"we are talking about a boy whose whole demeanour visibly changes for the better when he's not around his "girlfriend" Ok, how can you completely agree with that statement about Louis when there are pictures of Louis standing right by Eleanor with a huge, genuine grin on his face on the BTY video set? And we have plenty of pictures of Louis not being a ball of sunshine when he isn't around Eleanor. So why do you agree with such obvious falsehoods? Why lie to yourself like that?
Anonymous said: Im sorry but there are tons of pics and videos of Louis acting with eleanor like he did with bebe, just because you dont want to see it it doesnt mean it doesnt exist just look at any masterpost like i dont like how you lie and manipulate your followers tbh
Putting these together then putting this conversation to bed.
The thing that makes me shake my head about things like this is you actually think I don’t actively examine things for myself. I’ve seen all the masterposts. I’ve looked into it. Hell, every time we get any sort of “new information” I reexamine it to still see if I think and feel the same way.
Sure, yes, I’ve seen him smiling around her, but the ones you’re talking about in particular are on set where he’s doing the thing he loves to do so that doesn’t necessarily mean it can be attributed to her presence. For me it’s more than just mere smiles, but full out body language and i just don’t see the same thing you guys see.
I’m neither lying nor manipulating. I’m simply posting my own personal opinion. People are free to examine (or not examine if they choose!) whatever they want because the information is out there for anyone to look at. How does what I think affect your life? I’ll tell you a secret- it doesn’t.
Anyway, I’m not gonna change you’re mind, you’re not gonna change mind, so I suggest you just focus on what makes you happy. And it seems that’s Louis with Eleanor. Enjoy it! I’m certainly not going to stop you. This is the last I’ll be talking about this.
So I was rewatching Miraculous (again) and I just felt like you would understand that wonderful shipper feeling you get when you see the scene of Chat Noir smiling at Marinette's family photo in Animan.
NONY, YOU REALLY GET ME. BECAUSE, OK, ok. Like, I’m not sure why I never made a post about this but now that you brought it up I’m just??????? heck yeah let me talk about this—
because there is more to this scene than you know, anon. THERE IS MORE. So slip on your shipping goggles cuz we about to swim deep in this ocean of shipping feels~
See here, we have our sunshine baby Chat smiling at a picture of Marinette and her family. Now, that in itself is already oodles of cute and fluff because it shows he really likes the Dupain-Chengs—–
BUT WAIT—– THERE’S MORE!!!
See this moment here? When Ladybug calls him, he reacts like this:
What is that face, you tomcat?
Is that guilt i see in your face?
WHY ARE YOU A GUILTY KITTY?
Is it because “the love of your life” has caught you smiling at a photo of some other girl? Or is it because you caught yourself smiling at a photo of some other girl? In the general vicinity of the love of your life and the other girl’s parents?
so Todoroki, Kaminari, and Bakugou are 3 of the biggest pretty boys in the class, and
Todoroki is pretty like an oblivious shoujo love interest who never knows what’s going on or how his looks affect those around him and is just kinda going through life doin’ his thing and trying to become a better hero, never ever realizing that half the school probably has a crush on him
Kaminari is pretty in that boy band way and he probably spends an hour doing his hair and/or makeup in the bathroom and probably wears eyeliner and knows exactly what kinda look he’s going for to get the maximum boy band effect and is forever disappointed that it doesn’t seem to work on any of the girls
Bakugou is pretty in that natural way where he literally doesn’t have to fucking do ANYTHING to look pretty and he just naturally has thick beautiful eyelashes and beautiful sharp eyes and pretty naturally styled hair and looks like a tiny male version of his supermodel looking mother and he probably rubs it in everyone’s face when it’s pointed out but overall just doesn’t give a single fuck and that just pisses everyone off even more b/c he doesn’t even have to try and doesn’t even care the goddamn angry motherfucker
(i don’t even know what this post is about it’s 1am and im contemplating the class 1A pretty boys)
(other random thoughts: Izuku and Kirishima are not pretty boys. they are adorable boys and they’re like sweet cuddly teddybears with adorable big eyes and cute round faces,with presences like warm sunshine personified on a spring and summer’s day, respectively)
(anyway don’t take this post too seriously. i should. go to bed)
Okay. So #studyblrs get real isn’t trying to offend anyone. I’ve gotten some anon messages that are really rude and I’ve just straight up deleted them.
#studyblrs get real is just that, we’re getting real. I’ve rewritten my notes to be aesthetically pleasing one time. Uno. Ein. Yeah that’s the only languages I know one in.
The studyblr aesthetic isn’t most people’s real life studies methods. It’s some people’s, and I want to congratulate those who manage to keep the aesthetic up.
But honestly, it’s not real life. Real life is being up at 2 AM, surrounded by four empty cups, Rice Krispies Treat wrappers, and a pizza box with just pizza crust in it, and grease marks on your paper. Real life is not having time to make these AMAZING and GORGEOUS notes, because you’re studying for the grade, NOT the notes.
People say you just need to “study” to be a studyblr, but why is it only the MUJIs, the Mildliners, and the Staedtlers get reblogged? Why doesn’t the pictures of sloppy, coffee stained notes get reblogged? The rain drenched crinkled notes that don’t get rewritten. The notes with more scribbles than legible writing.
Underneath is why I think that #studyblrs get real needs to become popular, and fast, which has been taken from what I said in a conversation with @universi-tea where the idea for #studyblrs get real came up.
Teens that are growing up may not know what they’re facing, because aesthetic studyblr makes it look like sunshine and lollipops.
“I’ve been through things that will commonly happen. I’ve been rejected by my dream school, and I’ve cried at 4 AM in the morning because my fourth SAT scores weren’t high enough to meet requirements after months of studying. I’ve taken AP classes. I’ve graduated.
Your high school/college/university experience may have been different, but mine was a rude awakening and I’m trying to prevent others from crashing and burning like I did. I was an all A student in high school, even with AP classes. I graduated fifth in my class with 25 credits from AP scores, in which my school only offered seven AP classes.
My first test in uni was a 38 in Business Calculus. A fucking 38 out of 100. I remember it very vividly (Thursday night, and the Blacklist was on.) It was like someone was trying play a joke on me because I had NEVER gotten that low of a test grade before. I remember looking at my scores, and the sense of dread settling into the pit of my stomach. I cried, and then called my old AP Bio teacher (idk why now that I think about it) I had a panic attack, and I was by myself (lived alone.) Those two are very dangerous. My next test score was a 51. Rinse, and repeat.
Do you know how worthless I felt? How long my mom yelled at me after I called her? How my friends reacted when they found out? I went and had a four hour conversation with the professor, who told me that this was the most common thing he saw in a class with freshmen in it. That they come thinking that they’re prepared and they are by no means prepared. I had to go to tutoring. For every single class but one. This was so fucking embarrassing. I had gone from the tutor in HS to the tutored in Uni.
My best friend went to the North Carolina School of Math and Science. Extremely prestigious, and extremely hard. “It’s like taking uni classes when you’re 16, 17, and 18, but you don’t get credit for them as college classes.” I’ve known my best friend since I was 10-ish. She’s the most level headed, and the smartest person I know. She calls me frequently, crying, because the work load. She spent a whole week with me trying to get over one failing grade.
This embarrassment, this shame and lack of self worth I experienced in uni is something I NEVER want ANYONE to experience. I’m trying to prevent these people younger than I am from feeling this way, because I had sunk into a depression because of grades. Grades that could’ve been prevented, had I known the truth.
Sure, the studyblr aesthetic may work in some people’s lives, but in college/uni, you’re being pulled in so many directions. I don’t know of a single person in any of my classes that have gorgeous notes. Hell, I don’t know anyone who can even afford to buy nice planners, or buy fresh fruit. Being “a broke college student” is entirely legit.
But all this aside, if you’ve managed to live out the studyblr aesthetic in university and keep up your grades, you better be DAMN proud of yourself. I’m not trying to make anyone mad. This is the reality most of us experience. It’s the honest truth, and I had to find out the hard way. I just don’t want anyone else to find out the hard way, either.“
Cael is a very special bean in the my life, they shine bright like the sun and is such a sweet person to be around—JUST LIKE PROMPTO!! Their face inspired me to create a Prompto based on them :D Show my king some love!
( Slowly uploading my twitter doodles, my lazy butt takes a while LOL )
Got7 when you sit on their lap and snuggle up to them
At first, when you climbed on his lap, he would all giggly, making fun of you a little. He just loved to make you blush. But in the end he wouldn’t let you get off so easily, since he actually thought you were to cute for this world.
“Wait, stay, stay! I didn’t want to make fun of you.”
He would be wondering what the hell you were trying to do, but as soon as he realized you were sitting on his lap, snuggling up to him, he would smile widely. He would hug you back, just being very happy to have you in his life. As soon as he got bored tho, he would try to start a make out session.
That little sunshine
He would absolutly love it, holding you tighter and burying his face in the crook of your neck, telling you how cute you were. Moments like that would be his favorite about your relationship.
“Yah (Y/N), how can you be so adorable?”
When you suddenly tried to climb on his lap, he would be like ‘Wtf is she doing’. But he would melt quite fast when you snuggled up to him, telling him you wanted to cuddle. He wouldn’t be able to hide his smile, thinking how lucky he was. However, when dance training starts, be prepared to get pushed of.
I don’t know why, but he doesn’t seem like the type of boyfriend who would love to have you on his lap. He would start laughing when you sat down on his lap, thinking it was somehow cute. But he would get enough very soon, asking you to cuddle in another position.
“I mean, this is quite cute, but my legs are gone dead… Let’s move to the couch?”
Mark would also love it. He might seem like a 'Bad Boy’ with his tattoos and stuff, but he would just love you being all cute and adorable. He would most probably be used to it, helping you to get on his lap and pulling you closer. The two of you would understand each other without words.
“Come here, jagi~~”
Proud af. First thing he would do is a selfie with you on his lap, wanting everybody to see that you were his and only his. He wouldn’t even mind someone coming in. If he was in a cuddly mood that day, he would also snuggle up to you. If he wasn’t, he might get bored after some time.
“You know, I love cuddling and stuff, but we could go shopping!”
I hope you like this reaction, please send me in your reaction requests :)
Warnings: Objectification of reader (sorta - he means well), Implied smut, smut, Dry Humping, Oral (69), unsafe sex (wrap it before you tap it), training kink (is that a thing?), rough(ish) sex, NSFW gifs under the cut.
Word Count: 3500ish
A/N: This is me proving to myself I still remember how to smut. I haven’t written anything smutty for the longest of times and I have been feeling like it lately. It was harder than I thought getting back into the saddle though. Sorry if it is a bit rough - pun not intended.
It is somewhat inspired by the Ed Sheeran song Shape of You - and maybe a little by the video too.
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“Fuck,” she breathed out, instantly drawing Jensen’s attention. He was sprawled out his couch, waiting for Y/N to return to his side. It was movie night and she hadn’t bothered leaving the room to take the phone call. Jensen never eaves dropped and even if he was to overhear something it wouldn’t matter. There was nothing to two of them hid from each other. Literally nothing.
They had both been single for a while and some drunken night they had come to the conclusion, that helping each other blow off some steam when either of them needed it was much prefered from picking up some random dude or chick at a bar.
“If you want I am game,” Jensen teased her, throwing her his best Dean smirk, making her eyes roll so hard he was sure Jared would hear it across the hall from Jensen’s apartment.
“It’s not funny, Jensen! They offered me the part. I’m gonna be Wonder Woman,” she complained, making Jensen shoot from the couch and wrap her in his arms, spinning her around the air not caring one bit about her objection.
“That’s amazing Y/N/N,” he laughed putting her down but not releasing her from his hold, “what are you so worried about?” Jensen gently stroked her hair away from her face, studying her face and trying to figure out why she wasn’t over the moon about this. She had a tendency to overthink things. He knew that. He literally spent 2 hours on the floor of her bedroom leaning against her bathroom door trying to talk her out after the first night they had slept together.
@gukexpress asked: Hello Admin Chimin, could I have a reaction of BTS when their gfs waking them up with a blowjob?
I would like everyone to know that in this scenario everybody has given consent
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Rap Monster: He would stir in his sleep once your tongue touched the tip with occasional groans slipping from his mouth. Once you actually started to bob your head, his eyes would open a bit and his hand would find your hair to grip onto. The sight of you only making him harder.
“Couldn’t wait could we?”
Jin: I imagine him being very vocal he would moan and groan a LOT, when you were doing the deed he would thrust up into your mouth causing you to gag a bit.
“You’re such a good girl”
Suga: Let me tell you, he knew exactly what you were doing once you shuffled down the bed, you thought you didn’t wake him up but…you did making the mistake with your hair brushing against his face. As soon as your mouth wrapped around his cock he grabbed your hair and guided your head with his hands, moving up and down.
“Just like this baby”
J-hope: This little sunshine wouldn’t know whats going on until he actually cummed. Through out the whole sexual actions he would moan and move slightly, “Oh Y/n” he would mumble. Once it was done he would wake up and realise what just happened.
“Your turn now”
Taehyung: Him having a deep voice you could hear his grunts from a mile away, I see him waking up immediately and groaning even louder. Playfully pushing you off the bed and onto your knees, he slowly undresses to tease you even more. Once you wrap your mouth around him, he cannot shut up.
“Get on your knees”
Jimin: He would be like Suga, awake when you have him in your mouth. He would thrust up into you making you moan as you did it, only causing him to get harder
Jungkook: Hewould play games with you, He would try and tease you also. He would undress you as you were doing the deed making you wetter by the minute. After you were done, like J-hope he would start to pleasure you.
idk bout you🤔🤔🤔🤔but there’s this guy who’s an angel😇😇😇a dance 💃 king👑👑and who can rap🎶sing!!!🎵🎵and slay👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽who is it??!?!?!!😧😧that’s rite👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽its Hoseok!!!! yep Jhope!!! yep Jay!! yep Hobi!!!! I can’t explain😓how this Boi makes me feel💗💗💘he deserves the world 🌎 🌎🌎🌎 the moon 🌙🌙🌙 and the stars💫💫💫💫he’s hardworking 💪🏽he’s encouraging 😝😝😝he’s nothing but the best😌pls I want everyone to luv him❣️❣️❣️as much as yoongi does😻 show him luv💞make him smile😁😁I want to see his eyes sparkle✨✨ his dimples come out and his heart to be full of luv from us💖💖💖💖he puts 110% into everything he does✊🏽✊🏽so we can be full and fed well🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽 he never lets us down⬇️✖️⬆️✔️by showing luv💕💝❣️we r telling all the haters to 🔙off💯keep the luv coming so our dance 💃 king👑👑our sunshine ☀️☀️☀️☀️who can rap🎶sing!!!🎵🎵and slay👌🏽👌🏽can keep smiling
[ BTS REACTIONS ] : He flirts with you at a fansigning.
Kim Namjoon Be prepared to be blushing like a schoolgirl because Namjoon would be so smooth with you. He’d give you sweet compliments and look you directly in the eye as he speaks with you. He thinks its super cute how you get shy and look away from his gaze. His dimpled smile never fades. There’s also a lot of hand holding and giggling. Namjoon almost picked up the habit if calling you “baby girl.”
Before the signing is over he asks security to keep an eye on you so he could see if there was a chance for him to take you out sometime. The other members notice Namjoon’s little crush and tease him about it.
Kim Seokjin Such a gentleman. Jin would say that you’re beautiful and kiss the back of your hand before interlocking his fingers with yours (a/n: bitch id fucking die). The conversation would be small talk but he’d mostly be asking you questions about yourself. Mostly of him asking if you’re taking care of yourself. Also lots of dad jokes.
Once it was time to switch to another member Jin got cutely clingy. He held your hand for as long as he could until your fingers slipped away from his as you shifted down the line. Jin laid his head on the table pretending to cry.
“Ahh! Don’t leave me-!”
Min Yoongi Yoongi would be very soft with you more than he usually is with other fans. He’d be super smiley and show skinship with you more than he usually does. You brought him a pair of kitten ears to wear and as you put them on he’d watch you intently admiring in all your features. You caught him gazing at you and gave him sweet smile and cupped his cheeks with your hands. Yoongi got butterflies almost immediately.
Once you had to leave, Yoongi felt a pang of jealousy in his chest as you chatted with Jin but then you looked over at Yoongi again and gave him a smile. He knew that he wanted to see more of you and refused to let you go without his number.
Jung Hoseok You were just a ray of sunshine and it would’ve been nearly impossible for anyone of the members to not notice you. Your cheery and sweet nature was very apparent and it really drew Hoseok to you. Lots of skinship, like him holding your hands and gentle touches to your face.
The other members noticed the chemistry between you two and teased him about it.
“I think Hoseokie has a new girlfriend.” Yoongi said into the microphone. Your eyes widened and you hid your face with your hands. “Are you jealous?” Hoseok asked with a smirk.
Park Jimin This boy made you so shy. He’d have that smile on his face– you know what smile I’m talking about. The shy one.
Jimin would call you cute names like “pretty girl” or “princess.” Then remove your hands from your face when you tried to hide behind your fingers because you were so shy. He thought you were absolutely adorable and he hated to see you go. But as you visited the other members he would do things to get your attention.
“Jiimin! She’s with me now, stop trying to steal her away!” Jin said.
Kim Taehyung There was just something about you that Taehyung really enjoyed. You seemed to be the life of the party as you waited in the crowd due to those around you laughing at your jokes; even security guards were smiling at your free spirit.
Once you got to Taehyung you didn’t think he could be anymore sweeter. He was very playful with you. He would take your hands and put them on his cheeks and vise versa and other cute things like compare your hand sizes or make kissing faces at you. Taehyung was sad to see you go but he made sure to write his number down in your autograph book. He definitely was waiting on your call.
Jeon Jungkook You had caught his attention in the crowd and he had been stealing glances at you the whole time at the fansign. As the line moved up and you got closer he felt himself becoming more and more nervous but he tried his best to suppress it once you got to him.
He quickly noted that you were just as shy as him, if not even more. Jungkook smiled at your cuteness and you blushed at his cute compliments.
“You’re really pretty… What’s your name? (Name)? Ah, very pretty..”
So, my friends and I are sitting in a Krispy Kreme just eating our donuts, chatting, whatevs. Out of the corner of my eye I see this country ass teenage boy walking up to us. Like, a Trump-supporter-looking dude with a country accent so thick that it was almost comical. Of course, my first thought is oh shit, he’s going to say something ignorant. Ya know, given that we’re sitting here in Columbus, MS and I have a pride flag painted on my face from an event earlier in the day. He approaches me and says, “Excuse me, but is that flag painted on your face meant to represent… you know…”
“Gay people?” at this point in this interaction I was ready to throw hands so tbh my tone was more than a little bitchy. After I say this I see him hand me a piece of paper, and think it’s probably a pamphlet for a church or something so I can be “healed.”
Then the biggest plot twist of my life happened. The piece of paper was a huge #gaypride sticker?? He said, “I wasn’t trying to be rude or anything. I made some of these for a friend and had an extra and I thought you might like it.” So that’s the story of how I thought I was going to have to fight a hick in a donut shop but ended up with a super gay sticker.
Do you take prompt? What about Stiles having a secret crush on Derek but when saw him, taking care Scott's son, he fell in love.
I’m not much of a kid fic person, so this took me a while, but I tried. Hopefully it’s kind of what you were angling for!
“Do you think I’m ready for fatherhood?” Stiles asks, trying to keep the panic out of his voice. He’s not freaking out about this. He’s not.
Boyd says flatly, “Stilinski, you’re twenty-one years old. You’re supposed to know how to use a condom by now.“
Stiles’ hand spasms and he accidentally squirts a huge glob of ketchup on his mound of curly fries. Fuck. He has the ideal ketchup-to-curly-fry ratio down to a science, and this is not it. “No, absolutely not what I meant. It’s just. Did you know Derek had a kid?”
Boyd meditatively takes a bite of his burger. “No. But the nice thing about Derek is that he doesn’t go in for personal talk.”
Stiles shoots him a weird look. Of course Boyd would think that was nice. Stiles, though, has been trying to break down Derek’s walls even just a little bit for months now—sitting with him in class, sharing his notes, studying with him in the library and getting late-night waffles together afterwards, little by little pulling Derek out of his shell. He’d thought he was getting somewhere, but obviously not, not if Derek failed to mention this kid even existed.
Which he does. Stiles knows, because he can see him right now, over by Prof. Martin’s pool. Apparently his name is Jamie.
Summary: After being rejected by your best friend Bucky, Sam sets you up with one of his friends, on the condition that if the date doesn’t go well, you have to sign up for a dating app. The date doesn’t go well. As you begin to look for love in other places, Bucky starts to feel something he never felt before. Jealous.
Bucky Barnes X Reader
Word Count: 1274
Warnings: It’s a little angsty.. And there is bad language!
A/N: All of the support and comments that I have been receiving on this series has really made me feel so great and totally inspired!! I’m sorry this part is.. Well.. You’ll see.. Feedback as always would be amazing!! Thank you for reading xoxo
says he thought of them all himself but you know he probably found them on wikipedia
he always wakes up before you do and he spends his time staring at your face and counting your eyelashes
always greets ur waking face with good morning sunshine :DDDD even if you look ready to murder six men
texts u memes. of himself.
you do it too but he’d be like stop i haVE COPY R I GHT but he actually loves it
and also he’s the one who snapchats the stupidest faces to you at 4am
you: jisung is the true meme king
him: lo UD DRAMATIC G A S P
on christmas he carries a mistletoe with him and when he sees u he just casually lifts it above ur heads and winks
“babe what’s our ship name gonna be tho”
he loves skinship!! Hugs you all the time :DD
will randomly jump out of the closet to engulf you into a hug while giving you a heart attack
on cold days instead of turning up the heater u like to just grab him and snuggle and he always has this WARMEST smile when u do
cuddle-obsessed as well!!! he likes to wrap you both in blankets snugly and watch a movie while feeding you popcorn and snacks
he’s always like “if my fans can buy an entire star and name it after me why can’t you kiss me goodnight” and you’re just sIGHS F I NE
he smiles all the time but when it’s just you chilling together alone he gets this really jinja daebak and heol fond and soft look and has a tendency to stare at you lovingly bc he’s so happy that you’re his and he’s yours :DD
that was so cheesy brb gonna throw uP jesusususus
you’d be like “ong why’re u staring at me” and he’d say “because there’s a pineapple on ur face” bc he actually doesn’t have the guts to tell you the real reason why
“also stop calling me ong bc when we get married u might have to take my surname”
seongwoo: i’m not the jealous type
also seongwoo: blocks daniel’s number after he saw you two sharing a kit kat
it was a joke but after that seongwoo always brought it up whenever he sees daniel. “hey remember when you shared a kit kat with the love of my life sixty days and two hours ago? must’ve tasted very good u trAITOR”
he actually finds it almost embarrassing (even tho we all know he’s the embodiment of embarrassing smh) to say things like “i love you” seriously
he may say it in a playful/joking way (like that one time he stole your food and u told him u hate him and he said i love u 2) but if he ever says it out loud he’ll probably ask minhyun to bury him
like when he confessed to you he could hardly get the words “i like you” out of his mouth the entire thing was actually him stuttering and almost dropping the small bouquet of flowers in his hand
butt!! once when he got home he found you sleeping on the couch
he sighed with a smile and bridal carried u to the bed ohoho
after he laid u down and tucked u in carefully he took a moment to just look at you and take in who you are as a person
being an idol with a hectic schedule means he really doesn’t get to see u v v v often yet you’ve been putting up with it long enough for him to understand how lucky he is to know you
and he just…kind of caressed your face and whispered those magical three words he never had the guts to say when you’re awake and he blushed so hARD and needed to leave the room and splash his face with water and run six laps around the neighborhood to calm down
his dream is to take you on a vacation to somewhere where he can forget his idol status and just enjoy a few sweet days as just two ppl in love
however regARDLESS of how much of a fool seongwoo acts to make you laugh he always makes sure that you know he loves you, whether it’s by sending you good morning texts or walking you home at a late hour or calling you when you’re having a rough day even if he’s busy
one time you told him that you wished you had better skin and he put his finger to your lips and was like stop that before i write a 6 page thesis on why you’re beautiful
and then a little later he ordered your favorite food from your fave place
sometimes you can tell that he’s tired and doesn’t want to talk and while some people just leave him alone you know to just scoot to his side and put your head on his shoulder and let the silence act as a comfort rather than tension
and it’s just moments like when seongwoo is so glad you exist and his mind has a flash of a happy future with you
seongwoo, mumbling at a barely audible level: i love you
you: what was that :^)
seongwoo: nothing. be quiet and sleep you eavesdropper
there are seven spirits living in my home with me, and none of them pay rent.
the first one makes the temperature rise in whatever room it is in, until i have to shed my clothing just to be able to breathe. it speaks in a low voice in a way that makes goosebumps rise all over my body. shivers and chills fill me in ways that it hasn’t in so long and the things it says haunts my thoughts, replacing my usual ones with passionate bursts of the color red. the first one has a way of making me feel like it’s inside of me. not in a possession sort of way, but as if it is inhabiting my body and making my blood rush all throughout.
the second one mostly hangs out in my kitchen, so i don’t see it as much. unless it makes an unbelievable amount of noise, forcing me out of my room and downstairs to confront it – only to find food laid out on my table waiting for me resembling the meals i haven’t been able to make for myself in months. it is almost as if the second one knows that living off of a bag of chips might kill me, that heading down to the kitchen alone takes up so much energy that i can’t make myself eat.
the third one is my polar opposite in a way; it throws around the word “deserve” almost as much as i insist i don’t. it knocks over the things i hate, breaking them, and forcing me to replace them and buy something else. something that i actually like. something that will make me happy. i try to tell it that i don’t know what that feels like anymore, that i don’t know what actually makes me happy anymore. that i shouldn’t be frivolous and wasteful. but i think in a past life, the third one was a lawyer because it is very convincing at times.
the fourth one is always in my room, it sits at the edge of my bed and hums softly, sweet lullabies filling the air until i drift off to sleep. sometimes it’ll follow me down to the living room and coax me over to the couch, insisting that i close my eyes and rest. for some reason, the fourth one doesn’t think that laying awake in bed for hours on end doesn’t count as sufficient rest. it’s music is like magic and for the first time in weeks, i can sleep peacefully.
the fifth one and the sixth one are the worst of the bunch. they just have a way of getting under my skin and making me want to explode. going so long without feeling anything, with only numbness coursing through my veins, made me forget what it felt like to be angry or to be jealous, to feel anything other than hopelessness and despair. the fifth one makes me smash plates in rage when thinking about how i haven’t answered anyone’s texts in days. the sixth one makes me cry over people who can actually feel the sunshine on their faces. the fifth and sixth ones make me remember that i am not, in fact, a robot.
and the seventh and final one keeps me company when i can’t sleep at night; when the thoughts are too loud and there isn’t enough music to drown them out. not even the creaking foundation of my home settling can distract me from the fear of failure, the belief of not being good enough, the anxiety of everyday life. the final one is quick on it’s feet; like a boomerang, it’s always ready to fire back and counteract everything i have to say. negatives are met with positives consistently; it’s voice whispers in my ears, so soft and eerie that it sounds like it’s in my own head. like it wants me to believe what it’s saying can truly come from within.
sometimes i almost wish they just wanted to scare me out of my home rather than act as a counselors i never wanted to see. but sometimes, it’s nice to be reminded that it isn’t always as dark as it seems.
A depressed guy moves into a haunted house with 7 demons, each corresponding to a deadly sin. But, they’re all trying to help him get back on his feet - @writing-prompt-s (cc, 2017)