Part 22 - He
He was the first man who bought me flowers.
He was the first man who celebrate my birthday with me.
He was the first man who look at me while I fall asleep.
He got off from the car when Its drizzling outside just to get me a rose from the florist on our first valentine’s day.
He visited me in the hospital late night, in one of my darkest hour of my life.
He never check his phone when he talks to me, even when he does he would said sorry and give him a minute.
He called every night just to check if I’m okay and how’s my day.
He wouldn’t mind me talking for hours while all he does was just listen.
He would always say the cakes and cookies I bake was nice, showering me in compliments no matter how I baked it.
He encourages me to do more in life.
He take pictures of me by the beach.
He hold my hand while he drives, look at me and smiled when the lights turned red.
He rubs my back until I fall asleep soundly else he wouldn’t stop.
He wouldn’t let me do the same to him because he knows I’m tired.
He would ask how’s my parents doing recently.
He would buy stuffs for them and pretends its me who bought it for them.
He would asked what did my mum cooked for dinner tonight
He would asked if I slept well last night
He would asked if I had any dreams last night
He would listen to me and praises my photographic memory that i could recall literally everything that i sees.
He would impress me by taking me to dine-in at fancy restaurants
He would buy food not just for me but the people around me
He would send me food during lunch break, making all my colleagues jealous of me.
He bought 60 nuggets for my colleagues the next day I told him my colleagues was envy of me
He would listen to my rants in work or study and laughed at it.
He would take me to places I’ve never been to.
He would force me to put on sunblock when we head to the beach and I would recklessly disobey him
He would spend his weekends with me
He would hug me tightly, with his hands running across my hair, as he smells it and says “I miss you”
He wouldn’t mind just watching Law & Order with me before sleep
He pre-ordered Adele’s 25 album the day it released, because he knows how much I love Adele.
He takes the time and understand the genres of music I listen to.
He always get excited to spend time with me over the weekend after I say yes we could go to the hotel to spend the night.
He would hug me from behind and smell me while he slowly fall asleep
He will wake me up in the middle of the night to make love
He would hit my each and every spot so right like nobody else could replicate.
He will always try his best to satisfy me on bed
He never gets tired of kissing me.
He loves me.
you never really knew how to cherish it. Until its a lost cause.
when you bid farewell at the crossroad, don’t look back. Because he might not look back like you did, and all you could was just looking at him, leaving.
Just like a balloon. once you let go, it floats away.
What’s left of us was just memories. Memories that lingers around. Two years back, in a sea full of people, I found you. But today, I’m on my own again somehow, it seems like I went back to where it was.
When I looked back,
I didn’t have the courage to call your name
I didn’t know how to initiate a conversation.
All I could do is stand there at the back, watching you paddling off shores and these waves of emotion hits me so hard. The images of us, breaks me into pieces.
Last night I was driving around town, thinking deep in my thoughts.
I called your phone.
He : Hello? Hello?
I didn’t utter a word nor dare to breath through the phone, all I heard was that familiar voice of yours,deep inside I was screaming, I was hoping you would call out my name.
He hanged up the phone.
All I could do is just stare at the lake and laughed at myself. Why?
I wish one day, I can get the chance to see the same piece of balloon, even if its not in my hands anymore, I would look at you with my red watery eyes and smile at you.
I love you.
I love you the most.