Empty Home (Youngjae)
Request: Can you do a scenario with B.A.P’s Youngjae when he thinks you’re cheating on him because your ex keeps texting you so he thinks something is going on between the two of you. Can it have a lot of angst? Thank you😬
“Just tell me why the hell he’s texting you?” Youngjae growls “I don’t know” you told him for the seventh time now. “Every time you say that I know you’re talking shit” he spoke as you rolled your eyes. “I asked you a simple question. Why can’t you give me a real answer?” he almost yells “I gave you a real answer asshole” you shout at him. “It’s not my fault you’re an untrusting dick head” you yell at him. “Yeah? I can’t trust a fucking slut” he yells back as he took a deep breath and the two of you glared at each other.
“You told me that you would never be that guy” you told him as you grab your bag “yeah you told me you deleted your exes numbers as well. Looks like we’re both liars. What you keep them just in case someone dumps you? You need someone to crawl to?” he told as you clenched your jaw. “I’m done with your shit Youngjae. You’re a idiot no matter how it plays out” you said heading to the door and slipped your shoes on. “All your shit. Get it out of my apartment. I’m done” you told him as he went wide eyed. “What?” he said you ripped the chain from your neck and threw it at him, your first year together he bought you an expensive neckalce and had yojr name carved into it and everything. “I’m not fighting for a relationship with a guy who can’t trust me enough to know I wouldn’t cheat on him” you finish slamming the door shut.
You came home hours later seeing that the apartment was locked and the lights were off. You unlocked the door and the hardest thing you had to deal with happened. The amount of things that Youngjae kept here made a difference. His jackets weren’t on your rack. The shoe shelves were nearly empty. Pictures were off the wall of the two of you and were shattered in the trash. Your hand went over your mouth as you walked down the hall more seeing all the little things he left in the hall were gone. It was just so empty.
Opening the door to your bedroom you saw the closet was wide and his clothing were ripped from the hangers and they were everywhere, he didn’t bother cleaning them up. The bed no longer had the bear he gave you for last your, the one that played his voice when you missed him enough to squeeze its paw. Your couple shirt was laying on your bed as a way to mock almost.
The bathroom was no better. He took his products shampoos and even his tooth brush. He didn’t seem to miss a thing. You stripped yourself down and climbed into the shower. Turning on the water you let it hit your face as you back in the cold wall and you fell to the floor. You sobbed into your knees. You spent 4 years with him and he didn’t go after you, didn’t trust you, and didn’t leave much of a trace of himself in your home. It felt like you actually wasted four whole years of your life with someone who never loved you.
Once you were done you stepped out of the shower and grabbed a towel wrapping it around you before heading to the mirror to see how puffy your face had gotten. You looked at yourself closely before you noticed the ‘I love you baby’ on the glass in his handwriting. He liked to leave messages on the mirror for you so when you took a steamy shower you could see them. You let out a shaky breath before your hand hit the mirror and you feverishly wiped it from it. You let out a scream as you slacked the mirror ‘he was mocking you so much’ you told yourself as you saw how bad you looked and sighed deeply.
‘Youngjae announces his break up with girlfriend of 4 years’ ‘BAP’s Youngjae says bye bye to girlfriend after 4 years’ many articles and comments were attacking you now as his fans told you that you were never right for him and they thought he was only with you to make you feel better. Others said you were too ugly for him anyways, most of them were calling you names and very little cared about you in the end. You questioned what you should do with yourself now. You were hated and scared of what judgment would come once you stepped out of your apartment. But you couldn’t hide forever. Youngjae had to become your past and you had to be yourself alone again. 'You didn’t need him’ you promised knowing it was a lie but you had to tell yourself something. You needed to move forwards.
Youngjae laid on his bed in the dorm after not having the energy to move for days if felt as he played with the necklace he gave you. He felt so stupid for not trusting you, he was jealous and called you thing he didn’t mean. His eyes welled up as he opened the necklace up and looked at the picture of the two to you on your first date all those years ago. The little 'I’ll love you forever’ he had done meant so much more to him now as he closed it and clutched it close as he rolled into his side and let out a silent sob into his pillow.
He had so much planned for your 5 year that was only months away. He had the perfect ring picked, the perfect place, and the words he was going to say already done. But he no longer had a use for any of them now. He was alone and he didn’t know if he was going to be okay. He wasn’t used to being single anymore. He never wanted to be single again. He let out as much as he could onto his pillow as he let himself drift off into a almost dreamless sleep.