and i can't wait to see it again!

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You know you could just stay here and live in the castle. You’d have your own wing where no one would ever complain about your stench or treat you bad ever again. You could be happy.

I’m already happy. Got the coolest friend in the world.

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L O N D O N  (1 8 9 0 - 1 9 0 0)  

” It is difficult to speak adequately or justly of London. It is not a pleasant place; it is not agreeable, or cheerful, or easy, or exempt from reproach. It is only magnificent. You can draw up a tremendous list of reasons why it should be insupportable. The fogs, the smoke, the dirt, the darkness, the wet, the distances, the ugliness, the brutal size of the place, the horrible numerosity of society, the manner in which this senseless bigness is fatal to amenity, to convenience, to conversation, to good manners – all this and much more you may expatiate upon. You may call it dreary, heavy, stupid, dull, inhuman, vulgar at heart and tiresome in form. I have felt these things at times so strongly that I have said – ”Ah London, you too then are impossible?” But these are occasional moods; and for one who takes it as I take it, London is on the whole the most possible form of life. I take it as an artist and as a bachelor; as one who has the passion of observation and whose business is the study of human life. It is the biggest aggregation of human life – the most complete compendium of the world.” — Henry James

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2015.04.09 || 2015.06.26 || 2016.10.17 || 2017.01.19

Sometime in January when the falconers are flying cross country for a roadie and Jack is sitting quietly staring at the clouds out the window, the thought of his future with Bitty slips casually into his mind. That in itself isn’t unusual. He thinks about Bitty a lot and brainstorms cute things that might make him laugh, but for some reason this time it’s more of a calm, assured feeling of I’m Going to Marry This Boy. It isn’t scary. It isn’t surprising. It isn’t even sudden. It’s a quiet moment of happiness, of accepting that yes he gets to have this and knowing he wants to keep this for the rest of his life. That is the moment Jack decides that someday, however far into their future it may be, he’s going to ask Bitty to marry him.

Long Distance:
It’s easy for some, difficult for many;
Being away from the person who holds your heart.
Walking through school, it’s torture.
Happy couples walk hand-in-hand,
Smiling and laughing.
I don’t feel anger when I see them;
No malice towards them, just envy.
I want what they have.
I want the person I love by my side.
I want to smile and laugh with him.
I want to feel safe and to know he’s safe with me.
Instead, I walk alone to my “home”,
Which is more like a house;
My true home is miles away.
The house is quiet,
Big and a bit empty.
Dirty dishes in the sink that I’ll clean later,
Even though they aren’t mine,
Reminds me of him and a smile forms. 
I scramble to speak to him;
Text messages or maybe a Skype call,
Fearing he might fall asleep on me again.
When he does, I don’t feel angry;
No grudges to be held, just loneliness.
It’s hard, long distance,
But we make it work.
Because we know one day,
When we’re older, successful and content,
We’ll leave each morning with a kiss,
But we’ll always see each other at the end of the day,
In our own home,
In our own life,
Together.
One day.