and also my life is a permanent

does anyone else especially with bpd feel like they’ve just literally faked all their mental health problems, like nope I’m making up my breakdowns and I’ve never actually been depressed a day in my life??? what is the truth???

This piece holds a special place in my heart and resides in our permanent collection. Created over 1 year ago for someone who also has a shark filled heart. I look back on this piece and think of how we have grown together and continue to figure out this crazy game called LIFE! Here’s to a long future of love, friendship, endless ocean views, and sharks for the rest of our days.


when you can’t talk about your symptoms when you’re not experiencing them because your lack of emotional permanence makes you forget what they feel like and you feel like a faker, but you also can’t talk about them when you’re feeling them because you’re too depressed/anxious/feel like everyone hates you, so you just internalise everything until you have a breakdown ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Scott McCall AU

Plot: Any permanent mark your soulmate gets, you get. Along with a distinct, unique tattoo that appears after an important moment in your soulmate’s life, however, you have no idea how you get away clean

A/N: So I really don’t see a lot of these Soulmate AUs with the Teen Wolf fandom, or at least the tags I check don’t, but I’ve decided to write a series, which will finally get me on track for my writing schedule and hopefully inspire future imagines. Also this is a pretty long one… so enjoy!! AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!!!!


When you were younger it seemed you found new scars on yourself every few months, sometimes 5 a month. Your parents were constantly worried but once they realized that the scars appeared on below your elbows and knees, they just figured out that your soulmate was clumsy.

“I wonder what this kid does all day…” Your dad used to tell you.

“I bet he’s a superhero.” Your mom used to tease you, just to see your tiny cheeks warm.

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So. Hamsters are commonly kept in way too small cages with ill suitable wheels, bedding and toys.

The set up you see above is about 80x50cm of unbroken floor space. This is the minimum required cage size. As you can see it’s much larger than crittertail sorry habitrails people commonly keep their hamsters in.
Hamsters are active animals that can travel several miles a night in the wild. They do not thrive in small cages, in fact it stresses them out and they develop issues like cage aggression, monkey baring, bar chewing etc. Would you like to live in a small room your whole life?

Also, most of the cages people use can’t even fit the stuff they need. Syrian hamsters need 11" wheels, dwarfs usually need around 8". They need to be able to run with their backs completely straight, if the back curves it will deform their spine and it’s just extremely uncomfortable for them.

Even the set up above is smaller than I keep my hamster in permanently, this is a temporary set up… Because again, this is the *bare minimum* required cage size but ideally you’d go even bigger than that.

Hamsters are more work than people realize. Hamsters are generally very neglected. Let’s change that.

Twenty-five was a memorable age for me for a lot of different reasons. A lot of things were kind of coming apart at 23 and 24. I was wrapping up The Hunger Games franchise that had been my life for so long. I was ending a relationship with somebody who I had been with for so long that I thought I was gonna, you know, be with forever. Just a lot of things were changing. That was also when I found out how much less I was being paid than my male co-stars and I got angry and I got focused. A lot of pieces came together when I was 25 that kind of changed me permanently.

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Request: Can I request a 1940s!Bucky imagine? Somewhere along the lines of “you’ll never love me, so what’s the point?” Kinda deal? Thank you so much!!

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A/N:  Thank you for requesting. Sorry this was so late! I’ve been really busy lately. Hope you all enjoy. Also my requests are open. You can send them/feedback/permanent tag requests here


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anonymous asked:

Do you know how someone can permanently open their third eye?

I do not.

It is important to note that by “Third eye” I am pretty much referring to “The Sight” / “Second Sight” as from Celtic and British lore. 

I also don’t believe we can permanently keep it open. Or rather, our eyes are already open.

Gaining the Sight is less akin to suddenly being able to see ultra violet light or something along those lines, but rather it is like your eyes adjusting to seeing in the dark.

With patience and time, your eyes will adjust. And much like the Sight, there are folks with better night vision compared to others. However with the life we live, we must eventually be exposed to light, thus undoing how our eyes adjusted to the darkness. 

In my experience, no one can have the sight 24/7, or rather not everyone has the sight as a 100% “I see every spirit around” sort of thing. There are variations, and even then normal day-to-day can cause our sight’s focus to fade to the spiritual and become more focused on the physical.  


I’m really focusing on plotted threads with characters moving forward with Harley during my time on this blog. I work best and write better with Harley when I know the world she’s in and her relationship with the other character—it really does help with any interactions I have with her.

So like this if you’re interested in writing/interacting with my Harley. I’ll (eventually cause my life is cray) come into your inbox for us to work something out. This also means you give me permission to spam you with memes, come into your inbox and/or drop starters for you. All of the above work in reverse when it comes to you/your muse interacting with us.

The only thing that I ask is that you a) read my rules and b) go over my verses for Harley. I will most definitely do the same when I message you because I would love to have ideas already brewing instead of just starting with “…”. Or if you have an idea, please feel free to come into my inbox like HOMG I WOULD LOVE TO DO THIS! That also works for me.

Please note this is for MUTUALS ONLY!

anonymous asked:

The one thing you're looking for now? Missing so to speak, that you really want in your life on a type of permanent bases... Also what's your star sign?.. this inquiring mind is curious. Thank you for answering.

Love and companionship. Someone to watch TV at night with in bed and run my fingers through her hair while she listens to my heart beat. Someone to wrap my arms and legs around at night and feel warm and safe and loved. Someone to talk to, listen to, laugh with, whisper filthy things to, plot and plan with. And of course, someone to enjoy other things with before we get to sleep and again when we wake up every night and day.

And I’m a cancer, which is kind of fucking ironic these days….

“Mom, before reminding me that tattoos are permanent, please understand that I will also have this disease for the rest of my life. I got inked today for my safety as well as my sense of pride. I’ve had a couple close calls, and wearing a medic alert bracelet every day is not practical. Although I don’t like labeling myself, and the word ‘diabetic’ should never define me, it is still a huge part of my life. I should not be embarrassed to tell people I am diabetic, but this tattoo will speak for me when I cannot. To be honest, I am somewhat ashamed that I didn’t get the words ‘type one diabetic’ spelled out and instead opted for the more discrete acronym. I also carefully chose a location where it can be easily covered by a watch during job interviews. I am worried less about being discriminated against for having a tattoo than I am for having diabetes. But I am trying to put my health first and increase awareness. If people don’t understand what T1D is, I hope they will ask me.”

Hi everyone! 
So, it’s been a while and I’m mostly letting yall know so you aren’t wondering, but I’m off tumblr now.. Not permanently but I don’t want to say hiatus cause I don’t really know if I’ll be back or not? This site has taken up alot of my life in the last 5 years and I need to stop being so obsessed with it. 
Again! I am not permanently leaving, but I will be off it until I feel comfortable coming back. I’m on a long extended vacation lol. 
I hope I’m not disappointing anyone or anything. I’m not going to say a goodbye or anything cause I doubt it’s forever XD but yeah just in case anyone cared or was wondering!
I love you all, my friends! Take care for the time being <3<3<3
(I’m sure I will have art in the future that I might want to post, but we will see!!)

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The background. LOLOLOL. ahhha. also you are pretty :)

The background is the source of much laughter at the lunch table at work. :-P

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I wish I could pull off glasses like that. You are beautiful! (and the view isn’t half-bad either!)

Aww, thank you, you wonderful person you! I’ve had glasses for most of my life (I got my first pair when I was four), so I never really think about whether or not I can pull them off. They’re just permanently part of my face, haha. 

And the best thing about where I live is that we are never short of nice water views!!:

My Thoughts on the "Glenn Howerton is Confused” Scandal

So I read one of the “Glenn Howerton might leave ‘It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia’” articles (This one) and, honestly, I have no fear.

Glenn is saying that artistically/creatively he doesn’t know where to go with Dennis. I get it. It happens.

He’s also signed on for at least two more IASIP seasons. So…

He might leave. He might stay.

If he leaves, I wish him well.

If he stays, I wish him well. 

Until we get concrete evidence that Glenn Howerton is 100% permanently leaving forever, I wouldn’t worry too much about it.

I’m not gonna let this news stop me from enjoying “Dennis’ Double Life.”


SU AU - a lot of ideas came from rjoyp and fayth-stone

Rapunzel - sunstone - she has healing pwoers and can use her hair as a weapon

Tooth - TITANIUM RAINBOW FLAME AURA QUARTZ CRYSTAL - the team leader - skilled swordswoman, she can also project holographic minions to aid in combat. She can read memories and look into past events with a lot of accuracy

Hiccup - cat’s eye tourmaline - basically he has Green Lantern’s powers but he’s half human so he can’t poof and he will age

Jack - blue barite - ice powers. Their gem is permanently damaged after being trapped in a frozen pond for 300 years, so sometimes cannot project their physical form properly

Merida - red jasper - highly skilled archer and has learnt sword fighting from Tooth. She is also the most physically strong of the team. She shapeshifts the most and enjoys eating and sleeping. 

Hiccup and Jack fuse to make Turquoise

My Turquoise ended up looking a lot like nagareboshi22′s Turquoise - I’ll remove Turquoise from this post if you want me to :)


Big news! 

The Nature Center rehired me! I applied a few weeks ago in a fit of panic (don’t ask) and they didn’t even have me interview! Just called me up last week offering the position with a $0.50 raise! 

But, being me, I didn’t want to quit the Zoo either…. so I’m now gonna be working only Sundays at the Zoo and Tuesday through Saturday at the Nature Center. Yes that only gives me one day off a week, but it’s consistent. Also, we’re getting out of the Army this year and moving back up North so I want to have a huge savings before then. If I work myself to dust then I work myself to dust. So be it. 

And, my Zoo supervisor talked to me after my shift today asking about my “life plans”. If that’s not a conversation that gets the heart rate up, idk what is. He was asking because he wants to offer me a permanent position. I’ve only been here a month, guys. Currently, I’m a seasonal. It broke my damn heart telling him I’m moving at the end of the year. But, he took note of when I hope to be back… I think I have a job if I ever move back down here! I’m trying to convince my husband to move back down here after we finish our degrees. I don’t really like where we’re from and I love where we are now. There’s so much to do down here and while it’s a very conservative area, the individuals are very progressive. If nothing else, everyone here loves dogs and hiking. 

So… yeah lots to think about. 

It makes me feel really good though that the Zoo likes me enough that they want to offer me a permanent position already. 

     “I never had children, so I wasn’t forced into any permanent box that required a long-term commitment and a formed life. I also didn’t have any careers—I just found jobs that I could make money at. I wanted to pay the rent and to play, to go explore different things. I’ve spent my whole life learning new things, and even though I’m living alone, my life is very full and rich. In some ways, it’s very selfish. I’m not working with children. I’m not educating young minds, or bringing people along on my journey.
     “But a long time ago, I decided I was going to walk out the door with complete strength and power over who I was as a person—not as a girl, not as a woman, not how I was supposed to act. I didn’t dye my hair when it started to change color when I was 21, even though women in the 1960s weren’t supposed to have any touch of gray. I’ve always felt that, because I refused to mold myself into what somebody else thought I should be or needed me to be, I’ve been a kind of warrior. I’m not trying to be a powerful person. I’m simply living up to my potential.”

     Portland, OR

i think one of my favorite lyrics on sgfg is “i’ve got one foot in the golden life and one foot in the gutter” because it’s like an acknowledgement of how their current lifestyle may not be permanent, and it sort of says that if they aren’t careful and work hard to reach their dreams, then they can still fail completely and end up living a miserable life. it’s also a way of saying that they won’t take their current position for granted and that they’ll keep working hard to make the music we all love. and idk i think it’s a really mature thing to write about and i just love sgfg and 5sos so much

Leaving is hard. Losing is harder. So a few weeks ago I asked the question, ‘why do people have to leave each other?’ The answer took me into some of my life’s deepest realizations and struggles. But it has also led me to wonder: After people leave, do they ever return? After something we love is taken from us, does it ever come back? Is loss permanent—or just a means for a higher purpose? Is loss the End itself, or a temporary cure for our heart’s ailments?
There’s something amazing about this life. The very same worldly attribute that causes us pain is also what gives us relief: Nothing here lasts. What does that mean? It means that the breathtakingly beautiful rose in my vase will wither tomorrow. It means that my youth will neglect me. But it also means that the sadness I feel today will change tomorrow. My pain will die. My laughter won’t last forever—but neither will my tears. We say this life isn’t perfect. And it isn’t. It isn’t perfectly good. But, it also isn’t perfectly bad, either.
Allah (glorified is He) tells us in a very profound ayah (verse): “Verily with hardship comes ease.” (Qur’an, 94:5). Growing up I think I understood this ayah wrongly. I used to think it meant: after hardship comes ease. In other words, I thought life was made up of good times and bad times. After the bad times, come the good times. I thought this as if life was either all good or all bad. But that is not what the ayah is saying. The ayah is saying WITH hardship comes ease. The ease is at the same time as the hardship. This means that nothing in this life is ever all bad (or all good). In every bad situation we’re in, there is always something to be grateful for. With hardship, Allah also gives us the strength and patience to bear it.
If we study the difficult times in our lives, we will see that they were also filled with much good. The question is – which do we chose to focus on? I think the trap we fall into is rooted in this false belief that this life can be perfect—perfectly good or perfectly bad. But that’s not the nature of dunya (this life). That’s the nature of the hereafter. The hereafter is saved for the perfection of things. Jannah (paradise) is perfectly and completely good. There is no bad in it. And Jahannam (hell – may Allah protect us) is perfectly and completely bad. There is no good in it.
By not truly understanding this reality, I myself would become consumed by the momentary circumstances of my life (whether good or bad). I experienced each situation in its’ full intensity—as if it was ultimate or would never end. The way I was feeling at the moment transformed the whole world and everything in it. If I was happy in that moment, past and present, near and far, the entire universe was good for that moment. As if perfection could exist here. And the same happened with bad things. A negative state consumed everything. It became the whole world, past and present, the entire universe was bad for that moment. Because it became my entire universe, I could see nothing outside of it. Nothing else existed for that moment. If you wronged me today, it was because you no longer cared about me—not because this was one moment of a string of infinite moments which happened to be tinted that way, or because you and I and this life just aren’t perfect. What I was experiencing or feelings at that instant replaced context, because it replaced my entire vision of the world.
I think in our experiential nature, some of us may be especially susceptible to this. Perhaps that is the reason we can fall prey to the “I’ve never seen good from you” phenomenon which the Prophet ﷺ (peace be upon him) referred to in his hadith. Perhaps some of us say or feel this way because at that moment, experientially we really haven’t seen good, because our feeling at that instant replaces, defines and becomes everything. Past and present becomes rolled up into one experiential moment.
But, the true realization that nothing is complete in this life transforms our experience of it. We suddenly stop being consumed by moments. In the understanding that nothing is limitless here, that nothing here is kamil (perfect, complete), Allah enables us to step outside of moments and see them for what they are: not universes, not Reality, past and present, just that—a single moment in a string of infinite moments…and that they too shall pass.
When I cry or lose or bruise, so long as I am still alive, nothing is ultimate. So long as there is still a tomorrow, a next moment, there is hope, there is change, there is redemption. What is lost, is not lost forever.
So in answering the question of whether what is lost comes back, I study the most beautiful examples. Did Yusuf return to his father? Did Musa return to his mother? Did Hajar return to Ibrahim? Did health, wealth and children return to Ayoub? From these stories we learn a powerful and beautiful lesson: what is taken by Allah is never lost. In fact, it is only what is with Allah that remains. Everything else vanishes. Allah (swt) says, “What is with you must vanish: what is with Allah will endure. And We will certainly bestow, on those who patiently persevere, their reward according to the best of their actions.” (Quran 16:96)
So, all that is with Allah, is never lost. In fact the Prophet ﷺ has said: “You will never give up a thing for the sake of Allah (swt), but that Allah will replace it for you with something that is better for you than it.” (Ahmad) Did not Allah take the husband of Umm Salimah, only to replace him with the Prophet ﷺ?
Sometimes Allah takes in order to give. But, it’s crucial to understand that His giving is not always in the form we think we want. He knows best what is best. Allah says: “… But it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knows, and you know not.” (Quran 2:216)
But if something is going to be returned in one form or another, why is it taken at all? Subhan’Allah. It is in the process of ‘losing’ that we are given.
Allah gives us gifts. But then we often become dependent on those gifts, instead of Him. When He gives us money, we depend on the money—not Him. When He gives us people, we depend on people—not Him. When He gives us status or power, we depend on, and become distracted by these things. When Allah gives us health, we become deceived. We think we will never die.
Allah gives us gifts, but then we come to love them as we should only love Him. We take those gifts and inject them into our hearts, until they take over. Soon we cannot live without them. Every waking moment is spent in contemplation of them, in submission and worship to them. The mind and the heart that was created by Allah, for Allah, becomes the property of someone or something else. And then the fear comes. The fear of loss begins to cripple us. The gift—that should have remained in our hands—takes over our heart, so the fear of losing it consumes us. Soon, what was once a gift becomes a weapon of torture and a prison of our own making. How can we be freed of this? At times, in His infinite mercy, Allah frees us…by taking it away.
As a result of it being taken, we turn to Allah wholeheartedly. In that desperation and need, we ask, we beg, we pray. Through the loss, we reach a level of sincerity and humility and dependence on Him which we would otherwise not reach—had it not been taken from us. Through the loss, our hearts turn entirely to face Him.
What happens when you first give a child a toy or the new video game he’s always wanted? He becomes consumed by it. Soon he wants to do nothing else. He sees nothing else. He doesn’t want to do his work or even eat. He’s hypnotized to his own detriment. So what do you do, as a loving parent? Do you leave him to drown in his addiction and complete loss of focus and balance? No.
You take it away.
Then, once the child has regained focus of his priorities, regained sanity and balance, once things are put in their proper place in his heart and mind and life, what happens? You give the gift back. Or perhaps something better. But this time, the gift is no longer in his heart. It is in its proper place. It is in his hand.
Yet in that process of taking, the most important thing happened. The losing and regaining of the gift is inconsequential. The taking of your heedlessness, your dependence and focus on other than Him, and the replacing it with remembrance, dependence and focus only on Him was the real gift. Allah withholds to give.
And so sometimes, the ‘something better’ is the greatest gift: nearnesss to Him. Allah took the daughter of Malik Ibn Dinar in order to save him. He took his daughter, but replaced her with protection from the hell-fire and salvation from a painful life of sin and distance from Him. Through the loss of his daughter, Malik ibn Dinar was blessed with a life spent in nearness to Allah. And even that which was taken (his daughter) would remain with Malik ibn Dinar forever in Jannah.
Ibn ul Qayyim (may Allah be pleased with him) speaks about this phenomenon in his book, Madarij Al Salikin. He says: “The divine decree related to the believer is always a bounty, even if it is in the form of withholding (something that is desired); and it is a blessing, even if it appears to be a trial and an affliction that has befallen him; it is in reality a cure, even though it appears to be a disease!”
So to the question, ‘once something is lost, does it return?’ the answer is yes. It returns. Sometimes here, sometime there, sometimes in a different, better form. But the greatest gift lies beneath the taking and the returning. Allah tells us: “Say, ‘In the bounty of Allah and in His mercy – in that let them rejoice; it is better than what they hoard.’” (Quran, 10:58)
—  Yasmin Mogahed, excerpt from Reclaim Your Heart

I remember being around 12 or 13 and it was my mom’s birthday, having no idea what to get her I walked into a store and knew there was no way to go wrong with a CD from the great Joan Sebastian. Tomorrow is her birthday again and I know your songs will make her really happy. I grew up listening to your music all thanks to my mom; I’ve learned to also love your lyrics. “Tatuajes” is probably my favorite, I love the symbolic meaning of this song and how it describes perfectly how a certain love or heartbreak can leave a permanent trace in one’s life- as permanent as a tattoo, simple but beautifully written. Today I’m sure the heavens rejoice at the arrival of such a great composer. Rest in peace.