amazing toys

Good things about hospital stays

Child Life Specialists are amazing:
•Brought Wesley toys and a coat when she got here.
•Check in often give us different movies to watch
•One of them is Wesley’s teacher from daycare so that was sad and sweet

I work in this hospital:
•Instead of calling in I just walk down to the office
• I know a lot of these people
• My badge gets me food and gift shop discounts

My dad randomly showed up:
•He drove 3 hours to be here
•Him and my mom got along

Last but definitely not least:
•My boyfriend is the best person in the world
•He drove down to see me and ended up spending his entire trip in the hospital with us
•He brought card games
•And provided food, coffee, and distraction
•He loves us and I love him

Also I said I wanted to lose weight and I have but I was thinking exercise and healthy food vs. not eating because hospital.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.