and i wanted people to cry with

smh at all of you saying Ragnarok’s ooc. um, here’s a little secret some of y’all might not know, but, here it is. now, bare with me on this, it might be shocking to y’all, it’s called C H A R A C T E R  D E V E L O P M E N T 

i don’t think it’s fair for people (non-artists especially) to point out an artist and say “wow i hate their art they suck they haven’t progressed in years, the way they draw _____ is pathetic”. yes, it’s okay for you to not like an art style but don’t put someone down for their progress. development in art is something that doesn’t move upwards consistently in a smooth path, it’s different for everyone and it’s not fair to compare and judge. even the most popular artists can get stuck drawing the same thing for a long time and i think that’s okay? some people get really comfortable with the way they draw a certain thing and may choose to stick with that for a long time because it looks right to them, they’re fearful of trying a new thing and the new thing looks like trash in their eyes so it might take them a while to get comfortable with exploring. everyone is different and develops in their own way, art is frustrating and really hard and no one is harder on the artist than themselves. 

people should stop being rude to antis bc i remember this story where an anti saw a little boy crying on the sidewalk and the anti stopped in front of the boy, reached out for him and told the boy to stay strong and never stop chasing his dreams. the little boy decided that he wanted to be exactly like the anti and that little boy was donald trump

Pills

Like last week, @bptowel and I decided to write stories a prompt and this time it was with the prompt word “pigeon”.

Usually she kills everyone cause she is a sadistic bitch that likes to make me cry and I write fluff cause I’m weak and can’t handle the stress of any negative emotion 

So our challenge was: she has to write a happy story, and I have to write a dark and sad story.

(Also I wasn’t feeling well yesterday so that’s why it’s only here today)


He would have been beautiful, would he have been awake. His eyes were closed. It was better this way, she couldn’t stand the thought of seeing them open. Their emptiness would only remind her that he was gone. Today, in this church, was the last time she would see her son.

It happened 10 days ago. Ten days ago, her son stopped breathing and so did she. She remembered entering the house, starting to tell the story of a dumb pigeon she saw that day. She remembered the silence she was so greeted with instead of his usual sweet response. She can still feel the panic when he didn’t answer and she called his name over and over. Her chest being heavier as she went to his room. The second of fear while opening the door. Even more fear when he wasn’t there. She remembered going everywhere in the house panicking and screaming his name. Entering the bathroom and screaming. The pills next to his unconscious body. The sound of her phone while she tried to type 911 is still crystal clear. She cried and prayed, hoping her reason to live was gone just for a moment and not forever.

A lot of people came to her. She didn’t see their faces, her eyes staring at the coffin. How did this happen? 

It was all her fault, no one could convince her otherwise. She was the one that didn’t notice that her son was struggling to stay a life. When he tried to talk about it, she brushed it away like it was nothing. That nothing costed him his life.  

She would never forgive herself.

anonymous asked:

Fandom has every right to “cry”. How would you like it if something you enjoyed (attack on Titan) got cancelled for a long time, if not for good, because of someone doing something terrible?

It’s not just “someone.” It’s the author. THE CREATOR HIMSELF WHO DID SOMETHING DESPICABLE.

And listen to me. I love SnK. I’ve followed this series hard for YEARS now.

And if the author was caUGHT with child pornography AND ADMITTED HE WAS A FUCKING PEDOPHILE WHO WAS ATTRACTED TO LITTLE GIRLS LIKE THE AUTHOR OF RK DID, I WOULD WANT SNK CANCELLED FOREVER. I WOULDN’T WANT TO CONTINUE TO SUPPORT IT, AND I’D DELETE THIS BLOG BECAUSE I WOULDN’T WANT TO PROVIDE A PLATFORM THAT MIGHT ONLY GARNER MORE SUPPORT FOR THE FRANCHISE.

But hey, we’re not talking about SnK with this. We’re talking about RK. And just so you know, because you probably don’t recognize me since you sent me this message, I’m not some rando who exists completely separate from RK. I was heavily involved in the RK fandom in the early 2000s. It was a well-loved fandom of mine. I own the manga, and the anime. All of it. Everything. I’m not a casual fan “read it one time maybe.” I’m a “read it many times over, wrote a lot of fanfiction, was a prominent member of a pretty big RK forum" kind of a fan. Hell, me getting into RK way back when and dragging a mere online acquaintance along with me cemented a super close friendship with them that ended with us getting married this year. I was also heavily involved in the RK Resurrection 2k14 here on Tumblr.

I have loved RK well. 

So listen to me when I say that what’s irritating me is the few people from the RK fandom who are crying about how the series is over now. Really? You’re choosing to be upset about that? 

How can you want more content from a creator who lusts after little girls? Who spent money that we gave him by supporting Rurouni Kenshin on exploiting children for financial gain???? Do you want him to produce more material? Would you read it? Buy it? Support him as an author?

It’s okay to be sad and disappointed that it ended so suddenly when you were looking forward to it. It’s a huge letdown to get excited about something, especially something that is nostalgic to you, coming back, only to see if bellyflop for one reason or another. I get that. (When they cancelled the Rose of Versailles movie I was really down, and I never did get my official English release of the manga they promised for 2016.) 

And hey–I’m upset about RK! It meant a lot to me for a long time and still does, even after all of this.

But I don’t care about the series getting cancelled. 

I’m upset that a creator whose works I enjoyed and promoted through fanfiction and meta ended up being outed as a fuckin pedophile. After I gave the ships he supported directly and indirectly the benefit of the doubt for a large chunk of my teenage and adult life. Now I have to suspect ulterior motives in his choosing those specific ages for these characters. Now I have to feel gross about the meta and ships I have liked since I myself was a teenager.

The dude admitted he was attracted to children, okay? He admitted it. He had tapes. He regrets getting caught and outed, and maybe he regrets that his series is getting cancelled on him, but he doesn’t seem to regret the atrocities he’s actually committed. He knew what he was doing the whole goddamn time. He knew it was wrong. I can’t give ONE SHIT about the new stuff being cancelled. I’m too busy feeling betrayed that a big part of my teen years, a series I stuffed my heart into, characters I related to…were created by an evil man who might have had ulterior motives with every single line he drew. 

I think a lot of the fandom feels that way.

And that anger, outrage, and upset should all be directed at the creator, not at the series itself going away. Fuck the series. Fuck it. Death of the Author to extremes never even heard of before if you want to stay in the fandom. It’s your city now. They’re your characters. He doesn’t deserve them.

Why would you want him to put his hands on these characters ever again? Why would this series continuing matter more to you than the real life little girls being exploited in the tapes he had in his possession, that he got off to thinking about and watching?  I think it’s fucking evil that people want to sugarcoat this, make it less bad than it is. It makes me sick that this news breaking has elicited a, “Wow it sure is sad that RK is getting cancelled!” response from some members of the fandom.

What the fuck is wrong with you people? I’m pissed that so many of the headlines read that way and don’t say right in the headline that the creator was arrested for possession of child pornography. Instead they say he was charged with a crime–like he might have been charged for a piddly little misdemeanor!! NO!! HE HAD PORN OF CHILDREN IN HIS POSSESSION. It’s disgusting. He took money that he got from the sale of RK and used it to buy pornography of little children that he watched and got off to. And some of y’all’re upset that the series might be cancelled? IT SHOULD BE. You shouldn’t WANT it to continue, not with THAT MAN AT THE HELM. Continuing the series means supporting him, a man who has already used his earnings from RK to buy this shit. To support this industry.

You honestly and truly have to be able to look at this situation and think about what you’re feeling but direct it properly. You can feel sad and disappointed; those are perfectly valid emotions. But it’s not okay to make this a big sad party about how awful it is that new content is being cancelled. It’s not about that. THAT ISN’T THE PART OF THIS NEWS THAT IS AWFUL. And if it is for you, if that’s your primary reason for being upset about this–that your weeb shit is being cancelled–then you need to have a real good think about why you’re sadder about not getting more content than you are about the fact that the man producing that content is a pedophile who is willing to take advantage of and exploit children by supporting the child porn industry. Like man, I’m sorry that fun is being cancelled but when the person offering you that fun is a pedophile I’d rather not have it anyway. Why don’t you feel that way?

Again…it’s okay to be sad. I think all of us are. But we’re not sad that the series is being cancelled. We’re sad that it’s difficult for us to even look at this beloved old series, one that many of us watched as teens and participated in early fandom for, without feeling gross and weird. And we’re mad that the creator did this. He could have been a decent person and chose not to be.

I spent well over a decade loving this series, writing meta for it, fanfiction, drawing fanart. I shipped the “canon” ships and gave the author the benefit of the doubt. I recommended the series to friends. One of my high school friends met her husband through the RK forum I spent hours every day on in the early 2000s. My two high school friends and I went by RK nicknames for a long time and used them to pass notes because anyone who found them in the trash wouldn’t know who was writing to whom.

I’ve been sitting here for the last hour thinking about people I know because of RK. Hell, @kippielovesyou followed some of my old ‘fic back then! And there was that one guy I knew who got the huge Kenshin tattoo on his arm. I still remember his username. How does he feel about that tattoo now? RK was such a big part of his life at the time he got a goddamn tattoo of it.  We were just blissfully living our lives enjoying RK. And in 2014 during the Tumblr revival rewatch a bunch of us did, we enjoyed it again. We couldn’t have known.

But finding out still has a way of making me feel fuckin’ gross. I know I’m not the only one.

But boy am I glad this man was outed. I want this shit in the light and I want to see people like this purged. I want their lives ruined. I want this man to lose RK in whatever capacity it can be managed. He doesn’t deserve it anymore. 

As far as I’m concerned, it belongs to the people who actually cared about it, now. And we don’t need weekly or monthly updates for that.

“These big Texas interns kept saying, “Mrs. Kennedy, you come with us”, they wanted to take me away from him… But I said “I’m not leaving"… Dave Powers came running to me at the hospital, crying when he saw me, my legs, my hands were covered with his brains… When Dave saw this he burst out weeping… I said “I’m not going to leave him, I’m not going to leave him"… I was standing outside in this narrow corridor… ten minutes later this big policeman brought me a chair.
I said, “I want to be in there when he dies"… so Burkeley forced his way into the operating room and said, “It’s her prerogative, it’s her prerogative…” and I got in, there were about forty people there. Dr. Perry wanted to get me out. But I said “It’s my husband, his blood, his brains are all over me.”

— Jackie Kennedy recalls November 22, 1963 in the “Camelot” interview with Theodore H. White for Life Magazine, November 29, 1963.

The world’s just such a shit place now and it makes me want to cry. I don’t like seeing terror attacks and mass deaths on the news every month, or hear about a new law that’s endangering people or the world, or one being taken away that’s helped thousands of millions of people and/or animals. The world just seems like such a negative place right now and I can barely find a good part without it being threatened or dangerous or soon to not exist. I don’t even want to know what it could be like in the future too.

I know it’s a stupid thing to say but I really just wish the world was a good place for everyone, but that’s never going to happen and every day everything just seems to get worse.

Sooo many people likeing my art its unbelievable

I have got about over 100 likes on my new art its just

Id like to thank everyone for being a good friend to me and likeing my art ever since ive started on tumblr and it brings so much joy to my eyes and ive improved alot since i started on tumblr and id like to thank you all for helping me struggle though everything ive been though and dont ever say you art is rubbish

NOPE NOPE i DONT WANT ANY OF YOU SAYING YOUR ART IS BAD THANK YOU!!

because you will improve and take a good old look of how much ive improved and ive never been happy with my art but for the first time ever ive found my happiness
And i love my art as it is and you should to be proud of your art to and one day you will thank me for it because to me you are all beyond amazing

And we can be best friends and fly agmongts the stars and see what jupiter is like and all the planets weve never experienced before

Because to me you are all my best friends and i dont just love your art
I love the happiness that is growing inside you and make your light shine
Because you are beutiful my friend and dont be ashamed of yourself be proud of yourself

And you have all have helped me get trough the darkest of times Keep going mah friends
Bcus your a natural
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AHHHHH!!! 200 followers!? WHHHATTT!?!?! YOU ARE ALL AMAZING!

I want to thank you all for liking my art, ‘One Last Night’ and following this lame blog of mine. I have no words. Thank you everyone.  

I am so sorry that I haven’t responded to anyone’s comments individually, er, I actually don’t know how to respond to all of yours reblogs/comments/tags on tumblr without reblogging people’s responses… O_O’’  Yes, I don’t know how to use tumblr lol BUT I do read all of your lovely comments and then grin like a fool while staring at my phone for hours. 

Thank you so much everyone, for supporting ‘One Last Night’ and being so kind to me <3

Song tag 🌹

I was tagged by: @neptuniangoddess @xaqualogyx and @aquariusqueen (all lovely people)

Rules: list 10 songs that you have been recently listening to then tag 10 people.

1. Gucci Gang - Lil Pump

2. Psilocybin - Jhené Aiko

3. Already Won - Kehlani

4. Million Dollar Man - Lana Del Rey

5. Daddy Issues - The Neighborhood

6. When Doves Cry - Prince

7. I won’t - H.e.r

8. Stay - Jodeci

9. Honeymoon - Lana Del Rey

10. Rude boy - Rihanna

I tag @firsthousesaturnian @cutestrology @venusrising-queen @venus-trine-pluto @capvenus @grotesqueguts @scorpyscorpio and I honestly cannot think of anyone else for the life of me. Anyone who wants to do it tbh.

anonymous asked:

Can I cry? Today in school I was with my friend and I told her that I want to lose weight, because I'm fat and never really liked the shape of my body. As the conversation was happening, the guy sitting behind me taped my shoulder and went "I don't think you need to lose weight. You're perfect just like this." I didn't even know what to say. Good people still exist in this world. :)

LISTEN, THAT GUY… HE’S A RARE SPECIES THAT THE WORLD LACKS IN. WE NEED MORE MEN LIKE HIM. MATE WITH HIM AND HAVE SONS WITH HIM SO THAT THE WORLD IS GRACED WITH GOOD GUYS LIKE HIM. xx

anonymous asked:

MY CRUSH IS CONFUSING BECAUSE WE DO EVERYTHING PEOPLE IN A RELATIONSHIP DO (kiss,hold hands,swap hoodies,stare at each other for a very long time, go on mini dates) BUT AS SOON AS SOMEONE ASKS THEM THEY AUTOMATICALLY SAY NO AND I TALKED TO THEM AND THEY SAID NO SO I THINK THEYRE JUST A SECRETIVE PERSON AND DOENST WANT TO TELL ME (apparently were everyone’s goals and everyone is like #2k18 get gem together)

aksnsjanwaj i would cry,, maybe they’re just shy or waiting for the right moment you’ll be together by 2018. i promise. 💕

can I cancel thanksgiving because I feel totally obligated to see my parents even tho they’re both really toxic to be around and I really don’t want to deal with it but I’m a piece of shit whether I like interact with them or like don’t interact with them and I’m so tired of being in lose-lose situations and wanting to cry and be anxious every time there’s some fucking holiday 

{Tfw you’re so grateful, thankful, and happy about the people you’ve met and friends I made on here that you start listening to songs that make me think of you guys and how much I appreciate and love you all that I seriously start crying but still smiling. I’d never thought I’d have such a great squad of amazing people around me who support me and think of me as a good person. I might be getting too emotional about this, but I just want you all to know just how much I love you, all of you. I never thought rping Geno of all muses I could’ve picked would cause me to meet such great people. I never thought this blog would get as much attention as it’s gotten. I wish I could draw you all something or write a well-thought out thing for you all. but I guess you’re all stuck with my emotional rambling. I wish you all the best in life and hope you all end up doing okay. I wish I could just hug you all.  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

Here’s the songs, if you want to listen:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3Bc5fTBkb4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Qp5vcuMIlk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_3MjjK5mBWk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmWDablqiEI

I was tagged by @fangirling-phoenix (thx)

List five things that make you happy then pass this on to the ten most recent people in your activity ((anyone that wants to do it can too spread the joy a bit <3))

1. I don’t like leaving the house but walking outside or just sitting in the sun like the lizard I am makes me pretty happy

2. Listening to music and telling other people about it idk I just feel so happy when someone wants to listen to me scream about Brendon Urie

3. Comedy shows like Parks and Rec and (call me basic) the Big Bang theory

4. Them d a n k memes

5. I cry about dear evan hansen every day despite it being the light of my life (idk if this counts as music but my soul says no)

Tag list! (all lovely people): @raijahthebaketato @something-geeky-related @random-nerd-person @etcrnallyyours @sceneofbangtan @velarisismyhome @not-that-fabulous-killjoy @afangirlwhoshipsallships @goldentrash1017 @dontbelikethatboobear

anonymous asked:

what's the documentary about? I don't want to make you cry more by talking about it but Im really curious

it’s about sick people having the choice to a medically assisted death basically like choosing to die. and it shows a bunch of people but mostly one woman in particular and her journey and it’s just really really intense. but very good.

ismoresjunkie  asked:

please tell me these people seriously arent fucking with Okami right now. tell me this is some kind of shitty joke because im abt to fking los it,,

They are. Not only that but this has been an issue for about a week now. I was first approached because there was concern about Okami and pro-ana posts, to which all of us were pretty surprised and because I’m very close with him they came to me.

After dealing with it silently, and these kids harassing the people who came to me for disagreeing with them I finally snapped at one of them for their shit behavior. I won’t deny it either, I popped off, threatened to name drop if they and their friends refused to stop etc.

They started crying and denying what they did, pleading that they didn’t want me to do that and didn’t want to have to change their url again (haha shady) and I told them if they cut the shit and leave everyone involved alone I wld stop.

They then started up again, and not only that but the one feeling everything supplied the second person with screenshots etc.

Idk about you but everything I see isn’t “encouraging people to become anorexic”, it’s a kid venting because they have an ED and are so fucking distraught and destroyed they don’t know how else to deal. I don’t want Okami hurt, he’s like a son to me, but I’m not going to sit here and say that’s fucked up stop. I’m not going to bully him and tell him people are going to go Ana because of him.

The victim blaming needs to stop but here they are, and of course my involvement is regrettably blamed on Okami because GASP, and adult is getting involved in their own because they care and were also abused like this as a child but oh no, we’re gonna try and Warp it. Btw, it was these kids FRIENDS that came to me, disgusted by their behavior.

Both these people have blocked these kids and I suggest you run away as well.

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[Eng Sub]171115 Seungri Aori Ramen Live Interview

BEHOLD. THE POWER OF LEE SEUNG HYUN.

 im so proud of him. feels like crying. when he talk about his worldwide friends, instantly i remembered how kim gura and bigbang hyung makes fun of him about greedily wants to make friends with everybody (Intimate Note 2009), and they suggest kim gura gave his son (still a baby/toddler whatever at that time) number to seungri. Even to me at that time its not even funny, cuz i know he honestly likes to make friend and people makes fun of his genuine intention. And now just look at him. His personality of innocently making friends and making other people happy prove to be a success. VICTORY win eventually. whos laughing now? im slightly worried of him being a risk taker, but i know success comes with risk. and with that i will always support him. HWAITTING CEO LEE! love you to the mooon and back. You didnt let anyone bring you down since day 1, im sooo proud of you. loving you for so long (im 28 ahahahah), you dont know how much feeeeelssss i have watching this interview. you have come so far.

p/s: im gonna watch this another 1 million time, cuz his smiles, gestures and the way he talks is soooooooo fucking cute and sexy

I just finished reading The Catcher In The Rye and honestly???? What does Max Caulfield have to do with Holden?????? Holden is such a Chloe honestly. Before The Storm is a way better adaptation for this book. I mean, getting kicked out of school??????? Some “perfect” girl we’re going to hear a lot about yet we never ser her?????? Depression??????? running away?? From everything???? From responsability???? From people???? From family???? From growing up?????????????? And just, hating everything but inside u just want to cry??????? A love starved child in a corrupt world trying to survive when they don’t really want to???????? With no goals or future at all????????? Give me my Chloe Caulfield the entire story should have been about her. But oh since Holden saw a classmate jump off a building and dying cuz bullying too and sex is BAD BAD BAD I guess Max deserves that name uh