and i took the high road this time

This time last year, you broke my heart for the first time-
It shattered into pieces on the road you left me on, and scattered about into the universe.
I swam through my tears and choked on the dust you left me in, until you came back.

This year, you left me again, and took the rest of my heart with you.
I got high and tried to touch the sky to find the pieces of my heart as they swam through the stars, but I found nothing but stardust.

All that’s left in my chest is a shell that still beats for you, and I hate feeling so empty.

—  Ongoing heartbreak.
a.a.a
12.12.16

Today in Middle-Earth: Gandalf casts the Balrog from the peak of Zirak-zigil. It smashes against the mountainside and is destroyed. The wizard collapses and dies. (January 25th, 3019 T.A.)

‘A great smoke rose about us, vapour and steam. Ice fell like rain. I threw down my enemy, and he fell from the high place and broke the mountain-side where he smote it in his ruin. Then darkness took me, and I strayed out of thought and time, and I wandered far on roads that I will not tell’.

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Lotr meme: 5 moments (2/5)
The Battle of The Peak

Those that looked up from afar thought that the mountain was crowned with storm. Thunder they heard, and lightning, they said, smote upon Celebdil, and leaped back broken into tongues of fire. Is not that enough? A great smoke rose about us, vapour and steam. Ice fell like rain. I threw down my enemy, and he fell from the high place and broke the mountain-side where he smote it in his ruin. Then darkness took me; and I strayed out of thought and time, and I wandered far on roads that I will not tell.

TFLN Inspired (part 4)
  • [ text: ] Shower wine is way better than shower beer.
  • [ text: ] Terrible idea I love it
  • [ text: ] So, I never imagined myself puking on the side of the road at 10:30 this morning to Lynyrd Skynyrd but here I am.
  • [ text: ] I WOULD NEVER MIX DICK AND MCDONALDS
  • [ text: ] We got really high and he took a green marker and made my vagina into a Christmas tree.
  • [ text: ] I think we should have a sex position advent calendar
  • [ text: ] I’m getting paid over-time to sit on reddit and look at dicks and abs all day. I’m really happy right now.
  • [ text: ] I’ve been continuously high for the last 48 hours, and just broke my 4th vibrator.
  • [ text: ] Wine and a Lunchable. That would be depressing if it wasn’t the pepperoni and mozzarella one. Those are the shit!
  • [ text: ] Trying to figure out why my back is hurting. And then I remember I got fucked up against a tree last night
  • [ text: ] You’re never gonna guess who’s blood is on my shirt
  • [ text: ]  just curious, were the inflatable penis’ received? Amazon says they were delivered.
  • [ text: ] True strength comes from lack of pants
  • [ text: ] My arms in a cast, how am I supposed to have sex with only one hand? more importantly I need two hands to eat pie.
  • [ text: ] this weekend took five years off my life and what was left of my dignity
  • [ text: ] If you had been home 20 minutes ago, you probably would’ve caught me masturbating, so it might be for the best.
  • [ text: ] Quick, I need a picture of your dick. Don’t ask questions, just show me your genitals.
  • [ text: ] Dude we need to hang out soon. I’m in the mood to get arrested again.
  • [ text: ] I just want somebody who’ll randomly bring me pizza and lovingly squeeze my butt.
  • [ text: ] Besides, I’m booked tomorrow. I’m planning on drinking heavily and crying in the bath.
  • [ text: ] I was mad at her…then I jerked off. Now I’m over it. Orgasms fix everything, I swear.
  • [ text: ] I’m glad you enjoyed the night but why were you calling me “daddy”?
  • [ text: ] Next time you decide to go downstairs hungover, please warn me. I now have to explain to twenty eight year olds why you were naked.
  • [ text: ] Leave it to you to bring a trash can into a fist fight.

 Tamersona Week Day 6: The Roads Ahead

(I’m working on Day 7, I’ll get it done in my next class)

I guess our adventures took us to a lot of places over the years. I didn’t get too involved with things until high school, mainly because still smol child. How did I manage to sneak out for like a week at a time sometimes? School club trips. The older group faked school documents and shit which allowed me to go out for up to a week at a time sometimes to go to the digital world or just road trip across the real world. Normally though, it was just for a couple of hours. Most of the time we were just sending digimon back to the digital world from the real world. It was always a lot of fun though.

Balancing school and digimon was always hard, but I was always pretty good at learning stuff, at least the math and science stuff. Which I mean, if you can do that you’re fine since those are typically the harder classes.

The digital world adventures are always fun. Honestly, I love their world so much. It’s even better now that there are no problems. I never really found out what was really going on, but I helped where I could. There seemed to be a virus of sorts that went around, and it was distributed by some big bad that I never met. So I was helping to take out the virus infected digimon mainly. I did get to adventure and see the different places around their world and it was beautiful and I wouldn’t mind living there one day. The big bad was destroyed by the time I got to college and well, due to fights, most people are aware of digimon now, but not everyone is a fan so still gotta keep em hidden.

Most of my big adventures have been in college. I mean, I already talked about drunk digimon adventures. But of course, I’ve brought some of my college friends to the digital world since its peaceful now. I hope some of them get partners one day because it’d be cool. We’ll do weekend camping trips there, especially when it’s too cold here or we’ll just go out hiking some days. It’s just kinda nice to escape from the world and have fun in the woods. And well, everyone enjoys riding Newt as devidramon or megidramon across the sky because flying is fun.

My future goal once I graduate is really just using my bme degree to help the digital world. I wanna learn how their data works and how to repair it. I wanna work on new techniques to help heal them. I know right now things are peaceful, but if things don’t stay that way, there could be more fights which means more digimon to fix. On top of that, certain digimon have taken damage from the past fights and it’d be cool to be able to help them.

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Rumplestiltskin can see the future and he’s apparently already spotted Belle’s season 5 hero obsession.

Where did she get that book anyway? She didn’t bring anything with her from home & this is before Rumple showed her his old conquered up a library for her.

Belle: “I’m BORED! Can I read one of your books here?”

Rumple: “Sure, whatever.”

Belle: “Let’s see what you got here..’Taming Your Outer Child: Overcoming Self-Sabotage and Healing from Abandonment’?”

Rumple: “Give that back!”

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Ride with Norman Reedus Season 1 Episode 3 | Appalachia: Blue Ridge Parkway

‘My first time, I was 13. I borrowed my buddy’s YZ80,  and I sped off to my junior high school to show off. I was riding a wheelie on a hill  when, bam, I hit a bump, went airborne,  flipped over backwards, and came down hard. They took me to the hospital and stitched up my knee. Soon as I was out, though, I was back on that hill. Half hour later, I was back in that hospital.
 That’s the thing about bikes. Once you start, you just can’t stop. They connect you to the road. The road, that connects you to everything else’

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I realized I’ve been talking a lot about how Derek and I recently got engaged without really sharing our story. I realize some of my followers are probably already sick of me being excited about this, but I can’t be upset out it - I’m honestly way too happy to even care. So for those that are interested, here you go! 

 He asked me out on Friday the 13th in November of 2009. He was walking me back to my locker after biology, told me he liked me, I apparently took too long to answer (I was in shock) and he literally ran home. Anyway, that was our sophomore year of high school and we spent the rest of high school together. We went off to different colleges and that freshman year we hit a bump in the road. Long distance relationships are rough, but if there’s anything I’ve learned since freshman year, it’s that this guy is worth being apart most of the time because the time we do spend together is amazing. Jump to junior year, fall semester I spent studying abroad in Spain. This was so difficult for us. College freshman me couldn’t handle being 2 hours apart, being on two different continents didn’t seem possible. But somehow we managed, thank god for Skype and free texting apps! 

 I guess this brings us to two weekends ago. I’d had my suspicions about that weekend, being it was Derek’s idea to go away for the weekend and we’d never really done anything more than a day trip before. On that Saturday he asked my dad for his permission to marry me, and we then spent that day driving and then hiking and climbing and skipping rocks, etc at a state park. After several hours, I assumed he wasn’t going to propose that day but then he led me up on top of a high rock formation, at the top I was admiring the view and he hugged me from behind, grabbed my wrist to turn me around and got down on one knee.

It was perfect. And I am so happy and excited for our future together :)

anyway, this is a pretty shortened version of the past almost 6 years we have spent together and i know the long version nobody would ever want to read because it’d be way too long. :P

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FACES OF OUR TIME Keith Richards is a giant. I have been a Stones fan as long as I can remember. To be able to talk first hand with him about recording Beggars Banquet, Sticky Fingers and Exile on Maine Street ranks as a high for me. We met in Soho at a club called Blacks in a small upstairs room painted black, it fitted him just right. He took the room over with his cackles and chain smoking… an oversize glass of Jack in his hand naturally. Keith has the easiest good times manner about him, you get the distinct impression that he likes his life and all the trappings that go with it. He spoke of loving being on the road…he’s had to date over 50 yrs practice at it. He talked of influence, the Blues music he heard as a young man and the importance of always learning. Talking about Country music, Keith obviously had a special place for his old friend Gram Parsons and what an influence he had been at that time in the late sixties. Words and photographs by Steve Pyke.

“What is your biggest blessing?”

“My biggest blessing is hands down my deen. I am so blessed to be born as a Muslim and have Allah SWT in my life. I can honestly say that my deen has brought so much light into my life. Life isn’t always easy. There are ups and there are downs but Allah SWT has gotten me through every single moment. There has never been a point in my life when I was distressed and Allah SWT didn’t make a road for me or a path for me. I may have experienced rough times but Allah has never ever failed me and I know he won’t ever fail me insha Allah because Allah SWT never abandons a believer! In my sophomore year of high school, I took AP European History. It was my first AP class. I knew it was going to be hard and I knew that many people who had taken the class before I did suffered a lot but I still went through with it. The class was extremely difficult. I would go home and cry almost every 2 days because the stress of the class was killing me. The AP exam was rolling around and my stress levels sky rocketed. I was so scared. When I took the test I knew for sure that I was going to get a 1. I came home with a sad face but my mom gave me talk. My mom offered me so many pieces of advice but the biggest piece of advice she offered me was that I should go to Allah SWT. I prayed and I made duaa and  Allah SWT answered my duaas. He gave me a 4 on the AP Exam when I thought I was going to get a 1. Allah SWT didn’t abandon me. I remember looking at my score and the first thing I said was “Allah is enough for me.” Tear were rolling down my eyes because I couldn’t believe how Allah elevated my status. I am not a perfect Muslim! I haven’t anyone who is a perfect Muslim because there’s no such thing as a perfect Muslim except for the Prophet SAW. However, Allah was still there. Being born a Muslim was the best thing that ever happened to me. It allowed me to become closer to Allah SWT and made me realize that what ever happens happens for the best. My deen is my life.”

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Listen, Monday and Mother Nature totally won yesterday. Around 4:30 it started to storm and the ONLY exit to our parking lot was flooded by the time we went to leave. A few people drove through it and a few smaller cars and my co workers decided to wait. I don’t really have that much experience with the roads flooding so I too waited…for like an hour. So that took away Zumba. And then I became hangry. And worried I was going to have to sit in the parking lot all night. It drained a little but was still high but we all took a chance and thankfully made it out. The first route I tried to take home was flooded so I had to turn around and I FINALLY made it home. Kevin was off work so it was nice that he was there. It kinda took a lot out of me so I got in bed around 8 and played on my phone, looked at wedding venues and let my anxiety go down before I went to sleep.

Today’s a new day right?? I’m still giving the rain the side eye but I parked in the front parking lot (I was in the employee one last night) which has multiple exits in case a storm shows up again.

Despite my Monday going 0% like I expected I still got up today, had my breakfast bowl and packed my lunch for today. I’m currently eating some pineapple and getting ready to start my day with a hug in a mug aka coffee.

Today will be better!! It HAS to be!