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Hey guys!! Commissions are open again! <3 It’s been a while, and I missed drawing for you! <3

RULES:

I WILL do your OC’s!

I will NOT do NSFW or mecha

I will draw for fandoms!

Furries at my discretion - animals aren’t my strong suit, so I will turn it down if I don’t feel comfortable, but if I feel comfortable I’d love to do it! I want to make sure you get a commission I’m proud of. :)

If you’re interested, message me on here or (for a more reliable messaging system), send me an email at chocolate_remmy@yahoo.com

I’m a very fast worker and generally have a turnaround date of four weeks or less after I receive payment! For examples of commissions I’ve completed, look here.

Even if you can’t afford a commission right now, just reblogging and signal boosting this helps me a lot! Thank you guys so much! <3

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It saddens me to say it (and it’s probably why I put off making this video for so long), but this will probably be the last Endertale comic dub I do for a while, since this is pretty much the end of the comic as it is now. @xxtc-96xx, I hope you’ll come up with more pages soon, because a lot of people really love your work!

(Of course, I did cut out the part with Fresh Sans in it, so there’s still the chance I’ll make that someday. It was an April Fools joke, though, so it didn’t feel right to put it in this video. Would have messed with the tone and mood. XD)

My eyes look similar in color to my coat right now. It’s crazy how much wearing green can make them appear green.

I might be getting sick. People at work have been passing something around and either my allergies are acting up today or I’m feeling the start of a cold (mainly drainage and a sore throat from drainage so it could just be allergies).

LIVEBLOG STARTING NOW

First off, I want to sincerely apologize for my absence. I’ll probably explain a little more in detail (I feel like I owe you guys at least that), but for now I’m ready to liveblog!

Garent’s Universe! I am SO ready!!!

STEVEN THAT IS SO DANGEROUS. YOU’RE LUCKY YOU HAVE SUPERHEROS FOR MOTHERS.

Also, whatchya got there, Garnet? Obviously a bubbled gem, but why does she still  have it? She usually sends them into the temple right away…

Omg nevermind, that looked like so much fun. I would totally climb on the rafters all the time if it meant I got to bounce around on Garnets soft, springy hair

“Tiny hands…. My only weakness”
THIS IS SO ADORABLE I’M GONNA CRY

midniter  asked:

Hi you're one of my fav blogs (I wish I could talk to you in Spanish but I'm from Brazil and unfortunately we only learn English at school). Anyway, I'm here bc I need help with a playlist and you're the first person I could think of. I want some Latino songs about LatAm, but idk much of other countries' music, so I thought maybe you/your followers could help? I want songs that talk about being Latine, how usa imperialism sucks, etc. I can send u what I already have so u can see what I mean! Thx

Don’t worry! I have brazilian friends and we mix english, spanish and portuguese lkjfg. Yeah, send me what you got! i can give you some songs right now, putting some parts that i love:

  • Latinoamerica by Calle 13 (Puerto Rico, Colombia, Perú, Brasil): i feel like you already have this in your list, because is our anthem at this point. It’s a song about latinoamérica and what they did here (the video has subtitles) / I work hard but with pride. Here we share, what’s mine is yours. This nation doesn’t drown with the waves. And if it collapses I rebuild it. I don’t even blink when I look at you, so you’ll remember my last name. Operation Condor invading my nest, I forgive but never forget!”
  • Memoria by León Gieco (Argentina): a song in memory of the dictatorships of Operación Condór (they had the help of US) + in memory of the terrorist attacks here (in the Argentine Israelite Mutual Association building) (the video has subtitles) / Two thousand would eat for a year
    with what a military minute costs. How many would stop being slaves
    for the price of a bomb thrown to the sea? /  Memory aims until it kills
    the people who try to silence it and don’t let it fly free like the wind.

  • Frijolero by Motolov (México) / video with english subtitles: a big fuck you to US from México in 2009, even before Trump. I love this song / “Now why don’t you look down to where your feet is planted. That U.S soil that makes you take shit for granted. If not for Santa Ana, just to let you know that where your feet are planted would be México”
  • El mojado by Ricardo Arjona / lyrics in english (Guatemala): song for inmigrants. “He said goodbye with a grimace disguised as a smile and he asked God -crucified on a shelf- to protect his people, and he crossed the border as he could /  Wet.back, wet of so much crying, knowing that in some place a kiss awaits him on hold since the day he left”
  • Multi_viral by Calle 13 (Puerto Rico): song of protest / The one who controls, the one who dictates, wants to get you sick to sell you drugs. / A piece of news not well told is an assault with a weapon / Our ideas are free and they are awake because we think with the doors wide open. What is not seen, we are seeing. We are born without knowing how to talk, ut we will die talking out loud.
  • Canción con todos by Mercedes Sosa / lyrics in english (Argentina): a song for latinoamericanes / All the voices, all. All the hands, all. All the blood can be song in the wind. Sing with me, sing…american brother, set free your hope with a cry in your voice. 
  • Rubén Rada (Uruguay): this list is looking to sad/dark, so let’s bring some latinidad with this amazing afrolatine artist. here: cha cha, muchacha / muriendo de plena / candombe para Gardel 
  • Gringo maligno by Todos Tus Muertos (Argentina):  Regan, Clinton Bush, Regan, everyone is the same / evil gringo, sent by Satan ccupying and blocking, imposing your plan.
  • La patria madrina by Lila Downs and Juanes (México and Colombia): protest song agaisnt capitalism, agaisnt the violent kidnapping and killing of 43 students of Ayotzinapa, agaisnt the destruction of the earth / Everybody wants a share of the oil, you see? and to burn Mother Earth with urgency to make more cars, to make more money, as if you could buy happiness. 
  • Por si acaso no regreso by Celia Cruz (Cuba): a song dedicated to Cuba, her homeland /  Home, do not suffer. Heart, do not break. Because badness can’t last 100 years nor could any body and I never wanted to abandon you. I’ve taken you with every step and my heart will remain for eternity as a flower on your lap just in case……just in case I don’t return / In the case I don’t return, if I don’t return, remember: I loved her with my life. In the case I don’t return, I will die from pain…I’m already dying.
  • Los americanos by Piero (Argentina) / lyrics in english: with an ironic/sarcastic tone, he makes fun of gringxs. Every part of this song is gold. / They are born elderly and gradually become kids, throughout the lifetime of “los americanos”. And they are born convinced that there is nobody in the world more important than “los americanos” /  Napoleon for them was an Italian gentleman who organized everything without “los americanos”. And they are more than sure that he wouldn’t have lost Waterloo with the help of “los americanos”.  If they know anything about history, it’s not from reading it but from seeing it in the “cine americano” /  If there’s something to be admired, wherever they go, it’s the grand elegance of “los americanos”. wearing native dress, they mix in with the people, and nobody realizes that they are “americanos”.
  • “Murciélago” by  Porter: about the colonization of natives /  The elders saw them. They do not come in peace, we hear screams. There have three ships, they bring Cristo. 
  • La Gozadera by Gente de Zona and Marc Anthony (Cuba and Puerto Rico): a really cool song about latinidad. /  If you are Latino, take out your flag!
  • Guerra by Calle 13: anti-war song. they talk about US, wars and refugees. just. please watch this video. it has english subtitles./  I am your defeat, your two broken legs. The nail in your foot which pierced through the boot. I am the strategy in any battle. Today you either win or lose, I am the sorrows of your joys. The war by night and the war by day.
  • Pégate by Ricky Martin: let’s end this in a happy song, 100% latine with my father Ricky /  I come with good stuff for my people, I bring love, I bring this remedy which cheers up the hearts of the entire world. For the pain, for the heartaches. There’s nothing better than the rhythm of my drums / And let rivers of goodness flow to all the people of the world. Because we can’t forget that pure love liberates and lies are poison. As my mother used to say: dancing you can solve anything.

I’m tagging some of the latines that i know, if they want to add any song, please do it! @dasakuryo @the-mighty-microwave @targannington @alteanwitch @koganer @voltronless @bitcherovas @ceibos @duskianfae @im-not-a-real-hero @trashsenal @dixonette1013 @latinxlance @cherry-cokes @lancesazul @freckledai @pamelas​ @elbiotipo guys u are like a bunch of people lkfjg i’m sorry if i forgot anyone!!! a lot of people and a bad memory, not a good mix. 

These days

I took last week off work to hike and do house projects (I did more of the former, which was the right thing to do, looking back). I took a lot of photos and I’m eager to share with you my adventures (I only hiked or trail ran new places I had never done before), but it feels too much like a project and so for right now, patience. 

I sit on a Board for solar work in the State and I had been feeling pretty uninspired lately (and also a little overwhelmed with being the only woman in a sea of older men and the subtle messages I sometimes have to deal with in that situation). Yesterday we had our first in-person board meeting in a while, and I left feeling surprisingly positive and inspired. My view from the meeting was 4 stories above the capital building, looking out at the shiny copper dome and what used to be the State Planning Office. It was a poignant moment. 

A girlfriend of mine is friends of friends with my exes current girlfriend. She told me that the ex tries to be unusually friendly to her and her husband now (he was not friendly to them when he was with me, she correctly pointed out), and when he approaches them she doesn’t acknowledge his presence. Thank god. Thank god someone is willing to take a stance on abuse. We are friends but we aren’t necessarily very close; I immediately felt deep respect for her. You shouldn’t get to abuse women behind closed doors and then go on being the “friendly” and “fun” person in the public eye. I don’t know how people can stay close friends with someone after they found out what he did. I am struggling with this with another friend. If it’s not ok for Trump to do these things, why is it ok for your friend to do it? Is it because it was behind closed doors and people assume there are two sides to every story? Is it because it doesn’t affect them directly? Is it because it’s easier to assume that somehow there were equal roles in “bringing out the worst in each other”? I am struggling with how to maintain an intimate friendship when their friendship with my ex is a trigger for me. It takes me right back to being afraid and overwhelmed and worried that people wouldn’t believe me because he is “friendly” and “fun”. Fuck abuse and how in some ways the manipulation and mind games never totally go away. I have such deep gratitude for my high school girlfriends who so clearly put their line in the sand on abuse and never second guessed me when I finally felt safe enough to share some of the truth (although admittedly, even writing this feels uncomfortable). 

I was at a party with my ex and my high school friends a few years ago. My friend told me, when my ex and I split up, that a friend of her husband came up to her at that party and said “he’s an abuser”, and pointed out my husband. She knew nothing at the time of what happened at home, and she stiffly denied it. When I finally broke down and told her the truth the following spring, she remembered that moment and shared it with me. I don’t know how he knew, maybe he was a social worker who had learned the body language of both parties and read the cues, but I’m grateful for that man too, that someone out there saw it so clearly when I was struggling to find my voice. 

I am grateful for the therapist I was seeing at the time who told me, despite the fact that maybe she shouldn’t have, that of all the couples she saw (she was mainly a couples therapist) and the terrible fights they were having before they came to her, or were still struggling with, and the range of troubles, no one else was on the level of my exes verbal abuse. That was such an important moment for me, when I finally realized that I could trust my instincts and I was right that something was terribly wrong with my ex and it wasn’t my fault; it wasn’t normal, even for couples who were deeply struggling, and it wasn’t ok. 

I guess I have just been in need of some serious truth telling, and this platform has always been a safe, positive space for that to happen.

The late summer/early autumn unseasonably warm air has come back for another long stretch so I am running most days and feeling happy and healthy. I have been working hard over the last year to figure out how diet and lifestyle can support a healthy mind and body, and I think I have been hugely successful, especially in the PMS department. It really comes down to avoiding sugar as much as possible (this is probably the most important thing), cutting way back on caffeine (almost as important, and tea if you can is much better than coffee in reducing moodiness and anxiety), regularly drinking a really nice, gentle mix of herbs, tons of water, good sleep, avoiding or limiting alcohol during PMS, and regular exercise. Cutting out empty carbs as much as possible and eating healthy fats and proteins goes hand-in-hand with that. Having awesome friends and a deep, supportive, accepting love also does wonders.

I’m mailing in my passport renewal application today! I’m so excited for January and going out of the country for the first time since late 2014!

Wishes of peace and joy for you as we enter the cooler seasons, the holidays, the shorter days, and the longer nights. 

I need an Annalise x Tegan fic right away. I feel like I can even get over Bonnalise somehow if they give me that. I’ve been attacked, It happened so fast. I am losing myself over this show. Bonnalise is so so important, I’ll forever ship Evalise, I love the idea of Annalise x Frank, I like Annalise and Soraya together they have so much chemistry and now Annalise x Tegan… Both are fierce and I can’t imagine anything hotter than this. The other relationships are all so emotional, toxic, complicated, or something. But this one is nothing but hot right now. 

Anyway we’re gonna get Bonnalise backstory next week and I am excited. The episode called “I love her”. I can’t even.

anonymous asked:

I often feel that I am not the gender I was assigned as. But I am approaching 20, and i know many people have transitioned much later in life, but I feel that going thru the transition, like telling everyone who i feel i am inside, possibly even getting surgery is just so much more of a struggle than to just deal with feeling like I don't belong in this gender. Do you have any advice for me or have felt this way? Thanks

I’d talk with either a therapist if you have the resources available, or a local trans group of some sort. I’m still not positive I’m going to go through surgery. I seem sure of myself but that’s simply bc I don’t voice maybe 99% of my doubts on here.
You don’t have to know your whole game plan right now, and it’s overwhelming to think you do need to have everything figured out. I’m 21. And didn’t know I was trans until January this year. I know I want to come out bc being referred to as my pronouns and name gives me so much relief. It may be a hassle but every single out trans person I know tells me it’s worth it.
Also, a good thing(or at least something that helped me) to do is read as much trans literature that you can get your hands on. I’d start with Imogen Binnie’s Nevada, Casey Plett’s Safe Girl to Love, The Collection(Stories from the Transgender Vanguard), and Julia Serano’s Whipping Girl. The first three are fiction while Whipping Girl is more of an academic read.

power hour

I did institute a Power Hour (and a half) at work wherein we book a conference room with a big boardroom table and a bunch of ladies bring their projects/deep reading/emails/whatever and spend an hour-ish working on stuff with no interruptions. It feels good to be sitting around that table and knowing we’re all knocking shit out. We’ve only had one meeting but I got so much done and I set up another one in two weeks and invited some other ladies from across campus and I want this to be a regular, organic thing where the women here can feel free to do this on their own and get with the people that make them feel inspired and accomplished and motivated to knock something off their to-do list without having to answer phones or greet visitors or unjam copiers. I also want it to be women-only because that puts an even better spin on Power Hour because it’s ladies getting shit done. Right now I just book the space as “meeting” but I think after the next one I’m gonna start calling it Power Hour on the campus calendar. I selfishly want to be known as the mastermind behind it at work bc it’s ~on brand and I’m determined to make people network and connect whether they want to or not. But you can feel free to do this at your work! And you can take all the credit there.

Mod Update

Haha- so school is stressing me the **** out and my dad is making me feel a bit like crap about myself right now. Anxiety is getting bad again. So asks and stuff would be appreciated. Hearing from you guys makes me feel so much better. I love you guys and I hope you’re all having a great day/life!

I have a weakness for characters who’s defining feature is a capacity for love that for all intents and purposes shouldn’t even exist. When it comes down to it, this is why Cas is my favourite character.

Castiel is an ancient disembodied being, who has witnessed the evolution of life on earth from the very beginning, but who somehow fell in love with a human being who’s lifespan must feel like a mere blip in time to someone as old as him.

When thinking about it this way, I even kind of get why most angels are “dicks”. Why should they care about individual humans when they have been here millions of years before them and expect to still be here after humans have long gone extinct. That’s why even the angels who were more on the friendly side, always acted a little aloof. The only equivalent I can think of is a human being who loves nature and wants to preserve a certain species of insects. That person wouldn’t love an individual animal of that species, but care for the species as a whole.

But then there is Cas. Who somehow loves his human family so much, that he would gladly give his eternal life for them and has done so many times already.

Can you imagine loving something with the lifespan of a mayfly? No? Then consider the capacity for love within Cas and explain to me how some people can not admire him for the truly miraculous creature he is.

i wish i could do things right and i wish i had motivation to get up

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“ My last wish are..? “

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Au info

  • them: whats your favorite movie trilogy?
  • me: Man of Steel (2013), Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice (2016) and Justice League (2017) DIR. ZACHARY EDWARD SNYDER

LISTEN UP PEOPLE

I DON’T WANT TO GET ALL TOUGH ON YOU BUT A GIRL’S GOTTA DO WHAT A GIRL’S GOTTA DO

I DON’T WANT TO SEE NONE OF THIS “I’M STARTING TO GIVE UP ON TAYLOR EVER NOTICING ME” OR “I’M STARTING TO ACCEPT I’LL NEVER MEET HER”

NOPE

I’M HAVING NONE OF IT

I WANT YOU TO CLOSE YOUR EYES AND IMAGINE TAYLOR STANDING IN FRONT OF YOU. YEP, RIGHT THERE. NOW IMAGINE HER TELLING YOU SHE LOVES OF. YEP, “I LOVE YOU BUDDY”, IMAGINE IT. NOW THINK ABOUT HUGGING HER. YOU HEARD ME! THINK ABOUT HER LEANING IN, WRAPPING HER ARMS AROUND YOU AND SQUEEZING YOU SO TIGHT. 

FEEL THAT? THAT FEELING OF WARMTH AND JOY AND HAPPINESS? YEP, TAYLOR WANTS THAT AS MUCH AS YOU DO. SHE WANTS TO BE ABLE TO LOOK YOU IN THE EYE AND THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING HER. SHE WANTS TO MEET YOU. SHE WANTS TO SHOW YOU LOVE. AND SHE IS DOING THE BEST SHE CAN TO SHOW EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US THAT.

SO LET’S IMAGINE EVERYTHING I JUST WENT THROUGH AGAIN, OKAY? THAT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU. DO NOT GIVE UP HOPE. DO NOT THINK IT TAYLOR WILL NEVER WRAP HER ARMS AROUND YOU AND MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE THE MOST LOVED PERSON ON THE ENTIRE PLANET. IT WILL HAPPEN. REPEAT AFTER ME; I WILL HAVE MY MOMENT WITH TAYLOR. 

I CAN’T TELL YOU WHEN OR WHERE OR HOW OR WHAT WILL HAPPEN BUT I PROMISE YOU YOUR TIME WILL COME. YOU’LL GET TO MAKE AN AWKWARD FOOL OUT OF YOURSELF IN FRONT OF YOUR IDOL JUST AS SO MANY OF US ALREADY HAVE. YOU’LL HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO LOOK BACK AT THE TIME YOU MET TAYLOR SWIFT AND REGRET EVERYTHING YOU SAID BECAUSE YOU WERE AN IDIOT AND COULDN’T GATHER YOUR WORDS. YOU WILL HAVE A PHOTO WITH YOUR FAVOURITE HUMAN EVER AND MAKE IT EVERY SINGLE PROFILE PHOTO ON EVERY SINGLE ACCOUNT EVER. 

BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY THIS. TAYLOR SEES YOU. SHE LOVES YOU. AND IF IT HASN’T HAPPENED FOR YOU YET, YOUR TIME IS STILL TO COME. 

xoxo lauren. aka the ass taylor swift owns 

love u all.