and god help me i love dressing up

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160116 ✧ park bogum’s first fanmeeting (© bbogum0616)
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“thank you, seriously thank you so much. God bless you. I love you.”
“who am i.. (that the fans gave all gathered for)”
(fans start singing “you were borned to be loved, and you are receiving that love through your life” while bogum keeps crying)
thank you. I sincerely thank fans who came in such cold weather. my family, thanks to whom I was able to grow up this well (starts crying again)
my parents and my family, I love you. thank you to /upper management staff names/ that helped me to make my dream come true; to kwangjoon-ie hyung who’s always beside me; to /names of cordi staff/ for dressing me in such pretty clothes. ah.. I really don’t have anything else to say but that I’m thankful. I will do my best and keep working hard - as much as the love that I have received, so that I won’t disappoint you* and be able to repay you all. I somehow feel like it (the fanmeeting) was too short** and a bit regretful, but I’ll be waiting until the day where we can meet again.. and I’ll be going now.
I really do love you all. God bless you, and I hope you are all healthy. I’ll see you again next time! thank you! thank you to all the staff who worked hard as well!

*Bogum’s voice was shakey from his crying, so this part was a bit muffled.
**the fanmeeting lasted for 3 hours…
5

Make up test for Celestia.

I was really honestly considering not cosplaying to the con my friends/family are going to this weekend. Being fat and a cosplayer is one of the hardest things I have ever done.

I always feel like my cosplays have to be 150% better then average just for me to be /allowed/ to Cosplay. I also have to make from scratch most of my Cosplay items because no where sells anything close to what I could modify in my size (my husband does a ton of successful thrifting for supplies).

I have been mistreated, heckled, been posted about on reddit, and even assaulted at cons by assholes.

This has to stop. We are playing god damned dress up!

My confidence has been so low lately that I wasn’t feeling it. Even the idea of being Rose, a character who I am “allowed” to be fat as sounded awful and scary.

But I am not going to let anyone take this thing I love away from me. I also want to help normalize fat femme bodies in the Cosplay community (size bullying doesn’t happen nearly as much for masc folks in the Cosplay community).

TL;DR do what you love and don’t let anyone tell you that you don’t belong because you are fat.