Let Me Go
[a/n: Damn this was hard to write….I usually don’t write stuff with this kind of ending but I got two requests for this…well here it is I’m sorry I took so long]
Pairing : Zhang Yixing/ Reader
Genre: ANGST, character death…sorry….
Words : 1.3k
“I’m sorry, Y/N…”
“It’s hard to know exactly but I’d say a month…maybe less.”
You laughed loudly at what Yixing said, reminded of why you fell in love with him in the first place. He was the reason you were able to smile as brightly as you did. He was the reason for your laugh, for your happiness. He was the reason for it all and it broke your heart to know that you’d have to leave him all alone. If miracles truly did exist you was praying for one, at least to let you be by his side a little longer. You know the chances of that even happening were slim, but you had to have hope.
“Babe are you listening?”
You were snapped out of your thoughts as Yixing, nudged you with his shoulder. You shook your head, ridding yourself of any lingering thoughts, forcing a smile back on your lips as you turned to look at him. He furrowed his brows in worry, immediately seeing right through you.
“Is something wrong?”
You shook your head, hoping he’d drop the subject but you knew him all too well. If Yixing was worried about something he wouldn’t let it go until he found a solution, especially if the person or thing he’s worried about involves you. Yixing stopped in his steps, moving to stand directly in front of you, His hands grabbing both of yours.
You sighed, keeping the smile on your face, “I’m fine, really, just a little tired is all,”
You said letting go of his hands and cupped his face, stroking his cheeks with your thumbs reassuringly.
He said nothing for awhile, making you think he was going to pursue the topic longer but much to your relief he believed you. Sighing heavily he wrapped his arms around your shoulders, bringing you in for a tight hug. He squeezed you tightly, raking his hands through your hair, “Let’s go home then.”
He released your from his grasp, grabbing onto your hand and leading you back to the car. You frowned as you looked at him, feeling terrible about keeping the truth from him.
“Do you want to shower first…?” You asked Yixing as soon as you arrived to your home.
Yixing immediately wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling your body flush against his. You automatically moved your head to the side, giving him more room as he started leaving kisses on your neck. You hummed in content, turning around to face him.
“Not so fast.” You said with a slight smirk, pushing him away before running towards the bathroom.
You heard him run after you, locking the door behind you quickly. His laugh was heard loud and clear through the door as he tried to open it but failed as soon as he realized it was locked.
“Babe…come on let me in.” His voice called out, a smile undoubtedly playing on his lips.
You laughed, shaking your head even though he couldn’t see it, “Nope. you’re gonna have to wait.”
He chuckled saying something you didn’t quite catch as you had already turned on the shower. You stripped out of your clothes, frowning as you started noticing the changes to your body already. The doctor said the change wouldn’t happen overnight, the disease taking its time to show itself. That was the reason why you didn’t even know you were sick. Now you could definitely see the weight you’ve lost due to this damned illness, hoping Yixing wasn’t able to notice. Sighing you wiped away a tear that managed to escape and hoped into the shower.
You took a relatively quick shower, stepping out once you were done and walking into your shared bedroom with a towel wrapped tightly around your body. You hummed along to a song that randomly popped into your head, slipping on some comfortable clothes. You haphazardly ran a towel through your hair, not caring if it was still somewhat damp and wet your sweater. You turned around to head back to where Yixing was waiting in the living room but jumped as soon as you saw that he was standing directly behind you. You cursed, dropping the towel and placing your hand over your heart.
“Oh my god don’t do that.” You said with a laugh, unaware of the serious look on his face as you moved to walk around him.
You headed for the door, stopping in your tracks at the sound of his voice.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” He asked, his voice full of emotion.
You turned back around to face him, shocked to see the tears streaming down his face. You didn’t know what to say, not knowing what he was talking about, that is until you noticed your phone in his hands. All the color drained from your face, suddenly remembering that you’re doctor had promised to call you later in the day. You took a step towards him, unable to go to him completely as your mind went blank.
“Yixing…I-I can explain.”
“You’re sick? And you didn’t tell me?” He questioned, his voice breaking meanwhile your heart broke at the hurt in his voice.
“It’s not that bad Yixing…really.” You said as nonchalantly as possible, trying to downplay the whole situation and make him believe that you were fine.
“Don’t lie to me, please for once don’t try and lie your way out of this.” Yising spoke out, his voice more stern than before.
“You’re dying, Y/N! And you’re still lying to me?!” He yelled, raising his voice for the first time since we’ve been together.
“When were you going to tell me? Were you going to wait until you were dead? Was I just supposed to wait for a call to tell me the love of my life-” He continues, choking up on his words as the thought of you being gone forever being too much for him.
“Why didn’t you tell me??”
You could tell he was trying to keep himself from breaking down, the news probably knocking the wind out of him. He was holding onto the dresser, trying to keep himself upright. You took a tentative step towards him, watching as he fell to his knees as you got closer to him, his cries breaking your heart into a million little pieces. You knelt down in front of him, bringing him into a hug, Yixing clinging on to you tightly. You felt like someone was punching your stomach every time you heard his sobs, his body shaking in your arms.
“D-Don’t leave me please…” He cried out, bringing you closer to him…as if that were even possible.
You looked up, trying to keep your own tears from falling but failed miserably as the first few cascaded down your face. You ran your fingers through his hair, trying to calm him down at least even a little bit but you knew you weren’t going to be able to do that.
“You’re going to have to let me go, Xing.” You told him, keeping your voice low.
He shook his head vigorously, “I was supposed to marry you.”
At hear that you choked on a sob, this being news to you. You had no idea he even had thoughts of marrying you until this very moment. And in this moment you cursed at any higher being or the universe for that matter for being so cruel. You said nothing, holding Yixing was all you could do. No words could make this situation better, no words could make you live longer. You had made your peace with your current situation but forgot all about Yixing and how he would feel once he found out. Yixing in this other despair hurt you more than finding out your life was coming to an end. The only thing you could do was hold Yixing and you were going to continue to hold onto him until you took your last breath.
[Oof now I’m crying]