Venting and ranting or else I’ll lose my mind
every time my step dad is at the house I want to rip my fucking eye balls out of my head
ALL HE EVER FUCKING DOES IS MAKE A HUGE MESS, HAVE MY MOM CLEAN IT UP, BITCH AND COMPLAIN AND PUT PEOPLE DOWN AND DRINKS LIKE GO THE FUCK AWAY
the worst part is I hate being in my room I absolutely hate being stuck in there or feeling like I’m stuck in there so I sit in the living room the majority of the time I just hate when everyone’s home I’d rather be alone right now and not be so stressed out and have to deal with his nonsense on top of it all. I’m exhausted not even from sleep just from these past two weeks have been so fucking hard. I have never hated anyone so much in my entire life I swear. He takes everything from my mother and treats us like garbage. She’s just too sick to realize how much she’s hurting us and I just can’t take it any longer. Every time I have moved back into my mothers house I start deteriating and stop being myself. Lose all motivation for anything because everything falls onto me it feels like - having to take care of my sister, my mother at times - no ones ever physically here for me when I need them to be at the moment and it sucks bc I feel so god damn alone. Worst part though, i would probably still feel the same way even if i was with someone.