The hardest thing I’ve ever been through is facing pregnancy alone. Yes, I had my family and my very limited amount of friends but I was growing a human who was half made up of someone who wasn’t there to watch her grow with me. He never felt her kick.. He will never hear her first cry.. She will never call him daddy.. As much as I hate him for how he broke my heart I love him for giving me her.. Every app you get has a special section for “daddy” advice on how to treat your loved ones right while your significant other is pregnant.. I never got any of the foot rubs, I didn’t get to take days off work, I never got a belly Kiss.. I never got to see the way my daughter reacted to her fathers voice and she never got the chance too.. Him leaving was hard but I saw it coming.. I was 20 weeks pregnant.. It’s a milestone the half way point. My daughter could hear, I felt her first kick, I finally picked out her name, the color for the nursery. It was the week of thanksgiving. Everything was falling into place.. Then I took a fall at work. I went to the hospital and he was by my bed the entire time.. I cried.. As much as I wanted to meet my daughter I didn’t want it to have to be then.. Luckily it was not.. I was sent home and we cozied up into the bed.. I felt at peace.. I knew in that moment my daughter was safe and I could sleep knowing that. So I did.. The next day I was in for a surprise… I woke up and the guy I loved so deeply for 2 long and very hard years decided it wasn’t his place to be a part of our daughters or my own life anymore and like that … The other half of the tiny human I was growing, the past two years of my life was gone.. I never spoke to him and he never contacted me.. In one day My child went from having a father to not… Of corse at this point in her life that didn’t make much of a difference to her.. But to me it was devastating.. I was left alone.. With my daughter just us.. It’s hard to be left alone with someone you can’t yet hold but it also teaches you the greatest patience you’ll ever learn. I have No one to hold my hand in labor, no one to cut her umbilical chord, no one to rub my feet after I worked a 10 hour shift, no one to come home to and tell all the cool movements you felt from your daughter that day.. No one to share that ever so deep love only parents can share for a child.. I struggled with wondering if I alone was good enough for my daughter.. I just turned 18 my life was supposed to be beginning so why did it feel like it was ending.. Why did I let someone who didn’t care about us control so much of how I let myself feel… Why did I let someone who lied… And cheated… Destroy how I saw myself as a person.. Because of him I had to recreate myself in the matter of a few months .. I’m still working on it.. Because of him I question on a daily basis if I’m even good enough for my child.. If I ever will be.. I gave way to much to the wrong person.. And he took me for advantage.. that’s when I was lost.. But then I realized I gave so much to him and that means he wasn’t the wrong person.. He was just the wrong person for me.. For our daughter.. God just told me I can handle this alone..