i’m having a fucking anxiety fit rn and it sucks
like, the last 3 days have been taking care of my mother since she hurt herself and i don’t mind doing that at all. i really didn’t mind. but it was being with her all day and driving her everywhere, and when it was over, i was relieved to just have a day to myself because i need one sometimes, and the past few weeks have been so fucking…. not bad but super anxiety-inducing.
so i got up at like 8:30AM to get out of the house to go do stuff because i wanted to get out so badly but
now she needs me to drop off her admission paperwork and wants to do lunch with me.
i don’t want to do lunch. like, i’m. nonverbal rn. i don’t want to talk. i want to put my head down and cry from weird emotional exhaustion, i’m just totally spent.
this sucks. this sucks so much.