and i know they actually really love me

bts reacts: you’re more quiet than usual

anon asked:  ok ok I KNOW requests are closed, but when they are open can you PLEASEEE do bts reactions to you being really quiet because your minds just blank? idk, that’s me rn so …but anyway PLEASEEEE 💕💕💕

sure, my love, i gotchu :)

note: i try to keep these gender neutral, so if i use a specific pronoun, let me know so i can change it! 💕


yoongi:  the two of you are usually quiet- not so much in a bad way, but in a peaceful, serene way. quiet in such a way, where it’s just the two of you enjoying each other’s company; just enjoying the fact that they’re actually there. it was something that a lot of the people you knew couldn’t understand, how the two of you could just sit there, but in a way, it made sense in your head. however, i feel like yoongi would know the difference between you being quiet and you being spaced out, and would pick up on it quite quickly.

“hey, what’s on your mind?”

Originally posted by mellonjin

hoseok: "are you okay? you seem.. distant?“ he’d cock his head as if wondering if distant was the right word to use.  "i don’t know, you just seem a lot quieter than usual, is everything alright?”

“i’m fine, just… drained?” you’d mirror his actions from before, wondering if drained was the way to describe how you felt. “or not drained, but just… blank? like, i don’t know if it’s just because i’m tired, or-”

“i understand.” he’d nod. there’d be a soft sigh, and the two of you would close your eyes, leaning back into the sofa simultaneously. “do you want to try getting some sleep? i don’t know if it’ll help, but it seems like a good place to start.”

Originally posted by jaayhope

namjoon: he’d notice, and then sit back to think about it for a while. he’d weigh up the things he could say, wondering whether it was best to say them, and voice his concern, or keep it in his head, just in case there was nothing wrong in the first place. he might not decide to bring it up until late at night when you’re about to sleep, and he just turns over and whispers, despite there being no one else there but the two of you.

“if there’s something up, i’ll be here to talk- you know that, right?”

Originally posted by you-made-me-again

seokjin:  would be concerned that you weren’t your usual self,  and would pick up on it really quickly, talking to you with little sentences to show his worry, like “do you think space will help? i can go into the next room if that’s what you’d like,” or even “maybe just talking to me would help- like, just talking about anything. it doesn’t have to be important, you could just tell me what you had for dinner yesterday, or about something cute or mildly horrific your friend’s cat did the other day. i’m here to listen- and if you can’t think of anything, you know what? that’s fine too. we can just sit here, i can put some music on, and see what’ll happen.”

Originally posted by rapdaegu

jungkook:  i feel like he’d wonder if he’d done anything wrong at first; y'know, like that feeling you get when you’re around someone and they’re usually a certain way, and then they suddenly change, and you feel like it’s because you’ve done something that upset them? i feel like he’d be a little bit like that, and be quite quick to act on it.

“hey, did i do something wrong? you seem a little different today…”

Originally posted by jeonwilds

jimin “i can’t.”

“you can’t?” he’d look up from his phone, confused at your sudden words, especially since you’d said nothing all day. “what can’t you do?” there were lots of words flying through your head, the most prominent of which being, anything. i can’t do anything. i can’t seem to think, and- he’d see the look on your face change and for a moment he’d probably fool you into thinking telepathy existed, with the way he responded.

“i don’t know any way to help, but i can promise you, whatever it is, it’s not worth worrying over. i promise.”

Originally posted by k-pop-crazy

taehyung: would probably unknowingly tease you about it at first when he didn’t know what was up with little nudges here and there,  saying things like “yesterday i couldn’t get you to be quiet, and today i’ve barely even heard you talk!” and “i never thought you’d run out of things to say!”, but as soon as he realized that you weren’t playing along, he’d stop.

“hey, are you okay? seriously, this time.”

Originally posted by bts-jimin16


i mean i’m not really sure if i like how this turned out, but i hope you liked it, anon! :) take a shot every time i said “the two of you” in this post

here’s my masterlist, in case you liked this, and requests are open again! i’m here if you wanna be friends because i’m lonely.

(also how would you feel about a youtuber!taekook au because i wAs tHinKing aBoUt a ThINg)

last react: when you’re ill

thanks for reading!

-tash 💕

7

“Why is it that the happiest of moments usher in sudden fear?”

I DONT FUCKING KNOW KIM SEOKJIN MAAAYBE, YOU KNOW JUST MAYBE, IT IS CAUSE BIGHIT THINKS IT IS OK TO JUST FUCKING DROP ANOTHER HIGHLIGHT, WITH SO MANY FUCKING FEELS WHEN I AM ACTUALLY IN MOOD TO STUDY AND GET MY LIFE TOGETHER!!!!

BUT TBH THIS LINE GOT ME ALRIGHT. I JUST CANT HELP BUT THINK THIS HITS ME REAL BAD. BECAUSE THIS REALLY DOES HAPPEN, ONCE YOU ARE HAPPY AND THEN SUDDENLY YOU GET THE NEWS THAT YOUR LOVED ONE JUST DIED. I DONT LIKE IT. THE RUSH, THE FEAR, THE DENIAL.

I GOT GOOSEBUMPS AT TAE’S HYYH FLASHBACK, JK THINKING OF YOONGS AND THAT FUCKING SWEATER GIVING BIRTH TO KIM SEOKJIN.

HE LOOKED AT THOSE FLOWERS HE BURNED AND WENT FOR THE WHITE SHIRT HE WAS WEARING THAT TIME. ALRIGHT SEOKJIN WE GET IT YOU NEED TO REMIND US OF THAT ERA. WE ALL DO.

RM WHAT? WHAT ARE YOU TRYNA SHOW BBY? THAT YOU ARE MORE DADDY THAN BEFORE? OK.

JIMIN. JIMIN-AH. I FEEL YOUR SIDELINE LOVE. WHO IS HOPING NEXT REEL WILL BE JIMIN DATING THAT GIRL.

TBH I HAVE STRONG FEELING, THIS IS ALL AFTER EVERYTHING ENDS AND THEY ARE JUST LIVING THERE OWN LIFE AND THEY ALL MISS EACH OTHER AND THIS IS LIKE PREQUEL OF THEIR MV WHERE THEY REUNITE.
OR I AM JUST GETTING AHEAD OF MYSELF.

BUT HOSEOK’S THO. WHY SO UNCLEAR.

I CANNOT DO THIS ALRIGHT!
I WATCHED THE VIDEO 3 HOURS LATE EVEN WHEN I GOT THE NOTIFICATION BECAUSE I HAD SOOOO MANY HW AND I AM DYING.
AND FUCCCCKKKKK I NEED TO RAGE RN.

I don’t know if this actually qualifies as dark but I got an idea while reading a scene from a fic series (it’s so good; Love Hunt Me Down series by Madalynn_Bohemia - http://archiveofourown.org/series/54336) and my sterekwritingroom group said it was okay to share with you.  There was a really sweet scene in one of the later parts and my brain decided to pop in with a really angsty version instead.

~

This is an AU where there was never a fire and the Hales are alive.

 Stiles travelled into the Hale territory in search of Deaton who a previous mentor recommended to help Stiles further his spark training. When he reaches the Hale house, Stiles finds it in a state of near chaos. The Hale family is frantic to get their home ready for a wedding/mating ceremony. A whirlwind romance had turned to true mates and they are so pleased. Not only had Derek Hale - the sweet, if often awkward man - found his mate but she happened to be a member of the Argent hunting family.

Of course, they were skeptical at first, but after seeing Kate and Derek together they were convinced. Only Talia had reservations, but she kept them to herself, visions of an end to the fighting between hunters and ‘wolves in her territory. Of an alliance that could be revolutionary enough to encourage more and help other packs.

Stiles knows none of this, didn’t even realize that Deaton was an Emissary, but be tries to stay out of the way because while Bridezillas might be scary, they have nothing on overstressed werewolves. Now, somehow in all the rush – I’m not sure if he was forced to help by a frazzled Laura or just placed in a corner seat with a growled “Stay” by Cora – Stiles meets Derek and immediately they get under each other’s skin. Things get worse when Peter, who had been happily staying far away during the day per alpha orders, comes back to the pack house for dinner. The sparks (heh) between Peter and Stiles are intense, especially since Peter isn’t anything near subtle when he chooses. As the innuendos increase, Derek gets more snappish, resorting to monosyllabic responses and rumbles below the humans in attendance hearing. When Peter makes a joke about showing Stiles to his room … well, thankfully Talia wasn’t using the good dishes that night.

Yeah, Stiles was a little unnerved with everything. He came to Beacon Hills for help and instead he’s being housed at the home of one of the most powerful packs in North America with an invitation to the most influential wedding in the supernatural world … and he has to wait a two weeks before he can even talk about his lessons. Oh, and don’t get him started on what an arrogant ass the groom was, really the only plus about anything was meeting Peter.

Cue the wedding countdown montage, Stiles getting to know the Hales, interactions between Derek and Stiles, and finding an odd thread and being unable to resist pulling until everything unravels.

Like, traditionally, werewolves mate first privately then have whatever ceremony they want. Most ‘wolves fall towards mating ceremonies over weddings, so Derek and Kate not only choosing to postpone their mating to first have a wedding of all things, it struck Stiles as odd. When it was brought when everyone was relaxing one night over wine, Derek glowered at Stiles while Kate only laughed.

“You can blame that on me, I guess.” Kate said, watching her fingers played with Derek’s hair . “I’m much more of a traditional that I could have ever thought. Plus, can you imagine the look on my father’s face if I came home sporting a bite when he didn’t even know I was seeing anyone? I’d be dead before I opened my mouth.” The words were said in jest but the glint in her eye was off. Derek missed that, his eyes still trained on the interloper (yeah, that’s why Derek always felt uneasy around this new person his pack was basically on the road to adopting), but he did sense the change in atmosphere to turn and comfort Kate.

What everyone doesn’t know is that Kate is a liar. Her entire “relationship” with Derek, from how they met to their feelings for each other, is a fraud. The ploy was devised and implement by Kate and her girlfriend, Jennifer Blake. Jennifer also happened to be a talented magic user and Emissary for Deucalion of the Alpha pack. As another confusing twist, Deucalion knows of the deception, but he’s under the impression that taking down the Hale pack is the only plan of action. Never one to take rejection well, Deucalion is hoping that when the Argents betray the Hales, he can swoop in like a knight in shining armor, save Talia and some of her pack (Peter and Laura have to die at the very least … Peter is far to cunning and Laura is the alpha heir) and Talia will be so grateful she’ll finally see how foolish she’s been in refusing him.

The true plan is for Kate, with assistance from Jennifer’s magic, to complete the wedding and once Derek has committed, he and his pack can’t raise a hand against her. Then the two women and select, trusted hunters (never Chris and sadly not Allison either, both of them had grown soft) will take out as many of these freaks of nature as possible at the reception. They may let a few weak omegas live to spread word of the Argents true strength. Of course, a quick addition to the kill list is this Stiles boy. Kate doesn’t like how much Derek talks about him, almost to the point of obsession for some stranger.

So it’s the day of the wedding. Derek isn’t looking so good, his face a map of stress lines and shadows under his eyes. He’s been battling jealousy every time he watched his uncle and Stiles getting cozy. Constantly having to shove down any feelings toward Stiles, honor bound to Kate because she’s his mate, the one he loves. Sure everything happened kind of quickly, but it felt, feels, right and even if he were getting cold feet, Derek could never disappoint his mother, his Alpha. The bride however, looks radiant … maybe it’s the thought of the future murder.

The line that started this whole idea was this: “Do you accept what I am, what we are, and everything we have the potential to be when we are together?” that really struck me, especially if someone were caught lying.

Really, Kate should have paid more attention during the wedding planning, especially after her allowance of a handfasting and the more werewolf traditional vows during the wedding. There are three parts for each of them with Derek going first his heart steady and Kate is just so pleased. She’s arrogant in her understanding of the supernatural world, and trusting in Jennifer’s skill, says her lines. With each lie told under the sacred, and binding, magic  the hold Jennifer has to keep it at bay, weakens a little bit more, until on the final line, then the skip in Kate’s heartbeat, her lie, is heard plain as day.

Kate realizes something went wrong, but she just laughs and goes on a rant over the eradication of the supernatural for the betterment of human kind. When she pauses for a breath, the ribbon, which had been carefully wrapped around her wrist by Derek, glows bright blue before sinking into her flesh, neatly severing her hand from her body. If Kate had thought to move she’d have found her feet stuck in place, but her only thoughts were on the stump where her hand used to be and as her horrified screams fill the Hales’ backyard, spilling to the Preserve beyond it, the ribbon wrapped around Derek’s wrist flutters off gently. It drifts, almost as if on a breeze, before launching at Kate, burning wherever it touches. The vows of the handfasting are never to be broken and in the end, Kate’s ignorance and unwillingness to take seriously those she considers inferior contribute to her downfall.

With Kate laying in a crumpled and bloody heap, of course a fight erupts. Unfortunately, the hunters aren’t as equipped as they hoped to be. The only exception is Gerard and he has his own little villainous monologue before being dispatched, by Peter, Stiles, Talia not sure who should get that honor, but during the confusion, Jennifer and Deucalion get outed as well; Jennifer by her scent of grief and rage and Deucalion by his berating Jennifer in front of everyone. Then the second part of the battle begins, Jennifer unlocking some truly horrific powers with her loss. Maybe she sacrifices Deucalion mid rant before turning on the rest of the guests.

I’m not sure whether Jennifer is killed or subdued by Deaton and Morrell. Maybe they manage to hold her back and she does a last ditch attack on Derek, because it’s entirely his fault (one look at Derek’s face and Kate had to follow this stupid idea), either way Stiles’ magic flares. It not only protects Derek but also strips Jennifer of her magic as well.

Then there is the aftermath.

Stiles had revelations that needed to be processed after everything settled. He has a lot of time to think things over with Deaton pushing back their training discussion, and Stiles will be trained. Turns out the major news is that Stiles is the mate of not only Peter but Derek as well. An attempt to navigate that mess would be a huge undertaking as Derek is in no way ready for a relationship. His trust was so thoroughly broken, with everything he knew shattered. Derek having to come to grips over the magic that manipulated his senses … over being used as a tool to help murder his family. Talia notices and attempts to stop that shame spiral before Derek gets too lost in his own head and drowns from the misplaced guilt. She’s contrite as she apologizes, explaining that she was so captivated by the potential alliance that she ignored the warnings signs her alpha senses picked up.

Of course I want an eventual happy ending in the (hopefully not too distant) future and I’m such Mpreg trash I envision that future with Stiles having twins and no one is 100% on who is the father (shh Peter and Derek are each a father). If Stiles happens to sport matching brands on each wrist the same width and pattern of ribbon, well that’s between the three of them.

~

Ugh I finally finished this! Sorry for this turning into a notfic and any errors. I hope it isn’t too long and you like it.


This is amazing! I would absolutely read 100K+ of this fic. Mostly just to see which Hale Stiles ends up with, lol! But why not both? :) And oh, the angst that this story could have in it! So much wonderful angst! 

And also the smut. So much wonderful smut! 

And I just realised that tumblr makes all my submissions anon, so full credit to this idea to mizixy!

anonymous asked:

hi I love ur blog it's so cute!!! and do u have any blog recs like ur own?

hello!! thank you i have a few! some of these blogs aren’t exactly scenario blogs but they do release some imagines so !! 

@wannaonestars - my FAV WOW vvv cute and well written scenarios and is faster releasing them than replying to me smh >:(( jk but i still love youuu (and if u check out my rec tag,,,it’s like 90% queenie wow @ me)

@imagineproduce101 - really well written scenarios also!! i really love carina’s aus and i am Blessed to know her jfnkfdnjg 

@heochannies ??? also??? another?? well written scenario blog?? actually everyone im mentioning is gg  but super cute scenarios also!!

@wanna-one-scenarios lots of cute au’s and consistent updates and it makes my heart go !! i love kav wow 

@singingmyreverie their college au has me !! because they are so well written and creative and im just !!! 

@little-sundays obsessed with their street racers au !! 11/10 would check out and they always have me feeling some sort of way LMFAO 

@laignlin text blog who is new and super cute!! 

@wannaonetexts i hype them up like no tomorrow,,you won’t regret checking them out ;;

@writepd101 i have no words but please go check them out!! their au’s are so cute and well written!! 

@jjeehoon wOW MY FAV TOO i suck at replying im sorry nfjfin but cute scenarios hello 

@jeonjeonggukks do u see a trend of me forgetting to reply im sorry fnsjv but pls check out her blog!! 

@wannamoon hello i’ve been crying ever since i read their recent scenario i feel Blessed but attacked 

@jihoonslattee i am attac by their scenarios but thats ok too  >:(( (jk u cutie and has great scenarios!! i never replied im sorry nfjdi but im still supporting you!!) 

@mochamark can’t forget my fav also?? i suck at replying and ik i never did,,,but i love her scenarios!! really really well written and writes for nct too!!

@dxnghyuns their au’s kill me thats it please check them out im

@starrywinters i read their weekly idol scenario and i am Crying i relate to their scenarios so much jfnkggf



keep in mind these are blogs that i personally follow and keep up with!! there are plenty of amazing writers out there on the tag too so don’t forget them !! <3

necessarily complicated

Pairing:  Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers
For:  @aspiring-trashfire
Prompt:  [this list], “my friend tried to set me up with her friend but little does she know that i am hella gay and i end up falling in love with her friend’s smoking hot brother, and whenever i hang at her place we always tell my friend that it’s for a date when really she’s now just trying to set me up with her brother” au


Rebecca was nearly beside herself with glee.  Steve thought it might be better to actually tell Maria that he and Rebecca weren’t actually an item.  Because Maria was on the verge of embarrassing herself, strutting around like she was the matchmaker of the year.  

But, Steve supposed, she might have inadvertently paired him up with the perfect person.  

Rebecca’s brother, Bucky.  

Steve really liked Bucky.  So the set-up hadn’t been a complete bust.

*Disclaimer follows

I’m my own person*
*Who -or whose- else could/would I be?
Don’t really need an answer,
But hey,
if you have one to spare then feel free!*

(*Doesn’t mean I’ll take it seriously)


No one gets to keep me or benefit exclusively
Because- well, I’m (we’re?) supposed to love* everybody
But there’s always a loophole (I know- I’m sneaky)-

*just because we’re meant
to love our neighbors as ourselves
Doesn’t say or imply we’ve got to *like* or hang with ‘em..

So as long as we’re clear on just what ‘love*’ really means-

*Doing the best* & right thing* for everybeing-

(*actual specifics of which can change circumstantially)

But aside from that, we’re free to dislike & disagree!

Ain’t it cool-
We can revel in our unique individuality
and still maintain a sense of unity*
When we realise & embrace diversity’s necessity?

(*collaborative synergistic community
is not based on exclusivity
nor synonymous with uniformity… )

*except when the point is to Dis the system & confound established expectations in situational irony-
Dangit, I forgot to defy my own satirical mockery by not giving disclaimers -

#point unmade

anonymous asked:

Because I feel like I'm not important and all my Tumblr friends aren't really my friends and I don't know what to do. I want people to like me and love me and of course if I tell any of the officials they're going to say it back but I want it to be real. I want my heart to stop hurting, I want to stop overthinking, I want people to actually mean what they say about me.

We all love you and we really mean it. Don’t ever think low of yourself. You may not know it yet but you are worth way more than anything. You’re going to do great things. Trust me. We all love you so much. You don’t know it but you’re a massive part of our lives. -Mod @theofficialshiro @theofficiallance @theofficialhunk @theofficialpidgeyg

have-a-cup-of-stfu  asked:

Pt. 2 If they tear you down you have the right to be angry and sad and tired, but to get through that and to flourish into the beautiful person you are and will be, is what will really throw it in their faces. We love you, and I love you and I know you can get through this, if you need to talk or to get your mind off it or just to rant you can always come to me.

Thank you so much dear. Nice words actually can help, it means a lot to me. Thank you so very much again💙

anonymous asked:

Hi!!!! I was going thru ur Arshi Punjabi playlist and I love it but why did u choose Do you know??? It seems so trivial and fluffy compared to Arshi. Wild love to hear ur views on this, love your blog!!!

Hi! Thank you so much for your kind words!! <33333 And I’m glad you enjoyed the playlist too! 

I actually really like that Do You Know is a lighter and fluffier song, not everything has to be about intense pain and longing and earth shattering love either LOL. In particular, parts of the song really speak to me as being totally what Arnav was thinking.  

The song references feeling jealousy when he sees her with someone else, something that he isn’t accustomed to feeling about people, about being willing to take on the world for her and wanting to tell the people he loves about her. 

It goes on to discuss how the world is crazy for him but he wants only her, echoing how everyone seems to want a piece of ASR, but Arnav wants only Khushi.

 In particular, what cemented it for me was the line “Ajj tak keeti ni main ikk mint kisse di vi, teri kara do do ghante wait. Till today I haven’t waited even a minute for anyone else, but for you I’ll wait hours.” Arnav is impatient by nature, we know this, but when it comes to Khushi, he is willing to wait. He waits for her to come out of the mandir to him, he waits for her to be comfortable enough to tell him something, he waits for her to set the terms of their relationship and how fast it will progress. This man, who takes things by charge all the time, will sit back and wait for her, something he isn’t accustomed to doing otherwise. 

While the song is lighter and less about intense declarations of love, it captures the little things that Arnav feels and does for her which are, as evidenced in canon, how he expresses his intense, ground shattering love for her. :)

anonymous asked:

hey, can I have a ship? I'm a really short blond girl, and I'm bi. I love to swim and draw, and I'm currently working as a professional mermaid :) I'm very protective of my friends and family, and I put my heart into everything. I'm really shy until I know you, and it can make me come off as really mean, but I'm actually not that bad. I'm pretty self-conscious, but often have moments of bravery. also, I get brief streaks of confidence in which I feel I could fight the world and win. thank you!

I match you with Mercy. She loves your protective nature and will encourage you as you put your all into something. She doesn’t mind that you’re shy when you first meet and never thought it rude but she’s pleased with herself when you began to warm up to her. She reassures you when you’re self-conscious and stands with you in your bursts of strength and courage.

Deadlifts…I haven’t done a deadlift in about 2 months. I’ve been very timid with my hips ever since I joined CrossFit a year ago. I actually PR’d at 95 lbs which is really huge for me. It may not sound like much for this lift, but I’ve been just using a 35 lb bar when I attempted them so again, this is a really big deal. Coach Ponce actually had to re-teach the move to me. Tho I still don’t love them… I am feeling accomplished today. I tell you what tho..I do not know how anyone CrossFit’s 5 days per week. I’m so sore everywhere. I really miss the pool this week and CAN NOT WAIT for it to open again next week. It keeps me stretched out and ready to lift. I like my 3 days swim, 3 days CrossFit! I also miss my swim friends! Tomorrow is a skill day so I’m going to practice on getting quicker with my rope climbing… At least I won’t have to lift with my legs. 💪🙄
Happy Wednesday Eve!!

Sometimes I think abt the friends I’ve made here on tumblr in the last few months and I get really happy because I literally do not know where I’d be if I hadn’t met them. Even the people I don’t talk to regularly, or don’t really talk to anymore. I’m so thankful. I love you all so much.

Free food!!!

Ok jk not actually free food, but a hopeful friend.

So I am 13 from the us and i am looking for an ibf(internet best friend) preferably someone who knows french and would be able to help me learn but its ok if you don’t know it. anyways i am really into basketball, cooking and singing. but i am mainly looking for some one in the age range of 13-16. for music i am all over but i am a christian and i listen to pandora a lot to discover new bands. but mainly i love; newsboys, adele, andy grammar and i am very bouncy. i am socially akward but i will easily carry a conversation, and i like to think that i am easy to talk to and to rant or complain to.   if you make lame or any yo mama jokes at all you will be instantly blocked. also if you hmu i will not be able to exchange snail mail because i can never find my stamps. anyways i am a rambler(if you can’t tell) and i would love to make some friends.

Snapchat: say_something22

Insta:Live_love_celebrate123

tumblr: Maggashakla12

What i think of the signs

Ares
Gr8 friend,,, you think they’re soft but are hardcore when you get to know them. Does not deserve pain.

Taurus
They have their moments but are chill when you get close and are sweet af

Gemini
Ranges from I’d frame them for murder to I’d help them hide the body

Cancer
Pls,,, hug me longer you cowards,,,, gr8 people to hang around tho

Leo
Seem hyper but are semi chill but hella cool, would give them a piggy back ride

Virgo
Actual sweet hearts???? Probably hiding dark shit tho,,,

Libra
Bros,, they are wonderful,,, 10/10

Scorpio
Giggly mofos with gr8 hugs. Really chill too

Sagittarius
They deserve only love and happiness but life bullshits em. Gr8 friends

Capricorn
Hard to read but is a meme with depression tbh,, also chill

Aquarius
Ranges from punk rock to absolute sweetie. Gr8 friends to be with.

Pisces
Fish bish but are wonderful friends with a complex. Walking on eggshells at first was worth it.

general li mulan

okay so i LOVE mulan okay. as far as i’m concerned it’s a Perfect Movie and doesn’t need any fixing. but i was thinking today and -

- what if mulan didn’t go to war to save her father?

say her father is dead, okay, killed by the previous war. so she’s raised by her mother and grandmother, women who’s complacency and softness has been worn away by necessity. she needs to marry well, for her family’s sake, because her mother has refused the hand of every man who offered. but mulan is even more rough around the edges than before, is educated not only in books (her mother said men wouldn’t find smarts attractive and grandmother pointed out that men aren’t always around and off to school mulan went) but in the sword too, taught to her by her classmate, ping.

mulan is considered in the lower end of the upper class, coming from a family of military men and scholars and successful merchants. ping is near the top, the son or nephew of an advisor to the emperor. his family is very rich and very important, and the reason they become friends is because mulan manages to notice something about him that he’s been hiding from everyone else - he’s going blind.

not totally blind, enough to get around, but blind enough that reading is difficult and swordplay is even worse, although once he has it down he has it. ping is no fool, he’s not weak or bumbling. his eyes just don’t work. so mulan notices and confronts him about it. she promises to keep it a secret, and hey, she’ll even help him with his assignments by reading the books out loud and helping him study. but in return he must teach her the sword, must teach her about military and tactics. he agrees.

ping and mulan become very good friends and there’s some raised eyebrows about it but they are TOO far away in class for it to be inappropriate, so they make tutting sounds and disapproving faces and let it go.

then the draft happens. ping can’t go to war, he won’t survive it. not with his eyesight like it is. so mulan offers him a deal - she’ll go to war for him, in his place. in return, if she survives, he must marry her. if she dies he must take care of her family.

ping can’t make this kind of family decision on his own, so he goes to his mother and tells her everything, about the eyesight and how he’ll die if he goes and mulan’s offer. his mother says he must keep it a secret from his father, but agrees - if mulan fights in her son’s place and survives, a wedding will be arranged. either way, mulan’s family will be taken care of. ping will be sent to live with some cousins in the meanwhile.

“you’re not in love with me, are you?” ping asks, helping mulan saddle her horse in the middle of the night. she scoffs and rolls her eyes, “not even a little. but marrying you will make my family happy, and besides, you’re my best friend,” she says, smiling, “better you than some grabby old man.” he smiles and hugs her and says, “i’m not in love with you either. but don’t die out there. we have a wedding to plan.”

so mulan goes to the camp, pretending to be ping, and she’s a little bit less lost but things still go as they go. she’s educated and trained, so it’s not hard for her to pass as ping. shang is keeping a special eye on her, thinking that she’s the son of an advisor, one of his father’s friends. and he sees how easily she excels, how quick thinking and smart she is, and starts giving her more and more responsibilities. by the time they’re called out, shang considers ping ie mulan to be his right hand man, and possibly his best friend.

he’s also a little bit in love with ping, and he’s long known he’s attracted to both genders, so he watches ping laugh and smile and the crease between his eyes when he frowns and does his best to let his feelings chase away the best soldier he has. every time shang looks at ping his heart clenches and he things to himself: i wish i could have you, i wish this was a time and a place where one man could have another, i wish you were a girl, is wish i was a girl - i wish we could be together. he’s literally a step away from doodling ‘li ping’ with little hearts over his battle plans. 

so the battles happen. shang and ping lead their men together, respected and loved. they each get promoted, and promoted, and promoted. it’s been years, and it comes to a point where they’re both generals in their own right. they trust each other, care for each other. and are both secretly in love with the other.

mulan is so conflicted. because she wants this war to end and to go home and settle back into life and become ping’s wife, so she can have an easy life spent studying and learning with her family taken care of. that’s what she’d wanted. but now what she wants is shang, her best friend, her brother in arms, her fellow general. she wishes to be everything to him, aches to be the woman on his arm and in his bed, but knows it’s the one thing she can never be.

then that final battle happens. mulan’s quick thinking saves them all and ends the war - but she’s injured.

shang finds out the ping has been a girl all along. he demands explanations - so she tells him everything, that she traded places with ping to save him, to become his wife.

and the lies should sting the sharpest, but they don’t. she’s still the same person, after all. it’s that she’s promised to another man, for one second he’d thought he might have her, but no. so he agrees not to reveal her but he’s furious and furious at himself for being furious and they’re not the same now, broken and splintered and neither of them know what to do.

the war is over. they leave. mulan returns home, and thanks to her ping is now known as a respected general. she’s done her part and survived, and now she gets her reward - ping’s hand in marriage.

but she sees ping for the first time and flings herself into his arms and starts crying. she tells him everything, because he’s still her friend, her very best friend besides shang, the man whom she lied to and betrayed and loves. and ping listens and takes her by the shoulders and says - i’ll uphold our bargain, if that’s what you want. you can be my pampered wife, you’ve more than earned it. but if you want to go to shang, i won’t blame you. you deserve your happiness.

and mulan goes back and forth, but ultimately she decides she has to try. if shang rejects her she’ll return and marry ping and uphold her family honor. but if shang wants her - he’s not as high up as ping, but he’s high up enough to satisfy her family, and also she would love him and want him if he was no more than a farming peasant so it doesn’t matter much anyway.

she rides to the capitol. she finally meets ping’s father, running into him while looking for shang. “ah mulan,” says this man who was never supposed to know of her until she became his daughter-in-law, “i didn’t expect to see you here. how fortuitous. walk with me.” she does, wary, and that’s how she discovers - he and the emperor had discovered her deception a year in, but at that point she’d already proven herself too skilled and valuable to lose. he tells her that he will uphold his son and wife’s deal and gladly welcome her to his household - but that she’s earned her rank as general, and that he and the emperor have no problem with letting her keep it.

she says thank you, shocked and joyful, but that she has to talk to someone first. “ah, yes, young general li,” he says, eyes twinkling, “i do believe he’s around here somewhere.”

she has no idea how he seems to know everything, but she finally tracks down shang who’s ecstatic to see her and hates himself for it. she confesses - says she loves him, that she’s engaged to ping but willing and able to break this engagement for shang. who is dumbfounded and elated and says yes, of course, finally and forever.

and mulan accepts her rank and marries shang, and they become the literal power battle couple of the general li mulan and general li shang. ping becomes a scholar and marries a very nice young woman who loves reading and is happy to read aloud to her husband with his failing eyes.

and they all live happily ever after.

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just two guys….bonding… i can’t believe this is my first contribution to this amazing show…