i’m writing this do to the distance that has been felt between jungkook and jimin.
i can see you from afar and i know you’ve been having it rough. Tour was supposed to make you happier, although i still catch you smiling your frown lingers often. i would do anything to see you be the ball of energy you used to be. the death threats are getting to you i see if and the constant attacks and hate are too. i mean come on you can deny it completely but the distance and the wall you built up between the members and i is so obvious. especially with me, you never put up a wall with me unless something was really wrong. i’m tired of hearing “i’m ok kookie don’t worry” and forcing a smile on your face it hurts me. i want to be right there next to you when you’re hurting i want to hold you while you’re sleeping, the only time you’re at peace. i’m dying to have you in my arms again jimin but you’re so fucking distance and i know you just want the space but with us there’s no point.
“kookie i’ve already told you i’m doing fine ok i’m just a little sleepy”
“ok then let’s sleep, i’ll come over” i offer over the phone, that was all i could seem to do since he wouldn’t open up if i just showed up.
“i don’t know kookie maybe we….”
“i’m coming over and you’re opening the door i’m not taking no for an answer you either open it or i sleep outside the door i don’t care jimin i miss you” i interrupt him before he can say no, i’m honestly so tired and i just need him to know i’m here for him, i refuse to hear another excuse.
i walk over 3 doors down and knock on the hotel door. jimin answers instantly and there he is right in front of me bare faced black t shirt and black basketball shorts.
“come on in jungkookie” he spoke with a sly smile. i could tell he wanted me here and maybe all along all he needed was me to insist and force him to allow me in.
“i’ve missed this familiar scene seeing you open the door for me bare faced” i walked in and shut the door behind me and instantly cupped his face with my hands, forehead to forehead i looked him in the eyes.
“jimin-ah i know you’ve been hurting i can sense it, i know you’re having a hard time and you don’t want any of us to help, bc it would be too much of a bother, i get it but i’m the last person you should distance yourself from this space between us is killing me, seeing you hurting and not being able to do anything is killing me you know how much i fucking love you” the words i’ve been keeping in flooded out of me as if jimin was the city under drought and i was the rain watering it.
“jungkookie i… i didn’t know you felt that way, i know you guys know it’s been hard for me but this is what i do, i refuse to be a burden to all of you like i was before” he spoke with so much pain in the word burden.
i pressed my lips to his gently kissing him, i haven’t felt his kiss in so long i was starving for it. i pulled back after one kiss “jimin you could never be a burden not to me not to any of us, let me help you please, let me hold you, let me kiss you again, let me be the boyfriend that i’m supposed to be”
“fuck kookie i’ve missed you too it hasn’t helped keeping my distance from you but i just don’t know how to handle all of this, the hate, the threats, i just want to runaway”
“baby it’ll all be over soon, it’ll all get better it always does, just don’t distance yourself anymore let me comfort you” finally i got through to him i should’ve made this move sooner maybe he wouldn’t be hurting so bad. i press my lips against his again and this time i can feel him kissing me back more willingly. this was where we were supposed to be where i was supposed to be the whole time. his hands wrap around my waist and i feel them get a little tighter
“ahh jimin… i love you” i speak between intertwined tongues and kisses
“i love you too… now come on…. let’s go to bed” he kisses me one more time before grabbing my hand and leading me to bed with him.
i hope you guys enjoy this short little story, (: