and i have so much feels right now

TG:RE Chapter 126 Summary

Yoriko: Being much handier than first assumed.

Kaneki: Talking about the old employee benefits of his old job.

Mutsuki: Not giving a shit while simultaneously giving way to many.

Okahira: Being a paradox. 

Touka: Making chain jewelry.

Kiyoko: Worried about the draft.

Ui: Talking to dead people.

Urie: Wedding Crashing

Shinsanspei: Promising to get his aunt a present.

Mr. Centipede: “I just came out to have a good time and I’m honestly feeling so attacked right now.”

i have recently just started accepting the fact that i may indeed be an ace. however until now, i feel like i dont have the right to declare it (just yet). because honestly i still fear the possibility that i will actually be sexually attracted to someone/anyone one day. and you know what problem it might cause? judgemental people talking behind my back because ‘supposedly’, sexuality is something that is permanent, not temporary. i fear the backstabs, the critical eyes, the possibility of being the center of a party anecdote. but you know what i’ve learned recently? screw what other people think! im only 18 for crying out loud and it’s alright that i still haven’t completely figured myself out. the mere fact that i am trying is more than enough! as a matter of fact, i should actually be proud of myself for finally embracing my sexuality. i know it’s still a lot of work but trust me, this little step already means a tad to me. i feel like im one step closer to finding my genuine self and not just the person or the facade that i wanted you all to see. and i dont know, there’s nothing more i could ask for.

anonymous asked:

I'm sorry to send this because you must be getting lots panicked asks like this one right now, but I've suddenly lost all hope of Reylo after this whole vanity fair fiasco. I'm an og who doesn't have a tumblr or anything but has been DEEPLY emotionally invested in this ship; it was actually my sexual awakening, and very meaningful to me. I can't latch onto any of the pro reylo arguments right now, and I feel so lost because I feel like I've wasted a year and a half on something that wasn't real.

i’m sorry i don’t know how much assurance i can bring but like

when u say it isn’t real……. none of this is real. it’s an epic space opera with cheesy tropes and laserswordfighting and heartfelt emotion. we’re a bunch of ppl celebrating smth that doesn’t actually exist. star wars isn’t the most perfect basis for our attention–it’s riddled with plot holes and breaking of its own rules and a lot of other mistakes–but it gives us basis to imagine a slew of possibilities for this universe and these characters. there’s a reason it’s survived for 40 years and it sure isn’t bc it’s perfectly well-written and executed. fandom is inherently transformative of the fiction it takes in. that’s what makes it so awesome.

what happens between rey and kylo in future installments is what you make of it. nothing will ever be able to take away from what happened in the force awakens and the experience you’ve had for the past year and a half unless you let it. if you ask me, none of this was for nothing.

i met some of my best friends and my girlfriend and even made a few enemies over this stupid story about magical monks in space and tragedy and true love because i want the scrappy brave desert rat and the angsty hotheaded estranged prince to get together. that’s amazing.

i’ll stan for canon reylo all day long but at the end of the day i think what attention and love we bring to it makes it real whether or not they smooch in canon. i mean hell i got inspired to write fanfic about something as stupid and insignificant as rey’s shirt just the other day. when rey and kylo so much as look at each other in tlj i’m gonna swoon.

i hope to be inspired by the new content. i’m a writer and an english major and making something out of nothing is my job and what makes me happy. keep on staying emotionally invested in reylo if it still makes you happy too. canon purity meaning ain’t got nothing on what you make it mean.

anonymous asked:

*Kant

(in answer to “Who’s Keant?”)
Immanuel Kant is a noted German philosopher who died in 1804. I had to study some of his work a few years back, and while I don’t remember much of what he actually had to say, that may be because I disagreed so violently that I couldn’t finish the reading and proceeded to blot all memory of it from my mind.
With the help of Google and Wikipedia, I think I disagreed with how he defined reason and perception? Hell if I know why. I could check the book that the reading is in (I still have it; it’s an anthology and I really liked some of the other stuff in it) but I honestly don’t feel up to it right now.
For more information, I recommend Google.

Bad

Really struggling to get motivated today. It’s a lovely day and the first day we’ve had nothing on since the move yet I’m sat here in a daze. It’s already lunchtime and I honestly don’t know where the time has gone.

There is so much to do with unpacking and organising but I just can’t seem to focus or find the energy today. I know it was just a stupid blog but what I posted about last night has really upset me. I struggle with feeling like a bad person at the best of times so seeing us on that kind of list, however ridiculous, has knocked me.

We have so much going on right now obviously externally but also internally and I just can’t deal with any more on top of that. Urgh excuse this rant, I don’t even know why I’m posting this. I’m not posting this for attention, I just genuinely want to get my feelings out. I feel bad. I hope I’m not bad.

Sick Day || Yuta

Group: Nct

Member: Yuta

Genre: fluff

Word Count: 1.1k

Request: Can i request a yuta scenario where you are stubborn and go out when your sick after he tells you not too and he ends up having to take care of you pleasee💖 also an unloyal yuta stan here 👀

A/n: Another unloyal Yuta stan we’re rising. But this is my first Yuta fic and I’m soft as hell. Omg I love Yuta so much. (I’m stanning Minghao so hard rn I feel like I’m cheating on my Japanese boi)

Originally posted by chocosicheng


You felt like utter crap right now. Your head was in a tailspin of a headache, your nose stuffed so bad you had to breathe through your mouth and your joints ached like crazy. You were sick.

Glancing at your phone you gave a soft smile at the text your boyfriend Yuta had already sent (spammed) you.

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100.000 subscribers

I forgot everything I wanted to say

This is just incredible, words cannot express how I’m feeling right now

All I have to say is thank you, thank you so much for the amount of support you give me, it’s just crazy, I have been on Youtube for only 2 years and I’m having fun posting these little animations, and people like it.

Thank you thank you so much for the support !

I can’t do something really big for the event, but I can do a little video for thanking my subscribers and I’ll say the date for the live :)

Thank you again ! Have a nice day !

anonymous asked:

I love bts more than anything but I can't talk to anyone about them. I don't have any friends in real life and on twitter everyone hates them including my only friend. and she tells me she doesn't mind and I should talk to her but I know she does. I know she hates them. she told me before I started liking them. and I did talk to her sometimes because I couldn't help it but I could tell she didn't want anything to do with them. so I stopped. I'm not doing it again. we talk about literally (1)

everything else but that’s the one thing that matters most to me right now and I can’t talk about it and it kills me. I can’t post anything on twitter either. ppl unfollow me every time I do. all I ever hear from everyone there is how terrible bts is and how much they don’t deserve what they have and that they’re not talented and it feels awful. it makes me feel terrible for apparently liking such a despicable thing. and I don’t wanna shove them down anyone’s throat if they don’t wanna see stuff about them. and it feels so lonely all the time.

i get this ;;; it sounds like you’re mainly on twitter so i suggest making a separate account just for bts. follow stans you like, there are plenty of stans who love bts just as much as you do, and on that acc, block the ones who unnecessarily hate or are just generally negative, even if they’re your friends, because you don’t have to deal with them there if you don’t want to,, follow those ‘rt to gain mutuals’ accs and try to reach out to people who follow you back, even join gcs and try making friends that way. there are so many people in this ever growing fandom who, like you, just want to make friends, so don’t be afraid to reach out. and good luck !! if you decide to do this then tell me your @ and i’ll follow you too ♡ ♡

anonymous asked:

How are you?

Hi there!
I’m okay. My rotation is going quite well and that’s making me feel more confident. The work is interesting and I like the people I’m working with. Depression is bad in an overarching sense but I am able to get through the day. Everything feels overwhelming.
I flew back home for the weekend to go to my sister’s graduation, so that’s where I am right now. I’m hoping to do some more traveling before I head back to my home campus. I will probably visit Montreal, Boston, and NYC in the next month.
Not being on tumblr so much seems to be fairly positive for my mental health. I’m not leaving but I have been spending less time scrolling through.

flowercroxns  asked:

SO THERE'S A STORM HAPPENING WHERE I LIVE AND THUNDER AND LIGHTNING YA FEEL ME? AND I JUST REALIZED THAT I HAVE NO FRIENDS TO TALK ABOUT MY FAVORITE BOOK WITH SO ON ONE GETS MY REFERENCES

You have no idea how much I relate to you right now 😂😂

“I’m practicing French right now.  I want to move to Europe so I can force myself to start over.  I have a nine-to-six job.  It’s a good position.  They pay me well.  I love my team.  But everything just feels so familiar.  There’s no discomfort or uncertainty anymore.  On weekends I go to the same neighborhood bar.  I eat at the same restaurants that I know are good.  I take interesting vacations, but even those tend to follow a regular pattern.  As much as I tell myself that I’m being adventurous when I hike in Peru—it’s a very planned risk.  I think a new city will be good for me.  I’ll start out alone.  I’ll be forced to reflect.  I’ll have a sense of unexpectedness.  I want to feel like a tourist in my own life again.”

anonymous asked:

Wow. I have a pretty big YOI account on IG and that shit bang honestly makes me feel like shit. I dislike part of the YOI fandom so much right now- can't people just let other people ship/write/draw/etc. whatever they want? I thought the YOI fandom was all about accepting eachother's differences and stuff? It's just becoming toxic right now and that makes me feel so stupid for being part of the fandom..... Maybe I'd expexted too much from a fandom this big :/

anon.. that’s what huge fandom do..
there’s always some people who messed the kinship of the fandom.
you just have to deal with it and move on.
actually there is no such thing as “accepting each other’s differences and stuff” in every fandom. some people will support you, some will not, and some will stab you in your back
go outside of your hiding and you’ll see the real hell of a fandom

that shitlist thing is just some people’s preference of enjoying yoi. but I think they’ve gone too far by dumping literally every artists and authors in yoi fandom into their shitlist. dumping them into the shitlist also lowkey calling those artists and authors’ works “shit”.

it’s RUDE.

the amount of hardwork, backache, eye strain, digging for ideas, etc is tiring! they spent their days, weeks, months to create it so the fandom live. that’s…… if you ever create some artwork or fanfiction tho

they won’t reblog if certain art or fanfiction contains Yuuri wash the dishes, Yuri cuddling with Otabek, Mafia AU, etc.

don’t worry people outside that pure innocent yoi circle will still reblog and kudos your works. the scale is like 1:100000000000000000000000000000000000

I see they also hate seeing yuri have a kind of “feelings” toward ANY characters. they prevent yuri to growing up. in their opinion Yuri has to be a baby agape who can only chewing on pirozhki.

WELL DUH maybe you have to see the leaked comic book Kubo-sensei wrote for Yuri’s Welcome to The Madness.
it’s OFFICIAL that Yuri, who is written 15 y.o BEG TO COME ALONG WITH OTABEK TO THE CLUB.
OTABEK DID NOT ALLOWED HIM
BUT YURI INSIST! AND HE’S ANGRY BECAUSE BEKA LEFT HIM IN A BAD MOOD.
HE LOVE WTTM BECAUSE IT’S EXPRESS HIS FEELINGS PERFECTLY. without those girly ballerina moves like in agape and in allegro appassionato he actually didn’t fond of.

BAM!

in official Yuri is a rebel edgy teenager. he’s more mature than what you think. if Yuri was real, he would hate everyone who call him little kid.

the point is just keep doing what you like most. DRAW MORE, WRITE MORE. let those antis mind their own businesses. there’s still a ton of people in the fandom that will support you

Ai Yazawa End-of-Book Notes 1-21

So at the end of every volume of NANA, Ai Yazawa has a brief paragraph about the manga or just some introspection about her life. They give great insight into the series and I think only a few are found on the scans of NANA online, so I thought I’d share them all!

Volume 1

The creator, Ai Yazawa, told us, “I created this story so that it could be enjoyed as a stand-alone and, at the same time, have a complete ending that could be connected to an ongoing series.  I hope you’ll look forward to the future of the two Nanas!”

Volume 2

A note from Ai Yazawa: “I had thought that if the two Nanas met each other, they would probably be constantly fighting, but they seem oddly friendly.  What’s up with that?!  It’s one of me (not so) seven wonders (ha-ha).”

Volume 3

Since childhood, the artists I’ve looked up to haven’t been writers and illustrators, but mostly musicians.  Music provides me the most emotional effect and excitement.  If there was no music, I don’t think my creative juices would boil.  Music is that important to my life.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 4

I realized one day that there are hit songs with the same names as the main female characters, NANA, JUNKO, and SACHIKO (the kanji for JUNKO is different, though).  It’s not that big a deal, but I sometimes just hum the melodies longingly.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 5

In the initial drafts, Nana’s band was a rockabilly band like the Stray Cats.  But due to various circumstances, I didn’t keep it that way.  But if they were rockabilly, Ren, Nobu and Shin would have had pompadours.  And Yasu too?

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 6

When I was a child, I used to take piano lessons.  Even after I stopped taking lessons, I bought sheet music I liked and continued playing.  I’ve had my hands full for several years now, but one of these days I’d like to learn how to play jazz piano, which I’ve wanted to do for years now.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 7

I had an opportunity to interview a group of professional musicians.  I showered them with questions, but they answered willingly, and it was very helpful.  I was having problems balancing the fictional world of manga-like simplicity and gorgeousness with a sense of reality.  But I realized again that what’s important is the humanity of the characters.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 8

When I was in high school, there was a cool girl in my class who was a lone wolf.  I was really into a foreign New Romantic-type band then, and when she asked me one day, “Do you want to go to their concert together?” I was overwhelmed.  My heart fluttered more than when I was with my boyfriend (☺).  Have you had a Hachiko experience like that?  - Ai Yazawa

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i wish i could do things right and i wish i had motivation to get up

09.05.2017 // I had a test today and it went really bad, I got absolutely nervous and answered almost everything wrong, so I’m feeling a bit down right now. I also had my last class from conditioning, my favorite subject this year, and I’m definitely gonna miss it. Hope you guys have or had a better day than mine!

Btw, if anyone wants us to see their posts, please tag us with #Architstudy cause these next weeks we’re gonna be with finals and we won’t spent so much time around here, and we’ll try to check our tag every day! 

[LYRICS] Spring Day by BTS (Japanese Version)

Japanese

会いたい
言葉にすると余計
会いたい
君の写真見るとね
会いたい でも時間がない
ただ過ぎていく
時の中自らを責めまた
遠くなる願い

まるで冬のようさ 夏でも吹雪くようさ
心を乗せた列車 すでに雪の中
いっそ君と地球の裏側へ 手を掴んでもう 逃げたい
どれだけ降れば 春の日が来るのだろう
Friend

この大空を舞う粉雪のよう
粉雪のよう
舞えるなら君へ
すぐ辿りつけるはずなのに

雪の花びら
舞い降り
消えていった
会いたい
会いたい
どれほど 想えば
凍える夜 数えれば
ねぇ、会えるの?
出会えるの?

冬の終わりを告げる
優しい春の日まで
花咲くまで
いて欲しいそのまま
そのまま

君が変わった?
じゃなきゃ僕が変わった
この流れる時に堪え
また変わるのだろうな
みんなそうだろう、なぁ?

そうさ君が 離れた今
ぶれることはなかった想いは
変わらないさ だけど今は別れよう
その方がもう苦しくないから

冷めた君がそう この吐息のよう この吐息のよう
積もる思い出はこんなにまだ残っているのに

雪の花びら
舞い降り
消えていった
会いたい
会いたい
どれほど 想えば
凍える夜 数えれば
ねぇ、会えるの?
出会えるの?

You know it all
You’re my best friend
また朝は来るのさ
どんな夜も どんな季節も
終わりは来るから

桜が花咲き
冬がもう終わるよ
会いたい
会いたい
ほんの少しだけ幾夜か数えたら
会いに行くよ
迎えに行くよ

冬の終わりを告げる
優しい春の日まで
花咲くまで
いて欲しいそのまま
そのまま

English

I miss you
Putting it into words like this makes me miss you more
When I look at pictures of you
I miss you
But I don’t have time
Amidst the realm of time I blame myself
And my wish gets further away again

It’s as if it’s winter, it’s as if it’ll blizzard even in the summer
A train that has my heart on it, it’s already in the snow
I want to go with you to the other side of the earth, grab your hand, and just run away
How much does it have to snow until a spring day comes?
Friend

Like fine snow that drifts in the wide sky
Like fine snow
If I could drift away to you
I’d be able to reach you quickly, but…

Petals of snow
They drifted down
And then disappeared
I miss you
I miss you
How much do I have to wish
How many freezing nights do I have to count
To be able to see you?
To be able to meet you?

Until the kind spring day that tells us the end of winter
Until the flowers bloom
I want you to stay, just like this
Just like this

You changed?
If not, then I changed
To bear this passing of time
I guess change happens again
It must be like that for everyone, right?

That’s right, this moment in which you left
My feelings that never wavered won’t change
But let’s separate for now
Because that’ll be less painful

Your now cold self is like this sigh, like this sigh
Even though there are so many of these piled up memories left

Petals of snow
They drifted down
And then disappeared
I miss you
I miss you
How much do I have to wish
How many freezing nights do I have to count
To be able to see you?
To be able to meet you?

You know it all
You’re my best friend
Morning will come again
Because all nights and all seasons
Have an end

The cherry blossoms bloom
And the winter is about to end
I miss you
I miss you
If I can count out even just a couple of nights
I’ll go see you
I’ll go pick you up

Until the kind spring day that tells us the end of winter
Until the flowers bloom
I want you to stay, just like this
Just like this

Trans cr; Maya & Mari @ bts-trans
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Louis’ album will destroy us all. I /know/ Louis can blow us all away with his voice. He has so much potential, you have no idea. And his voice is one of a kind. No one has a similar voice to Louis that’s on the radio right now. And he’s so smart and talented, he can choose his musical style based on what is more popular right now and still create art and express feelings and emotions and thoughts. No one has any idea how fucking amazing it will be, not even us.

Chris Cornell.

I’ve been trying to think of what to write for a solid hour now. I’ll start something, then backspace every word until it’s all gone, and I think that’s how my mind and heart feels right now.

This isn’t just a case of a musician I was a casual fan of dying too young. Soundgarden is a band that I discovered as a child in the late ‘90s. I have fan art of Chris Cornell that I drew when I was 11 fucking years old. I had a silly teenage crush on him, too. There are old picture files on a zip drive I own that date back to 2004 with titles like “Ohh Chris!” and “So Sexy”.

And now this guy that was so much a part of those silly times is…gone. Just gone. He took his own life. God knows what led him to do this. It could have been the result of months or even years of heartache that wasn’t managed properly. It could have been an impulse decision made while upset, as so many suicides occur that way. None of us will ever know what was going on in his head last night.

His bandmates, his friends, his family, and millions of fans are now stuck in a horrid grieving process that will take a long time to work through. My first thought this morning after seeing that Chris was actually gone, as in gone and never coming back, was about how Jerry Cantrell is going to have to bury another fucking friend of his that died too young. Another one. He has had to watch dozens of people he loved die like this. The same could be said for any grunge musician right now. Another brother. Gone.

But I want to say something to all of you - nearly 1,000 of you - you are so fucking loved. If you’re not loved by the people in your life, there are people like me and others on the internet who are going to be there when your head starts slumping. Please, please take care of yourself. If you’re battling suicidal thoughts, please reach out to me or someone else. Don’t make an impulse decision to leave this world when you have so much more to offer, so much to give. I failed to take my own life three times. I am glad something stopped me each time. Death culture is rampant and it might be comforting to think about when times get rough, but please don’t die.

I am not okay. I’m probably not going to be okay for a while. Last night was a mess and I was already upset about that, but now that Chris is gone, the only thing I can do is kind of divorce myself from my emotions a bit. Regardless though, I am here for you. Please don’t do anything to hurt yourself. Maybe when my head settles we can have some kind of group session about this and play some Soundgarden tunes (or hell, even Audioslave or that jank Timbaland album) to get through this together. 

Chris Cornell, the second best voice in grunge, has been silenced, but recordings of that voice will be around for a very long time. I am so grateful for all the times I was inspired by his singing, his songwriting, and his sense of humor. Chris wasn’t just a pretty face - he was highly intelligent and had such a unique way of looking at fame and praise. He didn’t want to be a sex symbol. He didn’t take groupies. He didn’t have that same hedonistic attitude that befell so many other musicians. He was a cut above the rest, something truly special, and I’m going to remember him that way.

I’m going to remember Chris Cornell as the amazing person he was, not for what he did in a split second while alone and hollow inside. He is still full of life through the life he gave to others.