and i cry when i think about him

anonymous asked:

Kat,,,,,,,keith Cries,,,,,,,,,fanon keith is dead,,,hes,,,,,emotiONAL,,,

Dude. Dude, I know. Here’s some great stuff about Keith that fandom can no longer deny:

  • when asked to describe himself he first comes up blank
  • no mentions of his talents whatsoever?? he’s not arrogant
  • in fact he has no trouble admitting that he’s bad at something
  • keeps saying that he pilots the black lion but refuses to say that he’s the black paladin
  • he thinks that being part Galra might be why he has always been bad at connecting with people 
  • automatically plays around with his knife when the Galra part gets mentioned
  • THE STUPID CHEER FROM S1 IS STILL ON HIS MIND
  • is very straightforward and wants to avoid complicated stuff as much as possible
  • apologized twice for blowing up; he’s self-conscious about his temper
  • [voice crack] “I don’t know why I’m that way”
  • is aware of his abandonment issues
  • is also aware that he puts some walls up
  • tries to compose himself by rubbing his fingers together
  • knows when he is about to cry and promised himself not to do it ((in front of the camera/a potential audience at least))

HE’S. SO GREAT. SO SO GREAT. He’s much more self-aware than fandom gives him credit for. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH ;A;

YOU THINK KEITH SAID “I SAID I WOULDN’T CRY” BECAUSE HE KNEW TALKIGN ABOUT THSI STUFF WOULD MAKE HIM CRY??? U THINK HHE KNOWS IT MIGHT MAKE HIM CRY BC HE CRIES ABOUT IT ANYWAYS, WHEN HE’S ALONE, WHEN HE’S ISOLATING HIMSELF, HE CRIES BC HE FEELS ABANDONED AND KNOWS THAT BY PUSHGING PEOPLE AWAY HE’LL CONTINUE TO BE ALONE AND  D HTEN CRIES HARDER BECUASE HE’S !!!! DOING IT TO HIMSELF AND HE DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO STOP BECAUS E THIS IS ALL HE’S KNOWN HIS WHOLE LIFE -  PUSH PEOPLE AWAY AND KEEP HIS WALLS UP SO THAT THEY CANT LEAVE HIM FIRST, SO THAT HE CAN’T GET HURT AND REJECTED AGAIN BUT IN DOING SO HE KEEPS HIMSELF MISERABLE AND IS THE SOURCE OF HIS OWN PAIN DO YOU THINK HE KNOW’S HE IS ACTING AS HIS OWN WORST ENEMNY IN THESE RGEGARDS DO OYU TH

“I said I wouldn’t cry!”

this has a lot of implications…it implies that Keith knew that he was going to be talking about some emotional stuff before doing the vlog. And what is the vlog for anyway? Did Coran tell them it was a diary of sorts? Did he tell the paladins to just talk about themselves? If the latter is the case, then this video is very telling of how Keith views himself, and what aspects he believe’s defines him. Most people when told to introduce themselves, they talk about things that they think defines them. And these are usually things like interests, hobbies, views, etc. But Keith doesn’t talk about any interests or hobbies. He says he pilots the black lion and he’s a paladin of Voltron, but that’s not necessarily an interest, even though he’s extremely dedicated to the cause. Instead the most he talks about are his flaws and abandonment issues. It’s very likely that Coran told all the paladins to make at least one vlog entry for future generations. Keith was probably like “But what should I say?” and Coran was probably like “Just tell them about yourself.” and what Keith decided what was most important to tell about himself was that he pilots the black lion, he’s a paladin of Voltron. He has trouble connecting with people, he has a temper, and he thinks it’s because his mom abandoned him and that he pushes people away so that they don’t reject him. These are the things that Keith thinks defines him. And he was obviously prepared beforehand to talk about these things, promising himself that he wouldn’t cry.

Lance’s Rivalry with Keith

Why is it that as Voltron continues, it seems more and more likely that the reason Lance started his dumb rivalry with Keith is likely some miscommunication between them? Like, they probably started out in the same class or something–maybe Lance was a bit better than his peers and so he ended up with the older kids (or maybe Keith’s past delinquency had him starting late, it doesn’t matter). And so he probably realized right off the bat that Keith was really great at flying and approached him. But Keith being the oblivious person that already pushes people away be default probably didn’t even notice? Or, like, accidentally said something or did something that gave Lance the wrong impression? And so then Lance swore Keith to be his rival out of hurt, despite the fact that Keith didn’t even know Lance or realize what he did? 

I mean, if Keith is still thinking about the whole “I say Vol, you say…?” thing, then it’s safe to assume the characters are written with enough depth that Lance probably recalls being hurt that when they were rescuing Shiro, Keith didn’t even remember him (Lance recognized Keith by his hair for crying out loud–the fact that Keith didn’t remember him definitely bothered him). 

Which makes the bedroom scene that much more interesting. Not only was Keith pushing himself out of his comfort zone by trying to connect with Lance, but Lance was approaching someone that had wronged him previously.

Because I really can’t figure what else it could possibly be that kicked off Lance’s rivalry. He was a cargo pilot. Which means that if he was in class with other pilots, he wasn’t second best and competing directly with Keith. Like, there had to be other pilots between them. A LOT of pilots if Lance was only promoted because the TOP PILOT (Keith) got kicked out. Like, their rivalry doesn’t make sense (Keith’s reactions to Lance exposing just that), which means that it HAS to be personal. 

Keith did or said something (or didn’t do or say something) that Lance either misinterpreted or that came across as more hurtful than Keith intended. Or maybe Keith was an asshole previously. He clearly has a temper, he was kicked out of the garrison for behavioral issues, and he admitted that Shiro “never gave up on him,” implying that Keith was far more difficult to deal with previously than he is at the present. 

What happened between them?! I NEED TO KNOW!

anonymous asked:

I was just looking at pics of Cody and started crying tears of joy thinking about how I'm almost positive hes gonna take Liam's pain?? And I'm going to ball my eyes out when it happens?? I'm emotional this is too much for my poor little heart Side note: if that doesn't happen I will personally write Jeff Davis hate mail every day till my death :)

Me too, anonymous! Let’s fight him together.

Originally posted by coldtomyflash

In addiction, if he’s not taking Liam’s pain, I don’t want him to take anybody else’s one. 

On Ravus’ character development

I was thinking about how unexpected Ravus’ loyalty is at Gralea and I realised Episode Ignis is probably the missing link.
Ravus really can’t stand the royal line of Lucis in Kingsglaive.
When we first see him in the game he is still very much adverse to the idea of Noct becoming king.
Then we see him slowly changing his mind probably due to the influence of Lunafreya and Noct’s own actions. But this is still a far cry away from his steadfast loyalty by the end of his story.
There’s one thing that happens as we know it now. One thing that could have changed his mind. Fighting alongside Ignis Scientia.

okay but the thing with the voltron vlogs is…. they aren’t told what to say. from keith’s ‘i’m keith. i’m the paladin of the black paladin. that’s it.’ leads me to believe they are set in front of a camera and told to say what they want to the galaxy. but then, when we think about this, why would keith say ‘i said i wasn’t going to cry’? i mean, he wouldn’t know he’s going into the situation to talk about his mom or his family or his self image… so is that really why he told himself he wouldn’t cry? would it happen that keith gets upset being looked upon by many people, and maybe even gets social anxiety? keith could have told himself not to cry because he gets extremely emotional and/or anxious when being put in front of people.

please protect him he doesn’t want this

i don’t know!!! why i fucking come home at all!!!! People always says you’ll regret not spending more time with your family when they’re dead but every time i’m here my dad says or does some inconsiderate shit that makes me cry!!!! I was thinking i had a dream about him and jesus would try to make up with people who wronged him but i’m not jesus !!!! jesus never had problems with his family !!!! he could get away from the people who hurt him

i am trapped!!! and feel guilty if i don’t come home enough!!!!

i just keep thinking about keith saying ‘I SAID I WASNT GOING TO CRY’ because this implies that he knew he COULD cry when he recorded the vlog and i HAVE to know why he thought he was gonna cry did he knw that talking about himself and possibly leading to talking about his mom was gonna make him cry or does the stress of being on camera make him cry or is he just more emotional and on edge now that hes the black paladin how often has he cried since he joined voltron how often has e cried since he took his place as the black paladin who was there when he cried did anyone comfort him has anyone comforted him before when he cried i need to KNOW!!!!!!!!!

I can’t imagine not having Draco with me at Disney world. I’m don’t want him uncomfortable….he would have boots and I know other SDs go to Disney world all the time. I know for a fact that if Draco could talk he would say he would want to work and help me. It’s my job to keep him safe though.

We have been to Florida/Mexico before but it was in Jan and not Oct.

But I don’t have my family’s support with bringing my SD with. They say they worry about him. But I know because they think it’s inconveniences them. To quote my family members…“it’ll be a pain in the ass”
They say they support me,know my illnesses and will help me. But I’ve been called lazy and faking it by some.

Where were they when I was crying in so much pain? They never ask how I’m feeling. I tell them something about my health and they brush it away.

A family member told me that I think my dogs are better then family(something like that). Though to be honest my dogs are there more then my family.

My coworkers know more about my health then my family.

It hurts

Anyway I ranted enough

random thoughts on keith’s vlog/things that broke my heart:

  • keith STILL THINKS ABOUT THE VOLTRON CHEER
  • “IT DOESN’T HAVE TO BE COMPLICATED - I am so sorry. I am so sorry” KEITH BBY
  • KEITH’S VOICE WHEN HE SAYS AFOREMENTIONED LINES
  • he sounds so small when he says he has a bit of a temper
  • the flashback to keith yelling about families at pidge from s1 HURT
  • and then it was followed by him talking about being naturally untrusting because him mom left and that HURT MORE
  • keith’s voice when he says “I don’t know why I’m that way” is actually the most HEARTBREAKING THING I’VE EVER HEARD he sounds so confused and lost and i’m ;;;;;;
  • THE THUMB THING
  • “I said I wouldn’t cry” WHEN DID YOU SAY THIS KEITH. BEFORE YOU STARTED THE VLOG?? PRE-SERIES??? WHEN YOU WERE SAD AND MISSING YOUR MOM??? WHEN YOU MISSED YOUR DAD???? I NEED TO KNOW
  • i said i wouldn’t cry too but HERE I AM
Soft Edgy Keith Analysis

Keith is very self aware about things most others would try to deny. He knows the reason why he has walls up, admits to his temper (goes from 0 to 100 real quick, see s2 hostage clip from vlog thing), admits personal facts in a very insecure but matter of fact way, knows he has trouble with connecting with others, doesn’t think being part Galra should be a big deal but knows it is, wonders about how being Galra affects him psychologically (I don’t support changing appearance headcanon), and etc. Please feel free to add onto this. (WE NOW KNOW MAMA KOGANE DID IN FACT LEAVE HIM AT AN AGE WHERE HE WAS VERY IMPRESSIONABLE. AND I’m thinking his father put his son’s life ahead of his own or others and this has left a lasting imprint on Keith, hence why he blew up at Pidge when he said she was putting the lives of two people over everyone else. He appears to hate crying, be it alone, on camera, or in front of others. He’s cried about this subject before! Even with his temper, he speaks in a very calm manner most of the time unless annoyed or angry. He’s also awkward improvising in front of cameras.

AND!! DON’T FORGET, he says Voltron not because he doesn’t understand Lance’s chant but because it’s faster for just one person to say it so why make it complicated by having two people say it.

AND HE STILL HASN’T MENTIONED HIS CONNECTION TO SHIRO YET! OR WHAT HAPPENED TO PAPA KOGANE!

I’m glad you noticed <3 

!!! I thought that they would be good friends the first time I saw seung gil too ;v;
doggo buddies !!!

@osnapitzhanaa ajdfgfjkg I misread the eyebrow part but that’s amazing

eros and doggo buddies <3

I love seung gil lee and his doggo!!! the second-to-last panel is my favorite hahah

@novocaine-sea awww, I’m glad you liked it!!

@perdizzion thank you so much ;v;

<3<3

I get really emotional when I think about all the damn stereotypes Magnus Bane is out here breaking tho. 

Like men shouldn’t wear makeup or be fashionable? Nah, fuck gender stereotypes! Magnus rocks that eyeliner, that eyeshadow, and that sexy ass goatee, and he’s the best dressed character on the show. 

Or men shouldn’t cry or be nurturing and soft? Nope, Magnus cries when he’s hurting and has openly talked about his struggles with depression that nearly led him to take his own life in the past. And he’s adopted a bunch of downworlders that he’s nurtured and cared for throughout his long lifetime. 

Or how about that old, outdated argument that claims men can’t be abused by women? Screw that, Camille Belcourt was an emotionally abusive woman who broke Magnus with her manipulation and mind games, and it took him centuries to finally overcome the hold she had on him.

Or that stereotype about bisexuality being “just a phase” for indecisive and promiscuous people. Hell to the no, son! Magnus Bane is over 300 years old and he has not changed his mind about his sexual identity. He’s openly attracted to all genders but the thing he wants most in the world is to be with someone he can share his love with for life. Because he’s a “one soul at a time kinda guy.”

And let’s not forget how Asian men are often desexualized or made into meek, submissive characters in media. But, no sir, not Magnus freakin Bane! He’s out here dancing and practicing magical tai chi shirtless, showing off his beautiful bod and being the most attractive and desirable man alive. He’s also extremely intimidating and commands respect and attention whenever he enters a room; he’s truly the definition of Alpha Male™.

This goes without saying but we are truly blessed to have a bisexual Asian character like Magnus Bane. He is so so so important, and don’t you ever forget it. 

i didn’t get much done today bc i’m pretty worn out but this sketch turned out ok. i get fucked up constantly by the idea of jonathan being a good father figure that giorno never had

i’m so emo about dan talking about the laundry situation again like what the FUCK

the way he described it, he said he showed up at phil’s apartment super late with a suitcase, and when phil opened the door and saw him, one of the first things he said was “did you drop out? are you moving in?” it sounds to me like phil was fully prepared for dan to want to drop out at some point and want to move in with him- almost like they had this planned the whole time.

there is already the theory that dan chose manchester uni specifically because that’s where phil was, and this whole thing just reinforces that. what if he and phil had been discussing moving in together for longer than we think? they always make it seem as though they moved in together on a whim after dan dropped out for convenience reasons. but my theory is that before dan was even at uni, he told phil his fears about going to uni and not knowing what he wanted to do with his life and not being sure about even wanting to go to uni, so phil told him that if he went to manchester uni, he would be waiting there for him with a home if he ever changed his mind about university. 

you would think that when phil saw dan with the suitcase he would assume he was just staying the night, but he asked specifically if he was dropping out, and he was moving in. 

i know that dan could have misremembered the situation, or told it completely differently than what actually happened because it’s been so long, but it’s just so cute to think about them having this entire plan for their future together for longer than we think :(

Aelin frightens everyone…But not him. I think that’s why she fell in love with him, against her best intentions. Rowan beheld all Aelin was and is, and he was not afraid,
— 

Chaol Westfall, Tower of Dawn.

A.K.A the quote that made me almost cry bc this. This is all i want. When i think about a future relationship, this is all i want…Someone who sees every part of me and is undaunted…

This quote is hella underrated imo.