amnesia gift

Happy 200th birthday, Serena!

My dearest baby Serena da Silva has her birthday today, October 17th, and it’s not just any birthday - today marks the day she was born 200 years ago! EEEP how exciting is that? You only get to celebrate an anniversary like that once in your lifetime!

If you’re unfamiliar with Serena, she is my character from my book project series for Amnesia: The Dark Descent, in which she plays a major role. She’s probably the character nearest and dearest to my heart, and she tends to be a fan favourite among readers as well, so I wanted to do something extra special for this particular anniversary.

So here comes: a birthday feature! In which I display all the amazing gifts Serena has received today.

First of all, I want to show the wip of what I had planned to do for Serena, which unfortunately I couldn’t finish in time since my laptop screen broke at the WORST. TIMING. EVER. I meant to have this artwork ready for today, but since I won’t be able to finish it until later, I’ll share a wip of the clean sketch:

I must admit, I’m quite proud of it! It’s the first time I experiment with perspective and interiors for real, and I also usually suck at drawing animals, but Cleo (Serena’s cat) came out quite okay here, so I’m happy! I hope I’ll be able to finish it sooner rather than later.

And now, let’s get into the amazing gifts my baby has received today AAAHHH!


If you’ve been following me for a while, you might know that @juliajm15 is an art goddess who’s been making amazing beautiful fanart of my characters for the past couple years. She always goes so above and beyond for me, and that can be seen by LOOKING AT THIS GORGEOUS PIECE OF SERANIEL FANART.



I just had to mention that.

OMG I die over how perfect and cute and romantic this is, it just completely captures the essence and emotion of that scene in my book! I feel so blessed and privileged, how am I ever gonna recover from this perfection?

But not only did she do this amazing gorgeous romantic piece for me, she also did a complete remake of Serena’s character portrait and DAMN SHE LOOKS GORGEOUS.

HOW does she always manage to capture Serena so perfectly? Ugh I honestly just can’t with this perfection, I just can’t. That expression, that hair, those LIPS. Okay, I’m gonna move on because I could literally gush about Serena’s face all day, but then we’d miss out on all the other amazing gifts she received today! Just, thank you so much @juliajm15 my darling, you’re such a generous and ultra skilled human being, thank you so much for being in my life and supporting me always


So meme and aesthetics queen @shaelinwrites totally disarmed me today when she sent me THIS GORGEOUS MOODBOARD FOR SERENA OH MY LORD.

LOOK AT THAT GORGEOUS WINTER AESTHETIC. OMG LOOK, CLEO MADE A CAMEO ON THE BOTTOM LEFT. Omg these colours are just too beautiful I CAN’T. The art supplies, the gesture and expression of this girl, it’s all SO Serena. The whole feel of this moodboard is just so romantic and cosy and wintery and ugh, the nightgown, the long dark hair. I’m aware I’m just rambling and gushing throughout this post DEAL WITH IT.

And @shaelinwrites didn’t stop there, no, as any good bae, she knew how important the bae is. HAVE SOME MORE SERANIEL, THIS TIME BLACK AND WHITE SEXY EDITION.


All of this is literally just so accurate. Like, it’s so friggin’ hard to find good stock images that can embody a fictional character, BUT MY BAE DID IT *CRIES*. Thank you so much bae, omg this surprise was such a highlight today!!


Another dear friend of mine (who’s a total cinnamon roll btw), @coffeeandcalligraphy, also went above and beyond for my character’s birthday because LOOK AT THIS:

I swear, everyone remembers the bae Baeniel. Eeeeeveryone.


I actually can’t??? Like how do I have so many talented af friends??? I must be a talent MAGNET I’m telling ya.

Oh and Rachel had the same idea as Baelin and went the sexy Black and White edition with the OTP as well:

BECAUSE CAN WE EVER HAVE TOO MUCH SEXINESS? I THINK NOT. Thank you so much @coffeeandcalligraphy I swear your art just blows me away, you’re improving at such a rapid pace, slow down, I can’t keep up


Also @sarahkelsiwrites is a close friend of mine, and actually @coffeeandcalligraphy‘s twin sister (gotta collect the whole pack amirite), and as part of her inktober challenge she did THIS GORGEOUS INKED PORTRAIT OF SERENA:

LIKE OMG OKAY SO the Victorian aesthetic is on POINT here, and OMG I love that her Hispanic features are soooo visible here. ALSO DAMN, THE DETAIL ON THE JEWELLERY. THE INKING OF THIS IS ALSO SO GREAT, LIKE, DO YOU SEE THE LINES IN HER HAIR???? I’m sorry, I’m an artist, I have to appreciate it when I see good craft, okay? I also gotta note that I’m living for how everyone always remembers Serena’s choker because girl never goes without one

Ugh HER EYES AND LIPS okay I gotta stop. I mention the eyes and lips every time, when will I switch it up. NEVER. Okay, glad we got that settled.

(Yes, I’m a dork, but only when I’m overwhelmed with this much love and beauty, I swear.)

Also omg THE SONG LYRICS, THOSE ARE SELENA GOMEZ LYRICS, AND IT’S STARS DANCE, AND I LOVE THAT SONG, AND IT’S SO RELEVANT, AND I’M ACTUALLY SHOOK. LORD thank you so much @sarahkelsiwrites god I just can’t believe how friggin’ talented and generous and thoughtful all of you are, I will never get over it.


So I’ve not mentioned this, but not too long ago I was totally taken by surprise and utterly *shook* when I received a private message on the site where I have Memoirs posted. This long message came from an angel named Constance, who registered a profile just to tell me how much she adored my story, give me fanart, and TELL ME SHE’S TRANSLATING THE ENTIRE THING TO FRENCH BRUH.

So if any of you out there are speaking French and not super comfortable with English, but still interested in reading Memoirs, it’s Constance you wanna hit up. She’s got you covered.

But back to the FANART.

Constance is working on this GORGEOUS Serena fanart for me, and while it’s not all finished yet, she said I could still post it for the birthday feature! (I’m going to update the post with the finished piece once it’s ready)

LOOK HOW CUTE AND PRETTY AND YOUNG MY SERENA IS HERE. THIS DRESS IS SO PRETTY, I DIE. OMG SHE HAS THE LOCKET. I realise like 90% of this post is all caps, but WHO CAN BLAME ME? I’m so #blessedyouknow right.

All I wanted in my life is Serena in a pink pretty dress. Thank you for realising my dreams, Constance *cries* and thank you so much for the endless support and this generosity! Seeing other people getting so invested in my story and characters really moves me so much, it’s all that I could hope for waaahh.

2k17 - Birthday One Shot

Okay, so I know how I said I couldn’t finish my artwork for Serena in time as I had intended, which made me very, very Sad™, BUT. I came up with something else.

So this was actually SUPER spontaneous and I usually NEVER do something like this, but I took a chance, and you know what? It worked out. I just wanna say thank you so much to my bae @shaelinwrites who pushed and motivated me to do this, I dunno what happened, but you must’ve transferred some of your writing machine abilities to me, because I actually managed to finish an entire one shot in JUST ONE DAY. (Are you as shook as I am? Cuz I can never seem to finish a chapter so I’m shook.)

Since I couldn’t finish my artwork for Serena like I planned, I decided to write a short fluffy non-canon one shot for her birthday. It was super spontaneous and unplanned, but it actually came surprisingly easy to write! I’ve not written in first person in many, many years, so this was really a leap of faith LOL, but I like the end result! A major thanks to @shaelinwrites, who encouraged me and critiqued the short before publication, and @coffeeandcalligraphy, @sarahkelsiwrites and @juliajm15 for giving it a read and telling me their thoughts as well! I hope you all enjoy this little piece of fluff; since I’m taking so long to write my book, maybe this can keep y’all entertained meanwhile

Thank you so much to everyone who’s supported me and celebrated Serena’s birthday with me, even just in spirit! It makes the long journey all worth it, knowing there are people out there who care (’:

(short story starts under the cut!)

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Note on Plushies for sale on eBay (US or Canada):
This seller HERE is selling a number of plushies by Gift for unusually low prices. The shipping to Canada is very high, but is reasonable within the US.

The prices seem to be going up as the seller gains confidence, but it still may be worth looking at auctions for Hakuoki, Diabolik Lovers, Amnesia (Toma and Shin are $40 and $30 respectively), Uta no Prince Sama, and Sengoku Basara.  There are others as well.

anonymous asked:

Sorry if youve been asked this before, but where do you get all of those plushies?

No problem!  Here’s the link to a reasonably well-linked post I did: LINK

I’ve also made an updated list for you below (but it’s not fully linked):

1.  eBay - easiest and safest place for North American purchasers - selection is somewhat limited, especially for rare plushies, and prices can be on the higher side (this probably applies to European, Australian, NZ and other purchasers as well, but I don’t know the eBay sites as well)

** if you want to buy on eBay there is also the BIG advantage that you can set up a search for one(s) you want and it will alert you when one’s available
** there are some sellers who tend to get stock in regularly, including some “new in bag with tags”

2. - I haven’t bought one there because shipping to Canada is expensive, but I’ve seen some good ones if you’re a US purchaser - very limited selection and prices high, in my opinion (but it’s easy and safe)

3.  AmiAmi - this store handled a lot of the best plushies and occasionally gets new ones in (even though they were made in 2011-2014, mostly) - best prices, no specials, limited stock (excellent English website and service; reasonable shipping)

4.  Playmoya, Solaris - these stores will sometimes have second-hand plushies - prices vary but these are good online stores because the English interface is solid (assuming English is easier for you than Japanese)

5.  Goods Republic - this store has an increasingly excellent selection of otome goods (Hakuouki, Amnesia, Code Realize etc.), including plushies - prices are on the high side but include all fees and shipping (which can be a really big deal, to be honest) (doesn’t include your country’s own import tax mind you, but that may be zero)

6.  Buyee & other 3rd party purchasers - quite a few of my plushies are from auctions on the Yahoo Japan site; I need a 3rd party to speak Japanese and make the payment for me, so I have to pay them fees - prices are usually much lower! - but beware of fees and shipping costs

** all your searches have to be in Japanese (I’ve learned to cut and paste reasonably well now, but somebody helped me out!)

I hope this helps, Anon!  If you ever need/want any advice, feel free to PM me.



domestic. abuse.


“o h  b e a u t i f u l,” 

you whisper in my ear.

Your plundering pants around your ankles,

as you force your flesh between my raw and bruised thighs.

You clamp your fingers around my slender throat again,

and my consciousness drifts to


s p a c i o u s  s k i e s.


I see them stare,

their whispers, the comments section of my hellish personal newsfeed.

All the “you should have…” caliber bullets hurled at me,

burning, recalling searing memories,

when I replaced my coal colored coils with


a m b e r  w a v e s.


My ebony code switched,

pants hitched,

but still, my ribs–kicked.

You attempt to in-g r a i n submission into my very being.

Me– numb to the


p e r p e t r a t o r   m o u n t i n g



Still expecting heart holding allegiance to your


m a j e s t y.


Your lips curl, aroused by your salacious sadism,

you call my scars progress.

You’ve since found new methods to maim me mockingly, and I


f r u i t lessly ex p l a i n


my present pain.

As I lift my hands in supplication pleading for


G o d  to  s h e d  h i s  g r a c e,


you grasp my wrists, fresh with self inflicted wounds, and grunt in haughty disdain.

You’re struck with convenient amnesia of your gifted razor.

You taught m e shame!


All the while, nestled in your back pocket, the prosecution rests with a coquettish wink towards the badges in blue.

C r o w n-ed in g o o d  


darkness like your


b r o t h e r s in h o o d s,


you’re invisible to consequences, so missed judgments multiply.

Genocide ravages my rotting womb

as my bloated flesh– gray is seen floating


f r o m  s e a  t o  s h i n i n g  s e a.

Imagine an Episode where...

Imagine that somewhere in Paris a person, who either has done something horrible or has had something horrible done to them and who now desperately wishes to forget what happened, ends up Akumatized. It doesn’t matter what their specific method is, but what is important is that they have the power to spread the “gift” of amnesia throughout the populace, “liberating” people from the fetters of their past. And by that I mean plunging Paris into chaos because no one can remember who’s in charge or even who they are. Our brave heroes move to stop the Akuma… only to get their memories wiped and then their butts kicked.

Imagine that Plagg and Tikki now have to not only convince a pair of amnesiac teenagers that they’re superheroes, but to retrain them so they can deal with the Akuma. Originally I would have suggested using flashbacks so this could double as an origin episode, showing how the duo were initially recruited, trained, and met, but the fact that there’s an actual one coming up blows that out of the water. 

Now imagine the two of them coming to see the qualities in the other they liked and falling in love all over again, this time with no memories of having to keep their identities secret from each other to get in the way. Now imagine this new young couple fighting in harmony, beating and purifying the Akuma… and imagine the restorative power “reseting” their memory back to just before it was erased, overriding all the events in the interim. Now imagine Marinette and Adrian getting home, changing back, and wondering why Tikki is beating her head into the wall and screeching the most blasphemous obscenities Ancient Egyptian has to offer and why Plagg is laughing his furry little butt off, respectively.

Submitted by @faithful-grigori