and i get emotional sometimes

okay listen. everyday, trying-to-fit-in kara kills me. the glasses, the flats, the argyle sweaters, it kills me. she is the embodiment of “too pure, too good” and it is really too much for me to handle. it’s all to try and blend in and seem insignificant, but guess what?? kara could be wearing camouflage and she would still stand out bc who smiles that much? whose eyes light up like that when they see potstickers for christ’s sake?? kara is so observant that she probably knows the birthdays of all the employees in the office at catco and gets them a card or a donut or something, and she notices because she cares so much about everyone. like she wants to make sure no one feels left out or forgotten and loves to make people feel special. she tries so hard to blend in but she’s too kind, too thoughtful, too bright to ever be anything but remarkable. and that has nothing to do with supergirl, that’s just kara being kara.

the signs as kanye west tweets
  • aries: Sometimes I get emotional over fonts
  • taurus: You basically can say anything to someone on an email or text as long as you put LOL at the end
  • gemini: I love me
  • cancer: I specifically ordered persian rugs with cherub imagery!!! What do I have to do to get a simple persian rug with cherub imagery uuuuugh
  • leo: I love everybody... only thing I don't like is taxes.. me and taxes gone fight
  • virgo: sometimes I push the door close button on people running towards the elevator. I just need my own elevator sometimes, my 7 floor sanctuary
  • libra: We lookin' crazy fresh where's paparazzi when you need them
  • scorpio: I could never do stand up cause I tell jokes better when I'm sitting
  • sagittarius: I think it’s only ok for a dude to call you baby if they’re a Hollywood agent and you kind of cringe when they say it or if yall hooping
  • capricorn: French fries are the Devil
  • aquarius: So Nirvana can have a naked human being on the cover but I can't have a PAINTING of a monster with no arms and a polka dot tail and wings
  • pisces: I hate when I’m on a flight and I wake up with a water bottle next to me like oh great now I gotta be responsible for this water bottle
  • Family: Why are you in a bad mood?
  • Family: *acts like jerks for no reason*
  • Family: *gangs up on me*
  • Family: *lectures me for being upset because I should be happy at all times*
  • Family: I think you just have a bad attitude

I hate being this way sometimes.
I get sad a lot.
Im very emotional about everything.
I cry if something hurts my feelings
I cry if something happy happens.
My emotions over power me.
I care about everything.
Things stick with me.
It’s like I’m on a teeter totter.
One movement and I am falling into the darkness again.

But on the other hand, I find it to be a good thing.
I care about things.
I care about people’s feelings.
I care about the things that still hurt you after all these years.
I care about how your day went.
I care if the animals got hurt in a movie.
I will cry about bad things that have happened to you,
Because I think of how you must feel.
I genuinely care.
And maybe it’s a downfall,
To feel so much,
And to care so much.
But I think it’s a strength too.

—  Chapters from my life

Entire Fandom: Karamatsu is painful, gross, slutty and completely unnecessary.

Other Matsus:

Me: Haha, yeah, he definitely is the worst.

A bit about what Garak and Andy really mean to me.

I was just thinking about how much Garak means to me as a queer person because he’s a queer character and how grateful I am that Andy has kept being insistent all these years upon Garak being pansexual even when corporate people were pushing against it. I wanted to talk about how I see Garak as a positive role model–which is probably fucking weird as hell since he is a spy, assassin, torturer, and a number of other ‘nasty’ things.

But there are so few queer characters, and Garak is strong, clever, intelligent, witty, loyal, creative, and unashamed of himself as far as his sexuality and gender expressions go. Garak is portrayed at times as effeminate, and yet he will fucking kill you, okay? It’s so powerful and awesome that Garak embodies BOTH these things. I mean we live in a culture where strength = masculinity, and effeminate men are portrayed as being ‘weak’ which ties right into women being portray as ‘weak’ too. Garak says fuck that shit I am a badass, and I can also make you a lovely cocktail dress that will turn all the heads, and either way I will blow your fucking mind.

I was thinking about how Garak must deal with claustrophobia, crippling anxiety, addiction, and probably depression too though that’s not as explicitly indicated in the show. But no doubt he has felt that in being an exile–he felt so bad that he turned on his wire just to escape and to deal with his life. Garak has many emotional problems, but he stays alive. He keeps fighting. He keeps doing his thing. He is an outsider on this station full of people who are not like him, full of people who hate him, full of people who’d probably rather see him dead–and if that doesn’t sound like the shit that is going on in the U.S. regarding the LGBT community and other minority groups, I don’t know what does. Many of us live in this place where we feel like we are lost, unwanted, feared, loathed, treated as people who are disgusting, wrong, and undeserving of a happy and productive life. A lot of us in the LGBT community feel like outsiders, like exiles in our own world. But Garak keeps moving on. Not only that, but at the end of things, he gets to go home again.

His home is destroyed by war, but he does get to go home. He gets to find his place again. There is still some bit of hope there even though so much bad has happened. To me… that kind of gives me hope that maybe I will find my place one day too.

I just love Garak so much, and there are so many reasons why, but these reasons are deep and personal. I think there are a lot of other people who understand this too. Garak does seem to be a favorite among queer folks in this fandom and the reasons are obvious.

I’m so thankful that Andy made the choices he did, was bold enough and brave enough to say, ‘fuck it I’m going to do this’, has been consistent through the years in insisting that Garak is queer, and that he portrayed this amazing, complex, character who faces so many obstacles but he keeps on going and living even if it’s only out of spite, or instinct, or whatever.

After the election, there were tons of helplines and suicide prevention numbers all over my facebook feed because people in the LGBTQIA community were so terrified. We still are. Our country has elected a man whose platform would see our marriages ended, our rights taken away, our people forced into torturous conversion therapy, and hormone therapy ended for those who are transgender or nonbinary. My best friend was very upset over the election and at one point I told her–we must keep fighting. Garak and Damar wouldn’t give up. I was thinking about them huddled down in the basement while outside Cardassia is being destroyed by their enemies, about them facing the Jem’Hadar, Garak charging forward screaming FOR CARDASSIA. Later she told me that it was ‘silly’ but that telling her that they would not give up had helped her find a source from which to draw strength.

Sometimes shows are just shows, stories are just stories, and characters are just characters.

But sometimes they are so much more than that.

I hope that Andy really knows how much he is appreciated, and how much of an impact he has had on some of us. A lot of us have few people who stand by our side. It is good to know that on a fictional space station there is this guy with scales and a well-tailored tunic who would sit down with us at lunch and tell us that we are okay.

Sometimes I get emotional thinking about Alex and Kara’s relationship.

Kara carries the weight of the world on her shoulders like this heavy backpack that only fits on her. There have been so many obstacles we have seen and over and over again everyone in her life tries to take that weight, but they can’t. It was only meant for her. Everyone except Alex. Alex knows she can’t carry the world like Kara. unlike everyone else, she doesn’t try to take it away. Instead, she follows her sister as she treks up these impossible hills, catching the things that sometimes fall out of that back pack.

The moments that really gets me are the times where Kara has nothing left to give. The God from another world collapses on her Knees and can’t go any further. It’s these moments when you find out why Alex can do for Kara what no one else can. Even though she would give anything to take away all of this pain, she still knows she can’t carry the world like Kara. She can’t carry that backpack and that responsibility that Kara is faced with….But she can carry Kara. And she does. She squares her shoulders and lifts her sister through those low moments until Kara can walk on her own again.

Those moments are what shake me.

There’s a line in the season one finale that sums it up perfectly where Alex says something akin to “You saved the world, and I saved you.” Kara literally gave all she could give, flinging herself into space to save everyone and Alex came up behind her and carried her back to earth.

Sometimes I get so emotional because people have grown to love me for things I use to hate about myself. I’m sharing to let you know: Things can change, and finding self love is possible. 5 years ago I would have never expected to come this far. I never expected to find so much love in myself, and in others. So I’m just here to say it can happen to you as well. Your life may turn around, things can greatly change. Slowly you may find out your flaws aren’t flaws at all. Sometimes the things we hate most about ourselves are what make us special.

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“This is a black hole. It consumes matter, sucks it in, and crushes it beyond existence. When I first heard that, I thought that’s evil in its most pure. Something that drags you in, crushes you, makes you nothing.”

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Zanna • UK • 16 • she/her • pansexual 🌙


🌟 hiyyaaaaa I’m Zanna! If you’re looking for either a friendship or a romantic relationship then hit me up, though beware I’m super clingy so I hope you’re okay to deal with that💕

🌟I’d like a relationship where we can both just shower each other with compliments, literally I’d like to be able to send you a bunch of selfies and then you could send some back and we’d all be cute n happy n that.

🌟I get very emotional sometimes and it can take a lot to get me out of that but I’m very happy and giggly a lot of the time.

🌟I can be super romantic and cute but I can also be a complete and utter savage so I hope that you’ll be okay with that also.

🌟 my tumblr is @phoebereigns so please drop me a message 🌙

I can cry, too (sometimes)

Many people seem to think that INTPs don’t have emotions, which is weird ‘cause I sometimes fool myself into thinking that I don’t, either.

I think it isn’t that INTPs don’t have emotions, we just don’t get emotional over the same things as most people. I can manage to look at things rationally instead of emotionally, but that doesn’t qualify with everything because, well, I’m human and humans aren’t robots (contrary to the common belief that INTPs are, in fact, robots).

Because small “emotional” things can be easily handled through rational thinking, I don’t waste my time getting butt hurt over small things, unless there’s a specific reason for me to do so. I tend to get emotional over religion, family, and sometimes friends, but each for various reasons. Talk about petty drama, I get bored easily; talk about that animal ad for adopting abandoned pets, I understand the emotional triggers they try to pull, but because I know the marketing factor, I detach my attention from the emotional appeal and tend to get bored by the slow music and camera movements.

I won’t get upset just because you’re upset, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have feelings or that I don’t particularly care (but sometimes that rings true). I bottle up what does stir my emotions because emotions aren’t rational. They’re fleeting and impulsive, so I don’t want to deal with the aftermath of having a breakdown about something stupid like a friend ignoring me or someone eating the last slice of pizza. Shit happens and I get over it.

However, when I do get emotional, it hits me like a hurricane and I’m not sure how to make it stop. I can sit in my room for hours feeling angry or sad or irritated, and then I’ll sit for another couple of hours trying to get over that feeling. Emotions are work and it’s exhausting ‘cause I don’t know how to manage my emotions well.

So to think that INTPs don’t feel is complete bullshit. Even though I won’t be genuinely upset if I hear my friend talk about this rude customer they encountered, or if my mom complains about work and I get bored midway her rant, that doesn’t mean I don’t feel. I just feel deeply about very specific things that I care deeply about. 

I don’t know if I explained this clearly or well, but I wanted to express this after hearing a lot lately that I’m heartless and cold. It made me think a lot about why I’m seen that way when I think (based on how I get emotionally) that I’m an emotional person (though I’m consistently proven wrong). Ugh, I can go on about this matter so I’ll just stop here.