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anonymous asked:

So, im gay. But I'm only 12 so most people dont believe me and are like "Its just a phase" but i know its not because being open and free to like who i like has made me the happiest ive ever been. What do i do?

First of all, I am hardly an expert on any of this, so please do not take my words as a final authority. But, I believe you’re the only person who knows you the best. No one else has authority over what you’re experiencing. For me, I started realizing I liked boys at around 8 or 9, and it was confusing but I was also alone and had no one to bounce my experience off of. And also, who you like is not a set thing. It can always change and shift, so if you identify as gay right now, that’s awesome! If that’s not how you identify later in life, that’s great too! Sexuality can be fluid. There’s no pressure and however you identify as at a certain time, that’s valid cause you know you best. If this identity is bringing you the most happiness, it sounds like that’s the thing to listen to, but again, I don’t have authority to say. Proud of you for being unafraid to openly start asking questions about this. The journey in figuring yourself out never truly ends! I hope no one pressures you in any way in determining your own identity!

Find the bad guy, push ‘em aside!
Then move on forward with your friend at your side
It’s a two-player game, so when they make an attack,
You know you got a brother gonna have your back!

Henlo I’m in love with these weebs and am officially in BMC hell

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trekkiepirate  asked:

While submitting myself for a role on a breakdown service, it said "must have over 100K real followers on social media". Which is the STUPIDEST thing. So in the notes section, I wrote "I don't not have 100K+ followers, but I'd still like to audition because followers shouldn't matter". I am not going to get this audition and none of the people involved in this breakdown are going to change their behaviour a bit. But I've been having a bad brain week and it made me feel marginally better.

It makes me so angry that you have to even deal with this. It’s stupid and wrong for casting to make an arbitrary number of social media followers a precondition for you to do your job as an actor.

A lot of talented and awesome performers are going to be ignored because of this, while mediocre but popular people take their roles. 

Some pre-expansion thoughts + “celebratory pre-stormblood”meme created out of spontaneous boredom.

I’ve been playing FFXIV since launch and I’ve made a lot of great friends along the way. I’m absolutely looking forward to the new Stormblood expansion with all the fresh new adventures and friends to be had along the way.

We’re almost in June! So it’ll be here before you know it, I wanted to give all my love to my friends and followers who’ve enjoyed my content that I’ve created since I popped up around 2 years ago. I was really on the fence about creating one, but with a little push from @tsubi-uru, here I am.

And it’s one of the best things I could have done, because the core friends I met through tumblr, we can’t stop annoying each other and it’s great.

(There are so many of you, but you know who you are.)

I love you all, and thanks for giving me reblog fuel when I couldn’t make something. There are so many talented people in this community and it’s always a treat to see on my dash.

THAT BEING SAID… I wanna start something! Just like I did when HW was coming out, I would like to see people do what I just did, make your own compilation photoset post of past screenshots showing how much your character has changed!

(Especially you fantasia users.)

Come on, it’ll be fun!

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If you don’t know this react series, Classical Musicians React, you should acquaint yourself with it because it is FANTASTIC. I don’t typically watch reaction videos, but I actually learn so much from these because the reactors know what they’re talking about and notice things that I don’t pick up on.

Anyways, they FINALLY reacted to f(x) today and what a time to be alive! I am living for Gwen’s love for them! 

One comment that Kevin and Fiona both made was that they weren’t huge fans of the chorus (several times for Kevin). Kevin also commented that the song felt disjointed at times.

I think it’s super interesting that they didn’t really like the chorus, especially considering that f(x) added the chorus in. If you listen to the original English demo, they add in an extra 2 bars for the build after the pre-chorus (0:38 = start of pre-chorus) and then after the drop it goes to a chorus/alternate verse (which is the verse again, but it ends in the same way that f(x)’s chorus ends). 

Personally, I’ve always liked that f(x) added the chorus (especially for those killer harmonies!) but Kevin is right in saying that it is a little disjointed. Even so, f(x)’s style is to be unpredictable and unexpected so I think it works for them. I would be interested to know what he thinks about the English demo compared to f(x)’s version!

Hey guys, so I’ve really run across some issues in my life lately and am financially not able to keep up with them. I do not want to compromise my home or my bills/credit, but I cannot afford the time to deal with these issues without having to do so….

I’m hoping that this course of action can help me, as I was successful on my trades the last post I made, and was really grateful for the outcome. Thank you guys. <3

So, without further ado, I am selling my things and my services.

Please, feel free to reblog, and feel free to ask me about anything. I am truly in need of assistance for the first time in a long time and would love any help anyone could give!

Jewelry

-Moss Agate wire wrapped pendant, this has a copper spiral threaded on it 12.00

-Rose Quartz wire wrapped pendant, this has a copper spiral threaded on it 12.00

-Sodalite wire wrapped pendant 12.00

-Garnet wire wrapped pendant 12.00

-Fire Agate wire wrapped pendant 20.00

-Flourite Point wire wrapped pendant 25.00

*All wire wrapped pendants come with a leather cord that has a clasp (:

-Bronze Scarab Necklace 10.00

-Bronze Scarab with abalone necklace 12.00

-Silver Hamsa necklace 10.00

-Silver Claddagh necklace 7.00

-Silver Om necklace 7.00

-Silver Crescent Moon charm necklace 7.00

-Red Jasper necklace 10.00

-Grey/White/Navy Agate Slice plated necklace 10.00

-Unakite and Aventurine necklace 12.00

-Sodalite Necklace 12.00

-Chevron Amethyst Cluster Slice necklace 12.00

-Polished Abalone Disc Engraved with tribal design necklace 12.00

-Orange Moonstone Sun Necklace 12.00

-Quartz point Black ribbon Choker necklace [Adjustable]. 12.00

-Peridot point pendant 7.00

-Quartz Point Plated pendant 12.00

-Silver Om with 7 Chakras pendant 12.00

*All pendants come with a leather cord that has a clasp (:

Wish Fulfillment Necklaces:

*These are filled with dandelion wishes, and gemstones. They are Little vials with a cork that is sealed on.

-Amethyst gemstone 11.00

-Rose Quartz and Quartz gemstone 11.00

-Citrine and Peridot gemstone 11.00

-Green Aventurine gemstone  11.00

-Wire wrapped dreamcatcher earrings 15.00

*These have a turquoise stone on them and quartz point for the ‘feather’.

-Agate Slices: There are 5 of them. 10.00/each;   2/15.00, 3/25.00, 4/30.00, or all 5/40.00.

*^I have these super thin but really big agate slices that have been plated around the edges in silver. They would make great altar accessories or coasters, or anything really. Even décor.

-Huge solid banded agate chunk tea candle holder, fits 2 candles. 15.00+7.00Shipping [This thing is decently heavy]

Handmade Goods

-Handmade scrying mirrors: I have 4. 13.00/each+4.20Shipping

*Bundle deals available if you would like more than one. There is a $1+ extra on the shipping for the extra packaging to keep them safe.

-Handmade birch wood Elder Futhark Rune Sets. 20.00/each+5.00Shipping

They come in these paper mache storage boxes that I hand painted with a stave on the lid. I only have a Aegishjalmir [Helm of Awe] and Gennir stave on hand, but can paint a new box/lid if you so desire, its not a problem at all!

*I can seal the runes if you like, but it will take an extra 2 days [approx.] to do with dry time included.

-Lavender Sugar Scrub 10.00/each

-Lavender Vanilla Sugar Scrub 10.00/each

-Peppermint Sugar Scrub 10.00/each

*All of my scrubs are made with organic and raw ingredients. Please let me know in advance if you have any allergy concerns.

I can make a lot of different scents/blends, just ask if you have a scent you like or prefer, I can more than likely make it.

Candles

I have a lot of handmade votives, small pillars, and these little round bubble looking candles. Just ask if you are interested!

Herbs

I still have a decent stockpile of herbs that are for sale.

 

-Anything that does not have the Shipping added next to the price is $3.00 for Shipping. The only items that are not 3.00 for shipping are the Agate tea candle holder, the Runes, and the Scrying Mirrors.

-I can do or make a lot! I also have certain things that many look for that I have that I just can’t think of offhand.

-Oh! Currency is in USD. I Ship from the USA. I can ship internationally/Canada, but, you will have to pay the shipping.

Like I said, I’m in a really, really dumpy situation and need any help I can get financially. Please feel free to message me, I do not bite; I love to help people, even if it’s just a point in the right direction. <3

For pictures, please visit my page and Search “delete later’. That Tag has all of my pictures for this sale except for the scrubs, mirrors, runes, herbs, and candles.

Please message me @theegoldenndragonn or email me darnswelllifehere@gmail.com

Here’s your icon commission thing! I made a post about my commissions and prices and stuff so if you could reblog it that’d be great!! 
Hope you like this!

God this is incredible i am totally in love!! new icon immediately! this is my FAB custom icon!!! as you can see the product IS flawless so PLEASE help my sweet out and get yourself a HQ icon!! mad love xox
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hey i’m meagan!! i’m from long island, NY but am moving to Boston MA shortly, & will be attending BU in the fall! i’m planning on majoring in psychology and love dogs, sushi, and traveling!! if you’re into exploring or are passionate about any of the things i mentioned, you should def check out and follow my blog @meaisgay 🏳️‍🌈🐢❤️😊💕 i’m excited to meet new people off of this page-in the past i’ve made some good friends but am open to seeing what happens!(:

YOU, YES, YOU

Stop what you’re doing, right now.

If you’re near a mirror look into it. If you’re not, use your phone’s camera.

Now repeat after me:

“I’m not made of the things that have happened to me. I’m not the damaging labels people have given me. I am more than enough. I am worthy and deserving of all of the good things in this world.”

Take a deep breath, using just your chest, hold it for five seconds, now let it go. Repeat until this becomes your truth.

anonymous asked:

as an enby? aphobe-flavour regs are literally just the truscum of sexuality/orientation, imo. weirdly specific requirements for identity based on a term for a thing that people try to "cure"? check. incessant mocking of "mogai tumblr"? check. blatant refusal to consider experiences outside of a binary? check. talking abt a group of marginalised ppl as if theyre all oppressors trying to sneak in? check. treating identities as useless because "anybody could just SAY they're this!"? check. etc...

This has been discussed before, yeah and I very much agree with you. I am really glad we made the term for all “REG”, I think it’s really helpful in showing how similar they all really are. I hope eventually all of them will be treated the same way we treat TERFs. 

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Hey guys! Mattie here! I’m a 16-year old Trans Girl and I’ve started my own webcomic! I’ve made a post about it before, but I think i’m gonna be a little more straight up about it this time.

It’s a webcomic about a slain galactic hero reborn as a child travelling with a hired mercenary to finish what their predecessor started. You can read it here! However, the thing is that I am making this webcomic in the hopes that it will attract enough attention so that if people like it, I’ll be able to earn enough money to support myself, and thus be able to escape by really shitty n abusive home.

So yeah! I’d really appreciate if you could not only reblog this post, but spread the word about this comic in general! Hopefully people will like it, and eventually some will donate to my Patreon (anything will help, even just $1) so I’ll be able to get myself out of this situation. (I’m also gonna start doing commissions @mass-production-evangelion! Keep an eye out for that!!)

If you want to support me at my Patreon (monthly small payments in exchange for rewards!) you can do so here!

If you want to do a one-time donation to help me out, you can do so here! (Though Patreon is preferred, I need a living wage to prove I can live on my own in court.)

If you can’t do either, just help me out by reblogging this post and spreading the word as much as you can! It would really help me out a lot!

tl;dr I’m making a webcomic so that hopefully people will like it enough to support it and help me earn a living wage to escape my abusive home. Please reblog or spread the word to help me out, especially if you can’t donate!

Dear Friend,

May 23, 2017

Part I
It’s been fourteen days since I’ve last written to you.
I’m very sorry for that. 
I’ve actually been really busy lately. 
I’m on vacation visiting my dear friend Marie. 
She’s the one that sends me letters in the mail. 
It’s been lovely staying with her. 
She’s made me feel at home: making me dinner, buying me gifts, and letting me do all the things I want to do. 
Lately we’ve been watching a lot of tv shows and movies and reading and writing. 
It’s a good feeling to be doing things you don’t usually do. 
It feels productive to me. 

I won’t tell you where I am, but I will tell you that I’m still in Texas. 
I’m a lot more north than usual so it’s very strange to be in a town that has sixty-seven degree weather at the moment. 
I’m really not used to it at all. 
I just checked the weather back home - it’s eighty-nine degrees and cloudy. 
I bet it’s really humid too. 
I wasn’t expecting it to be so cool here, so I didn’t pack any long sleeve clothing. 
It’s a wonderful feeling though, to be somewhere different and to not be in ninety degree weather for once.  
I like being a little cold.
I’d rather be shivering than sweating my ass off. 

I’ve been here for almost a week now. 
A part of me doesn’t want to go home, because for once I’m really happy.
But the other part of me knows that I can’t be here for long. 
 
I left my problems at home. 
I feel so stress free, not having to worry about them. 
Like the fact that my ex-boyfriend is going to Finland. 
Like the fact that he hasn’t paid our car; I took it away from him and now I have to get it repossessed; It’s going to ruin my credit, but it has to be done; I want to cut all ties with him.  
Like the fact that I don’t have to worry about work and seeing my case manager. 
Like the fact that I don’t have to do so many things for my parents. 
The only problems that traveled with me was my financial ones. 
I’m running out of money and this trip probably made that worse. 

I left the people who don’t care about me at home. 
Like Voldemort and other people that I thought I could call my friend. 
Like my friend Diana - She told my ex-boyfriend about Taylor after he and I went to Applebee’s with Josh and Sabrina one day. 
She was our waitress. 
She honestly had no right to do that and I don’t understand why she had to keep tabs on me for him. 
I found this out because one day, when my ex and I were fighting about the car, he had the audacity to bring up Taylor. 

He texted me,
“Hey. Be careful with your new boy. He’s been around the block. Just because we have animosity between us doesn’t mean I want you to get hurt. Don’t let your guard down. I had class with his twin. And if you think I’m doing this to mess with you, then you obviously don’t know me at all. All I’ve ever done for you is look out for you. Have a nice life.”  

This made me so upset. 
Diana had obviously told him about Taylor because she is the only person that still talks to my ex. 
It’s so sad that little does she not know that he did nothing but talk shit about her when she didn’t say goodbye to him before she left back to California. 
Now that she’s back, I thought she and I could be friends again; not after this stunt. 
My ex can have her and continue being a fake friend. 

I wanted to tell him so many things that he didn’t want to hear. 
I was so upset and hurt and in so much pain. 
Why does he have to keep up with me?
I don’t want him to keep up with me. 
It’s pathetic. 
I don’t give a shit about him anymore.
Why can’t he just not care about me just the same as I don’t.
Instead, he decides to stir the shit pot of emotions that I have locked up inside that want to come out.
I just want him to leave me alone. 
If he wants me to be happy, then he shouldn’t have left when I needed him the most, as a friend. 

I just left… Everything.
Even the people I do love and that love me back. 
Like my parents, Josh, Jenna, Angel, and Aaron.
That’s the only part of me that does want to go home. 
I want to go home to my family and my good friends. 
I miss them very much. 
They are my light. 
And I know I can go to them for anything. 
They keep me strong. 
I don’t know what I would do without them. 

Part II
This city I’m in - it reminds me of home. 
There isn’t much to do and there’s a lot of other cities next to this one.
So, if we decide to take a trip to some other town, it takes about twenty minutes. 

Like I said, there isn’t much to do, but we are making the most out of my time here. 
For example, just the other day, she and I decided to take a drive to a neighboring city to walk around the mall there. 
I bought myself a Dragonball Z statue of Teen Gohan from GameStop. 
It was an early birthday gift to myself - it’s a few weeks away. 
I also bought myself a a face serum from Sephora. 
We were at the mall for over an hour. 

When we were done window shopping, we rode to Best Buy so I could buy a new screen protector for my phone. 
I was lucky enough to find the last one there. 

Then, we went to Staples so Marie could buy some blue ink for her new pen. 
That’s also when I bought my first calligraphy pen. 
When she saw it, she said I had to buy it because I’m a “writer” now.
Am I?
So I bought it. 

Afterwards, we walked to a Barnes and Noble that was nearby. 
That’s when I bought my first journal. 
Marie said I should get it so I could write down all my thoughts. 
So, I did. 

Later, on our way back home, we stopped at a Panera Bread.
I had never been there before and Marie really wanted me to try it. 
I wanted to try something new, so I thought - why not?

She parked the car and turned to me.
“Do you want to take down your book so we can read when we’re done eating?”

“Yeah, sure. That sounds like a good idea,” I said, smiled, and continued. “Hey. I can take my journal too. Maybe I can write about what we’ve been doing today.”

“Oh my gosh. Yes. You should!”

With excitement, I grabbed my newly purchased journal and a book called The Reason by Lacey Sturm and walked into Panera Bread.
I’ve had the book for a good eight months now.
I haven’t bothered finishing it because I get so lazy.
I do hope to finish it soon. 

I walked in with Marie and was a little confused with the set-up.
They had kiosks on the side so people could order their food themselves. 

“Do you want to use these so we can look at the whole menu?” Marie asked and pointed at the high-tech looking kiosks. 

“Yeah. I know I’m probably going to take a long time deciding anyway.”
That comment ended up being very true. 
I didn’t know what I wanted to eat. 
I also didn’t want to try something too risky. 
But I also didn’t want to try something safe. 
I was so indecisive. 
There was so many options. 

After about five minutes of thoroughly navigating the menu on this ten inch screen, I figured out what I wanted to eat. 
I decided on a turkey and ham sandwich with a few vegetables and a cup of chicken noodle soup on the side. 
I also ordered a papaya green tea that turned out to be very delicious. 

Marie and I sat down by the window secluded from other people. 
In fact, we were alone for a good twenty minutes in the section we chose to sit at until some lady and her daughter decided to dine-in a few tables away.
It didn’t take long for our food to come out. 
Within ten minutes, an employee brought out our meals.
The sandwich waiting to be eaten by me looked so delicious and the soup was still steaming hot. 
I took my first bite of my panini - God, I was right. 
Delicious! 
The soup was just as good. 

Marie got a turkey bacon club on a croissant bread with a broccoli and cheese soup. 
I didn’t try her sandwich but I did try her soup. 
It was sadly better than mine. 
I knew I should’ve gotten that one instead when I was being so indecisive at the kiosk. 
Didn’t matter; I enjoyed my meal nevertheless. 

When we finished our meals, Marie started reading a book called A Million Miles in a Thousand Years by Donald Miller and I started writing in my journal. 
I wrote about our day, which I have already mentioned to you earlier. 
Then I started to read the book that has been on chapter six for the past eight months.
I only read one chapter while I was there. 
I would’ve read more, but we had to leave if we wanted to take a walk at the park before sunset. 
So, I closed my book, took my journal with my first entry in it, and left with my best friend back to her apartment. 
I guess I should start calling it home.
For now…

Part III
I will admit that it feels a little strange to be so far away from home. 
I haven’t traveled alone (without family or a boyfriend) in about six years. 
The farthest I’ve driven alone was San Antonio when I wanted to visit my lesbian friend Renee. 

Irregardless of the fact that this city reminds me of home, it definitely doesn’t feel like it - I’m surprised I haven’t had an anxiety attack. 
As I said earlier…
I miss my parents. 
I miss my dog Zoey. 
And I miss my friends - especially Josh. 

I felt really bad that I left the day before his birthday. 
So, to make it up to him, (before I left) I bought him a cute birthday card and wrote him a note. 
I also wrote him a two page letter and sent him some money. 
I left it in my mailbox and thankfully it was delivered to him the next day. 
He was really happy and surprised to get something like that from me. 
He only read the card on his birthday. 
Josh said that he was scared to read the letter because he thought it said something bad, like that I was moving away for good and wasn’t going back. 
Thankfully, I don’t intend on that. 
I do want to go back home, eventually. 

Just yesterday, two days after his birthday, he finally read the letter. 
He thought it was really sweet and it made him smile a lot.
His girlfriend wanted to read it too, but he didn’t let her. 
She just read the card, and when she did she said to him, “Dude, I think Alex is in love with you.”
He laughed and said that we are only friends. 

I am in love with him…
But, I know I can never be with him. 
I’m just grateful to have him in my life as a wonderful friend than not at all. 
I care about him too much and I don’t know what I would do without him.
He’s always been there for me when I needed him. 
I couldn’t ask for anyone better. 
He makes me so happy, and he doesn’t even have to try.

I didn’t think the card was enough.
On my way over here, I stayed in San Antonio for a night because I didn’t want to drive straight here on the same day.
While I was there, I stopped at a few stores at North Star Mall. 
I went to this novelty shop called Think Geek. 
I found a lot of Rick and Morty stuff that I got for his birthday. 
I don’t plan on sending them to him, because I want to see his face when I give them to him. 
I also bought him an animated movie called Princess Mononoke and had it sent to his house. 
He just got it today.
He was so surprised. 

He texted me.
“Oh my god Alex! How many things did you buy me?”

I replied. 
“Why?”

“I got the movie. Thank you Alex. Oh my god.” He was obviously speechless. 

“Aww. Do you like it? Did it make you smile? It got there quick! I just ordered it on Sunday!”

“Yes. Of course! I love this movie.” 

“I got you a lot more things. But I won’t send them to you. I want to see you open them.”

“Oh my god. You’re insane.”

“You love me.”

“I do,” he confirmed.

That made my heart clench. 
He’s so cute. 
I missed him so much that I had to ask him if he could FaceTime me. 
We didn’t talk until late in the night because he was busy playing a raid on Destiny all day. 
So to kill time, I started watching Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part I with Marie.  
In the middle of the movie he finally called me on FaceTime.
I paused the movie, walked to the blow up mattress that was behind me, and answered him. 

The phone took a while to connect us. 
After a moment of looking at a black screen, I saw his face for the first time in a few days. 
I know it seems pathetic of me to say that I missed it because I just saw him last week, but I can’t help but want to always see him. 
He was shirtless and I could see that he got a haircut. 
It looked nice and clean. 

“Hey Josh,” I said with a big smile. 

“Hey Alex,” he replied and mirrored my smile. 
His smile is so crooked and his teeth matched it just the same. 
He doesn’t like his smile, but that’s what I love the most about him.
Then it’s his eyes. 
He looks tired all the time, but somehow I’m attracted to that. 

“Your hair looks good! I like it.” 

“Oh. Thanks. The girl that was cutting my hair messed up the back. She was annoying me”

I couldn’t help but giggle.
“What? Why do you say that?”

“Because. She wouldn’t shut up. She just kept on talking and talking. She wouldn’t shut up!” He repeated. “I literally just wanted to tell her, ‘Bitch. Shut up and just cut my fucking hair.’”

I bursted out laughing!
Josh was on speaker so Marie heard what he said too. 
She was laughing just as hard as me. 
I couldn’t catch my breath. 
Then when I was just about to, I’d turn to Marie to catch her still laughing!
This, of course, made me laugh even more…

“Why are you laughing?” Josh asked.
He laughed and then continued, “If Marie is telling you things about me then you need to tell me. What did she say? Why are you laughing?” He repeated.

I took another moment to catch my breath and gather my thoughts.
“She didn’t say anything. We’re just laughing at what you said! It was so funny!”
My stomach started to hurt from all the shrieking giggles. 
It was the good kind of hurt though. 

“Alright. I guess Alex,” he said as he gave me that compelling stare of his. 

The rest of the conversation was mostly about his day and mine. 
Like what I’ve been doing lately while I’ve been away. 
I told him that I’ve been writing a lot - physical letters. 
I told him about my adventure to the neighboring city.
I told him how I’ve been feeling.  
And how Marie and I have been doing a lot of cute things together. 

He told me his girls weren’t there which was odd because it was a Monday. 
Usually, they are back by Sundays from the mom. 
He also mentioned that he got written up at work because someone decided to show up two hours late to cover his shift. 
The managers knew he wasn’t going in and this girl, the one that took over his shift, knew what time he had to work and decides to show up late.
Then he’s the one that gets written up?
I don’t see how that was fair. 

A few minutes later, the conversation started to die out.
We had nothing left to talk about.
Coincidentally, he got a phone call from his girlfriend. 
“Hey. Sabrina is calling me. I have to go.” Josh said in a rush. 

“Alright Josh. I’m glad we were able to talk tonight.”

“Me too Alex. I love you. I’ll talk to you later.”

“Love you too. Bye-bye.”

I hung up my phone with a smile. 
It wouldn’t go away. 
I almost forgot I was with Marie. 
She was quietly watching videos on Instagram on her phone. 
I got off from the air mattress and walked up to the empty chair by the bar. 
I looked at Marie, gave her a smile, and she gave me one right back. 
She didn’t say anything - she didn’t have to. 

I hovered my hand over the computer to press play as I asked her, “Are you ready?”

“Yas queen,” she said. 

We both laughed.
I pushed play and we continued to watch the magical world of Harry Potter until the night ended…

Part IV
I don’t know when I’ll be back home.
When I leave here, I plan on going to visit my friends in Austin. 
My good friend that would like to be referred to as Fisto Roboto said I could stay at his place for a few days. 
I asked him last week if I could go visit him and stay at his apartment.
He never replied, but the next day he sent me a Snap of him in a cap and gown.
It was graduation day for him.

I sent him a message on Snapchat.
“Oh my god. You look so freaking cute! Congrats! I hope you have a wonderful day.”

He replied.
“Thank you so much! I hope you have a great day too!”

I thought it was really strange that he sent me a photo on Snapchat, but not reply to my text the day before. 
Was he ignoring me?
Did he not want me visiting him?
I didn’t bother asking him again because I didn’t want to be annoying. 

To my surprise, a few days later, I noticed that my text never went through to him while I was at Panera Bread with Marie. 
That’s when I saw that my iMessage didn’t go through and my send button turned green. 

I decided to send him a message on Snapchat again.

“Hey! Is your phone not working? Or do you not have an iPhone anymore?”

“No iPhone,” he responded.

I felt a little relieved.
“Oh. No wonder. I texted you last week! I wanted to ask you something!”
 
“What is it?”

“I’m not sure if I should ask. I don’t want to be annoying.”

“Don’t be afraid to ask me something silly boy. Just say it.”

I got a little nervous as I typed out the words.
“Well. I texted you because I wanted to know what you’re doing the weekend of June 2nd.”

“Hmm. I don’t have any plans. What’s up?”

“I was hoping I could stay over for a few days if you weren’t busy. You can tell me no!”

“Haha. Yeah of course! You know you’re always welcomed here. On June 2nd, I’m free after 5:00pm. Now that I’m done with school I have a lot of free time.”

“Oh my gosh. Okay! That’s awesome! We can go to the arcade and go drink!”

“That sounds like a lot of fun.”

“Yes it does. Let me know if anything changes!”
I was already getting so excited to see him. 
Given our history, I’m expecting something to happen with him, but sadly, he has a girlfriend. 

“Alright. I will!”
The conversation ended there. 

Today, we continued that conversation.
I texted him.
“Fisto Roboto.”

“Alexxxxxxxx.”

“I just wanted to tell you that I hope you have a great day today!”
I like to send cute messages like that when I’m thinking about someone a lot.

“I hope you have a great day too!”

“Thank you!”

“Alex. When are you planning on staying?”
Oh no.
Something must have come up.
Why would he be asking me otherwise?
Ugh. 
I knew it was too good to be true. 

“June 2nd! Why?? I can go a little before or after? My schedule is really flexible.”

“June 3rd and 4th: Campfire and wedding proposal to attend.”
I knew it. 
I knew I wasn’t going to be able to stay.

“Oh! Alright. Should I go a few days before then? Maybe the 31st of May?”

“I’m saying you’re invited too, if you’d like to go. Haha.”

I dropped my jaw.
I was in utter shock. 
I couldn’t believe he was inviting me!
Why isn’t his girlfriend going? I thought. 

“Oh! Okay! That sounds so fun! I’ll go!”

He never replied after that.
I’m honestly really curious now to know if he’s still with his girlfriend or not. 
I’m anticipating so much to happen if he and I decide to go drinking and he somehow accidentally gets drunk.
I also wonder where I will sleep when I stay with him. 
I wonder if he’ll let me sleep on the same bed as him…
I don’t want to sleep on the pull out sofa-bed in his living room.
I like him a lot and think he’s so cute.
I know I won’t let the opportunity go pass by if it decides to be offered to me.
And by “it” I mean his body. 
It’s getting me excited just thinking about it. 
I want to be with him already. 
I guess I’ll have to wait and see what happens when the time comes. 

For now, I will continue to be stress-free.
For now, I will continue to have a good time with my best friend.
For now, I will continue to keep writing about my life. 
All these things are too calming for me to give them up. 
I need to take advantage of this moment, because I know when I get back home, all the problems that I left behind will still be there.
Waiting for me. 
Waiting to tear me apart again.

Love always,
Alex

youngwildandexultant  asked:

is it bad for a chirstian to get a tattoo? i really wanna get one that says saved by grace but idk im not sure if its a sin?

Hello, so I was already pretty sure about my answer for this one but I just wanted to make sure I had a couple of sources to back it up. 

The most common verse that people think of in relation to tattoos is obviously Leviticus 19:28, which says “Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the LORD.” (KJV)

This is from the Old Testament and the Old Testament is made up of 3 different types of laws. Here is a basic list. Basically theres Civil, Ceremonial and Moral. 

Civil: All to do with disputes within the Jewish Government. It talks about things like “if you do this, you must pay this much.” Not relevant today.

Ceremonial: These were to keep the Jewish people separate from the nations and holy unto God.  Many of these laws have no relevance for us today.

Moral: “This remains in effect to direct our moral judgment and to command us to obey God.” X

Long story short, tattoos fall under ceremonial law and thus are no longer relevant / don’t apply to us.


HOWEVER. I do not want to say that we should all get super tatted up and disregard what we put on our bodies. 

1 Corinthians 3:16 says “Don’t you know that you yourselves are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit dwells in your midst?” 

and 2 Corinthians 5:20 says “We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God.”

We are ambassadors of Christ. Everything that we do should reflect Him and give glory to Him. The way we act, the way we talk, the way we look: it should all glorify Jesus. 

Paul says in 1 Corinthians 10:23 “I have the right to do anything,” you say, but not everything is beneficial. “I have the right to do anything” but not everything is constructive.”

I would think about what tattoo you want to get. 

  • Will it bring glory to Jesus?
  • Will it edify Jesus?
  • Will it get people talking about Jesus? 
  • Does it portray something sinful or is it harmless? (A flower, for example)
  • What is the motivation behind the tattoo?

Overall, the tattoo that you want to get sounds like it’s heading in the right direction. But still definitely pray about it, big time. It’s a big decision, you should let Jesus decide. 

Hope this helped.

xx - c

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Welp everyone this is what I did for Towel Day! Pleasant animated pixel draws of the main cast of the series. I haven’t made animated gifs for a LONG time and this was fun to do. (Also I am aware that they’re all moving at different rates from each other, that was intentional.) The designs are based on a cross between the TV show, the movies, general popular headcanons on what these characters should look like, and just how I randomly decided to draw them.

If you want to use these like as one of those pictures on the background of your blog or something, absolutely go right ahead. The only thing I ask is that if someone asks you where they came from, just please don’t say you made them.

Under the cut there’s links to still versions of these as well as links to where I decided to post them individually because I could.

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anonymous asked:

omg jeremy on that horse. he's a total marbolo man, the only thing missing is the cowboy hat

RIGHT!?!?!

I am so glad someone else agrees on the Marlboro thing. It’s a very particular look.

I blame the jeans. We must talk about how well they fit him 

I made another gif where you can see him from behind, you’ll know what i’m talking about tomorrow ;)

My god… Jeremy is so sexy i can’t.

You know who my other Marlboro man is? Jeffrey Dean Morgan, because of this:

~A.Wölf.

anyhow, re: ribbon-induced screaming last night– it’s because of floral arrangements! I find is so hard to have an opinion on ribbon, and it’s one of those things where the social cues I’m picking up from everyone else lead me to believe that I ought to have an opinion and a decided opinion too on ribbon, what’s wrong with me for not having an opinion, oh God, I can’t tell the difference between these things, what the hell am I supposed to do, etc. 

Ended up with chiffon ribbon? Is this good? Is this bad? I don’t care, a decision was made. 

@adelatur– thank you for the advice! It’s for flowers, not cloth, but I will keep that in mind if ever I do sew!

@whoweargoldintheirhair – alas, that only causes more complications. My mother and her sisters have taken this wedding as an excuse to play out all their unresolved issues from childhood. Asking advice from any of them will start an arguement with the rest. /jazz hands/ FAMILY

@pilferingapples– weddings are terrible. D: No wonder GRRM loves to use them as set pieces for massive character deaths.

@feuillyova– thank you! <3 

@mysunfreckle– lmao, thank you! It’s less that I’m getting pushed around on things, than my current mantra of “don’t sweat the small stuff” is being met with every vendor I have panicking about small stuff. I do understand… like, a lot of brides go crazy and will just trash a vendor on every social media platform for not having the RIGHT shade of red Italian silk dupioni ribbon but I just… profoundly do not care. And it makes me anxious that I am expected to care, but can’t. I hate disappointing people’s expectations. 

@dlasta – I should have just done a justice of the peace! Just bought myself the dress I wanted (which is all I really cared about in terms of ~wedding spectacle~) and worn it to the County Circuit Court. I was warned. “Pish and tosh,” thought I. “I’m a reasonably organized, laid-back individual. I can organize a wedding, no problem.” YES PROBLEM. EVERYTHING IS A GODDAMN PROBLEM. ESPECIALLY THINGS THAT DON’T NEED TO BE. LIKE RIBBON.

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like Literally i got these all yesterday and I have no idea how to reply to them because they really mean a lot to me and they really really made me feel awesome about my art, sometimes idk if its worth even trying as an artist but when people say nice things like these it makes me feel like everything i do is worth it. i really am so so grateful to whomever sent these, my heart really is full and i might Cry again because ! these are such kind things to say and they really make me feel awesome. U guys are awesome. thank you so so much this literally made all the difference for me. I Love u Guys