an accidental jerk is still a jerk

the problem with godot is that i don’t think he was necessarily intentionally written as a misogynist– the writers just. uncritically think he’s cool lmao. like they didn’t go in and look at his character and think “him being shitty to woman is an intentionally character flaw” they just wrote him and it happened on its own probably because the writers themselves are Like That. 

Blue Is Just Pretty

(Read on AO3)

(German Translation

I made myself sad imagining Stiles becoming a werewolf, and when he sees his eyes flash for the first time, he locks himself in the bathroom and curls up on the floor.

They’re just so blue. Painfully blue. Blindingly blue if he wants to be ironic. 

Scott and the girls all try to coax him out. The Sheriff and Isaac elect to leave him be. 

And Derek waits. 

He waits until the four teens have given up. Waits until they’ve fallen asleep in pallets on the living room floor. Lydia and Allison are still facing one another as though they’d drifted off mid conversation. Isaac is sprawled out haphazardly between his girlfriend and his alpha, body splayed like a starfish. Scott’s on the floor by the couch, one hand relaxed and half curled in front of him. Kira, who won the coin toss for sofa, has an arm hanging off the edge, knuckles brushing against Scott’s just so.

It’s quiet. Still. 

Derek sneaks into to the kitchen, and he has to check a couple drawers to find the one with all the kitchen utensils. Derek’s the only one besides Isaac who grew up with siblings. He’s the only one who remembers three year old Cora becoming fond of locking people out of rooms when the Hale house smelled of warmth and supper instead of fire and ash. He’s the only one that remembers unfair advantages in hide-and-seek and “Laura it’s not fair if you lock me out!” and the answering laughter echoing down real, whole hallways.

He finds himself back at the bathroom doorway with an ice pick in hand. He can hear Stiles breathing inside, slow and steady like maybe he’s fallen asleep. Derek jiggles the pick a bit until the lock clicks open. 

Stiles is sitting on floor, back against the tub and knees drawn up so he can rest his head atop them. Derek thinks he was probably asleep before, but he isn’t now. His wide, brown gaze stares unwavering into Derek’s. Bambi eyes peeking out of wolf skin. 

The older man slides to sit next to him. Stiles doesn’t turn his head but keeps his gaze on him out of the corner of his eye like an animal that’s only very hesitantly letting you near. 

Derek pushes at his own cuticles, picks at his nails. But he doesn’t speak, doesn’t say anything. Just waits, like he’s been waiting all day. His back protests the angle, but the solidarity is comfortable, even if the position isn’t. 

Stiles opens his mouth a few times, like he wants to say something. He can’t at first, just shuts his jaw as his heart rate picks up at a steady pace.

Finally, he clicks his tongue against his teeth and says, “They’re blue,” with a little crack around the end.

Derek eyes his profile warily. None of the pack knew why Stiles had chosen to sequester himself in this room, but he’d had his suspicions. The teen doesn’t meet his gaze now. Just gives a little look up at the mirror then goes back to plucking at the denim of his jeans. 

“Can I see?" 

Stiles head snaps toward him, and Derek raises his eyebrows in silent response. He tries not to let his eyes flick down to the boy’s mouth out of habit. Fails.  

He’s surprised when Stiles complies effortlessly. He always knew Stiles would make a good werewolf. He’s almost too good, picking up control like it’s a skill he’s had hiding beneath his bed. 

Derek thinks of himself. Thinks of Paige. Thinks of being alone and heartbroken with blue burning behind his eyelids. Think of his mother crouched down in front him with her hard jawline and soft smile. 

With his heart lodged behind his adam’s apple, he reaches out and rests his hand on the side of Stiles’ neck, his thumb brushing the turn of his jaw beneath the ear. Stiles’ eyes (still brilliant, glowing blue) scan his face. Right eye, left eye, mouth, and back.

"Still beautiful,” Derek says finally, “just like the rest of you.”

anonymous asked:

Hey, don't know if this has been asked before, but I wanted to hear your thoughts on this subject. How do you handle writing a protagonist that is purposely a horrible/annoying person? There is a character arc in which the protagonist grows and starts to recognize his/her flaws and change...but I'm curious about how to keep the reader hooked in the beginning when you're essentially stuck inside the head of a bitch/bastard?

Do it. Whole hog. Make them a gnarly slimeball.  Don’t hold back.  Some people are going to hate it anyway, but screw ‘em.

What usually turns me off this character type is when authors don’t fully embrace the idea that their character is asshat.  And I don’t mean that you need to make them extra-assy – no one is pure jerk and they should have a balanced personality – but there’s this sense that they need to justify it in order to still have the turnaround.  There’s this “he’s a jerk, but only because mommy didn’t hug him enough” tone trying to soften the blow of his jerkitude.  Fuck that.  Be unapologetic.

Because once you get in that mindset, it’s really easy for me to get the impression that you want me to excuse their actions.  It’s really easy to accidentally make them a darling, or forget to full write out the consequences of such behavior.  Don’t.  They’re a jerk.  Own it.

modern au where Eren works at an olive garden and one day this REALLY cute blond kid comes in with this other guy and they’re obviously on a date but the blond one seems really nervous and awkward and the other guy is weird and gross. Eren is their waiter. Stupid nameless guy goes to the bathroom at one point and Eren comes by again and ends up talking to this kid who tells him that his name is Armin and his stupid friend jean set him up on a blind date and he really hates this but he doesnt want to be impolite even though the other guy is a jerk. Eren asks if he would like him to do something about it and Armin agrees hesitantly. So after the asshole comes back, Eren walks by again and “accidentally” spills spaghetti sauce all over this guy’s head which makes Armin start laughing really hard against his will and the jerk runs out of the restaruant in humiliation and when Armin asks Eren how he can repay him Eren is like “well, you could let ME take you out sometime” and armin is still laughing but he agrees and eren gets his number and they go out later that week and eventually become boyfriends the end