and how do you look like that going on 60

these are actually hella fucking cute y'all
  • 1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?
  • 2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?
  • 3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?
  • 4: how do you take your coffee/tea?
  • 5: are you self-conscious of your smile?
  • 6: do you keep plants?
  • 7: do you name your plants?
  • 8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?
  • 9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?
  • 10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?
  • 11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends?
  • 12: what's your favorite planet?
  • 13: what's something that made you smile today?
  • 14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?
  • 15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!
  • 16: what's your favorite pasta dish?
  • 17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?
  • 18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.
  • 19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?
  • 20: what's your favorite eye color?
  • 21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.
  • 22: are you a morning person?
  • 23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?
  • 24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?
  • 25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into?
  • 26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit?
  • 27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor?
  • 28: sunrise or sunset?
  • 29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?
  • 30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?
  • 31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.
  • 32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.
  • 33: what's your fave pastry?
  • 34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?
  • 35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?
  • 36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now?
  • 37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?
  • 38: tell us about your pet peeves!
  • 39: what color do you wear the most?
  • 40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you?
  • 41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving?
  • 42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!
  • 43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?
  • 44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?
  • 45: do you trust your instincts a lot?
  • 46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.
  • 47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?
  • 48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?
  • 49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?
  • 50: what's an odd thing you collect?
  • 51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?
  • 52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?
  • 53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?
  • 54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?
  • 55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point?
  • 56: what are some things you find endearing in people?
  • 57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?
  • 58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?
  • 59: what's your favorite myth?
  • 60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?
  • 61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received?
  • 62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?
  • 63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?
  • 64: what color is the sky where you are right now?
  • 65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with?
  • 66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?
  • 67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?
  • 68: what's winter like where you live?
  • 69: what are your favorite board games?
  • 70: have you ever used a ouija board?
  • 71: what's your favorite kind of tea?
  • 72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it?
  • 73: what are some of your worst habits?
  • 74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.
  • 75: tell us about your pets!
  • 76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't?
  • 77: pink or yellow lemonade?
  • 78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?
  • 79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?
  • 80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?
  • 81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.
  • 82: are/were you good in school?
  • 83: what's some of your favorite album art?
  • 84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?
  • 85: do you read comics? what are your faves?
  • 86: do you like concept albums? which ones?
  • 87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?
  • 88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?
  • 89: are you close to your parents?
  • 90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.
  • 91: where do you plan on traveling this year?
  • 92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?
  • 93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most?
  • 94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?
  • 95: what are your plans for this weekend?
  • 96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?
  • 97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?
  • 98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?
  • 99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.
  • 100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

Send a number to answer a question! > v <

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

6: do you keep plants?

7: do you name your plants?

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

12: what’s your favorite planet?

13: what’s something that made you smile today?

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

20: what’s your favorite eye color?

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

22: are you a morning person?

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

28: sunrise or sunset?

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

33: what’s your fave pastry?

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

39: what color do you wear the most?

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

59: what’s your favorite myth?

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

68: what’s winter like where you live?

69: what are your favorite board games?

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

73: what are some of your worst habits?

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

75: tell us about your pets!

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

82: are/were you good in school?

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

89: are you close to your parents?

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

Distraction Grounding SOS

1. Scream as loud as you can 

2. Punch a pillow 

3. Throw a cushion against a wall 

4. Kick a football against a wall 

5. Squeeze ice really hard

6. Tear up newspaper or a telephone directory

7. Draw on the place you want to cut or harm 

8. Play loud music and dance

9. Write words on yourself in pen 

10. Do some exercise: walk, swim, jog etc. 

11. Write a list of your achievements 

12. Write a letter 

13. Make a wish list 

14. Make a gratitude list 

15. Call a helpline

16. Allow yourself to cry 

17. draw, paint, finger paint, sculpt how you feel

18. Write a poem/story/diary

19. Scribble a word again and again graffiti it

20. Deface a magazine 

21. Draw yourself on paint

22. Photoshop an image

23. Take some photos 

24. Play an instrument/sing

25. Make a memory box/scrapbook

26. Write a different ending to a story 

27. Watch a foreign language channel and make up your own words or interpretations

28. Create a secret code 

29. Create your own cartoon character or superhero 

30. Have a nice bath

31. Wrap yourself up in your duvet

32. Use aromatherapy oils

33. Eat your favourite meal 

34. Buy something special 

35. Massage your arms/hands/feet

36. Stroke a pet 

37. Have a cigarette 

38. Paint your nails 

39. Yoga/Meditation (You can get smartphone apps for these!) 

40. Watch TV or a DVD 

41. Play on the computer 

42. Browse the web 

43. Learn a new skill (Knitting, sewing, crochet etc.) 

44. Make jewellery 

45. Go through a photo album 

46. Design your dream house 

47. Have a debate

48. Build a house of cards 

49. Make a paper chain of how many days you are clean

50. Make a t-shirt 

51. Look for pictures in the clouds 

52.Do some gardening 

53. Wash the car

54. Go for a drive 

55. Go to an arcade 

56. Make a kite 

57. Go shopping 

58. Look at the stars 

59. Catch up on some DIY/Housework 

60. Rearrange your room

61. Redecorate your room 

62. Give your pets a bath 

63. Do some volunteering 

64. Read 

65. Study 

66. Think about what you would like to change about your life and set goals and make a plan 

* I know many of these are repeats but you never know when you might need reminding of things to do to ground/distract!! <3 

Send me a number thing

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?
2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?
3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?
4: how do you take your coffee/tea?
5: are you self-conscious of your smile?
6: do you keep plants?
7: do you name your plants?
8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?
9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?
10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?
11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?
12: what’s your favorite planet?
13: what’s something that made you smile today?
14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?
15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!
16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?
17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?
18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.
19: do you keep a journal? What do you write/draw/ in it?
20: what’s your favorite eye color?
21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.
22: are you a morning person?
23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?
24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?
25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?
26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?
27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?
28: sunrise or sunset?
29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?
30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?
31: what is your opinion of socks? Do you like wearing weird socks? Do you sleep with socks? Do you confine yourself to white sock hell? Really, just talk about socks.
32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3am when you were with friends.
33: what’s your fave pastry?
34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. What is it called? What does it look like? Do you still keep it?
35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? Do you use them often?
36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?
37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?
38: tell us about your pet peeves!
39: what color do you wear the most?
40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? Does it have any meaning to you?
41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?
42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? Describe it!
43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?
44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?
45: do you trust your instincts a lot?
46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.
47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?
48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? Is it the same today?
49: do you like buying cds and records? What was the last one you bought?
50: what’s an odd thing you collect?
51: think of a person. What song do you associate with them?
52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?
53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? Heathers? Beetlejuice? Pulp fiction? What do you think of them?
54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?
55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?
56: what are some things you find endearing in people?
57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. How did it make you feel? Did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?
58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? Why?
59: what’s your favorite myth?
60: do you like poetry? What are some of your faves?
61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? The stupidest one you’ve ever received?
62: do you drink juice in the morning? Which kind?
63: are you fussy about your books and music? Do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?
64: what color is the sky where you are right now?
65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?
66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?
67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?
68: what’s winter like where you live?
69: what are your favorite board games?
70: have you ever used a ouija board?
71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?
72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?
73: what are some of your worst habits?
74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.
75: tell us about your pets!
76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?
77: pink or yellow lemonade?
78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?
79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?
80: what color are your bedroom walls? Did you choose that color? If so, why?
81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.
82: are/were you good in school?
83: what’s some of your favorite album art?
84: are you planning on getting tattoos? Which ones?
85: do you read comics? What are your faves?
86: do you like concept albums? Which ones?
87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?
88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?
89: are you close to your parents?
90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.
91: where do you plan on traveling this year?
92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?
93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?
94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?
95: what are your plans for this weekend?
96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?
97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?
98: when’s the last time you went hiking? Did you enjoy it?
99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.
100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? Why?

100 Sentence Prompts

(thank you too @inqusitor-sane for a few of these)

1. ‘Stop being such a stick in the mud!’
2. ‘Come dance with me.’
3. ‘They are just like you.’
4. ‘Just hold on, you’ll be alright.’
5. ‘I won’t leave you, never.’
6. ‘I’m sorry.’
7. ‘This is so not the time or place for this.’
8. ‘Jackpot!’
9. ‘You’re blushing.’
10. ‘You got something on your face. Let me clean it off.’
11. ‘What did you say?’
12. ‘Before sunrise, they are your child/children’
13. ‘How did we get in this mess?’
14. ‘Are you okay?’
15. ‘Who are you?’
16. ‘What was that?’
17. ‘Will you marry me?’
18. ‘That’s not what I meant!’
19. ‘Liar!’
20. ‘I wish I could stay in this moment forever.’
21. ‘This isn’t like you.’
22. ‘What’s in it for me?’
23. ‘I hate you.’
24. ‘Tickle fight!’
25. ‘You’re my one and only.’
26. ‘It’s been a while.’
27. ‘Let me walk you home.’
28. ‘It’s just you and me tonight. We can do whatever we want.’
29. ‘When was the last time you slept?!?’
30. ‘Make a wish’
31. ‘I’ll never forgive you.’
32. ‘You know me too well.’
33. ‘Just hold my hand.’
34. ‘Wake up, please.’
35. ‘This wasn’t supposed to happen.’
36. ‘I never wanted to hurt you.’
37. ‘What are you hiding?’
38. ‘It’s a beautiful night.’
39. ‘They are so your child/children.’
40. ‘I’ll miss you.’
41. ‘Remember when [event]’
42. ‘It’s so hot out!’
43. ‘But I thought you liked this?’
44. ‘What have you’ve done?”
45. ‘No one can know.’
46. ‘Everything will be okay.’
47. ‘You’re sick.’
48. ‘I’m never letting go.’
49. ‘There is only one bed.’
50. ‘You look lovely today’
51. ‘There is so much blood.’
52. ‘I can’t!’
53. ‘I’m not afraid.’
54. ‘Tell me something I don’t know about you.’
55. ‘Let’s ditch this place and do something fun!’
56. ‘How did you talk me into this?”
57. ‘Today is a new day.’
58. ‘My clothes look good on you.’
59. ‘Where am I?’
60. ‘We are going to have the cutest babies ever!’
61. ‘I think we’re lost.’
62. ‘How did you know?”
63. ‘It’s not what it looks like.’
64. ‘Keep your eyes open.’
65. ‘Do as I do.’
66. ‘You’re cold.’
67. ‘You think it will lighten up soon?’
68. ‘I can’t see anything.’
69. ‘What did I do to get you again?’
70. ‘Look what I found!’
71. ‘Just breath.’
72. ‘Let’s go to bed.’
73. ‘You believe me, right?’
74. ‘Let’s go exploring!’
75. ‘That’s so sweet of you.’
76. ‘I think we’re stuck.’
77. ‘I need to leave.’
78. ‘You look beautiful, no matter what.’
79. ‘Stop!’
80. ‘You’re hurt, let me help.’
81. ‘I dare you!’
82. ‘What happened here?”
83. ‘Just this once.’
84. ‘We should go home.’
85. ‘Let’s go for a swim!’
86. ‘For science!’
87. ‘Move over.’
88. ‘We have to help!’
89. ‘This must be the happiest moment of my life.’
90. ‘It’s just a cut.’
91. ‘I feel stupid.’
92. ‘This is one heck of a storm.’
93. ‘Hit the deck!’
94. ‘A kiss for good luck?’
95. ‘I didn’t know you could sing.’
96. ‘You’re so cute when your sleeping.’
97. ‘I will always protect you.’
98. ‘Forever.’
99. ‘Run!’
100. ‘Sit, relax, I won’t bite.’

Benevolence 7

7/20 The moment so many of you having been waiting for….

Word Count: 5,579



I was walking down one of the streets in Seoul. It was pitch black outside and everything was at a dead silence. No cars on the road, no one was walking around handing out those little business cards. Usually in America I would have been scared and ran the whole way home. However, in Seoul I’ve noticed there wasn’t ever a reason to be scared at least not for me. Obviously ever country has it’s rapist, murderers and robbers but the chances of seeing one while walking the streets on a weeknight was unlikely.

The high heels of the shoes I was wearing scraped across the cracks of the street. I was currently on my way home, I was at school and decided to stay late since that was were all the sewing supplies were at. I lost track of time and now I have to rush home to my boyfriend before he freaks out. I felt a vibration on the pocket of my shirt. Dipping my fingers into the fabric, I pulled out my phone. Speak of the devil, he was calling right now.

“Are you okay? It’s really late Y/N, where are you?”, Baekhyun panicked into the phone.

“I’m fine I’m almost there just a few blocks away.”, I sighed stepping over a small gate to cross to the other side of town.

“Good, what street are you on?”, He asked letting out a breathe of relief. “Let’s stay on the phone till you get here.”

Letting out a another sigh I looked up to see which street I was on, “Wongdang-daero” I didn’t bother reading the numbers since he would know where I was at. “Fine we might as well Mr. Overprotective.”

“Hush I’m protective over you for a reason.”, He snapped playfully “How did designing go today.”

“Like it does any other day, I’m booked with plenty of work to do.”, I gave a light chuckle a sound of a car lightly hitting my ears. The sound of it got louder and louder until it was a mere 60 feet away from me.

The only problem was the car was coming right at me.

It was dark outside so I couldn’t see anyone in the car only the front of the lights my breathing started going at faster pace. I didn’t say anything to Baekhyun since there would be no point he couldn’t do anything. The car wasn’t stopping it was coming closer and closer to me. So, I did the only think I  could do in this situation, run. Turning around I started running as fast as my feet would let me. The phone was no longer pressed to my ear as my feet were running across the concrete. Who the fuck was this, why all of a sudden does someone try to run me off of the sidewalk.

“I love you too.”, I heard a light whisper on the phone it didn’t sound like Baekhyun’s voice which is why I had made the mistake I did. Lifting the phone to my ear I listened to see if anything else was said.

“I’ll see you later.”, That was Baekhyun’s voice did he not notice I stopped talking on the phone.

“What the hell are you doing?”, I panted on the phone causing my running to come to a slow pace. Unfortunately I shouldn’t have done that within a few seconds the car came to an impact with my body. 

The next thing I remember was being on the ground blood covering my hand and my cracked cell phone. I couldn’t move I was unsure of whether or not I had broken any bones since I had never broken one before in my life.

“Y/N, Y/N, Y,N what the hell just happened? Answer me damn it!”, I heard Baekhyun scream on the phone. I heard the car  door shut and footsteps began to inch closer towards me. Turning my heads towards the person who had hit me with the car, I couldn’t make out a face. I had already blacked out.


“I’m done.”

“Baby don’t start this again you aren’t going anywhere you always end up staying.”, He snapped grabbing my arm.

“NO, not this time I’m done you just made me realize how little you care about anything I want. My designing career you use that as a toy to keep me around, I wasn’t even told about this  ‘relationship’ until she had already moved in. Then you just told all of the other members that I’m basically your second option when Taeyeon isn’t around. Do you see what you’re doing, plotting all of this shit out without my consent?”

“You can’t just stop like this, we’ve been through too much together.”, He growled roughly snatching me into his chest. His breathing was at an unbelievable pace but still, I couldn’t let him sway me. At his point there honestly wasn’t a fuck for me to give.

“You, haven’t been through shit I however, have looked like a dumb ass for way too long now Baekhyun. You can’t just continue to mistreat me and expect me to still love you.”  At the last sentence his face went from angry to sad and confused. His grip on my arm loosen letting me step back a few inches.

“You don’t love me anymore?”, His voice was weak, like a child who had gotten caught for drawing on the walls while being scolded.

“What do you think the answer to that is?”, In all honesty I didn’t know the answer myself. Of course your love for someone can always fade overtime if you’re not receiving love from them but, could you completely stop loving them? If you sit down now and think about any good memories you had with them the sides of your lips wouldn’t tug up just a little?

“Oh my god.”, He whispered sobbing a little due to the fact that I was shorter than him a few of his tears fell down on my cheek. “Y/N, I’m so sorry please let’s take a vacation just you and I to patch things up. Don’t ruin our relationship ov-”, I cut up off before he could finish his sentence.. me I was the one to ruin this relationship? This relationship was doomed from the moment it had began. His intentions were made clear to me a long time ago. 

“Don’t fucking try to blame this on me.”, I hissed shoving at his chest. “You brought Taeyeon here, you got back together with her and you have been mistreating me.”

“I know I haven’t been acting the best lately but, it’s because-” he spoke before I cut him off once again. At this point I honestly think Baekhyun has mental issues or something is just fucked up in his dumb ass mind.

“You haven’t been the best lately? Are you fucking kidding me? You wanna know what you said to a couple weeks ago when I asked if you wanted to go to the fashion event with me? You told me you’d rather suck a dick then sit at that event with me. You are so insensitive, the best part is when Taeyeon happen to bring it up you were delighted to go. Once again causing us to all three end up somewhere when you know damn well I don’t like that bitch.”

“Why do you act like that towards her, she’s been nothing but nice towards you.”, He spoke in frustration.

“Of course she has because fucking with my relationship is really being nice sorry Taeyeon, let me get down on my knees for you.”, I laughed sarcastically. “Why do you even want me to stay with you? You’ve used me enough you clearly love Taeyeon more than you’ve ever loved me.”

“That’s not true Y/N, and damn well know it. I’ve always taken good care of you. How did you get that job at Paradise Kiss, because of me. How did you started making your own designs as SM’s top fashion designer, because of me.”, He snapped running out of air in his lungs. “I’ve always made sure you were happy and had the things you wanted.”

Did this son of a bitch really just try and take credit for my hard work?

“First off all, that ‘job’ you got me at SM was to run around doing whatever the fuck the actual designers told me to do. I didn’t get bumped up to top designer until I started sneaking some of my designs into some of your music videos.  That job at Paradise Kiss was given to me when he brought it up you just introduced the two of us.”, I snarled towards him. I couldn’t believe he just tried to take away from my hard work.

“What about the promise you made to your mother.”, He whispered as I was getting ready to turn around. He really tried to pull all the cards out of the deck, using my mother against me.

Turning back around to face him, I watched as more tears continued to roll down his cheeks. He looked so pitiful, was this how used to look like whenever I cried and begged him to make Taeyeon leave? Where had my self respect gone? I couldn’t stop them giggles began to fall from my mouth as I watched a confused look form on his face.

“Excuse me, sorry for that.”, I apologized trying to stop the laughter from coming out of my mouth. Once I was about to stop the giggles I spoke.

“At first, I was so mad at myself for this, I honestly would’ve stayed with you for the rest of my life because of the promise I made to my mother. Hell, it was the only reason I was staying with you.”, I chuckled looking to the ground before back into his eyes.

“But, I realized my mother wouldn’t have wanted me to be going through what she went through just to keep my promise. Although, I’m still mad at myself I won’t punish myself for it any longer. It’s funny because, if I would’ve just continued telling you to fuck off I wouldn’t have gone through any of this.”, I spoke to him. 

It was true, I was truly sorry for breaking my promise to my mother. To anyone else it wouldn’t have been a big deal it’s just the fact that she died knowing I hated her. Yet, she was always proud of the fact that I was still stronger than her, that I still wanted her to continue to get better. That was the only thing she had ever really asked of me, and I wanted it to be my dying gift to her. It’s too late now, I’ve shattered the promise I made to her now however, now that I’ve been punished for it I’m tired. I’m tired of loving him, I’m tired of being held down and mistreated. But, most of all I’m tired of feeling so disgusted with myself.

“So that’s it then?”, He asked quietly wiping the remaining tears leaving his face. “It’s over because of this small petty thing. It’s over because I told them the truth.”

“No, it’s over because it needed to be, our relationship should’ve been over the moment Taeyeon came back into the picture. I was just to stupid to bring myself to break away.”, I said before turning around walking away. 

As I was going towards the stairs I heard his footsteps behind me. I didn’t bother turning around because he didn’t say anything. He was just heading in the same direction as me but, it was still awkward. I didn’t want to feel like this the entire trip. I’m surprised he didn’t hit me with the “Let’s stay friends” bullshit.  

Hitting the corner as I made my way downstairs I heard loud screams. Were the rest of the members arguing with Taeyeon? My thoughts were answered when I heard Kai’s voice shout back at her.

“This is and always will be your fault. Do you even feel bad for what happened?”, His words snarled at her.

Rushing past me Baekhyun dashed towards the kitchen, my nosy ass wanted to know why Kai was so upset so, I followed along. As I was walking behind him I realized that Baekhyun was so wrapped up in Taeyeon. Even after what just happened he couldn’t wait to brush past me to get towards her. I know I shouldn’t feel like this since I broke up with him but, it still hurts me.

“If you weren’t such a fucking dick maybe she’d still be with you?”, I heard Taeyeon’s voice speak as we rushed into the kitchen. When I walked fully into the room there stood Taeyeon with tears rushing down her eyes and kai with his jaw clenched and fists balled up. 

I had seen this look on a man one too many times it was obvious what was about it happen, at least to anyone who saw someone being abused.

Kai was getting ready to hit Taeyeon.

I couldn’t help the gasp that escaped my mouth. Kai out of all people was not one I had expected to want to raise his hand at a woman. As much as I felt Taeyeon deserved to get the shit slapped out of her she didn’t deserve to be abused when she can’t defend herself. Has he done this before?

All eyes in the room shifted towards me, Kai’s look soften a bit when we made eye contact. I didn’t know how to react because I, didn’t know what was going on. Was Kai really getting ready to hit Taeyeon or was he just angry? Looking him up and down once more, I couldn’t deny it. He was getting ready to hit her.

“Kai, don’t you dare do that.”, I whispered harshly towards him, a guilty look flashed on his face before it was quickly covered up with a confused one. 

“Calm down Y/N, we’re just having an argument.”, He mumbled releasing his fists. He was lying, it was so obvious. His hands were trembling and his eyes darted across the room way too quickly. His chest was even still rising with anger.

“Kai you can’t be like that. Not you of all people.”, I muttered shaking my head at him as Taeyeon’s eyes looked over at me trying to understand the situation. Turning my eyes towards Baekhyun, who was already looking at me he came to understand the situation. His eyes full of rage, shifted towards Kai who was still as confused as ever.

“Get the fuck away from her.”, Baekhyun snapped through gritted teeth while charging towards Kai. I’ve never seen Baekhyun this angry before it was worse than when his bipolar ass flipped out on me in that restaurant.  I know I shouldn’t say things like that because at this point Baekhyun could really have a mental condition that I’m not aware of.

“Shut the fuck up Baekhyun.”, Kai spat towards him. “It’s not like she can’t take responsibility for her actions.”

“Stop with your rivalry with her Kai. You’re my band mate and she’s the woman I love.”, Baekhyun spoke aggressively towards him. I mean damn that didn’t hurt me at all.

“I thought that was Y/N, I guess you’d rather be with trash then treat her like a respected woman.”

“What are you doing to Taeyeon now huh?”

“You can’t treat a hoe like a woman.”

Baekhyun’s fist connected with Kai’s jaw causing his had to turn to the side. He didn’t even stumble back before giving Baekhyun a punch.

“Stop Baekhyun.”, Taeyeon tried to butt-in as I gave her the side eye. I wasn’t going to do anything to stop it, this was a battle between two grown men. Who just so happened to be arguing about women. I was honestly surprised with Baekhyun’s strength.

After a few more seconds the fight died down. Both men had each other in a head lock, Baekhyun strained his neck to whisper something in Kai’s ear. Taeyeon and I couldn’t hear what was said but, Kai visibly tensed up as they let each other go. Baekhyun rushed towards Taeyeon asking if she was okay, my gaze shifted towards Kai who watched the two with disgust.

“She loved you, you loved her. You talked about her all the damn time and I was happy for you because you weren’t crying all the time about Taeyeon anymore. I can’t believe you’d just run back to that bitch the moment she asked for you.”, Kai spat at him before walking out the backdoor that lead back to the top of the boat.

I stood there for a minute not knowing what to do, Taeyeon and Baekhyun were still in the room watching me.

“Y/N, we didn’t mea-”, Taeyeon started before I was already walking out the door. I had enough it was hard being in the same room as them. I couldn’t bring myself to speak because there was nothing left to say. Taeyeon couldn’t say anything that would change it because it was already done. I went out the same door Kai did to go after him.

Kai was outside looking at the sea mumbling curses to himself. His hands were balled into fists before he released them burying his face into his palms. I didn’t think I could see him get so mad at a person. As much as I’m angry and both Taeyeon and Baekhyun what could they have done to anger Kai this much? 

 “Kai, what the hell was that?”, I asked trying to be cautious not knowing what might set him off. His head lifted up looking towards me with an irritated look on his face.

“Just… She’s…”, He couldn’t get the sentence out because when our eyes met he looked so guilty. “Look I know what it might’ve looked like and yes we were in a pretty heated argument but still, Y/N I would never lay my hands on a woman.”

I nodded my head showing my understanding. I needed to hear him out because this was so unlike Kai and I only assumed because of the similar signs that I’ve seen previously. I didn’t realize how different the two situations were though. The man that my mom was dating was seriously messed up, he was a narcissist the smallest of things set him off. He put two dents in my mom’s car because she corrected him over a small lie. I couldn’t compare Kai to him.

“What could’ve she said to make you so mad then? Was it something personal?”, I asked keeping voice at a calm steady level.

“Y/N, I can’t tell you why but, Taeyeon is not innocent she’s not nice and sweet either but still, she could never make angry to the point where’d I want to hit her. I was balling my fists because I was waiting on Baekhyun to enter the room. I just didn’t expect you to be with him, are you two still together?”, He asked after explaining what happened.

I scrunched my nose up completely forgetting Baekhyun and I were ever together. There wasn’t enough time to pay attention to it or I just didn’t want to.

“No, I was heading back to the room while he went to the kitchen when I heard Taeyeon yelling, then I remembered you said you’d be waiting in there.”, I spoke sitting down leaning against my arms.

“Do you regret what you did?”, He asked curiously. I’m not stupid he’s trying to change the subject so he doesn’t have to talk about Taeyeon whatever she did must’ve been terrible because the rage was clear in his eyes whenever he spoke of her.

“No, I don’t even think the reality of the situation has hit me. I am mad at myself though.”, I chuckled staring at the sea the best I could from where I was sitting.

“Why? You did nothing wrong.”, Kai suddenly got defensive about the whole situation. “She’s the slut and he’s the dickhead who likes to cheat on his girlfriend.” 

The sides of my lips tugged up, I wonder what his reaction would be if I told him the whole story. He’d probably go back in to start another fight with Baekhyun, but I won’t. The whole thing was over now adding fuel to the fire would be pointless. Do I want Baekhyun to be happy, hell no. I’m just not the type to forgive and forget because, every time I see you after that I’ll get irritated.

“I’m mad for not leaving him sooner, and I kind of just ruined the entire trip. I feel like a failed because I allowed myself to be-”, I cut myself off not wanting to finish and If I said anything else I would’ve told him everything.

“You didn’t ruin anything that bitch did, don’t you ever think about yourself badly. You are not a failure because of someone else’s fuck ups. I’m just pissed he’d treat you like that after how they broke up.”

“How’d they break up?”, I asked, I knew it wasn’t on a good but it clearly wasn’t bad enough for them to get back together.

“Let’s not get into that.”, He blurted out lacing his fingers with mine. “Please let’s just have a good time the rest of the trip.”

“You know I’m going to ask about it later.”, I pointed out talking about the avoided subjects.

“I know”

I didn’t know how I felt, I was lost. How was I supposed to feel after leaving him it’s not like he was really gone anyway. He’s probably having sex with Taeyeon, I knew either way the break up wouldn’t hurt him. I just couldn’t be unhappy anymore. I’m thankful for what Kai said early but still, I was angry with myself. Not because I failed with Baekhyun but because I had failed my mom.

“I’m going back to the room, are you coming?”, I asked him causing our hands to break away from each other.

“No I’ll be down soon, goodnight.”

“Why’d you say goodnight?”, I asked him

“Because, you always fall asleep whenever you go lay down.”, He chuckled.

“Who said I was going to lay down?”, I shot back causing him to full blown laugh.

“Goodnight, Y/N.”

“Goodnight Kai.”

“Y/N?”, Yixing spoke to me as we unfolded the blankets to get underneath the blankets. Looking up to meet his gaze Yixing’s eyes were filled with concern. “Are you sure you don’t want to talk about it, Honey?”

Climbing the small set of stairs to get into the large bed, I lie down on the side closet the the other nightstand turning towards him.

“No, I’m fine it’s just crazy how fast everything has changed. I feel bad now because I’ve sort of ruined the trip for everyone.”, I chuckled while he got comfortable scooting closer next to me.

“No you didn’t Taeyeon did, none of us liked her but, Baekhyun insisted she’d come.”, He explained trying to ease the situation. “I just really wished Baekhyun would’ve treated you better.”

“Some things just aren’t meant to be I guess.”, I said trying to lighten the mood when in the truth it wasn’t because we weren’t meant to be it was because we kept fucking up. I don’t believe in that fate bullshit you choose whether or not you want someone in your life.

“Where’s kai?”

“He’s still outside, he’ll be back down here soon.”, I assured him.

“What are you going to do once we get back to Seoul?”, He asked me. In truth I didn’t know, I wasn’t going to stay at his place but, I don’t have the cash to just drop on key money plus rent and most likely gas, water and electric.

“I guess I’ll have to figure something out.”, I muttered closing my eyes wanting to sleep things off. I wasn’t in the right mind set to be thinking about things like this right now.

“No, we’ll figure it out I won’t let you struggle Y/N.”, He whispered as I fell asleep. I know it isn’t right to just ignore my problems but it was better this way, I wanted to focus on something else, anything else. Yixing and Kai seemed to be helping me do that just for now, I think I need them.


“You look sexy.”, Kai grinned biting his lip before his hand connected with my ass.

“Let’s not get your dick ripped off Kai because you want to be a pervert.”, I said with a sharp tone before climbing over the railing to sit on the front of the boat. It was a couple of days after the break up and it was awkward as hell. There was a clear divide on this damn boat. You had the two nobody liked or fucked with at the moment, Baekhyun and Taeyeon. Then you had the rest of the exo members who were in an awkward position from choosing sides. Then you have Yixing, Kai and I who just don’t want to be bothered at all. 

Right now the three of us were standing on deck getting ready to do what I thought was fishing however, Kai had something different in mind.

“Let’s have a threesome.”

Yixing’s head shot up in disgust, while I furrowed my eyebrows. Why is this man so perverted? I didn’t want to ask what happened with Krystal since apparently they were broken up before I had even met Kai.

“No I’m not into that kind of thing.”, Yixing scrunched his nose up. He told me once that he believed everyone out there had a person they could spend the rest of their lives with. 

That was one of things I’d admired the most about him, his loyalty. Let’s be honest here we’re all selfish when it comes to our romantic partners. Even if you aren’t being possessive by saying “You’re mine, you belong to me.” we still expect their romantic attention to only be on us. If your boyfriend gets caught kissing another girl you’d be pissed. If they had sex with another girl that’s a break up. Then if you’re married that’s a whole damn divorce because you expect them to only pay attention to you. What if it was different, would it be okay to cheat on your partner as long as you came back to them? 

“I’ll pass no offense.”, I giggled helping Yixing pull out the chairs. I’ve had enough threesomes with Taeyeon and Baekhyun. Could you even call it that when the focus was always on the two of them.

 Even being in that so called poly relationship I realized those aren’t perfect either. You still want attention and affection, watching one of your partners constantly make love and spend time with the other, while only kissing you and telling you they love you every once in awhile isn’t enough. You want more because we’re selfish in the end our jealously gets to us and… that’s okay.

“Why would that be an offense, I’m a grower not a shower.”, He insisted and I did want to think about the size of Kai’s penis.

“Okay let’s change the subject I do not want to think about the size of your penis Kai.”, I muttered staying closer to the edge of the boat looking over the poles and down at the sea.

“I’m being serious Yixing is decent when soft but I’m telling you, get me hard and I’m huge.”

“Kai that’s enough.”, Yixing muttered disgusted with the current conversation about the size of his penis. I mean I’ve only ever since Baekhyun’s dick and you can’t go of the size of porn stars so, I had no room to judge.

“Remember that stupid scene from the Titanic where Rose was supposedly flying.”, I chuckled remembering the scene since I had one of my feet lifted on the poles looking down at the water.

“Hey, that wasn’t stupid it was romantic.”, Yixing pouted while Kai walked over to where I was standing. He lifted his feet onto the poles hovering over me.

“Come on I’ll show you.”, Kai smirked rubbing on my shoulder. Sighing I lifted my other foot fully on the poles, this just seemed so awkward to me.

“I don’t see the point of this.”, I mumbled Titanic was my favorite movie when I was younger but once I re-watched it as a teenager that bitch, knew she had enough room for him.

“That’s because Kai isn’t doing it properly.”, Yixing chuckled before lifting his feet onto the poles wrapping his arms around Kai’s waist lightly.

“I’m flying.”, Kai shouted right into my ear throwing himself into a fit of giggles.

“I still don’t see the point of this.”, I groaned turning my head towards the two men. Yixing just chuckled while an evil smirk appeared on Kai’s face. His grip around my waist loosened on one arm and tightened on the other.

“This will make it more interesting.”, He chuckled raising his arm lifting my chin towards him causing our lips to meet. I didn’t tense up yet, I still didn’t kiss him back. Still there was no reason for me to push him away. His lips pressed deeper into mine while his nails dug into my chin. After a few moments he pulled away with a large grin plastered on is face. Looking behind him Yixing stood with his cheeks flustered with a hint of irritation in his eyes.

“Don’t just kiss her Kai damn you’re way to comfortable with her.”, He scolded letting go of Kai’s waist gently grabbing my arm helping me back on the boat.

“It was just a kiss.”, Kai chuckled jumping back on board winking at me before laying back across the beach chair he sat in previously. 

“I’m surprised you didn’t try and stick your tongue down her throat.”, Yixing huffed swiping his thumb across my lips to remove any scent of Kai.

“Hey, don’t wipe off my love.”, He shouted playfully slightly lifting himself off of the chair. Yixing wrapped a thin silk like piece of fabric around my waist tying a slight knot before adjusting it.

“What are you doing?”, I asked curiously it’s not like I was wearing a cheeky bathing suit. I was actually wearing a one piece since I still wasn’t sure how accepted bathing suits were in Korea. It didn’t bother me honestly because, I never liked wearing bikinis it just felt like I was walking around in bra and panties.  Still, it didn’t really matter since it’s a new era and things are slowly changing in Korea.

“Oh, don’t think anything of it, I thought the color went well with your swimsuit.”, He smiled a small blush rising on his cheeks before itching the back of my neck.

“He’s marking his territory.”, Kai interrupted the small moment with his comment. “It’s so obvious he might as well piss on you.”, He giggled when an offended gasp came out of Yixing’s mouth. I knew he wasn’t trying to which is why I didn’t get pissed.

If I’m being honest with myself I don’t know how I ended up following my mother’s footsteps. I was well aware of the fact that children who saw their parents being abused could go down the same path so, I desperately tried to make sure that never happened. 

Ever since I was 14 I had this strong desperation of being in control of myself. If someone told me what to do or how to live, even if it benefited me I got so upset. Once my mother was joking and said “You’re mine, I own you.” and it pissed me off. We got into a huge argument about it whether or not she was my mother or guardian I’m in control of myself.  We all are, if you choose to let someone control you then that’s on you but, when someone tries to force control it irks me.

“No, it’s not like that at all.”, Yixing said firmly snapping me out of my thoughts his eyes searching mine for any doubt. I giggled and pinched one of his cheeks smiling in Kai’s direction.

“I know you would never do anything like that.”, I chuckled before fully turning towards Kai who held a smug look on his face. “But you would, wouldn’t you? Now I have to be careful around you because of that little kiss.”, I spoke as Kai got up from the chair once again strolling towards Yixing and I. Once he was a few feet away he draped his arm around my shoulders.

“Come on, it was a joke don’t take away my fun.”, He said with a pout  on his face.

“Don’t get too close.”, Yixing warned standing closer behind Kai and I. I knew what was coming next, Kai is a piece of shit who liked pissing people off.

“Leave us alone aren’t we a thing now Y/N?”, Kai asked me with a playful glint in his eyes causing me to roll mine. 

“Stop being a pervert, Kai.”, I groaned pushing his arm off of me getting ready to snap on him however, his lips connected with mine once again. It was any different from the first kiss Kai was just being an ass.

Except this time when I pulled away Taeyeon and Baekhyun stood there

and he was pissed.

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Could I request a woozi fluff scenario? just anything you come up with i just want fluff 😂

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Genre: Fluff

  • You’re getting ready for your date with Jihoon
  • You and Jihoon don’t get dates that much because he’s dedicated to composing songs for Seventeen
  • “Jihoonie you should rest your song are great-”
  • “No they deserve only the best!!”

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Choices - Part 3

Originally posted by nctiful

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4

Genre: angst, fluff

Pairing: Mark x Reader, Johnny x Reader

Word Count: 2k

*REQUESTED* Can you do a scenario where you are Mark’s classmate in college and he likes you, whilst Johnny who happens to be an upperclassman but was your tutor back in high school likes you too? And you are kinda torn between them and don’t know who to choose. You can put her up with anyone toward the end, your wish. I just want romance with both of them being into her and confusion on her part. TIA ❤

Johnny walked with you and your friends to the other side of campus, to your dormitory; Melissa and Mark walked behind you. Though you didn’t know it, Mark burned with jealousy. He wanted to be the one walking with you. You weren’t holding his hand or anything special, but he was still feeling jealous. He didn’t know for sure if things would escalate between you two or not after tonight but he was still uneasy, nonetheless. It seemed like he might like you. Either that, or he just had a flirty personality.

Johnny said, “I’m glad you came out tonight. I didn’t know you were into parties and stuff.”

You nodded. “Well I don’t think I’ll go out every day of every weekend but I like to party sometimes.”

“You were much quieter when we were in high school…”

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Q: When I read about The Killers, a lot of times I sense an attitude of condescension from writers who think that they’re too good for The Killers or above it. Is that something that you feel being in the band?

Brandon Flowers: Yeah, my wife calls it “keyboard bangers.” No offense to you. She sees me when I let it get to me. And it’s frustrating. There’s so much history and I do this to myself already, when I have to write a record, I think, what do I have to offer? How can I compete with everything that was done in the ’50s, ’60s, ’70s, ’80s, and ’90s? It just starts to really weigh on you. And I feel like a lot of journalists … You don’t know how anything is going to really play out. I just know that we should know how these songs make us feel right now, and we hope that that resonates with our fans and that they stay in the truck with us.

Ronnie Vannucci: I don’t feel writers are especially condescending. We were just looking at a Metacritic review, and this has been our highest critical acclaim record thus far. And I remember we were darlings, we were at the tip of everybody’s tongues when we were just babies coming out with Hot Fuss. My point is, your world, your literary world as you call it, is filled with mostly people who aren’t interested in the betterment of music or the escalation of art. They are in it to get a personal foothold for themselves, to make themselves seem clever. And I know this. My best friends are writers. Ted used to be a writer. I know how it works. And I’ve been doing interviews for 16 years; it’s how it is. That’s how your world spins; that’s how it goes. And if people really dug in and really examined it and were a little selfless about it, you may not feel that way. (Interview for Consequence of Sound)

Poor Brandon! Protect him! Go, Ronnie!

First "I Love You"

“Favorite childrens book?” Y/n asked, taking a forkfull of pork fried rice into her mouth.
“Easy. The Giving Tree, by far. It’s the best childrens book of all time.” Harry answered, wipping his hands with a napkin as he nodded in reassurance.
“See, I disagree.” Y/n stated, gulping down her pork fried rice as she shook her head slowly, “The Giving Tree is thought to be a great book, because it’s one of the very first love stories any human being ever has a chance to hear about. Although, it is not love.”
Harry’s mouth fell open, a playful gasp escaping his lips as he held onto the fabric upon his skin dramaticly, right upon his heart.
“Not love? So you’re sitting here, telling me, that The Giving Tree doesn’t resemble love? Are you human?”
Y/n giggled, giving him a playful push with her shoulder and she wipped her mouth with the side of her wrist.
“Yes, I am telling you that, and yes, I am human.”
Harry sighed, returning his gaze back to the television as he hissed in disappointment, shaking his head. He took a quick look back at Y/n, who was staring at him with a smirk on her face. He looked away immediately, forcing himself to give her the impression that he’s mad at her, even though they both know he isn’t.
“Exaplain to me how it is love then, Harold” Y/n challenged, turning her body fully to his direction.
Harry lifted his arm up in the air, creasing in his eyebrows as if he was clueless to her question.
“I don’t know, maybe because the tree gave the little boy her everything. She was willing to do anything for that boy, anything. Even over the process of like, I don’t know, 60 years of their lives going by and the tree was still giving him all she had. She never gave up on him, ever.” Y/n put her lips into a line, holding back her laughter as she tried to make serious conversation with him.
“You are such an idiot,” Y/n chuckled, covering her mouth with her hand as she continued to laugh carelessly, “if you think that that’s true love.”
Harry raised his eyebrow, now turning his body completely toward hers, now looking straight at eachother.
“Yeah? And how is it not true love, Miss Y/n?” He asked, spitting out the last few words as is he were disgusted to say it.
Y/n laughed, taking the challenge happily as she stared straight into his eyes.
“The tree giving the boy everything. That’s how it’s not true love. The reason she gave that boy everything was because he was the only thing on this entire planet that had interacted with her. That was the first person to give her all the attention that she wanted, all of the things she had wanted since she was grown into that beautiful looking tree. So, because that boy gave her that attention, that’s when she thought that maybe, just maybe, she loved him enough to sacrifice everything that she had. She gave him her apples, gave him her braches, gave him her leaves, and what did the boy give? He gave nothing. He just took and ran away with it all. No, she didn’t stop giving him all of her because she was so infactuated with him, and how much attention and happiness he had given her. But he didn’t care, did he? He never did, he just took and took and took until there was nothing left of her. How is that true love? It’s not, it’s life, it’s how all life works, and there’s no stop to it.”
There was a silence in the air, and Y/n lifted her feet up to his criss-crossed legs, shaking her feet slowly as she looked at Harry, whom was looking at her with such love. She could feel the tenderness of his eyes carress her face as she admired the way he had looked at her.
She was so alive to him, and he never realized how open she was. He never realized how much she understood what life really was about. She was observant, and so awake to the world that it was something he admired, and something he felt so guilty about, because he had never noticed it before. “But I would give everything up for you, and I love you. Isn’t that love?” Harry whispered, gliding his fingertips slowly along the underside of her leg.
Y/n smiled, sighing in contentness as she allowed her neck to hang to her back.
She had never heard him say those words, and hearing them now was like a melody. She never thought she would ever be in this position, of truly loving somebody. But she is, and it was something now that she could never get enough of. “It is. It is love because I would give you the world back, and because I love you, too.”

anonymous asked:

Can you write one with Matt Murdock and 42, 60 and 16? Thank ya ^_^

Characters: Reader x Matthew Murdock

Warnings: this is sad

Prompts: 16: “I’m going to kiss you now.” 42: “You make me feel like I’m not good enough.” 60: “I’m afraid this conversation is going to end in goodbye.”

Word Count: 441

A/N: hi i love matt

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Loving Matthew Murdock was hard

You knew all about his vigilante business. You were probably the first one Matt trusted enough to tell. And you never stopped him, no matter how scared you were about him. You knew what he was doing was right.

But that didn’t make things any easier. 

You always looked forward to going home, back to Matt’s apartment, after a long day. The two of you had completely separate jobs, so you didn’t see each other during the day. But you always came home to each other and either goofed around the kitchen trying to make dinner or just cuddling on the couch.

Matt was coming home less and less. 

You knew he had gotten closer to Karen, the woman who had joined his law firm. That didn’t bother you too much – you had met Karen once when you visited Matt’s office to bring him some papers he had forgotten, and she seemed nice enough. But then when Elektra arrived… everything seemed to fall apart.

It was obvious Matt still had feelings for her. He still loved you, you knew that, but that wasn’t enough for him to disregard his feelings for Elektra. You had met her once, when she broke into Matt’s apartment, and you could feel your heart stop when you saw her. Matt had mentioned a girlfriend from college, but you didn’t expect her to be so… so perfect. She was stunning, confident, and from Matt had told you, an excellent fighter.

How could you compete against that?

So as the two of you stood in the kitchen, arguing over Matt’s feelings for Elektra, you finally blurted, “You make me feel like I’m not good enough.”

Matt froze, the shock evident on his face before he cleared his throat. “y/n, that is not my intention-”

“I know it isn’t, Matt,” you bit your lip to stop her from crying. “But you still love her, don’t you?” 

Matt rubbed the back of his head, scrambling to find a response, but you shook your head. You moved past him into the bedroom to gather your stuff, but Matt grabbed your arm. “y/n, please stay. W-we can talk about this.”

“I’m afraid this conversation is going to end in goodbye.” you whispered, and Matt’s hands began to tremble.

“I’m going to kiss you now.” he suddenly said, and before you could protest, Matt pressed his lips against yours. It felt wonderful, like you were reliving the first time he had kissed you.

But the sadness in your chest was still there.

Pulling away, you shook your head. “I’m sorry, Matt. This is still goodbye.”

You guys tired of Abelas yet?


So.  I had some more thoughts.  All of this (or at least the parts that are my theories) are based on an Inquisitor that romances Solas and drinks from the Well.  But, feel free to respond with any theories at all.  Be forewarned.  There are possible spoilers for the end of the game, for Trespasser, and all of this is very unorganized.  So, I’m putting it under the cut.

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anonymous asked:

Can you recommend some beginner pets? In terms of lizards, salamanders, newts, snakes, turtles and frogs. Basically anything, hamsters, rats, birds. Looking to get a pet, but I only have knowledge in fish, dogs and cats. Hoping for things that stay on the smaller size too. Thank you!

Oh boy, this may be a long post!

“Best” is a really bad term to use, actually. Because there is no one “best” reptile or animal to begin with! What it really boils down to is: The space you have you can dedicate to the animal, your budget, whether or not handling is important to you, personal preference in appearance, personal preference about vivarium/enclosure looks, how long you can care for the animal (example: Will you be able to care for your tortoise through high school when you go away for college, and after you have kids? Because it will be around through ALL of that!) and your confidence level. Think about things like what you’ll do if you go on vacation, will you be able to afford vet bills (yes, even for hamsters or frogs!) what you’ll do if you go to college, etc. All of these animals are commitments (For some animals, over 60 years!) and NONE of them are to be taken lightly. You can’t just get rid of an animal when it becomes inconvenient, or if you get bored with it, or if it suddenly becomes a burden. You COMMIT yourself to that animal. You are that animals SLAVE until IT dies of natural causes. Be prepared for that.

What is a great choice for one person may be a horrible choice for another person. Example: Fence lizards are hardy, inexpensive, and small! However, they are not lazy lizards who like to be held. Handling isn’t good for them at all, and they’ll dart away when they can! But everything else about them makes them GREAT for beginners!

Also, these lists are not comprehensive! There are other species of lizards and snakes that may be great for you, however I’ve spent enough time on this already and I can’t possibly be bothered to list every single one. But this should definitely be enough to get you (or anyone reading this) started!

Lizards (I wrote an in depth list here) :

Snakes (also wrote an in depth list here)

Turtles (Turtles by definition NOT good for beginners! Get a smaller easier reptile if you haven’t had any before. DON’T go out and get a Red Eared Slider! But, if you DO decide a turtle is in your budget/space/commitment leve, here are some better species to start out with.)

Tortoises: (Same as turtles, by definition tortoises are NOT good for beginners! Get a smaller easier reptile if you haven’t had any before. DON’T go out and get a Sulcatta! All tortoises need strong UVB, indoor/outdoor enclosures, specialized diets, and a ton of space proportionally! However, if you DO decide tortoises are for you, these are some better species to get.)

Salamanders:

Newts:

Frogs:

Small Mammals (Beginner hamster guide here. Also, I specifically left out rats because they demand MUCH larger cages, much more time, almost always result in vet bills as they age, and are in the long run much more expensive. If you’re going to do small mammals, start out with a mouse, not a rat.)

Birds (I put ALL birds on this list hesitantly… there is nothing “beginner” or “easy” about caring for ANY BIRD. Birds take a lot of commitment, time, effort, money, and space! They are also LOUD and potentially destructive! Will you still want that bird when you have a baby? What if you move? Think of stuff like that! These animals live to be at LEAST 20, for most species it’s WAY beyond that- into their 70’s!)

How to Lie to Your Therapist

Walk into your session with the conviction that you’re not going to say anything. There is a part of you that knows that this plan will never work, that there’s something about sitting down on plushy chair, diagonal from a woman who makes you believe that you know her, that forces words, unsatisfied until they’re spoken, out of the back of your throat. You don’t believe in epiphanies. You think they’re plot devices, and you’ve had too many false ones to ever give another one weight. But, a part of you swears that if any more epiphanies are destined to happen to you, you’ll blurt them out yourself as you stare at a small, numberless clock sitting on an equally small desk, backed up against the wall directly across from your chair. There’s something about clocks without numbers that always irked you. You always need to spend an extra second staring at them.

Think back on the events of the last week, and convince yourself of where they stand in the hierarchy of all the weeks before this one. There are weeks that contain events worth discussing for $60/hour, and there are some that are worth spending that $60 hour in complete silence. You hate silence, but you try and convince yourself that you like it anyway. Your friends say that you hate silence so much, in fact, that you’ll ramble about anything just to fill it. When words stop spilling from your mouth, however, that rambling retreats into your brain, a constant flow of unrelenting introspection. These are the times that you wish you still had the skill of being able to lie to yourself.

Weigh the costs and the benefits of spilling your guts. You have perfectly crafted speeches committed to memory about the importance of emotional vulnerability, each tailored to the individual that received it. In the moments that you deliver these passionate addresses, you genuinely believe what you’re saying, and if you’re lucky, your audience doesn’t sense an ounce of hypocrisy in the logic you build up from its foundation. The argument you create reminds you of a new home in the suburbs. Beautifully constructed, and entirely empty.

Think back on the times that emotional vulnerability ripped apart your insides. You hated how much that pain made you feel alive, and how you craved the return of that feeling the moment your conversation found its natural conclusion. Tell yourself that this time will be different, that this time won’t sting in a way that reminds you that you’re human. That instead, it will only break you down and refuse to build you back up again. Remind yourself of your personal fortitude. You are strong enough to not give into the aching desire to admit to how this week has shaped you.

Decide in the next moment, the moment you sit down in that plush and the clock ticks numberlessly in front of you, that the actual definition of strength is knowing when to lay your feelings bare.

Approach the topic from an angle. When you try to get directly at the issue’s heart, you decide that there’s too much context missing for your therapist to understand it at all. Spend twenty minutes establishing that context. Go on tangents off of tangents, until the story that you’re telling gets so rich that you get lost in its details. You will pause halfway through retelling an anecdote about your friend’s life that you heard three days prior.

“What was the point I was trying to make?” you’ll ask. Your therapist will stay silent as you gather your thoughts, as she has been for the bulk of your story. A few seconds will tick by on the clock across from you as you backtrack through your last three important items.

“Oh, yeah,” you’ll finally say, and finish up your friend’s anecdote with a rushed sentence, suddenly aware that your session is more than a third over.

When you finally get to the essence of the issue, your sentences stop coming in a flood and begin to stutter. You will start five before you can even finish one, modifying that beginning word again and again, because it never matches the way that thought ends. Finally, a fully formed sentiment escapes from your lips. You instantly feel ridiculous for vocalizing it. You wish you had enough clichés about your parents or your childhood, or a laundry list of vices, that justifies why you sit, week after week, in this chair across from this woman who makes you understand so much while revealing so little. The urge to apologize overwhelms you, but you suppress it. In at least three of those memorized speeches, you have a nice paragraph about why you should never apologize for your feelings. Instead, you settle on a compromise, and the well-worn phrase, “but I don’t know,” ties up your story with a sad little bow.

Your therapist takes in a breath and starts her response off by calling you by your name. You wonder if this personal touch is intentional or habit. She validates your pain, and asks you if you believe that your pain is worth validating. You say nothing. Inside your brain, the rambling returns. It argues with itself about whether or not to contradict a therapist with a master’s degree. You remind yourself that you never have a problem correcting your professors, and they also have master’s degrees, but something about literary analysis and economic theory feels ten times more subjective than the weight of your own pain. The same logic that constructed architectural marvels of arguments begs you to believe her. It tells you how every fact lines up with her words, and how she is one in a long list of outsiders saying the same thing that you cannot accept as truth.

Weeks before today, you decided that you don’t pay $60/hour to lie to your therapist, even if every week you come in with the conviction that you’re going to do that anyway. So, you sit in the silence that you hate, and picture what that clock face would look like if it just had numbers. Your therapist seems so practiced in silence, still and patient, that you cannot look at her. Finally, you shrug and repeat your “I don’t know” just to fill the air, and a minute later, press yourself to come to some kind of conclusion. You don’t believe in epiphanies, but you do believe in deductions.

You tell her that your emotions and your logic fight each other, and expect it when she asks you why you think that is. This is the conclusion that you’ve drawn, in various reworded forms, for weeks now. You can tell when the session is over because your therapist gives a special kind of sigh, and she asks you, in a question that seems equally like a reminder, whether she’ll see you next week. You tell her she will, and she asks if you’re okay. You’re always okay, relatively speaking, but you wonder what would happen if you told her no, in this moment, that you weren’t okay, and that you didn’t think you were ever going to be okay again. But there’s a weight in your stomach that feels oddly like relief, so you assure her that you’ll be fine, gather your things, and leave. On the bus ride home, your lips and your mind are silent.

I am less than 60 followers away from 1k???

Like where did all of your people come from??

Thank you all so much for following and supporting my rambles, drabbles, oneshots and unfinished stories. You don’t know how much you all mean to me.

In honor of 1k, I’ll be doing a small prompt contest. Between now and the time I hit 1k, if you submit a prompt and mention it’s for the contest, it will go into a list of received prompts. Myself and a group of friends will look through the submitted prompts and choose our 3 favorites.

3rd place will get a 1,000 word (minimum) one shot.

2nd place will get a 2,500 word (minimum) one shot.

1st place will have the choice between a 5,000 word one shot or a two parter.

(I say minimum, because, let’s be real, you all know how I get.)

You MUST MENTION that it’s for contest when submitting!

Again, thank you all so much for following me! Every single one of you mean the world to me and I hope you continue to enjoy my content! ❤️

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Let’s Talk: How to play a character under the influence of marijuana

With marijuana becoming more acceptable in modern society, there are more people dabbling in or recreationally using marijuana… but what does a stoned person act like? This article is going to tell you. Let’s talk!

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prompt list

1. “i told you not to fall in love with me”
2. “i’m tired of being your secret”
3. “go on, tell me. tell me you don’t love me.”
4. “those things you said yesterday… did you even mean them?”
5. “i think you’re just afraid to be happy.”
6. “if you don’t want to talk about it then say so. don’t lie and pretend to be fine when we both know you clearly aren’t.”
7. “let him go! it’s me who wants you!”
8. “let him go! it’s me who you want!“
9. “my parents asked about you again.”

10. “oh my God. you’re in love with her!”
11. “are you okay?” “why do you ask?” “you’re wearing two different shoes.”
12. “when you love someone, you just don’t stop. ever. even when peoples top to roll their eyes or call you crazy… even then. especially then!”
13. ”i know you told me to stop thinking about you, but i can’t get you out of my mind.”
14. “i’m not going to apologize. i can’t anymore.”
15. “just marry me already.”
16. “did i stutter?”

17. “did i just say that out loud?”
18. “hey, i’m with you, okay? always.”
19. “you come first.”
20. “i’m tired of being second place.”
21. “daddy.”
22. “daddy.”
23. “you’re really pretty.”
24. “are you theodosia? because you should blow me.” “excuse me?” “away. you blow me away.”
25. “we already have four dogs.”
26. “you need to eat something.”
27. “my dad just died.”
28. “i can’t lose you.”
29. “screw you” “i’m trying to!”

30. “you know my name?”
31. “you were - no. you are the greatest thing that’s every happened to me.”
32. “what are you doing up so early?”
33. “you did what?”
34. “please don’t go.”
35. “none of this makes sense.”
36. “none of that matters anymore.”
37. “to us.”
38. “is that a challenge?”
39. “if you walk out that door don’t you dare think about coming back.”
40. “i made the mistake of falling in love with my best friend?”
41. “this was a mistake to you?”
42. “i cannot stand you.” “then sit down.”
43. “you are so infuriating!”
44. “at least let me take my pants off first.”
45. “just be my best friend right no2. not the person i just confessed my love to.”
46. “make me.”
47. “well if you insist.”
48. “we’re not just friends, and you know it.”
49. “wait, right no?”
50. “well, we’re running out of time.”
51. “are you jealous?” 
52. “i think i grabbed your coffee by mistake.”
53. “please shut up! just shut up, okay?”
54. “i had a nightmare and i just wanted to make sure you were okay.”
55. “are you bleeding?”
56. “stop looking at me like that!”
57. “i’m going to kiss you now.”
58. “i trusted you.”
59. “am i supposed to be impressed?”
60. “whatever it is, i didn’t do it.”
61. “don’t tempt me.”
62. “i’m in public.”
63. “are you flirting with me?” “have been for the past year but thanks for noticing.”
64. “do you regret it?”
65. “i’m so proud of you.”
66. “i’m pregnant.”
67. “you smell good.”
68. “is this seat taken?”
69. “how are you?” “fine, thanks. and yourself?” “okay, meeting is at seven?” “you aren’t talking to me. you are on the phone. this is awkward.”
70. “you’re a shit cook.”
71. “mario kart?“
72. “you have no idea what you’re talking about.”
73. “you can’t be jealous if we aren’t even dating! man up and ask me out if you’re going to act like that.”
74. “i really hate periods.”
75. “you’re telling me i could’ve been doing this for years?”