When I started this blog, it was a backlog of prompts for myself when I had no ideas of what to write. Yesterday, at exactly 10:47 pm, I walked home from my 4 hour waitressing job and cried when I opened my phone. Yes, my feet were tired and yes, I was exhausted from fake smiling and telling people I’d “Be with them in one moment”, to only go to the kitchen and find what seemed like a million dishes- that wasn’t the reason I cried. Walking home and opening Tumblr, I tried to regain some strength as I knew we had visitors at home and I didn’t want to seem impolite. If I had’ve lived closer to London, I’d probably be within the remnants of a car collision by now- basically I stopped walking whilst crossing the road and started to cry :) You did that to me- I COULD’VE DIED.
Honestly, I’m so grateful for every single one of you, you’re all so incredible and I can’t believe there are people who’ve stuck around for over 2 minutes. I’m not all that great and a little rough around the edges, but I’m trying my hardest and I don’t really think I’d even be around if it weren’t for all your love and support. I’m so grateful and I can’t thank you enough.
So, my beautiful geniuses, I will graciously ask for one last favour- Keep writing. You could start with an idea and end up with a following of 10,000, or you could transform that idea into another form of media. Never stop doing what you love, not for anyone. Your passions will last longer than most things, so please pursue them. If you’ve only just started writing, if you’re 4 books deep or maybe only just learning English- Keep going. One day you’ll get more than you wished for, or (In my case) something you didn’t even wish for. You each deserve every star in the sky, a billion cookies and all the things that make you happy. I’d jump at the chance to meet you all. Thank you so much for being the most talented, admirable, beautiful and lovely following anyone could ever ask for.
I love you all more than you could ever imagine, I’m so lucky to have such a incredible internet family. All my love and thanks and best cookies, Yasmine xox
Moffat said that when you write you have to feel every emotion that you want people to feel. So I can imagine Moffat screaming and crying over his own scripts … at least he knows the ending and can change the story….
I feel like crying in a good way cause it’s not even been FOUR DAYS since I rebooted her && I was graced with so many people/old friends excited for my return. I’m in complete shock right now, I can’t believe I made it to ONE HUNDRED so quickly. It took me so much courage to finally decide to return, && I want to give a personal shoutout to CENT ( @anradh i luv u ) for giving me that final push! This was the best decision made, && for once I actually feel like myself again on Tumblr. I’ve been blessed with so many positive people, && have created so many wonderful friendships while being here && for that, I really want to give a big THANK YOU. You have made this experience exciting && just downright amazing once again. For once, I’m actually having FUN running my blog && I feel so safe being surrounded by all you lovely people. I’M TOTALLY NOT CRYING RN ( nope, im totally crying while writing this ). I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!
POSITIVE LOVELIES && FRIENDS WHO HOLD A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART: You guys mean the world to me, && I just want to say how blessed I am to have found you guys. Some I may not talk to as often as others, but you still have helped me remain positive && being able to talk to you or see you on my dash makes me smile. Thank you for being such amazing friends!
MUTUALS I ADMIRE FROM AFAR && APPRECIATE INTERACTING WITH! This is to the people I interact with or admire from afar, thank you for making this reboot worth while. Everyone of you have such amazing portrayals && I personally admire the work that goes into every single character whether it be ORIGINAL or CANON.
Skam is that great book. We opened the cover, read the first few pages and got hooked. Then it just got better and better the more we read. Then the third book came and more and more people started to read. We got exited together and could laugh and cry together. Now we have to read the last few pages, and close the book. But we can open them again, read the words, remind ourselves of the beautiful moments, keep them in our hearts…. Skam won’t be forgotten, even though we won’t get new updates or won’t feel that stress when there’s cliffhangers. Skam is with us and we can be happy that we got to experience it 💚
Ra'aj : 10, 13, 23 ! Because I want to now more about her ! *3*
10: Does your OC guard their emotions by being tough? If not how would they? She’s tough, so it shouln’t be a problem. Buuut she has a REAL big deal to manage her emotions. So… She doesn’t keep much emotions for herself. And when she tries it doesn’t last very long. Oh. And she can cry while watching romantic movies, or worse, when the dog dies in an action movie, but hush. Secret.
13: What kind of situations does your OC avoid the most? Being in charge of people, or having to take care of somebody. It has already happened, it never ended well.
23: Does your OC tend to hide something about their personality/essence when meeting new people? If yes, what? Nothing at all, really. Oh, or maybe a tiny little detail. This… all “force and jedi and code and youknowwhat” thing. But she has a perfect place to hide her two lightsabers while keeping them with her (she’s really good at crafting things), look :
I am not the biggest maker of my own posts, and in fact i’ve
never made my own. Turns out my first text post here is a letter to you. I
am quickly scribbling this after watching the final clip. Not every lesson will
be included. Not every character will be thanked as they should. But hopefully
it is enough because it is coming from my heart.
I guess all I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for showing up in my life in the time where I don’t
have much of a purpose and my days are wasted away unless I write.
Thank you for giving me so much happiness and yet also
Thank you for all the times I have smiled because of you but
also thank you for the times you have made me cry.
Thank you for the times you have made me think beyond what I
normally see. Thank you for showing me the world through other people and giving me perspectives I don’t experience myself.
Thank you for all the times I have been running around my
house with happiness and with flapping hands. Thank you for making me bounce
around my house with laughter and joy. Thank you for making my emotions go wild with either happiness or sadness or sorrow.
Thank you for Isak and his struggles with his sexuality and
his struggles with his momma and pappa. Thank you for showing me him grow up
all the way from season 1 where he wasn’t the greatest person and where he made
mistakes. To season 4 where he has grown up and to where he is happy and even
living with the love of his life.
Thank you for Eskild who, at least, seems secure in who he
is and his sexuality. Thank you for all his partying and wild moments, but also
for his heartfelt moments and speeches and all his care.
Thank you for Eva who found friends when she felt alone. Thank
you for this character who found herself and gave me so much reflection to my
own life when I was 17 and only then found friends.
Thank you for Even. Although he is much more than his mental
illness and pansexuality, I have to thank you for giving me such a strong
character whom I can look up to on the low days where I am bruised and broken
and where all I have the energy to ask for is a helping hand. Thank you for
this character whose enormous strength can give me strength on the days where I
can’t find my own.
Thank you for Sana and her strength. She has experienced harassment
and bullying, you showed me a character who has moved past it with help, who
has friends and now they understand her more. Thank you for Sana who still has
anger issues but can now admit it as well as admitting her faults. Thank you
for showing me a world that I am not a part of, I hope I can be more
understanding of Islam and other religions in the future.Thank you for her happiness.
Thank you for Chris Berg. Who is such an amazing friend and
who would do anything to keep her friends safe and happy. Thank you for this
person who lights up the room with joy and who offers her hand to her friends
Thank you for Vilde. Although there has been so many
comments about her, I care about Vilde and seeing behind her curtain meant a
lot to me even though we will never know what happens further. Maybe we will
create our own stories with her and tell a world that she sees now that you can’t.
Thank you for Vilde who struggles so much but seems like she does not have much
care in the world. Thank you for this character whose walls have not been taken
down and whose development is still to come although we won’t be seeing it.
Although, I don’t like him particularly much. Thank you for
William, who has trauma behind him and who shaped him. But also thank you for
showing him being a better person and perhaps even moving past what path his
trauma put him on. Trauma is not an excuse, but it puts you on a path different
to others and gives you obstacles not many other faces. He may not be the best
person or have done the best of things. But he is better now than in the
beginning and I know that although I have experienced trauma too, I can decide
to move past it and be more than what it made me.
Thank you for all the squads who each bring their own thing
to skam. Thank you for the girl squad who we saw forming in season 1 and who we
saw learn how to be more understanding in season 4. Thank you for the boy squad
who has so much love and compassion for one another even though we rarely see
that on tv with boys, thank you for every boy in that squad because I love them and I will miss them like my own friends. Thank you for the Bakka boys who all seem wonderful and I
am sad I did not get to know them more.
Thank you for all these different seasons and thank you for
giving me one of the most beautiful clips I have ever seen.
Thank you for o Helga natt particular.
Thank you for all these characters that are so real and so
normal that they really could be real people. Thank you for making all of us
feel like we plopped down into someone’s life and for opening up doors that
were locked to us before.
And finally, but maybe, most important of all:
Thank you for making a path for me to find my penpal. I love
her with all my heart and I write with her daily. We have so much in common and
when I think of her I think of stars in the sky that even clouds can’t hide. I
think of someone as strong as Even for making it through everything that she
has been through although I don’t know all about it. I think of smiles and
giggles and I think of what I do as the first thing in my morning; checking my
messages and reading through either new or old ones. I think of happiness and I
think of someone who makes me breathe. I think of someone to go to both with
happiness but also fear and loneliness and sadness. I think of someone who
makes me less isolated and someone who is with me every day even though e live
9 hours apart. I think of a friend in an unexpected place but who maybe came into my life exactly when I needed it. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to reach out to her and thank you for giving us so many things to talk about, we will continue to gush about what you have shown us even after you’re gone.
Thank you for my penpal who means the
world to me and I love her so much.
So Skam: You have taught me things I will never forget:
”Had det kommer ikke fra religion, det kommer
”Du er sterk og selvstændig når du kan ændre
meningen din. Uansett hvilket kjønn ændre meningen din”
jo ikke med vold. Det starter med misforsåelse og fordomme”
“Alt er love”
everything ends as you have now. So must this note to you, however imperfect
and incomplete it is.
you with a song from a disney movie I loved when I was young, the song
resonates with me today, as it has on other days where I have had to say
goodbye to someone or something else:
may seem forever
is like the end
But in my
heart’s a memory
you’ll always be»
for everything, I will visit you on my screen and i will keep you in my heart. Takk for alt.
There are several things I want to write about lately, but I haven’t had the time or mindpower to thoroughly express what I want to say. So here’s a list of what’s been on my mind.
1. Anxiety. I’m having a hard time with the people close to me taking it seriously, and it bothers me a lot. I’ve almost decided just not to share about it anymore.
2. My dad. He’s been so sick lately and it has been very hard for me. He’s so thin he’s practically wasted away to nothing. He has no energy anymore and gets tired very easily. His mind isn’t as sharp anymore either, and it’s scary. I’m finally realizing how fragile he is, and the thought of that makes me want to cry.
3. I’ve been having a lot of anxiety about my ex fiance lately. It’s something in particular that is making me more afraid than I usually am. I’m not going to write about it in case he still reads this, though I’m fairly certainly he doesn’t. We haven’t had any sort of contact in three and a half years, and I need it to stay that way.
4. It’s summer, and I’m having the itch I always get around this time to have a party. I love hosting parties. My house isn’t currently a good place to have it, so I was thinking of organizing a beach day. (One of these things is not like the others!)
I dont know what to do anymore. I try to explain my problem to my parents but they dont understand and its hurting me more than helping. I have no one i can talk to. I cry myself to sleep so many times im so tired.
It’s hard to get people to understand mental illness. I’m sorry you’re living with parents who don’t support you. You deserve people who understand you and care about you. I want you to get better. I really do. And I care about you, and I understand what you’re doing through. Don’t give up.
Hey. I don’t usually write posts like this but I wanted to share something with you guys tonight that’s kind of silly but maybe one of you will benefit from it.
I met one of my best friends for the first time today after four years of being over 2,000 miles apart. I could go on and on about everything she has done for me, but I really don’t want to cry. What I really want to tell you guys, especially my younger followers or any of you going through a tough time is this:
Those people that message you on tumblr that seem really nice? Those people who you always talk to during live streams of your favorite Lets Player? Those people who always tag you in silly fandom posts?
They’re real people. And they really do care about you. For such a long time, I was in denial that people actually cared about me on here. It’s so easy to fall into that mindset of, “None of these people are real, I don’t see any of them in real life so I can’t matter to them.” But holy shit. Holding and hugging someone like that and realizing that there are people out there that don’t have to hear your voice or see your face to love you?? There is nothing like that feeling. Knowing that people on tumblr aren’t just icons is something unbelievable. And talking to someone like that feels like talking to someone you’ve known forever. So please, keep talking to your internet friends. Don’t stop connecting with nice people on here. It’s really scary and anxiety-inducing to make friends and talk to people, but it is so worth it. People online can see sides of you that other people don’t and they will still love you. The people who are kind to you on here could end up hugging you in real life and crying with you and it will all be worth it. Please never forget that friendships online are no less valuable than real life ones.And if you can meet someone who you really connect with, it’s so worth waiting for the day that you might meet them and feel all of that love and connection in real life.
Like I said I love Star Wars as a whole and believe most are like that but I guess those who fall into OT, PT, ST and EU only fans and even among those who are part of the same group there are always haters with in but how do things that are supposed be meant for fun draw such hate isn't there enough of it in real life fandoms are all about escape from reality I blame the internet.
Yeah, I agree that the majority of fans are ones who really love Star Wars as a whole and just have a preference for one part or another (and often spill over into other parts despite their primary love) and it’s a handful of poorly behaved people that give a bad impression for any one group.
And, ultimately, while I sometimes grump about that kind of behavior, I don’t want to let it rule my experience in fandom, I want to get back to crying about these characters I love so much and I think you probably do as well. ♥ Fandoms are about having fun, for me, this is my joyful time (even if it’s hard to call crying about the sads “fun” XD), just like it is for you, and the internet (and tumblr has amped it up, even if this kind of thing existed beforehand) can sometimes feel hard to escape, but OH WELL DEEP BREATHS LET’S GO BACK TO CRYLAUGHING ABOUT OUR FAVORITES.
It's funny how I dedicate my days to people when they say they want to hang out and refuse to plan anything else because that's our day, how I send how are you texts and want to send them everyday and randomly check up on you if I notice it's been a while since we hang out, how I send people pictures and videos when I see stuff that reminds me of them and buy gifts for people just cause,
But no one does any of that stuff for me
And while i love my friends all I can do every night when I am laying in bed crying over the fact that I'm 25 next week is wonder where did I go wrong in my life that I haven't found anyone who will do any of that for me?
I need some familiarity. I’m crying in my bed and I don’t want to feel sorry for myself/ I really do feel grateful for the things I have and the people I know but it’s so hard to just get by, I go to work and come home every day and the best part is just being asleep because I get a relief from how much everything hurts and I get a few hours where I’m not actively thinking about killing myself and then I wake up and then I go back to bed until I go to work again. I feel like no one wants me here, on this planet. I feel like I could disappear, which to a lot of people I already have, and it would take so long for anyone to notice, even my family. Especially my family maybe.
I always go into watching TV show finales with low expectations but I just watched the first half of the last clip and it made smile and laugh and cry. I am so grateful for this show. The reason I love this show is because the characters are all flawed like real people. We don’t always make the choices that people want us to or the ones that seem like the most obvious. If my life was a TV show I know people would disagree with some of the choices I have made, because everyone is different. I do not like every decision Julie made for some of the characters but it was her show and without her we would not have had Skam at all. So thank you Julie! Such a great way to end Skam.
Mikki I wanted to send you a BIG THANK YOU for always being a huge ray of sunshine in this fandom. No matter what drama is happening, no matter what people are complaining about you always just send out positivity, hope, and love. Your unending well of compassion and empathy has always been inspiring to see. Much love, Mo 💚💜
MO, i’m not even kidding I am crying right now, oh my gosh this is the kindest most beautiful message I have ever received and I love you so much.
Thank you for being such a kind, beautiful soul not just in this fandom but as my friend <3 I love you with all my heart my angel. 💜
The ending to Skam was perfect. When I knew they asked Jonas to speak, I couldn’t stop the tears because it ended like it began. With him speaking.
I’m still crying now. I’ll miss everyone so much. I can’t even explain because I don’t have the adequate words to say what I want to say. Just thank you, Julie for giving us characters we could relate to. And for giving us a family to be a part of no matter the language barrier. Thanks to all the translators. Without you, I wouldn’t know how wonderful Skam is, so thank you. And to all people who loved Skam as much as I did. I will never forget relentlessly refreshing the homepage for another update!! Or seeing a scene that took my breath away. Or feeling so much love watching characters express the same. It gave me hope, it gave me happiness but best of all Skam gave me so much love. And I will never forget it.
So….. yall seen my series Ego? Probably not. Because its kpop. Well good news! Gonna tweak it a bit and repost as Supernatural once I finish. Dean x reader. Gonna call it… SuperEgo. Because I’m a dork and I want as many people as possible to read it. I made people cry. Yall are gonna love it.
dishes getting done a little loudly
the sound of my mom eating
the hole in my heart
the hole in everyones hearts
wanting a parent
the fact that i want a parent
people who are nice
people who are mean
strawberries (when they are sour)
my friends crying
fathers playing with their children
people who make me or other people feel safe
having a body
having my body
loud loud people
I really am feeling so down and low at this point. I can’t bear it anymore. I just wanna cry and crawl under my blanket. I want someone to tell me “it’s gonna be okay” while rubbing my back. I do hope one day I’ll be okay soon. Heartaches last for a lifetime, it feels like. Why does people have the guts to hurt others? I just don’t get it. How can these people sleep at night? I wonder. I always do.
I’ve invested so much time and effort to certain people that did not do the same for me. Which is idiotic of myself, but who is to blame? Who else? I’m so fed up. I just wanna have a huge meltdown and release all my pain!
Not really a trigger, more of a rant,I hate that whenever I talk about what my mum did to me it has to be in a joking manner. I can never talk about the abuse and trauma i suffer/ed without having a nervous smile and laugh and playing it off and people keep telling me Im resilient and joking about it with me and its like.Fuck just. I know im not there now but I want someone to care. Ive been told the standard "it wasnt ur fault" but i just. Want to be able to cry and scream for once abt it. Fuck
I have the opposite problem. I hate how I can’t make jokes about it because if people don’t know about my abuse they think I’m being an offensive dick and if they do know about it I suddenly get suffocation hugs from everyone in sight and I don’t need that. People will start offering me help just to pat themselves on the back for being kind when really what are they supposed to give me, people will treat me like all I am is a victim, I get really sick of it. And it’s not like I don’t want to do something to help other kids, I’m doing work just for that, but when I make some really political points on how we should handle the rights of minors and child abuse in our government, people don’t listen to anything I’m saying and just keep asking if I’m ok. But regardless, I do understand what you’re saying, and you can vent anytime on here if you want. Two kinds of ppl tho