumblr post

me irl: speaks in a fairly monotone voice, doesnt smile a lot, literally gets told i seem dead inside

me online: uses double exclamations points!!  says things like omg and aah and oooooooooooooh a lot.  screams at cute pictures of cats

[also on AO3] words: 3.5Kish rating:T+


Eren may or may not have a huge crush on his maths tutor.

Yep, that’s right, the twenty-two year old, five-foot-three, perpetually impassive man who somehow made trigonometric calculus sexy. The teenager spent most of his time wondering why on earth each tutoring session couldn’t turn out at least a little bit more like a porno. Instead he simply had to sit there and attempt to pay attention to the explanations the guy was giving rather than the entrancing way his mouth moved.

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anonymous asked:

You know, I'm not a K-Pop fan anymore cause it's hard to follow. I don't have enough time for that, but I always go to your blog when I got time because it's so interesting to read opinions of others. I really love how organized you are with this blog. You guys deserve a pat in the back for that. Reward yourselves, that's my request.

;-; I’m not crying, not at all! Thank you so much!

Yeah, honestly there’s so much in K-pop that I really can’t keep up either (heck, I can’t even keep up with current world events). Even just by scrolling through the box I find out about comebacks or debuts or controversies!

I’m glad the organization is helping ya! Sometimes, I feel like the “tight” organization of this blog can be too much for people who just want to read some darn K-pop opinions, but I’m glad it’s working out for you! 

As long as people continue to discuss through comments/replies/reblogs, I’m perfectly content with no physical rewards! (Well.. maybe not completely.) Reading opinions in itself is fun, but it’s always funner to see what others have to say and see the chain begin. Have a lovely day!! I hope you find something cool on Pokémon Go or whatnot!!!

Across Space and Time

So here’s my valentine’s present for soul-cool!​ Hope you like it and have a wonderful Valentine’s Day! :D

On FF.net too.

Thank yous at the end because boy is that list long. :)

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December 15th, 7:30 am

“Soul! What do you think you’re doing? Get up at once!You’re going to be late for school!” the boy’s mother shrieked.

“It’s only five in the morning, I have loads of time…” Soul drawled blearily, the words slipping out as easily as his drool.

“Wipe that drool off your chin! Can’t you sleep like a respectable boy? And it’s seven in the morning! School starts in half an hour!” she screeched furiously, unceremoniously yanking the blankets off Soul, causing the white-haired boy to tumble onto the floor, a rough landing from a bed as high up as his.

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