and i am the worst general ever

sometimes i think im doin p with my life and mental health in general. just because my bulimia is really relentless and i dont know how to reach out to ppl so i feel isolated. and im really stressing myself academically trying to get this thesis done and articles published..but i am really grateful that i am where i am now even though its hard sometimes. bc a year ago one of the worst things ever happened to me again and i was so depressed and literally didnt leave my bed for days on end and had no one to talk to and really felt like i could have killed myself..but now i have great ppl in my life, and i think its good ive whittled my social circle down to just the ppl who care about me. and things are hard and i am realizing i probably have ptsd in some capacity but im honestly just mostly happy to be alive even tho im still kinda suicidal..and thats ok

In The Witching Hour

The main doors opened and Kylo Ren stormed onto the bridge, six minutes earlier than Hux had expected. He’d clearly been running but now he’d slowed to a fast stride. The helmet was removed as he reached the aisle between the crew pits. The navigational crew ducked as he casually threw it down, missing the deck and hitting several consoles instead.

Hux turned to face him as Ren stepped into his personal space. One huge gloved hand swept up to wrap around the back of the General’s neck, ruffling the short red hair there. The other splayed across Hux’ stomach to one side of his abs. Breathing heavily Kylo bent slightly to rest his forehead against Hux’ own.

The entire bridge was silent but for the Knight’s breathing for long indeterminable seconds. Just as Hux began to fear the worst, Kylo’s face split into that rare toothy grin.

I am so so grateful to @m-oarts for drawing this commission for me, this is my favourite series I’ve ever written and I’ve been trying to get a picture of Hux with his bump ever since I wrote it. @m-oarts is a delight to work with and I highly recommend commissioning her :)

anonymous asked:

I swear it's like I live my life through your posts. Words can't describe how genuinely happy I am that I found your blog! I have always been extremely shy and I unfortunately suffer from depression, but your posts can always put a smile on my face! I really loved the response to the other anon because I don't talk to anyone without thinking the worst about myself. I don't wanna be a bother or come off as a weirdobut thank you for running an amazing blog and just being amazing in general!

I’m so glad I can provide a source of happiness and joy to you. I promise you, and none of my followers are ever a bother. I really do love each and everyone of y'all (disclaimer my inbox like instant messaged thing literally doesn’t ever work and when it does it’s a miracle so I swear you’re not bothering me there either). This genuinely makes me so happy like idk how to handle this info I can’t believe lil ole me is able to be that for someone thank you ❤️

The Power of Mabel

Day 5: Missed Moments

I will forever mourn the fact that we never got to have a boxing episode wherein Stan teaches Mabel how to box (I’d like to imagine the episode would be titled either “Raging Ma-Bull” or “Million Dollar Mabel”. Can’t quite decide…)

Not sure what the plot would be but here are some general ideas for a plot: 

  • It’s time for the Gravity Falls’ Semi-Annual Children’s boxing match (for charity purposes, of course)! Stan used to enter Soos into the boxing match to give the Shack some free publicity but 1) Soos no longer legally qualifies as a kid and 2) ever since Soos saw “The Karate Dude”, he’s lost a bit of interest in boxing (he hopes to get his brown belt next fall!)
  • Looking for a replacement, Stan decides to train Mabel in the basics of boxing. After all, he saw her in action against the zombies and knows she can handle herself in a fight.
  • All Mabel knows about boxing comes from the movie Stony IV staring the Norse Horse himself, Stony van Bobkinson (Mabel only originally watched it because that Russian boxer was quite the looker and it had a cute robot friend!) So her understanding of boxing is limited to “a 3-minute inspirational montage will make me the best in my sport and also stop communism!”
  • Stan comes up with a plan, though. If he lugs around a big boombox and follows Mabel, then she’ll stay motivated and be an expert in no time. So for the next week, no matter where they go or what they’re doing (training, eating at a diner, scrapbooking current events), Stan and Mabel hang out together with inspirational eighties songs in the background.

And I have no idea where the plot goes from there; I just really wanted to see Mabel and her Grunkle Stan bond over boxing and goofy dated sports movie from the 80’s!

anonymous asked:

Thanks for sharing your battle with chronic illnesses. I too have one. I feel like I've climbed a mountain just to get ready in the AM. Then the rest of the day & responsibilities have to be met. Ugh. I often wish we could wear a cast on our arms or legs so people could see we are struggling with something & understand. When it's invisible so many people don't get it or keep asking why aren't you better yet. Thanks again for sharing with us. Know I understand what you are going through. Hugs <3

Anon you are so, so right! Invisible illnesses are the absolute worst!! 

If you ever want to talk about our struggles or just life in general never hesitate to shoot me a message!!

Love you Anon!!!

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AoS 2x19 - the dirty half dozen - LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT GRANT DOUGLAS WARD

Honestly? Other things happened in this episode. I feel as though there were things that happened that were unrelated to Grant Ward. I LITERALLY CANNOT REMEMBER ANY OF THEM. THIS FUCKING EPISODE WAS EVERYTHING TO ME. I had this really specific set of things that I wanted to happen and this worst case scenario of what I thought WOULD happen. AND SOMEHOW THIS EPISODE GAVE ME EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED. I AM SCREAMING, CRYING, YELLING, NEVER GETTING OVER IT.


HOWEVER. NOT WHY I’M HERE. CONTAINED BELOW IS A GRANT WARD, SKYEWARD, GENERAL ‘THIS FREAKING EPISODE’ FLAIL. It’s going to be a mad house. ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK. It took me 2 hours to watch the episode because I had to keep pausing to scream at thatbluebox and b-isforbombshell, not that Ali knows about it yet because she was asleep. BUT I’M SURE SHE’LL ENJOY MY MELTDOWN IN THE MORNING. And, like, this is a LOOOOONG post. breaddalton you wanted to see this too I think!?

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The four rarely got called in together anymore due to general disagreements that made it very hard to operate. Mosoj and Ren now had abilities that literally couldn’t operate together, and would often attack each other out of instinct. Ara had decided that North was the literal worst thing to ever happen to this world and never even acknowledged that he existed. North had quickly caught onto the silent treatment and returned it. The king’s council was broken, and it would lead to a premature end to this war. However, for something as big as a ritual, there was no avoiding being pulled together. Especially when they had someone who they believed had done it. 

The split in the council was easy to see. North and Mosoj stood on one side of the room and Ren and Ara sat on the other side. Ara was the only one not in wizard robes, wearing chain mail and her huge claymore on her back. Ren wore the red robes of the King’s right hand man. Mosoj and North wore rich purple robes of anyone else in the council, though Mosoj’s had a much more dramatic flare with gold ruins and trims. Only appropriate for a jester.

She was brought in tied up with a bag on her head, shoved down to her knees before the bag was removed. It was a shockingly comfortable room with sofas and a dart board on one wall. Ren and Ara (obviously siblings, but so different in appearance) looked fairly bored. Ara was short, but obviously stronger than most men as Ren was tall and sickly looking. The bore the same velvet eyes. North looked indifferent, milky eyes staring at the ceiling and feet propped up. He bounced a thin wooden cane that he often used for seeing a little better than his abilities allowed. Mosoj looked like he thought of this as a game. He was the most average of the four, except for a scarf he wore tied over bandages on the whole right side of his face. Ren, being the highest ranking, lead the questions. “Do you know what it is you’re charged with?”