and i am going to share it online

Dream Daddy Cult Ending

Okay, so I’ve gone through Dream Daddy’s files, and have found the cult ending! I’m pretty sure you can’t actually get this ending, but I wanted to share it. I know I got frustrated trying to find it online.


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        Transgender Day of Visibility is an important and vital day to celebrate those of us who are living as our authentic selves.  We can stand united in pride rather than shame and show the world our strength through our vulnerability.  As Laverne Cox said, “It is revolutionary for any trans person to choose to be seen and visible in a world that tells us we shouldn’t exist.”  As our community gains more visibility, the hate and misunderstanding of who we are becomes more visible as well.  Murder rates and hate crimes against our community, especially trans women of color, have risen each year.  Rejection from friends and family often leads to homelessness.  Children face bullying, harassment, and high suicide rates.  Many of us experience workplace discrimination, live well beyond the poverty level, and we can still legally be fired in 32 states simply because we are transgender.  Lawmakers are introducing one bill after another that marginalize and attempt to exclude us from society.  Now, more than ever, visibility is necessary to help change hearts and minds.  

        I remember when my parents bought a computer and set up an internet connection when I was in Jr. High.  I was finally able to research why I felt like a girl trapped in a boy’s body.  I learned about the term transgender and that I wasn’t alone.  For the first time, I no longer felt like a freak or outsider.  I gained hope and strength through the stories of those who had chosen to be visible.  However, I still lived in fear of what my family and friends would think.  Suicide was a constant thought in my mind because I was tired of pretending to be who I wasn’t meant to be.  Societal norms and expectations weighed me down and I became an introvert.  I fought who I was and lived in shame and fear until I was 29.  I had been married for 7 years and when that ended I was broken and defeated.  In my mind, I had two options, suicide or transition because I could no longer go through the motions and pretend to be happy.  

         Five years ago, I chose transition over suicide and it was the best decision I’ve ever made.  Even though I lost friends and family who disagreed with who I am, I gained so much more.  Truly loving myself for the first time allowed me to connect with others like I had never been able to before.  I was finally happy and free!  I chose to document my transition online and share my story with the world because I knew how important visibility was for others who were going through similar struggles.  This gave me the opportunity to inspire and encourage people to live their lives authentically and to love who they are.  The response I received was amazing and, in turn, it gave me the courage and confidence I needed to be more visible offline.  I began sharing my story with almost everyone and the friendships I developed have been rewarding and eye opening.  

          Over the years, I have been asked why I do not move past saying I am transgender and live my life as a woman.  My response, is that visibility is vital and I am proud of who I am.  To me, the term transgender doesn’t define my gender identity, it defines how hard I have fought to be the woman I am today.  Sharing our stories and our struggles truly opens hearts and minds to change and acceptance.  I have learned that most people, when given the chance, do not care about labels.  They care about the person that is front of them and the connection that is developed.  I’m thankful for a day that celebrates who I am despite the fear and hate directed at us but we need to celebrate who we are every day.  Life is a gift and can truly be amazing if you allow yourself to love who you are with unapologetic authenticity.  Together we can make a difference in this world and slowly we will make it a safer, better place for those following in our footsteps.  

So you’re thinking about leaving concrit on a fanfiction...

Hi there!  Dresupi here! Fanfic author, mostly MCU.  

So you’re browsing Ao3…you’re having fun.  You’re reading all your favorite ship or fandom has to offer.  And EGADS!  You’ve spotted an error in one of the fics.  

Originally posted by gurl

Well.  Surely the next step is for you to let them know in the comments.  Right?  That’s what they’re for, after all.  Communicating with the author, right? 


Originally posted by yourbasicaesthetics

Wait WHAT?  Dres…you’re telling me I shouldn’t alert this writer to their grave error in judgement (Or grammar, or characterization, or anything else I deem incorrect in this work they’ve posted out in public for everyone to see?)

Yes, imaginary fic commenter.  Yes, that’s exactly what I’m telling you.  


Calm down, I’m going to lay this out for you.  All professional like.  With bullets and everything.  ;) I got you, Babe.  Don’t worry. 

  • Okay, so the first thing you (as a potential commenter of fanfiction) need to do is decide…Did you like the fic?  If yes, please continue to the next step.  If no, I need you to go back up to the top of your web browser and click the arrow pointing left.  That will take you OUT of the fic and enable you to continue on your search for the perfect fanfic. :D
  • Okay, so, if you’re still reading, you’ve decided that yes.  You DID like the fanfic.  YAY!  I’m so happy for you!  I love finding good fics!  I really do!  It’s the best feeling to find someone who writes your OTP just right, isn’t it?  … Oh wait…you mean…you DIDN’T like the way they wrote your OTP?  A scene was too short?  The word count over all was too short?  Characters were OOC?  Goodness gracious!   Well, in that case…I’m going to need you to go on up to the top left of your screen and click the arrow pointing left.  This will take you OUT of the fic and enable you to continue on your search for the perfect fic with perfect A+ Characterization.  
  • NOW.  Okay.  So you liked the fic.  You liked the length.  The characterization.  AWESOME!  PARTY TIME!  … Oh?  A factual error, you say?  Oh no!  That really is kind of embarrassing, you know?  Really quick, though.  BEFORE you comment, can you check the author’s note and see if the author is asking for help?  A beta?  A general okay-ness with constructive criticism?  (Some authors really like it).   But no?  You don’t see anything like that in the author’s note?  Hmm.  Well, this is a tough situation.  You can either leave your comment sans unprompted concrit…or you can venture up to the top left of your screen and click on the left hand arrow.  This will take you OUT of the fic and enable you to continue on your search for the perfect fic with A+ characterization with bonus fact checking!   
  • Alright,alright, alright.  You’ve made it this far!  This must be an AMAZING fic.  Outstanding!  :D  All except for those pesky grammar and/or syntax errors, right?  Wow.  These are really interfering with your ability to enjoy the fic.  Either this author is in desperate need of a beta, or maybe it’s just that ONE GLARING ERROR in an otherwise perfect fic.  It’s time to leave a comment, tell the author, right?  *sigh*  Take a glance at the author’s note.  Is the author asking for concrit?  Perhaps there’s a call for a beta reader?  Or just a general call for help?  No?  *deeper sigh* Sorry, Friend.  If you’re able, please leave your comment sans concrit, otherwise…yeah…you know what to do.  Back click.  

Really though…what’s the big deal about me leaving concrit?  Even if mine is a touch rude.  I know for a FACT {this author} has many more positive comments.  This isn’t going to amount to more than a drop in the bucket.  

Well…and this is speaking from personal experience as an author.  You could have hundreds upon hundreds of positive comments, but that one negative, or concritty comment is the one that stands out.  It’s the one that makes an author stop before pressing that “post” button.  It’s the one that makes them second guess themselves.  

But Dres, these authors are sharing their works in the public.  They should really develop thicker skins about this kind of thing.  

Well.  I mean.  This isn’t really up to you to decide.  This isn’t something you paid money for.  All you’ve invested is your time.  Leaving unwanted concrit in the comments of a fanfiction is the online equivalent of receiving a handmade sweater from your Nana and saying, “This is cool, but I’d rather have had the store-bought one…”   

Maybe this author is having a really hard time this week.  Maybe their word count isn’t up to snuff because of it.  Maybe this was all they were able to put out there?  Maybe their beta reader is on vacation or taking a break?  Maybe none of the above, maybe this is just simply the best they can do and they’re very proud of what they’ve accomplished!  

Fanfiction is a free service. Fic authors take their free time to craft and write these stories.  A lot of us aren’t professional writers.  We’re moms.  Students.  High schoolers.  Investment bankers.  Scientists. Therapists. {insert name of other careers here}. In other words, people with real lives, who spend what little free time we have, creating content for you to enjoy. 

It isn’t like if you pay money for the latest book from your favorite author, only to find out that they’ve killed off your favorite character and made the other character into a villain and completely mucked up the series past all canonical help.  

Originally posted by nightpsychotic

Okay, okay.  I get you.  It’s rude.  But can’t I at least point out the grammatical/syntax errors?  

And here’s where it gets tricky.  And I’d like to defer to my mom on this one.  

She always used to say, “Never point out a fault that someone can’t fix in less than three seconds.”  

She used it to pertain to people’s appearances, their attitude, or their speech patterns.  But I think it applies here too.  

I think of single typos as like…the literary version of having spinach in your teeth.  Yes.  This is something you could technically point out.  KINDLY.  You wouldn’t point and laugh at someone you didn’t really know who had spinach stuck between their front teeth, would you?  

(I would certainly HOPE the answer is no.) 

Likewise, if you simply must point out a single typo…do it nicely?  Otherwise, it looks like you read this thing that this fic author put out into the world…this little piece of themselves…you read it, and found nothing good whatsoever.  Just that typo.  Maybe you didn’t mean it that way.  But it’s what it looks like to that author.  

On the other side of this coin…if the entire fic is a grammatical mess?  Just…back click out.  

Here’s why I say that.  To you, it might look like My Immortal…but to the person that wrote it?  It looks like the hard-work and effort they poured into it.  And you never know.  The person that wrote it could be ESL.  *shrugs*  And your comment could be the thing that keeps them from ever trying again.  You never really know.  It’s safer to be cautious.

I’m going to double star and bold this next thing.  Because I feel like it’s super important.

**A better way to point out typos, grammatical errors or basically any other errors is to contact the author directly.**  

I link my tumblr at the bottom of all my fics for this reason.  And I’ve gotten some lovely messages from people informing me of formatting errors, typos and grammatical errors. It literally takes the same amount of time to click on a link and type out your comment as it does to leave it at the bottom of the fic.  And I can tell you that I do not mind getting told about errors in private.  It’s when things get dragged out into the open that I start getting defensive.  

Which brings me to my last point before I shut up and leave you to your day.  

“I didn’t mean this in a bad way!  I was only trying to help!  Why is this author getting so defensive???”

I’d like to tell you about a little thing called tone.  

Something that is completely lost in online messaging and commenting.  

While you, the commenter, might have not intended anything bad from your comment…the author could have read it in a completely different way. Know why?  

I can’t speak for everyone, but for me?  Personally?  It’s because I’m self-conscious.  Yes.  I’m super self-conscious about everything I share.  Whether it’s a short prompt or an update to a longer fic, I’m self-conscious about sharing it.  And that translates over to how I read tone in online messages and comments.  I hate that I can’t read things neutrally, but…here I am.  In all my imperfection.   

I guess in short, what I’m saying is…and this is probably going to earn me some enemies for whatever reason…I mean…I stood up to someone leaving concrit on one of my fics and got called a c*nt and an attention whore for it.  *shrugs*  People are gonna do what they want to do, and that’s how it is.  

Originally posted by teachingfeelslike

It takes absolutely no time to back click out and say nothing.  *shrugs*  It takes zero effort to not be a dick.  So please.  Just…don’t be a dick?  Feed your authors.  Don’t leech from them.   

Random Aus

I live by the ocean and paint the sceneryAKA Mod Karissa can’t sleep anxiety needs to fucking TAKE A NAP and decided to write down some for you guys. Also, sorry about such slow updates! I thought life would slow down once school ended but I guess not TT^TT I’m planning on opening the ask box again within the next few days for a day or two, so keep your eyes open!

  • It’s five AM and I haven’t slept yet but I’m very quick to tell you to get to sleep when you send me a funny meme bc GO TO BED ITS FIVE IN THE MORNING JESUS
  • we’re both freaking out because we share a celebrity crush and they just shared a new video of them (working out, singing, being a dork, etc.) and we both start jokingly comparing each other to said celebrity crush oR IS IT JOKINGLY
  • I’m just a poor tired kid half running an AU blog online and you start messaging to talk about what you did with an AU and things start going from there
  • we decide to start doing youtube gag skits and while other people don’t find them funny, we laugh until we cry when we look at the final product
  • I stay up until seven in the morning with you watching vine compilations and then we both start doing those weird early morning talks and I may or may not have mentioned I like someone and you wont stop pestering me shit
  • soulmate au - you feel the other’s emotions, but only the extremes. Intense joy, and you can’t stop smiling for the day. Devastating sadness and you feel your heart and chest heavy while you fight back tears. Anticipation and nervousness makes you ansty.
  • I thought I was in the private chat when I was talking to a mutual friend about how I like you again and it turns out I was in the grOUP CHAT KILL ME NOW HOW DO I UNDO YOU JACKASS STOP LAUGHING AT ME I THOUGHT WE WERE HAVING A PRIVATE CONVERSATION
  • I’m a fallen angel but when you fall you get amnesia, doomed to not remember anything but be stuck amongst the mortals. I have an intense fear of falling and certain people make me uneasy but I don’t know why
    • I’m a demon and I can smell the stench of Heaven on you, you must be a newly fallen angel, here come with me
    • I knew you as an angel and I keep watching over you in secret
  • I live by the ocean and paint the scenery outside my window to sell online and you are one of those photographers who are determined to take pictures of things where the scenery matches up with the picture/painting where do you have this money to travel like wtf
  • I stayed up all night and you’re the godsent angel who brings me my tea/energy drink/coffee I think I’m in love with you
  • I can’t sleep bc of anxiety and decide to message you on a whim to distract myself until it calms down enough to sleep hopefully
    • you fall asleep halfway through a phonecall
      • I hang up and the dialtone scares you awake

And here I’ll stop it for this one! So many of these are domestic ^^’ gah, coming up with creative aus are hard lol

~Mod Karissa

Open Letter to Taylor Swift,

Thank you for…

Being such an amazing role model
I admire you and your ability to inspire so many people. You have taught me to never give up on things that I want most, and that sometimes it takes pushing through the really difficult times to reach the best ones. You’ve got the biggest heart and you’re constantly giving to people around you, and it’s inspiring to see the genuine acts you do, whether it’s surprising fans, going to visit hospitals, buying packages for fans and personalizing them, or just spending hours online with us. You show us the beauty in the small things and you never let negativity break you. Despite the awful things you’ve experienced, you’ve always remained grounded, mature, and professional.

Sharing your vulnerability through your lyrics
Your lyrics show the purity and vulnerability of your experiences. I am so thankful that you open up and trust us with sharing those times with us in the form of music. Not everyone is capable of putting their emotions and feelings into words, but your lyrics help captivate the feelings for us. Despite the backlash you get for being so open about specific experiences, we appreciate the songs you make out of them. Going through heart breaking experiences is painful in it’s self, but to share those stories with the world takes significant amount of courage. Thanks for being so brave.

Recognizing friends and family
Showing how important your friends and family are to you is something that is wonderful. I love that you have people that lift you up, support you and have a shoulder to lean on. You’re so caring towards other people and as fans who care so much about you, it makes us feel happy to know that throughout the obstacles you face, that you have people to reassure you of your worth, and to remind you of what you are not. Like you do for us.

Making concerts so special
You always go to extra mile to make things special for fans, and we always notice. Between your cute, creative, and beautiful outfits, every tour you always surprise and blow us away. You capture the songs perfectly with the outfit you assign to each. Your backset videos, speeches from friends, random videos and dancers, are all such a special touch. And never mind the uniqueness of always managing to elevate above the crowd in various ways over the years. And lastly, bringing special guests and surprising the crowds beyond everything you already plan. You put so much thought and effort into your performance and tours, and we love it all.

Making eye contact and smiling at fans while performing
There is no better feeling to me than making direct eye contact at a concert with someone that means so much to me. It makes us feel so special, valued and important during that moment to have you looking directly at us smiling and singing. I swear that I will never forget the moments that I lived this. It is a moment that filled me with such intense happiness that I will forever relive that moment in my mind.

Saying motivating and inspiring speeches while on stage
Sometimes hearing things from your role model directly is the exact push that you need. When addressing friendships, relationships, self worth, you seem to just beautiful express and say exactly what we need to hear. Your words of encouragement help us in ways that you might not ever understand. Hearing you, who we look up to everyday, say that we’re not the opinion of someone who doesn’t know us, or that we’re not going no where just because we haven’t gotten to where we want to go yet, is uplifting and I repeat it to myself so often. When facing hard times it makes it easier knowing that you’ve faced similar situations, and kept pushing through. We don’t feel like you’re talking to thousands of people. We feel it so personally. It’s so reassuring to hear what we are and what we are not, because in a world where so many of us doubt ourselves, it feels nice to have that reminder. Your motive to make the audience feel worthy, appreciate, valued, and loved in a world that is so hateful, is just beautiful.

For being so generous
Seeing how generous you are towards so many causes is truly inspiring. Whether it is a fan who is facing a life threatening battle and you’ve donated to their go fund me, or another situations where individuals are in need of financial assistance. You have made a huge impact in so many peoples lives through your donations to schools, hospitals, cancer, etc. You are a giving person and that is one of many beautiful qualities you hold. Alternatively, you’re generous with your time. The amount of time you’ve spent surprising fans and taking time to make it extra special shows how big your heart is, especially on days you could do anything in the world, you chose to go make someones dream come true.

Being our friend when no one else is
Whether you know it or not, you manage to give so many of us a sense of comfort and reassurance that we aren’t alone. We all go through experiences and fall out with friends, but despite the fact that we haven’t met, you’ve made me feel like I’m not alone. Your genuine attention to fans and how much you’ve done for us makes me feel appreciated. You have experienced so many things similar to us, so when life is hard, having your speeches and music to turn to, is an escape like no other.

Making your concerts feel like home
It’s not everyday that you can go to something and have all your problems and battles put aside/out of your mind for a while. Your concerts feel like a safe place and in that moment nothing else matters, except the focus on the concert. You make the entire night such an incredible experience that it not only makes the moment enjoyable, but it gives memories to continue to look back on and smile about on bad days. You give off such a good and special vibe that lingers on for days, months, and years.

Always showing how much you love and care about fans
Through your interactions with us while you’re on stage, following us on social media, liking posts on instagram and Tumblr, and being so sweet and smiley during meet and greets makes us so happy. Taking the time after giving your all on stage for hours, to go and say hello and thank you to ‘decked out’ fans in a post concert meet up is so kind of you. You truly take the time to make it known that you care about your fans and not every famous person does that. We love you and it’s reassuring to know that we are equally as important to you, as you are to us.

For never letting negativity break you
You have been the best role model in the world. Yes, the world. You have been through so many challenges throughout your fame. I don’t know why the world can’t appreciate and value you like we do. But despite the fact that so many people have tried to break you, you’re ability to stay true to yourself and keep going is the most inspiring thing in the world. Instead of speaking out and making huge mistakes that could ruin your character, you’ve handled everything so gracefully. The ability to go through the hardest of rainstorms, and keep walking, is what we’ve learned from you. Thank you Taylor.

With love,


People really hate you for loving yourself 🤔The #bodypositive movement has been mocked by so many and I’ve felt almost embarrassed by it and never thought I’d make a post explaining my journey to self love and positivity.

Ofcourse as a fat darkskin women I’ve heard my fair share of hate and ridicule in my everday life, but never online. I’ve learned to surround myself with like minded people who understand media manipulation and marketing targeted at women to make them hate themselves for corporate greed. 💅

A few days ago I was getting dressed to go to the park with my five year old neice and she asked me “why are you so fat?” Ofcourse my first reaction was to laugh because it was hilarious! Why am I so fat!? But then she processed to say “you used to look normal and know you’re so big”.

Normal. I was never “normal”. I’ve been fat my entire life except for two years in high school when I spent half the time starving myself and the other half purging my food. It was the word normal that triggered such an intense emotion. I tried to figure out a away to explain to this little five year old girl that fat is normal. It’s my normal and it’s ok. Because in just her five years on earth she’s already been taught that it isn’t. And all of my life I have been taught that it isn’t until I switched my narrative and realized that for me it is.

Screw all the “but your health” creeps. No one gave a damn about my health when I went days without eating and had a ‘healthy" bmi. No one cares until you choose to live your life without the “rules” that have been engraved in us like stone. So yea I think my fat stomach, stretch marks and flabby arms are beautiful and you know what you can kiss if you don’t!🍑

Zig? Beautiful. Radiant. Seductive. My photography? …Not so much.

Normally, I would retake the shot/make it look less pink and dark wtf. Sadly, because I got a little bit distracted by this piece last night + spent an hour trying to figure out my printer + may have gone to bed at 3 am…I need to return to my finals prep. 😬 I’ve got 1 out of my 2 more exams tomorrow. Wish me luck!

But before I go! 😊 To conclude this piece, I finished the prismacolor portrait (ears and shirt), added some paper over the facing page (I thought dark blue/purple tones fit him well!), and printed/cut out one of my favorite quote from The Freshman Book 3.

I’m happy with this layout: portrait, background, quote. I am most likely going to continue this series with potentially a few other Choices characters. (I’ve got my eyes on Drake of The Royal Romance next!)

A big thank you to everyone who liked/reblogged my first photos. I was so happy to read all your feedback and v touched that you liked this as much as you did! Looking forward to sharing more pieces with this wonderful online community. 💗

(Also, I’m working on a few more playlists for characters, including Zach, Drake, and Part 2 for this handsome guy!!! I’m open to requests for that. 😊 )

Reylo Achievement Unlocked

So I was just specifically mentioned in some ant’s post as being “nasty a$$” and had my well-thought out think piece about the Sequel Trilogy Trio “critiqued”. Let me tell ya, they had a lot of “evidence.”

…And by that I mean they didn’t really use any.

Anyway, don’t know where I’m going with this, but honestly I am new to Tumblr, and I have no idea what I am doing, basically flailing around stupidly. But, I gotta say - even in this short time I have felt

SO SUPPORTED by Reylo people. y’all are real.

I only joined as late as I did because I honestly had no idea that there were people online talking about and debating this issue, and sharing meta and ideas and fanart about Reylo.

In 2015, I came out of that theater thinking the subtext was obvious - and being shocked much later to find out people saw it all completely differently. I was a Reylo before I knew it had a name, and it stayed that way for a year and a half. Then, recently, the new teaser poster and trailer came out, and it was like


I’ve only been on Tumblr for like 2 weeks or something, and it’s been so fun already. I was shocked that people even liked or shared my posts, to be honest. So many online communities are insular and don’t always welcome new people in so kindly.

But it was also shocking to see that there are people who dedicate themselves to legitimately hating someone else’s hobby/ship? I am truly baffled by it, but also really impressed how well Reylo shippers take it all in stride, despite everything you seem to have gone through.

I dunno where I’m going with this, other than to say, for the Reylos who’ve been actively online since the VERY beginning… so much respect to you guys! I wish I’d gotten on Tumblr sooner bc I would have wholeheartedly supported you, and I am really happy to see other passionate Star Wars people who are keeping the true core of SW alive:

We know it’s all about that compassion, redemption, hope, and love!

<3 this is cheesy, but thanks for welcoming me warmly into the fam even though I am a n00b and have a v weird sense of humor

And I debated even adding this last part but this has meant a lot to me because I’m in my twenties and just found out Im autistic about two months ago…. it’s been a lonely and weird experience but thanks for making me happy while I gush over a special interest of mine. Anyway, enough mushy personal stuff whatever.
John Oliver 40th Birthday Video

Tomorrow, April 23rd is John Oliver’s 40th birthday. It is going to be a busy day at LWT tomorrow between them finishing the script, taping, and probably also celebrating John’s birthday so I am sharing the video now. The more we spread it online (especially Twitter) the more likely he will see it before his birthday tomorrow is over.

I have sent it to some of the writers but the best publicity is still just sharing it.

I want to deeply thank everyone who participated. This wouldn’t have been possible without your support. I hope you all like the finished product.

Also a special thank you to Dan Gutman (author of The Kid Who Ran for President-a book featured on Last Week Tonight) and Dawn Porter (director of the movie Trapped-featured in the Last Week Tonight piece on abortions) for their participation.

enigmog  asked:

How do you cope with emotionally abusive family who still love you and expect you to stay in their lives? Sharing a house with them in the holidays is becoming... too much

Aha…yea I moved 4000 miles away from mine so that wouldn’t happen, I am not the best person to ask. The few times when I have had to stay with family like that, I have tried to set time aside for myself to unwind from the stress of being around them. Usually things like “I think I’ll go to bed” and locking myself away for a few hours before I’d normally go to bed so I can do things like vent to friends online or read that fic I’ve had in my “read later” pile, or even just do small little self care things like paint my nails. I validate myself in small mundane ways in which my family don’t, I let myself be tired from my pain, I let myself not smile for a while…

I dunno if any of that helps. All I can really offer is hugs and sympathy that you’re going through it it goes by quickly for you <3

anonymous asked:

Hello, this may sound silly but i'm currently enrolled to attend Art Center next year but, upon consideration (also the fact i have no money that i've had to push my acceptance by a YEAR) and your own information, i'm thinking of dropping the school altogether and going to a cheaper option (LCAD being a better option in my option) so i was wondering if i'm being rash in this idea? I know ArtCenter has a lot of name recognition, internship, and career help, but is that worth going into dept for?

i get a lot of asks from people who ask me if they should go to art school and my answer is always just “hell no no”, so i think i will make this my master Don’t Go to Art School post.

ok here’s the bottom line: just don’t go to art school. don’t go!! don’t go to any accredited art school!! unless you have a full ride scholarship or close to it, don’t go!! literally every working professional i have met since graduating a year ago has agreed with me. we love to get together and bitch about how art school is a waste of time and money.

an education at art center will cost you about $200,000 in tuition alone. lcad isn’t much better and runs about $120,000. during my time at art center, i had a scholarship and help from my parents and i still owe $30,000 in student loans.

and honestly art center didn’t help me get the job i have today. literally all it did for me was introduce me to talented and friendly people who are willing to extend a hand to help each other out in the field. but making friends shouldn’t have to cost you $200,000 lmaooooooo.

here’s my super simple guide to getting a job in animation:

1. move to L.A. this is non-negotiable. all the studios are here. i’ve had uber drivers that have studio hookups and i’ve been offered jobs just sitting in a cafe in burbank and drawing. just existing in the epicenter of animation is an advantage.

2. welcome to L.A! it’s really hot here but i hope you enjoy it. now that you’re here, let’s not go to art school.

3. here are some much cheaper options: (one of my old teachers from art center teaches a ton of workshops and classes all around town

and if you absolutely insist on going to some kind of 4 year college-like thing, try it is about a quarter of the cost of art center, which is still pretty steep imo, but is just as good.

4. i’m even going to give you a cheat guide on what you should study (all of this you can find online for free btw!! just google it!! damn just try pinterest even!! or buy a book!!), based on what i studied at art center. design, composition, perspective, anatomy, color theory, costume design, light logic, visual storytelling, character design, character acting, storyboarding, prop design, background design, environment painting, style development. there ya go that’s all you need to know.

5. lock yourself in a studio apartment for 4 years and practice all the above everyday.

6. study the work of artists working in the field that you admire. do what they do, then put your own heart into it. make work relevant to the industry today. know what your goal is. like literally, having access to soooo much artwork from working professionals on a daily basis is almost like cheating.

7. and go here and draw when you have free time. make friends with other artists. join a plein air painting club, or do a workshop, or ask for a mentorship. talk to people in the field!! make friends!!

8. make really good work and put it online. everywhere. share it!! have a website! contact recruiters! contact studios you like and ask them when they have internships open!

9. go to CTN every year and bring your portfolio. sign up for portfolio reviews. bring cards with you. ask the recruiters about internships.

10. congrats u now have a pretty good chance of getting a career in animation and u didn’t spend $200,000 for it.

i may sound bitter and jaded about art school (and maybe i am……..a little…….) but honestly i’m way more excited because after a year of working in the industry and meeting people who either didn’t go to art school or went to shitty no-name schools, i am super passionate about the fact that we live in a day and age where anyone who’s willing to put the work in and discipline themselves can develop the skills to become a professional artist without going to school. art is for everyone!! not just people who can afford school! art is fun! and great! and i want everyone who is passionate about it to succeed and not let the obstacle of $$$$$ stonewall them out of a career they’ll love!

don’t go to art school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The needs of a popperbator!

When you sit at home or at work or anywhere for that matter do you find your thoughts are constantly about your cock and your need for poppers. Do you, like me, also find that you crave for new popper stimulation when you go online. I find I am continually searching for new popper filled videos that I can share in their pleasure stripping off and matching sniff for sniff. Watching another horny fit guy getting deep into the bottle and enjoying the incredible pleasure of his penis is for me one of the most beautiful things. I am also thrilled when a new quality popper training vid is produced. We all need to be constantly challenged !!!

Blue Beetle Headcanon: Sometimes Khaji Da Asks Jaime Really Weird Shit

As a superhero sometimes Jaime keeps really weird hours. Sometimes so weird that Khaji Da is all that is keeping him awake in school or with whatever he’s doing.

Thing is sometimes it’s Khaji Da’s fault that he’s keeping such weird hours in the first place. Jaime can always tell when Khaji Da is thinking really hard about something (Khaji Da does this thing where he fires off electrical pulses which makes it feel like he’s drumming his ‘legs’ against Jaime’s back around his spine), so he can usually tell when Khaji Da is going to ask him about something.

Sometimes Khaji Da’s questions are random as hell, or downright weird– especially if he’s been awake too long. Such as:

* “What is the purpose of blogging?”

* “What does the term ‘shit post’ mean? This does not make sense.”

* “I am confused about why there seems to be disapproval for polyamory. Is that not the sort of relationship we are in with the Bart Allen?”

* “Why do people share things they find embarrassing for public consumption online?”

* “What is the purpose behind having 50 sports channels?”

* “What is a ‘ship war’? I thought I understood this term, but I think I do not based off of what I have found.”

* “I have done the math and considered all probabilities. I would like to ask the Bart Allen how it is physically possible for him to eat 5 pounds of food per day. Probable volume dimensions of his stomach indicate this should be an impossibility.”

* “Query: is it possible that some branch of dinosaurs may be currently alive, and what is the estimated probability that if encountered they would try to consume us?”

* “I have been studying weapons-designs online. I have compiled a list. How many of these would you deem acceptable?”

* “If dragons were real would it actually be accurate to state that they are giant scaly fire-breathing cats with wings?”

* “After careful consideration I have come to the conclusion that having back-up organs is a viable way to ensure against lethal damage. Would this be acceptable?”

* “Why does cheese not obey the laws of permeability?”

* “Is ‘supercalifragilisticexpialodocious’ an actual word, and if so what is its use?”

(Sometimes Jaime is so much at a loss for how to answer that he just has to switch out control with Khaji Da so Khaji Da can ask Bart instead. Bart might not know the answers to a lot of Khaji Da’s random questions, but he can usually derail Khaji Da if he has to, or convince the scarab to finally go to sleep.)

Insecure- Chanyeol

You sigh and wipe your tears while getting up and leaving your computer. Walking into your en suite bath to run some water you couldn’t help but cry more. Being so caught up in your thoughts you didn’t hear Chanyeol come home and enter the bathroom. “Baby, are you okay? What’s wrong?” he asks spinning you around and hugging you. “Nothing. I just have a real bad headache. I had a bad day at work. I am just going to take a bath, okay? I will order us something to eat, since I don’t feel like cooking, when i get out.” You kiss his cheek and shut the door after you push him out.
Chanyeol doesn’t believe you, but knows you will tell him what is wrong in time. Knowing you were in feeling good he decided he would go online and order pizza for you both so it would be there when you got out. He went the desk you two share and goes to use your laptop. As the computer comes on the page you were on is still pulled up. You had came across a blog about yourself, but it was not a good one. It was a blog talking about how ugly, how fat, and how much of a ‘gold digging whore’ you were. It said you weren’t good enough for Chanyeol.
Sighing he scrolls through the blog and he can’t help the tears that form in his eyes. Chanyeol blames himself. He knew you weren’t ready for people to know about your relationship but he had pushed and pushed until you said yes. He also feel guilty because if he wasn’t a star you wouldn’t have to deal with this hate.
Chanyeol stays on the site until he hears the water being let out of the tub. Getting up he goes up to the door of the bathroom and right when you open it he is on you. He takes your wrist and pulls you to the bed and pushes you on it. “Yeol, what are you doing? I am still in my towel?” you say trying to make sure every part of you is covered. “You don’t believe them do you?” You stare at him in confusion until you look at your laptop and see it on.
Closing your eyes you let out a deep breath and lay back on the bed. Your right hand goes . to the corner  of your eye to wipe the tears away, “Maybe.” you whisper back. Chanyeol hovers over you and moves your hands away from your face. “Look at me.” he talks you in a soft, but stern voice. You look into his eyes and you see anger and guilt. “Nothing they said is true. NOTHING anyone says like that will ever be true. I don’t care what others think. All I care about is you. And I LOVE YOU. That’s all that matters.”
You start crying again. Shaking your head you start to argue, “No, they are right. You could do so much better than me. I am too fa-” his lips cut you off. “Shut up. None of that is true.” turning your head you cry into the pillow. Chanyeol moves so he is at your feet. “I love how you always move so your feet are touching mine in bed at night. No matter what you never fail to have your feet touching mine.” he grabs your right foot and kisses the top and you move you head to stare at him. “I love how you always tell me to not touch your legs because you haven’t shaved yet when I get home from work and you are on the couch in shorts and I put your legs over mine.” he kisses up your freshly shaven calf. “I love your thighs. They are good to hold you down by when you try to wiggle away from me when I am giving you too much pleasure.” He pushes up your towel just enough to kiss the middle of your thighs while smirking. “When we cuddle the only thing that keeps use warm is our tummies. I wouldn’t change you or me. Plus, I love our wing nights at the bar with the boys. You always beat them I get to gloat for you.” He laughs as he squeezes your sides and you laugh a little looking at him with so much love. “Oh, and don’t get me started on my girls here.” he says as he kisses above the towel at the top of your breast. You lightly push his head up and smile at him. “And your face. Let’s see. You have the biggest eyes, well besides DO, that I love. Your little nose that is always runny right when you wake up in the morning.” He kisses the tip of your nose. “Ummmmm, and these lips.” he pauses to kiss them. “I could kiss all day.” You couldn’t believe what he just did. You have never felt so loved before.  
“Thank you.” you whisper as you pull him into another kiss. He grabs your sides again and starts tickling you. “No! Chanyeol! No, come on I have a towel on!!!” you laugh as you say your sentence. “I know that’s the point.” Glaring at him you get up and run away into the closet and shut the door. “Babe, come on. I just wanted to have some fun.” He puts his head against the door. After putting on one of his shirts and your, and Chanyeol’s, favorite boyshort underwear you come out of the closet.
“Baby, let’s go watch a movie and cuddle. I am still sad.” you walk to him and hug him around his waist. “Oh yeah. I am sorry. Let’s go. You can pick. I will go order the pizza.” he runs to the computer and you smirk to yourself as you walk to the living room and wait on Chanyeol to come and cuddle. “How did I get so lucky?” you smile before you turn on Netflix and hear chanyeol run down the hallway. He climbs in behind you and holds you and you rest your head on his chest and sigh knowing you could get through it all with him by your side.

You know, you would think that the argument for enjoying video games on PC would be “PCs are probably becoming the most accessible and affordable platforms, especially with video game titles being made for them as well as consoles, to share the experience of fun and engaging games with both online and offline friends even with differing consoles to play them on”

instead of “If I have these expensive-ass parts to build my own computer from scratch, I can run video games at 4K HD with ambient occlusion, local reflections, ultra high texture quality and 4x render scale without it slowing down and also allowing me to react in practically real-time to what’s going on in a game so that I can pwn these n00bs because I am the elite of the elite, kek”

but then again, I’m not surprised



Streaming Commissions 19 MAR Sunday 1800 EST | 20 MAR Monday 0800 GMT+10


(My work schedule has changed so I’m moving this ahead by one day)


Payment will be through the PayPal.Me system, which is PayPal only.

Please have references ready when you show up to the stream- in-game references or artwork or face claims are all very good as examples. Just be ready to describe your character as accurately as possible with visual references.

Any OCs of any premises welcome- SWTOR, Fallout, Dungeons and Dragons, Wildstar, Guild Wars, Pathfinder, Mass Effect, Stardew Valley, Dragon Age, World of Warcraft, Elder Scrolls/Skyrim, FF14, if you can provide references, I will draw it.

Please have references prepared and sent to, I will also provide the e-mail while in the stream.

Some concerning dental work has made me concerned about my savings, and I’m trying to save up a bit more for when I go overseas as well. Please feel free to share this far and wide, I really am hoping for a good turnout. I’m also going to be trying to do these semi-consistently up until I leave the country.

Hope to see you there!

20 Questions with Dr Ferox #6

It’s barely been half a week and we’ve got enough questions for another round. You folks just keep ‘em coming don’t you?

Anonymous said: You don’t have to answer this, but I love your twenty questions posts. They’re such a variety and everything is so short and digestible. Kind of a fun way to start my day :)             

I’m glad you like them, and now you get to feature in one! Honestly they’re the only way I have any hope of keeping up with all your questions.

Keep reading

A Little Sentiment

Before you continue: this is just me being a soft bitch and loving all my mutuals very much, its STUPID but it had to be done because i feel I’ve worn out the phrase ‘I love you’ terribly. 

So hello, I am officially 18 today (an adult now, a whole grandmother I know, my youth is behind me) and I just wanted to share this little post because I feel like going to each person mentioned here individually won’t convey all that I need to. 

In short I’m one hell of a birthday enthusiast; mine, yours, for anyone’s birthday you’ll catch me baking a cake for them the day before and still adding decorations at 11 in the night (or in the case of online friendships, editing a very long, very reminiscent, string of paragraphs written in a rush of adrenaline with the end result involving horrifying grammar and spelling you can only understand after the third look over and your best guess.) It’s your day and you should be celebrated, appreciated and showered in love, plus the tradition in itself is fun! But the week leading up to my 18th was less than joyful, to say the least. From a ridiculous fight with a friend, to just a general war of hormones (get it) and emotions, to doubting a lot of my irl friendships, I was basically just a cocoon of blankets and misery all week. So to say I was not expecting anything good to come out of my birthday this year was an understatement. 

Except, I’ve met a lot of people on here, made a lot of friends- old and new, close and mutual- that I’ve come to really adore and appreciate, and they managed to turn my entire day around simply by the enthusiasm in which they all  wished me a happy birthday- some even going to the extent of making me small somethings that I will cherish like my own child till death do us part. So, really, this is just a big, sappy thank you to all of them because I’ve been glued to my phone with a grin splitting my face all day and I’m just very happy and feeling very loved so I want yall to know that you are just as loved, and immensely so, by me. 


 Monologue: end 

 last but not least, the reasons behind this emotional throw up: @makao6x10 @yoonngi @mylovejhs @sinnamochi @taepott @itskimtaehyung @springtoday @btsmutimagines @boyscoutstyle @my-hope-j-hope @yoonelle @jung-shookie @alway5 @haecherry @agustdia @hoe4jimin @cinnamonsugas @velvethoseok @busanbfs @bbangsthetic @kseokjiin @hobikookie @mark-myass @chiquitae @jungkookpd @hadifer @taenity @sonshinejimin @chenbox @mochikissme @lovesicksuccubi @mochimim @rosymyg @ssconce @gukchims @jeonphoria AND SO MANY MORE 

I couldn’t tag a bunch of people because tumblr sucks nasty ass, but i have not forgotten them and their birthday wishes even if tumblr apparently has

On Self-Esteem as an Artist (please read)

Today my design teacher started a revisions-session on our assignments by saying that the classroom was an “ego-less” zone. Which meant that, even though you might be a good artist, you should avoid entering a classroom thinking you don’t need any tips, that your art is the best out there. Makes sense. Especially with a skill such as drawing, you can never really achieve “perfection” - as you improve and change as an artist, your idea of “that perfect drawing” will also improve and change.

On the flip side, and more importantly, is that you should never enter a classroom thinking you suck. I recently wrote a post about self-esteem and attitude here. I just thought I’d re-emphasize some points:

I think the biggest issue I see is that people in general do not know how to accept compliments towards their art. If someone says “Wow, your art is really good!” they’re saying it because they genuinely mean it. When they hear back “no it’s not, it sucks,” I think, at least in my experience, that person who gave the compliment then feels bad themselves. They feel like their generous words meant nothing, that their own opinion means nothing. I see amazing art, and I want to let that artist know, and I want them to feel good about their skill that they’ve honed.

When you receive a compliment to your art, or to anything really, just respond with a “thanks!”. It is not arrogant to appreciate praise. When you accept a compliment, it validate’s the complimenter’s opinion and everyone wins. They are not lying when they say they like your product. Accepting the compliment also encourages a dialogue - they can then ask things like how long you’ve been doing art, advice on different techniques, etc.

Too often I hear from my peers “oh no, don’t look at my work, it’s horrible.” Why? Why do they think that? Did they join the animation program just to complain to more people about their inferior skills? Are they trying to fish for compliments? I don’t think that’s it - I think, unfortunately, it is somewhere in our nature to assume we are inferior. The reason behind that attitude probably has something to do with society and our educational system and never being good enough blah blah - that’s too complicated for my limited psychology knowledge.

An anon recently sent me this message:

“…for the past few months i just cant draw, nothing seems good enough and then i look at other peoples art an know that im never going to be as good and it just discourages me even more, so long story short i am kind of in an art block and i dont know what to do. im the best at drawings faces but everything else im eh at so i dont feel like its worth it but everyone keeps telling to keep going. any tips? advice?help”

I’ve received this theme of message before, and have heard it many times in real life - “why do I bother I’ll never be good as [insert amazing artist here].” I replied to this message by basically saying that every single artist, regardless of talent, relates to this feeling of comparative inferiority. We all see amazing artists online, sharing their masterpieces, pining one day to be that talented. If you’re constantly up-comparing yourself to artists who have been in the industry for YEARS longer than yourself then you’re going to automatically get frustrated. You need to draw to improve past how you drew the day before

***You need only compare your skills to your past self.***

It’s all about striking a balance between modesty and self-esteem - if someone gives you a compliment, accept it. Realize that this person is taking the time to celebrate your skills. You deserve to have your skills acknowledged. Be open to constructive criticism, because if someone is taking the time to actually analyze your work and offer ways to improve it - as in, beyond just saying “Oh hey that drawing is cool”, to “You’re moving in the right direction. I think you could improve [thing] by [adjustment], and maybe try adding [things] there and there.”

It can get very overwhelming, looking at all the amazing artwork online, thinking about all the talent in the world. But remember - all of those artists had to start from somewhere. Like any skill, practice and hard work is necessary to excel. Get inspired, create, revise and learn, and create some more. Most importantly, realize that you deserve to create art. The world can never have too much art.


I keep getting stressed over my lack of publicity (?) for my art, I know we aren’t supposed to be so focused on numbers, but at the same time, I really wish that I can make art friends and have the knowledge that there are people out who will support me and love my art :””””(

 idk it’s just being in JC without an art subject and having people around me who don’t really want me to go into the art profession and relate to me, really attacks me mentally. 

But then again, I do appreciate that I am allowed to draw rather than being restricted completely and I appreciate the sprinkle of classmates I’ve met over the years who shares the same thoughts and helped me through the Singaporean life lmao, unfortunately most of them have moved on to their other interests and so now, here I am, desperate for online friends haha :”””)