and i at least got through over 100 pages today so i feel a little better about it


Title: Waiting for Tadhana
Pairing: Dan x reader
Rating: T
Word Count: 1,112
Prompt: From the very first moment Dan sees you, he is enthralled. If only timing was better and he could actually meet you.

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Hello lovelies! “Tadhana” means destiny in Filipino. Idk I just love the idea of adding Filipino words in fanfics and this word spoke to me. I wanted to work on a story involving terrible timing (heaven knows that’s what defines my lack of a love life). This is the result. Enjoy!

She captivates Dan like the first firework that appears in a night sky.

Across the field of a park, a pair of brown eyes lock on a (H/C) girl. His heart skips a beat. Never in his life has he ever looked at a girl that brings an effect quite like this. The warmth creeps deeper into his bones. His body is attuned to the beauty standing feet away from him.

She’s alone, and his instincts tempt him to approach her. Who is this girl that’s sending his emotions in a frenzy?

He finds his feet dragging itself toward her, a water molecule trying to find another molecule to bond with. Just as he’s within a few feet away from the mysterious beauty, she’s joined by another girl.

He pauses. There goes his plan to approach her. He retreats, ducking behind a tree.

He curses to himself. If he’s going to talk to her, he didn’t wish to do it with her friend as a witness.

Disappointed, he watches as his mystery beauty stands up and walks away with her friend. It elicits another curse word from him. He wants to follow them, but that would be creepy and he didn’t want to make a bad first impression.

He sighs. He doubts he’ll see her again.


But he does. Three hours later.

Dan walks out a video game store, holding a paper bag with the newest release of Halo. He’s on his way back to the flat when he spots her across the street.

It’s her. The (H/C) girl from earlier. She’s still with her friend.

Standing at an intersection, he waits impatiently for the stoplight to turn green. His eyes follow her, his heart racing faster against his chest the farther she walks away.

The light turns green. He’s tempted to be like a bull and stampede through the crowd to reach her.

He loses her in the busy London crowd. Once he’s on the other side of the road, he can no longer see her or her friend.

This day keeps getting better and better.

He turns a corner. He leans his head against a pole.

Great. Just fucking great.


Hope isn’t lost. The third time Dan sees her, he’s certain fate is messing with him.

“I’ll see you next time.” With a smile, he turns off the camera. When he got home from the video game store, he decided to film a video to distract him from his thoughts. He needed something to help him take his mind off of her.

He moves to the window. He looks out the glass pane.

He nearly faints at what he sees.

It’s her. Again. He can see her face from here. She’s alone, sitting on a bench, reading a book.

He turns around and takes deeps breaths. Three times already. This has never happened to him before. Why is this girl turning him into a complete mess? Why is it that, within the same day, he keeps seeing the same girl over and over?

“It’s just a girl,” he mumbles. “Go talk to her, Dan. Maybe if you talk to her, you’ll stop feeling like your life is like the guy in a shojo anime that acts like a lost puppy around his crush.”

This is progressing too fast. He’s investing his interest in a girl who hasn’t even made eye contact with him yet.

He turns back around. He could probably go downstairs and meet her.

He looks to the place where he saw her.

She’s gone.

He facepalms.

“Are you fucking kidding me?”


He doesn’t have high expectations by the time night falls. He had three chances to introduce himself to her. He failed at each and every one of them. He wouldn’t blame fate if there won’t be a fourth chance.

He steps outside into the cold London night. The street lamps cast a light glow along the neighborhood. The image of her hasn’t left his mind. Perhaps a little walk will help him clear his thoughts.

Phone in hand, he checks his texts. Three texts. He responds back to them.

He starts walking. He logs on to Facebook and checks his news feed.

He’s focused on his screen that he’s taken by surprise by the feeling of a body bumping into him.

“Sorry!” a female voice apologizes.

He glances away at his phone. He’s about to apologize back when the words are trapped on his lips.


“I didn’t see you there,“ the girl says. There’s a slight red in her cheeks. “I better get going. Have a good night.”

He’s still frozen when she walks away. He has to pinch himself to bring him back to reality.

“Wait!” he calls out.

She turns around. He puts his phone away and catches up to her.

“I’m sorry too. If you don’t mind me asking, what are you doing out late?”

She gives him a sheepish look. “My friend had a fight with her boyfriend. I was on my way to her house to talk to her about it.”

“Ah.” He holds out a hand. “I’m Dan.”

“I know.” Her blush deepens. “I watch your YouTube videos. I’m a big fan. Phil too.”

“Thank you. I’m surprised you aren’t fangirling.”

“I am. On the inside.” She smiles. “I’m (Y/N).”

“(Y/N).” He finally has a name for the girl that he couldn’t get out of his head. “It’s nice to meet you.”

Maybe fate was messing with him for a reason. If this was fate’s way of leading him to meet (Y/N), then he forgives fate for the missed chances.

The time wasn’t right. This moment right here is.

“I have to go, or else (one of your friends’ names) will start to worry.”

“Right. Can I get your number at least?”


The two exchange phone numbers. In his mind, he’s doing an internal happy dance. After today, he won’t have to rely on chance encounters to run into her.

“See you later, Dan,” she tells him when they hand their phones back to each other.

“I’ll text you when I get back to my flat.”

“You will?”


“Alright.” She holds out her hand. “I left you hanging.”

He chuckles. “Oh right.”

They shake hands. Her touch calms him down.

They say that when you meet someone three times within twenty-four hours, you are 98% likely to meet them again. Boy, was that 98% part spot on.

He wonders what (Y/N) will think if he tells her about those three times. Her reaction would be priceless.

But that will be another day.

There’s a 100% chance he’ll see her next time.

This was a little story inspired by The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight by Jennifer E. Smith. If you’ve never read the book, I highly recommend checking it out! Oliver reminded me so much of Dan (he’s British and he and Hadley, the main character, were going to England in the story). While I read it, I pictured it as an AU Dan x reader story.

The concept of the story came from the last page of the book, so this is why I want you to read the book so you get what I mean. Repetitive encounters is one of my favorite kinds of love stories.

Until next time.

~ AA

Thanks, Princess - Theo Raeken Imagine

Thanks, Princess – TW Imagine

Prompt: Theo, the biggest flirt at Beacon Hills High approaches you and asks you to pretend to be your girlfriend for a bet. A quick, boring imagine!

A/N: Here’s a quick crappy and short imagine! I don’t know, just a random filler I guess. I’ve got exams tomorrow so I can’t upload for the next couple days, at least I don’t think I can. Hope this made sense and yeah, enjoy! :)

Pairing: Theo x Reader

Word Count: 1408

Originally posted by lets-be-a-queen

Your POV

I was outside on one of the benches, alone, reading a book I bought yesterday. Again, I was alone. Nice and peaceful from all the gossiping and chattering inside the school halls. Unlike most students, I liked to spend my lunches reading alone in silence.

That was when Theo Raeken, Beacon Hills ‘bad boy hottie’ approached me. “I need you to pretend to be my girlfriend.” He sat down next to me, panting. I didn’t flinch or look up. This boy was trouble, and I knew it. I continued my book and turned the page over, completely ignoring Theo’s presence.

“Please, Princess?” He begged. I sighed and closed my book, making sure to leave my bookmark on the page I was on. “How many times have I told you not to call me that, Raeken?” I said annoyed. I’ve known Theo since we were little, since him and my family were close friends. I wasn’t shy around him, and I definitely wasn’t drooling around him. I’m not like the other girls where they like to daydream and suck up to him, and he knows that. That’s why he knows calling me ‘Princess’ annoys me. I wasn’t going to deny, he was pretty good looking. Just shitty personality. Well, I don’t know.

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Chapter 1

Do Kyungsoo is just so done with Tumblr. So done.

What percentage done you ask? Probably about 98% done. Because the highest you can really go is 100% and he’s still got a percent or two of cares left to send anon hate to his least favorite blogger, belligerentbeagle.

There’s a real art to crafting the perfect anon hate. The key is to make your rage sound calm and collected in spite of that burning hatred you feel in your stomach every time you think of that blogger you detest with every ounce of your being. belligerentbeagle can’t know that Kyungsoo once threw a frying pan through his 9th floor window after reading one of his posts. Kyungsoo doesn’t even care that much about bonsais. At this point, it’s just the principle of it. And he has to seem cool and calculated rather than angry and irrational.

He has to go in at ten to work at Viva Polo, a nice Italian restaurant owned by a sweet woman named Ms. Park. But he has a little time to argue with this tool right now, and that’s what he’s going to do. Someone has to put belligerentbeagle in his place. Why does no one else seem to care about how much of an insult to human existence this douche is? He should be getting like 300+ anon hates a day. Does no one else have a problem with this disgrace to mankind?

Kyungsoo hits the ask button and goes to get a bowl of cereal. Oh, how he longs to sit at the computer hitting refresh until belligerentbeagle responds, but he has to get ready for work.

While pouring himself up a big bowl of Oreo O’s, Kyungsoo can’t help but check his phone for replies from belligerentbeagle. He sees that his nemesis has replied to his earlier message bemoaning his annoying use of sarcasm with further mockery: “Why don’t we talk this out!!!!! :D :D :D Maybe if you tell me abt your feelings we can understand each other better and I can know why it is that you’re so angry!! Why am I the worst??“

Kyungsoo wants to scream into a pillow. He clutches the cereal box so tight that he can hear his precious Oreo O’s breaking inside. This guy is seriously such an asshole. This is a new low, even for him.

He refreshes the page again, and sees a reply to the message he just sent.

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Dating Med Students + my response + male perspective

Hello guys! Last week I posted my response to Cosmopolitan’s article “14 Things You Should Know Before Dating Med Students” and recently I asked a friend whose girlfriend is a med student, but who doesn’t go to medical school for his perspective. I have compiled both of them for your entertainment (?). I’m just going to call this the Med Student Dateability Research Study..  

GuyWithMDgf: Okay, but before I start this I must say I am not complaining.  have dated my girlfriend for 2.5+ years (and counting) and I wouldn’t date any other professional (except a VS angel, but did I mention my gf looks like one?)

1. She’s a listening pro. She spends all day listening to patients, lecturers, residents, attending doctors, so she’s basically a professional listener. So if you spill your deepest, messiest emotions, she’ll accept them and try to understand them. Unless it’s the day after a 24-hour call day, in which case haha, no, she already fell asleep.

CM: Garbage, garbage, garbage. If there is something my bf complains about, is that I am a terrible listener. Not on purpose of course, but after a long day sometimes I can’t help but have a hard time focusing. Or I’m just thinking about the gazillion things I didn’t do/still have to do. It just happens.

GuyWithMDgf: Oh yes she does listen, she really doesn’t pay attention or understand, but she does listen and her answer may be pretty accurate if she makes the effort.  (you may want to drop delicate information, just record for future reference)

Originally posted by rrclash3847

2. Plan every date at least 10 years in advance, if possible. See no. 1. Sister’s 18th birthday? Best friend’s wedding? Casual cup of coffee? She can’t make it. She has a test tomorrow and every day x 1,000 forever.

CM: Not necessarily, but prepare for me to arrive late once in a while. It doesn’t matter if you planned it yesterday or 10 years ago, stuff will come up. Clinic will run late, impromptu research meetings happen, maybe I will panic and decide I REALLY need to stay in and study for that quiz (which is 3 days from today but you still wont understand).

GuyWithMDgf: 10 years in advance?? Really?? It can be 100 years doesn’t make big difference, I wouldn’t bother just go with the flow.

3. You’ll only see her once a year at, like, 2:45 p.m. for 10 minutes. Because even once she finishes finals, there’s always another final. And a final after that. And then a presentation and an oral exam and a 500-page review textbook to read. Basically, “I love you but I’ll see you in five years” is something she’s told you as a joke that was not a joke at all.

CM: A little exaggerated, but I agree with this one. Long weekends don’t work for me, because stuff is usually schedules for right after. We have to wait til Christmas, Spring Break, Summer, Thanksgiving, and so on.

GuyWithMDgf: And lets not mention  RESEARCH or some other med student (or lab rat who has a crush on her) invite her to some I-don’t-know-what event or school or hospital or lab thing where he makes her look important just to try and steal her. Sorry bro not happening.

Originally posted by somewhereonlyyou-know

4. You’ll assume she can fix any medical problems you have and you will almost always be wrong. If your throat hurts or your back is spasming or even if you have a small paper cut, you will automatically assume she can fix it with her med student magic. In reality, she probably has no idea why you’re having leg cramps, but that doesn’t matter because she will pretend to know anyway. Hint: She will just give you aspirin and a lot of the time—it’ll fix everything.

CM: Yeah I know nothing. (maybe the Kreb’s Cycle)

GuyWithMDgf: Totally ! and nope she doesn’t pretend she will just say “Heyy, I am part MD how am I supposed to know?”

5. She gives terrifying new meaning to the term “type A.” Med students and doctors generally have some form of OCD or, at the very least, a seriously regimented routine, and you better get used to it because she is physically and emotionally incapable of altering it in any way. If she gets a muffin at 6 every morning from the same place and you ask her to try a new place, she might have a breakdown, so just accept it and move on.

CM: I am a nice person. But I do have to say, I’ve been told I am Type A and OCDish. I may not have a breakdown, but I do prefer to do somethings my way. “Emotionally incapable” is too much.

I do however, seat on the same exact seat on the test center. If I arrive to the test center and you are in my seat, we may have to take it outside.

GuyWithMDgf: We haven’t got that far.

6. Prepare to hear about nothing but work. Whether it’s a cool patient she saw that day, a surgery she observed, the size and quality of a poop her patient had (no, but seriously, check out the Bristol stool scale), you’ll hear about it. You will then think you had the most boring day ever by comparison and also wonder WTF the Bristol stool scale is. (Don’t worry, she’ll happily tell you.)

CM: You’ll hear about some work, but mostly I’ll be asking you how your day was because it was probably more interesting than me sitting in the library all day.

GuyWithMDgf: Not way! I will just pretend the relationship is over. Stool? really? Is it necessary?

Originally posted by baba-saaein

7. You could fart and have diarrhea at the same time, and she wouldn’t flinch. She feels totally comfortable talking about pee, poop, UTIs, periods, and anything else you find gross. To her, it is her job, and an everyday occurrence that she talks to people about. This is actually great since you are a human with a normal body and honestly, everyone should feel this OK about these things.

CM: I love you, but please don’t fart or talk about your poop with me and I wont talk about anatomy lab with you.

GuyWithMDgf: I have tried the fart, but it hasn’t worked as planned.. it still a taboo.

Originally posted by robert-carr

8. Be prepared to move because surprise! She has to move now. If you happen to stay in a committed relationship during “the match,” aka when med students find out what specialty and residency they will be working, be prepared to move with her. The field is damn competitive, and every spot for residency is coveted. It’s a sacrifice, but hey, you may end up marrying a doctor/someone you really love.

CM: ^^^^ This one guys ^^^^^

GuyWithMDgf: As long as we move to some cool place where I can have fun while she is under a 80-hour week, I may be ok.

9. Med students can be diiiiicks. High stress + competitive people = bad attitude. Find one who is more laid-back (aka, not any type of aspiring surgeon. Seriously. Do not date an aspiring surgeon. I’ve talked to aspiring surgeons who told me not to date aspiring surgeons, so I know what I’m talking about) and you’ll be fine.

CM: I am not the nicest person when I’m stressed, but mostly because of stress and not competition. Also, I don’t want to be a surgeon. Do however, take everything I say during exam week with a grain of salt sugar.

GuyWithMDgf: Ohhh yes they can be! you may just want to close the door and make a trip to your nearest bar.

10. Medical residents work 24-hour shifts that may turn into 28 or 30 hours. She has a great ability to stay up beyond what is humanly possible. This also means she needs to sleep, and often at weird hours. If she has Saturday off after working a 24-hour day Friday, yeah, she’s not going to wake up and go to brunch Saturday because she will be in bed all day.

CM: I barely went through first year, but this also means there will be days were despite the time difference, your SO will go to sleep first.

GuyWithMDgf: Thank God she doesn’t fall at sleep in a restaurant or while she drives.

Originally posted by dope-gif

11. Her drive and motivation are contagious. This will push you to work your hardest and to be your best, which is second nature for her. Go for that promotion or that job you never thought you’d get! She will stand behind you and respect you for it, you know, once she looks up from studying.

GuyWithMDgf: That’s a perk I agree with.

12. She still parties like a college freshman who’s never had booze before. After all the tests and group projects, she will still inevitably go out and get wasted like she’s a freshman in college. Few people drink as hard and fast as med students after exams, god bless ‘em. They are so sleepy and psyched to get hammered.

CM: Well, I went out only about 5 times during the whole school year, but that week after the last final…….

13. She won’t freak out if it doesn’t work out between you two. She’s been through years of rejection from med schools around the country so you not being ready for a relationship right now is unlikely to send her in a tailspin.

CM: Welp. I wouldn’t say med students are immune to rejection.

GuyWithMDgf: I don’t understand is this a trick question?

14. She works so hard at what she does, so she’ll work hard on your relationship. Most med students are generally perfectionists, so as hard as they’re working on changing the world and helping other people, they’re going to work just as hard at being the best girlfriend they can possibly be. You know, unless you date a surgeon, which I already specifically warned you about.

CM: haha what’s with the surgeons in this article??! I think there’s something to say about this one, because in my case, as much as I work super hard I now I can’t give my absolute best 100% of the time, because there’s generally alot of things going on. But I will give the 100% I can give that day. This means sometimes we’ll talk on the phone for hours, other times we’ll exchange a couple of texts, and other times we’ll just text each other “goodnight”.

GuyWithMDgf: Check answer 13. ( but she doesn’t work hard on it ;) )

PS- I would love to hear your thoughts and perspective in the comments! What do you think?

“The Life of Pablo” Album Review

Happy Valentine’s Day, y’all!  So, I’m actually back from the dead after losing all motivation to write anymore reviews for a while. Anyways, it’s me, the same little nigga from EC that y’all have grown to know and love; formerly known as Dobie tha Gawd, it’s King Dobe back once again to let y’all know how I’m feeling about this new Kanye West, “The Life of Pablo”, which just dropped this morning.

I just wanna preface this review by saying that I am a huge Kanye West fan and absolutely loved ”Yeezus” on my first listen. I have been silently hyping this album to myself since back in its infancy stages when it was still being titled “So Help Me God”. With the debut of his brand through Adidas this past year and some change, this time has been scarce of actual new music from Kanye. Most everything the fans got was nothing more than unofficial leaks of unfinished songs (see the pre-release of “Wolves” and “Fade”) and his actual singles of “Only One”, “FourFiveSeconds”, and “All Day” (none of which actually made the album cut and have no indication to the actual sound of the album). But he tried to keep fans as pacified as he could appearing on a slew of features in both 2014 and 2015 (see: “Smuckers”, “Jukebox Joints”, and “Piss On Your Grave”). Anyways, I am going into this album with very high expectations seeing how I view his last 6 solo albums as perfect and important, each in their own individual ways. Without further ado, let’s go ahead and jump straight into “The Life of Pablo (TLOP)”.

Track Breakdown

  1. “Ultralight Beam [feat. Kirk Franklin, Mary J. Blige, The-Dream, & Chance the Rapper]” – I just wanna start off with a statement followed by a rhetorical question. Kanye definitely tweeted, in the weeks leading up to the album, that “TLOP” was gonna be a gospel album. How do you actually follow through with that with an intro that actually samples a video of a 4 year old girl praying??? (see the video here) Maaaan, anyways this song is ethereal. I honestly can’t even begin to articulate how perfect this song is in every sense. From the production, which sounds like something I would hear out of a church in like the year 2050, down to each individual guest verse and the accompanying crooning from The-Dream. Every second of the song literally sends chills down my spine. This is the best song I have heard since 2012 and I mean that. Also, when the beat drops out after Kirk’s message? I cried.
  2. “Father Stretch My Hands Pt. 1 [feat. Kid Cudi]” – HOW DO YOU LET METRO BOOMIN TAKE US TO CHURCH TOO?? This album is only two tracks in and this is already wild. You can hear the influences of “old” Kanye on the beat with the “Father I Stretch My Hands” – T.L. Barrett sample placed over Metro’s almost lofty production. I’mma take this chance to talk about the lyrics and say that’s honestly not what I’m looking for anywhere on this album. As the years progress we’re going to get further and further from the lyricism that Kanye once had, but he is still delivering quality, and most of all, entertaining bars. Music is all about entertainment, right? Also, wanna send a shoutout to Cudi too for having a feature better than his last several albums combined. Great, solid song here.
  3. “Pt. 2 [feat. Desiigner]” – This is so much more sinister than “Pt. 1” was and I like the segue into the “darker” sound of the album. You can really begin to hear some of the brash direction that Kanye began to venture into with “Yeezus” on this track. Production definitely sounds more reminiscent of typical Metro at this point too, but that is definitely not a complaint. This Desiigner guy though; he really had me tricked into thinking he was Future on first listen. I guess you really do just gotta ride waves until you make it (no shade towards dude though). The outro on this track really reminds me of something I’d hear in the “Runaway” short movie, but if it was 8-bit. If that makes sense to anyone but me. Like, if he made that short film into a video game, this outro would be the music playing at the startup menu.
  4. “Famous [feat. Rihanna]” – I’m actually not too big on Rihanna’s actual music, but I like the contrast of specifically her chorus as opposed to the verses and breakdown of the song itself. It’s a similar feeling to like swapping back and forth between the two pages of a book: different pages in themselves, but work together as one in the scheme of the book. I digress though, I’m loving the introduction of the “Bam Bam” – Sister Nancy sample at about the halfway mark of this song. A great song, but just seems to pale slightly in comparison to the tone the three tracks before set. Also, someone tell Swiss Beatz to sit down somewhere and stop yelling over tracks.
  5. “Feedback” – This honestly sounds like it could’ve been a “Yeezus” throwaway off the beat alone, but it’s still far more refined of a sound than anything that last album presented. This song really sounds like the accumulation of the past 12+ years of Kanye’s work combined with the braggadocio that he has become somewhat known and pegged for. That Oprah skit at the end had me weak too when I first heard this song at the Season 3 stream. You can tell he’s really taking his music seriously on this album, but not too seriously to remove the fun out of his work.
  6. “Low Lights” – The “gospel” sound makes a slight return over what could be most easily described as more upbeat “808s” era production over such a soothing piano line that you just can’t help but feel the beat rise within you. This “interlude” was actually planned to be the album intro before the MSG performance and is based off of Romans 8:38-39. (Kanye really was serious about this being a gospel album and it’s crazy to see him follow through like this.) Honestly, this might be the most powerful song off the album just off the message alone. I had to listen to this track a few times, but there’s really a lot of truth in this testimony being given. Definitely a personal favorite so far.
  7. “Highlights [feat. Young Thug]” – This could’ve honestly just been a 3:19 instrumental with only El Debarge’s bridge and I would’ve been 100% fine with that. This song sounds like “All of the Lights” meets “Love Lockdown” and it’s honestly nothing short of beautiful. When you take all that and add the fact that Ye had the chosen one, Young Thug, on the intro laying down the most angelic of vocals possible and Ye throwing out quotables like “Sometimes I’m wishin’ that my dick had GoPro/So I could play that shit back in slo-mo” and “I bet me and Ray J would be friends if we ain’t love the same bitch”, you’ve got one of the more premier cuts on the album.
  8. “Freestyle 4 [feat. Desiigner]” – This almost sounds like some inner conflict between Ye and his psyche. Definitely the “darkest” track yet, which serves as a dark contrast to the more “spiritual” feel the album has had leading up to it. Sonically, this isn’t a favorite of mine, but I do understand the purpose of this song as it comes to the flow of the overall album. I’ll probably skip this on future listens, it’s just a little too chaotic for me.
  9. “I Love Kanye” – I just need all y’all that have something to say about every move Kanye makes or every appearance he has in the public eye to take a good and long listen to this track. He basically just saying back everything his naysayers and “core fans” say about him in a way that makes it all sound almost nonsensical because, in all truth, it is. The perfect use of an interlude at the halfway point of this album.
  10. “Waves [feat. Chris Brown]” – This was the track that the whole album was put on hold for, thanks to Chance. Chris Brown is giving “Say Goodbye”-esque vocals (obvious not with the same message in mind though), which was a surprise to me as I had begun to feel as if his recent work was falling off tremendously, over a beat that feels like I’m just laying on my back in the ocean looking at the clearest sky I’ve ever seen in my life. That the only way I can describe this song. It’s like the pinnacle of human relaxation and peace put into MP3 format. I’m glad Chance fought for this song to be put on the album (it was scrapped originally after the album title change).
  11. “FML [feat. The Weeknd]” – This is 808s Ye meets MBDTF Ye in the best possible combination there can be. We’re getting all the introspective parts of Ye that he showed on 808s while also retaining the harshness and unapologetic qualities of MBDTF. And, as much as it pains me to say this, this song wouldn’t be as good as it is without the added layer that The Weeknd’s almost pathetic sounding crooning gives. It really makes the title of FML start to sink in in the best possible way. The last minute of this is honestly another song in itself where we see Kanye switch to a more WZRD Cudi-esque sound.
  12. “Real Friends [feat. Ty Dolla $ign]” – With the return of GOOD Fridays we actually got to hear this song a few weeks prior to the release of the album, so I’m not gonna spend too much time on this one. I like it, like a lot. Mostly because I gave it plenty of spins leading up to today. But I’m also quite the fan of Ty Dolla $ign. The message is definitely something easily relatable so I think it gives this song the best chance of success as a standalone single from the album. It’s definitely one of the more “radio” sounding cuts off the album.
  13. “Wolves [feat. Frank Ocean]” – We got an early version of this song about a year ago at the Season 1 show sans Frank Ocean and with the inclusion of Vic Mensa and Sia, so the original concept of this song had some time to marinate on listeners. The album version is at least 50x better than the version used in Season 1. This is an evolved 808s Ye on the track and the song is an emotional rollercoaster from the beat to the lyrics and message itself. This sounds like something that you’d hear if you were lost in some frozen forest, man. This sends chills down my spine, like it is scary good. How do you make screeching and a resonating, thumping bassline sound appealing? Then the “acoustic” beat introduced with about 40 seconds left for Frank to drop the most beautiful outro on? There is nothing wrong with this song at all. Don’t dispute this with me.
  14. “Silver Surfer Intermission [feat. Max B]” – Honestly, with the album no longer being called “Waves” I felt this was really unnecessary. All respect to Biggaveli tho. #FreeMaxB #FreeTheWave
  15. “30 Hours [feat. Andre 3000]” – This song feels like it doesn’t fit, but in that discord from the overall feel of the album this song actually finds its place. With the help of Andre 3000 (who always seems to come out of hiding randomly for the sake of features) we manage to get a look back at some of Kanye’s feelings in the infancy of his fame placed over some beautiful production by Mr. West and the sampling of “Answers Me” – Arthur Russell. This is the kind of song you ride down the highway on a dusty summer day to. It’s just good background music for a lazy day.
  16. “No More Parties In LA [feat. Kendrick Lamar]” – Kanye had a beat CD from Madlib since MBDTF and is finally using one of them on this collaboration between him and Kendrick (two great artists to do justice to a Madlib beat). The wildest part about this track isn’t even the beat, or the collaboration itself, but more so the fact that Kanye actually had the better verse between him and Kendrick (given, his was considerably longer, but that is neither here nor there). This is the most traditionally “hip-hop’ song that the album has to offer and it definitely does not disappoint at all. We still need the high speed turbo-thots though.
  17. “FACTS (Charlie Heat Version)” – This really just seems like a bonus track, so I’m not really gonna include it in my overall rating of the album. I’m just gonna say that I really hated the original “FACTS” but this Charlie Heat rework saved the song completely. This beat is just fucking bananas man. I ain’t felt like this about a beat Kanye went over since “Niggas in Paris”. Like, it’s just downright evil, you know? It’s this cadence that makes the disgusting level of braggadocio in “FACTS” acceptable and the perfect stage to display it on.
  18. “Fade [feat. Ty Dolla $ign & Post Malone]” – This isn’t even a real song in my eyes. It’s what I wanted out of “Highlights” really. Just an amazing, thumping bassline with the perfect sample of “(I Know) I’m Losing You” – Rare Earth and beautiful backup vocals provided by Ty Dolla $ign. The introduction of “Deep Inside” – Hardrive to mesh with the original sample at around the 2 minute mark is just a sensory overload. Like, music shouldn’t even be allowed to sound that good. And it serves as amazing end to an amazing 18 tracks.

And that was “The Life of Pablo” from start to finish. After pushing back the album for 2 days and some change (but what felt like an eternity to this fan here) we finally get to listen to Kanye’s “album of life”. I must say that this is one of the more cohesive works I’ve heard in recent history as far as hip-hop itself is concerned. This album has reaches to every facet of hip-hop and even the things that influenced black culture period (read as the African American church and gospel). From the production, to the features, to the overall theme and reaches of the album I have very few gripes or complaints as not only a Kanye fan but as a music fan period. Not many eras of music have had an artist as easily influential and revolutionary as Kanye West and it is amazing to see his work progress and build upon everything that he had made before it, while still keeping elements of everything he had already done in his new work. This album sounds like a refined “Yeezus”. The perfect blend of how avant-garde “Yeezus” was, the emotion and groundbreaking sound of “808s and Heartbreak”, the comfort of “Graduation”, and just the raw sound of “My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy” rolled into one album for the people who thought he had lost all traces of who he once was and the musical background he had come from. This will be getting quite a few spins from me in the next few months and in the foreseeable future. This album isn’t perfect by any means, nor can we deem it a classic, but it is definitely a conversation piece and pivotal for the artist Kanye Omari West. 9.2/10

OUaT 5x15 – Random Thoughts: Because that’s all I’m capable of right now…

How am I supposed to function like a real life grown-up adult with a real job and responsibilities today?  That episode was everything I hoped it would be and maybe even more.  Is it normal for a 43 year old woman to stand less than five feet in front of her tv for an hour-long fantasy/drama based on fairy-tale characters? You know what, don’t answer that because I don’t care. I did it, in fact I did it twice in one night because I had to re-watch right away.

Random Thoughts:

 My brain is such a mess of thoughts and ideas that I could write pages and pages about last night’s ep and not be satisfied. So instead, I’m just going to bullet point a few things that stood out to me.

  • Even though her appearance has changed back to normal, Emma had been using the DS voice – slower, deeper, more deliberate. When Killian came back and told Emma he wanted to live his life and go back to SB, I think I heard Emma’s voice break through. Captain Swan is back, baby!
  • Hades led Killian Jones to the Jewel of the Realm and had a direct hand in the chain of events that made Killian the man he is today.
  • When Liam made a deal with the devil, no price was named even though his actions directly lead to the deaths of all the other men on board. Was Liam destined for an early death as the price for getting Killian his second chance?
  • Hades and light magic don’t mix. Is that why he’s been lurking in his lair and sending others to do his dirty work? Is he afraid to/worried about confronting Emma and even Regina because of their light magic? Does that make Zelena his perfect match? They can both be defeated by light magic, so their combined power will be unstoppable?
  • No clock ticking this week, but Killian just helped Liam and at least four other, maybe more, souls cross over. We should see significant movement on the clock tower next time we see it, and Killian will once again be at the top of Hades’ to do list.
  • Hades should have known better than to threaten Killian in front of Liam, and that Liam would sacrifice himself. Actually, should Hades get credit for helping Liam resolve his un-biz and saving the souls of the other sailors? If it wasn’t for Hades would Liam have been in a position to sacrifice himself?
  • The crib and mobile were cobweb free this week. No longer reflecting the past?
  • Can an enchanted object be someone’s TL, because I’m pretty sure the Jewel/Jolly is Killian’s third TL.
  • David does not have the temperament for undercover work, but he is very good at being a grandpa.
  • A little Cruella is the perfect injection into each ep so far. But I was distracted by how skinny her legs looked in those leggings, true cartoon persona coming through.
  • Regina as the voice of reason this half. Never thought I’d be writing those words!
  • Where was Robin? Staking out Gold’s shop to keep an eye on him? He couldn’t standing the background looking concerned this week? Maybe having Liam there filled the testosterone quotient for the week…

Random Spec that I (Sorta) Got Right (for once!):

Please allow me a moment to celebrate the fact that a couple of my specs were right for once. I never get anything right, and I still wasn’t 100% right this week either, but I was closer than I’d ever been before.

The Conversation on the Couch:

Killian placing both his TLs on a pedestal and, in his eyes, seeing them set the bar so high he couldn’t help but fail. That conversation on the couch and seeing Killian pull away from Emma like that was heartbreaking, but at the same time expected. When the promo photos came out, my initial thoughts about why Killian looked so upset in the promo photos with Emma on the couch:

By the same token, I think Killian looks so upset in the promo photos is because Emma, Snow and Regina are now trapped in the UW because, from his pov, of him. He hasn’t fully completed his hero’s journey yet and he has to go through the doubts associated with accepting that his sacrifice and then Gold stealing that from him makes him worthy of rescue and the continued hope of a return to SB.

And I think that was pretty much conveyed in that conversation between Killian and Emma.

Killian & Liam Walking the Plank:

Last Wednesday, I put out my thoughts that the image of Killian with the yellowish light coming from behind him in the first promo was a shot of him positioned at the edge of the incomplete soul bridge, which I analogized to a plank.  I was slightly off, but I did speculate that Hades and/or Captain Silver were forcing Killian to “walk the plank” as punishment for starting a mutiny in the UW.

That scene at the soul bridge was pretty close to what I hoped to see. The bonus of Killian catching Liam after Hades’ tossed him to the fire, and Liam sacrificing himself as penance for his deal with Hades was heartbreaking.

Killian Not Moving On:

The spec on Killian choosing between moving on with Liam or staying with Emma was fascinating to read, but I could never quite get on board with that because I thought Killian would still have too much un-biz left to let him cross-over. Plus, I don’t think my heart could have taken that level of angst if Killian had been put in that position.

So instead, Killian was given the choice to forgive himself and fight against Hades, or to be punished for something he had no control over – Rumple stealing his sacrifice. I thought it was brilliant the way Killian was the one who was forced to watch Liam sacrifice himself, and then be rewarded for that sacrifice by being allowed to cross over. No doubt Killian was able to make the analogy between what Liam did for those sailors and what Killian himself had done for his friends. If Liam was not deserving of punishment, then neither was Killian, and that is what let him go back to the Apprentice’s house and fully reconcile with Emma and resolve to continue the right to return to SB.

Yeah, that’s about as coherent as I’m going to get today.  I’m running on fumes, but again, I don’t care because OUaT gave me some incredible backstory into one of my favorite characters that I still cannot bring myself to talk about because of all the feels.