and he also looks really handsome in this video so that's a plus

  • first things first: everyone likes jun
  • every fashion designer, fragrance brand, magazine company, etc. wants him to be associated with them
  • like not only is he Attractive and Photogenic and Looks Good In Everything, but he’s so easy to work with?????
  • like he’s so polite and nice to everyone
  • rumor has it that one time he let a set designer wear his own shoes bc her heels broke…………what an aNgel
  • he also never complains about the shooting conditions
  • i mean sure it’s the middle of february and he’s outside posing shirtless but ?? all smiles
  • bc jun loves his job
  • most of the time
  • he loves meeting new people and posing in front of cameras and shooting commercials 
  • but it’s sO physically demanding
  • like he has to diet and fit into clothes/shoes that aren’t his size and walk runways and contort his body in order to “express poulet épicé
  • and he has to deal with all kinds of people,,,,,,,,,,,ehem,,,,,,,,the press,,,,,,,cough,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
  • (one time @ an interview for a cologne commercial he did with a female model, jun went off bc the guy asked jun “what do you want to accomplish by the time you’re 30?” but he asked the girl to choose between lipstick and mascara)
  • but fr
  • he feels so lucky to get to wake up everyday and model for a living
  • jun’s rly thankful to everyone that he works with too
  • like he brings coffee to the shoots a lot and says good morning to everyone and asks how they’re doing
  • and someone’s he’ll get a lil frustrated but when has he taken it out on other people? never! not once!
  • he’s rly professional but in a Friendly way u feel?
  • he tries his best to do everything in a timely manner so that everyone “can go home to their families……or beds…asap” :’-)))))))))))) so sweEt
  • sometimes he hums to himself and everyone is like………..thats it……..this boy is god…….he can do everything…………
  • he also likes to joke around on set sometimes and every once in awhile….it gets him into trouble
  • like jun ur cute but no u can’t ride ur skateboard near the Expensive Props and no u can’t do kung fu in the Middle of the Dressing Room
  • speaking of cute, a concept: wen junhui timidly asking the director if she can play like fergie or britney spears during the photoshoot
  • it’s funny tho bc he acts all flirty and confident but someone calls him cute?????? his face gets all pink and he does That Thing where he hides his face in his hands 
  • junhui is so precious
  • no one talks shit about him in the model industry because like?? 1) there’s no need to he’s such a sweetie and 2) they know that There Will Be Consequences 
  • not just from jun’s fans either
  • from people he’s modeled for and worked with
  • everyone: excUse yOu jun is oUr ChiLd seE you iN cOUrT biNch
  • back 2 the fans tho juN LOVES HiS FANS sO MUCH GoSH
  • he does like ig lives as often as he can and interacts with ppl on his twitter and weibo and takes pictures with anyone who asks
  • this boi even has a fanpage dedicated to him wearing black,,,,,and another dedicated to his airport fashion,,,,,,,,,,,
  • anywHo, everyone that hasn’t personally known jun for more than like 5 hours thinks that he’s very Chic and Sexy and Classy and all that other High Class stuff
  • but HE
  • IS
  • A
  • DORK
  • his apartment is full of snacks and anime posters and gifts from his fans and a pile of video games and fashion/modelling inspiration lazily taped to the walls
  • he has a gudetama silverware set and uses plushies as bookends
  • jun is..hesitant..abt having the boys over bc yeah he Adores Them but they eat all his snacks?? and he’s still embarrassed from the time they,,,,,,,,,,,found his collection,,,,,,,,,,,,of products that feature him,,,
  • one time he wore a rilakkuma dust mask to a convenience store and the media just like……….had a heart orgasm….like how can this kid get any cuter……
  • his favorite times of the year are fashion weeks bc he gets to go to a lot of them and interact with likeminded people and get inspiration and exchange business cards with new companies
  • he’s notorious for his seoul fashion week outfits because he does the same color schemes every year but the outfits are always so,,,,,,,different,,,,,,,,from last years??? like how did he do that???? (a: jun is a genius)
  • there’s also tons of pics of him with other models/fashion ppl because he’s friends with everyone and likes to treat everyone to food or drinks
  • and yeah he likes hanging with those ppl but the svt bois r his Tru Bros
  • he’s always trying to convince them to let him talk to some photographer he knows bc like “but !!mingyu ur so handsome and Leggy and you’d look so good in a beige beret “ and “c’mon joshua u would look perfect posing with these textbooks you embody Studious”
  • also likes to drag the8 around with him to premieres as his plus-one or to shoots as his hype-man
  • when jun’s backstage at shoots or runway shows, he’s usually perched in some place not meant for sitting in, (i.e., the floor, between clothing racks, the makeup counter, etc.) reading a book nonchalantly and eating one of the chinese snacks his mom sent him
  • and everyones like ??????wheres jun??????
  • usually if the8′s with jun they beg him to like,,,corrall jun,,,,,,,somewhere near the makeup artists and hairdressers,,,,,pls,,,
  • but today everyone on set is not so lucky 
  • bc when jun walks in, babysitter!the8 is not by jun’s side
  • u let out a small sigh bc
  • ur a makeup artist @ the company jun does ads for frequently
  • so you’ve worked with jun Quite a few times he knows u pretty well and plays with ur hair or looks thru ur makeup stash while he’s waiting
  • however ur usually the one that has to Track Jun Down™ when the8′s not there,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,luckily tho u know most of his lil hiding spots (he denies the phrase ‘hiding spot’ but lets b honest jun)
  • so everyone’s setting up and prepping the different shots and ur getting all the palettes and brushes and powders set out on ur half of the counter when ur like……………”hey kyulkyung,,,,ur hair stuff is all set up,,,,wanna go look for jun while i finish setting up” n she’s like “niCe trY nOpe……good luck.”
  • so ur Off
  • it doesn’t take u that long until u find jun sprawled out on two armchairs in the breakroom with a pepero in his mouth and the latest issue of céci in his hands
  • and ur like “jun cmon we gotta get ur makeup done” and he looks over his shoulder before being like “hEy it’s y/a looking as cute as ever” as he rolls onto the ground and ur like well,,,,,,,,he’s greasy. as usual.
  • u get jun in the seat and get to work and whenever u tell him to close his eyes he’s like “sorry i can’t help it ur s-” “jun i’m going to poke ur eye out next time if u don’t-” “oKAy continue”
  • jun and kyulkyung start chatting in chinese as usual and u don’t rly notice until kyulkyung starts looking over at you and jun keeps giving her looks and ur like ???????okay???????
  • u finish jun’s makeup and hand him the mirror and he’s like…..nice nice but can u like….make my eyes pop a bit more..
  • and ur hesitant like “jun if i do anything that the director won’t like he’ll like go off on me don’t u remember the time i gave u a light red lip tint because we were out of pink and he almost fired me”
  • juns like “i’ll take responsibility ok just dO it noob”
  • ur like ok fine u highlight the inner corners of his eyes and lightly line his under lash line but after that ur like ok thats it no more i like my job
  • jun thanks u before he moves over to kyulkyung’s seat to get his hair done and u go sit on the couch and go thru ur phone and kyulkyung is arguing with jun in chinese,,,,,,,,,,,,,nothing out of the ordinary tbh,,,until kyulkyung starts making kissy noises,,,,,and ur like ?????????????loser????????????
  • when jun’s finally ready the shoot start immediately and u and kyulkyung are cleaning up ur stations a little when kyulkyung’s like
  • “y/a wanna hear a secret~”
  • u don’t even nod or anything she’s just like “okay lmao great u might wanna take a seat for this”
  • long story short: kyulkyung spills jun’s beans and tells u that he has a massive crush on u and ur like lmao ok sweaty and shes like rEally look @ this text jun accidentally sent me last thursday and u read The Message and ur like oh shit…………………………………..yEs tho. yay. my longest yea boi ever. this is rly good. frick.
  • and later the two of you go out to see how the photoshoot is going and ur standing right next to the camera man and jun smiles at you between a pose before focusing again and ur just kinda like……this boy is too cute……fuck it…… u catch his eyes and u mouth the words “i like you too”
  • after the shoot, jun bows to everyone quickly before almost tAckliNg u in a hug and kisses your forehead and he’s like :-))))))))) good :-)))))))) ur mine now thx let’s go get coffee :-)))))))

My Make A Wish Meet and Greet with Misha:

I’m not really the type of person who usually likes to talk about myself, but this was one of the most incredible things that’s ever happened to me and i want to be able to share it with my fellow supernatural fans. Bear with me, this is gonna be long:

So for those who don’t know, the Make a Wish Foundation grants wishes for children with life-threatening illnesses or conditions. We registered October 2013 and I decided my wish was to meet Misha. I’m a pretty shy person, i suffer from some moderate social anxiety and i don’t do too well with meeting new people, so naturally i was scared shitless to come face to face with one of the people I admire most in the world. I was half convinced i wasn’t gonna be able to do it at all, so i was naturally freaking out when we went up to the room where the meet and greet was supposed to take place.

The room was occupied so we had to stand outside for about 10 minutes before we were allowed to go in, and the whole time i was convinced Misha was gonna walk around the corner at any second and I would be completely caught off guard and probably fling myself over the balcony. He did not come swooping around the corner, but we did have Matt, Sebastian, and Mark Pellegrino walk right by us (when Matt walked by i was trying to pour myself some water and i was so surprised I just gave him a dear-in-headlights stare and very slowly turned right back to pouring my water).

We were finally let into the room where i could now hyperventilate in private. I barely had what felt like ten seconds before i heard a voice at the door saying “is this the make a wish meet and greet with Misha Collins?” at which point i backed myself into a corner and started repeating “no no no no i need more timeee!!!”

Then before i even realized what was happening he had walked into the room with this beautiful smile on his face and he said hi all happy and all i could think was “oh fuck. that’s him thats fucking him. The real deal, that’s Misha, he’s here.” and guys. Let me tell you. No picture can do this man justice. He is so gorgeous, he is radiant, he glows, he is just so fuCKING HANDSOME I COULDN’T EVEN BELIEVE IT. It felt so odd to see him in front of me, its hard to explain. it was like “its you, and you look the same, but more REAL.”

So i was still partially in my corner when the volunteer from Make a Wish pointed in my sort-of direction and said “This is Ms. Hannah” and my mom was standing kinda close to me so idk what happened really here but Misha walked up to my mom and was like “Hello Ms. Hannah” and like idk if he was kidding or?? and my mom was like “no, no, I’m the mom, that’s Hannah” so he walked over to me and I shook his hand, but he was apparently still confused about the whole Ms. Hannah thing cuz he kept talking to my mom (and me too kinda but i wasn’t really able to respond) and he held onto my hand the whole time. His hand was really warm (and mine was freezing) and soft and big and just really HUMAN feeling. It was actually really surprising to me (even though it shouldn’t have been) how normal his hand felt? like “oh its just a guy hand, ok.”

At this point I had managed to reign in my freak out and had reverted just to shy me, the one who kinda doesn’t know what to do and talks really quietly. He took a seat then invited me to sit down as well, asking me some little things about myself, where we live and who in the family watches Supernatural, which I stumbled through answering with help form my mom and sister. He mentioned again how scared he gets watching supernatural and said “I can’t watch more than two episodes or I’ll have nightmares!” which is absolutely adorable in my opinion, but anyway.

To me the conversation seemed to be going ok, but the Make a Wish volunteer spoke up, saying “so Hannah has some questions for you…” which kinda through me for a loop cuz suddenly I had to decide which question i wanted to ask and how to ask it and my brain was really NOT working, but I did finally manage to get some questions out, so here’s what I learned:

  • He used to really hate watching himself onscreen, would always be seeing his mistakes and going “what an idiot!”, but now he has gotten better and can watch things and go “ok, that was alright.” Still, he only ever watches things once. 
  • Things he particularly didn’t like were crazy Cas, he hated either NCIS or CSI (can’t remember, sorry I was in a daze), and Charmed.
  • He said the role on Charmed was supposed to be a recurring character, but apparently he did such a bad job that didn’t end up happening.
  • Also said it was his first time acting on a set, so he really didn’t know what was going on. They kept telling him to hit the mark and he was like “who’s Mark and why do I have to hit him?” the only plus side was he did a kissing scene with Alyssa Milano and she slipped him the tongue. 
  • Before he started acting he and Vicki owned a software company. Some guy had offered them a million dollars, they were sure they could make more than that with a software company… it didn’t work out.
  • He doesn’t really let West and Maison watch very much TV, but they get scared of almost anything anyway. They tried to watch Frozen and West was crying within the first ten minutes. He said it’s very cute but also sad (he did the thing where he starts laughing before he tells a funny story and his nose crinkles). 
  • The only thing they really like to watch is Rio (Rio 1, not 2 cuz that’s too scary), My Neighbor Totoro (which the kids make references to all the time but Misha doesn’t get cuz he hasn’t seen it), and National Geographic videos of volcanos erupting (which evidentially is not scary at all while Frozen is..)
  • Vicki is convinced that West is a lefty, but Misha’s not sure cuz he has seen him use both his left and right hand for things. 

A lot of what he said was stuff I had heard before, and especially in the beginning I’m gonna be honest and say I wasn’t fully listening to most of it, my brain was very much offline. I think I managed to remember the rest pretty well.

After my first question he asked me how I had come to choose him for a wish. I started to explain how it all began in 2011 when I was diagnosed, which started this whole conversation about my condition (which I’ll not talk about in detail here. if you care to know you can message me). I told him the name (which is very long and medical), which led to some three minutes of him trying to spell it with much difficulty.

The whole time I was explaining my situation and how it makes me feel physically he had his very concerned “awww” face on (you know the one) that was absolutely precious. It was at this point I really started to loosen up and become much more comfortable. I have talked about my condition so much that I fell into a rhythm and it made me feel oddly better that he reacted to the information the exact same way everyone else did. He has such a big heart, the genuine compassion he had for me and my family was so evident, even though he had just met us. He said “I’m so sorry you have to go through that, I’m sorry to have brought things down.” In truth I was glad it came up, though I wish I had been able to fully answer his question about why I chose the wish. I’m frustrated with myself for being unable to articulate this at the time, but his attitude towards life and all that he’s been through is part of what allows me view my condition in the most positive light and deal with it the way I do.

After that we talked a bit more, and by this point I had become more my normal self, except now instead of being shy-nervous I was excited-nervous, so my questions came out a little too perky (or at least they seemed that way to me). We mentioned that we had bought a photo-op with him and Mark, and he said “yes, that starts very soon” (it started at 1:25 and it was currently around 1:05). I could tell he was stressed and tired and short on time and the amount of appreciation and gratitude I felt towards him increased 10-fold.

I asked my last question and Misha got up to sign the stuff we had brought, including a drawing I had done of chibi Cas. He told me it was great work, and I’m sure he’s received hundreds of other things that were much better, but I blushed anyway and said thank you super quietly.

We then took pictures against the wall, which are not as good of quality as I would have liked them to be. The room had this gross yellowish light and the pics are really zoomed out so when I cropped them they got all grainy, but I fixed them the best I could.

We started out with just me and him, and I really wasn’t sure how intimate I was supposed to be. Because I’m so shy I tend to maintain an amount of distance with people I don’t know very well, but he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and drew me in real close, squishing his face right up against mine. His face was so close and I was having a hard time really comprehending that it was MISHA with his face pressed up against mine and I needed to enjoy this as much as possible. I could definitely feel his scruff, and I leaned into his face as well. He is very solid and human-feeling and a lot taller than me.

After we finished I stepped back a little and looked up at him with a big smile on my face (half from pure joy and half lingering from the photo) and he was smiling back down at me with the most gentle and kind expression. That was the deepest connection I’d felt with him the whole time, and it was like it finally clicked and I was like “this amazing thing just happened with MISHA COLLINS!?!?!?”

My mom and sister came and joined us for a few more pics, and the very last one we took was a “silly pic” (I’m really bad at those so I beg you to ignore me in that one), and after that pic was taken he jumped into another silly pose like he thought we were gonna take another one, and almost in response to him doing that I said “oh, we’re not doing another one?” and he looked back at me with another beautiful smile, either cuz he knew I was kinda covering for him or cuz he had been thinking the same thing and we were like on the same wavelength.

He then gathered up his stuff and as he was walkng out he came to give me a hug. My head fit perfectly right over his shoulder and he squeezed me so tight and held on to me a lot longer than I expected him to, but it was such an amazing hug. While I was hugging him I said into this ear “Thank you so much for meeting with me” and I felt him nod and he said “Of course.”

I saw him again twice at the convention. Our interaction in the photo-op room was brief of course, but when my sister and I walked up he said “Hello again, Hannah” and leaned his head on mine in the picture. Then when I got my autograph from him he greeted me with a fond smile. I thanked him again for meeting with me and told him how much it meant to me, in response to which he wrote “Hannah, it was an honor to be chosen to meet you. Be well.” on my photo, which served as the perfect cherry on top of the most amazing weekend of my life.

A simple thank you feels so insufficient to express my gratitude toward him and the time he took to make my wish so special. The time he spent meeting me could have been his resting period or an opportunity to call home, but instead he spent it making me happy, and I will never be able to express how truly and utterly wonderful this man is and how very grateful I am to have been able to meet him.

Thanks to anyone who took the time to read this, I know it was long, but a lot can happen in 25 minutes! If anyone has questions or wants to talk my ask is open, and please don’t repost any pics without including the source!