and i usually love this kind of characters

Let Me Go

Originally posted by exo-m

[a/n: Damn this was hard to write….I usually don’t write stuff with this kind of ending but  I got two requests for this…well here it is I’m sorry I took so long]

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Pairing : Zhang Yixing/ Reader


Genre: ANGST, character death…sorry….


Words : 1.3k






“I’m sorry, Y/N…”

“How long…?”

“It’s hard to know exactly but I’d say a month…maybe less.”

-

You laughed loudly at what Yixing said, reminded of why you fell in love with him in the first place. He was the reason you were able to smile as brightly as you did. He was the reason for your laugh, for your happiness. He was the reason for it all and it broke your heart to know that you’d have to leave him all alone. If miracles truly did exist you was praying for one, at least to let you be by his side a little longer. You know the chances of that even happening were slim, but you had to have hope.

“Babe are you listening?”

You were snapped out of your thoughts as Yixing, nudged you with his shoulder. You shook your head, ridding yourself of any lingering thoughts, forcing a smile back on your lips as you turned to look at him. He furrowed his brows in worry, immediately seeing right through you.

“Is something wrong?”

You shook your head, hoping he’d drop the subject but you knew him all too well. If Yixing was worried about something he wouldn’t let it go until he found a solution, especially if the person or thing he’s worried about involves you. Yixing stopped in his steps, moving to stand directly in front of you, His hands grabbing both of yours.

“Y/N.”

You sighed, keeping the smile on your face, “I’m fine, really, just a little tired is all,”

You said letting go of his hands and cupped his face, stroking his cheeks with your thumbs reassuringly.

He said nothing for awhile, making you think he was going to pursue the topic longer but much to your relief he believed you. Sighing heavily he wrapped his arms around your shoulders, bringing you in for a tight hug. He squeezed you tightly, raking his hands through your hair, “Let’s go home then.”

He released your from his grasp, grabbing onto your hand and leading you back to the car. You frowned as you looked at him, feeling terrible about keeping the truth from him.

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“Do you want to shower first…?” You asked Yixing as soon as you arrived to your home.

Yixing immediately wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling your body flush against his. You automatically moved your head to the side, giving him more room as he started leaving kisses on your neck. You hummed in content, turning around to face him.

“Not so fast.” You said with a slight smirk, pushing him away before running towards the bathroom.

You heard him run after you, locking the door behind you quickly. His laugh was heard loud and clear through the door as he tried to open it but failed as soon as he realized it was locked.

“Babe…come on let me in.” His voice called out, a smile undoubtedly playing on his lips.

You laughed, shaking your head even though he couldn’t see it, “Nope. you’re gonna have to wait.”

He chuckled saying something you didn’t quite catch as you had already turned on the shower. You stripped out of your clothes, frowning as you started noticing the changes to your body already. The doctor said the change wouldn’t happen overnight, the disease taking its time to show itself. That was the reason why you didn’t even know you were sick. Now you could definitely see the weight you’ve lost due to this damned illness, hoping Yixing wasn’t able to notice. Sighing you wiped away a tear that managed to escape and hoped into the shower.

You took a relatively quick shower, stepping out once you were done and walking into your shared bedroom with a towel wrapped tightly around your body. You hummed along to a song that randomly popped into your head, slipping on some comfortable clothes. You haphazardly ran a towel through your hair, not caring if it was still somewhat damp and wet your sweater. You turned around to head back to where Yixing was waiting in the living room but jumped as soon as you saw that he was standing directly behind you. You cursed, dropping the towel and placing your hand over your heart.

“Oh my god don’t do that.” You said with a laugh, unaware of the serious look on his face as you moved to walk around him.

You headed for the door, stopping in your tracks at the sound of his voice.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” He asked, his voice full of emotion.

You turned back around to face him, shocked to see the tears streaming down his face. You didn’t know what to say, not knowing what he was talking about, that is until you noticed your phone in his hands.  All the color drained from your face, suddenly remembering that you’re doctor had promised to call you later in the day. You took a step towards him, unable to go to him completely as your mind went blank.

“Yixing…I-I can explain.”

“You’re sick? And you didn’t tell me?” He questioned, his voice breaking meanwhile your heart broke at the hurt in his voice.

“It’s not that bad Yixing…really.” You said as nonchalantly as possible, trying to downplay the whole situation and make him believe that you were fine.

“Don’t lie to me, please for once don’t try and lie your way out of this.”  Yising spoke out, his voice more stern than before.

“I’m not-”

“You’re dying, Y/N! And you’re still lying to me?!” He yelled, raising his voice for the first time since we’ve been together.

“When were you going to tell me? Were you going to wait until you were dead? Was I just supposed to wait for a call to tell me the love of my life-” He continues, choking up on his words as the thought of you being gone forever being too much for him.

“Why didn’t you tell me??”

You could tell he was trying to keep himself from breaking down, the news probably knocking the wind out of him. He was holding onto the dresser, trying to keep himself upright. You took a tentative step towards him, watching as he fell to his knees as you got closer to him, his cries breaking your heart into a million little pieces. You knelt down in front of him, bringing him into a hug, Yixing clinging on to you tightly. You felt like someone was punching your stomach every time you heard his sobs, his body shaking in your arms.

“D-Don’t leave me please…” He cried out, bringing you closer to him…as if that were even possible.

You looked up, trying to keep your own tears from falling but failed miserably as the first few cascaded down your face. You ran your fingers through his hair, trying to calm him down at least even a little bit but you knew you weren’t going to be able to do that.

“You’re going to have to let me go, Xing.” You told him, keeping your voice low.

He shook his head vigorously, “I was supposed to marry you.”

At hear that you choked on a sob, this being news to you. You had no idea he even had thoughts of marrying you until this very moment. And in this moment you cursed at any higher being or the universe for that matter for being so cruel. You said nothing, holding Yixing was all you could do. No words could make this situation better, no words could make you live longer. You had made your peace with your current situation but forgot all about Yixing and how he would feel once he found out. Yixing in this other despair  hurt you more than finding out your life was coming to an end. The only thing you could do was hold Yixing and you were going to continue to hold onto him until you took your last breath.



[Oof now I’m crying]

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I was told by several friends and tumblr users that my Fisher the Voidfish cosplay from The Adventure Zone was being shared uncredited via pintrest and tumblr, so I hurried to put out my big compilation post faster than I usually do. I would very much appreciate it if everyone could reblog this version of the post, instead of any other post floating around that doesn’t correctly credit the costume back to me!! As an artist and a fan, it was incredibly hurtful that this happened. Although the original reposter has apologized profusely for this and properly credited me afterwards, it’s incredibly difficult to undo the damage that results from the reposting of any uncredited image in a large fandom. 

All photos in this post are taken by either myself, scribblesafterdark, or by cowbuttcrunchies!! My darling Magnus is the other half of cowbuttcrunchies. I would also like to take this time to shoutout to my friend automb, who provided endless support with this costume and helped me with cutting and trimming all the tentacles on Fisher’s dress. They also made Junior for me under my guidance, while I was going nutso over the rest of the costume. 

Thank you again to everyone who commented and tagged me on the other post, and I hope that everyone reblogs this version instead!!! As usual, more information about my work process will be under the cut, so if you’re interested in that kind of thing, read on! 💙 

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V OPENING VIDEO BREAKDOWN

I am posting the ENGLISH lyrics as well as the characters that show at that point in ( )…a number following so you can see my ramble about it. These lyrics are absolutely beautiful and breathtaking. This song is beautiful. 


In search of shining ray

Daffodil swaying beneath the blaze (V shown)*1

Trying to bloom with all its might (Rika)*2

It puts in all it’s heart

This, a song of dreams sweetly sung

This, a song of memory lonely sought (Jumin and Zen)*3

Into the light the flower may flourish (Jahee and Yoosung)*4

It takes a push to make me perish (Saeyoung and Saeran)*5

Shall there be light, do forgive me

Even the act I feign to protect me

Shall there be hope, flower shall blossom

Even if surrendering my everything in whole (V)*6

Love tenderly this daffodil (Picture of V and Rika)*7


The sun is the mother of all. 


*1. V is alluded as a flower, in this piece. As he often calls Rika his ‘sun’ it would make sense. As much as a flower needs a sun to thrive and grow, V also needs Rika to live. Or, rather, he sees that he lives BECAUSE OF her. He is happy living, swaying beneath the blaze of her bright beams. 

*2. ‘Trying to bloom with all it’s might.’  Rika seems through the game to look a bit down on V and his dependence. To me, this comes from a point of view of someone looking down at this daffodil, watching it struggle to live and keep going but never giving up, much like Rika with V. Through her, he is trying to thrive as much as he can, by any circumstances. He puts his whole heart into loving her, because through her, he lives as well. 

*3. ‘Lonely sought’ these two characters are arguable the loneliest in the game. They both feel misunderstood. They both feel as if they will never find someone to love them. They are too complicated. Their lives are too.complicated! This line really applies to them both and it is beautiful and a smart move with this placement. 

*4. ‘Into the light the flower may flourish.’ BOTH of these characters were essentially lost. Jaehee was in a dead end job she never intended on staying at, Yoosung lost his motivation after Rikas “death.” But, with MC’s guidance…they are shown the light…and they FLOURISH. Like a flower. Make sense??

*5. This one is a bit more intense and deep. ‘It takes a push to make me perish.’ The Choi boys have been through a lot. ‘It takes a push’-could mean the push that Rika and V gave Saeyoung to go into hacking and Saeran to join the cult, leading them out of the light and into this darkness, causing them to perish. They trusted these people, and all they needed was that extra push to go into it. 

*6. ‘Even if surrendering my everything’ this is so classic V, understandable that he would be shown during this line. He doesn’t care if he loses everything he is. Like the secret endings, he is willing to die as long as he can prove his undying love to Rika. He gives himself willingly to the person he loves 

-BUT- 

*7. ‘Love tenderly this daffodil’ hurts a lot. It shows a new side to him. We usually only see V as this love addled fool. But this line. He gives himself, puts himself out there for her, and yet…he is scared. He wants a kindness in return. Please, love me tenderly…No, love [at all] tenderly. I may be devoted to you, living under you, but please, don’t hurt me. 


-The sun is the mother of all- 

Rika is the center of this entire damn game. She is. Every single character revolves around her. The plot revolves around HER. Plain and simple. Rika is the epicenter and that will never change. 

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And she did. She hurt him, badly. Many times. 

Chertiz, take all of the time you need. Because I want to be able to romance and heal this poor boy properly. I do. 

listen… i want shallura to be canon

i know you can ship a ship entirely in fanon but… fam… listen… i want shallura to be canon

i want an epic, sweeping love story where a canonically disabled character with a mental illness gets cast as the romantic hero. i want an Asian man to play the romantic lead.

i want a black woman to be the subject of a beautiful, heart-stopping romance that builds over several seasons. i want a kids tv show to portray a black woman as worthy of love and romance and heroic sacrifices and epic love stories. let a beautiful black princess be desired and wanted the way a white princess would be.

i want an interracial ship between two POC to get the kind of treatment that’s usually reserved for the whitest of white pairings. i want big dramatic moments and soft quiet scenes. i want all the cheesy rom-com cliches. gimme Shiro and Allura flirting with each other and getting flustered. gimme a cutesy episode where they go on a date and have fun.

i know canon isn’t everything. i know we have fanon works. i know we have all of that. but i want to see a cartoon give kids the message that love and romance is not just for able-bodied neurotypical white people.

i want shallura to be canon. i think it would be beautiful.

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The two 1A vs 1B matches!! Incidently they included two of my favorite characters in the series, and for that I’ll always be grateful~

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Updated commission list!!! :>

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You can ask for some extra rendering/shading on any coloured sketch for an additional $10, complex backgrounds are negotiable. 

Will do: 

  • OCs
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If you’re interested, please contact me at filibusterfrog@gmail.com, thank you! 

it is absolutely, hilariously astonishing to me how often i’m asked to provide a 25 page extensively sourced MLA formatted academic style paper about why i think pansy parkinson is a character worth discussing, but…here we are, i guess.

first thing’s first—

fanon pansy =/= canon pansy.

canon pansy =/= fanon pansy.

canon pansy is a one-dimensional bully with no discernible personality traits beyond “mean” and “myopic”. she’s villainized by the story. her primary function within the narrative is to follow draco malfoy around. she’s background noise. she giggles, and she shrieks, and she makes fun of harry & co. pansy parkinson is also a figurative dumping ground for an alarming number of awful, misogynistic, enormously unflattering stereotypes for female characters—her relationship with draco is depicted as at least partially one-sided, which makes her seem desperate; she has a tendency to mock other students for their physical appearances, which makes her seem insecure; and she’s likened, more than once, to a literal dog. literally. a dog.  

(rowling had a truly terrible habit of peppering the hp books with a lot of these villainous non-characters, who were almost always slytherins, and who were almost always described as either unattractive, unintelligent, or both. see: millicent bulstrode, who is jokingly suspected of being related to a troll. marcus flint, who cheats at quidditch, is held back multiple school years, and has appallingly bad teeth. crabbe & goyle, who are violent, overweight, and implied to need draco’s help with her homework in order to avoid flunking out.)

canon pansy is a poorly constructed caricature of a Mean Girl who readers are meant to find abhorrent. all the ingredients for a spectacularly unlikeable character are there. it’s like rowling had a checklist.

that said, pansy’s role as hermione’s social foil gives her slightly more of a personality than the majority of the other slytherins. pansy is shown to be friendly with blaise zabini, who is, canonically, arrogant and enigmatic and disdainful of draco malfoy. pansy wears a pink dress to the yule ball. she likes unicorns. she possesses leadership qualities—she’s a prefect, she has a “gang” of slytherin girls—and is, by virtue of that, at the very least an above average student. she’s loyal to the people she’s shown to be close to. she cries when draco is hurt. her political affiliations, parentage, and blood status are categorically unknown. we can assume she’s probably a pureblood, and that she chose not to fight against the death eater regime at hogwarts, but she wasn’t a death eater. her dialogue with draco and blaise zabini about the war in HPB was ambiguously supportive, at worst.

(important note—one of the major themes in the books is redemption. see: severus snape. regulus black. the malfoys. rowling’s world building was full of lofty, often convoluted metaphors for racism and homophobia, which had the unfortunate side-effect of humanizing a lot of actively, violently racist characters who would have otherwise been unpalatable to any reasonably self-aware reader. the notion that grand gestures of bravery and self-sacrifice are necessary for redemption—again, see: severus snape, regulus black, the malfoys—is, however, repulsive to me, especially when the argument of worthiness is centered on a teenage girl who has, canonically, spent her formative years hanging around actively, violently racist people. And that’s not even delving into the numerous instances of benign racism perpetrated by characters who aren’t vile slytherin blood supremacists. see: the weasleys. albus dumbledore. rufus scrimgeour. the text goes out of its way to emphasize that combating internalized prejudices is an ongoing battle that has to be consciously fought. it’s a choice. but i digress.)

canon pansy =/= fanon pansy.

fanon pansy =/= canon pansy.

i see a lot of discourse about pansy being an inappropriate “feminist icon"—she’s a bully, she’s mean to other girls, et cetera, et cetera—and the irony of passing that kind of judgment on a female character whose entire narrative existence is predicated on her ability to compare unfavorably to, you know, all the good female characters; it is staggering.

so.

look.

i have loved characters like hermione granger and ginny weasley and fleur delacour since i was a child. they are smart and brave and interesting and Not Like Other Girls. their flaws are considered socially acceptable. hermione is bossy and narrow-minded; but she’s also usually right. ginny is outspoken and reactionary and obstinate; but she’s also pretty and popular and good at sportball. fleur is vain and self-absorbed; but she’s also beautiful and brilliant and fiercely loyal.  

Not. Like. Other. Girls.

not like pansy parkinson, for example, who is, almost unapologetically, exactly the kind of girl no one ever wants to be.  

she likes pink. she giggles. she cries. she chases after a boy who, at best, seems mostly indifferent to her presence. she’s self-conscious enough about her nose that it’s a well-known sore spot for other students to maliciously poke at. i don’t think we ever get a description of what her voice sounds like, but i instinctively associate her with a high-pitched, nasally whine. she’s petty—see: her interview with rita skeeter in GoF—and she’s narcissistic—see: her stint with the inquisitorial squad—and she’s a cliché, of course, just not an especially creative one.

there are obvious, valid criticisms to be made about how people interact with characters like pansy parkinson. and draco malfoy. and severus snape. but there is a huge difference between blindly excusing or romanticizing those characters’ actions and making an effort to humanize them.  

tl;dr

bad people are not bad characters.

I honestly love that 99% of the Star Trek fandom is so… nontoxic.

Yeah of course there’s the shadowlands and the elephant graveyard where the light doesn’t touch and anon hate roams wild, but compared to a lot of other fandoms it’s not only “chill” but widely accepting and outwardly kind!

Whenever I have a conversation about characters or ships or headcannons even if others disagree with me there’s an initial attitude of “oh huh I haven’t looked at it like that!” and then a discussion/debate which might not end in agreement but usually ends with a “cool thought process!” and that is SO underrated.

I feel so non-stressed when engaging with most other Trekkies because even if I ship Spirk and someone ships Spuhura I can still admit that Uhura’s a badass who cares about Spock a LOT and the other person can admit that Kirk flashes Spock bedroom eyes whenever the Vulcan makes a snarky comment.

And people share fanart and fanfics and have such nice things to say and they generally just enjoy the content without tearing others down! And if someone says “your fave is problematic” there’s a general willingness to listen and accept certain things and then continue to enjoy the content without needing to shame anyone for that enjoyment!

I know this is a bit sappy but I just love that a show about a future where everyone is treated with kindness and respect brings that out in so many people *today* because we’ll never get where we want to go if we don’t work towards it now, but I think we are working towards it, and I know Gene would be overjoyed to see that his work has led to so many good people doing good things.

anonymous asked:

Heeey. Sorry if I disturb you by something or anything but could you maybe list some good shows? (It's not a must that LGBT couples are included) thanks a lot ❤️❤️💫

Hi, Anon! 

You’re not disturbing!

So I’m the type of person that watches a pretty random variety of shows so I’m not sure what your taste leans toward exactly. 

If you have any suggestions, make a comment or drop me a message with the show and why you like it! And if you want, make a suggestion on how to make this list better!

** Is for shows other people suggest to me. I’ll comment if I’ve heard of it or seen any of it. 

*I’ll try to put if it’s LGBT friendly. And also I want to put down if it’s diverse or not and a note if you suggest a show is diverse…I’m looking for either the main character that is a POC or more than 1-2 minor characters that show up often enough to make a difference to the plot. Don’t tell me a show is diverse if it’s 3 black characters are just window-dressing…👀

Let me see what I can remember and rec those and what I tried and didn’t like. 

  • -Shadowhunters: I love this trash show. It’s actually not all that great but it’s got some absolute gems of characters you end up watching it for anyway. I def recommend but S1 was watched with a ton of skip Clary/Jace scenes for me. This is LGBT friendly and diverse.  
  • -Riverdale: I tried man, I used to read Archie comics when I was younger but um, this show…I think it’s supposed to be ironically pretentious? It just falls flat for me tbh. It’s popular though so you can check a couple of episodes out to see if it’s your thing. There’s an openly gay character in this that should get more story than he does. Also, kind of LGBT baits too at times so not sure if I trust them completely. 
  • -The Expanse: My sci-fi pick. I love this show. It’s gorgeous, diverse, rich story, funny without trying too hard. I just get sucked into every character. It had one older married gay couple that was really minor characters but I don’t recall any current mains that are. But It’s an inclusive show so I don’t think it’s particularly averse to the idea. Based on books I haven’t read yet! 
  • -Veep: This is like a completely meant-to-be-offensive comedy show with the amazing Julia Louis-Dreyfus. While I wasn’t in love with the last 2 seasons, the first 4 are amazing. No clear cut character you root for in particular but it’s so close to politics you can’t help but laugh/cry. Watch it for the absolutely unapologetic legendary burns. Also, has a lesbian couple in it although it’s offensive comedy so prepare for that.
  • -Archer: Also another meant-to-be-offensive show that’s hilarious but so terrible and inappropriate. I don’t usually like that kind of comedy but I binge watched this when I was sick and got hooked. 
  • -Vikings: I love this show. If you like Game of Thrones, you’ll like this one only it’s got less nudity and more idgaf fight scenes. It’s got brilliant characters, beautiful battle scenes, really interesting storylines, and just good snarky humor. Watch it! Also, they’re not shy about same-sex couples even if they don’t explicitly say it. 
  • -Mr. Robot: Really good show, very different and…I actually don’t know how to describe it? The main has mental health issues. It’s a sociopolitical commentary type show. It’s about hacking and network security and corporation conglomerates in control of our everything and the fight against it. Also from @cherryrebel : mr robot has a shit ton of diversity in both race and lgbt, the lead is mixed race but the actor is egyptian, tyrell is bisexual, gideon is gay, angela, elliot and darlene are implied being lgbt+, i think i’m forgetting about someone but watch that show, it’s the shit 
  • -Legion: A superhero show that’s so incredibly NOT like the other superhero shows. You'll find yourself in a serious mind trip thinking you’re the one that’s crazy. But it’s really really good. Go watch. 
  • -Mozart in the Jungle: About a bunch of musicians and a crazy conductor you absolutely love. It’s really good. LGBT friendly! And diverse-ish.
  • -Luther: One of the best crime shows in my opinion. Idris Elba just does things and you will want to watch him do it. Anything he does is beautiful and brilliant. But the show actually IS brilliant and amazing and go watch!! 
  • -This is Us: one of those, where-the-hell-did-you-come-from?? shows. Really heartfelt stories that make you laugh, cry, and go aww a million times. 
  • -Killjoys: Another sci-fi show I love. It’s got diversity and great characters and great action and story. 
  • -True Detective: Crime detective show. It’s great, very gritty and serious but good stories and character-driven. 
  • -Humans: Sci-fi show about android robots that are part of normal life- they look human and are basically live in maids. Only five of these have consciousness. Really good UK show. Diverse AND LGBT friendly!
  • -Broadchurch: Another good UK crime show. Slow and gripping. @iamacolor mentioned a lesbian character in this one too. LGBT friendly.
  • -The Americans: Russian sleeper spies in America that lead normal lives, have American children, and are like totally Russians carrying out secret missions. 
  • -The Get Down: Great show that was recently canceled :( has about 1 season out. I’m not sure how to describe it and do proper justice. It’s lovely though with amazing characters. Also, LGBT friendly and clearly diverse!
  • -Stranger Things: Great show sci-fi mystery thriller type show. 
  • -Dear White People: Black college students from all kinds of backgrounds dropping truth bombs all around and being amazing. Also LGBT friendly. Go watch. It’s a balanced show with amazing characters. So both diverse AND LGBT friendly!
  • -Brooklyn Nine-Nine: an Amazing funny cop show that manages to be winsome, hilarious, endearing, quirky, diverse, balanced, and just amazing all around. V. LGBT friendly. 
  • -Fresh Off the Boat: Asian family comedy show that’s endearing and hilarious. (Also check out Jane the Virgin for crazy telenovela-esque antics that are hilarious and cute). 
  • -Orphan Black: Sci-fi show about clones. A really amazing show, LGBT friendly. Great story AMAZING characters…most of which is played by one woman. Diverse and LGBT friendly.
  • -Preacher: Great show based on the graphic novel…uhh not sure how to describe it but it’s good. Reth Negga is in it!! 
  • Also adding Sense8 for its LGBT and diversity. Good show but I’ve heard something about the directors/producers being racist? Not sure so I’m recommending with caution because the show itself esp s2 where the nonwhite characters got a better fleshed out plot is good. But since I don’t know what the producers/directors have done, I’m giving a heads up for someone else to fill me in.
  • Poldark: I just started this one 2 days ago. 2 episodes in I’m really enjoying it. It’s from PBS’s Masterpiece series. Aiden Turner as a Cornishman is delicious. So far I adore his wife and immensely enjoying yet another period show.  
  • Grantchester: Adding this to the list after I discovered it on my prime account. I’m only one season in and I love Sydney Chambers and his gruff buddy cop Geordie? This isn’t a show that is going to have you sitting on the edge of your seat. It’s totally a procedural type of show. But it’s characters are likeable, it’s story feels comfortable, and honestly, if it’s a shitty day for you and you just want something that’s easy? This is it. @iamacolor  :)
  • Entourage: So I binged 8 seasons and a movie in a week so let’s just say I fell into this gaping manhole…So it has one very prominently gay character on this show that gets a fair amount of screentime and a plot considering he’s a side character. He’s a fairly loveable character you really enjoy watching develop and grow. However, I should warn people that this show has really colorful language that is quite frankly really sexist and homophobic. For those of you that don’t know, it’s essentially a show about a popular actor from Queens that makes it big in Hollywood and brings along his 2 best friends and older brother to live with him and share in his wealth. If you can get past the language and inherent sexism, it’s actually a decent show about 4 guys with an extremely tight unbreakable, ride or die friendship. Lots of cameos by famous actors and directors, etc. I admit I might have a thing for Kevin Connolly and Adrian Grenier…
  • Jane the Virgin: Okay firstly, I LOVE this show. I wasn’t caught up because I had too much on my plate but like this show is so tongue in cheek and has great Latino rep! Including a character that speaks like 98% in Spanish so it’s great. AND they have LGBT rep so there you go. Enjoy and thank me later!
  • Superstore: Almost disappointed no one reminded me to recommend this show?? It’s basically centered around a store much like Walmart where you have a colorful cast of employees. It’s funny, it’s cute, it’s very socially aware. A disabled character (of color!), a gay character, and a smattering of all sorts. PLUS America Ferrera whom I adore!
  • The Good Place: Great show, great diversity, really funny. I binged it aaaallllll. Seriously go watch this show!! 
  • Cable Girls: Netflix Original from Spain. Do yourself a favor, watch it in Spanish with subtitles. The dubs feel so off. So the music choices for this show are the biggest con. Like it’s modern English songs in a show set in the 20s. Whoever chooses the music really doesn’t read the tone of the scene because it always throws me off. BUT, it’s a show about women gaining their independence through working as operators. You don't  have a diverse cast (so another con) but it’s LGBT friendly. There’s exploration of sexuality minus the harmful abuse of it. It’s got its own set of flaws for sure but there’s a lot of potential for it to be a good watch. 

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Teen Vogue: How did you feel about landing in the U.S. iTunes Top 10 in February?

Rap Monster: Reaching the top of any music chart is a thrill, but this was a shock. We were on [a strict TV appearance] schedule at that time, so it wasn’t like I could scream or anything (laughs).

Jin: It was ‘Wow. Are you serious? Really?’ It was similar to what I thought when I first heard that Wings charted at 26 on the Billboard 200 last year. How cool is that!

Teen Vogue: For those new to BTS, what song and which video should they check out?

RM: Hmmm, it’s like choosing between your mom and your dad, who do you like better! “Fire” was loved by so many, so that’s the song.

Jin: I’d recommend “Blood Sweat & Tears” because I got the lead role and I kind of lead the whole story of video! And, of course, it’s beautifully designed and choreographed.

V: I, too, think it’s “Blood Sweat & Tears.” It had so many metaphors and I had to make a lot of guesses to understand the relationship between characters. And there’s a scene where I make a strange smile to give you a chill, which I love!

Teen Vogue: Rap Monster, K-Pop groups usually have designated roles for the members and yours is BTS’s leader, but what does that mean to you?

RM: It’s my official role to represent BTS to the world and it’s been a chance for me to mature as a person, but, behind the scenes, I’m just one of seven members and I’m inspired by the others all the time. I get free life lessons from J-Hope and Jimin, sometimes it’s like they’re 10 years older than me.

Teen Vogue: OK, let’s play a little game. You’re now at the mercy of another member describing you.

Jungkook: Jin used to be an ordinary guy in the team, but he’s the mood maker now. He’s the most wicked and funniest of all. No one in BTS is normal though, come to think of it.

Jin: Jungkook’s delicate voice always mesmerizes our ears and that’s definitely his role in BTS.

V: Jimin is a real piece of cuteness, like the youngest in the family.

Jimin: V’s specialty is getting all the attention from others onto him!

J-Hope: Suga is a true caretaker. He’s kind of a hidden leader who takes care of everyone.

Suga: J-Hope’s a real hope-maker. He’s such a ‘hope-generator.’

Teen Vogue: BTS have become highly respected for penning their own tracks. When you’re on tour, do you make time to write?

RM: Mostly we’re in the hotel when we’re not on [our promotional] schedule so I bring all my equipment. I wake up, if I have a rehearsal, I go do that and when I come back to the hotel, I sit down and turn on the laptop, cause I’ve got nothing to do without that!

Teen Vogue: When you’ve got a new demo, such as the rough guide to Wings, do you take it to another member and play it and ask for feedback?

Suga: I usually have as many people listen to it as possible because I think it really helps make it a better track. I always get great feedback from the rest of the band.

RM: Firstly, I take it to (BTS’s executive producer) P.Dogg. If he likes it, he sometimes puts it into the album. I really trust him, he’s got the eye for it.

Teen Vogue: If P.Dogg says no, will you fight for it?

RM: Yeah, of course, I really fight for it! I’m like, ‘Hey, this is the thing I gotta do right now. If you won’t do it, I’ll put it into my mixtape!’ The last one I fought for was ‘Reflection’ — there’s an original version, a whole different song. He didn’t not like it, it just didn’t fit the Wings concept, so I’ll release it myself someday.

Suga: I think I kind of did for my mixtape, because I felt I should as AgustD [my solo moniker], and I’m glad I did.

Teen Vogue: Speaking of mixtapes, J-Hope, we’ve been looking forward to hearing yours. What can you tell us about it?

J-Hope: I’m working on it as we speak and my inspiration really depends on my daily mood swing; sometimes I like to go strong and sometimes I make softer sounds. Since it’s a mixtape, I’m trying to experiment with various genres to test myself.

Teen Vogue: Jungkook, you recently covered Charlie Puth’s “We Don’t Talk Anymore” — you teased it in January but didn’t release it until the end of February. Were you making changes? And will we hear your own songwriting any time soon?

Jungkook: I recorded it several times until I was sure that it felt and sounded perfect. I was more than ready to share it because I knew fans had been waiting, but we had You Never Walk Alone being released and I thought I’d better wait until BTS wraps up the official activities for it. I don’t feel confident about writing any of my own [material] yet, but if I ever write a song, I’d like to work on a very soft and sweet vibe.

Teen Vogue: The bigger an artist gets, the more people will try and bring them down. How does BTS deal with that side of fame?

Jimin: I’m a very positive person and I don’t easily get intimidated by people who try to bring me or BTS down. Besides, my family is always there for me.

RM: These days, I try to take everything as my fate and respond with dignity. I accept it, it’s like a shadow, it’s just there.

J-Hope: I had a firm belief that I was going to be a successful artist, and that led me to what I am. I draw all the strength I need from that belief and try to share my energy with other members as much as I can.

Teen Vogue: Rap Monster, you’ve just released a collaboration with rapper Wale, which came about through a BTS fan helping bring you guys together over Twitter. What can you tell us about working together?

RM: When he suggested the collaboration, that was a real shock. I thought about it, [and was] like, should we do a party song? But I wanted to do something different. The title is “Change” — in America. They’ve got their situations and we’ve got ours in Seoul, the problems are everywhere and the song is like a prayer for change. He talks about the police, and problems he’s faced since he was a child. For me, I talked about Korea, my problems, and about those on Twitter who kill people by keyboards.

Teen Vogue: Let’s do a finishing quickfire round! BTS experiments with a lot of genres, which one has been a challenge?

V: I always find rock difficult.

RM: I’m always ready to be challenged, like, “Wings: Outro,” it was hip-house, that was the first time I’d ever listened to that genre… but I liked it.

Teen Vogue: What do you want do while you’re in America?

RM: I want to go to Barneys and Supreme! I want to see buildings and people on the street, their faces, what they talk about, how they walk. I do that in Korea. I go to somewhere I haven’t been and just watch people and colors, that’s my inspiration.

Jimin: I really want to go on a day trip with the members. Or a picnic to Central Park on a sunny day would be nice.

I know.

Can we take a second to talk about the I love you. I know. interchange in Empire?

I get in a lot of arguments with my guy friends about this. Bless them - I mean really - because they think they are being progressive. And its actually kind of heart warming to see. But, usually, the people who think Han is an asshole for saying I know instead of I love you, too chalk his behavior up to some kind of toxic masculinity. Han won’t say he loves her because he refuses to be vulnerable. Han is too arrogant to admit he has a weakness. Han is aggressive. Han is downright cruel at times. 

And… okay. I guess I can see where they’re coming from. But, to me, that is a really shallow interpretation of his character. 

I guess what I, and I think many people who ship Han/Leia, see in that interchange is that Han’s response isn’t motivated by his own feelings. His response has nothing to do with what’s he’s thinking or how he feels. 

It’s about validating how Leia feels. 

Which, honesty, I think she needed more at that moment than a mirrored declaration. 

Leia sacrifices everything for the cause. Her strength to put the rebellion before her personal interest is incredible. It’s her defining characteristic. It’s what we all know and love about her.

It’s also what she knows and loves about herself. By Empire, Leia has lost almost everything of any personal value to her. She’s lost her family. Her home. Her friends. Her position in the Senate. All she has is her own sense of identity. The only thing she can use to define herself anymore is her core values. 

Can you imagine how difficult it would be to let anything compromise that? 

Admitting that she has feelings for Han would be admitting that she has room in her heart for anything other than the cause. It would be admitting that her life is not solely defined by the rebellion that her family died for. It would be admitting that behind her emotionless, rational, militaristic persona is actually just a twenty-two year old girl with feelings, longings, and desires that are entirely selfish. 

Han knows this about her. 

Ultimately, it’s why Leia loves him. Because even Luke, her own twin with whom she shares a connection in the force, at times fails to see her as anything other than the princess. 

But somehow this dirty, cocky, smart ass, nerf herder is the one person who has ever managed to look into her soul and see past every single wall she has built around herself. 

Han knows her. She has never had to tell him anything. She has never had to pour her heart out to him. She has never had to make herself vulnerable in front of him. And yet, he still knows. 

I guess many people see that scene and they see a cocky smart ass being clever and evasive instead of sincere when he says I know

But that’s not what his eyes say. 

His eyes say…

I know you love me. 

I’ve known you love me for a long time. 

It hasn’t scared me away. 

It hasn’t made me think less of you. 

It hasn’t made me see you as weak. 

You’ve screamed at me, hit me, threatened me, insulted me, and done everything to push me away, but I still know that you love me.

And I know you know that I love you, too.

Because it’s taken an invasion of a base, a broken down hyperdrive, a giant cave dwelling slug monster, Boba Fett, a carbonite chamber, and Darth fucking Vader himself to actually make me leave you. 

And I know that you will do everything in your power to bring me back. 

i want to talk about hunay for a moment because it’s an incredibly important ship and it really saddens me that it’s ignored so much for other ships.

hunay is a relationship between a fat guy (yes. hunk is Fat. he does have arm muscle, but he also has a round stomach, which means he’s Fat. and guess what?? that isn’t a bad thing!! “fat” is not a bad word.) and a buff girl. their appearances, which are often made to be some kind of issue in other media, are never even acknowledged by each other. and that’s something that hardly ever happens.

fat people, when we are included in media, are often seen as undesirable. our looks are constantly pointed out, and made to be some kind of issue. if a fat person ends up with a skinny person in media, most of the time they have to undergo some kinda transformation that ends with them becoming skinny, and thus suddenly becoming desirable solely bc they lost weight. if a fat person ends up with another fat person, then they’re often Both seen as undesirable, and the relationship is usually set up in a way that indicates that they wouldn’t have ended up with anyone but each other solely bc they’re both fat. shay loves hunk for hunk, and he never has to go through any kind of transformation to gain her affection.

buff girls are hardly ever included in media at all. physically strong female characters do exist, but it’s rare for them to actually be given any kind of muscle. they’re usually still pretty skinny, or only have arm muscle. shay’s entire build is pure muscle, which is a very rare thing to find in female characters from what i’ve seen. and the few times i have seen muscular female characters they’ve usually had deep voices, were treated as a joke/undesirable, or were portrayed as really rough and tough people who weren’t allowed to be soft. hunk falls for shay pretty much instantly, and shay is portrayed as a soft and gentle person.

hunay is a relationship with a fat guy and a buff girl where they are not treated as “the fat guy” and “the buff girl”. it is a relationship where they are treated like people. no one points out their appearances at all. hunay is the most canon ship, and thus they are made desirable to each other, and it’s in no way portrayed to be in spite of their appearances. 

please stop ignoring hunay. i’m not saying you can’t ship these two with other characters, because i also ship them with other characters. i’m just asking that you please stop ignoring/disregarding this incredibly important ship for other ships. and if your complaints about the ship are centered around it being a boy/girl ship, please remember that there are still certain groups who need better relationship rep, and the good rep they do get shouldn’t be disregarded if that rep is given through a boy/girl relationship.

anonymous asked:

Hey Eden! I was wondering if you could tell us how do you generaly draw eyes, because the eyes you draw, in my opinion, are very expressive! I love your art, keep going!!

Hi anon!!  I’m very flattered, thank you for your kind words <3 <3 <3  I LOVE drawing eyes; there are so many possibilities and expressions you can create just by changing subtle little things. 

I thought about this question and put together a mini tutorial.  I hope it helps!

~*~*~EDEN’S GUIDE TO DRAWING EYES~*~*~

Part 1:  Determine the Eye Shape

Different characters have different types of eyes.  Stereotypically innocent characters usually have huge eyes that are turned more turned downards.  Threatening/evil/grumpy characters generally have narrowed, angry-looking eyes.  Again, it’s not always how it is, but it’s a helpful guide if you’re just starting out.


Step 2:  Exaggerate

The size, shape, and position the eyes (and pupils!) will depend on the character’s mood. 

Happy, surprised, frightened, or confused eyes will usually appear bigger than usual. 

Angry, sad, serious, confident, or sultry moods will have narrowed eyes. 

Also, pay attention to eyelids, as they will also change slightly depending on mood.

Play around with them and look at lots of references. 


Step 3:  Keep Eye Shape Consistent

Meaning, each character has unique eyes.  As you change their expressions, make sure the eye still looks like they belong to that character. 

I’ll use Adrien and Marinette as examples.  Adrien has slightly narrower, upturned eyes (like a cat!).  Marinette’s eyes are cute and large (like a… bug? Idk XD), and the corner ends around the mid-section of her eye.

Do your best to keep these unique traits as you adjust to the desired expression.


Part 4:  Expressions Are More Than Just Eyes, a.k.a. Eyebrows Are Our Friends!

All parts of the face are important when creating emotion in a character.  Eyebrows, mouths, posture, and even hands are super important. 

Even if you can’t see their eyebrows (like if they’re wearing a mask or they’ve shaved them off) you can still show a lot of emotion through the brow bones. 

Mouths affect the shape of the eye, particularly with strong emotions and if their mouth is open, which will push the bottom part of the eye upwards a bit. 

Noses/nostrils will move around a little when showing anger, disgust, confusion, or skepticism. 

Hands add extra drama and are very useful in communicating emotions.  Don’t be afraid of hands!!  They can be a pain in the butt, but well worth it. 

Downcast heads indicate sadness or disappointment, and straight postures can help communicate confidence, pride, etc. 

That’s it!  I hope it helps!  Try looking at references of many different expressions and pay attention to the changes in a character’s facial features.  Also practice drawing lots of different expressions!  It’s fun!  ^__^  When you practice often you’ll get more and more used to it.  :D

Writing about Circus Performers

“Hello Lizard. I was wondering if you have any tips on how to write about circus performers? What should I avoid?”

I want to preface this by saying normally I don’t answer questions about stereotypes. I get a lot of questions about how to make some kind of vague stereotype unoffensive. I’m not really sure there’s a great answer out there that will be satisfying. 

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One of the things that’s seldom talked about in the Gilmore fandom (but totally should be) is how the stylists handled Rory and Lorelai’s looks (i.e. clothes/hair/makeup), especially in the first couple of seasons.

Like, in so many shows, if the main characters are young, supposedly attractive women they always have perfect makeup, their hair is always flawlessly highlighted, cut and straightened/curled, and their clothes are generally the latest “styles”. Or even if they’re older, or playing a specific role (like detective, lawyer, doctor, etc.) they’re given a certain ‘look’ that we’ve come to associate with that type of character. Basically, they look like no real woman actually looks unless they’re at a magazine photoshoot. But for Lorelai and Rory, their style actually reflected their respective personalities. 

Often, early on, it appears that Rory is not even wearing makeup, particularly in casual situations (obviously they wear stage makeup but you can’t really tell). Her hair is cut pretty basically, one length, parted in the middle, and often looks a bit frizzy (aka just normal and not straightened). Her style is pretty much just what you’d expect from Rory - casual, comfortable, not super trendy or “cute” but you can still imagine she enjoys her clothes and did pick them out (hoodies, t-shirts, jeans, cargo pants, chunky sweaters and the occasional rather frumpy dress). I feel like it’s so important to show that Rory’s look is simply Rory - she doesn’t look stereotypically “nerdy” even though she enjoys things that are often pegged as “nerdy” - i.e. reading, studying, etc.

With Lorelai, she’s given unique and wacky outfits (some of which are cute, some of which are not, but all of which totally scream Lorelai), with her hair alternating between nicely curled (probably when she’s feeling fancier) and straightened/pulled back in a low ponytail. She’s not the kind of person who will have one hairstyle or hair routine every day for years. She also experiments with makeup - I specifically remember a weird icy blue eye shadow and a nude lip gloss…neither of which were particularly attractive, and I love that. Because in real life, women who wear makeup don’t look like they’ve come straight from getting a perfect makeover - they try different stuff, get bored of it, move on.

It’s not just Lorelai and Rory either - it’s Lane, it’s Sookie, it’s Paris - and when someone (male or female) doesn’t change their look much (i.e. Luke or Emily) it’s shown to be a character trait, not something imposed on them because they have to look a certain way to really embody the character or whatever.

It’s especially important because most TV shows don’t show women this realistically or complexly when it comes to how they look. They usually have one style, one look, generic ‘perfect’ makeup and clothes that get more dramatic for special occasions and less when they’re meant to be casual - but not in a way that rings true to how women actually present themselves. It’s so validating to see people who some days dress up and do their makeup, other days just kind of hang loose, try new things with their hair that aren’t always the latest trends. 

I’ve just been thinking about this a lot lately, watching other shows that I genuinely love but feeling like unless it’s supposed to be a gag where a female character looks ‘ugly’ they always stick to this perfectly manicured look - wardrobe, hair, makeup. It’s frustrating and I wish more shows would take a page out of Gilmore Girls’ book and create more realistic and diverse looks for female characters.

anonymous asked:

Hiya! Been meaning to ask you this for a long time: What do "bloofy" and "boft" mean? Are they supposed to be combinations of the words "soft" and "buff", or...?

bloofy adj. (origin: buff + soft + floofy) (of a person) buff and muscular, but in a soft, cute sorta way, usually involving dorky smiles and a floofy haircut of some kind. results in a strong urge to protect a character who’s well over 6′ tall and clearly strong enough to punch someone through a wall if they needed to but they wouldn’t because they’re such a cinnamon roll.

for example:

The thing about Fitz is that he never expected Jemma to love him, ever. When he started to recognize his feelings for her, he hid them, SURE she wouldn’t feel the same way. You can see the resignation in his eyes when he gives her the oxygen, finally telling her he loves her only because it’s the only way he can convince Jemma to take the last breath.

“I love you, you see?” he tells her in not so many words. “And you’ll never love me back. I can’t stop how I feel, but I can use it for something good. Please, let me.”

And, of course, Jemma has no idea to respond to this except for hugging him and kissing him all over. But when she misses his mouth, Fitz takes it as a confirmation of his fears. He doesn’t expect her to bring him up to the surface; he expects to die.

When he doesn’t die, he finds that he’s not the same man he was. He didn’t prepare for the effects of his hypoxia any more than he prepared to deal with the consequences of his confession, and when Jemma leaves, he takes that as another rejection.

The rejection of his romantic interest was probably a blow, but again, it was something he expected. In the end, it was her apparent rejection of his friendship that hurt the most. He could have dreamed up a Jemma who loved him back, but instead he imagines a platonic Jemma who acts as a bridge between him and the real world. We know that this is Jemmaginary’s function because when Fitz finds another bridge by way of Mack, Jemmaginary tells Fitz that he doesn’t need her anymore.

By the time Jemma DOES come back, hoping to pick up their friendship where they left off, Fitz doesn’t know where to take it. And he could have said, “You didn’t love me back, how could you be so cold?” Instead he says, “We were partners for ten years, then I got hurt, and you decided that I wasn’t worth anything. I was just a random engineer to you, not a friend.” Of course, it wasn’t a very fair thing to say, and Jemma calls him on it. She doesn’t tell him, though, that she left because she thought it would help him. 

Does he decide then to say that she should have fell for him, that he deserved her love, that he thought she’d been leading him on? No, because Fitz doesn’t believe any of those things. In fact, he never mentions it again, except in a very vague way when he decides to leave the lab. Even then, he blames himself and not her. “I can’t work with you anymore. I’m not as capable, and the feelings I’ve tried to ignore simply won’t go away. I need to go somewhere else.” He blamed her before, but he doesn’t now, and Jemma is the one who has to fight for their relationship. He leaves anyway.

But Jemma doesn’t stop fighting. She reaches out for him when Real SHIELD tried to take over, and she creates the plan to smuggle the toolbox out of enemy hands. If she hadn’t offered an olive branch, Fitz never would have thought they could be friends again. In fact, he starts to wonder if she wants to be more than friends, but after his awkward flirting falls flat, Fitz decides that friendship is all that Jemma wants, and he’s okay with that.

That’s why he doesn’t want to talk about what happened in the pod when Jemma asks to talk about it. Fitz is embarrassed and sees the conversation as pointless. After all, he has her back as a friend, and that’s what’s most important to him. So when he tells her there’s nothing to talk about, he’s telling her that he gets it and he’s over it. They can forget he ever said anything, as far as he’s concerned. It’s not until Jemma tells him that she wants to talk about it because she feels the same way that he decides to go slow and ask her on a date.

But of course, she is taken away instead.

He works himself to the bone getting her back, but when he succeeds, he clearly thinks they are going to pick up where they left off. He holds her hand, but doesn’t try to kiss her. Instead, he asks for advice on how best to help her and is told that finally going on that date might be the thing she needs. He lays on the charm but stops when she cries, reverting to the friend he’s always been. When she tells him the impossible, that there’s another man, he decides to go back to friend mode permanently. 

It doesn’t help, though, when Jemma starts to make advances. She told him, though, that there’s another man, so what does that mean? Fitz tries to back off and save his rival like she asked, but eventually they get into a fight about it. Jemma tells him that he’s being too good, and he asks her what else she expects him to do. He’s her friend and she asked him for her help, so he’s helping her. He doesn’t kiss her until she basically dares him, and even when she kisses him back, he assumes that it’s a one-time thing. She had feelings for him once, but this other man is clearly better, and he can’t compete. 

It’s not until later, when the other man is dead and he can barely live with himself, that Jemma asks them to start over. Then, Jemma carefully makes advances again. She knows he’s hurting, so she gives him time to heal while strengthening their friendship. When she has an excuse, she holds his hand. When it feels natural, they kiss. But still, Fitz apologizes for moving too fast, since he doesn’t want to assume anything. She tells him he doesn’t have to wait for her, and that she wants them to move forward.

So, they move forward.

It’s not until then that Fitz starts to believe that Jemma loves him, and it’s wonderful. Not perfect, but wonderful. So wonderful, in fact, that he decides he wants to ask her to marry him. Only he doesn’t, because he’s not sure what her answer will be. Even after everything they’ve been through, he still worries that she doesn’t feel the same way he does.

And when he gets abducted and brainwashed into doing terrible things, he honestly thinks he’s lost her for good. Still, he’s decided that he can’t love anyone else. He cuts off all other romantic ties and resigns himself, AGAIN, to loving a woman who will never love him back. When she approaches him, he can’t even bear to see her disgust. No one is more surprised than he is when she comes and embraces him, and you can see on his face how much it means to him.

One of the beautiful things about the hug is that it’s a testament to the friendship they have and have always had, but Fitz still finds his ways to tell Jemma that he doesn’t deserve her love anymore.

Now, their relationship has been left in a very vague place, but if you look at their history, you can get an idea of what will probably happen: Jemma will fight for him again, just like she always has. Her biggest enemy is usually Fitz himself, but luckily, she knows how to get him out of their way.

I feel like it’s an important thing to point out, not just because it’s an important part of Fitz’s character, but because it’s been extremely consistent throughout the seasons. Fitz has issues with his self-worth, so of course he doesn’t expect people to love him, but he is also kind and compassionate enough that he values other people’s feelings over his own desires. Of course, he’s not perfect, but he always tries to put other people first, even at his own expense.

So, while I feel sad that this is a big character trait of his, it’s also something I love about him. I hope that one of these days he actually has time to accept Jemma’s love for him, but you know, this is a Whedon show.

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“It’s about not needing anybody when it comes to love—your raison d'être is to live for adoration. Girls usually feel like this when they are not appreciated in a relationship. The inspiration for the song came from an ex-boyfriend. He thought it was funny that I was a mega drama queen always talking ‘global love’ this, ‘global love’ that! He called me a prima donna. I love it but I also kind of hate it. Like they say, ‘You only hate in others what you hate in yourself’, so I thought I’d channel this well-known but kind of undesirable character type into a pop song. As the saying goes (that I just made up): You’ve either been one or dated one at least once in your life.”

Still on a semi hiatus but I had some time this weekend to do a little drawing! Believe it or not, I didn’t realize how much her design looked like Rapunzel’s until it was too late.

Her name is Percie.

Here’s a friendly reminder that Jumin Han thinks he doesn’t deserve to be loved by you, or by anyone. Even before you get into his route.

Is he truly afraid that people won’t understand him, or that someone will eventually see how ugly he thinks he is inside?

What is his worth? Is he really a good person? How can he be so sure that people aren’t just bluffing?

Will they think the same once they get to know of his tangled threads? Will you…?

Does he deserve you? What if he hurts you in the process? What if you realize he is not the one you think he is? What if you doesn’t want him? How is he gonna handle your rejection? Maybe… just maybe… it is enough that his pet understands him.

Will you accept him, an arrogant mutant that the world would surely despise? Will he ever be loved for who he actually is?

Doesn’t it interest you that Jumin actually let BE1 happen, that he let you approach him even though you were highkey being thirsty for his wealth? He probably thought it was the only kind of “love” he would ever deserve: love fueled by money and lust - the sole two things that decide his worth.