an endless shine



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Young & Free Lightheartedly walk down this street
You & me put down the endless worries
Everyday to shine more in this one life
is more important It’s you, it’s you
#YoungAndFree ‘Young & Free’. 

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Lessons learned by her paper heart
Are pulled from the mire
Enraptured from the divine
Sinner not saint
Though she prays for release
Never to enter
Always forced to believe.
Sink to the level
Where pain is a boon
From the vacuum of nothingness
Oh how it consumes
The mother, the child, the scared little girl
Dressed up like an adult
Pretending she’s in control of her world.
The race is far longer
Than she can run at responsibility’s heels
So she slows to a crawl
Wondering how this became real.
The sinner, the fallen, the goddess on her knees
Pleads for the strength
To stand up and to be
More than the soft-hearted
Sacrificed to gain what she sought
On the altar of freedom
And worldly forgive-me-nots.
Alone in the darkness
Lamenting the day she forgot she could shine
When the moondust in her hair and starlight burning eyes
Dimmed to long forgotten madness
To seek chaos as her friend
With loneliness her eternal lover
Beckoning her slowly with a grin.
Weary though she walks it
Her course of macabre delights
Ever on she carries herself
Deeper into endless night.

#bookreadhappyhour June Book Photo Challenge•••

Day 10: Rainbow Stack.

It’s raining pretty hard here, so here’s a lovely rainbow stack to brighten up your day! 🌈🌈🌈

On OBSABH chapter 2 (the happy bits)

Viktor, sweetheart, what have you done?  (AKA the drawbacks of being an optimist)

This year the Easter Bunny (and @kazliin​, obviously, I mean let’s face it the Easter Bunny has precious little to do with this) brought me the best Easter/10th wedding anniversary present ever.  Yes of course I’m talking about chapter 2 of Of Bright Stars and Burning Hearts.  What else?  

Thoughts about it?  Well, Viktor’s endless optimism just shines off the pages of this chapter.  That boy is like a little ray of sunshine.  Everybody’s talking about it.  It’s the complete opposite of Yuuri, of course.  And the opposite of me- I’m a glass-half-empty kind of person.  I assume the worst will happen, because then I’m less likely to get disappointed and often get pleasantly surprised.  When I read Viktor in this chapter, I can see the benefits of pessimism.  Viktor’s positive outlook has made him so vulnerable, has opened him up to all sorts of heartbreak and disappointment.  

Now I’m not saying that it’s best to be pessimistic and that it’s a good way to shield yourself from bad stuff.  It doesn’t actually work like that, despite what we pessimists may tell ourselves.  Life is not that simple.  But I think being a generally negative person makes seeing Viktor’s attitude so, so painful.  I want to scream at him, ‘give up your hopes and dreams, Viktor!  You’re obviously only going to get yourself hurt!  Just try being a bit more negative, because you’re just setting yourself up to get your heart broken again and again and again’.

He wouldn’t listen to me. Nor should he, because as we all know, things (thankfully) work out in the end.  (I think the knowledge that I have two small children dependant on me it all works out in the end is the only thing stopping me from throwing myself into the sun right now.)

(Takes deep breath and bravely loads up chapter 2 in order to be hurt once more.  Cut below)

So… Viktor’s general happiness and optimism sets the tone of the whole chapter.  This actually lulled me into a false sense of security. Despite knowing what was coming (I hate you now fuck me, etc), the vast majority of the chapter was pretty… nice? Sweet and hopeful?  So let’s talk about that for now.  Viktor’s definitely hopeful about, well, everything, and from the start he’s very fatalistic about his feelings for Yuuri:

  • ‘Viktor knew that he had already damned himself’
  • ‘even if he hated Viktor with a passion to rival Viktor’s love nothing could ever change that.  Nor could it change the way that Viktor felt’
  • ‘Viktor had fallen in love with a man who loathed him’

Viktor seems to be thinking ‘well, I’m in love with him and I can’t change that so there’s no point feeling miserable about it, I may as well carry on being optimistic and hoping things will work out for the best’.

Of course he’s convinced he can fix things- ‘as soon as he knew what the root of it was he could set about fixing it for good.  All he needed was the chance to talk to Yuuri, to clear the air’.  If only it was as simple as that.  Chris sees it for the complicated horrible mess it is, of course he does, but Viktor with his unfailing optimism genuinely thinks that he will 1. Work out what the problem is 2. Talk to Yuuri about it 3. Get to know him properly and probably eventually get into a relationship with him.  Even Viktor acknowledges that he won’t ‘magically be able to solve whatever was broken between Yuuri and himself in one conversation’, but he figures it will be possible to sort things out somehow, it just must be possible.

Viktor’s optimism blinds him to Yuuri’s feelings.  He notices flashes of it, sometimes: ‘his mockery of Viktor just a few seconds ago had seemed almost malicious’- you know, that’s because it was, Viktor.  It was totally malicious.  But Viktor’s an optimist, so instead of thinking about this a bit more, and being a bit more cautious, he brushes it off and goes back to thinking about some of the more positive things he knows about Yuuri’s attitude towards him instead. This is probably a good thing overall, because if he allowed himself to dwell on the negatives he’d probably end up giving Yuuri up as a lost cause and running a mile.

The Olympics scene was everything I wanted it to be.  Yuuri’s actions only serve to add to Viktor’s feelings that there’s a part of Yuuri which doesn’t hate him.  Which, of course, is true… but it’s going to take Yuuri a really long time to sort out his feelings about that, and in the meantime, Viktor is going to suffer.  The next time they meet, not long before the kiss, Viktor is ‘sure that Yuuri was giving him signals so mixed that no-one could possibly begin to figure them out’.  Which he’s correct about, again (he’s very perceptive, really.  He can’t work out a lot of the motivations but he sees things)- because Yuuri cannot sort out what’s going on in his own head at all, so it’s no wonder other people can’t.  

What’s poor Viktor to do? He knows what he should do (talk to Yuuri, talk to him, you have to talk to him).  But then it all kicks off, and… I will probably try to write about that another time?  (It seems like a shame to ruin all these happy positive feelings with a great big dose of hatred and misery.)

Until next time… don’t worry, Viktor, we’re all here for you.  You may be burning, but we’ll all happily burn with you tonight.

(You can find the angsty bits in part 2 and part 3)

Goodbye Moonmen
William Street Secords
Goodbye Moonmen

The worlds could be one together
cosmos without hatred
stars like diamonds in your eyes

The ground can be space
with feet marching t'wards a peaceful sky
All the moon men want things their way
but we make sure they see the sun
Goodbye moon men (x4)

Cosmos without hatred
diamond stars of cosmic light
quasars shine through endless night
and everything is one in the beauty
and now we say
Goodbye moon men (x4) 

anonymous asked:

fave shinee song?

Love is a problem

She said:
I don’t know
If I’ll ever
Love again.
I’m tired
Of short lived
And sudden
Im tired of
Talking things
Over just
To argue
I’m tired of
uphill battles
I can never win.

She said:
Bottom line
Love is just
A problem.

I looked
Her emerald
And said
it’s a
worth Solving.

You see
Love is
A revolving Door.
Is sex
On the floor.
Love is
Two people
Into something
Love is an
Endless sunset
That shines off
The dust
Of fossil hearts.
Love is a call
Are you home yet?
Just to make
Sure their not lost

My suggestion
Is to love
Like hell,
And then try
Some more.
One day
You’ll meet
A man
That’ll make
You understand
Why your
Hearts been
Broken before.
The only problem
Love has
Is the
Of the people,
Who falsify love
For a score.
Girl wait and see.
Gonna make
A lucky
Mans world.