Can we all just take a moment and realize what life would of actually been like if Connor didn't kill himself? I mean Connor was the only one to sign Evans cast and he even said "let's pretend we both have friends" he knows that Evan isn't a very social person and can't make a lot of friends either so Connor would most likely go back to Evan from time to time. Evan would feel a little awkward at first but would probably start to confide in Connor, thinking of him as a support system and the only one there for him and Connor would think the same about Evan. After time I bet they would become best friends and probably be bullied by everyone. They would go through times where they feel like they should just go away and not live anymore but they would never do it without telling the other first because they know that the other is going through the same thing and that they will know how to help. Soon they would start dating. They would secretly think of themselves as the perfect pair while everyone just looked at them and say "those freaks are meant for each other!" But they know why they are the perfect pair. It's because they can trust one another and can be there for one another and they know that if one of them decides that they want to leave and forget all the pain in their lives the other one would never be the same. They will both stay strong for each other. For forever.
- has sectoral heterochromia in the lower left of his left eye
- is really tall
- is fairly well-built, no visible abs but defined pecs for sure
- has skinny legs, oddly skinny legs, but they’re great
- lost weight JUST to play Evan, so Evan is not chubby (although i do LOVE that HC)
- even though he got skinnier, he definitely has a chubby face
- is 5'10 which is decent, but still kinda short
- obviously his lower lip is bigger than his upper lip and i’m living for it
- IS CHUBBY SO CHUBBY SO CUTE
- is 5'7 so Jared is shorter than Evan
- also has sectoral heterochromia!! in the right side of his left eye!!
so yeah when drawing Jared, Evan, or Connor keep those in mind please!! just wanted to make this because those three are easily the most drawn
Can we just let people enjoy things, please?? Let Hamilton fans blast the songs and sing along. Let the DEH make Connor is alive AUs and draw him with flowers in his hair. Let Heathers fans ship JD and Veronica. They are literally not hurting anyone?? As long as they recognize that Hamilton/Connor/JD/whoever are all still horrible people and their flaws are not forgiven then??? Why are you so against people having fun. Let them make stupid jokes and let them ship their stuff and get over it. Just because you’re bitter and decided that you can’t like anything that other people like it doesn’t mean that you have to hate on other people’s fun. Let them enjoy things. Don’t be a prick.
I have strong feelings about this musical but let me tell you one thing even tho no one will probably read this…
Evans ´´mission´´ to feel confident at that day was: Get another kid to sign your cast!
Now, he asked both of his only friends and ,ok, Alana was not saying ´´No.´´ , she just walked off. But Jared asked, why Evan wants him so sign his cast, and…didn´t sign it too.
And that pretty much was it for Evan cuz, why the hell would he ask any other person? The only two he alredy knew just…didn´t want to, so why would a stranger want to? (Likely he wouldn´t even be able to ask any strangers anyways..)
So, but Connor ok…
Yes, Connor was a dick by pushing him in the beginning(even tho we all know he has serious issues) , but srsly, why was he in the computer room thingy in the first place? Maybe coincidence, sure. But, what if Connor maybe was there to apologize?
I mean, he didn´t had to ask what happened with Evans arm. He didn´t had to ask if he could sign the cast. He didn´t had to speak with Evan in a calm or any way at all! Heck, he didn´t even had to take Evans letter from the printer to bring it to him! He just did. Because he wanted to.
And you know…I think for that short moment, Connor was maybe waving back at Evan. And thats something not even his Friends at that moment did.
SO THATS JUST MY THOUGHTS AND THATS WHY I DREW THIS hhhhh
AND SINCE YOU ALL FUCKING LOVE THIS, I MADE ANOTHER COMIC LIKE THING LIKE THAT! Why not check it out… here –I mean you don’t have to but…if..if you like this then…yeah.. ;v;
-Zoe is referred to as “that perfect girl”; she’s smart, pretty, likable
-Connor, on the other hand, is referred to as a psychopath, crazy, and a freak. He has no friends, he does drugs, he disappoints his parents
-Maybe the main reason Connor wasn’t close to Zoe was because he envied her perfection
-She was probably favored by their parents because she was the ‘normal’ one
-Connor assumes If it had been Zoe who skipped school and did drugs, their parents would have did everything the could to help her
-He wishes he could be the perfect kid, instead of the son who’s falling apart
-So when he meets Evan, a part of him dares to hope that maybe they could be friends
-But then he sees his perfect sisters name on the paper and his heart drops
-Of course this kid that he kinda liked, who he might have become friends with, of course he loved Zoe. She was perfect, he was not.
-Even if they did become friends, how would he know it wasn’t just a way to get to Zoe? What if once Evan had a way to talk to her, he drifted away from Connor? Because why would he hang around Connor, the freak, when he could be with Zoe, the perfect, perfect girl?
-So he snaps and yells at Evan and runs off
-He can’t escape her. He’s always compared to her, by their parents, by teachers, by other students
-Who would ever love him when Zoe was superior to him in every way?
(Help dig deeper into the characterization of Connor Murphy with The Connor Project)
okay listen,,, “a little bit of light” means so much to me and absolutely should not have been cut because it’s the one song that actually paints connor (the real connor) in a decent light.
“All those demons that wouldn’t let up, that kept dragging him through the dark. but there were moments he had moments with a little bit of light in those moments, he was happy he was trying still to fight and maybe the battle he fought wasn’t won but at least there were days when he let the light in in those moments, a little bit of light ….
he used to love jokes! when he was a little boy? ‘why did the chicken cross the road?’ he had a million answers to that one!
i remember picnics and little league and sundays at the zoo, i remember how he smiled the years of trick or treating, my spiderman, he stood at 4 foot 2 such a happy child but it seemed like i woke up one morning and my sweet little boy he was gone something had switched off the light and it seemed like it never really came back on”
I can barely listen to this song without bursting into tears because its just so accurate in its portrayal of what its like to develop a mental illness at a young age. connor was a good kid, he was happy, and then his mental illness developed and he wasn’t the same kid anymore. this song shows that he trying, that he was able to rally through some days and still have moments where he was genuinely happy. it fleshes connor murphy out into a better character than the entire rest of the show does, and lets you in to see the type of person he was before his mental illness took over his life. he loved telling jokes!! do you know how much it means to me to know one of things his mom remembers about him the most is that he used to love telling jokes??
obviously connor had his flaws (like every single other character in the musical) but ultimately he was just a good kid struggling with mental illness who couldnt make it through, and this song screams that point
Yo could you share some of your headcanons for the deh kiddos :O ?! I'm really curious!!
*cracks knuckles* HEADCANONS UNDER THE CUT (these are generally feel-good and going off of a Connor Lived And Everything Gets Better AU set of ten [+ one extra] headcanons for the kids where they’re all friends)
If they all had journals I would definitely want to read them all. Also, I didn’t draw Jacob or Evie because I haven’t played or seen how they act (And I also haven’t really seen Arno but I just went with my French instincts)
For the french people: Je suis vraiment désolé pour ce stéréotype sur les Français, à propos de la baguette et du “Sacrebleu!”. Mais ça me fais toujours autant rire.
The scene where Connor and Evan meet in the lab is one of the most intense for me because I can just see both of them struggling so hard and they’re just on opposite sides of a coin trying to figure out how not to fuck this up and they’re both on guard and towards the end we see Connor really trying by handing him the letter but he sees Zoe’s name and his wall shoots back up and suddenly he’s on the defense again and it just feels so hopeless Because they were THIS close to maybe having somebody who could be there for them and the miscommunication just ruins it all and so many things could have been different