and i need to have the right timing

transcript of all the texts peter sent to happy

…Anyways, I’m out of school at 3 today
Need my assistance?
What is Tony up to?
Tell him I say hi!
Hey Happy!
Just checking in again.
Really miss our missions, hoping to do one again soon!
You think you’ll need me today?
Out of school at 2:45
Ready when you are!
Hey Happy
Just updating you on the latest!
Helped clear the road for an ambulance
Stopped a guy trying to mug an old man
Just being me, cleaning up Queens!
School is so boring
Wish I could be doing more
Just let me know!
This is your number, right?
Press 1 if yes, 2 if no
How’s Black Widow?
or should I say, “Natasha”
Big News! Quit Band Practice
Now I have more time for crime-fighting
Pretty big sacrifice
but I am completely committed
Hey Happy just checking in. I’m out of school at 2:45 PM 👊
Ready for my next mission!
It’s Peter BTW.

What people really fail to grasp is how distractions work when you have adhd. It isn’t just things like hearing someone say your name and immediately having your attention go to that conversation; it’s not even like hearing a siren and watching around for an ambulance in case you have to get out of the way.

I mean, it is all that, but so much more. It’s like every little thing that happens around you is that siren, and it needs your attention RIGHT NOW because what if you have to adjust your driving for it!?

Someone is eating an apple? You hear it actively. Someone is tapping their foot repeatedly? You hear it constantly. Someone is talking? Time to listen in.

And it doesn’t stop there. It’s so hard to even get small tasks done, like folding laundry for example. You start folding it, and notice that the table you are folding on has a smudge. You go and clean it. While you are in the kitchen getting the cleaning supplies, you notice the dishwasher should be turned on. You load it and turn it on.

While on your way back to the living room, where you were folding laundry, you notice you forgot some things that should have been put in the dishwasher as well. You get back to the laundry, fold one thing again, and notice the same smudge. You are then triggered in remembering you wanted to clean, and go back to the kitchen for the supplies.

With those in your hand, you notice some stuff you should throw away. You continue to the folding table, clean it, and go put the supplies back. You pick up the stuff to throw away and put it in the bin. The bin is full, so you replace the trash bag and toss the old one out.

You get back to the living room. When folding your underwear, you think that the one you’re folding really isn’t comfy. You want to throw it out. You make a pile of underwear to throw out, and while you’re at it you go through your closet for more old clothes. You look for a bag to put it in to donate them.

Back to folding. After a long time, actively thinking “no i am folding now” with every distractive thought, you finally finish. You have the clothes all laid out on the dinner table now, ready to put into the closet. You are tired and think “I’ll do it later.” Spoiler alert, later never comes, because your mind thinks you are done because you folded the laundry. And all of this happens even when you’re on meds - the biggest difference then is that you can actively think “no i am folding now” to do some damage control.

Having adhd isn’t being lazy. Having adhd is not only being distracted by things like “squirrel!” Having adhd means having to struggle every day to complete even the simplest of tasks - just because there are so many damn ambulances around.

I’ve met a lot of really cool people on here over the years and a lot of the time I talk with someone for the first time it’s cause they need help. It could be gif questions, photography related, to really intimate and personal matters. At the end of the day, a few of you have trusted me, many of you without even knowing my name, to hear you out and reciprocate with some kind of feedback. I’ve grown to feel socially responsible for helping and enlightening others in any way I can. 

I’ll get right to it cause there’s no grand backstory to this. This is me somewhere just above 400 lbs. I think the one on the left is around 410 and that was taken spring 2010.

And this is me now around 190.

I’m making this post for a slew of reasons but mainly as an added source of encouragement for anyone that may need it. For anyone curious about the timeline, when I started losing weight, or rather, making an effort to lose it, I lost about 100 lbs. I managed to stay to around 300 for about a year, year and a half, then I was done with school and back at home looking for jobs. The market was pretty ass at the time so I wasn’t getting many replies. So I was at home, depressed cause I wasn’t getting call backs and turning to food for comfort. I must’ve put back on maybe 60 to 70 lbs in a year. My weight went up and down constantly, though. Half assed spurts to work out a week here, a week there, then right back to unhealthy eating habits wasn’t doing any any favors. 

The biggest chunk of progress since that initial 100 lbs loss happened in the last year. I don’t have a good reference for where I was last year this time but my weight and pants size has always been pretty consistent so I mustve dropped 110 lbs since last August, with about 80 of that happening since this March. It could be more but I try not to focus much on numbers they’re not what this has been about for me. 

Look, things take time. Nothing worth having is gonna come overnight. You’re gonna have to make up in your mind that you want something and commit to it. No amount of support from people will matter if you yourself don’t want it enough. I’m only here typing this because I made the best use possible use of all the free time I used to have on my hands. Countless mornings, evenings, nights, I’d be like “eh, I can skip the gym today and go tomorrow.” Nah, stuff like feeds into the mentality of putting off something for tomorrow that you’re fully capable of doing today, even right now. 

And don’t expect to see results overnights. This entire thing took seven years, and at one point I can wiped away almost all of the progress I made. This took sacrifices, as will anything you’re striving for. It’s not easy, and for many people, they simply don’t have the time or money to make the changes necessary in their life to take on healthier habits, and I’m entirely aware and respectful of that. But if this is something you’ve been wanting to do or thinking of doing, go for it. If you have the time and resources, go for it. Don’t worry about the energy, that’ll come. Progress is the biggest motivating factor. I continue to shoot because I think I’m better than I was a year ago, babies try to run right after they’ve learned to walk and they’re doing that innately. We’re wired to feed off of our own accomplishments, so that first 5 lbs or first pants size you drop could very well power you to levels of success you never thought you’d attain. 

Whatever you’re after, the second you can, the moment you’re in the right headspace to give it a shot, do it, and do it for you.


Rhys walked in the library and spotted her immediately. Striding over confidently he stopped in front of her 

“ Hey princess, haven’t seen you in detention in a while…” 

“ I told you to stop calling me that!” 

Ignoring her he looked down at her work “ Ahh… you’re doing the dreaded Mrs Wilsons math test.” 

“ I can help you..when’s the test?” 

“ Yeah right! ” she rolled her eyes

“ It’s not polite to roll your eyes princess, and I’ll have you know, i had Mrs Wilson last year and I have straight A’s in Maths and Physics, ”

Thalia rolled her eyes again in defiance “ You expect me to believe that?!”  

“ Yes actually”  he held her gaze for moment trying to figure out what she was thinking.

Thalia broke the eye contact standing up hurriedly “ I don’t have time for this I need to find the Trigonometry unit 5 book.” 

BTS Reactions: To you growing up an orphan.

A/N:  Thank you very much for readying my works. We all have hard times in life, I hope you stay strong. If you need someone to talk to, you can message me. I would love to help if I can.I  hope you like this reaction honey.Sorry for any mistakes made.

Requested by: Anonymous 

Request: “ Hi. First of all I love your BTS reactions. They always cheer me up, since I am going through a rough time right now. Anyways can you please do a BTS reaction to you telling them that you grew up as an orphan? Thank you! I love your content! 


He won’t know what to say, but the motherly side in him will show almost immediately. Jin will walk over to you and give you the biggest and warmest hug you have ever received. ”At moments like this I don’t know what to say, so I hope my actions show you how I feel.”he will pull back a bit and look into your eyes with a smile on his lips “ I promise to treasure you, because you deserve so much more.I love you.” Jin will do his playful air kiss and make you giggle.

Originally posted by bwiseoks

Min Yoongi/Suga:

 Yoongi is a man of few words. When you tell him this fact about yourself, his eyes will be focused on you. You can see in them all the things he wanted to tell you. “Come here for a bit.”he will sit up on the couch. When you walk over, he will grab your hand and pull you onto his lap. “The moment I first saw you I wanted to give you the world.You are such an amazing person.Being through so much has made you into a strong woman. I promise to be by your side forever.”he will lean his head onto your chest “I won’t leave.”

Originally posted by yoonmin

Jung Hoseok/J-hope:

 Hobi is a ball of sunshine and hope. When he hears that, he will notice the change in your voice and realize that this was not a comfortable thing for you. Hoseok will pick you up and twirl you around the room “Don’t think about that now. The most important thing is that I found you and that you have me. You know I love you right?”he will place you on the floor and hug you, looking down at your face “Do you want to go and get some ice cream?

Originally posted by hoseoks-angel

Kim Namjoon/Rap Monster:

 Joony will try to lighten up the situation by saying something smart, but when it fails, he will just let his heart speak in his place. “This is the first time I don’t know what to say.”he will place your head onto his chest “Do you hear that?It beats only for you.I want you to know that I will be here with you, holding your hand till the end.

Originally posted by jiminiminii

Park Jimin:

 Jimin is a very lovable mochi that has a big heart, he will run up to you and start leaving little butterfly kisses onto your cheeks, forehead, lips ,eyes. Everywhere he can. “Don’t be sad Y/N. I am here for you. I always will be. I want you to smile. I don’t want to see you sad. I promise to do anything in my power to be able to hug you everyday.” 

Originally posted by parkjmzl

Kim Taehyung/V:

 Tae will have a straight face at first, it might come as a slight shock to him, but he will snap out fast and smile at you lovingly. He will grab your hand and look at you “You have me. I know I act like a child some times, but you are the most important person to me. I will give you two times the love, not three times. As much as you need, so don’t worry.”

Originally posted by mvssmedia


 He will look at you “Jagi, you are a person with a very strong heart, but sometimes you need to lean onto someone as well. You are not alone, you have me. I am very strong too, so let me protect you from now on, ok?

Originally posted by jengkook

 Anony I know you are going through a difficult time in your life.You don’t know me and this might sound strange, but you have a very big family here.A loving and talented omma.

Originally posted by bwiseoks

A great and smart appa.

Originally posted by fyeahbangtaned

A grumpy, but squishy angel .

Originally posted by frostbittensuga

A sunshine that can make your troubles melt away.  

Originally posted by jinful

And three AWESOME big/little brothers.

Originally posted by jungkook-gifs

Hey guys, I’m back

I know I never officially declared hiatus but I took a while to gather myself. I went to a mental health hospital where my meds got readjusted and I felt safe enough to go home.

This being said, I still have a long ways to go in terms of my recovery. I have joined a local nondenominational church and a 12 step program that they have and it is helping tremendously with my drinking and smoking habits, as well as self harm and being down and out. I’m also in weekly therapy sessions and monthly psychiatric visits. I’m sorry I went AWOL, but it was necessary to take some time away from social media.

I have canceled my fall challenge as I need to focus on myself. I am not my best self right now, and if I can’t be my best self I can’t be a leader to y’all.

I wanna give special thanks to the people who have given me support and understanding to my situation, and thanks to everyone who wanted to participate in my challenge. I want to especially thank @evolutionofacosfitter @fromfattofitt @armsintheair @skinny4fitness and @healthyfitpunk for being here for me and guiding me through this recovery process.

As a PSA, my blog will involve a lot of mental health and recovery aspects as it has and it will continue to be a fitness inspiration blog, and I will start personally posting daily to update you guys.

Thanks for understanding and being here for me through this all. I really appreciate it.

bayturtle12  asked:

Hey Leo, that future was just a possible one right? It really isn't true, is it? And I need some hugs and advice from you for the future, because things are really giving me a hard time...

What future? I am still not fully understanding what it was people saw. I am a turtle that lives in the now, sure I have ideas…but, I also know not all will work out. I don’t want to stress about it.

But what I have heard lately…can’t say that I am not horrified.

I’m not reblogging that long-ish post because there are some inaccuracies (regarding the covers of the Star Wars Adventures comics), but there really does need to be PLENTY more Finn merchandise.

I don’t have a problem with Disney/Lucasfilm making merchandise of various “cool-looking” characters like the Praetorian Guards and various Stormtrooper variants — that kind of shit does tend to sell fairly well, and it doesn’t matter much if those characters won’t be in the movie much.

I do have a problem with relegating the male lead and especially leaving him out of box sets (TWO Stormtrooper variants and no Finn? Doesn’t look right.) If they think he didn’t sell well first time around (which’ll be because of racism) they could try putting him IN the damn box sets! I’m glad they cast John Boyega because he’s great (and I know that came from a push from JJ Abrams) so they need to follow through on that with the merch and not be lazy.

We also could do with less Kylo merch to be perfectly honest. I mean I love ol’ Shitface but he’s every-fucking-where.

Care for Yourself, Care for Others

Over the last two weeks a good dozen+ folks I know well have made posts here and elsewhere expressing feelings of being overwhelmed/exhausted. In every case a combination of personal issues, current events, and the political climate right now are all playing a role. But in short, we’re living in rough times and many of the folks I know (myself included) are running low on resilience reserves. There’s no simple solution to that, but I think it’s worth the reminder (and because I too need the reminder): take care of yourself. You deserve it, and you will be best able to care for others if you are not running on empty. Seriously.

I need to get a few other things done tonight, but going to try and follow my own advice and carve out some time for myself. It’s important.

Originally posted by keldelel

anonymous asked:

People makes mistakes. Some witches, if not all, start from 0, doing stupid stuff without any intention to annoy anyone, until they learn their right path, including finding trustworthy info online. You should give the anon the benefit of the doubtn and be gentle with the way you answer them, as much as it annoyes you. That anon maybe needed more time to realize the tools available here.

Sorry kiddo, but that’s not how it works. 
Laziness gets you nothing. If they really took into account the resources at their fingertips, looked through it, and still had questions, I’d be happy to answer. Others have done it and asked brilliant questions. I usually give them a long response in payment for their efforts. 
A lazy question begets a lazy answer.
we won't leave you alone with it - ifinkufreaky - Vikings (TV) [Archive of Our Own]
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
By Organization for Transformative Works

GUYS I NEED HELP…. ANYONE KNOW WHO WROTE THIS BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I NEEDED RIGHT NOW! I have an idea of who it might be…. Please make yourself known… Cuz I love you💖💖💖💖

Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Vikings (TV)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Ubbe (Vikings)/Reader, Hvitserk/Margrethe/Ubbe (Vikings)
Characters: Ubbe (Vikings), Hvitserk (Vikings)
Additional Tags: Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Comfort Sex, sharing a woman, Threesome - F/M/M, it’s what good brothers do on this show

the Reader is depressed; Ubbe and Hvitserk think getting into bed with her will help. It’s comfort sandwich time.

anonymous asked:

You've been really snippy lately. I hope you're doing okay. It would be a bummer if this blog was a burden and not a fun thing for you. Take breaks whenever you have to dude

I’m not really sure what you mean? This blog has never been a burden on me, and I’m sorry that you’re reading my tone wrong, really and truly. I took a break from posting for about three or four days, and even now I’m still not posting a ton because I’m on vacation right now for the first time ever! I’ve been working on my commissions and relaxing because I’ve needed to for a very long time. Once more, I’m real sorry that you’re reading my tone wrong, there’s only so much that I can convey through text.

paperkatla  asked:

Cisco, Caitlin, Barry. I'm editing a prompt a little to just be "Please, stop." All I ask for Cisco whump. Please and thank you.

And Dammit Hedgi Day begins! Set after 3x23


At first he ignored the sound of his name. It wasn’t real. It didn’t matter.  What mattered, the only thing that did, was finding the right frequency. It shouldn’t have been so hard. He didn’t need to vibe the past, or the future, or another world, and those would have been the only places he heard that voice calling. Not this time, this place.  Caitlin had made herself clear. He had, as always, as much as it tore him in half, respected her demand for solitude. So she would not be here. Her voice could not be real, and he could shake it away and keep searching.

“Cisco,” came her voice again, more forceful, too solid to be memory or mere possibility.  He realized that the blur of the world around him was not the Star Trek Reboot lense flare of a Vibe, just a trick of tired eyes. A body pushed too close to the limits. (but what did that matter? Wasn’t science about pushing limits? Wasn’t being a hero? Wasn’t family? Like Ronnie, he’ long since committed to his course of action. He needed only to follow through, and damn the consequences.)

“Caitlin?” he managed after a moment, trying to remember how to form words with a too-dry mouth. The name felt distant. He watched her brow furrow, the crease in her forehead above her nose there. Concern? Anger? He could have told, once. Second only to Ronnie and maybe The man they’d thought was Wells in translating Caitlin’s body language and expressions, when everyone else was content to just assume quiet displeasure and escape with their lives. Once. Not now.

“What are you doing?” she asked. Was that harsh tone anger or fear? Concern?  Before this whole terrible mess had started, he might have called it all three, that she was worried for him. Now, he wasn’t sure.  He could still hear her calling him pathetic, the shield that was Killer Frost up and active.  It hadn’t been long ago. Just the other week was the last time he’d vibed it, unbidden, unwilling.  He flexed fingers he’d woken unsure he still possessed, feeling phantom frostbite. Those were the worst dreams, now, ever since the ones of Eobard Thawne shredding his still-beating heart had eased months back.

He ignored the question, closing his eyes.  He could feel it, just beyond reach, see it as if through a sheet of pale silk, or butcher paper—outlines, the sparks of the storm, Barry. Soon. Soon he’d be able to claw through the curtain, tear it to shreds. He had to. He had to.

“When was the last time you slept? Ate?” Caitlin’s voice broke through. He finally looked at her.  Where her eyes blue? No, that was the fading vibe. Amber. Soft warmth.  Her hair was still pale.

“I’m fine,” he said, trying to stand and failing.  He’d never really recovered from the second attempt to punch a hole in the speedforce. That had been days ago, or maybe only hours. He wasn’t sure. But while he couldn’t stand, he could thing, he could vibe, he could find the frequencies and follow them and play them, exposed strings in an upright piano with the backing shattered.

“You need to—Cisco, what are you doing to yourself?”

Cisco looked from her to the workspace. His headset, free from Harry’s manipulations. Machinery that hummed for his ears alone. Latent lightning, just waiting.

“What does it look like?” he croaked. “I’m bringing Barry back.  I’m bringing him home. I have to.”
“No, you don’t,” Caitlin spat, or was it Frost, that middle ground? “Cisco, you can’t, this isn’t safe—“
“And what is?” he asked, tired. “You can stay if you want. I meant it. This can—I still want this to be a home for you. Again. I just. I have to make this right. I’ve seen how—how it all goes if I don’t. And what we can have—what you all can have—if I do—if I get it right. It’s not a hard choice. But do what you want. I guess it doesn’t matter what I say. You’ve already made your choices. And I’ve made mine.”

He reached for the headset, steeling himself. He could see Caitlin’s mouth opening as he jammed it on, hit the button. Anything she said was lost to the storm.  The lightning crackled and split like the veins in a hand, the roots of a tree, coursing through him. Every nerve lit and sang with the pain of the speedforce.

And there was Barry. Gaunt, weathered, lightning-lit. His eyes sparked gold, the last bright thing about him. He seemed to be looking at something Cisco couldn’t see, didn’t want to see. All he could focus on was Barry, reaching out a wavering, faltering hand. He tried to call out, to reach out, to drag Barry back through the Cisco-shaped wound in the speedforce, the hole he’d created with his own body.

It wasn’t that the not-wind of the storm stole the words. They simply never were. The vibrations hummed around him and refused to bend to his will. And yet, Barry turned, and the emptiness on his face was replaced with something even worse. Heartbreak, and grief, and refusal to accept. Cisco wondered if Barry was realizing the cost of coming, if he felt in his own bones that Cisco had pushed his body far past its breaking point, and now at last that debt had come due. There would be no returning.

“Cisco,” Barry said, and now his hand was solid. For a moment Cisco thought it was relief, until he realized the fading pain came from his own hand dissolving, scattering into pinpoints in the nebula surrounding them. “Please, stop, go back, get out of here, I’ll stay, please.”

Too late, Cisco thought, but did not have the time to say.

anonymous asked:

Dude, you won't be able to have fun with drawing if you need do take drugs in order to MAKE PICTURES. I don't even want to discuss the health-problems you get (or already have) because of less sleep. There's a reason the body NEEDS it. Please... rest a bit. For you and the people that care about you

Welp funny you talk about that, Mom#2, I just came back from my doctor appointment. 
The thing is sleep is a luxury that I can’t have right now because of maaaany reasons, even if I’m very tired, so the doc gave me some soft medication (homeopathy), I’ll see if it works in a couple months I guess. 

Thank you for your concern, yeah, I’m aware that my health is a mess and for a long time I didn’t care at all but now I feel like if I don’t do something i’m going to… I dunno…. became a big pile of useless sad goop?

Yeah I like to make fun of my health in this blog but don’t worry, I’m taking it more seriously, it just helps me to cope with it~

hella-goddess  asked:

Is there any good way to not feel like you're always disliked?? If there is I would like to know... But Hey! Nobody ever answers so I'll just put a fake smile on my face... See ya..

Hey, bud, I think that people like ya, they just don’t know how to express that. I know that I like you! You seem to be really nice and care about a lot of things! Honestly, you’ll find your group of friends, just give it time. Please don’t pretend that you are okay, because that how bottling up your feelings starts, then ends up with depressed emotions. If you need friends, I bet you have a whole bunch right here.

I was just thinking to myself that I need twenty one pilots right now bc I’m having a rough time so I shuffle my playlist and truce was the first to play

The boys are always here to help me even if they don’t even realise & I didn’t know how much I needed this song until right now

So, I re-read IT and then saw the new movie.

Here are some scattered thoughts:

-They clearly emphasized the horror. Damn, this movie had some scary-ass scenes. However, this took away from time that could have been used to build tension or develop plot and characters.

-Speaking of plot, there’s a whole hell of a lot when it comes to IT. Honestly, even the way they’ve rewritten the script and split it into two movies isn’t quite enough to do it justice. IT would work best as a Stranger Things-esque TV show, imo. There are so many important characters and so much rich background.

-And they were liberal with the rewriting, which is understandable. I would have liked to see it set in the 60s like the original, but that’s all right. Giving Ben a love of Derry history rather than architecture- that’s a smart choice for a plot that needs to use all the time it has. And the Ironworks bit was plenty scary.

-But in the rewriting, I feel like some characters got cheated. Mike and Stan are left sadly flat, and I felt as though Mike’s relationship with his kind farmer parents should have stayed as a foil to Henry’s dysfunctional one. And while Stan’s Jewish heritage was emphasized, his personality was boiled down to “kinda cowardly”. I would have loved to see him at least pick up a pair of binoculars or a book on birds! I also think there was no need to change the target of Beverly’s bullying from “white trash” to “slut”. With the sexual themes centered on her already, it felt like too much.

-Now, there were some wonderful callbacks to the book. IT’s werewolf hand, the mummy face, and the garish Paul Bunyan statue were just a few Easter eggs thrown in for us that I loved.

-Now, the final battle with IT. What to say? First of all, there was never any chance they would have kept the weird child group sex scene from the book, and for that, I’m grateful. But the glimpse of the deadlights and the lack of IT’s true body made me wish that we had been given more of the true climactic battle. IT’s identity was stripped away to “a supernatural clown that feeds on fear”, and that’s simply not enough. Although I did love the floating imagery.

-There’s a lot more to say, but all in all, the 2017 IT is a great movie if you’re looking for a scary film that takes a sprawling epic of a book and turns it into a tight horror flick. I’m looking forward to seeing how they handle the future in Chapter 2- especially the casting for the Losers Club, Audra, and Tom!