and i am still emotionally compromised by this ship

there were a lot of moments in Star Trek Beyond that emotionally compromised me, but as i am irrationally attached to the Enterprise herself i need to vent feels about my very favorite dilithium-powered inanimate object.

The previews made it pretty clear that she was going to be destroyed so it wasn’t a surprise; but watching the extended, gratuitous destruction scene - every puncture to her hull, seeing her nacelles severed, watching the drone ships pick her apart piece by piece - was still painful.

but… 

when Chekov & Kirk are standing looking at the burning ruins of her saucer and kirk says “She still has a few tricks up her sleeve, ” i. lost. mY. SHIT.  OF COURSE SHE DOES BBY. SHE WILL GIVE THE LAST PIECE OF HERSELF FOR YOU.  SHE LOVES YOU ALL.

I AM AN ABSOLUTE MESS OH GOD THIS IS SO CHEESY BUT I’M NOT EVEN SORRY BECAUSE MY HEART IS FILLED WITH SUCH JOY

This panel, combined with the panel in 3.10 where Jack says “We’re a team” make so so weepy because Jack is so fucking committed to Bitty??? Maybe I’m still in shock and awe about being in a fandom where a canon gay couple even exists but… Just…. 

Bitty is Jack’s endgame. I am feeling it to the extreme. And Jack is Bitty’s as well, no take-backsies. I can’t even articulate how happy and emotional I feel watching these men being in love and being PARTNERS and AAAAAAAAAAAH