Harass my daughter on Minecraft? You can't hide from me.
So, my daughter, who was about 8 at the time, was REALLY into Minecraft (as most kids are these days). Also desperately wanting to join the Youtube/Let’s Play culture, I had installed some screen recording software that would let her make videos of the games she was playing so she could later upload them to Youtube.
Anyways, one day I’m minding my own business when I hear her quietly sniffling over on the computer. I asked her what was wrong, but she didn’t want to tell me so I let it go, but decided to keep on eye on her. A few minutes later I discovered what was happening; someone was harassing not only her, but also all the other kids playing on whatever server she was on. This kid (we’ll call him Little Sh*thead, or LS) was saying sh*t about how he was going to rape my 8 year old daughter (she told him how old she was hoping he would stop), how he was going to hack into her IP and steal all her info, swearing profusely (remember, this is a game for kids), etc etc. By this time I had gotten my fiance involved, and she was also obviously quite upset at what a little sh*t this kid was being. We realized that our daughter had been recording the entire incident, and a plan began to form.
I started by googling LS’s username. There were several hits immediately, the most interesting of which involved a page where he was publicly applying to be a mod for a server on Minecraft. I was able to learn a lot about this little POS: he claimed to be 15, likes hockey, used to live in Toronto but now lives in Florida. But the bombshell was easily his skype contact info; it was literally firstname.lastname. I know your name now, you little sh*t.
So I head over to Facebook and search for the name. Nothing. Hmmmm. On a hunch I searched for just the last name, while narrowing my results to only the state of Florida. Several dozen hits. Hmmm. So I have to start combing through each one, until I find what I was looking for: a middle aged man with the same last name, whose profile indicates he was born in Toronto and now lives in Florida. I FOUND YOUR DAD, YOU LITTLE SH*T.
So I sent him a message on Facebook, asking if he had a son named firstname who goes by his username on Minecraft. Dad confirmed I had the right guy. So my wife begins telling the dad everything that LS was saying to my daughter, and we sent him the recorded video as proof. Radio silence for a few days.
Then we got the message back: LS had his computer taken away from him for the entire summer, and had also been lying about his age (he was only 11, I think). His parents were f*cking livid with him, and he surely hated the next few months of his life.
why don't you like kathleen kennedy? shes the only female and she seems nice
it’s april 2017 and there are still people who dont know kk is a white demon
kk is an icon of white feminism.
when she doesn’t get involved directly, female characters’ looks get incredibly diverse (animated series or novels etc. although, we can’t say they treat women of color well.)
new female actresses who play lead roles, d ridley, f jones, and e clarke are all white brunette (just like her). this is my personal opinion but for me, f jones was the weakest part in rogue one because of her emontionless and soulless performance, but kk was the one who insisted on casting her and she’s very proud of it. we haven’t seen clarke’s performance in the upcoming han solo film yet but she’s already very famous for horrible eyebrow acting (even her fans admit it). tessa thompson and zoe kravitz, who also auditioned for clarke’s role, is obviously better than her.
(also, i think the rogue one novel was a bit better but the movie was… it focuses on the white woman, who didn’t care about the rebellion but only herself then becomes a hero. it’s not feminism when men of color are used to spotlight a white woman, especially when one of them has sacrificed everything for the rebellion from when he was a very young kid. when i heard jyn’s character was originally more like cassian i couldn’t stop groaning because THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH BETTER.)
‘for some reason’ she keeps thinking white brunette women are the most ideal people to get the roles. even if she’s doing it unconsciously, it doesn’t change the fact that’s racism. she’s a racist.
and when you are a racist you can’t be a feminist because feminism means you support all the women.
she seems very passionate when she talks about rey and jyn but when it’s about other actors who are men of color she suddenly becomes silent?? and she talks about this “girl power” a lot but when it’s about races, ethnicities and diversity she doesn’t say anything? it’s always the directors who sat next to her who speak about it, or actors of color themselves. her “girl power” only involves white women and yet she said star wars represented the world.
she was a producer of complete disaster : avatar the last airbender movie, where almost everyone got whitewashed, which means she learned nothing from her past.
Actually, she isn’t even a feminist. Every time someone asks questions about “girl power” in panels she gets obviously irritated. One time, she was even dismissive towards the person who asked it too.
All right, so this is essentially the beginning of energy related witchcraft that I’ll be posting about as I try it and learn new things. Feel free to try out some of the stuff I talk about here but please remember that this is your journey and you can and should edit and tweak everything to best fit you.
Types of Energy
Reserved Energy floats either just above or below your skin. It should feel like it’s attached to you and resist most attempts to use it. It is minimally pliant, minimally workable, and mostly just exists as a backup or protection.
Latent Energy is typically a ball of energy that is extremely malleable and easily visualized. This type of energy is more ‘for your use’. It can be visualized anywhere in the body; however, where ever it best seems to fit (i.e. a ball of energy in your stomach, chest, head, etc) is normally where it stays. Latent energy is great to work with to give yourself a better mastery over molding both Reserved and Latent energy.
Neighboring (or Immediate) Energy is an amalgamation of your energies and outside forces. It’s best visualized and felt by meditating. If you’ve meditated and felt like you were basically out of your own body and hazy, you’ve felt Neighboring Energy. It’s less you and, as a by product, significantly harder to work with. It’s not as difficult as Reserved Energy since that’s an active rejection to change, and this is simply difficult because you’re reaching beyond yourself.
Visualizing Your Energy
Visualizing energy can be a bit tricky, but seeing your energy, in my opinion, is equally important as feeling it. Being able to see and acknowledge your energy makes feeling and moving it so much simpler. There are a couple of ways to visualize your energy, so we’ll hop into those first:
First Plane Visualization (FPV)
If you close your eyes to visualize your energy and the first thing you see is your body, this is where you’re at. First Plane Visualization essentially means your energy best manifests itself to you as a physical part of you. Personally, I feel this makes it easier to work with Latent and Reserved Energy, but harder to work with Neighboring.
Second Plane Visualization (SPV)
If attempting to visualize your energy brings up empty space with your energy in some form or shape in it, congrats, this is you. This type of visualization makes it significantly easier to work with energy that isn’t yours but more difficult to work with your own as well. Your energy seems to best manifest itself as a construct in your mind, essentially on a different plane than your physical body. To use it, you have to get around your own barrier between it and physicality whereas outside energies that are already on your plane don’t need any extra work for you to work with them.
When you visualize your energy, you’re essentially introducing yourself and greeting it. In the same way you most likely wouldn’t hand a stranger a thousand dollars, your energy isn’t likely to do much for you if you don’t at least know it.
Moving Your Energy
Think of your energy as a muscle, if you never use it, it becomes that much more difficult to begin using and to strengthen it. Please don’t expect to hop in, visualize your energy once, and suddenly have it do everything you want it to.
First try visualizing your energy with your eyes closed. Spend some time with it, don’t demand anything of it. Is your energy naturally calm? Does it spin lazily as you sit with it? Is your energy a spitfire, constantly flinging out strands of itself and wrapping around everything it can without leaving it’s basic shape? Who is your energy? What kind of personality do you get from it?
Try to learn and love your energy every time you visualize it. When you’ve got the image of your energy firmly in your head, preferably to the point where you can almost feel it wherever it’s best visualized, try moving it. Try to get a strand of it to detach from the bulk of your energy and pull it towards you. If that’s difficult, simply work on moving the bulk of your energy towards and away from you (SPV) or around your body (FPV). This should honestly take awhile. Remember that you’re not simply trying to visualize it, but feel it. As it moves, you should feel it. Once you’ve got a mastery of that, try opening your eyes and doing it over again.
When you can move your energy in bulk or pieces with a bit more ease, I recommend pushing it to the surface. The easiest place to feel Latent Energy is between your palms. If trying to move your energy with in yourself simply won’t work for you, try this instead, then move back to that later. To push your energy to your hands for FPV, imagine it wherever it tends to manifest itself. Push it, either in whole or (preferably) in part, down or up your body and into your palms. If you need your eyes closed to direct it, by all means, close them; however, once you’ve got it comfortably in your palms, open your eyes and try to get used to keeping a hold on your energy with your eyes open. Allow it to do as it pleases within the space between your palms. Start out with maybe half a foot between your hands and slowly increase the distance as you grow more confident.
For SPV, visualize your energy and bring it towards you. Bring out either two bits of it, still connected to the whole, or the bulk of it towards yourself until it feels like you’ve stepped inside of it or as though it’s encompassed you. Carefully, without losing that feeling, visualize it (either with your eyes opened or closed depending on what works better for you) sparking its way down your arms and into your hands. If that’s too far to visualize, simply imagine it condensing between or in your palms for the get-go. Because your own image is less involved in your own energy, expect to have a harder time keeping it where you want it to be.
Energy, like most objects, rejects movement without force. When you move it at first, it may feel like it snaps back to where it started no matter what you do. Keep practicing and remember that it hasn’t really moved in years, so it’ll take some work to get it to move now.
We’re finally at the end of what I can share for the time being. I only have a couple of practices that I’ve been using lately, only one of which I’ll add here, specifically for Reserved Energy because that’s what I’m practicing working with currently. I will update this as time goes on but I do want to be sure before I give put any exercises. For example, one of them uses hunger as a basis and I don’t know how I feel about giving a purpose to staying hungry, so I’ll wait to add that if at all.
Find a cold room or area, cold enough to give you goosebumps but not enough to shiver. Furthermore, if it’s outdoors, make sure there’s little to no wind. Wear short or no sleeves. Allow the cold to seep into your skin. Visualize your reserved energy; this may be a thin layer above or below your skin.
If it appears above your skin, give it intent, push it to separate you from the cold. In practice, this literally felt like a wash of lukewarm warmth sliding down from my head. The cold felt like someone holding an ice cube near my skin, but didn’t actually make me cold.
If it appears below your skin, incite it to heat itself. The cold should sink into your skin and meet that barrier of energy and fizzle out. I can’t tell you how it feels in practice because my Reserved Energy appears above the skin. If you try this out and are okay to share, I’d love to know how it differs.
I’ll either update or make new posts on this as I learn. I love energy based craft and I’ve got a lot more things I’m practicing that I’m not confident enough in quite yet to share…but soon. Here’s a mini-list of what you can expect in the future:
Moving Energy Into Objects
Visualizing Neighboring Energy
Using Neighboring Energy
Taking Energy from an Object
NOTE: All of the names I’ve given energy, energy types, etc were made by me simply to make it easier to refer to and talk about. If you call any of the feelings or activities something else, by all means, continue doing so. This is just what makes it easiest to understand for me.
The day I apparently broke the internet! From Dallascon16
So I have come to learn that quite a lot of people have seen this photo and only about half know the amazing story behind it. So I thought I would finally tell it here on tumblr!
I had bought a mishalecki photo op ticket on the Thursday before the convention but had absolutely no clue what pose to do, until it hit me. I am a hug Misha fan, and every time I have gotten to talk to him I am usually sarcastic and try to match his wit. I also love Jared, he is like an actually giant puppy. Anyway way the whole fandom knows that Misha had bragged about how flexible he is, well I am quite flexible too. Just as flexible as Misha actually,lol! So then this pose came to mind. I knew it would crack Jared up and it would give me a chance to show off some skill. I didn’t want to many people knowing what pose I was going to do because I was afraid volunteers might not be keen on the idea or I just wanted it to be a surprise.
So I was third or so in line for the photo and Misha and Jared set the tone pretty quickly with their entrance that screamed fun and sexy. Half the people in the room knew what pose I was gonna do and the other half didn’t. When it came my turn I walked up to Jared and Misha, I had to repeat it twice but for the sake of just retyping the same things I will write once.
I stood between Jared and Misha, looking at Jared while I kept Misha in my sights. I said this, “ Hey guys so I am going to do a pose you have never done before. (They began to smile; I then gently put my hand on Misha’s chest to direct Jared’s attention) See I am more flexible than Misha is, (Jared chuckled, Misha looked curious) so I am going to do a reverse table top yoga pose and I want you two to arm wrestle on my stomach. Look as extreme as possible, got it!?” I had to repeat this twice, but both were smiling and went ok, I have a feeling they were still confused, that was until I hit the ground. I heard half the room gasp,slightly, and the other half sorta whispering. From above I heard Jared and Misha go at the same time, “OH”, they had finally understood. Jared actually signaled for Chris to do another picture because he realized they both were not ready when the photo was taken, I am so glad he did cause it turned out amazing.
As I started to come out of the pose Jared helped me up, which was basically pulling me 3ft into the air, I am 5′2! He went, “Damn girl that was kick ass!” and gave me a high five. I told both of them thank you and started to walk away when Misha decided he was not done with me yet. Misha gently grabbed my arm and pulled me back. He leaned in so close to my face I could feel his scruff and he whispered, “ Your not more flexible than me.” As I turned to look at him he gave me the Casifer grin and winked. And to put the cherry on top of me walking away I started smiling and wagging my finger going, “No no no no no”, and the damn music stopped. Misha and Jared chuckled and I left. Later that day I showed Jared the photo, he cracked up laughing and decided to sign it, even though I already had his auto. I was like Jared stop and he went, nope I am signing this. He also signed it with AKF.
RAVENCLAW: “My father always says, ‘Never trust anyone who has a TV bigger than their bookshelf.’ So I make sure I read. Back at home, I just put up a massive bookcase and asked everyone I know and love to help me fill it with their favourite books. It’s been quite nice because I’ve learned a lot about my friends and family from what they’ve been giving me. A book says a lot about a person.” –Emilia Clarke
Do you have any advise on how to open a story? I have all my characters and my plot and my conflict and everything but I don’t know how to start. How to keep a reader hooked and interested enough to keep going.
This is a little ironic, because I’m about to rewrite my opening three chapters for The Warlord’s Contact from scratch for about the tenth time. But practice does make perfect, and boy have I learned a lot through this process.
Sometimes you look at a story and you just know how it needs to open. It’s the most obvious choice in the world, and it’s clear why no other option would work.
Unfortunately, that’s not often the case. Usually, the beginning to your book will take preplanning and rewriting and replanning and bit more rewriting, and all the while you’ll never quite be sure you chose the best spot to open to, or the right characters to introduce, or the proper setting.
Here are a few specific methods of thought for tackling your first chapter…
So one thing I absolutely love is the fact that at the beginning of the anime it looks like Victor and Yuuri are complete opposites but then as the story goes and we learn more about them they turn out to have very similar ways of dealing with emotions and people. And I think this is one of the reasons why their relationship is so strong because they really are able to understand each other quite well.
Let me start with that “opposites attract” trope because I think that yoi creators play with that a lot at the beginning. It’s even in those obvious features like with the fact that Victor is taller and has light hair and blue eyes while Yuuri is smaller and dark-haired with brown eyes - it’s just so cliche? And there’s more of course, while Yuuri is shy Victor seems to be very open, Yuuri doesn’t believe in himself and Victor seems to be even over-confident, Yuuri gives up easily while Victor always pushed himself further, also Victor acts like he’d be very experienced with love while Yuuri never even thought about it and so on. Funny thing is that actually all of these things we think about both of them and especially about Victor turn out to be wrong at some point.
It’s so interesting to rewatch everything after ep 10 because it shows even more how unreliable Yuuri’s narration is. Yuuri learns very slowly that Victor is a human being too and I think that it’s not until ep 7 where he finally lets his idealised image of Victor go. But even then I think that most of the things we learn about Victor we know from the man himself in these rare moments of his narration and I love how much more Victor is willing to admit they’re alike.
Like really willing to admit it. If he goes to Japan to find his inspiration it’s not because he lacks some technical or even presentation skills that Yuuri has. It’s because he sees in Yuuri someone who treats skating very similarly to Victor’s way, he sees that Yuuri puts his emotions into his routines and all his determination he puts in order to win and that’s something that Victor’s needs to get back as a skater. In other words, he sees in Yuuri his younger self, eager to win and challenge and brave enough to put all his soul into his performance. And that Victor knows from the very beginning (apart from the fact he probably thinks about them as soulmates since banquet).
And there’s another attitude they share as skaters – at some point, they both really gave up everything for skating.
A lot of things, like including “life and love” maybe?
It not only gives us a hint of how much they’re both inexperienced with relationships and having fun they are also realising at the same moment that they are not satisfied with their lives and careers anymore. And this is so important because probably the most significant thing we learn about Victor in episode 10 is that he needed Yuuri as much or maybe even more than Yuuri needed him. The point is that they both lack exactly the same thing, they need their inspiration to skating back and they need someone to share their lives with and this is precisely what they find with each other.
So in firsts episodes, we are meant to think that Yuuri and Victor are very different but what we learn from Victor tells us a lot about how similar they are. And what they share as skaters is their determination to win and love for skating itself but also they way they sacrifice everything for skating to the point where it doesn’t make them happy anymore.
Another thing I’d like to discuss is how many traits they share and how similar are ways in which they express their love but I just feel this post is long enough and I’m very tired. Anyway, this for #victuuriweek and also for a wonderful @blue-phoenix-tears who suggested this topic long, long time ago.
my father always says, “never trust anyone who has a TV bigger than their bookshelf.” so i make sure i read. back at home, i just put up a massive bookcase and asked everyone i know and love to help me fill it with their favorite books. it’s been quite nice because i’ve learned a lot about my friends and family from what they’ve been giving me. a book says a lot about a person.
On the topic of top 10: what would be the top 10 reaction posts/revelations for the fans from Yuuri's tell-all book? (Among which I'm assuming are when he and Viktor got together and why he hated him so much!)
Top 10 Reaction Posts/Revelations From Yuuri’s Tell-All Book?
10) ‘Wow, they had a lot more sex than the Hollywood film
lead us to believe’ referencing thisand thispost (which were the origins of
the idea of Yuuri eventually writing a book to tell the world the truth) about
the inaccurate Hollywood movie version of their lives and how different it was to the real story
9) A lot of ‘death to the conspiracy theories’ reactions
because even though Viktor and Yuuri were married at this point there were
still a small section of people claiming that one or other of them were
blackmailed into it or that it was all publicity. After the book was released
everyone was like ‘can you all just finally accept that they actually love each
other now please?’
8) ‘Phichit/Chris are the best bros ever’ because Yuuri
talked to them both to get an outside perspective when he was writing and
everyone who read the book could see how vital they both were for support and
friendship and also how much crap they had to suffer through while Viktor and
Yuuri got their shit together. After the book was released they posted a selfie
together on Instagram with the hashtag #longsufferingBFFs which started
7) A reaction from Clara_M @Katsukidon aka the person who
saw them on a date in chapter 9 that can basically be summed up with ‘I TOLD
YOU AND NONE OF YOU BELIEVED ME WHO’S LAUGHING NOW HUH’
6) A big discussion about anxiety both in sport and in
normal life that Yuuri’s book prompted because he was very honest with his emotions
and motivations and it was quite a shock for a lot of people to learn that
someone so successful still felt like he wasn’t worthy a lot of the time in
both his professional and private life
5) I CAN’T BELIEVE NIKIFOROV WAS IN LOVE WITH KATSUKI FOR F
I V E F U C K I N G Y E A R S BEFORE THEY GOT TOGETHER JFC
4) A multitude of reactions to the reveal of how the rivalry
started, most of them being along the lines of ‘FINALLY WE KNOW’ and jokes
about Viktor accidentally creating his own supervillain, comic book style. This
is where the ‘creating your own Katsuki’ meme came from.
3) A line that someone tweeted and then became very popular
saying ‘I can’t believe Nikiforov got fucked over in his home country and
fucked in Katsuki’s’ referencing the fact that Yuuri first beat Viktor in
Sochi, Russia and first slept with Viktor in Saitama, Japan.
2) I can’t believe Nikiforov and Katsuki spent 4+ years
sneaking in and out of each other’s hotel rooms and no-one evernoticed (this one is actually wrong, quite a few people
noticed but they were all people who were bound by confidentiality not to say
[ㅋㅋㅋㅋ] Haha did you guys miss me? I missed you, too. Everyday before I go to sleep, I find two teardrops on my pillow when I wake up.
I don’t know too] I took screenshots of the comments here on fancafe where ARMYs recommended movies for me to watch. Today, I decided to watch a movie. If it’s good, I’ll recommend it to my members or to everyone through VAPP hahaha. Because of ARMYs I really like to watch movies!!! I feel like I’ve become a better person!!!
[I also] I’ve been interested in paintings and photography these days, I’ve also been recommending a lot of them haha. Lately I’ve been taking pictures of landscapes, too. I have representative models, lots, there’s 6 of them. I bought a filming camera 3 days ago that I’ve been trying to take proper pictures with. The important parts are the ISO, focus, aperture, and shutter speed. I don’t know much about it, so I’m trying my best to learn, but I’m afraid I’ll stop being that it’s difficult. So please, stop me from quitting.
[Right Now] There’s so many comments that I can’t read them all. When I have time I’ll come back and read them all. Sleep well.
[Euwoh I’m touched??] Because all you guys are supporting me~~ Saying that you all can help me with things like this, I’m extremely proud. If I didn’t meet ARMYs, I wouldn’t have been interested in art. I probably wouldn’t be watching foreign movies or listening to a variety of music, I would be watching Oseam during Chuseok. I wouldn’t have discovered all these things if it wasn’t for ARMYs recommendations and different lifestyles, which is what gives me strength!!! Ahh, I’m so proud!!!
trans: jhope-shi | do not repost without giving credit!
T/N: Tae posted several times on fancafe, so I decided to put them all together instead of mini posts. Also, he replied to ARMYs comments. One gave him advice on his camera, in which he replied “thank you~” (aegyo). The second person was giving him support in which he replied the same way.
“They are the hyungs that I got close to through [working on] dramas. We became close because we could all relate to one another so well.” -Kyungsoo
“The hyungs give me good advice. There are many things I learn from them. It’s not just acting but we also talk about life, experiences, and all sorts of other stuff. They really help a lot.” -Kyungsoo
“There’s a big dining table at Jo In Sung‘s house which serves as [our group’s] hideout, and we just have tea and talk.” - Kim Woo Bin
“Do Kyung Soo’s house is actually quite close to mine. He sometimes calls me in the morning and asks if I’ve eaten yet. If I haven’t, he’ll bring some seolleongtang (ox bone soup) over and we’ll share a meal together.” - Jo In Sung
“When the movie ‘Brother’ premiered, our group chat went wild. Every night we would post ‘Brother’s’ score and write congratulatory messages. We were so happy that Kyungsoo’s movie was doing well.” - Kim Woo Bin
“There are a lot of events to congratulate each other on. Kyungsoo started us off well so the feeling is good. The group chat will be on fire from now on. It’s always a little loud. We never stop talking.” - Kim Woo Bin
Extra: “Kyungsoo belongs to Woo Bin. He likes Kyung Soo a lot. It’s to the point where he’ll say, ‘My love Do Kyung Soo, where are you.” - Jo In Sung
First, I want to say how grateful I am for having this opportunity to manage this blog and get to know a lot of the followers for the past 5 years! I’ve been able to learn so much about Japanese music and anime from fulfilling requests, and I have gotten pretty hooked on a lot of it over the years. I still can’t believe that a blog I started on a whim grew to be this big. It’s really something.
However, as I’ve grown older, I’ve found that I can’t dedicate quite as much of my free time to this blog anymore. The other mods and I have discussed this matter and we plan to retire the blog this summer. But don’t worry! Requests will remain open until the official closing date on Friday, June 30th.
As for the future of this blog, I plan on leaving it open as an archive without my main blog attached to it. This is in order for people to still enjoy the music that is posted without the fear of Tumblr slamming me and the mods for copyright and deleting our personal blogs. Hopefully this won’t happen, but you never know! I don’t have any plans or interest in leaving it to someone else to take care of the blog for me. I will probably still upload some seasonal anime music whenever I get the chance, but I won’t be accepting any requests after June.
I really hope you all understand and will wish us the best. I’ve had a really great time running musicinanime all these years. It’s going to be different for me to not manage it daily, but I hope that this change will be good for me.
As thanks for all of you who have followed us, whether you are longtime listeners or new to the blog, I’d like to run a special giveaway to commemorate our retirement! I’m still working out the details as far as prizes go, but I will make a separate post for it sometime this week, so look forward to it!
I appreciate you all for supporting this blog for the past 5 years. It’s been a real pleasure!
쌤이 사주신 와인 마시고 취해서 20분만에 쓴 일기 ㅋ_ㅋ 눈을 뜨니 이게 메모장에 있었다😹 이거 불러보려 했는데 정리하고 배열 다시 다 해야할 듯 아아아앜ㅋ 옛날 이야기에 취했나봉가
A journey entry I wrote in just 20 minutes after being drunk from the wine my mentor bought ㅋ_ㅋ I opened my eyes and this was in my memo😹
I tried to sing/rap this But it seems like I need to organize and arrange it again Ahhhhh keke I’m caught up in the past
(Pic trans:) Have you ever thought of wanting to die(,) even just once If following the logic of the world(,) I would slowly give up and quit my life around the age of seventy A kid who was once positive I hid my sadness after learning about things from the mouths of people If it wasn’t for music I would have been wandering And lost(,) when the adults hid the truth and were discussing Past the age of 20, I felt it a lot(,) the difference between an adult and a child I knew it was all going to happen(.) Up until now Holding a BB gun In front of the mosquito net in the veranda The thought that I was the only unhappy person(,) The courage to want to go die was probably Due to thinking if I can ever become a better person than others someday It’s still so complicated even now If it wasn’t for alcohol(,) would I have been able to talk about my life(?) I want to lose my rationality but would you believe in me(?) Will you understand the hotness from a light that doesn’t shine(?) I want it(,) for you to be On my side until the end Let your emotions get involved in this situation And embrace the sincerity Consume your feelings and be with your woman(,) I won’t pray for that Embrace me that’s beside you right now
So how would aliens react finding out about mental issues like depression?
That’s actually a really interesting question!
One that I’ll have to quickly research before I write out this scenario.
Xylion was examining some books he found lying around Human Jenny’s cabin. Yes, he was technically stealing them from her, but he was very interested in what humans were like. Seeing as he had recently experienced the terrifying things known as Grand Theft Auto V, he had to find something redeemable.
Human Jenny had mentioned she was an Anthropologist, and when he questioned what that was, she said it was the study of humankind. He had to hold back his comment about how self-centered humans were if they had a job to study their own species.
So far, none of the textbooks revealed anything interesting. He saw some stuff about history, but chose to leave it alone. He had heard humans had a long history of wars and perils, so maybe that wasn’t the best one to look at.
The next one was all about the Human Brain. He flipped through it a bit, but found nothing of interest. Who would want to know how human brains work?
The last book he found was labeled ‘Mental Disorders’. He frowned. He knew mental meant mind, but disorders? Was something wrong with human minds?
He grabbed the book and opened it. However, before he could begin reading, he heard the voice. “And what do you think you’re doing?”
Xylion almost began to secrete mucus again. He turned around slowly to see Human Jenny. Her eyes were narrowed and her cheeks red with anger. Xylion felt his tentacles begin to quiver. “Ah, Human Jenny! You’re- uh- hello! How is your day?” He asked, dropping the book so he wouldn’t ruin it.
Human Jenny grimaced at the phlegm that began to cover his arms. “What are you doing in here, Xylion?” She asked, crossing her arms.
“I was simply looking at your books! I wanted to know more about humans.” Xylion saw no point in lying. His species was known for doing what was always best.
A grin spread across her face. “You could’ve just said so! I know all about humans! Not only am I one, but it’s my job to study them! Now, what do you need to know?”
Xylion was shocked at her sudden change in demeanor, but he took it as a pleasing from Xalzor, the primordial god from his planet. Xylion looked down at the book he had been interested in. “What are ‘Mental Disorders’?”
Human Jenny’s smile seemed to droop slightly. She made some weird noise that sounded somewhat like a cough. “Well, Mental Disorders are problems that affect humans’ mental, physical, and/or emotional wellbeing.”
“So, they are weaker than the average human?”
“No! Not at all! Each issue affects a person in different ways, though they all have similar problems that come with them.” Human Jenny reasoned.
Xylion frowned. “Like what?”
Human Jenny picked up the book and flipped to a random page. “Here, this is one that affects a lot of people in this day and age: Depression.”
“‘Depression’? And what is that?”
“Well, have you ever experienced sadness, Xylion?”
He had to think about that. “Yes, one time when I was younger my brothers played a crude joke on me that ended up with me believing that I was useless. Of course it was all in good fun and I learned that eventually, but I was quite sad until then.”
“And how long did it take for you to realize that?”
“About a day or so.”
Human Jenny sighed. “Well, imagine that you are feeling that sadness for weeks and months on end. It’s never ending. Joy isn’t something that really seems real to you. It’s like the world around you is faded and everything just seems to bounce off of you. Even when you’re doing something that used to make you happy, all you feel is this sense of overwhelming sadness waiting right around you.”
Xylion blinked. “Is that…curable?”
“Yes. With pills, it can sometimes help. Not only that, but psychotherapy helps too. Most people get better.”
“And those that don’t?”
Human Jenny hesitated with her answer. She sighed, looking down. “Let’s just say they all have different ideas on what to do then.”
Xylion frowned at the cryptic message. He was confused. What did happen to them? What did they choose to do? Before he could ask anything else about it, human Jenny was already flipping through the pages.
“Schizophrenia.” She murmured, looking down at the page. It was filled with colorful images. Xylion frowned.
Human Jenny looked up at him. “Schizophrenia is a disorder that gives the victim auditory, visual, olfactory, an/or tactile hallucinations. People with this issue often see things, hear things, smell things, or feel things that aren’t there. The cause of this isn’t understood, and it often includes lifetime treatment.”
Xylion shook his head. “That’s horrible. How do people endure that?”
“Sometimes they do, sometimes they don’t.”
Great, more vague answers. Xylion was getting sick of it, honestly.
Human Jenny sighed as she opened up another page. “Let’s see…Anxiety.”
“But…most humans have this disorder! Human Isaac often talks about how anxious he is! Is that not the same thing?”
“Yes, all humans experience anxiety, but it’s when it starts interfering with our daily lives that it becomes something serious. One example of anxiety is the Panic Attack centered anxiety. These panic attacks can do different things, though some of the things that can occur during them are: muscle tension, poor concentration, fear or confusion, the inability to relax, etcetera.”
Xylion was shocked, yet again. “How do humans deal with this sort of thing?”
Human Jenny shuffled nervously before standing up. “Well, most people take pills to help them calm down and such.” Human Jenny began to rummage through a bin as she talked. “They take these pills to help keep them calm. Mainly because they fear dying in these situations, often feel discomfort, feel like they’re choking,” Human Jenny’s voice was fading now, “shortness of breath,” her breathing was getting raspy now, and Xylion was getting even more worried, “and others things.” She finished, coughing slightly.
He watched as she pulled out some orange container and opened it. Two white tablets fell into her palm and she pressed it against her mouth, letting the pills go in. He watched as she took her hand away and got a drink of water. As she swallowed the pills, she seemed to visibly relax. Xylion stood up. “Are you okay, Human Jenny?”
Her head hung slightly. “I’m alright. I just suffer from Anxiety, ya’ see? Sometimes when I talk about the different affects it has on us humans, I freak out. I’ll be fine, though.”
“Does anyone else aboard suffer from these disorders?”
Human Jenny nodded. “We’ve all had a problem sometime in our life. We aren’t exactly kids, you know?”
Xylion shuffled nervously. “What happened?”
“Well, Isaac has insomnia.”
“And what is that?”
Human Jenny sighed. “Well, insomnia is a sleeping disorder. It makes it so the person affected by it has trouble sleeping soundly at night. he has to take pills to help him fall asleep, otherwise he can’t sleep at night and won’t function as well in the mornings.”
Xylion looked down. He had never noticed this before. “And the others?”
“Well, Freddie’s been struggling with Depression ever since he lost his girlfriend in a shooting, and Mason has PTSD.”
“Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. He was in combat back on earth and he saw a lot of death. He watched his friend’s die, and that’s not something you can easily bounce back from.”
Xylion looked down, sadness filling him. Just the knowledge that his fellow crewmembers went through this on a daily basis was saddening. He frowned. “How come you were all sent up here then?”
“Well, Isaac can take pills for his Insomnia and I can take pills for my Anxiety. Freddie also takes pills, and because I have a degree in Psychology I am able to be his therapist, which is the person that can help him through it. And Mason is mostly over his. He occasionally gets nightmares, but he’s mostly gotten over his PTSD. He’ll never be completely over it, but he can function without having an episode on a normal day-to-day basis. Sometimes it hits him, and it’s only happened once since we joined your crew.”
Xylion sighed. He gently put a tentacle on her shoulder and wrapped it around her, pulling her to him. “I’m so sorry you all have to deal with this. If I could help you, know I would.”
When human Jenny pulled back, her face was red. She nodded quickly. “Yeah, whatever you say, Xylion.”
Xylion smiled down at her. He realized something that day.
While they looked weak, humans were always fighting a war. They were always battling the inner problems. Even fi they looked fine, a human wasn’t always as happy as they seemed. He’d take that lesson to his grave.
So what’d you think?
I did my best to write this part, because it is a huge part of our society. Anyways, if you want to learn more about different mental issues, then click here. I did my best looking up each one that I used and tried to portray it as closely as possible. Sorry if I didn’t do that good of a job.
Anyways, if you ever feel like you need some help with something, know I could be there to help you.
And I hope you enjoyed this, Anon! It took me a bit to write this and research it, but I think it was worth it!
It was especially long because my dad kept through those little poppers at my brother and my sister keeps showing me those anime crack videos, but who cares, I’ve written in worse environments, I think.
And goodbye! See you in the next Humans are Weird post.
Lesley Sharp: “When Sky is copying people’s speech patterns, we both had to learn the square root of pi to two or three dozen decimal places, but it was almost impossible to keep up with David. His speech pattern, the rate at which he speaks, is phenomenally fast. Really, really quick. He learns pages and pages and pages. And the rate at which he speaks is the rate at which he thinks. Russell explained to me that David’s Doctor has a lot to say, because that’s David. He’s so bright. Isn’t that brilliant though? The things that Russell thinks about and then re-interprets - I think they’re both amazing.” – from DWM #397
From the Midnight DVD Commentary (with David Tennant, Russell T. Davies, and director Alice Troughton): David Tennant: We did rehearse the pi-number quite a lot… Russell T. Davies: I remember you learning that the day after you got the script! DT: Yeah, I just thought, “Oh, I see…” RTD:
You walked into the Sontaran read-though and just rattled off the square root of pi! DT: I got the script the night before, and thought, “He’s given me the square root of pi to 30 decimal places… I’m gonna show him.” RTD & Alice Troughton: [big laugh] DT: …and I got up early, and learnt it over breakfast RTD: And it was brilliant!
If there’s one take away from this documentary it’s that Harry truly was able to reflect and dissect a lot of his journey starting at 1D and taking it to where he is now and he loves learning more about who he is even if he doesn’t quite understand where this is all going, he loves the process and he loves being creative and trying new things to better himself as a person and professionally and I think that’s lovely