I want to tell you all a story
I knew a guy once, actually just a few months ago, it was because someone of my family suggested that we could actually become good friends, I did, the guy seemed to be nice, good looking and smart so everyone was excited thinking “Wow, he could be the perfect match for you” and for a few days I tried to believe that too maybe not because I thought he was perfect but also because maybe he was the opportunity to “try myself in something serious” just as a lot of people around me like friends and family wanted to get me in so I could be “happy”.
So, at the second day talking with this “Perfect guy” he was already talking about love, saying I was his, even getting jealous of my other friends, I thought it was hilarious because 1st I would never put my friends aside just to make a jealous boyfriend happy and 2ndly because I mean “dude” I just have 2 days talking with you, calm down…
After making questions to each other he told me he was not the kind of guys who spend too much time outside, while me on the other hand I like to go on long walks if I have the chance to, I love going out (Maybe not to parties or stuff like that but I love going to parks) so the guy makes a joke and says something like “Well too bad that when you become mine I’ll lock you up, take your phone and I’ll not let you go out with anyone” So I can hear some sirens in my head telling me “Wow, there’s something weird about this guy”
But well it was just a joke so I let it pass one time, so the days continue and I keep talking with him but there was something inside me that said “I don’t even feel like myself now, I’m trying to make this work but is it really for my own sake or I’m just trying to make everyone else happy?”
A few weeks later I was having a great day with my cousins and I started to get messages from him and when I told him how we were playing and that I was laughing of one of my cousins when he was trying to make me lose in one of the games we were playing he says something like “Good thing you are not playing with me or I would slap you right in the face if you dare to laugh” I was like “Did I just read that? Did he really text me that?!” For that moment I wanted so much to be Azusa and him to be a f*cking Unicorn so I could stab him and rip his heart out.
So I stopped the messages and the next day he texts me as if nothing happened but I told him nothing was going to be normal again he asked me why and I said “If I see you now I ‘ll want to stab you, I hate you and I really want to cut your throat” and he again says that “It was a joke” that he “loved me” and he didn’t want things to end that way, that I was important for him and that no one ever made him feel like I did since we met.
Now just a day ago I took him out of my life, because I really think he needs help, joking about violence is nothing you would do with someone you love and it’s just not right, I think he’s sick but I kind of felt bad to just throw him away so I waited for so long to make the choice but I realized no matter how much time passed I still hate him, my whole interest had just vanished and I was always angry at him and I was kind of tired to be a b*tch with him even when he deserved that and even more.
The worst part is that a lot of people around me was saying I was being exaggerated about it, that I should give him a chance or joked that at least I should f*ck him, no, girls (and this warning goes to you guys too), never let anyone treat you that way, at least I love myself enough to never let someone cross a line like that and think I’m just going to laugh and let it pass as normal, never let anyone try to make you think violence and stuff like that is just a joke, it’s just sick and totally wrong and if someone wants violence that much then that person should find someone who wants to stick their fists in their f*cking *ss.
Never put in risk your own happiness and your mental or physical health just to make other people happy, there’s good people out there, I know that too well but there’s also wolves disguised as sheeps, so the only thing you should always ask to yourselves is “Am I really happy with this? Is this really what I want?” Be sure to love yourselves before you decide to give your heart to someone else and if you do, then make sure that person is worthy, respect the people you love the same way you want them to respect you and be happy :3