and i just want the best for you

Second Best

Sam Winchester x Reader

950 Words

Story Summary: Y/N admits to Sam how she truly feels. 

Warnings: Mentions of feeling as if you don’t belong, some angst

“I want to be someone’s favorite.” You cried, staring out the window so you didn’t have to see the pity on Sam’s face. “I want to know what it’s like to have someone always there for you. That would drop everything in an instant to be Okay.”

“Y/N, I…” Sam started, no doubt trying to tell you that your feelings would pass. That you were being sentimental.

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Yes, i have suicidal thoughts but i don’t want to die.

I came to read an article about being suicidal but not actually doing anything to commit suicide which makes my feelings more valid because i too, am feeling the same thing.

I honestly have a list of things i wanted to end things but not actually doing it. I have a list of people i wanted to say sorry or thank you before actually leaving this life i am in and honestly, there are certain battles i have that i thought i might have lost it. I just don’t know what keeps me hanging on but i guess, deep inside, i know i still want to live. I still want to believe that there are still greater things that awaits me. I still want to make my parents proud, i still want to have my own family, i still want to see my children grow and be the best version of themselves. I still haven’t giving up on life although it feels like it has already given up on me.

You see, i do not self-harm but i do have ways on how to “punish” myself whenever i feel bad or whenever i feel like i deserved it like starving myself for a day or two. I guess, being suicidal doesn’t necessarily mean that you inflict pain on yourself physically. Some people, hurt themselves more emotionally or even mentally.

I am tired seeking reasons to continue living when all i’ve ever wanted was to simply live. I hate living this kind of life. I hate wanting to die especially when i feel like it was the only way for the pain or the feeling of emptiness to stop. I hate not being able to be the best version of myself just because i know i might end my life someday but you know, this may be hard but i am not giving up this time. I will surely overcome this. Life itself will be proud of me.

But tonight, just let me be.

Until I can get home and just turn off anon, my asks have been turned off. Some people apparently can’t follow directions and simply unfollow or block. They have to send hate. How fun. Because of that, for the time being asks/anons will be turned off.

Please remember to be kind and treat others with love and respect.

anonymous asked:

The lyric “I’m a mess but I’m the mess that you wanted” gets me so emo cuz he loved her when she was not in her best place emotionally/mentally. He cared about her even when they were just hooking up and saw who she really is underneath all the garbage people were saying about her. He’s such a good person

“Even in my worst times, you saw the best in me” 😭😭😭❤️

anonymous asked:

AU in which Yuuri and Viktor are married and Yurio is their smol angry adopted son

Susan was never seen or heard from again.

I’m doing Garnet +4 other gems, she’s the most done so far! : ]

  • fanfic writer: *writing* Oh wow, they are going to love this. This is by far my best work!
  • fic: *witty lines* *perfect love making* *fluffy enough to kill us all* *a dash of angst, a smidgen of hurt/comfort*
  • fanfic writer: Oh man. This is it. This will be my legacy! *sweats into fic* *bleeds into fic* *cries into fic* *spends days perfecting the grammar and verbage and sex scenes* *has 15 betas look over it*
  • fanfic writer: Okay. It is finally time to release my baby on the world. Here you go fandom. You're welcome.
  • fandom: Ha, cute. *like* *kudos*
  • fanfic writer: :/
  • * * *
  • same fanfic writer: *writing* Whatever. This is shit, I don't even care right now. A singing squirrel? Sure, let's do it. Haha, cheesy lines that make no sense, sure. Grammatical errors out the wazoo? Why not. No one's going to read this piece of crap anyway, I literally wrote it on a scrap of 1 ply toilet paper with a broken yellow crayon.
  • fanfic writer: LOL *post*
  • fanfic writer: *sigh*
my favorite blanket just came out of the dryer, and i dont care how hot it is outside or how many aliens are invading, im gonna go have a Warm Blanket Nap and nobody can stop me

ennotana week day 1: third year


Clearly that website is mistaken. She always was and always will be number 1.

The Engineer and his Bestfriend

-Hunk is a brilliant engineer

-Lance knows this, it’s why he spends hours just just watching Hunk work, keeping him company and telling him that it’s time to go to bed whenever it’s late

-Lately Hunk has been getting ready for the final battle with the Galra, taking inspiration from the trap they created intended for Allura and Coran

-It is a machine that will get its intended target into a never ending black hole, no time loops, no time jumps, just nothing

-And it seems like the machine works because they have experimented on inanimate objects and have tried everything possible to bring them back and once it becomes impossible they know that they can then build one on a bigger scale

-Hunk’s machine works and it will save the day but

-Something goes wrong with the machine, it was something that kept cropping up in the beta testing, it’s a certain screw that just never really wants to work

-And see the only people who know where the screw is and how to fix it are Lance and hunk

-And once you fix it, it’s game over, there no coming back from it

-Lance and hunk both know this

-Before Hunk can even go apologize or go fix it

-Lance is already on his way to the machine

-But just before he gets there, he stops and through the intercom tells Hunk “You are the best damn engineer and friend in this world, watch me make your machine work buddy”

-And hunk is just sobbing repeating “I love you Lance and please don’t do this, I can’t do this without you, I can’t do this without my best friend”

-And now the rest are starting to catch on to what Lance is really doing but by that point it’s too late the galra are gone

- Lance is gone

-And because Hunk is such a good fucking engineer there’s no way to ever get him back

-But you see it’s because Hunk is such a good engineer that he doesn’t give up

-He works non-stop for almost a year trying to get Lance back

-Pidge spends more time on the computer becoming more withdrawn, more obsessive in finding his family, including Lance

-Shiro takes it hard, he feels as if he’s let down his team for not being able to keep them all in one piece, he goes back to being very tense and stiff around the others

-Allura spends days, even weeks trying to find Lance, pinpoint where in all the universe he could be, she won’t say it but she misses his bad pick up lines

-And Coran is just hurt and upset that the young man who would get so homesick and yet try his best and be there for others would give up his chance to see his family and that is what pains him the most

-And Keith just starts spending even more time training, withdrawing from others, trying to act as if though he doesn’t miss Lance, trying to move on, failing to move on

-Hunk just well he needs to get Lance back because what is life without your best friend?

-Who just sits for hours on end just to watch you work and tinker

-A friend who has been there for so long they know what tool you need with a look

-A friend who knows that food isn’t the only important thing to but goddamn we need to find small things that bring us happiness

-A friend who makes you go to sleep when it’s late and you’ve been on a creating binge (the others don’t know but that’s okay the person who needs to know, does)

-A friend who just wants you to succeed

-A friend who loves you for who you are and ask for nothing in return

- A friend who would die for them, for him…..

-What is life without your best friend?

-Hunk already knows and he never wants to live through that again

-Because you see it’s because Hunk is such a good fucking engineer that he does get Lance back


the most memorable thing you ever did was get captured by your smoked-out ex. that’s not true! i’m sorry, and fucking half of stilwater. go team! — for @theillusivewoman. happy birthday, sam!