I self-ship myself as well and I think that is something acceptable to do. But idk it hurts me so much to realise that they are not real, y'know? Like everything you imagine of them, is not real??That everything is just in your head. And if you ever ( actually never ) happen to meet this person, what if they don't like you? You can never know since they are fictional... I'm sorry if I complain about it but i just wondered if you sometimes feel the same and if yes, how do you cope with it?
there, there, anon. i know real life is hard sometimes, but yeah, i do have those thoughts sometimes!! i think everybody in the community has those thoughts from time to time, but you know what? i just refuse to believe them. your faves LOVE you, and even if they didn’t, then that means that they just didn’t deserve your greatness and big ol’ heart full of love.
don’t let yourself get discouraged and go into a rut. your f/o’s at the very least would want you to love yourself and know you’re deserving of all the love in the world. just because it isn’t real doesn’t mean that it’s not real, you know? if it makes you happy and contributes to your life, then that’s all you really need.