and already regret that i did it

I don’t know when, why or where did your love for me go but I do know one thing for sure - it is gone.

And I’m not going to beg you to find it and come back to me.
You can go too.
You already have.
But now I’m letting you go from my heart too.
And my love for you?
It hasn’t turned into hate or resentment. Not even regret.
It’s just up in the sky like a star.
Our love is officially dead.
But it’s past is shining like it should.

Accidentally

I walked into the boss’s office.

“Do you know why I called you in here?” He asked but I already knew the answer.

“Because I accidentally sent you a dick pic” he grabbed two glasses and a bottle of wine

“Accidentally?” He asked while pouring the drinks

“Well yeah..Why would I send you dick pics?” I asked while trying to hide my face from view

“Come on buddy we all know why you did it..And frankly I like how your backing down now” He saw right through my lie.

What can I do now?! I could just get up and leave…Then again i dont think he’ll let me..And I know I sent those pics when I was still sober…But..I couldn’t tell him that I’m into guys he’ll probably fire me.

“John as your boss I suggest you tell me why you really took those pics” he looked right into my eyes

“They were for my…Girl?..Friend?” I said while heating my ass off

“Oh really?” He asked still looking at my face

“Yes…” The moment I answered he got up and walked to the mic for the building

“Everyone it 8:56pm it’s best you take this night off just with a 2% cut off from your check, ask why and I’ll deduce more Goodbye!” And within​ 2 minutes the whole office was empty

He walked up to me and said “follow me”

Even though I didn’t want to be alone with him because of my embarrassment, I went just because I can’t resist his voice.

He walked me to his car and told me to get in…He could be fucking kidnapping me but I know what to do in that situation. Maybe he’s gonna send me to those camps they make for ‘not raised right’ children. Who knows what’s gonna happen…But I guess I’m ready.

I didn’t expect to end up back at his house. What are we doing here?

“Why did you bring me he-” I was shocked really.

My boss…Well never know as the Evan Fong was kissing me.

It was so unexpected..But I wanted it so bad for a while

I felt my lungs burning up for Oxygen and we pulled apart.

“I knew you liked me from the start John..Just didn’t think you’d send nudes so fast” he said as we got out car.

I blushed at this wanting to punch him in his fucking hot ass face of his. Until he grabbed my waist and pulled me towards his hot body.

“How about i treat you tonight..And show you a good time” I looked at him his eyes were full of lust and he looked right into my eyes.

“ I wanna see what you got boss boy” I whispered in his ear

That’s when we forced into a kiss as he carried me to his room. He plopped me on his bed and started making out with me. The room felt heated. I wanted his clothes off now. I tugged at his jeans and he knew exactly what I wanted.

We stopped making out and I reached to take those cock blockers off.

“Why do you wear a fucking belt?!” I said as I finally got the dam thing off.

“I have to look professional at work” he said.

I don’t want him to talk about work..I wanted to make him feel good so he’ll k ow how much I loved him.

Down to only his boxers I saw him little snake came out the hole. I pumped him through those fucking clothes for a little bit.

“J-John..Stop fucking teasing” I pulled those boxers off in a swift movement and saw that his cock was quiet huge.

I grabbed it and pumped it, watching Evan look at me and moan. I stuck his cock in my mouth and started bobbing and giving him the best blow job of his life.

“F-F-fuuck! Jon…Yo-you really are fucking great” he said as he came down my throat.

“You taste fucking great Ev~” he pinned me to the bed and started making out with me again.

“Now it’s my turn” he said in between the kisses.

He started taking off my clothes while I took off his shirt. In the minute that passed, we were both naked making out like crazy. He stood up for a little bit and walked over to his nightstand.

“Lube of course” he said as he grabbed a red bottle and came back to the bed.

He was about to put the lube on himself until I grabbed it and pumped some on him.

“J-John your doing to much work let me d-do something for a while” he said as I finished up

“But you are my boss and boss’s do the big work” I said as he kissed me and layed me back down

He positioned himself at my entrance and looked up at me. I nodded blushing at how he cared. Then a wave of pain came through me as he went in. “Tell me when to move” he said as I cried out.

Finally the pain turned into pleasure and I nodded for him to move. “I’m don’t want to be too rough” he said as he started moving slowly. I moaned at how good it felt but I wanted him to faster. So I made him slam into me.

“E-e-Evan go faster” I moaned out.

He speeding up. Trust after trust until he hit a certain spot that made me feel so good.

“E-e-Evan right t-there!” I moaned out as he went harder in the same spot.

I was a moaning mess. “Evan oh right there!” He started moaning out as well.

“E-E-EVAN I m about to-” I said as I came onto our chests. He kept pounding into me for a little longer until he came inside me.

He pulled out and layed down next to me.

“T-that was fucking great.” I said as he put his arms around me while I layed on his chest.

“Round 2?” He asked me

“Tomorrow..Right now let’s just go to bed” he pulled me closer and pulled a blanket over us.

“I love you” he said as he kissed my cheek

“I love you too Evy~” I kissed his lips and we both fell asleep right there.

  • <p> <b><p></b> <b><p></b> <b><p></b> <b>Christophe:</b> [in a room and can't find Victor] this calls for drastic measures<p/><b>Christophe:</b> [using his hands as a microphone] YUURI KATSUKI IS AN AWFUL SKATER AND SHOULD RETIRE ALREADY<p/><b>Victor:</b> [from across the room] what the FUCK DID YOU-<p/><b>Yurio:</b> [leaping out of nowhere] WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY ABOUT KATSUDON, HUH? HOW FUCKING DARE YOU, HE'S A GREAT SKATER AND IF HE FUCKING RETIRES I'LL MAKE HIM FUCKING REGRET IT FOR THE REST OF HIS FUCKING LIFE<p/><b>Christophe:</b> <p/><b>Victor:</b> <p/><b>Yurio:</b> <p/><b>Yurio:</b> I mean I hate him<p/></p><p/></p><p/></p><p/></p>
RFA pickup lines ;)))
  • You: *sneezes*
  • Zen: I would say God bless you, but he already did.
  • You: B L U S H I N G
  • Yoosung: MC!
  • You: Yeah?
  • Yoosung: Can you hold this? *offers piece of candy*
  • You: *takes it* yeah-
  • Yoosung: *is now holding hands with you*
  • slim fucker
  • Jumin: I know you're perfect, but the one thing I would change is your last name.
  • Seven: Are you a hipster? Becoz you make my hips STIR
  • You: ..
  • Seven: 8D
  • V: *is already turning red* I'm not this tall, I'm just standing on my love for you.
  • Saeran: If I told you your body was hot would you hold it against me
  • You: What did you just say
  • Saeran: nOTHING
Analysis on the ending of Kimi no na wa (Your name)

WARNING: LONG ASS POST. SPOILER AHEAD. AGAIN. THIS IS NOT A SPOILER FREE POST. I ALREADY WARNED YOU.

Makoto Shinkai did it again. Kimi no na wa is a very heartwarming, tear-jerker, cheesy, and romantic movie. Unlike the other Makoto Films, Kimi no na wa has a “happy ending.” Yes, you will not feel any regret or pain after watching this movie. But still, it is a roller-coaster ride. The movie will make you laugh hard, cry like a bitch, and scream like a kid. It is one of those movies that will leave a mark to your heart.

Keep reading

“yuri on ice is just queerbaiting and fanservice to yaoi girls! remember free!”

listen buddy as a critical gay that enjoys good representation, i respectfully disagree with you, and no matter how much i will regret making a post about fucking anime here is your proof:

(high-def lips, hello)

(yuri has eyelashes, ie this is not a drill)

also hello did y’all forget #LoveWins?

anonymous asked:

Have you seen what the fandom is complaining about recently? I'm talking about Lea and how he "shouldn't be forgiven by Kairi because he doesn't deserve it". What do you think? Honestly, the whole thing is making me sad if not completely upset...

Yes, I’ve been holding my tongue because it really is leaning into the discourse ™ but it’s so gosh dang annoying so I will comment.

1) Lea deserves redemption, and forgiveness. Yes absolutely.

Did Axel do bad shit? Yes. He did. So did most of the other nobodies. But he also attempted to do good shit.

He took a hit from Saix so Kairi could run (Manga). In game helped Sora and apologised thru Sora for hurting Kairi. He has shown already he feels regret for what he’s done.

Lea meanwhile, sought out Isa, his best friend who he essentially disowned as a nobody right away, went and helped mickey while also pledging to use a keyblade. And saved Sora.

He may not be broody like Riku, but Lea is trying his best. The story doesn’t necessarily have to have him fall into a pit of despair to prove it. If anything, that would be even worse.

What I want Lea to show us is he isn’t Axel anymore, and to see him apologize to Kairi just like Sora told him too. Please. (I’ll be furious if it isn’t in game because it’s a big frikkin part of his development. Anyway.)

2) Kairi deserves the right to dislike Lea.

Knowing they’ll end up friends doesn’t mean that won’t happen, but it will be ridiculous if we don’t see it, because it’s another aspect of her character we’ve only seen in tiny bursts. Distrust, anger, forgiveness, understanding. And really, it will be detrimental to the development for both their characters if we don’t see it.

🤔

All that being said, I do think them being friends and KNOWING they will be is pretty much the greatest thing since the ffvii remake was announced.

It meanS we get a fucking awesome kickass red heads from radiant garden. And with Lea “too much fucking screen time” memorized around, we’re basically assured to get a hell of alot more Kairi in 3.

I think it’s a good thing for both their characters. Lea will be around someone that knows his shitty past and isn’t going to stand for bs, while Kairi will not only be off the island but with someone that isn’t going to let her get left behind.

The fact their not exactly the closest means we’ll have RIPE OPPORTUNITY FOR CHARQCTER DEVELOPMENT from both of them while they hang out. What class type is kairi? What eyeliner does Lea use? How did he end up a nobody? Does Kairi remember radiant garden? Are they going to get to do their own thing while Sora saves the world’s and Riku goes on a date with mickey??

The possibilities are not only endless, but exciting, and I’m not about to let fandom wank ruin my fun, and neither should you, anon. Take it for what it is and worry about the issues when 3 comes out. Have fun with their possible friendship. It’s what kh is all about.

@priestvictor made me post it. Yes i wrote it, beware it’s angsty


The church was calm, clean, immaculate and silent. Precisely too silent. It was unkind, and unfair. Silence should be relaxing, but all it did to Victor was punish him for banishing the sin from his church. Why? Why did it hurt so much? He was free from the incubus but guilt chained him.
Soon silence became memories, and the same scene that haunted him played again, words full of sinful wrath that only terrorized innocent lust.

“GO AWAY”
The shouts echoed in his head, sending chills through his spine.
“YOU’RE NOT WELCOME IN GOD’S HOUSE”
His whole body was still shook, how could he? What did he do?
“Victor I’m sorry I”
He was just playing like always… Tempting, seducing Yuuri. He was just being himself and..
“If you don’t disappear I assure you that you’ll never be able to get in this world ever again!”
He threatened him to hurt him, instead of forgiving him. Tempted by lust he ended up falling in wrath.
“NEVER RETURN”
And Yuuri didn’t came back.
The priest fell on his knees, hiding him the altar while liquid remorse started pouring from his eyes, never in his life he wanted to be forgiven this badly.

“One month.” He counted “It’s been one month”
He started to fear, did Yuuri eat? How was he? And most importantly where was he?
Demons aren’t supposed to love or to even care, maybe he did move on, maybe Yuuri already forgot him.
In just one month though Victor became a living, crying mess, managing to stay composed only during the Mass.
He couldn’t take it anymore, it was too much for a human being to bear, it was so much for HIM to bear, he didn’t care anymore, he needed Yuuri more than he cared to admit.

Running in simple clothing during the night he shouted the name of his lost lover, fear and guilt shaped his cries; he wasn’t a priest no more, he was just a human being, he was just Victor. And he searched, but with no avail, so he walked home, but he didn’t give up upon finding his beloved curse.
But a sudden uproar awakened him from his thoughts, making him turn, frightened.
And then he found him.
The demon fell trying to escape, his trembling almost naked body was too weak to make him stand, so he started to crawl.
“Yuuri..”
“I wasn’t in your house I swear, I’m sorry, please don’t hurt me, I just came back because I missed you, I’m sorry please.. I’m sorry I’ll never do that again, I’ll vanish like you said, please”
“Did you eat?”
“I.. what?”
“Did you eat, Yuuri? Please answer”
“N-No. I’ll die soon, so don’t worry about seeing me again” he sadly smiled.
Victor felt a sword made of emotions impaling him, a storm eating him whole.

He tried running to him, but his legs felt weak and he fell on his knees, but it was enough though have Yuuri near.
“I’m sorry” he repeated, moving backwards “I’m sorry, please don’t hurt me, please, I didn’t mean to make you angry” but the priest already took his wrist and pulled him close.
The confusion that the young demon felt only grew when Victor began to kiss him. Hard. On the forehead, on the nose, on the cheeks, on the lips. He didn’t stop, he couldn’t stop. He pulled him closer while the incubus regained energy, feeling the warmth of the priest’s body, the arm firmly placed on his hip, the other sheltering him with his coat.
He stopped to catch his breath, while tears started to fall, landing on the demon’s cheek.
“I’m sorry” he whispered “Please never leave. Never again”
Yuuri watched him shocked, lips parted, watching him in the eyes not even blinking.
And then tears just fell, and soon became sobs. The demon started clinging onto the priest shirt.
That night Victor learned that demons could love, and their affection was pure as angels’.

Joe Sugg Imagine - Got Lucky.

“No, Alan! Stop biting my cushions!” Joe ran after the little pug around his living room, making Zoe and Alfie burst out laughing. Zoe ended up picking her up and placing her on her lap to calm her down.

“Nala, baby, stop” she said sweetly, still laughing at Joe’s reaction “Be nice to Uncle Joe’s furniture” she said and immediately after she chuckled loudly, knowing how uncomfortable it made both men in front of her feel. Indeed, they were already making faces “Come on boys, it’s just a joke”

Joe ran a hand through his now ridiculously long hair, and sat down next to her sister, whose dog ran towards his lap not long afterwards. He stroked her behind her ears and turned to Zoe “How would it make you feel if I called you Auntie Zoe, huh?” He asked, immediately regretting he did because he already knew the answer.

And he wasn’t wrong with his guess “More than delighted” she smiled.

“Too bad it won’t happen for a long, long, long time” he said, relaxing on the sofa as Alfie sat down next to him with a glass of apple juice on his hand “Well, you never know” he said, sipping from his drink.

“I’m not even seeing anyone at the moment” Joe said as he felt his phone vibrate on the back pocket of his jeans.

“What about that girl you told me about…what was her name…was it Leigh?” Zoe asked.

“Jeez, that was ages ago” he said as he took his phone out and read the text he just got.

“Honestly” Alfie said “Don’t get me wrong, Joe, but do you even have feelings?” He said, mid-laughing. He had known him for years now, and he didn’t know of a single girl he had sincere and pure feelings for.

But Joe wasn’t listening “Guys, Y/N can’t come tonight. She promised Finn she’d go to his party, so” he said, putting his phone back on his pocket.

“Aw, that’s a real shame” Zoe said “I really wanted to see her. I really liked the video she uploaded today, that Q&A with her dad. Well, maybe tomorrow”

“How come you weren’t invited?” Alfie asked Joe.

“Finn and I aren’t exactly close to each other” the boy explained “Then again, neither is he close to Y/N. But he wants to get into her pants, so” Joe’s voice let out a slightly jealous tone. Zoe and Alfie looked at each other.

“Does she fancy him as well?” She asked her brother, giving her boyfriend a knowing look.

“Y/N? I don’t think so, but I’ve never asked” Joe said “I mean, it’s not like I care at all. It’s just that if he has to leave me out of that party in orden to try to flirt with her, it says a lot about him” He said without really thinking.

“Are you saying he wouldn’t flirt with her if you were around?” Zoe asked again.

“Well, me or Jim for that matter” Joe stated, matter-o-factly “I don’t get how she doesn’t see it”

“Maybe she doesn’t mind it” Alfie said, trying to push Joe’s buttons. He’d understood it all with Zoe’s glare; Joe was, if not totally, partially into you, and he wanted him to confess. You and him have been best friends for a ridiculously long time now, and it was obvious there was more than friendship between you. But neither were good with feelings at all, and it drove your friends insane.

However, Joe closed his eyes and hugged Nala tightly, as if missing someone’s touch. As if he needed so badly a hug, and said “Maybe”

When Alfie and Zoe closed their bedroom’s door, he let himself fall into the sofa. It was already 1 am, and he was wide awake. Joe opened Instagram and saw that Finn had uploaded a new picture. Before he saw it, he already knew you were on it. Essentially.

Not long after, he got a text from Jim asking if he was at that party with you. ‘Luckily not’.

 As the clock went round and round, like the wheels on the bus, he started thinking about the new collab he had to upload that same night. At first, you had agreed that Joe would upload his collab with you first, and then the one with Connor and Caspar that he had filmed the other day. However, the due date for the video finished in like, two hours, and Joe didn’t feel like pressing 'upload’ to said video.

So he did exactly the opposite of what you had talked about, and immediately after went to bed.

———————————————

Your POV.

The music was so loud I couldn’t even hear myself think. However, I easily felt the unmistakeable buzz my phone made when I got a YouTube notification. They were turned on only for a small amount of people, so almost as an involuntary move, I got it out of my purse.

ThatcherJoe has just uploaded a video 'WTF is this video | ft. Conor Maynard and Caspar Lee’

I immediately checked out my YouTube calendar on my phone and essentially, Joe’s video for today had to be our collab in order for me to upload our video later. Thinking it was probably just a silly mistake, I texted him. Then I realised it was 2 am and that he was likely to be sleeping.

I scanned the room for Finn, hoping I could find him easily and leave for home. I wasn’t exactly tired, but I had the slightest feeling that Joe’s move wasn’t an accident and I just wasn’t in the mood for techno music and expensive cocktails anymore.

After almost five solid minutes of looking for Finn, I finally found him at the balcony, laughing at who-knows-what with two other boys. As soon as they saw me, they left, leaving the two of us alone.

“Hey, Finn” I said “Thanks for inviting me, I had the best time” I smiled.

“I’m glad you did, love” he sipped on his brown drink. Love? Since when did Finn call people that? It reminded me so much of Joe, it made my stomach turn as I recalled the current video situation I was in.

I decided to ignore it “Sadly I need to go, gotta stay fresh to film tomorrow” I wasn’t exactly lying, but I definitely wasn’t planning on filming the next day.

“Bummer” he said, licking his lips. He caught me looking at them “But that’s fine. Maybe we could film a video together some time”

“Yeah, would be fun” I said. It wasn’t on my plans, but I really wanted to leave as quickly as I could. And saying no to that would only delay my plans.

“Alright, see you soon beautiful” he said, and before I could do something about it, his lips locked with mine in a quick, o-so-drunk peck which I didn’t respond to. I muted a confused bye and left as quickly as I broke our kiss.

Once I was outside, I intended to call an Uber when I found out that the Uber App had collapsed and that I didn’t have the slightest idea of where I was. I looked it up on Google Maps, but I still didn’t have a clue. I looked around. The streets were empty and dark. It wasn’t exactly cold, but I was definitely shivering. I only had two options.

The first one was to call Jim so he could pick me up. And so I did. About eleven tones later, I finally got to the idea that he wasn’t going to respond. It was already 2.30 am on a Friday, I didn’t blame him. Jim and I have been best friends for years, as we had grown up together, our houses in front of one another. Thinking about it, it was better if he didn’t pick up the phone. Being so protective of me, if he found out I was alone this late at night, he’d flip his shit. He was something between my father and my brother, and even though he could be annoying as hell sometimes, I wasn’t complaining.

However, that only left me with my second and last option: calling Joe. It was the last thing I wanted to do at the moment, but it was still better than standing in the middle of nowhere at night, all by myself.

Five tones afterwards, I heard his tired voice on the other line “I’m so sorry I woke you up” I said, knowing that he had been sleeping.

“What do you want?” He said, and my heart sank a bit. I ignored the poorly way he was making me feel “I need a huge favor. I just got out of Finn’s party and my Uber App has collapsed and I don’t know where I am, and Jim-”

“I get it, where are you?” He said, and I couldn’t help but feel relieved.

“Google Maps says Campden Hill Road” I told him.

He stayed silent a few seconds, probably mentally planning the ride “Right, give me 15”

“Thank you so much, Joe” I said “I owe you big”

“No need to” he answered, and then he hung up.

Twelve minutes later, Joe’s car stopped in front of me. I opened the door and awkwardly sat next to him “Thanks again” I said, looking at him. But he didn’t look back at me. He was wearing a Sugg Life hoodie and grey sweatpants. His messy hair was pushed back, and his glasses sat perfectly on his tired blue eyes. I couldn’t deny he was quite the charming guy “I’m sorry I woke you up” I said again.

“It’s fine” he said as we stopped on a red light “I wasn’t sleeping well anyway, and I wasn’t going to leave you wandering around London at night” Then he finally looked at me, and I felt small.

His blue eyes fixed on mine until I couldn’t take it anymore and I lowered my glance, quickly looking ahead on the road to hide the fact that I was blushing. But I still could feel his eyes on me.

“How was the party?” He asked, and I couldn’t help but stare at his hands as he drove.

“Not as good as I was hoping for” I sincerely said “I barely knew anyone, and the ones I knew were far too drunk to recognise me anyway”

Joe let out a laugh, and I visibly relaxed. We stayed in silence for a few minutes before he broke it again “Hey, Y/N, about the video I uploaded today” he said, rubbing his neck. I smiled at how cute he looked when he was nervous “I’m so sorry about it, I knew I had to upload our video but I…”

He stopped at another red light. Three overly drunk guys were passing by in front of the car, one of them still holding a bottle on his hand. A guy with a tuxedo on turned his head, locking his eyes with mine. He started to cheer, and suddenly his two friends joined in, shouting things to me that I wouldn’t even bother to repeat.

With the red light still on, Joe slowly started the car again, as if he were to run over them. The three guys jumped and, scared, put their hands in the air as if they were surrendering. The light changed and Joe hit full speed, not even bothering to see if they were on his way.

I couldn’t help but laugh “That was aggressive” I commented.

He had a smirk on his lips “Couldn’t care less if I ran over them, to be honest” he said.

“About the video” I said, wanting to get it over with.

“Yeah, I’m sorry” he said for like, the hundredth time “I thought you were coming to mine’s last night and I got a bit upset. I feel like a 5-year-old now”

I laughed “A really cute one, tho” I said, and I immediately regretted it, not really looking for another awkwardness stage. Luckily, he laughed.

“I will upload our collab as soon as I can, I promise” he said, turning to the street where I lived.

“Okay” I nodded “Hey, can I ask you a question?”

“Shoot”

“Do you think Finn likes me?” I blurted out. His hand tensed on the wheel, and his smile disappeared, forming a straight line. I didn’t know where I was going with this.

“Why’d you ask?” He asked instead of answering my question.

“He kissed me tonight” He abruptly stopped the car, only to find out that we were already in front of my apartment block “Like, he was drunk and it was just a short goodbye peck, but I’m so confused”

Joe had always told me about his love life, that is, when I got it out of him after hours of insisting. He’s not the extrovert kind. So I thought I would do just the same.

“I don’t know if he likes you, but just think about his past relationships” he said, running his hands through his hair “They haven’t been exactly long, and that must be for a reason”

I looked down at my intertwined fingers, as I could feel his eyes on me. They sent heat down my body. He then put an arm around my shoulders and pulled me closer, kissing the top of my head. People always said Joe wasn’t good with emotions, but I couldn’t believe them completely.

“Don’t worry about that now” he whispered, still holding me tight. I could’ve fallen asleep right there “It’s time you go to bed now. My sister and Alfie are staying at my house today and they wanted to see you in the morning”

“Cool” I said “I’ll text you when I wake up, okay?”

“Okay, love” he said, and his 'love’ was far more comforting than Finn’s.

“Do you ever get heartbroken?” I asked out of nowhere. I wasn’t exactly heartbroken because of Finn, but I wanted to know.

“The only thing that could break my heart right now is you crying over stupid guys who don’t deserve you” he said, leaving me blank. “Now go to bed” he kissed my head again before removing his arm from my frame. I immediately felt cold.

“Stop being so sweet" 

“No, it’s true” he said, his hand going through his hair once more. He then looked at me, and that’s when I realized I had been staring.

“Joe” I meant to say out loud, but it came out as a weak whisper. I didn’t know what to say next. His name just sounded nice when it left my lips.

“Yes, love?” he asked me sweetly, his hand cupping my cheek as he pressed his lips against it. I felt the urge to feel his lips on mine.

“It’s nothing” I finally said. I turned around to open the door and leave, embarrassed. But he didn’t let go of me. Instead, he pulled me closer until his eyes were staring deeply into mine, and suddenly my body went numb.

He let out a small chuckle “I don’t mean to make this awkward or anything” he said, staring away from me. My lips were almost pressed on his jawline “But I really want to kiss you right now”

My whole body froze, and my palms started sweatingt. I looked at him, searching for his eyes, as he eventually gazed back at me. I smiled as I got closer, pressing a small kiss on his jaw. He chuckled again, and kissed the top of my head “I shouldn’t have said that” he said.

Just when he was about to release me from his embrace, I grabbed the collar of his hoodie and pressed our lips together. Fuck it. If he wasn’t going to do it, I sure was. His lips moved slowly, as I opened my mouth slightly for his tongue to slip in. He cupped my face with one hand, so big compared to it. I held his hand while we kissed, feeling its warmth.

When we pulled away, our foreheads pressed together, I couldn’t help but smile “I would really love to go upstairs with you” he whispered, making me blush. Every time I thought about Joe touching me, holding me, I got goosebumps “But I’ve got my sister and Alfie alone at my place. And a dog” he said, making me laugh.

“Oh, come on” I pouted “It’s not like they like you anyway” I joked.

He laughed, as he pressed a small kiss on my lips again “You know what?” he said, as he released himself from my touch to grab the car keys “You’re right. They’ll be fine without me” he said, kissing me again. I could get used to it “Let’s go. I need some cuddles”

I laughed as I followed him out of the car. When we met each other at the entrance, I pressed our lips together again, and as we walked inside of my apartment, me already on his arms, legs around his torso, I wondered how I could’ve gotten so damn lucky, 

What would the RFA members + V and Saeran do for their first ever date?

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I know that SuperCorp is very unlikely to happen because Sanvers is already a thing, but between us… that’s bullshit.

Tv shows should always aim to reach out for the audience, capturing their interest - on a side trying to represent them and on the other trying to surprising them. We’re getting a hint of representation of the LGBT community (and I’m not saying LGBTQA+, because that part of the community is practically nonexistent according to the media) right now, which is definitely not enough, and what we get is rarely a quality product (for the most part, we’re used to make jokes, which isn’t representation, but more likely cheap comedy). We frequently get little screen-time, poor character development (he’s gay, what else is there to say?) and yes, we often get to DIE too (for the benefit of famous “shock value”… which doesn’t shock anybody, really, since it happens almost all the time). What we don’t get is main roles, good backstories, characters who are not only defined by their sexual orientation and… well, to live, to grow and get to be happy on screen (what an absurd concept, am I right?).

Supergirl has done an incredible job by representing Alex Danvers’ coming out story: it showed its audience how a strong, brave woman like Alex can still be very fragile and struggle with this kind of realization; how she fears to accept herself, to be fully herself and out with the people she cares the most about, and more importantly how things can actually go well. This is damn important, ‘cause it helps a lot of people to think that “Hey, maybe my family won’t take it this badly” or “Maybe my friends will accept me” and “Maybe things will change for the better!”, ‘cause guess what? IT CAN HAPPEN AND IT HAPPENS! But this is not very interesting to show, apparently, ‘cause most of the time it’s all freaking dramatic and it ends in tragedy.

The new generations are already lucky, ‘cause now there is something like this (Supergirl) on Tv, but it’s not enough still, ‘cause they’re portraying a tiny fragment of their audience, of the people around the world, and if you think “But it’s a lot already”, I’m gonna tell you that the straights have every single damn shade from every single damn angle for their representation on screen, while we are barely there and almost never the main character or anything close to that. Yes, there are movies in which we are protagonists, but let’s be real, they’re almost always centered on our sexual orientation, the discovery and the consequences, which is helpful and good to see, but it’s not everything there’s to see and to know. Plus, they really abuse of the dramatic factor of it in order to “send a message”, but that’s a message wasted on the straights, and if they think you’re an abomination already, surely a movie won’t change their minds. Instead, it will just fuel fear in us, which - there’s no really need to say it - it’s bad (we unfortunately have reality for that).

I remember my probably very first approach to the whole “girls liking girls” thing thanks to the media.
I was a kid and I was watching this movie on the Tv. I remember only pieces of it, ‘cause I don’t think I was paying much attention until a certain point. What I still recall, though, stuck in my head for a reason.
There were two girls, one white and the other brown, that grew closer to each other (I seriously don’t remember anything about whatever was the rest of the story). I recall this very specific scene that had me and my sister (who was also watching) like: “Oh, they are helping each other undressing ‘cause they’re friends”. When they started making out we were like “Oh… Okay, so they’re not just friends, apparently”, and that was it. I don’t think we knew about all the hatred towards people of same sex being in love with each other, to us it was just like “Okay, this is a thing that exists: acknowledged”. They seemed to be fine, so there was no issue… right? WRONG!
The white girl’s brother saw them, got angry as shit, took a gun and started shooting at them. They got into a car, trying to get away from him, but he got into another and started chasing them. It was raining, they were scared as shit, he looked insane, I felt the anguish growing inside of me: it was awful (again, I was a kid at the time).
The car slipped, then fell down a bridge into a river/lake and it quickly sank. After a while, only the white girl emerged from the water. The other drowned.
Last scene that I remember was a time jump where the white girl was a now a white granny, and she was probably remembering this terrible thing that happened to her once.

No fucking wonder if growing up I didn’t want to be gay and I pushed down my feelings and thoughts, since this is the kind of message to which I was subjected. And now? Now there are some things that portray the whole “being gay” as normal (as it always should be) and not in a dramatic, catastrophic way, but it’s also true that we get shows like The 1OO, Person of Interest, Orange Is The New Black, Pretty Little Liars, The Walking Dead and many, many, many others where the lesbian freaking dies, where there is no happy ending for us.

It’s simply not okay.

But to finally address the very main reason why I started this post - that no one will read ‘cause it’s too long, and people have time only for thoughts as long as a tweet - is the importance to acknowledge the presence of MORE THAN ONE GAY CHARACTER in a story. In a story AND in a family. Yes, as crazy as it sounds, we are more than two and we indeed can have LGBTQA+ wonderful siblings. Madness, right? Except that it’s not, it’s our reality, which is way more colorful, interesting and beautiful than the arid one-sided representation we witness on daily basis (I’m talking about heteronormative).

So, what really drives me nuts, it’s not the fact that people seem to be scared shitless to insert us in anything (although we’re everywhere), but how little crafty they are. We have proven to be a real force of nature over the whole LGBT Fans Deserve Better initiative, which raised by far $166,547 for the Trevor Project, and we did that after being smacked down once again by showrunners. Can you imagine what we could do if people were fair to us, for a change? We’re loyal, passionate, absurdly creative and talented (have you ever seen our fanArts, read our fanfictions? They’re often better than the original stuff and we don’t get paid a coin for making them), and yet we hardly get anything.

Tv shows should listen to their audience and get smart, because it’s not a pink UFO the thing we’re asking for, it’s not something that won’t fit their story, but simply more good representation. Supergirl scored with Sanvers, but there’s still so much potential that is sadly going to waste, and if they opened their eyes they would see it.

Do you want a great, original idea? Be fair and listen.

I’m feeling a little better re: my friend beat me up last week. My bruises are fading. My muscles don’t hurt anymore. I talked to him yesterday and it did more good than harm. I did not forgive him, but I allowed him to express regret to me. I got up at a regular hour and did my homework already, got an A on a test and made good with the group project I’ve been neglecting. Now it’s not even 4 and I have all of tonight and tomorrow off. I’m making food. I’m going to clean my apartment.

Hey! look at what I did!

So I recently got a laptop for Christmas (well, actually I got it more around the time of new years, but that’s a different story!) So I got 2 games along with some others that i’v been longing to play: Seduce Me The Otome and Yandere Simulator. Love both games BTW. Soooooooooo while I was fooling around with pose mode, I remembered Seduce me and then this happened! someone might have already done this, and done it better then me, but I still wanted to post this.

I also made one of Mika, the Protaginst

Here’s all of them together! (yo, I’m gonna be honest, I had no idea how to fit all of them in the picture without out her being to the side and making it look awkward, so I just made her short and put her in front)